this is my blog, iridescentshifting! please feel free to call me iri :)
i’m 19 yrs old, bi and nonbinary with a preference for they/them pronouns. my main acct is @mossbuggss, so if you think i’m not interacting I SWEAR I AM 🙏 this blog is made for me to yap about some of the places that i'm traveling to.
i’ve got a lot (and i mean a lot) of drs and i’m willing to talk about them all! curious? send in an ask! my anons are often if not always on :)
#gravemorne - twisted wonderland DR! i’m the interim housewarden of ramshackle/gravemorne. no grim and no (?) yuu—still deciding on that one.
#coming from platform two - my waiting room lumen :) a woodland paradise for me to rest and recharge, complete with animal-crossing style animal assistants!
ideal life coming soon!
#like a bard out of hell - obey me DR! a 24-year-old communications student from lovecraft's miskatonic university signs up for an exchange program in the devildom.
had a dream where i noticed a light in my cr bedroom that wasn’t supposed to be there, got lucid, tried to change the color and RIIIIIIGHT as i was changing that light from blue to green to YELLOW my YELLOW sunrise alarm clock woke me up. either in the dream or irl i don’t know. because i think it was during my nap and i think i had a dream moment where i was like. ugh. damn. didn’t get lucid in a dream. WHILE I WAS IN A DREAM
honorary dream mention is kris deltarune from hit game deltarune and their kris-p salad. quite literally the only thing that was edible in dream 2/3/4 and it just tasted wet/like grass.
(silly thing is i haven’t tried to lucid dream in like. ages. my primary shifting method has been void state lately)
should i write a fanfic for my twst drself? i feel like there's so much about this world and its conventions that i just. can't encapsulate into tumblr text posts.
this will be posted on exclusively AO3 though because i shudder to look back at my wattpad days.
(savanaclaw on planning dates; a short story from my twisted wonderland DR!)
it’s tough going for men looking for love at night raven college, especially where there are very few women on campus. so, when a second year friend from savanaclaw started going on dates with a girl from MDI, everybody was rightfully excited for him.
i think it happened right after leona’s overblot, during that apology barbecue? he asked me, quietly and a little bit embarrassed, how to plan this first date right. he wanted to ask because, well, i’d been a woman before right? so i know how this goes? but things like this aren’t very private, especially in a dorm full of people with sonar ears.
the other men kind of went into the whole spiel, get her flowers and pay for dinner, open doors and be a gentleman (as vague as that statement is). despite how wild they act, most of these men know how to treat a woman well, at least in theory. but my friend’s eyes kept jumping back to me.
kind of tough to explain how women like dates to be planned though? i ended up settling on “well, what does she like? any hobbies she has, anything that you two bonded over?” you’d think i grew a SECOND FUCKING HEAD the way those men stared at me. one of them even had the GALL to ask “well what does that have to do with anything?”
i popped a piece of pineapple into my mouth and chewed, trying to think of how to explain further. the best part of a date for a woman is feeling like it’s a date for her, i try to explain. like, i don’t like going on dinner dates because i have a hard time finishing food and it feels rude to make somebody else pay for a meal i can’t eat. that’s something that you wouldn’t know without knowing me well.
the suitor nodded his head, comprehending my words better than i expected honestly. “she’s real sweet, we met at a basketball game but she doesn’t seem the type to play. she likes animals a lot, has a dog at home with her family…” he continues for a while, lining out the kind of girl she seems to be, at least from first impression. an incredible sense of style, kind to everyone, the type that usually wouldn’t find any interest in an NRC student but hey, if anybody could pull a sweetie like her it would be this friend.
the peanut gallery had gone shockingly quiet, hanging off my words a little bit (but still nonchalant, because. men.). me and my friend spent a long while lining out the details of this date, what he wanted to do and what she might like. "text and tell her you have a rough idea of what to do," i suggest, "then she can choose whether she wants to know or be surprised."
