*Cutely makes you relive your worse memories*
(is that a plural s I see? Anon you are letting me have the most fun ever- thank you so much >:3
now if the writing is crappy- sorry about that, this is for fun though. I ain’t no professional writer)
*Iris hissed, clutching their head, their eyes got foggy before they collapsed to the ground. Going into a dream like state.* ( general warning, this could be kinda sensitive? No romance or stuff like that, just kinda bloody? Not really but if you’re sensitive to that kind of stuff, please read at your own risk, and remember, I probably haven’t tagged this correctly, so just generally read at your own risk)
do we always have to start at the start? It’s never fun… but at last here we are… One of the main reasons I got my mutation was the hatred for my first sun I orbited…
I don’t remember their name, don’t plan on trying to remember their name. I do remember is that they were mean as fuck, a giant blue sun with the personality of pure hatred for planets.
I won’t let this part of my past ever get too detailed… it was a mess… a gore bloody mess.
here’s some of the main details.
my sun, my first parent hated me. I was the mistake, really we all were to them, but I had the most mistakes. A little fun fact, a mutation cannot happen if ‘host’ didn’t have life forms in the past, there are some exceptions, of course.
You see, I was born with a mistake I can not change, a mistake I cannot get ride of, even when I change forms. It has a weird take onto it, but every form I have will have some sort of ‘mistake’ with it, aka a disformity. Rather me being blind in one form, missing a limb, randomly passing out, and so on, now in the past I could control it, but with my mutation I just can’t. An imperfection about me, one more reason why I’m a monster! where the fuck is my list of reasons why am I monster- And the sun hated that, like would physically hurt me to get ride of that one part of me.
here’s my top ten worst memories come in…
a surgery if you will. Never fucking mind it wasn’t a surgery.
It was an operation to get rid of the mistake I had, so without any knowledge of where it could even be, when they began, or that they were even doing this. They knocked my out and sliced open my back to start looking through my now pretty much dead body to see if there was a reason inside of me.
of course they found absolutely nothing, so they stitched up my back and ‘healed’ me before I was thrown back into my orbit…
the worst thing is my siblings had to watch… I couldn’t wash away their tears and trauma, all I could do was hold them gently in my arms as the pain made me loose sense of everything.
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hah… the next memory… yay?…
here we go, the day we faught against my first sun, to get rid of them. They were a monster they deserved it…
Me and my siblings planned it for a few earth centuries before we attacked. my oldest sibling, Centauria, was leading the attack…
oh gosh I… I don’t want to do this… stop it, stop, stop, STOP.
well…
easy way to do this…
one of my siblings died, we got help from an elder helper hahah new joke… never mind this shit… before I got casted out of the solar system, all my other siblings fled our sun and formed a ragtag team. Blah blah blah, kill me already please
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OH MY FATE AND HEART TO LIFE, not another one
do not tell me this is when I had to fight myself up the hierarchy-
oh shit we’re past that? OH MY STARS AND MOONS NOT THIS-
You weren’t in control you weren’t in control you weren’t in control you weren’t in control… deep breaths… deep breaths…
the blood was on my hands… I killed so many innocent beings, I… monster
“Iris? You here?…”
oh it was firefly… I’m tired… but-
“Oh magpie don’t listen to the voices in your head, they’re very mean also very real but we do not talk about that-” Their hands covered my own before they pulled me into a hug… it was nice…
“Gemini… it’s all my fault” … my voice sounds weird… but it’s nice to know it’s me
“Magpie! Do not listen to the voices!” It’s wasn’t the voices… they’re quite for some reason… “magpie that was not you, it… let’s talk about this later okay?…”
“… okay…” I only mumbled before I had fallen asleep.
(hahaha I love adding nicknames, guess which is which >:3)
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huh… I didn’t remember that part…
oh well let’s not focus on that right? Let’s focus on this…
NOPE I DO NOT ALLOW IT NUH UH STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP
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sweet 0kay I can deal with this memory, wait this isn’t even on my top ten… whatever I’m not really in control am I? Hahahaha why won’t someone kill me already.
“Sooo… hahaa…” I looked back. Wow! Would you look at that! The ugly beast was still following us.
“Iris, worst shit ever, if I have to fight that monster again, I will send Fate a complaint” Gemini grumbled, flailing her arms around. I struggled to keep us in motion. Flapping my wings in a steady movement while Gemini was being a bitch isn’t an easy way to fly. And she was heavy, carrying a heavy bitch isn’t easy.
“would you actually fucking stop? Your slowing us down, that beast will catch up, or set us ablaze” I grumbled, wincing as Gemini punched me in the arm. “Motherfucker what’s wrong with you???”
“oh I’m sorry, but”
I cut her off, whatever she was gonna say was mean. “Stop talking with your hands, it’s distracting me” a roar sounded behind us
“HOW? Bitch how am I distracting you? You know what-” she never got to finish speak, which was probably a good thing.
