Gotta Be My Own Hero

journalist/team flash

[irisxwest]

⚡️ : should the Flash catch phase be Gotta Go Fast

“Are you sure it isn’t?”

[irisxwest]

bxflash‌:

Barry listened to her, slowly nodded a bit, still not trusting that this was his Iris. He swallowed hard and let out a shaky breath, knowing that he needed to calm down a bit more.

Though, the moment she jumped back, made him on high alert and tried to save her phone, but was a bit slow than gravity. “Iris, what’s wrong?” He asked as he looked at her. “What are you seeing right now?” He took a tiny step towards her, not wanting to spooky her and bent down slowly to grab her phone.

Iris saw him open his mouth, heard him speak, but she didn’t hear his questions. It’s funny. How close hate and love are. How easily they can be mistaken. Iris swallowed hard. “You said that before. We wanted to help you.” But he’d tried to kill her still, so intent on destroying Barry and everyone close to him. Iris thought he was dead, but he had tried to spread himself through time. Somehow, some part of him must have survived. She wished she was close enough to grab her weapon, but if she tried now he would get there long before her. She had to distract him, and try to ignore how paralysingly terrified she felt.

“What do you want?”

[westallengifs]

[irisxwest]

bxflash‌:

Barry buried her face into her neck, hoping that her scent would make him feel calmer and make things a bit better, but it wasn’t working. It scared him. Iris was always the one person who would make things calm for him but it wasn’t working.

Was this Iris an imposter? She looked like Iris, was living in her place, so why wasn’t it adding it up to him? It was like, all of his senses had turned off by this crippling fear and now, it was like he couldn’t get them back.

He kept her close to him, knowing that he wasn’t going to feel calm at some point since the image of her getting hold by Savitar was haunting him at the moment. 

“I had to get over here as fast as I can, I needed to check on you. Something weird is going on and I keep on seeing images a..and it’s just been a rough morning.” Barry murmured into her skin, as he tried not to cry and squeezed his eyes shut to stop the tears from forming. He pulled back as he opened up his eyes, cupped her cheeks, and ran his thumbs over her cheeks. He knew that he had to be cautious, but this had to be his Iris. Well, not /his/. but the girl he was in love with. “Have you been seeing images?”

Normally, just being around Barry made Iris feel calmer. He had been her best friend for so long, she felt safer around him. So why wasn’t that the case now? Why did the relief feel so short lived? She can see the fear in his face as he pulled back, trying to make sense of it all. “Images? No. I just got in contact with work. It seems whatever this is, it’s the whole city.” 

She stepped away, turning to grab her phone again. But when she looked back, it wasn’t Barry who stood by her door. Iris jumped back, phone clattering to the floor, as she came face to face with Savitar. She’d never really discussed it with anyone, but Savitar terrified her. How close he’d come to killing her, but also what he represented. Seeing Barry’s features twist into that awful, jaded expression. It hurt her and struck fear in her heart.

[irisxwest]

@maidenxfmight sent:  “%” for a CURIOUS text

[ ✉️ --> Kara ] do you have any leads on what caused that city wide fear? [ ✉️ --> Kara ] I was thinking about following it up for a story [ ✉️ --> Kara ] I need something to keep me busy [ ✉️ --> Kara ] [unsent] something other than Barry’s arrest [ ✉️ --> Kara ] [unsent] I can’t stop thinking about him, Kara. I’m worried.

[irisxwest]

bxflash‌:

{continued from here}

Barry stopped when he heard Iris, turning back and swallowed some as he looked at her. He decided to go back and kiss her again. “They can wait.” He said as he closed the door, walked back to her, and rested his forehead against hers as he cupped her cheeks. “Im, gonna spend a little bit more time with you because you deserve that much than just me telling you that I love you and me kissing you.”

@irisxwest​

Iris didn’t know how she’d planned on telling Barry she loved him. It certainly wasn’t like this, with someone coming to arrest him for vigilante activity. But who knew when she’d get another opportunity. She went to call him back, but he was already turning around. Resting her forehead against his, she wrapped her arms around him tight. “I love you, Barry Allen. We’re going to fix this.”

