void

an online stream of consciousness a stone to visit me when i am dead and gone

[int0-the-void]

Feeling comfortable in my spite again.

[int0-the-void]

I used to romanticise things. Former dreamer.

[int0-the-void]

Someone would have to be pretty fucking special for me to give a shit.

[silkangelkisses]

[int0-the-void]

Having moments where I'm wanting to text people but refraining from doing so because I can't guarantee I'll be able to keep up with something that I start. Don't wanna say "hi I miss you" just to disappear again because my energy is so rare.

[int0-the-void]

furiously protecting my peace.

[insideininsideout]

[aidashakur]

[just4g1rlyth1ngs777]

[int0-the-void]

You know the worst thing is when I was a teenager and I was "shipping" phan and I felt it in my bones that they were secretly together, I never once considered that to be a negative experience for them. I never considered that they were suffering or that the secret relationship was burdensome. It always felt like a "they're not telling us" rather than a "they can't tell us". I thought they were entirely just happy and comfortable behind closed doors. With an adult lens and hindsight, knowing what i know now about Dan's internalised homophobia, like of course it was an awful experience for them. But it was just something for 14 year old me to giggle about. It makes me feel sick now. I'm glad we're all on the other side of it.

[chainshiping]

we oficially can’t watch saw anymore guys. i’m so sorry

[int0-the-void]

Waiting for my Dan And Phil Phounding Member patreon card and got this instead.

Contacting me about the wrong kind of Phannie.

[int0-the-void]

The world could end and I wouldn't feel it.

[int0-the-void]

pimples. single. body hurts. gaining weight and the diet suckkks. another appointment. my therapist cancelled on me again. can't see my bedroom floor. my watch keeps telling me ive had "fair sleep" and im in for a "rough day". work, rot, repeat. never going to move out in this economy. didn't I just wash my hair? wake up to my alarm but stay in bed until im late. since when did playing video games start sounding exhausting? Milk expired. And I'm bleeding. And I'm out of meds. Laundry is a neverending cycle. Just keep it together. Just get through this day. Just get through this hour. Count down each second. Is 7:30pm too early to go to bed? Awake until 2am anyway. Just bought another pair of shoes. I have nowhere to put my shoes. I need to move out. Not in this economy. Ugh, I only worked two shifts this week. Ugh, they're calling me in for more shifts this week. My dog is going to die one day. Wait, did I take my meds? Did I take the bins out? I think I've had too much caffeine. My life is ending. Never mind, I don't care anymore. I wish everyone would leave me alone. I want someone to love. Damn, another pimple?

[kitschyliving]

[int0-the-void]

body is tea? girl body is hotdog water.

[int0-the-void]

having a forever bad day because i keep forgetting to take the good day pills.

[fairycosmos]

you literally have to unironically listen to some shit like party rock anthem so you don’t kill yourself