an outlet

v e n t i n g s i d e b l o g pls ignore / dont follow i am begging

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‘I don’t want to be part of your trauma’ ‘I won’t abandon you’

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the words ‘i won’t abandon you’ burned into my brain

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totally normal to wake up in literal tears and have an immediate panic attack every single day for 8 months straight right???

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when someone sees ur trama and then just adds to it ~

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What do you do when you don’t know how to get over the concept of death

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Yes this is the perfect time for my period to start actually.

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Life without income when every bill you get is between 1-3k is sO MUCH FUN.

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My eyes are abt to roll out of my head with the text I just got from my ex.

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Remembering that time my ex, in his mid 30s, was talking to a girl who was bragging about getting into bars with her fake id bc she wasn’t old enough

Remembering that time I found the receipts of my ex, in his mid 30s, paying for a 19 year olds onlyfans.

Remembering that time I found the receipts of my ex paying for “girlfriend experiences” on onlyfans because actually I was his mom and not his girlfriend.

God. Why.

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when will it be my turn to be loved

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wish I could fold it up and tuck it away but instead I just bleed out

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I mowed the lawn once so far this year which is more than my ex did all of last year

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The thing about my blog is that if u wanna send hate, u gotta do it with your name attached

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isnt it so funny how u can cry over an emoji.

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bonding with strangers at the lake who are also heart broken and there to cry

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Remembering when my ex asked my body count and then got really upset when I didn’t count my SA experiences in with that.

Oof.

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therapist and I bonded over being in the “are we dating the same person” fb groups