[westeallen]

LNC: Iris West-Allen

[irisxwest]

@goldenavcnger said:  ​❝ did you see that? ❞

“See what?” Iris didn’t know what Tony Stark was referring to. But her heart jumped in her throat anyway, after what had happened earlier in her apartment. Still, she had to swallow her fear, use her investigative skills to find out what was going on. “What am I looking for?”

[bxflash]

closed starter for @irisxwest​

Barry had to admit, he wasn’t expecting to have another panic attack so soon. He figured after everything, talking to Kara, hanging up his suit, he would be golden. He woke up in a pool of his sweat and his heart racing. He quickly got up, took a shower and was a bit less tensed. Then it hit him once he was out of the shower, the fear of losing Iris, Cisco, Caitlin, Joe, Kara, Hal (well “technically” he already lost him but that was something else for a different day), Wally, Bart, his dad, the list went on. 

He ended up in the fetal position, just only with a towel on, on his bathroom floor and him sobbing. It was weird and it was definitely strange since he had never done that in YEARS. He quickly got up, threw on his clothes and ran to Iris’s place, not caring about anyone seeing him, he needed to talk to someone who can calm him down. 

Once he got there, he knocked on her door and shifted his weight as he waited for her to answer. “Come on, Iris. Please be home.” He knocked once more, hoping that she wasn’t gone or worse, a lot worse. He shook his head, resting it against the door as he propped himself up with both hands on each side of the door. “Iris!”

[irisxwest]

Iris didn’t know what it was when she woke up. This fear, this anxiety, gripping at her. A nagging feeling that something was wrong. She called Joe, but other than feeling the same, he was fine. She called Barry, but he didn’t pick up. Iris frowned. Barry nearly always picked up. She tapped the back of the phone with her nails, considering her options. Barry would call back, she reasoned. She had to find out what was happening.

She called work, flipping on the TV. It seemed she wasn’t the only one affected by whatever this was. No one knew yet what had happened it seemed. And none of it alleviated any of the anxiety that Iris had hoped it would. Nothing seemed to be able to dislodge that looming feeling of danger. Danger she was way out of her depth with. Iris had walked head first into situations like that before, but she’d always had her family, her friends, her team with her. Something about this said she was utterly alone. And Barry still hadn’t called back.

When she heard the knock, she sighed with relief. Barry. It had to be. She went to the door, opening it and feeling a wave of relief come over her. “Barry.” She hugged him tight, pulling him close. Why did she still feel afraid? Still feel alone? That dread hadn’t moved at all.

[vaememes]

THE    FIVE    SENSES     /      SENTENCE    STARTERS  .

some   may   be   nsfw   and   /   or   be   triggering.   

01    :     TOUCH .

❝ i love this [ FABRIC ], it feels satisfying. ❞

❝ your touch. it leaves me breathless. ❞

❝ your touch is unlike any other. ❞

​❝ have you ever felt anything more comfortable? ❞

❝ feel this. what does it feel like to you? ❞

❝ i wanted to see what it felt like. ❞

​❝ touch it. i dare you. ❞

​❝ you felt ice cold when i touched you. ❞

​❝ you feel warm to me. ❞

​❝ i love the feel of [ FABRIC ] against my skin. ❞

​❝ i love the feel of your skin against mine. ❞

​❝ i would never touch anyone else. ❞

​❝ i love the feel of your hair between each of my fingers. ❞

​❝ don’t you dare touch me. ❞

​❝ i want to feel your lips against my own. ❞

​❝ i can feel your pulse. it jumped. ❞

​❝ let me give you a massage. ❞

❝ you feel like home to me. ❞ 

02     :      TASTE .

