Artistically autistic

It's Hess'kela'nuruodo, but you may call me Alex. He/his. 37 y.o.. Russia. Autistic. Sociophobic. Queer. Sci-fi fan. Loves all kinds of aliens, especially blue. Attempts to draw. AO3 | ficbook | VK | Уютная голопалуба | Commisions open

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Another one for my A Tale About the Devil AU

Light Milk Cookie going a little dark, having some hard time fighting his dualistic nature, the darkness from his past lives and the pain of present.

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Redraw of my older art for Subnautica Thranto AU. I’m currently thinking of remastering this comics and finally uploading to AO3

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Happy Pure Vanilla Cookie anniversary!

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I to ask: in your "Tale about the Devil AU" Pure Vanilla and other characters keep saying how ugly is Shadow Milk Cookie. But in your drawing Shadown Milk is very good looking for a villain, and Light Milk Cookie is pretty cute. I never saw you draw Shadow Milk or Light Milk ugly, so what is the truth in the story?

Ah, that’s one of those subjective visions. Light Milk sees himself as ugly because of his subconscious resentment to his new body, other cookies are feeling xenophobic because of his color (as well as habits, manners, magic and all his unusual magic) and the whole thing about him being slightly demonic (also the uncanny valley effect). White Lily personally dislikes his body because he used to be a tall handsome man and now he is small, thin and fragile, also with lots of ugly cracks on his joints (I have an art of it, never posted it here)

So his “ugly” is more about his new ugly diabolical nature which Light Milk is trying to accept (you know like Lucifer used to be the most beautiful of angels) and develop into something new, something acceptable - and after he is healed and accepted by old friends he no more feels that ugly (still dismorphophobic though) and his acceptance of his new self will result in changing how the others see him. So he will be no more ugly for them, although he didn’t change. Also it’s a little bit about how a messy neglected person with tired face and misnurtured body may seem terribly ugly but will bloom into a handsome one after it gets some proper care.

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I’m translating Tale about the Devil AU into English, that inspires me for some new art.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/79298871/chapters/211875361

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Light Milk Cookie chilling in his hammock with some CATerpillars, roaches and few other critters

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Dark Enchantress Cookie confuses her prisoner Light Milk Cookie manipulating him through his love to White Lily Cookie, seducing and stirring up his darkest parts

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She loves him even when he’s small and blue 💗

White Lily Cookie and Light Milk Cookie from my “Tale about the Devil” AU

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Original Pure Vanilla Cookie and Light Milk Cookie from my AU send you all their love 💕

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Another pack of cover arts for my Tale about the Devil AU

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

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Tiamir

Commission for @mouthlesswitch :3

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Light Milk Cookie is literally hanging on, contemplating on how he got to this point

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Yearly redraw of my first Thranto art with all previous years

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Light Milk Cookie trying to accept the Shadow within

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“We met at strange time of my life.”

White Lily Cookie fused with Dark Enchantress Cookie meets Pure Vanilla Cookie fused with Light Milk Cookie. They are so broken and beautiful 😍

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Valitar’k’Venatir and Razsagal’s first meeting from my old fic “Buried alive”.

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Just two concepts for one chapter of second part of “Tale of a Devil”

White Lily Cookie covered in shadows which chose to belong on her body while their master is away and Pure Vanilla Cookie dressed as one of angels of the Garden of Delights.