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Jasonâs sprawled across the bed, all six-foot-something of muscle and attitude dead weight draped over you. He hasnât let go since he carried you from the couch, like his arms are glued around your waist. His headâs on your chest, ear pressed to your heartbeat, damp hair tickling your collarbone.
âYou still mad at me?â His voice is a low rumble, Jersey drawl softened, almost sheepish. He doesnât lift his head, doesnât even try to meet your eyes.
âNo, Jay.â Your fingers rake slowly through his hair, scratching just the way you know melts him. âNot mad. Just tired.â
He lets out a sound somewhere between a sigh and a groan. âTired âcause of me.â His hand tightens on your hip, like heâs reminding himself youâre real. âShoulda slowed down. Shoulda made you feel good first instead ofââ
âJason.â You cut him off gently, tugging at his hair until he tips his face up to you. He looks so wreckedâred eyes, guilty pout. You cradle his cheek in your palm. âYou did make me feel good. Really good. Youâre just being dramatic.â
He huffs, but his lips twitch like heâs fighting a smile. ââŚMaybe I like it when you baby me after.â
âThere it is,â you tease, brushing a kiss over his forehead.
He groans, rolling half onto you so his weight presses you into the mattress. âDonât tell anyone. Red Hood loses all his street cred if word gets out heâs a fuckinâ mamaâs boy for his girl.â
You laugh, rubbing his back in slow circles. âYour secretâs safe with me, baby.â
Jason hums, content, before his voice drops into a whisper against your chest: âSay it again.â
âWhat?â
ââBaby.ââ He sounds embarrassed, like heâs asking for something filthy instead of sweet.
You stroke your fingers through his hair again, soft and deliberate. âMy baby.â
He shivers. Literally shivers. Then he hides his face back against your chest like he canât handle it, arms tightening until you squeak.
âJason,â you laugh, kissing the crown of his head. âYouâre crushing me.â
âGood,â he mutters, muffled. âYouâre stuck with me. Mine.â
By the time sleep takes him, heâs drooling into your shirt, legs tangled with yours, still clinging like youâll vanish if he loosens his grip.
after Jason (as Red Hood) is at least semi-publicly revealed to be working with the Bats, he obviously tells his goons/henchmen/employees not to shoot his family on sight. he explains that yes, theyâre his siblings, and that yes, he was formerly Robin 2.
and while it saves him explanations or having to deal with injured family in his territory, it also gives said family a lot of power in the form of embarrassment threats.
and because his siblings are the worst, they abuse it.
Dick: Jay
Jason: What, Dickwad?
Dick: Can I borrow your charger? Mine broke.
Jason: Tf? No. Go ask Timbers or something or buy yourself a new one.
Dick:
Dick: Iâll tell your henchmen that you got tied up in a swingset when you were 14.
Jason: Oh my fucking god just take the damn cable. Ass.
Dick, grinning: Thanks, Jay!
Jason, grumbling: Fuck off.
Tim: Jason I have a favour to ask!
Jason: No.
Tim, ignoring him: So basicallyâ
Jason: Did you miss the ânoâ or did I miss you losing your hearing?
Tim: At least hear me out.
Jason: No.
Tim: I promise youâll like it.
Jason: If it doesnât involve you leaving this room, then I wonât.
Tim, groaning: Youâre such a buzzkill. I should tell those goons of yours that youâre no fucking fun and fell off the stair railing last week.
Long time no see I know. Itâs been like what 2 or 3 years I havenât even written shit? I always say I am going to write and postâŚthen disappear (LMAOđđđ) which I would say Iâm sorry. But, Iâm not (as if I would say the same shit again and promise you I would disappear again). Anyway, I had to do a huge cleanup amongst my follower account (you know the rules before following; my warnings are everywheređ¤¨đ¤).
I am out of the country at the moment, but my vacation will come to an end due to school starting (yay, fall semesterđŤ ) and will be leaving from Mexico on the 14th or 15th back to California (the shit that we are going through over there I swear). Do I SERIOUSLY intend to write again?
Ummm, yes and no? Okay, just hear me out!
I have been thinking about making a backup account (for safety reasons in case my main oneâthis oneâever gets hacked or something) where I can put in my old work there. Like an archive, because I do intend to do a HUGE wipeout of my blog. Donât panic! All of my work that has been done here will be moved (in due time) to my backup account when I create it soon. So, that you can all read the old ones still.