❝ i love the taste of you. ❞

❝ i can never forget that taste. ❞

❝ fair warning, it does have a bitter taste. ❞

​❝ no offense, you just aren’t my taste. ❞

❝ can i have a taste of that? ❞

❝ i have yearned for the taste of your lips. ❞

​❝ that tasted pretty good actually. ❞

​❝ it just left a really bad taste in my mouth so no thanks. ❞

​❝ nothing taste better than chocolate. ❞

​❝ i’ve got something you might want to taste. ❞

​❝ i will forever savor that taste. ❞

​❝ blood has such a metallic taste. ❞

​❝ my taste buds are mad at me after eating that. ❞

​❝ how’s it feel to get a taste of your own medicine? ❞

​❝ you didn’t even taste it. ❞

​❝ trust me, you’ll want to taste this. ❞

​❝ i think it has a bit of bitter sweet taste. ❞

❝ so you tasted it, did you like it? ❞

03     :      SIGHT .

❝ i see you. ❞

❝ i’ve never seen things so clearer than i do now. ❞

❝ it’s too dark, i can’t see anything. ❞

​❝ how can you see anything? it’s pitch dark. ❞

❝ i’ve looked close enough and i see you for what you are. ❞

❝ please, just look at me. ❞

​❝ stop staring at me like that. ❞

​❝ get that light out of my face. ❞

​❝ it’s so bright outside today. ❞

​❝ what’s wrong? what did you see? ❞

​❝ you’re scared, you must have saw something. ❞

​❝ what i saw, you’ll never believe me. ❞

​❝ i’ve never seen you before. ❞

​❝ have we seen one another before? ❞

​❝ you see me for what i truly am. ❞

​❝ i didn’t see anything. ❞

​❝ did you see that? ❞

❝ i can’t believe my eyes. ❞

04     :      SOUND .

❝ shhh, i just heard something. ❞

❝ did you hear that? ❞

❝ what is that sound? ❞

​❝ i missed the sound of your voice. ❞

❝ do you hear me? stay away from me. ❞

❝ i hear you, loud and clear. ❞

​❝ i’m sorry, what was that? i didn’t hear you. ❞

​❝ i’ve heard that sound before. ❞

​❝ you didn’t hear anything at all? ❞

​❝ can you hear what they’re saying? ❞

​❝ aw, i love the sound of music. ❞

​❝ i never said i could hear them. ❞

​❝ wait, hear that? something is coming. ❞

​❝ i could hear screams … ❞

​❝ i heard you all the way upstairs. ❞

​❝ you didn’t just hear that? that sound? that noise? ❞

​❝ trust me, you’re going to want to hear this. ❞

❝ please, just hear me out. ❞

05     :      SMELL .

❝ what is that smell? ❞

❝ i have missed your smell. ❞

❝ you smell nice. ❞

​❝ it’s unlike anything i’ve smelled before. ❞

❝ i smell the food cooking from here. ❞

❝ do you smell that? ❞

​❝ how are you able to smell that? ❞

​❝ no offense but it really smells. ❞

​❝ it’s starting to smell. ❞

​❝ tell me, you’ve smelled this before. ❞

​❝ i know that smell, it’s the smell of lies. ❞

​❝ i can smell you from here. ❞

​❝ are you smelling me? ❞

​❝ i missed the smell of your hair. ❞

​❝ i need to step away, get some fresh air. ❞

​❝ do you smell that? that’s the smell of freedom. ❞

​❝ i could never erase your smell. ❞

❝ i can smell the fear on you from here. ❞

[irisxwest]

@irisxwest @mistressxfmagnetism @thehoneyxbadger

[bxflash]

17. an emotional kiss (Iris)

This was it.

The one thing that Barry kept running away from and it still caught him. They had been preparing for this day ever since they discussed what should happen. Iris, covering his arrest and Barry, surrendering, hoping that things will go smoothly. He swallowed hard as his heart beat against his chest. He looked away from the window and to Iris, knowing that this would be the last time he would see her for a while.

“Iris…” He started to say, stopping, not knowing what to say or make it hurt any less. She pulled him into a hug, which he buried his face into her hair, breathing in her scent, memorizing it so he would be home despite being in custody. He rubbed her back to comfort her, pressed a kiss against her head before he pulled away slightly and cupped her cheeks. “Im going to be okay.” He whispered as he caressed her cheeks before he rested his forehead against hers. “We’re going to figure out a way to get me out, I’ll be back in no time. I need you to be you, okay? I love you, Iris West.”

