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[ishaqzaadi]

So the other day, I was literally going through the hundreds of pages of this blog to try and find a couple of things. And at the end of it all, I was left with this strange kind of heartache because I found a lot more than just what I was looking for -- telling me that apparently I miss a lot of people I didn’t even remember I missed, since they’ve been /gone/ from here for so long. Maybe things would still be the same if they came back, but maybe not? It actually even made me miss people I still talk to every now and then, because things were different back in the day sigh.

And as much as I’d like to have it back, this place just isn’t the same anymore. I really do miss having an outlet to figuratively get things off my chest, without needing to talk to a certain person about them. And I even miss all the number posts, the paragraphs I’d write about people, birthdays on here, and wow...literally everything. But posting on this blog is mostly forced now, I no longer want to put life details out there because...nazar is real and I have no filter with things that are happening/things I’m looking forward to, and also a lot of shit people do here annoys me. Soooo, since the last post I made here was of the loose /maybe I’ll be back after I graduate/ kind, I’m making this of the definite /I won’t ever be reviving this blog/ kind. I may or may not post the occasional gifset I’ve made for someone here, but leaning more towards the not, seeing as most of them will probably be posted on baarish-barkha.

Even though the follower count on this blog has been up and down, I have no idea who actually still follows me and so who’d be reading this. But this is more closure for myself, than anything else. Once again, if you want to stay in touch (and I know you), leave me a message so we can work out a way. 

Also @ the anon who asked whether it’s actually Meera in the gifs with Ranveer or my /sorcery level/ giffing skills, it is very much Meera hehe ❤

Other than that...that’s pretty much it? 

[ishaqzaadi]

[ishaqzaadi]

The Signs And What They Should Be Treated Like

Aries: Like an oasis. Like they are salvation in a territory of blank cruelty. Their kindness and generosity should be shared but protected from those who wish to taint it

Taurus: Like a home. They are always someone who is associated with comfort and normality, but they are never to be disrespected or abused— because while they stand tall they could easily come crumbling down, broken.

Gemini: Like a classic book. Their length of wisdom and truth is timeless, be careful when dealing with them. One wrong move could stain their pages forever, and tear at their seams. They should be cared for and their stories should be told to everyone.

Cancer: Like your old favorite song. They should be remembered and loved by everyone. Just the sound of them should bring joy and nostalgia to people far and near. They have a way of speaking to people- no matter their background.

Leo: Like a dagger. Their beauty may be intimidating and seem far away— but close enough their edges are sharp, ready to pierce and defend themselves against all who plan to fight. They are to be sheathed and cared for.

Virgo: Like a mug. A mug is used to be filled up with liquids to warm your body and quench your thirst, despite the cracks and dents in it. We often look past the signs to fill our own needs. But if you are not careful the one crack could lead to the entire thing shattering. They should be repaired, and loved for all their imperfections as well as their perfections.

Libra: Like a piece of glass. If you hurt them, and are lucky enough to be forgiven, just remember — you have a left a crack on their exterior, and it will always be a reminder to them.

Scorpio: Like a fire. Their light should be shielded from the wind— protected and kindled so it can burn brighter and brighter. Their warmth may be soft, but it is not to be taken lightly, because fires can engulf and destroy as well

Sagittarius: Like a rare flower. Their beauty may be brilliant, but that doesn't mean they don't need reassurance from time to time that they are incredible and one of a kind.

Capricorn: Like the stars. Even though you only see them occasionally, you know they're constantly there and appreciate their presence and guidance. Their light always a constant reminder that darkness doesn't have to be so lonely after all.

Aquarius: Like a storm. They may be unpredictable and hasty, but if you battle through the hardships and roughness– you will get to the center. And learn that there's nothing to be afraid of after all.

Pisces: Like a pen. They inspire you and help you channel your creativity, but if you mess up, it leaves a mark that can only fade with time. They should not be taken for granted or left behind when they run out of ink— they should be cherished forever, for getting you through a time when you needed a spark of creativity most.

[shahrukh-khan]

to the bubbly ishaqzaadi and the flawlessness behind baarish-barkha, my wonderful aishwarya. we’ve grown so so so SO SO SO so close in so less time that the meaning of this friendship even doubles it’s worth really because who could have thought that we’d text such long essays to each other about literally everything. from the most random things to ACTUAL SERIOUS REAL LIFE STUFF to even shit rants about tumblr BECAUSE WE’VE BOTH BEEN HERE FOR TOO LONG bye. i hate that my ass lives like 8 hours in the past compared to you and if i JUST CHECKED THE TIME I WOULD HAVE POSTED THIS SO MUCH EARLIER. thankfully it’s on the actual day (atleast)……. no but really, you’re so wonderful and my conversations with you have so much meaning that they’ve became a part of my daily life. i can’t imagine a life without your flawlessness at all anymore and i hope/pray that there will never be any need for that. (SO I CAN ATLEAST GET TO THAT DREAMY WEDDING IN INDIA THAT YOU’RE PLANNING TO HAVE and and aaaand dance for you the way a loving sister should  ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥) i know i can count on you when there’s shit going on because you’re always ready to read my essays with meaningful advice and SIGH you DESERVE THE BEST OF EVERYTHING TODAY (and actually for the rest of your life)! may you always be blessed with love, happiness, luck and health. know that i’m always there for you whenever you need me as well.

[nowordsareneeded]

and here is another little burst of pyaar for my adorable ishaqzaadi ♥

[nowordsareneeded]

It’s someone’s birthday today! Do we know whose though? Because I mean we should–she’s the ishaqzaadi of the bollywood fandom. Though I suppose a lot of you will only know her as the fantabulous person behind baarish-barkha. No matter how you know her, you should go wish her a very happy birthday so that she’s smiling that beautiful smile of hers super widely!