A huge white ball of flaming rock was thrown at us, and landed directly on top of me.
I of course had the mandatory reaction of screaming in pain as we started falling, flipping around as we went down.
“shit- iris?” Gemini could only scream before we crash landed into a wall of rocks, tearing my wings apart while knock me unconscious. Gemini of course had her arm broken in thirds and for a moment or two couldn’t see.
Is a bird really free without their wings?
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dang…
hey did I ever mention how all of this is out of chronological order? Yeah…
“Iris! Gemini! You must report to the middle at once, The elders finally decided what to do.”
Argros, in all of their glory, looked nervous as he appeared to us. Which is weird because that man never seemed to be nervous or really scared at all.
I stood up from our card game as Gemini rushed over to Argros to mother hen him. May I be honest it feels like that’s the only thing she does. don’t tell her that though, she would send me to the snipper snapper.
“Oh Argros? What’s wrong?” Of course I was left to clean up the card game. Better than having to deal with Gemini’s mother henning. I feel bad for Argros.
“No Gemini- Stop, No leave me alone” Argros futile attempts to stop Gemini did absolutely nothing.
“Gemini” I sighed, putting the cards in my bag before I put my hand on her shoulder. “Argos is fine”
“Yes! I’m fine you should listen to Iris more often” he shoved Gemini off of him.
Gemini left out a offend scoff as I grabbed her hand and led her away from our spot, waving goodbye.
with that we walked to the Middle, having in between conversations.
“Next mission we have I’m going to murder you” Gemini snickered, I only rolled my eyes and nudged her with my elbow. Gemini never meant it.
“Next mission we have I’m going to leave you to fend off the serpent alone. Maybe help them kill you.” I chuckled, she pushed me with a laugh and I stumbled a little. I didn’t mean it, she knew.
“I think you would be a cat person” Gemini would say randomly. I only huffed, I knew she meant it with distain.
“Cats are awesome! Why do you hate cats!”
“I do not! I just think dogs are better, Ugh! Iris you are insufferable”
we would argue. Gemini was a dog being and I was a cat being. If I found a cat necklace for my fake birthday I would only beam in happiness and be nice for a whole day. And if Gemini found a matching dog necklace for her fake birthday, she would be more careful and happy.
we never have been separated since found each other, we never would be. We were best friends
Iris and Gemini, Firefly and Magpie, Bird and Bug, Dog and Cat.
…
..
.
When we were at the middle, a desolate place, with no stars shining, a pitch black place. No light, nothing everything too dark. The only light was Gemini, who radiated purple light. That’s when Fate meant with us, it was truly a surprise when Death, Life, and Magic appeared as well. Fate was always hanged out with us mortals, the three others though?… never really were… they fully lit up the place.
“We have thought about your… request…” Fate spoke suddenly with their soft but tinted harsh voice. That was a surprise… them all together thought about our request?… this might not be good…
“we never had two planets sharing the same top hierarchy in our realm… and…” apparently Death didn’t like how slow Fate was going with this, so they butted in.
“We decided to merge your cores… souls? Together.” They spoke harsh and fast, straight to the point.
My core dropped… this wasn’t good, I wearily grabbed Gemini’s arm for comfort. I knew she felt the same.
“Please do not be alarmed! You two will share the same body but! Still be separate beings!… it’ll be easier to understand when you two merge…” Life waved their arms around. thanks Life…
“I agree with Life, it’ll be easier to understand when it happens!” Fate nodded.
“do you two agree though?” This was the first time I ever heard Magic speak, their voice as silky smooth, having that underlying manipulation of comfort washing over you, which I didn’t let happen.
Gemini and I shared a glance, nodding. This is what we wanted, just… not in this way. But that didn’t matter.
“Yes… we agree…” Gemini spoke hesitantly.
The elders nodded turning to each other and started whispering.
“what are you think they’re whispering about?…” I mumbled to Gemini, tensing up. I will admit, I was scared, why were they whispering? I just want them to get it done and other with.
Gemini shrugged, giving me a nervous glance, “probably on how they are merging us together… that sounds really weird…” I nodded. I mean it does sound really weird. Then again everything I do is weird.
“ready?” We nodded as Death spoke, the Elders fully turning towards us.
With that, they spoke some cryptic magic and holy shit
it hurt, like something I never felt before. I don’t… I don’t like this.
it was like being melted alive, electric shock with it- no time to explain everything, it just hurts. Was that me screaming? Was it Gemini? Are they okay? What am I thinking? Of course they aren’t?
desperately I reached out for Gemini, where are they? Wasn’t I clinging to their arm a few moments ago? What’s happening why can’t I see anything? Too bright too bright, hurts like a bitch.
and suddenly it stopped, so did the screaming. I collapsed to the ground, breathing roughly. The Elders disappeared… the pain was worse then when I was declawed…
The pain was slowly fading away, the electric shock was still there, though faint, it kept me awake, jolting.
wait… where’s Gemini?
