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Reminder that these stories are fictional nonsense. Nothing written here claims to be true. These are not accurate representations of the individuals portrayed. All fics listed below contain explicit/NSFW themes, they are intended for consenting adults.
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Jake
Call pt 1 - Jake Kiszka x F Reader
Call pt 2 - Jake Kiszka x F Reader
Close - Jake Kiszka x F Reader
Mature Content - Jake Kiszka x F Reader - satire
Remedy - Jake Kiszka x F Reader
Josh
Show & Tell - Josh Kiszka x F Reader
Deal pt 2 - Josh Kiszka x OMC x F Reader
Deal pt 1 - Josh Kiszka x OMC x F Reader
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Peek-a-boo
f!OC x Josh Kiszka x m!OC 7.500 words
Summary: Having Josh for a friend is a gift. Having Josh for a friend while also being a gifted photographer could be a curse because the man just has no shame...
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, intended for adult readers. Any resemblance to real people is purely coincidental. Also, if you're under 18, go find some other entertainment elsewhere.
Warnings (are spoilers): voyeurism and exhibicionism, erotic photography, bedroom photosession, alcohol consumption, seduction, playful deceit, kissing, licking, threesome, sex, oral sex (both f and m receiving), anal sex (not explicit), very light dom play, polyamory
âNo!âÂ
Well, that resonated. I could tell by Joshâs wide eyes and his parted lips, frozen in mid-sentence that I hadnât allowed him to finish. He swallowed hard to wash down the words that got involuntarily stuck in his throat and was about to try againâŚ
âJust NO!âÂ
What a cute, powerful word. So seemingly straightforward in its basic meaning, yet you can always add more facets to it with just the right tone and delivery. It can be a disinterested no, or an open question full of wonder. Combine it with just the right amount of agitation in your voice and it lands with the urgency of a whiplash. Thatâs what I did, without really thinking. I actually surprised myself. It came out harsher than I really wanted and the lady at the nearest table on my right immediately gave me a grossed out look. Like I cared. He deserved it.Â
I stared back at Josh with pretty much justified indignation during the brief silence that followed, and to my astonishment, it did have an actual effect on him this time. As it should! My rather abrupt and very definite reply wiped that crooked smile off his face and he went from a cocky bastard to a wounded puppy within a few seconds. No more playful pouts, no feisty smirks.Â
Sadly, no hints that he had been joking either⌠which only made it worse. âYeah, I feared youâd say that,â he sighed and carefully put his glass down, suddenly finding the place mat in front of him extremely interesting.Â
So interesting it made his cheeks burn.Â
Consequently, it made my own face heat up as well. So, he had been serious? And asking me such a thing in public, no less! Anyone could hear him.Â
Well, at least he looked like he seemed to realize how impudent his request was. But stillâŚ
I opened my mouth, and then closed it with a huff, before I took a deep grounding breath and finally blurted out: âFeared? You should have expected that! Have you lost your mind?â A few more people sitting at the nearest tables turned their heads and I immediately cursed myself for my own lack of decorum. Josh just bit his lip and visibly shrunk, which made him look like a very tiny tomato.Â
Not exactly the reaction I was hoping for, because I still expected him to wave his hand and say something like âyeah, gotchaâ, followed by his signature giggle. Iâd take anything that would assure me that he in fact had not been serious. Then the two of us could just laugh it off as a joke that uncustomarily didnât land. It would still feel slightly awkward, but at least we could go back to the previously abandoned topic and everything would be well.Â
But Josh remained silent. He also refused to meet my gaze. Those two phenomenons were pretty rare and unusual even when they happened separately; their mutual occurrence felt almost like a cosmic rupture. Knowing him, it had only one explanation. So, not only he had thought it would be a good idea to ask me such a thing, but alsoâŚ
âJosh⌠pleaseâŚÂ tell me you didnât actually think I would agree to that! Thatâs insane.â
It started as a purely professional relationship, and it certainly was my intention to keep it that way, because I consider myself a professional. Duh. Josh loves having his pictures taken and I dare say I was rather good at it. We clicked. I understood what he wanted, and I delivered. Simple.Â
However, befriending him is extremely easy⌠or so I thought. It was a trap, actually. Itâs only easy when he decides, which in retrospect should make me feel very flattered. And it does.Â
To clarify â Josh is in general a very outgoing person, which already fooled many poor, naive souls into believing it meant anything more than just pretty much nothing, because while he tries to be friendly with everyone, he chooses his people carefully. Only the ones who really âgetâ him can get really near. I know it now; I was unaware back then.Â
As I kept my professional distance, it was all just casual banter to me. A wise choice on my part, based on years of experience. Josh treated us all the same, always greeting us with his radiant smile. It didnât really matter if it was me, Liz the makeup artist, or my technical assistant Mark.Â
Over time, I saw how people who mistook his joviality for real friendship received a proverbial slap in the face the moment they crossed a line they had failed to see. Poor Mark was one of them. Bless his soul.
