#shift blog

[thevampireaper]

I’ve never wanted to shift to a fanfic before until now

That’s going to be so fucking awesome

[bunnisoule]

lsu reality

he’d been in my life for so long and i never noticed, sharing multiple mutual friends, going to the same places even as little kids, living just 15-30 minutes away from eachother almost our whole lives. we never knew, and never met until the time was right.

meeting in high school was the best thing that could’ve happened to haiden and i. both pretty fresh out of bad relationships, believing we would never really deserve to be treated so greatly.

he deserved better than getting cheated on in every relationship/talking stage. i deserved a guy who wouldn’t take advantage of me like the last one.

we gave eachother that. it was so easy to communicate, flirt, make small moves. from the second i dm’ed him “i saw you in the hallways, i just wanted to say i like your hair” at the end of freshman year. from the second he told me he liked me but hated “talking stages” because they never end well and its a waste of time.

the 2+ months before he asked me to be his girlfriend because he wanted to do it “the proper way” with gifts, a sign, and an actual connection. the many weeks we couldn’t call or text because one of us was on vacation. the many parties where he took care of me, drunk or high, whiny and begging for just one kiss, but denying me, because he said “no more” but i snuck another drink/hit.

the debate for college two years later was difficult. are we going to go? if we get accepted to different ones do we do long distance? do we stay in our home state?

i knew i wanted to do culinary school since middle school. he wanted to play soccer/futbol his whole life. we both wanted to stay with our friends and stay together. so what would we do?

we stay together.

[rikisrealgirlfriend]

shifting bc i genuinely cant handle enhypen as six 💔💔

[julietteefferrars]

so uh i have to shoot the “lift your hips for me love” scene as part of shatter me season 3 (since it’s based off of the 3rd book in the series) and michael is kinda unhappy abt it 😶 he knows this is work and it doesn’t mean anything but he’s kinda emotional and just said he’s going to skip that episode all together ahaha…

for the record the “seggs” is implied i scripted that i don’t have to shoot any sexual or nude scenes in actuality, idm kissing but that’s kinda my limit, and the actor playing aaron warner is literally my bestie and he’s bi w a male lean (even has a whole man himself) so there’s no way in HELL he’d ever develop any feelings for me. we literally laugh so hard after every romantic or intimate scenes we have to shoot for the sake of our characters bc we’ll genuinely never see each other as anything more than friends. michael knows ALL of this but he’s still hella upset

idk what to do guys 😀😀 i genuinely thought he’d get it because he’s been in the entertainment industry the most, and longer than me, but he said it makes him nauseous

ig i get it bc if he had to shoot a scene like that w someone else it’d sting for me too but like

what the actual fuck do i do

pls help

[thevampireaper]

I wish I didn’t struggle so much with the playing out in reality

Like when I’m manifesting something

Example: I don’t want my brother and dad to move far away

I could choose to manifest that they are staying here but I still have to let it all play out

It could still play out that they end up leaving anyways despite me manifesting that they are staying

I have a hard time dealing with that especially because I so badly don’t want them to leave

I don’t want to see them leave or tell me goodbye I don’t want that to play out

Idk if that’s a good example it’s the only one I can think of because it’s so heavy on my mind

I also struggle with wanting to make my cr a better cr

I have no want to do that I just want to shift to my dr and never come back

but I still have to deal with my shit reality playing out which is why I’m making this post to begin with

I hate it. I fucking hate it. And I hate it here.

Maybe I just don’t believe I could manifest anything especially a better cr but you don’t need belief idk I’m struggling with that too honestly ironic haha (I am not doing ok right now)

[rorborealis]

Don’t let ANYBODY let you think you cannot trust your intuition and manifestation skills. I have been on an INSANE run. Literally predicted/manifested everything happening in my life rn, back. to. back.

[julietteefferrars]

pov lara raj to me in my fame dr oop….

(if anyone wants the lore…. lmk…)

[thevampireaper]

I love my new reality with my real (chosen) family and friends

I love them I love them I love themmmm with all my heart