about the zine
okay, time to clear things up because i’m very much not enjoying this and i need to set things straight because i do believe something went array.
i admit i fucked by not being more prepared. truly and undoubtably. i thought i had everything down until pieces started to come apart. and then school took a hold of me and i got distracted, a long with the other mods. artists would come in for a check in and i wouldn’t have much to say because other artists had stopped responding. it started to deteriorate and i should have let it go sooner. i should have sent out an email, which would have been better than using discord, though thats where all the artists talked and asked questions (and im not 100% sure if we mandated it in the application but i do remember mentioning it) however if i came off as rude and insincere in my first response, it’s because i dont take anon message rather seriously when the option to be public with what you say is available. someone once said that i drew alien abduction fetish porn on their anonymous blog because they just wanted my attention. that experience has made me kinda weary of them. if you wanted to get the dirty laundry out, all you couldve done was shown your face and i would have. thats a promise.
if i broke your trust because a group of 3-4 kids at the time couldn’t get this off the ground, i’m sorry. i never intended for that to be the outcome. on the topic of vulgar language, speaking up about it immediately wouldve changed my behavior. i am not 100% mature. i will try, but i will also joke. if that upset you, you could have said something. if someone said something that you didn’t like, you could have said it and i really hoped you did because this part defienterly could have been avoided. i know what you wanted me to be. you wanted me to be the moderator adn the organizer who took everything so seriously. i wanted to make an envoriment that was like a bunch of friends working on a project. i only saved the art to put it together to get it ready for printing. thats it.
i really dont know what else to say. ive said it so many times that i dont think i can turn my words into a different presentation. im sorry.