I also saw others being lured into his trap without even realizing it, but not before it somehow happened to me once Josh started encouraging me to keep making unwise choices. Again, very flattered. When Josh decides youâre allowed to love him, you really have no other option but to accept that offer, whether you like it or not⌠but I can guarantee youâd like it.Â
I remember when Josh saw the pictures I had just taken displayed on my laptop screen for the very first time and his face visibly lightened, though with a tinge of cute timidness and wonder. After hours of strutting around the studio like a peacock, he suddenly looked very small and almost bashful, giving me rather mixed signals, to be honest.Â
âIs it bad?â I asked with an apprehensive smile. I knew those pictures were good, but I had learned over time that those things are almost always subjective and sometimes my eyes see different things than what my clients want or expect me to see. They tell me what they want, and they think theyâre in full control, but I am the one who controls the shutter, and that can be merciless. Not everyone likes what it reveals sometimes. And Josh definitely seemed a bit surprised.Â
âNo, itâs⌠itâs absolutely perfect. Very⌠candid⌠in a way.â
That was it for the time being. Apart from telling me what I already knew, I had to wait a bit longer for him to elaborate on why exactly he thought the result was perfect. However, that doesnât really matter because I think that was the moment when something shifted between us. I could hear it⌠or rather I could feel it, because Joshâs voice makes you feel things. I never understood how easily he manages to modulate it so that it sounds pretty much thunderous one moment, and then soft and balmy the next second. But it does, and it always has a direct effect on those who listen.Â
I walked right into that trap. It took only three sessions for our initially casual and politely impersonal conversations to get more⌠well, personal.Â
The strangest thing is that it didnât feel wrong at all. Not for a second. We got there quite naturally, or maybe I should say he got us there quite effortlessly with me in a passenger seat, and it so happened that the third photoshoot ended with him getting me awfully drunk. In my favorite bar, no less. After he somehow made me suggest the place.Â
Josh still had gemstones on his cheeks when we got there, flashing his extravagant looks with dignity despite a few stares. It fascinated me. I wasnât oblivious to the controversial reception of his band, or him as a public figure. I had come across some nasty shit firsthand when I had posted a few pictures on my Instagram just a few days prior, and the nastiness of some of the comments genuinely appalled me. Especially since I got to know him as a person.Â
âI admire you,â I blurted out after finishing my third drink. I was already a bit tipsy, but still not drunk enough to miss the subtle changes in his expression when I said that. At first, a spark in his eye that matched the barlights reflected in those gemstones, like a tiny tear you can still blink away if you want to. It lasted maybe just a split of a second, but that flash of pure joy didnât go unnoticed, before it was replaced by yet another toothy grin. Just as flashing, but a just bit less sincere, as if he was still not completely sure whether to trust me. That didnât go unnoticed either.Â
âI hear that quite often,â he practically screeched, using his shrill, theatrical shield-voice reserved for moments when he feels the need to hide his soft side. For a moment, I thought I overstepped and was about to get Marked for ruining the moment with an ingratiating flattery.Â
But I meant it, and not really in a way he probably thought, so I continued: âIâm serious, Josh. I admire your ability to put up with the people who do the very opposite. And some of them are quite loud about it. And yet you just continue being yourself. Turning the other cheek and shit. I couldnât do that.â
The smile vanished, although his eyes continued to sparkle. Josh pursed his lips and let out a snort that could be easily interpreted as both amusement and annoyance. I think he couldnât really decide. âWell, maybe I deserve it. I donât know,â he said rather matter-of-factly before he took another sip.