I would see it as fair, but meh. May not be for some which I understand, however it has been bugging me with the way I organize my writings here. Like damn I never bat an eye with the way I organize and just toss my writings to make it easier for me. Only for it to be sloppy with how it is placed.
ANYWAY, I missed you all. Hope youâre doing well. Youâre hydrated, eat good food, and stay safe out there!
i need to get this off of my chest. Johnny is obsessive, as we have seen with maria. in his eyes its normal because why wouldn't he think that. he is very easily driven into the obsessive state, someone shows him kindness the way any normal being would? trust he knows everything there is to know about them, their schedule, their style, definitely each and every member of their bloodline. he needs to source out the dangers in that persons life and when they are finally in his possession, he sees it as a normal romantic relationship. that's really all he has ever known. it's 'normal' until they reject him, and then he can't understand what he did wrong or why they hate him so much, when all he is doing is protecting them from the world, his family and maybe even their own. the cycle continues, he thinks it will be different the next time around but it never is.
Trigger warnings: self harm, cutting, eating problems, drugs, drinking, verbal and physical abuse, mentions of murder, canon-typical violence
Word count: 2k
âŽď¸Chop-Top
Chop is a messy one. He mostly ignores his own problems, mental and physical, and makes jokes about all of them, he takes nothing seriously and just decides not to fix any problem he has. He never talks seriously about his time in the army, he only ever drops hints about what happened through jokes. The only thing he will be slightly serious about is the plate in his head. Heâs only slightly serious about it when he needs help with something like cleaning it or trying to get a dent out. Even when thatâs happening, heâs being stupid and making jests about the situation.
Sometimes he genuinely forgets to eat, he gets too distracted or too focused on some project⌠and sometimes he just decides not to. The food problems come from his time in the military. He got little food, much less any good food, when he was in Vietnam and it changed his relationship with eating. He usually gets forced to sit down and eat with the family. If he doesnât eat with the family, heâs not going to eat for one reason or another.
He spends quite a lot of time smoking weed and trying to forget everything. Sometimes when he gets too high, he ends up blacking out and when he comes down, he doesnât really know what heâs said or done. He thinks thatâs funny.
Bobby always has his lighter on him, for smoking and for scratching his plate. Sometimes Chop uses his lighter and burns himself. He likes feeling the heat on his hand and seeing the wounds that he can inflict. He just likes playing with the flames and ends up burning himself, whether by accident or not.
He burns himself more than he cuts himself, but he still loves doing both. Sometimes he will make patterns or designs on his skin, sometimes he just gets too into it and ends up slicing up his whole arm or leg. It starts out just wanting to feel something and then his brain switches into a tunnel vision and he just keeps going, getting too excited about the look and the feeling. Itâs usually not deep, theyâre just on the surface; just enough to bleed and leave small scars.
đˇNubbins
Nubbins is the most pathetic one in the most dictionary sense. The biggest thing he does is constantly seek out abuse from his family. Itâs mostly Drayton that gives it to him, but Nancy and Johnny are not the nicest to him either. Drayton constantly hits him and degrades him and yet Nubbins always comes back for more. Thereâs no way he can stop, he always ends up seeking out his brother and expecting a different result. He just ends up with more bruises and cuts.
He really neglects any type of self care. He never bathes, he only actually cleans himself when somebody forces him too and even then itâs a huge chore for him so they usually just clean him up themselves. Nubbins is just overall really bad at taking care of himself. Sometimes itâs a simple mistake of forgetting but a lot of times he just doesnât care enough about himself to take care of his body, much less his brain or heart.
The most obvious one is that he cuts. Itâs not crazy and frenzied like how Bobby does it. Nubbins is more for quality over quantity. He does them deep and slow; he makes sure that they hurt and will leave a scar for him to fond over. It doesnât happen super often, just when heâs specifically feeling a little frantic that day. Itâs like the world gets too much and he needs something to focus on. He loves how the wounds look and prods at them and plays with his blood. He never cleans the wounds or wraps them up on purpose, he likes when things get messy and he gets blood stains on his clothes.
đźSissy
Most of Sissyâs self destruction is the way he just plainly ignores all of her needs. She will eat very little, barely bathe, forget to drink until sheâs nearly sick, she is just reckless and apathetic about literally everything. She has to be dragged into the bath and she will throw hands over it, she only ever eats at the specific mealtimes and always has small portions. With her constant bare feet, she never cares about how dirty she is or if she gets any injuries while she works. If she does get a cut or bruise while working, she pokes it and makes it worse on purpose. Itâs not necessarily to force a scar or make the blood spill, she just likes the feeling and gets caught up in causing herself that pain.