"but the man is supposed to plan the date?" says somebody off to the side, mouth full of some meat that smells delicious but is probably too heavily peppered for my fickle stomach.
i tried to explain that yeah, that can be nice for some people, but some people need the sense of control that helping out with dates can have. some folks just don't like to leave things up to chance.
"when did you become such a romance guru?" leona asked from his place reclining by the pool, one eye open and a smug expression on his face. i'm gonna be real, after the overblot he was just like. the normal spelldrive captain that i worked with.
"most of my exes couldn't really do it, so i had to figure it out myself."
it was like i'd just announced that i was a PIXIE, the way these men howled in disbelief. "you had EXES?" "you DATE?"
"uh, yeah? it's a normal part of school years back home."
ruggie's over there busting it UP laughing and he tries to explain that nobody really thinks of me dating other people from back home, especially with how physically affectionate i am with people i consider just friends.
"are you calling me easy, bucchi?" i taunt, and he tries to backpedal as the rest of the dorm laughs. really, it's kind of a shocker that they think i've never been on a date?
the night is full of chatter, guffaws and chuckles, but then it slowly starts to die down as the students start talking about their own love lives (or, in some cases, the lack thereof).
my friend comes back over to me, showing me his phone with a big ol' grin on his face, and i'm HYPED because i'm kind of just spitballing with this date stuff. she liked the plan, had some things to include and adjust but i was at least a little bit of help. he thanks me profusely (or, at least, as profusely as a member of savanaclaw can. no matter how nice he is, he's still here instead of at The Other School for a reason).
i wave it away, on my second helping of pineapple. the pineapple at this party was GAS. i could make an entire post about this pineapple. or pineapple in general.
i think jack's being totally innocent when he asks me what sort of date i would want to go on, but the rest of the dorm heckles him anyway. nothing you can do about that, i guess, so i take a minute to think.
i hem and haw for a GOOD long while, trying to decide what i'd like and of COURSE i can't help but think of what i'd want to do with leona and i think everybody knows that. i decide on going down to the port town, wandering around and seeing what catches my eye. you'd swear these boys had notebooks at the ready the way they were asking questions though?
"would you want him to walk you home?" to the gate of the college, maybe, but not back to my dorm unless he's actually FROM night raven (and some of those boys DEFINITELY prickled thinking about me going on a date with somebody from The Other School).
"would you kiss him on the first date?" depends how i feel. i don't see kissing as a colossal deal like some people do.
"what are some instant no's for you?" being patronized. there's a difference between chivalry and babyproofing and if you do the latter you'll just piss me off.
we talk about this for a long while, the boys cutting in with some of their insights about dates they'd been on, things that had been a success and things that had been awkward with their partners. one of them, a third-year with a fourth-year boyfriend from scarabia, puts in his two cents of planning for somebody who feels the need to reciprocate.
honestly savanaclaw's just like. a super muscular slumber party? they like fistfight and throw each other into the pool but they do really like to talk about like romance and movies they've watched. they're a lot more respectful than people here are so i never have to worry about them being creepers.
but yeah the night winds down and i'm getting tired (because DAMN that week was EXHAUSTING) and when i stand and start gathering my stuff all of the boys are like "noooo but then when you leave we all have to go to beddddd :(" like hey diva! you don't have a bedtime! you are all grown ass adults!
and one of them suggests walking me back to my dorm because they DO live at night raven and then they all start arguing about who's going to be taking me back. because obviously they all can't go. obviously. so they start figuring out some sort of contest where one person will get to walk me home when LEONA stands up and is like "all of you clean this shit up and go to bed. i'll take them so you idiots don't get yourselves hurt trying to decide." they tried to rope him into it but he did that like mom eyebrow raise and they all shut up like misbehaving kids...
so leona walked me homeeeeughhhhh he's so perfect and lovely we talked the entire way back about everything and nothing and,,, i could talk about him for HOURS do NAWT let me bring up leona kingscholar.