âBullshit. You know you donât.â I could see he cared. It wasnât like he didnât give a shit about those haters, which made the fact that he didnât let them stop him even more admirable. âI just love how you donât let it get under your skin too much. Every time I see a negative comment about my pictures, I feel crushed. I wish I could be more like you, instead of giving them what they want.â
âWellâŚ,â Josh took a deep breath and put a hand on my shoulder. He had done that before. In fact, he does that pretty often, always being so touchy feely when talking to people. Josh uses touch as punctuation. Itâs one of the reasons why heâs such a trickster.Â
This was new, though. Different. It felt like a question mark. His hand slid gently down my upper arm in an almost intimate manner. If it was anyone else, Iâd flinch. Instead, I waited with a baited breath for him to continue. âIt used to worry me a lot, I wonât lie. But you gotta learn how to deal with it if you wanna survive.âÂ
âOk, but how?â
âItâs pretty simple, actually. You have to⌠to acknowledge whatâs letting you down, and then just let it gooo.â To accentuate his point, he thrust his right arms to the side, barely missing the man who was just passing by our spot at the bar. âOh, sorry, sorry.â
To be honest, it sounded like some cheap guru advice, but thankfully Josh wasnât offended when I told him. Instead, he just urged me to try it.Â
That night, Josh charmed me into telling him things I hadnât confided in my own sister, and even though I woke up with a terrible hangover afterwards, I felt significantly lighter emotionally.Â
It was the beginning of a friendship that I truly cherish.
But let me make one thing perfectly clear. When I say friendship, I really mean it. Josh is very attractive in his own unconventional and quirky way, and I must admit that he invaded the sacred space of my fantasies more than a few times.Â
However, heâs got Gabe. And thatâs really all I needed to know.Â
Entering Joshâs world meant I had to befriend Gabe as well. And I really didnât mind. What girl wouldnât want to have a fashion stylist as a friend, right?Â
No, really, I genuinely like the guy. Heâs just as cute, though in a slightly different way than Josh. Gabriel possesses this effortless, gracious charm that never makes you wonder whether heâs aware of his good looks. Itâs obvious he is. Where Josh sometimes hides his insecurities behind goofiness, Gabriel stands tall and calm, with his hands in his pockets and his eyes always ready to wink at you instead of wasting unnecessary words. I suppose thatâs pretty easy when youâre endowed with dark wavy hair, porcelain skin and a well-defined jawline. Straight brows and a greek nose only add to his inherently calm facial features, and his glasses are just a cherry on top. Like a pinch of sophistication.Â
Together, theyâre like a cherub and a seraph. Mr. Feisty and Dr. Suave. And â whatâs most important â theyâre really head over heels for each other. One loves fervently, while the other responds with sensual calmness. Itâs very entertaining to watch.
Which brings me back to Joshâs indecent request.Â
Josh never answered my question, which basically meant that â yes, he really did think that I might eventually agree to take photos of the two of them making love.Â
I remember that just the idea made my heart beat like crazy. And yes, I immediately imagined that scene in my head. Iâm only human. And so are they. Two very pretty specimens.Â
What started as one of many of our casual weekday dinners turned to something I wasnât ready for. The atmosphere between us got tense, and I hated it. The subsequent silence was gnawing at me and I could see Josh felt the same. Abandoning the subject entirely would probably only make things worse. Getting up and leaving him there alone was out of the question entirely, simply because I really didnât want to do that. I would never do that. Just the simple fact that he asked me to do such a thing meant he trusted me with his life. Literally. I could ruin it very easily with one click if I ever was in possession of such photos.Â
So I refilled our glasses â a simple gesture meant to assure him that I wasnât really mad at him â and then I took another deep breath. âWhose idea was that?â
Josh looked up, surprised by the sudden question, but I could see relief in his eyes as well. âWellâŚâ He flushed again. As if trying to mask it, he reached for his glass of wine and took another sip, but the wine went down the wrong pipe, making him cough. A few droplets of the crimson liquid trickled onto his lower lip and I couldnât help but admire how sensuous he managed to look even in such an awkward situation. âWell⌠itâsâŚ,â he tried again in between coughs.
