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my horny side blog. years in the making. 25 he/they/it

[winter107soldier]

being pushed into the bed by your dom as they whisper "I'm sorry honey, I really need this" and they just fuck into you and use you as a fleshlight >>>>>>>> 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

[darkrxdwax]

Let me sit in your lap as an accessory as you smoke.

Let me be your lap pet to play with and tease absentmindedly; Touches to my neck, fingers tracing over the leather of the collar around it... Touches to my thighs laid across yours. Bite at my neck, leave me in whatever state you wish to.

[insidehiswound]

cannot wait to go out again + hopefully get pushed up + finger fucked against a wall by a guy i barely know. please.

[insidehiswound]

been jerking off like 5 times a day this is ridiculous

[bunnibf]

very normal thinking abt cock twitching and pulsing while their balls tighten n flex from pumping load after load deep inside. very normal thinking abt them groaning while they give me a creampie they can’t resist fucking in deeper. very normal thinking abt feeling sore and stretched when they finally pull out and a string of their cum connects from their fat tip to my poor abused hole cause their cock still doesn’t wanna let go. yup very normal

[insidehiswound]

im just also . really tired of being a virgin. and i know its a social construct but like. i also imagine sex is a skill to be learned as is flirting and so on and never having Practiced it makes me more and more nervous as time passes. what if i meet someone hot and im sooo so bad at it that they point and laugh and tell all their friends..........

[insidehiswound]

need some established couple to take an interest in me and invite me into their relationship. Please.

[bugslibraryy]

Ilya fucking Shane so good he cries. Like, drawn out they’ve been fucking for aches, so long that Shane’s body is shaking before he even cums, fingers curled tight around Ilya’s biceps gazing up at him with big wet blinks of his brown doe eyes, tears falling down his face. And Ilya is cooing

“I know, sweetheart I know it’s so good, it’s so good huh? My cock makes you feel so fucking good”

saying the words into Shane’s mouth between kisses and Shane sobs when he finally cums, digs his nails hard into kiss shoulder, feels the skin tear under the force of his grip and he’s gone gone gone floating far out of his body.

And Ilya cums quickly after the burn of Shane’s nails in his skin and he’s kissing and touching all over shaking soft fucked out Shane, grabbing his pretty face and tits and shoulders and mouth.

Ilya gives Shane his fingers to suck as he comes down, kissing all over his cheeks, licking away his tear tracks, knocking their noses together. When Shane finally comes back to himself after some slow minutes he wraps his heavy arms around Ilya’s shoulders and pulls him down, whining and insistent on him being closer closer as close as he can be and his voice is wrecked and he lets Ilya’s fingers slide out of his mouth and he’s still all hiccupy breaths and wet eyelashes and all he can get out is “thank you, thank you Ilya thank you baby love you” and it’s so earnest, so needy, so devotional, his voice all adoration and it’s so cute and Ilya is all

“you’re so cute, I fuck you so well you just say thank you thank you huh? Cause it’s so good you like it so much, don’t you- taking cock, it’s so sweet” and Shane is too gone to tell him to fuck off and he flushed dark because it’s true - so he just bites at Ilya’s mouth and whines a little and Ilya’s heart is so big it’s going to explode he’s sure of it.

[insidehiswound]

will be going out w intent nad purpose to hopefully maybe get w someone ....... on some level. Pleaseeeee

[birdwatcher-butch]

sucking on someone's fingers and they say fuck you're so good and start pushing deeper into your throat? and gripping your jaw so they can fuck your mouth properly? taking their fingers out and rubbing the tips of them on your lips? smearing your spit and drool everywhere? then pushing down your tongue with their thumb so you open your mouth nice and pretty for them to spit into it and then thrusting two fingers in to fuck it deeper? i certainly think so

[ottawa--centaurs]

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[barebacktothefuture]

[ahotknife]

How much research did Shane do on the mechanics of gay sex before his first time with Ilya. Did he buy a laptop specifically for that and then destroy all the evidence. Pls give your thought ms knife