“Firefly?” My voice sounded hoarse, was… was I crying? Weird I don’t feel the tears.
“magpie? I’m here… are you okay?…” I looked up, there was Gemini! Though… they looked like a ghost, she was there, just faint and see through, floating as well.
…
only later would we find out that only I can see Gemini in that phase, and we could switch place of who could take control of the body (also changing the appearance).
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A blink of an eye anything can change
who ever said that knew what was up.
“Iris, Report to the second blue!” A young one screamed at me. They were a small moon with a brown coloring. Shaking with wide eyes as they reached me with fast speed, four shaking hands grabbed mine as they started to pull me in the direction.
“Wha- what’s wrong?” We’re in the middle of a war, at this point what ever this kid could be saying would be the death of millions. I quickly grabbed the moon up and started racing toward the grounds, of course with caution.
“Well- There- There is a training ground there…” oh shit.. I forgot that. No no no no no no… Those were gonna be my students soon.
shit
“And- And…” The kid sobbed, shaking in my arms. “The… other forces… Started attacking… and- and..” I stopped the kid there. I put them down.
“hey, hey, breath in and out buddy” they did, “I need you to be safe, okay? You head to purple wing and tell the council there. Look for my friend Gemini, she’ll be able to help you. Okay?”
They sniffled but nodded, racing away as I turned back to the direction second blue was.
…
Here I’ll save you the details…
it was a blood bath, two survivors out of 2 million that could have survived. I was the first to arrive at the scene. I swore to murder whoever did this, and I did, no hard feelings.
Gemini did eventually adopt the child though. A bright side to everything…
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… why did it have to start so early???? Golly gee-
Oh it’s this memory- fucking hate this :(
“You know, I hate getting called to the Middle, it’s so annoying!” Gemini rambled on and on. Honestly I couldn’t blame her, I would have to agree.
the Middle was a desolate place, nothing but blackness. A void waiting to swallow you whole, creepy, but a perfect place for magic. Everything on or in the middle was heighten to an extreme, that’s why the gods meet there, their powers heighten.
personally, it only heightens my pain, at-last that doesn’t matter. weird thing, in the middle you can see the cracks…
“Hey, iris snap out of it, dig yourself out of your thoughts buddy” Gemini snapped her fingers in my face. Apparently I had stopped, we can’t go no where if I’m not moving
I shook my head, “Sorry Gemini, what do you think Fate called us here for?” Gemini shrugged, but continued talking, one of her favorite activities. “Ohhh probably for some stupid mission” she rambled, rolling her eyes.
I tuned her out, sorry Gemini.
I have a bad feeling about this- everything! Nothing… nothing feels right, my feelings have been turned up to a ten. Maybe it’s my side affect?… no my side affect is blindness in one eye…
my thoughts are jambled, a nervous reaction I can’t stay on a topic for to long.
how would it feel to die and stay dead? I wouldn’t know, I can’t really die and stay dead. The elders made Gemini and I stay alive until the end of… everything I guess… not worth living if you can’t see the importance… hah?…
“Welcome” Fates booming voice pulled me out of my thoughts, stopping me dead in my tracks. There was Fate, in all of their glory, and… another being? I can feel the presence of a god, though I have never seen them before.
Gemini and I bowed, no words needed, straight to the point and we’re off.
“please welcome… my sibling Soul, loss and forgotten, suddenly to return thanks to one planet” Now nothing shocks me much anymore, but that sure did. Another Elder? We thought only four were left, others died, how? Who’s this one planet? Don’t question stuff Iris…
Soul bowed, looks like they have no eyes… but it seems like they see everything, weird enough but Death doesn’t have a mouth and talks soooo. Besides they could be like Gemini, covering their eyes with a cloth.
“hell-hello, I’m Soul…” their voice caught me off. Too scratchy, terrible sounding, they sound dead. Breathing in too much.
“Hi… I’m Iris, and my partner is Gemini” I spoke nervously. I’d be surprised they could even see Gemini, then again all Elders could. Is Soul even considered an Elder?
“I… I see your partner, they… they have nice eyes…” what- how- this is Soul, stop questioning stuff Iris.
Gemini seemed caught off guard, flinching back, their stance widening. A moment of silence went around before she spoke.
“Hi?…” Gemini mumbled sheepishly, waving a tad bit.
Soul nodded before turning to Fate, who seemed to be watching this interaction with amusement.
“Of course, now you are wondering why I brought you two here, right?” Fate waved her arm lazily at us. “Well we have a special mission for you both, you’ll have to split up” wait what- how? “And go into different realms” Huh???