I already knew the answer. âJosh, you donât have to do anything youâre not comfortable with. I hope you know what.â As I said, I really liked Gabriel, but that man was a dark horse, ready to strike or to make a grand entrance when you least expected it. Including relationships. Sometimes it was for the best, because he encouraged Josh to step out of his comfort zone more than once and with results that were almost always beneficial for both, careerwise or in bed. Or so Iâve heard.Â
But there were a few times, maybe just once or twice, when I had been wondering whether his true intentions hadnât been a bit egocentric. Or maybe even insidious in the long runâŚ
âNoâŚ,â Josh suddenly interrupted my train of thoughts. âThe truth is that⌠the⌠that Iâve wanted to d⌠to try something like that. I just felt like I⌠no, I mean, I knew I couldnât. Trustânâshit, ya know?â
Yeah, I knew. And once again, I was deeply flattered he had decided to trust me with such a thing. Still worried, though. It probably showed on my face.Â
âYou donât believe me.â
âNo, I do, I just⌠Iâm just wondering what makes you think that now you can.â
It sounded exactly the way I didnât want it to. The conversation suddenly shifted from my reluctance to do it to something completely different. A dangerous territory. I knew he knew who I meant when I questioned his sudden trust in the people involved. No wonder I cringed when Josh cleared his throat in disapproval.Â
âListen⌠yes, it was initially Gabrielâs idea, but Iâm not a fucking child and I dare say I know him better than you!âÂ
It was the night of throwing daggers, apparently. The lady sitting at the nearest table on my right clicked her tongue, making me roll my eyes in annoyance. âStop listening then!â I snapped back at her, ignoring the fact that we were in fact the loud ones. Josh laughed. He always did. Presumptuous little bastard. I couldnât help but join in, grateful that it cleared the lingering tension between us at last. I also apologized. And then I once again assured him that I really wasnât going to do that for them.Â
Or was I.Â
One thing that Josh and Gabriel have in common is that they just canât drop the subject. At least not until they get what they want. They asked me again a week later. And then again. Eventually, they altered the strategy, making me believe that I won, only to strike with renewed forces.Â
It was a small dinner party at Samâs house. We had a nice meal, a few⌠or more than a few drinks, and then some music was played. Just the usual shit.Â
The guys looked dazzling that evening. A bit overdressed for the occasion, but that was nothing unusual with the two of them, so no one batted an eye. âThatâs a really cool jacket,â I giggled, admiring Joshâs newest addition to his wardrobe when the three of us went to the kitchen to refill our glasses. I ran my fingers down the rhinestoned ornament on his sleeve. Gabrielâs shirt decently sported a very similar one, though he always preferred just embroidery. âAnd I love how you too match, without it being over the top.â
âOh yeah?â I noticed the fleeting look and the wink shared between them, but I paid it no mind. Not only because they both liked flattery so that was nothing unusual, but also because Joshâs hand between my shoulder blades was rather distracting in a way I would never openly admit. âLetâs take a picture then. I wanna send it to mom. She loves matching outfits.âÂ
Again, nothing unusual. I took pictures at their parties pretty often. Sometimes it was just for me. Memories of precious days I wanted to keep.