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[shahrukh-khan]

an aish appreciation post. she may not even go here anymore but she’s so special to me and i LOVE HER (●♡∀♡))ヾ☆*。

[nowordsareneeded]

ishq se kya lena, aashiqui se kya lena…

[ishaqzaadi]

happy birthday @ranveersinghs​ ♡

it’d be silly of us to expect the same perfect timing as last year for mail ok (but I’m still secretly wishing that there’s like what...a 5% chance because IT’S BEEN OVER 2 WEEKS) so I’m just going to stick this here until you do actually get it because that has (half of) everything <3

and that leaves me with not much to say, because what haven’t you heard already that I can say here? all that comes to mind is, I think back to the time when you and several of our other friends were the closest of friends -- in the time period i like to /lovingly/ refer to as the bekaar days -- and I remember being in awe of this one person who loved SRKajol just as much as I do. I never thought there’d be a day that we’d actually even talk, and when I followed you here I didn’t know what to expect. but over the last few years, we’ve grown SO much that a) sometimes I think I’ve lived years and years with you because it’s hard to imagine what things were like when I didn’t know you, and b) I also know that I have not only years, but lifetimes ahead with you, so there’s that. and quite honestly, no matter what has happened -- or ever happens -- I don’t see that changing. so you’ll just have to trust me on that one, because I’m leaving you with no choice. *saves rest of emotional torture for later*

but in short, happy birthday to someone who is forever a part of me and deserves everything amazing in the world, and I love you. ❤

as for the gifset, I thought I’d make you something with otp duh but more specifically something in which you’d be confused whether you want to be him or you want to be her...which is always the case...but tbh in this case it’s a clear call which one you’re leaning more towards bye

[iheartcinema]

20 years of DDLJ

[ishaqzaadi]

you are so precious and i love you so much YOU'RE LIKE THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE ♥️

you know something? I’d decided the second I read this that even if I posted nothing else on this blog ever again like ever ever ever, the one thing I would definitely come back to do would be answering this message, so here I am. throughout the last five to six months, if there’s any one person who’s made me feel no less relevant/important as a result of not being on this website all that much anymore, it’s you. in fact, we’ve become the tightest levels of tight ever since I haven’t been here and for that I’m so so so thankful ♥️ you are easily the most wonderful influence in my life this year tbh, and I know I can trust you with literally anything under the sun (by texting you a 2000 word essay about whatever it is every time hehe). i love you too, so so so much ♥‿♥

[ishaqzaadi]

hi so

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[ishaqzaadi]

your creativity is the definition of perfection, seriously. from the moments you choose to gif and how clean your gifs are, to how perfect each of your colorings are for the gifset you're making --- you're easily one of the best this fandom has seen, and i've always been in awe of your work. in awe of you as well though, and so it's really sad to see you go. i wish you all the best for everything you do in life and hopefully i see you around somewhere on the internet if not tumblr anymore <3

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thank you so much you lovely anon you ♥ this is so so so wonderful and sigh it makes me feel kinda sad tbh??? but you’ll definitely see me somewhere or other, that i can promise you for sure :) 

[ishaqzaadi]

why are you leaving though .. just take a break and come back maybe? do you have twitter instagram anything else?

yeah i’ve done that quite a few times, but it just hasn’t worked. i’m still tired of this fandom’s shit and it’s not that i’m quitting because of them, but rather it just doesn’t give me satisfaction any more to be spending my time creating while knowing that i...i have no idea how to explain it without being rlly controversial which i don’t want to do rn lol

see, if i feel like i’m missing something come august/september (which is when things would hopefully have slowed down) then i’m willing to give it a shot again, but at this stage i really don’t think so.

[sidharthmalhotras]

[insanelymedicated]

If you’re going to fall in love with me, here are some things you should know beforehand. I cry often. Whether it’s during a movie, a sad song on the radio, or a regular Sunday morning. I’ll cry when I speak of things that have hurt me, even if they no longer hurt anymore. I am afraid of being left. And I am afraid of not being good enough. I will tell you the ways in which I hate myself, and not believe a single word you say when you disagree with each and every reason. You can tell me you love me countless times, but I will still be afraid of you leaving me. Don’t blame yourself. I have to expect the worst, because I always get the worst. When I fall in love with you, I will love each crack in your skin and every freckle of light in your eyes. I will fall in love with the way you look while you’re sleeping, and the way your mouth curves when you say my name. I can be difficult to love, but for me loving you will always be so easy. All I ask is that you don’t give up on me, and in return I will never give up on you. And I will love you with my entire heart. And if one day you decide to leave, I will still think highly of you. I will still remember the kind hearted person you are.

(via insanelymedicated)

[ishaqzaadi]

hi so

98% sure that i’m about to abandon this blog because i’ve had enough

i’ve done many half hiatuses in the past because of similar reasons but i’m sure this time it’s pretty much final that i’m not coming back to any of this shit.......i think

anyways, the only reason this is a post a few days before i do is in case anyone who doesn’t already have my number/an alternate way to stay in touch???? wants it -- if you do & we follow each other etc, just leave me a message <3

i’m kind of really sick of the stuff that goes on here, have no motivation for any creative things any more (ok that’s a half lie, i sometimes do but whenever that is i just cannot be bothered with posting anything here in this so called fandom) & am literally cracking under the pressure of final year uni/general life demands this year so far

definitely not deleting because i’m too chicken hearted for that lmao but ??? i’m leaving this blog. i don’t know what i’m doing with baarish-barkha but i guess i’ll know soon enough.........maybe i’ll keep that alive idk

so yes

ok

:)