this may not be the most cohesive thing posted on this blog but i miss writing about this dr... everybody is so AUGHHHH and i'm so EUUUUGH and trust. i am a mary sue. everybody wants me and everybody thinks i'm cool and *yap yap yap*.
but yeah! considering making more posts like this just detailing some of the stories i've picked up from twisted wonderland, tell me what you think?
credits for the divider go to @strangergraphics! credits for all photos to where they are due :)
making an anime series related to my waiting room lumen :)
in some realities across the multiverse, there is a series called “BOUNCE!!” it’s an animated series focused on the lives of anthropomorphic animals and their life on a world called lumen. the setting is bioluminescent and beautiful, and many people have described a longing to be there, similar to post-avatar depressive syndrome.
there’s a single consistent human character in BOUNCE and they’re only seen every third or so episode. despite their varying appearance (which can be hard to see due to circumstantial things like harsh lighting or body position) the assistants all call them by the same title of “rover.”
the plot of B!! is kind of varied, with the episodes including the rover the most poignant. some are preparing for festivals, some are trouble the assistants get into, some are issues with the reality, things like that. but eventually, inevitably, the series will roll back to the rover.
the first episode follows the rover’s arrival and while you can’t see their face throughout it, you can hear their thoughts to a degree. the only time you see their full face (in the entire series!) is at the end of E1. most other shots are body, eyes, mouth, back, hands, etc.
more intriguing than the setting or characters, though, is the circumstances. in any reality BOUNCE is created in, it’s one of the most secretive releases to exist. one episode is released on the first friday of each month. there is no manga release to follow along with. they’re 30 minute animated episodes. the voice actors are credited (and some are even incredibly popular in their given reality!) but don’t talk about their work on BOUNCE. nobody even knows who the animator IS.
even despite all of this mystery, that’s part of the appeal. such a beautiful show HAS to have came from somewhere.
in many realities, there’s one individual who remembers each episode before it happens, or the episode even follows their journey to lumen from days prior. every twice in a while you'll have somebody that can look through the cracks, or that has seen this place in their dreams. rovers are especially drawn to those people.
i thought of a slice-of-life anime a long time ago detailing the lives of my assistants, then thought further about how that would work, then bounce just sort of popped up! there will definitely be like scripts of how an episode would go or frames of an episode... but like. that's future me's problem.
iri loves you!
(ps. this has been rattling around in the drafts for months. i've only been inspired by some very creative fantasy dr shifters on here and honestly their work is so baller. if anybody's curious about them TRUST i can put you on some serious game)
or... notes on a tik tok i saw earlier today that made me giggle. something of a shifting diary? shifting note? mostly we're just gonna be looking at my meditation plan for later.
i saw this super fun video from @/laurenr2 or Lessons with Lauren on tiktok today (at least i'm thinking it's this vid, she's got a lot of videos that i like) and i LOVED what she had to say so, like a cat putting a dead lizard on your doorstep, i had to bring it to tumblr :)) GO WATCH HER VID THO, she explains it in a lot more detail than i do.
a lot of this video is her personal experience, based on her own manifestation journey, but once she got to the point of talking about joe dispenza, THAT'S when something started moving for me. started clickin'. started doin' the tango in my headspace for the past two hours.
joe dispenza's version of feeling it real involves FEELING IT FIRST. before it's all about your manifestation, before you're freaking out trying to figure out "hm. what do i want." HIS method is to find the feeling first. lauren uses her experience at her first concert as an example, and it got me thinking.
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wait couldn't i do that too???
abso-spankin'-lutely i can.
so here's kind of how i'm planning on doing this tonight (yes, it's not DONE, what the ever i'm in the process) relating to my waiting room/lumen!
˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ | step one : picking a memory
now, a huge part of lumen is the connection it has with itself. all the spirits, all the assistants, all the plants and the rover (that's me!) are on the same wavelength. part of me is reminded of avatar's pandora; one mind with millions of offshoots. deciding when i last felt connected to the earth, the world, the people around me was probably the hardest part of this planning bit.
but, hearing about lauren's experience of her first concert, i got an idea. the last concert i went to, and one of the few concerts i've enjoyed, was a hozier concert in august.
ever been to a really good concert? feeling the beat in your skull, your bones, shaking you to your core until the final note where you feel scooped out by the emotional experience. another part of all that, for me, was this... ugh idk how to explain it. it felt like everybody in the venue was on the same wavelength, connected by the beat and the chords.
that's what i want for lumen.
so, now i've got my memory (and videos to bring me back to the feeling). what now?
˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ | step 2 : getting back in that emotion
now, how do you get back in the feeling? that's up to you. do you need to listen to the same music, try to think back? can you just spawn the feeling in on a whim? (if so, lucky duck, share a little with the rest of us)
for me, i'm intending to watch a couple of the videos, then just... sit with it. remember being there, feeling like i was in a hive mind with all the other attendees and the band. stoke the feeling as much as i can.
now this may be either the hardest part or the easiest part. this is NOT where you start remembering your destined reality. think of THIS reality first. your feelings HERE, your thoughts HERE.
after you've cemented the feeling, then you can move on to the actual part we want to look at.
˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ | step 3 : connect it to home
now that you're set, think deeper. bring your destined reality into this at this point. where would you be feeling this when you get there?
for lumen, i've got a million different moments i could bring to the forefront. during festivals, when everybody's eating food and playing games and laughing together. waking up and feeling the magic around me. casting spells in different seasons; verdancy, when everything is just waking up and magic comes easily. comity, where magic is solid and it's a blessing and a curse.
you've got your own thing, do your own thing. i've not put this into practice yet. we'll see how this goes.
N E WAYS. i'm gonna do this after my college classes and before work wish me best of luck :P
i'm gonna make some super simple subliminals while i figure out how to do what i want to do + what kinds of formulas i'm going to use. here's some ideas i've had:
control the flow of time. speed up or slow down time with a set of words or a thought.
tychomancy. influence the luck of yourself and others (in non-harmful ways)
any affirmations you say repeat in your sleep like mantras. you don't even have to consciously loop them, whatever you set up will loop.
mind and body reset. something more like a hygiene/mental diet subliminal where it brings you to your cleanest and most ideal self. probably gonna have a tenet of "after you shower you feel totally restored and refreshed" bc some people be STINKIN
vivid dreams, like so vivid you can remember them clearly for days even if you don't write them down.
i don't want to do shifting ones yet because i want to nail down exactly what i'm doing :p
or, my preferred method to get into the void state :))
the first time i ever got into the void state was three months ago. it was a wednesday and i was about to go to work (at a job that was both dangerous and unfulfilling), and i thought "there has to be a way to avoid it, at least for a while."
the first time i ever got into the void state was that day, in and out of consciousness but still awake. laying on my bed, breathing deep, soothing myself. i felt better than i had in months. right before my alarm went off, i remember thinking "i'll always have a way to get back here."
... and then i lost it for three months. i only figured out my personal cheat code over the past week. so i'm writing it down so maybe you can gain some understanding and this can help you along :))
my first step ; deep meditation
get into a deep meditative state. i sprawl out and lay on my back because i don't sleep well that way, and i generally do it around noon-3pm, just because my body gets naturally tired but not SLEEPY then. probably would also work a few hours before you naturally go to bed if you prefer sleep methods.
your method for getting there doesn't particularly matter. i've thought about staying awake and 'letting my body rest', i've counted (visually rather than audio, which isn't natural to how i usually think), i've done that one sleep method where you hold your arm and when it falls your body is asleep? no need to get too particular.
for the first time entering, i didn't actively manifest anything or shift anywhere. the first time was about the experience, feeling that not-quite-sleep type of peace. it would feel like thirty minutes would have passed and i'd check the time and it would have only been five.