âOK, strike a pose, you bastards!â I giggled again, already fumbling with my phone. They quickly wrapped their arms around each other and Josh grinned into the camera in his usual unserious way, but there was something in Gabeâs eyes and his soft smile that made me linger. As if the time suddenly slowed down. It was exactly what he wanted, and as I waited for the best moment to capture, he turned towards Josh, grabbed him by the jaw and kissed him with passion.Â
I gasped. It was a sight previously unseen. I had witnessed a few fleeting kisses before, I had seen them cuddling on the couch or stroking each otherâs arms in passing, but never anything so heated.Â
They didnât stop. They made me watch. Josh mirrored Gabrielâs movements when he ran fingers through the raven locks with eagerness and urgency that normally belonged behind their closed doors, and Gabriel hummed in appreciation. I realized I was holding my breath. The surrounding sounds of the living house around us dulled down, and all I could focus on through my sudden tunnel vision were their tongues playing together in a slow, sensual motion. It was at that moment when I realized they had deliberately orchestrated this to make me feel things. And it did. Just when I thought that it couldnât get any worse, Josh moaned into Gabrielâs open mouth. I bit my lip, unsure whether to say something or just run away from the room and the situation I didnât ask to be part of.Â
It was my unconscious choice to remain rooted on the spot, painfully aware of my panties getting wetter and wetter with each passing second. And just when Gabrielâs hand started moving downward towards the growing bulge between Joshâs legs, the embarrassment became unbearable. âOk, STOP!â I suddenly bursted out. âWhat the fuck is this about?âÂ
That was rhetorical. I knew exactly what the whole thing was about. My answer was still a no.
Those fuckers took their time, unlocking their lips with delighted smiles as if I wasnât even there, and obviously enjoying those theatrics as much as I tried not to. âEhrrm, so,â Josh cleared his throat when he finally dared to meet my eyes. âDid you catch that?â
âThe fuck I did,â I hissed through clenched teeth and angrily threw the phone on the counter table behind me. âWhy the fuck did you do that?âÂ
âWe do that all the time, baby,â Gabe chimed in and shrugged his shoulders with feigned innocence. He desperately tried to keep his poker face, but the corners of his mouth kept twitching. So did the vein on my temple. âIt looks really good, doesnât it? I mean, we. Doing⌠you know⌠I wish I had it printed on my wâŚâ
âFuck you!â I blurted out, pointing my finger at him menacingly before I jabbed Josh in the chest with it. âAnd fuck you, too!â
âOh no, Darling, we want you to justâŚâ But I was already storming out the door, while waving my middle finger at them.Â
If you already think that I couldnât stay mad at them for long, youâre absolutely right. And if you wanna ask whether they tried again â yes, they did. And the reason why Iâm telling this story in the first place should also be pretty obvious by now, because â yes, they eventually succeeded.Â
It so happened that one rainy day I found myself adjusting studio lights in Joshâs bedroom (without Markâs help this time), all while questioning my life choices.Â
âTequila?âÂ
The sound of Joshâs voice coming seemingly out of nowhere made me jump, nearly knocking down one light stand. I was so nervous and so inside my head that I hadnât heard him enter the room, already just in his silk bathrobe. âSorry,â he mumbled and handed me the bottle which I readily accepted. I really needed a drink. Just let it burn my throat, and a few brain cells as well, baby. I gulped it down like a sailor, much to Joshâs amusement.Â
âAre you nervous?â I asked rather unnecessarily when I was done, because he looked like he was going to spend the afternoon by the swimming pool⌠rather than fucking his boyfrind right in front of me. And of course, the question made him giggle.Â
âNo, not really, but it looks like you are.â And there was that hand again, stroking and gently squeezing my forearm as if he were afraid I was on the verge of fainting⌠which wasnât that far from the truth, actually. I just didnât want Josh to know. âHey,â he added in a different tone that only assured me that he knew anyway. The hand now found my cheek, and I blessed his obliviousness. Josh obviously thought that running his thumb over my cheekbone and forcing me to look at him would somehow make it better, while the opposite was true.Â
He was the most beautiful like this, stripped of all the make up and trinkets. Thatâs when his eyes really shone. It made me feel almost sentimental, for the lack of more appropriate words. I managed to have all those sentiments under control most of the time, but this was a brand new territory, and my heart was suddenly skipping a beat at the thought of what was to come. Now the truth reared its ugly head, taking me by surprise at the least convenient moment. Itâs just lust and hormones you bitch, I tried to reassure myself. You didnât get any in a while.Â
Still mercifully clueless, Josh took the bottle from me and smiled encouragingly. âJust pretend youâre working for Discovery Channel.âÂ
I tried to laugh, but it sounded more like something between a sniff and a huff, so I averted my eyes, pretending to be busy with my equipment again. âSo, whatâs the plan, exactly?â
âOh, I donât know,â he chuckled. âSome kissing, hugging, heavy petting⌠my hair might not hold up. Oh, wait! Now Iâm actually nervous.â
He finally managed to make me laugh. âI promise Iâll make you look lovely no matter what.â
âAaahh, thatâs why I love you, Darling.â Now the hand found my side. Right under my left boob, to be more exact. Fighting off the monster it kept awaking, I turned towards Josh with an ironic grin plastered on my face just when he tried to kiss my cheek, and our noses collided rather painfully.Â
âOuch! Fuck! Iâm gonna keep this here you buffoon.â I snatched the bottle back from him as he excused himself to go check on Gabriel, leaving me alone with more than one owie.