In split second, Barry captured her lips in an emotional kiss, knowing that if he didn’t do it, then, he wouldnt have the chance to do it period. He pulled away from the kiss, pecked her lips before he left to turn himself in.

@irisxwest

[irisxwest]

The fastest man alive couldn’t run from everything. And his fear that he’d told Iris about over and over had now come to manifest, with her powerless to do anything to stop it. All she could do was pull him into a hug, holding him as tight as she can. “Barry…” She knew what she’d promised him–that if this day came she would report on it and contact lawyers for him. Do anything to make it better. All she wanted to do was stop this from happening all together. To not let him go.

I’m going to be okay, he promised. But Iris couldn’t trust that. Mostly because it’s not up to Barry what happened to him now. She let out a shaky laugh as he said he needed her to be her, cut short when he said he loved her. Her mouth opened to reply, to finally admit what she knew in her heart to be true--though this was not how she’d wanted to admit it to him.

But before she could say anything, he kissed her, and Iris melted into it. Embraced the moment for the moment they had before he pulled away. “I’ll figure it out, Barry,” she promised him as he went.

[irisxwest]

hxghbxll‌:

[✉️ –> Barry’s future wife or whatever ]: I have. I slept on his couch for a few days before I moved into Oliver’s.

[✉️ –> Barry’s future wife or whatever ]: Oh? On Valentines?  😏😏😏

[✉️ –> Barry’s future wife or whatever ]: I N T E R E S T I N G

[✉️ –> Hal ]: It’s nice [✉️ –> Hal ]: HAL.  [✉️ –> Hal ]: what do you mean?

[irisxwest]

bartholomew-impulse-allen‌:

Bart, always in his own world, didn’t pay attention to the girls face. But once he heard her voice, that very familiar voice who would always scold him. It made him smile. “Gram?” He asked as he put his hands on her cheek. “You’re so young Gram! It’s really you! You’re Iris West-Allen?!” Bart cheered to himself, pumping his fist in the air. “I can’t believe I found you.” He zoomed about 3 feet away and thought to himself, his foot tapping many times a second. “The math behind that. What are the odds that of all people for me to find the moment I enter this time was my own Grandmother. Maybe I was drawn to the DNA. Without a target, I could have just wandered in the Speed Force forever, maybe it brought me here BECAUSE of her.” His words started increasing in speed. “Who am I?” He finally said a few sentences later, even though only a few moments had passed. “Well Gram. This is going to be a lot to take in. I’m your grandson from the future. Isn’t that awesome!” He ran back to her and hugged her again. 

Iris’s expression only grew more and more confused the more the young man spoke. Gram? West-Allen? Found her? But before she could say anything, or so much as open her mouth to say anything, he was speeding away and talking to himself at a speed she almost couldn’t understand. But she caught the first few sentences, about his grandmother and the Speed Force. Her head was spinning. But again, before she could say anything, she was caught up in a hug from him. “Hang on a second,” she finally managed to interject. “I’m-- I don’t know if I’m who you’re looking for. I’m Iris West. And I don’t... I’m not married.” Or have kids, let alone grandkids. 

[irisxwest]

barryflashballen‌:

“Could you set it up?” Barry asked as he looked at Iris with an eyebrow raised. He knew that it would be great and some way for her to help him, which would be amazing for him to let her do.

Barry swallowed hard, knowing that he needed to come clean with her. “Kara added someone to the Superfriends groupchat, which set off a panic attack, which I haven’t had one in a hot minute. Then I purposed to invite you to the chat, because I trust you because you know my secret and.” He paused for a moment. “I, haven’t been feeling like myself lately and I don’t know if its because of the Accords or there’s some underlying issue that’s causing me to feel off.” He started to caressed the side of her hand with his thumb without thinking. “I believe it would be the smart move, take a break, clear my head a bit. Its not like I won’t have my powers anymore but, maybe The Flash can really lay low now. While I figure out what’s going on.”