i love this question but pls forgive me cus i will probably get off topic. MY THOUGHTS: i think shane watches porn. i think shane thinks about sex all the time. i think shane knows exactly what sex is and what he wants. he might not have done it (yet) and might not be very good at it (yet) but there is no way he has not spent time on porn websites. like just picture him alone in his room in the dark and he’s staring at a thumbnail and you know how porn is so the title is like JOCK BOTTOM TAKES MULTIPLE COCKS IN LOCKER ROOM. and his hands are shaking but he clicks on it and he scrubs through the preamble and he shoves his hands down his pants and he watches this big guy in a jock strap get fucked while bent over a bench. and then of course after shane comes he throws his phone or slams his laptop shut and he hates himself for about five minutes and then he has to get up and delete his browser history. like he hates it at first. he hates that next time he goes into the locker room he’s thinking about it. like i think when he’s taking off his suit and putting it back in the suit bag and hanging it up in the closet of his hotel room so that ilya doesn’t see it that he’s thinking about everything he’s seen in porn and he’s thinking about how much it looks like they’re enjoying it. he’s never enjoyed it like that. and he knows part of it is actors hamming it up for the cameras but part of him has always hoped it would feel like that. and as we all know shane didn’t really enjoy sex until he started having it with ilya. so i don’t think it’s impossible to imagine that he thought about what sex would be like if it was good. if he liked it so much that it felt dramatic, if he could make sounds like the men in those videos, if the person fucking him would stick to a script and call him a good boy and say “do you like having my cock inside of you” and all of that corny stuff that makes shane come so hard he feels sick for hours afterwards. he buys himself that dildo and he suction cups it to the shower wall and he gets on his knees and he just kind of stares at it for a while because he knows that he wants to do it and he’s in the shower because that’s what they do in the videos and he hates it because he loves it. i definitely think he practices sucking cock. i think he fucks himself all the time. i think it actually tears him apart how badly he wants it. his problem is that he knows exactly what he wants. it’s not a fear of the unknown that causes his shame. and then ilya cruises him in the shower and propositions him in the locker room and shane’s losing his mind cus like here’s everything he ever fantasized about. here’s a big man who’s gonna bend him over and make him take it and call him a good boy and shane doesn’t know it yet but it’s gonna make him come without even being touched. because he’s been building it up in his mind for years. and he hits the fucking jackpot on his first try. he knew all along that he wanted a big strong top with a big thick dick and that’s what he gets. which is another thing that i think makes ilya so terrifying at first. shane literally can’t resist him. and he doesn’t choke the first time he sucks ilya’s cock because he’s practiced but he’s never received feedback before. and he tells ilya that he fucks himself with a dildo but he’s never had to worry about another person being involved before. and he tells ilya both times that he isn’t scared because he’s not. in the books it’s mentioned pretty often in his POV that he loves penetration it’s his favorite thing he craves it he thinks about it all the time. he knows it’s what he likes best. so in my opinion he knows exactly what gay sex is and what’s going to be expected of him. the physical act of sex is not what scares him. it’s how much he fucking wants it and how much he fucking loves it. and then later it’s the fact that he’s doing it with ilya. i just scrolled back up to reread your message and i realize i got so off topic omg im sorry. yes shane knows what sex is and he’s so excited to have it

[ahotknife]

ms knife I’m going crosseyed at the image of shane kneeling in the shower staring at the dildo he just suctioned to the shower wall. I don’t even know where to go from here I’m just so overwhelmed. Do you think he starts and goes for so long that the water goes cold but he can’t make himself stop because it’s just so so good? Do you think the first time him and Ilya have shower sex he mentions it and Ilya makes Shane tell him about what he’d fantasise about? Do you think Ilya ever makes Shane put on a show while Ilya watches him fully clothed totally dry outside the shower? My ears are ringing I need to lie down.

no i think it’s hard at first sucking dick is actually Not easy and sucking straps/dildos can be challenging cus there’s not a lot of give to them. but i think because it’s shane he likes the struggle and he likes that it feels intrusive and he pushes himself until it makes him cry and then he comes all over the floor. i do think they fuck in the shower a lot i think it’s a super specific kink for them cus that’s where ilya first cruises him and shane absolutely has a kink for getting bullied in locker rooms. so that’s always there. yes i do think one of ilya’s favorite things is making shane admit to his fantasies and perversions out loud. yes i do think shane is often required to perform for ilya in many ways, including in the shower. but for right now i’m just imagining early 20s shane on his knees in front of his dildo training himself out of a gag reflex and hoping that someday someone will be so so so proud of him for taking the whole thing without stopping or gagging

[virginshane]

today’s gospel: ilya saying ”my beautiful shane” while feeding him his cock

[ticklefighthockey]

one of my favorite parts of the books is how much shane freaking loooooooooooves penetration. it is so insanely hot to him. both the sensation AND the idea of it. he wants ilya’s dick in his mouth he wants it in his ass if a genie granted him one wish he’d use it on getting ilya’s dick in both his mouth and his ass at the same time. guy who wants to be pinned down and made to take it. all eight inches baby. somewhere in the HR universe right now he’s doing his cooldown on a bike and shivering all over gut clenching up just thinking about ilya moving deep inside of him. that’s hot

[aslongasitsblack]

OP say more about 24/7 Hollanov free use pls

lowkey everything i could say has already been said in compatible by @jewelledfoxes reeeent freeeee in my mind

i genuinely think it would come very naturally to them, i think they both have high sex drives and fuck a lot regardless and it feels like a natural extension of their d/s dynamic both in like a very serious way (ilya leading shane by the hand to the club bathroom and shoving him through the door saying “i want your mouth” and petting shanes face and hair while he gets the job done so dutifully)

and in a playful fun way, they’re arguing about something small and silly “they should go this way up ilya this way-” and ilya rolls his eyes and says smiling “shut up and bend over” and shane obliges while laughing