I checked the shutter speed and ISO settings one more time, because the tone of their skin messed with my previous adjustments a little bit. âOk, I think Iâm ready.â
And tipsy.Â
The bottle was already half empty by the time we all got set. Which means they were now both already stark naked and idly (and shamelessly) lounging on the bed in front of me. They assured me they were ready too⌠in fact, had been getting ready for the last half an hour in the other room to spare me some âless visually attractive and unnecessarily hindering details,â as Gabried had put it. It was an information I could easily live without.Â
Assessing the view with just one eye open, I clasped my hands together. âShould I say⌠I donât know⌠action, or something?â My voice cracked a little, and I really hoped they wouldnât notice, which was really just wishful thinking. âNo, thatâs actually a bad ideaâŚâ
âYou ok?â
âYeah, Gabe, I assure you Iâve seen that thing before,â I snapped. That thing was already looking back at me, so I assessed they were both just politely waiting for my professional approval to start devouring each other. It felt awkward. What was I supposed to say? âLet the fucking commence?âÂ
âOk, guys,â I sighed. âWhenever youâre really ready. The key is to make all this look as genuine as possible. And natural. Take your time. Improvise. Just forget Iâm here⌠please. And ignore the occasional flash.â
Photographers and cameramen are completely different creatures. You usually canât escape the loud and commanding presence of the latter. We who capture still life memories prefer to be invisible. I always loved photography more exactly for this reason â because it feels more intimate in every way. The best camera is the one thatâs unseen, and the same thing goes for the person who handles it. Everything was set to resemble their usual, private environment as much as possible. Their favorite scented candle was lit, some neutral background music was put on, and I stepped into the shadows behind the lights, focused solely on the viewfinder and waiting...Â
Soon I found my footing.
Without any specific instructions on my part, I let them take the reins. Their muffled conversation became a pleasant hum in my ears, and their bodies were just shapes of light and living matter that morphed into new visually pleasant compositions with each passing second. With a bit of luck, I would be able to go through the whole session treating every snapshot I took exactly this way. I call it âdissociated focusâ.
The first photos were simply beautiful, which is easily done when the objectâs full of love. At first I thought they really looked no different than some of my other clients. Serene and loving gazes you can find on good wedding portraits. Maybe just a bit more⌠primeval. They were both sitting on their heels facing each other and looking into each otherâs eyes. It looked like the beginning of a ritual. I suspected it was vastly different from their usual foreplay, but they were the actors, the directors and the ones who were supposed to enjoy it, so I just let myself marvel at the magic of it.Â
I zoomed at Gabriel's palm gently caressing Joshâs bare chest. What a beautiful detail. Snap. Joshâs closed eyes and his head tilted slightly back, his lips parted as if in devotion â Iâve seen the sight many times before and always admired it. Snap. Many of my colleagues had photographed it in the past and I envied them. Now I took undoubtedly the best one. Now he raised his arms up and let Gabriel trace the outline of his sides. Snap, snap, snap.Â
The kiss that followed⌠I took quite a lot more pictures just of that first kiss, because I sensed thatâs what they wanted when they took it slow, inviting me to capture every detail.Â
Their lips slightly parted, barely touching. Almost bashfully. The electricity was almost visible, the anticipation almost tangible. Snap.
