its.acautionarytale

things of my confused mind & tormented heart pen to paper, public notes app

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“Everything is falling to the wayside now”

“Dancing through the fire if the flames allow”

“Nothing left to bellow about”

“LAYLA IN THE ROCKET” MICHELLE

[its-acautionarytale]

“if it’s a key that goes into many locks,

it’s a master key,

but if it’s a lock that lets any key in…

it’s a pretty shit lock”

Evan Placey, Girls Like That

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sometimes i can’t tell if the heat that i feel is from being overwhelmed, embarrassed, stressed, or just hot.

it’s a lot,

and i don’t even know what it is.

it’s too much.

i’m burning up.

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i’ve decided to take the picture.

the sky, my food, a sign, flowers

i’m taking a picture.

i don’t need it to remember the thing exactly, but when i’m sitting by myself, and i can’t remember exactly why i want to be here, i can look.

i can look back at the pictures i’ve taken:

the sky, my food, a sign, flowers

and see the world through eyes that aren’t filled with tears.

[its-acautionarytale]

“Wisdom is the greatest key to happiness

The laws of the Godly Earth must be respected

The big words of arrogant men

will soon some crashing down on them

Wisdom will finally rise”

Sophocles, Antigone, 441BC

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Aug 20, 2024–

stitching is an art

itsacautionarytale

how does one go about unstitching someone from the fabric of their life?

it felt like forever, so you let them intertwine with you; introducing colors and patterns, and forever changing the design.

but over time, the seams have started to rip;

the edges are fraying— and the quilt that was once the perfect mirror of your life is disorganized, and even worse, outgrown.

do you fold it up & put it on the shelf? letting it collect dust?

do you rip and pull and discard? until there’s no memory of what it ever looked like?

or do you let it be?

just because the thread is old, doesn’t mean you can’t carry it with you—and just as you outgrow patterns, you remember a time where it was all you knew, and all you lived by. build upon the quilt already laid out; add new colors. let the old ones remain; faded.

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Aug 03, 2024–

the sides of want

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to want someone is to laugh a little louder,

to want someone is to put more effort into appearance,

to want someone is to lie awake at night and wonder.

to be wanted is to laugh at what’s funny,

to be wanted is to wear what you love,

to be wanted is to fall asleep as your head hits the pillow.

to want is to change,

but to be wanted is to be.

[its-acautionarytale]

—via @letsbelonelytogetherr

i read this a bit earlier today (12/09/2024) in a post @letsbelonelytogetherr and it struck a chord in me. later in the day, i needed to pour my emotions out, and so i did into my notes app. i’m tired of keeping little things and poems i’ve written confined to that space, so i’m sharing it here. this journey is just for me and whoever resonates with anything that i write about.

love, itsacautionarytale