She is similar to Bubba in terms of recklessness. Sissy is very rash and not necessarily elegant in her movements or practices. Sheâs accidently hurt herself with all manner of tools and weapons around the property. It could be tripping from running too fast, smashing her finger with a hammer or slicing her own hand with her straight razor while sharpening it. Itâs not that she has no regard for herself because she is a servant, like Bubba. Sissy is just so confident in herself that she forgets how fragile human beings are. She remembers how fragile they are when sheâs got victims in front of her, and she constantly reminds them of this fact. She just forgets that her own body is also just as fragile. Itâs like she holds herself on a different level than normal human beings.
Another similarity to Bubba is the effect that the constant verbal, and sometimes physical, abuse has on her. Sissy is a punching bag for Drayton, Nancy, and even Johnny sometimes. Nubbins and Chop sometimes make jokes at her expense, and she has a lot of trouble taking them as jokes. All of the negative comments and horrible things said to her really stick with her and bother her. She struggles with her identity as she flips back and forth between the holy cult confident mentality and the poor abuse victim who canât do anything right. She tries her best to act like it never bothers her but unlike Johnny, Sissy is terrible at poker and struggles with staying calm and collected. Her emotions always get the best of her and she ends up blowing up and having a fit over it all, which never ends well for her. She usually ends up with a few more new bruises to poke at.
When Bobby is having one of his smoke sessions, Sissy likes to join in. She likes feeling that blacked out, fuzzy-brained giddy attitude. She also brings some of her own drugs to the party though. The plants she grows for her poison clouds have many different uses and sheâs studied them well. Sissy will smoke them and end up tripping bad, she never feels good afterward, but that out of body experience that she feels is so otherworldly that she could never just give that up. Part of her love comes from when she ran with multiple different cults on her adventures. Some taught her that she would see god if she smoked, some taught her that she would be god if she smoked. The habit started there and then just kept going. She doesnât do it all the time, itâs like a special thing that is reserved for either a certain day or when sheâs really struggling. She does get the normal high with Chop more often than she uses her own special supply.
đBubba
Bubbaâs is pretty straight forward. He doesnât cut or burn himself (on purpose, he struggles with being careful). He will actively hit himself though. Sometimes itâs his fists pounding at his head, sometimes he hits his head on a wall, or something of that sort. Heâs grown so used to Draytonâs abuse that at this point in his life, it almost brings him a sort of comfort. Bubba knows that no matter how much Drayton hits him and yells at him that Drayton will always be there to look out for him. Whenever he hits himself, it is his way of punishing himself, like he did something wrong and he knows it. But itâs also a type of comfort to him. When things get too overwhelming, he needs something to bring him down a few notches, and that just so happens to be forceful punches to his own head.
Bubba does the same thing that Nubbins does, they both always run back to Draytonâs abuse. No matter how big the bruises are, or how much the words hurt Bubba, the big boy will always bow down and serve his big brother. All he wants is a tiny taste of praise but Drayton will never give him any. Even when he does a good job, Drayton will make up random things to be mad at. Bubba believes himself to just be a toy, a puppet for everybody else to use for whatever reason. Heâs been conditioned to always listen to Drayton, help chase down and kill victims and always be ready to jump at anybodyâs beck and call. He was told so many times that that is all he will ever be, so now he believes it.
Bubba is a very large and strong man. Sometimes he is clumsy with his tools and weapons, but more often than not, he is just simply reckless. He throws all caution into the wind and takes no regard for his own safety and wellbeing. If heâs worried about anybodyâs safety itâs his familyâs, never his own. He runs around with his chain saw, cuts meat up too fast and doesnât pay attention when heâs sewing a project together. He hurts himself constantly and never takes care of the injuries. Theyâre usually not very big wounds, but they add up after a while. Bubba is always covered in scars, cuts and bruises from many different sources.
đŞJohnny
Besides working on the cars or mechanics around the property, Johnnyâs favorite pastime is having a drink at the local bar. He gets very indulgent with his drinks and has at least a few beers daily. When heâs having a particularly hard day, he indulges in the harder stuff, but he doesnât allow himself to ever blackout or get so drunk that he makes a fool of himself in public, he has an image to uphold. He doesnât even let his guard down enough to get black out drunk in the safety of his own home, he would rather just have a constant buzz throughout a normal day.
