My Life With Asperger's

This is just my blog where I try my best to tell the world what it's like living with Asperger's Syndrome, Bipolar, and Anxiety. I hope you can learn something about how we Aspies feel on a day to day basis.

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Got my new sweater earlier this week!

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Random thought of the day: I'm not fat, I just have a close relationship with gravity

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Horrible song on the radio: cuz good music can be so hard to find Me: tell me about it.

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You have not known real terror until you leave your room unlocked for like half a minute with your 1200 dollar laptop sitting out to go to the bathroom and while in the bathroom you hear the name of a thief who has stolen from you before shouted down the hall.
I have never peed so quickly in my entire life.

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So glad build-a-bear ended their partnership with Autism $peaks, because I got an awesome little bear recently and his head smells like mint chocolate chip, and it's the best thing ever.

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So I have had an issue with my teacher here at job corps since pretty much the first week in her class. I've never had to deal with a teacher who disliked me to this extend, and it's been super hard on me since one, I'm a teachers pet, and two, my teachers have always loved me. Just to list some of the things she's told me: •I wouldn't even hold down a job at Burger King •that when I sprained my ankle and wrist both within a two month time period it was "attention seeking behavior" and that other students were laughing at me for being on crutches •constantly berates me for a time period a year ago when my bipolar med was knocking me out after I took it in the morning and despite my best efforts I couldn't stay awake in class through it •also got pissed at me for the ONE time I accidentally took my med in the morning after I had switched it to nighttime and so I told her ahead of time as I thought that was the right thing to do •got mad at me for the times I couldn't breathe right because of my asthma, which has since been fixed with a daily inhaler •has basically told me that I need to get over the loss of my little sister after I had to deal with serious triggers two weekends in a row, even though she has lost a sibling as well And most recently, she has refused to let me go on a real externship and has me working at the security gate to "prove myself" enough to work at a doctor's office. She told me my high test scores and great work in her class doesn't mean shit, that she wouldn't let me work at an externship site in town because she thought I would fuck it up so badly they wouldn't take another student, and has never once taken it upon herself to acknowledge my incredible improvements since I have gotten here. I just don't know what to do here.

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Weird thought of the day: garages are just stables for cars.

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So in an effort to be more active on here, I'm gonna post at least one weird, random thought I have from each day here from now on:) there will still be other stuff too, but this way I'll be more active!

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When I was little I had a dream where my mom and dad went to the "baby store" and my mom's jaw unhinged like a snake's and my dad dropped a full sized baby into her stomach, and that's where I used to think babies came from.

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robin williams was the crazy uncle you could always go to for a joke or a cheering up and it’s strange and very hard for me to fathom that he is gone. I just assumed that people like him, people who have changed others’ lives for the better and brought such joy and excitement to children and adults alike, would live eternally

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He will live eternally, through our hearts and laughter, and the many great memories we have of him.

"Oh captain, my captain."

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I feel like part of the reason so many people in today’s world are so shitty is because we live in a society that hides tragedy. Not in the way that people don’t know it happens, but have you ever realized people who haven’t had much tragedy in their life generally take life for granted? They...

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From my other blog

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One of the things I dislike about having the issues I have is my inability to read social cues. I always just feel shitty when I end up annoying people or making them upset because I couldn't read their body language and then they had to say something about it...

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Fuck you, Autism Speaks. There is nothing wrong with us, we are not suffering, and we do not need a cure. We need people to understand why we are the way we are, to accept us for the way we see things, the way our brain works. We do not need some organization of people who don't know what it's like for us, who haven't lived with autism themselves, to speak for us, to tell people we need to be cured. I am proud of my Aspergers, and I am proud of who I am, "disability" and all.

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a reminder to please please please let me know if i’ve been gross or something because forreal

the struggle to unlearn shit is real as fuck and i make mistakes

i’m not perfect and i still do gross shit and i’m working on being a better person and creating safe places for people

i see so many posts that are like “ahhh a friend of mine did something gross and i don’t know how to tell them” like if i’m ever that person please let me know

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Please tell me!

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The One Left Behind

I walk into the hospital room I see you and suddenly I can't breathe How could this have happened? Why didn't I see it coming? Bandages wrapped around your head A machine making sure you breathe But you're not there No, you're already gone You were my little sister I was supposed to protect you But I never could have even imagined The one you'd need saving from was yourself (And I never thought I'd fail) I feel so lost Without you here by my side I never thought that I'd Be the one left behind (X2) Memories of better days The times we used to laugh and play The times you were scared And I chased away your fears Summer sun and staying up all night Talking until the morning light School and boys and friends Man those were the good old days Going where we shouldn't go But it's okay, "mom will never know" I introduced you to my friends Proudly showing you off to them And now I feel so lost Without you here by my side I never thought that I'd Be the one left behind (X2) I miss you forever, But I hope you're happy now Freed from the pain and hurt That made you fall down ~~~~~~~~~ This is a song I wrote for my little sister shortly after she passed away in November. She shot herself, at age 14. I miss her so much, and I will most likely never be over this. I still get days where I think "I should text Chloë, I haven't heard from her in a while" and then it all comes crashing back down- she's gone, and I'll never get the chance to see her again, to laugh at her awesome jokes and comics, or to be her big sister anymore.