“Of course.” She gave his hand a squeeze and nodded. It hurt her to see him so down, so unlike the optimistic Barry she knew and loved. She’d do anything to help him. “Yeah, I’ll get in contact with him and let you know when and where.” 

Iris listened to him as he told her about what had happened, how much it affected him. “Oh, Bear... I’m sorry.” She knew there was still some things she was missing there, but she knew better than to ask Barry to choose between telling her and his friends’ secrets. That wasn’t what was important here. Barry having a panic attack was more important. “You know you can always call me when that happens, right?” She sighed. The Accords, even if they weren’t the issue, were not going to be helping. They caused this stress, this pressure to not get caught more than ever. And now it was hurting Barry so much he wanted to give it up. “If that’s what you think, then I support you. I’m on your side, whether or not the Flash is involved.”

[bartholomew-impulse-allen]

There was a loud BAM! And a flash of light as impulse came into this dimension, skidding across the street in full costume. “WHOO!! Boy. That is something I don’t want to do again.” He shook his feet. “Spicy on my patitas.” As a car approached him, Bart zoomed to the sidewalk, putting his hand on the nearest persons shoulder. “Almost became Speedster Roadkill.” He sighed and zoomed to the other side of the person. “Luckily I’m fast enough to avoid it.” He leaned against the person. “Has anyone told you that you’re a great listener?” 

[irisxwest]

Iris, along with everyone else in the vicinity (thankfully not too many people), looked up at the loud bang and watched the accompanying costumed hero skid across the street. But where most people quickly decided this wasn’t something they wanted to be part of, Iris stopped and stared. Another speedster? And that lightning, those colours? It was all too familiar, and right now--after Barry had told her he wanted to hang up the suit--she was more intrigued than ever. Just her luck, the young man came speeding over to her just before he got hit by a car. “Who the hell are you?” she asked him before he could zoom off again.

[irisxwest]

barryflashballen‌:

Barry nodded slightly, letting out a shaky breath and ran his hands against his jeans. He was glad that she was on board with him. “Alright, then I’ll go and talk to him.” He whispered back, knowing until then, Flash needed to keep a low profile. He placed his hands back onto the table and could feel them get sweaty a bit.

He offered her a head nod and listened to her. “Okay, there is something else too.” He dropped his voice a bit and leaned onto the table a bit. “I think, I should hang up my suit. Maybe for not too long, but maybe for a little bit, until I can feel like me again and until things have calmed down a bit.”

Iris nodded too, watchign Barry with concern. It was so very clear to her that there was more to this. That everything was really weighing on him in such a heavy way, and she wished she could help him carry it. “You want me to come with you? Or set it up?” Some way to help him.

Her concern only grew, but she leaned in to listen to what Barry had to say, holding his hand despite how sweaty it was. How nervous he was. What he said though made her stop dead in her tracks. “Hang... Hang up the suit?” She gave him a questioning look. “Is there more going on here than what you’re saying? You know I’ll support you if you think this is the right decision but...” But it’s so unlike you. “But I just want to make sure you really want this.”

[irisxwest]

rictorscales‌:

(✉️ ➡️ lovesick): no problem […] (✉️ ➡️ lovesick): and it developed, huh? grew into something different. (✉️ ➡️ lovesick): or maybe it was /always/ something different (✉️ ➡️ lovesick): maybe you’ve been in love with him since you were sixteen and you were too fucking stupid to realize it because you were out dating girls and pretending to be something you weren’t. (✉️ ➡️ lovesick): maybe you’ve been spending all this time wondering why you could never really love anybody without realizing you already /did/ (✉️ ➡️ lovesick): never mind this is getting too specific to be played as a hypothetical  […] (✉️ ➡️ lovesick): it’s easier to tell it to a stranger, i guess.

[✉️ –> NOT CAIT]: I guess so [✉️ –> NOT CAIT]: we’ve always been so close but I never really thought of him like that.  [✉️ –> NOT CAIT]: [UNSENT] and he told me he loved me but I wasn’t ready then. there was someone else then that I had just lost [...] [✉️ –> NOT CAIT]: you got a similar problem, huh? [✉️ –> NOT CAIT]: yeah I guess it is.