“now you are wondering my abilities to be smart” Fate gave a pointed glare at Gemini, who shrieked back as I let out a snort. “But we’re gonna have to split your souls, of course when you meet back up, you’ll be force together again so don’t worry”
Fate- how can you tell us not to worry when, you telling us, in the first millionth eon, we’re being split apart?…
“Iris quit your worries” They snarled at me. I nodded, tensing up with a gulp.
And-
it started, no warning, nope nothing.
just bang! And now I’m in pain again, my forms were glitching out, but hey! I can see again- never mind
oh wait I can see again! Let out a loud hiss, my hands going to my head as I clutched it hard. No claws to dig to dig in, they declawed me, hurt like a bitch but this arguably hurts way worse.
“Iris!” I heard Gemini hiss beside me, they clutch my arm as I looked up. They were here, but being sucked into a bright light, and when I say bright, I mean, oh shit am I blind, bright.
Was Gemini leaving me- oh no no no not like this-
“hey, when…” was she crying?… “ When we meet again, can- can we do what we planned?” Oh shit… Gemini let out sobs as she spoke.
maybe I was crying myself, I really don’t care, I tackled Gemini into a hug. “Of course- I won’t ever let you go- Gemini don’t leave me”
She left me. Just like that. And there I was, alone in the pitch black Middle. No Gemini with me, I have cooling scars on my arms though…
Gemini always said she wanted to explore… I guess she can’t now…
“Your job is…”
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have you ever laid deteriorating? Hearing your bones rattle as you desperately try to breath and live? Even though it’s all pointless? You’ll just come back, you can’t die… I can’t die, I can only die when I’m uselesss…
that really explains how much worth I am…
my body degenerates and I wonder, what am I really fighting for? Millions of lives lost because of one pointless argument? Will I be erased by history just for fighting what I and the people I fight with believe in? What’s the point of war? To back the politicians that get more lazy everyday? Is it really worth it?
what am I leading others into? I kill others and I have brought others down because of my choices. And yet I never face the consequences, I can always out live them.
am I worth the body’s that lay piled around me? Do they wish to see their family’s one last time as the stare around the big black ink of space?
this war has been going on for too long, so long that generations have raised to try to stop this war only to die the moment they step in it.
who must go and who must live?
Am I fighting for the right or the wrong?
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… you know, once you live long enough, everything catches up to you.
I had watched many beings die, needed to die or not, it makes you realize everyone here has a life, a story worth telling that faded away into nothingness…
I had a friend who died at the hands of a god for not doing everything in the exact order. To the god it was nothing but a mere worthless death, but… they had a life, a family to return to…
I watched a little one died at war… they had so much going for them, so much to live for. They had dreams you know? They wanted to practice in the medicine industry, a still progressing profession in that period of time…
they had dreams, they had nightmares, and lived… truely knowing what it meant to live.
they weren’t blank canvases they were real beings, an ecosystem of life.
my friend… they had children back home and siblings… you know how hard it is to tell them that their family had died? the little one didn’t have no family… abandoned at such a young age, but still was the light in everyone they meant. Bringing happiness… yet they died lonely, no one to be remembered by…
do you not understand? Everyone in this universe isn’t just some random being, they are a story worth listening to, they had hardships and easy-goings. No one is truly just one shade of a color, they are blended and swirled around.
yet… they’ll fade away… eventually becoming one of the distant stars in the black ink of a canvas we see around us. We’ll never know how they lived or died.
If there is any place that holds our loved ones in the after life, maybe we’ll have something worth seeing when we die
my friend had a few beings worth seeing, maybe they died hopeful or happy.
The little one… maybe had a family member worth seeing who will help them.
I want to remember their stories though, everyone I had killed, I can’t just shrug that off. They had someone to go to, they had wants and needs. Memories and things to achieve. Yet then their life gets cut off short. I want get to live with that, no matter how much I play it off… it’ll always stick to me at the end.
So me and Gemini made a book for the ones dead… it got pretty thick, so we had to make more books, but at least it tells their stories, that’s all we need.
this universe isn’t just black and white, you have to really look to see the other colors that come into play.
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suddenly I felt whole again.
“oh iris! I’m back… your back…”
“I’m so sorry for disappearing… why am I apologizing? Hah! I wasn’t even my fault…”
”whoa… iris… what happened to this place? Did… no… you wouldn’t have, besides you swore against it… you couldn’t have ever made those cracks either… why is this realm falling apart”
“okay I’m plain ol’ stupid, it was its fault…”
“don’t worry magpie, I’ll help you… you just relax while I take control…”
maybe it’s okay, I’ll never be free like I once was… maybe I never will be. But that’s part of living, and I’m okay with that, I’m just fine being with the beings I care about.
*Iris fades away into a new being. Gemini is here, and they aren’t happy*