you can wake up! you can move around! that won't change anything if you don't think it does, because it certainly didn't for me. every time i settled i'd slip right back to the void.
my second step ; set your trigger
now, learn from my mistakes here. know exactly what your trigger is, think about it a little before you go under, because when i said "i can return here any time i want"? i subconsciously assumed that i needed something to do it for me. a code word, a ritual, something. i couldn't find out what it was until recently.
side note: you don't have to have everything lined out exactly! even if you don't set the trigger there's always a way back to the void. THE VOID IS JUST DEEP MEDITATION ITSELF. may be irksome if you haven't meditated before, but not overtly complicated.
"shutters down" came to me after i figured out the next step, actually, so i did this backwards. the only thing that matters is that you form the assumption that it could work.
i came up after this. you don't necessarily have to if you don't want to, but i'd recommend feeling the void without any pressure first.
my third step ; the eye movement
now, the void, to me, has a different feeling than waking reality. my attention is more eye focused, if i'm focusing at all, and my extremities are numb. i can't feel my body and heartbeat unless i focus on them. focusing on them won't do something like resetting a timer. you're still in the void even if you feel the void differently than i do.
so, when i think "shutters down," my eyes move from whatever resting position they're in to down, vaguely towards my chin. i get spots of light or darkness in my vision immediately after i do this, then the dark behind my eyes gets darker. sometimes i keep my attention down, sometimes i let it do its own thing, but usually this darkness stays. that's my cue that i'm back in the void state.
a few things that i 'added' to shutters down since i started doing this:
one train of thought becomes my primary train of thought and everything else has no effect on the void.
i'm still in shutters down even if i move, open my eyes or even get up fully. the only thing that ends shutters down is its counter command "shutters up" or waking up.
quick reminder ; meditation is individual!
this may work for me, but it may not work THE SAME for you. it'll still work if you think it'll work, but my steps may not be the same as yours. do some playing around with it! adjust, mold, have fun with it.
some shifters/loass folks don't play around with their journey enough and it shows but that's a story for another time
but seriously, if you try this out lmk! i'd love to hear your experience :))
" things i scripted that are "unrealistic" but shockingly helpful " : waiting room edition
if i need company and i'm ignoring it (because i'm a stubborn ass) the waiting room spawns the company i need. i personally added cues like appearance of picnic tables in public areas, mentioning of company by assistants, etc.
my pocket watch turns into a holographic phone-like device with a virtual assistant named LILA inside. it has a quest book, reminders of holidays and a health tracker for all of my desired realities :)
a point system for exploration. the more you explore, the more points you get. these points can be exchanged for charms, books, or new structures.
a changing room to change anything about the body's appearance. these can be saved to specific drs or used in the waiting room, but sometimes it's just fun :)
before the train touches down from its flight, a mana barrier is created around the tracks, moving any animals off the tracks and preventing anything from getting crushed.
anybody i want to join me here comes off the same train i do, and they'll remember it as a dream. no matter how good of a lucid dreamer they are, though, they can't change anything about lumen.
a magical dumbwaiter in the hangout room that brings any food i'm craving up to me (and any of my guests). second only to the cabinets that summon groceries so i don't have to go shopping unless i want to.
i can breathe underwater and when i get overwhelmed, i can dive into the river and cry down there. the assistants know exactly when i can be interrupted during this time and usually bring me down hot chocolate (which also doesn't disperse into the water, luckily)
a grotto to meet with my other half/soulmate. they take different forms in every reality (and may be spread out across different people) but they are the only person who can come to lumen uninvited. i'll be able to go to their waiting room someday too :))
oh fuck OFF you guys know how i talked about ganjifa?? on the spelldrive team, heartslabyul, gets his ass beat by deuce during the egg incident?? HES REAL. HES ANIMATED.
SEE HIM???? WTF????
bauer isn’t with him which is both shocking and not at this point of the story. if i do end up seeing bauer i’ll let you guys know tho!