As strong and important as Johnny is to the family, he gets a lot of verbal and sometimes physical abuse from Drayton and Nancy in particular. Drayton only ever yells horrible things at him, the old man fears what would happen if he ever tried to hit the much larger and stronger man. Nancy is a different story. She only ever speaks highly of her son to other people, but she holds him at an impossible standard and always reminds him of that. She hits him too. Nancy is the only person who ever gets away with hitting The Johnny Sawyer. Heâs gotten more than a few bruises from her. Johnny tries to hold up the facade that nothing bothers him and he is super confident, but thatâs not entirely true. The negative comments and constant berating really does wear him down and he believes what they all say about him. He makes sure not to show his weakness to any of them, but it just cuts open his insides and leaves invisible scars that hurt just as much as his real scars.
Johnny has a huge love for his knives. He loves the action of cutting people or animals open and seeing the damage it, and he, can do. It gives him this crazy power trip and gets him really excited. Sometimes Johnny takes his knife and cuts himself. Itâs nothing crazy and it doesnât happen too often, he likes the pain of it and how it makes him look. He thinks the battle scars make him look stronger and tougher. He would never admit it to anybody that a fair number of the many scars littering his body are self inflicted. It helps his facade that he naturally gets a ton of cuts and wounds from fighting victims and his general blue collar working.
Hello, I hope you and your family are well. Can you please help me recycle the post on my account? đş And help rescue my family from the war in Gaza? đ Thank you.
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Hi my love I miss you!! It was your birthday a few days ago omg I hope you had the most amazing birthday you deserve it <3 I love youuuu
AHH MY LOVE I MISSED YOU MORE!!!
Again so sorry I am replying to this all late, but thank you very much for thhe bday wishes (it was suppose to be replied in April, but we here in August LMAOOO). But, I love you very mucho and more of your boy Noah coming soon...gonna peg the fuck outta him--
Hi friend!! I just want to say I lit finished playing Silent Hill 2 earlier today and i'm OBSESSED with your JamesxReader fanfic. it's so perfectly written <3 <3 <3
HI BB!!
Apologies for being so late on this reply (same goes for the rest of my inbox), but that means a lot to me. I am so excited for the remake and I bet you are too!
I'm most likely going to be making some more James Sunderland (maybe some Maria/Mary too if people request thatđ). Other than that I'm glad you enjoyed it. I appreciate itâĽď¸â¨
Just dropping by to say whatâs up, and how youâve been!! Cooking up any new fics ?
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HI BB!!
God, I missed you so much. I hope youâre doing okay :((
Iâm doing good just had to deal with an anon that had the audacity to claim Iâm not an adult cause the way I write my shit is suspiciousđđđ
I mean you know me personally, so you already know that anon is on some bullshit doing some âum actually youâre not an adult and claim to say you are to save faceâđźđĽ¸â like shut the fuck up bruhđđđ
Anyway, yeah imma be doing some more Johnny Sawyer and slashers coming up soon for this spooky time. Plus, I got some requests to go through
Iâm happy to be back cause of yaâll and finding the humor of such audacity with anon pussies telling me what to do and claim that they know me and shitđđ
Other than that I love you very mucho! Hope to contact you more and my other moots often againâĽď¸â¨
are you a minor? you really shouldn't be writing porn if you're not an adult. i know you'll likely claim to be an adult to save face but your writing abilities say it all. please, for your own safety, wait until you're older.
Brother how else am I suppose to prove Iâm an adult??đđđ
Iâm literally 23. Born 2001. I mean if you want my socials like insta and TikTok Iâll gladly do so. Just ask. I donât know how else you want me to prove here. Do you want my ID?? Wanna dm me to see it all??? Be fucking for real
Like yeah sure my writing sucks and doesnât give fucking Shakespeare, but girl seriously?? Theyâre just fanfics and couldnât care less making it literature. Get out of my feed
My face when I saw this shit (come again anon, please)
And donât pussy out of this when you see me reply to this cause I know youâre reading this and gonna go to my inbox again as anon like a little bitch. Say it to my face and Iâll go to yours that Iâm a full grownâ¨ladyâ¨. Fuck outta here with this bullshit
