40 ⭑

when blood longs for blood.

[drb13695]

Beit Hanon, Gaza, Palestine. 1995

بيت حانون، غزة، فلسطين، ١٩٩٥

[insatiableforty]

Noticed so many gray strands of hair.

The last time I dyed my hair was in May. I automatically dye my hair every time I get a cut every 3 months — why didn’t I dye it last time?

I am a woman of many experience and big emotions — lately, I’ve been feeling like a flesh shell to house all these memories. I’ve been experiencing a low sex drive. To know me is to know me and sex are in an eternal tango.

Life isn’t enticing me. Men are definitely not enticing me.

What happened between now and May?

I let my hair grow long. The mullet I had 2 years ago is outgrown as well at the person I was and the people I was seeing in that time. I keep cutting my bangs short even though that doesn’t feel like enough. My red dye from 6 years ago is peaking back; a hair color I’d never want to revisit and hate to feel reminded at the sight of it. I thought I would have grown it out by now.. All while I’ve came across different faces, different bodies — some unforgettable and some I’d rather forget.

I look in the mirror and I see 2-3 inches worth of gray strands shuffled around my hair. While I’m impressed at how fast my hair could grow in 8 months, I’m reminded of all the lives, emotions, spirals I’ve experienced in the past 8 months.

There’s a hidden power in letting your hair grow. I have been introducing myself as Shay instead of Forty. I do my makeup, remove any under my eye, and showcase my dark circles. I paint my teeth black or red. I wear mesh shirts without a faja.

I think I need to stop dying my hair for a while.

[hiraspit]

[omtai]

why is it sooo hard to conclude essays. I said all that because fuck you thats why

[euclyptodis]

Wallet I made for my gf for Xmas , that’s my teeth

I bit into a piece of clay then scanned it and traced it in illustrator, then laser cut thick leather and wet molded lamb skin over it

Yes the stitching is fucked up; my machine was tweaking; imperfect so as not to offend god

[alijahcyrus]

[spidersonline]

Bogalusa, Louisiana

[whgore]

[theresbloodonyouu]

[ereshkiga-deactivated20230715]

[hisworstnightmare]

pretty sure i could romanticise anything, i am deeply delusional.

[riverlarking]

can we appreciate this diva praying for pope francis’ health in the vatican

[vampireorchids]

[hornylimebaby]

pulver - lifelover (2006)

[organs14]

[2001hz]

Jean Paul Gaultier Fall/Winter (1989)

[returnal]

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