Eyes closed one second â snap â only to lock them in an unfocused gaze a moment later when the tips of their tongues finally met. Sexy as hell. I quickly zoomed in again. Snap. Joshâs eyebrows scrunched together when the feeling intensified and he whimpered to let the other one know how good that shared proximity felt. Snap. A brief moment of vulnerability when they pressed their foreheads together. Snap.Â
This is art, I thought.Â
I was aware of the fact that the atmosphere would shift soon, but my confidence grew every time I pressed the button, and my heartbeat slowly returned to a normal rhythm as I focused on the details showing how their pulse gradually quickened.Â
I proceeded with surgical precision, careful not to miss any facet of their emotional responses to the physical touch.Â
Gabriel slowly pushed Josh on the pillows and bent down to pepper his heaving chest and exposed neck with kisses. He had been right; they really did look good like this. Divine.Â
They sounded even more so, and I had to squeeze my eyes shut for just a tiny second. Just to ground myself. It had been easy to remain calm when I could concentrate purely on the visual aspect of what was happening in front of me, but the moment their intimacies invaded my other, less professional senses, my heart betrayed me again.Â
I took a deep grounding breath and focused on the tiny droplets of sweat that had just formed on Joshâs chest out of pure excitement. They glistened under my spotlights with each intake of his breath just like the rhinestones on his jumpsuits.Â
They kissed again, fervently this time, moaning into each otherâs mouths and gasping for air. Josh reached out to pull Gabe even closer and wrapped his legs around his loverâs hips. I tried to make the best of it, slowly realizing that doing so became increasingly harder with my camera attached to a tripod.Â
Almost as if he could read my mind, Josh suddenly stopped and frowned. âWait!â he breathed out, looking first up at Gabriel and then at me. It alarmed us both, each one for different reasons.Â
âBaby, whatâs wrong?â Gabriel whispered and stroked Joshâs cheek, trying to make him focus solely on himself. It made me feel like asking the same question would come out as extremely intrusive, even though I had probably every right to do so.Â
âThose lights⌠I just donât like it. Doncha think it just looks⌠staged?â That belonged to me.Â
âOh, fuck it!â Yes, he was completely right. I turned their bedroom into a fucking studio, completely ignoring the fact that it could erase the very essence of what they wanted me to capture. I wasnât there to photograph porn stills, for fuckâs sake. I quickly slid the camera out of the tripod mount and switched off the lights. âYouâre fucking right. Iâm sorry. Light more candles.âÂ
I feared this stupid intermezzo would completely ruin the mood and the magic they had been building, but it had to be done and thankfully, once more candles were lit and I readjusted my camera settings, they quickly went back to where they had started: slowly exploring each otherâs bodies as if nothing else in the world actually mattered.Â
It probably didnât. At least for a while.Â
I could no longer hide, though. I had to come closer and essentially invade the personal space of their bed. They didnât mind, so I just had to convince myself to be okay with it as well.Â
Gabriel climbed up the bed and leaned against the headboard, pulling Josh in between his legs and letting him rest against his chest. âHow does it look?â he asked me quietly.Â
What did he expect me to say? I wasnât supposed to take any part in this, but my presence in the room suddenly became nauseatingly loud. They were both staring at me lazily, their naked bodies bathing in the candlelight and their faces already fucked out even though nothing had really happened yet.Â
Well, not in front of me, I quickly reminded myself.
Without breaking eye contact with me, Gabriel took Joshâs earlobe in between his teeth. His middle fingers quickly found Joshâs nipples and started drawing slow circles around them. The latter one just closed his eyes and, letting his head rest against Gabeâs shoulder, he let out a contented hum. Snap.Â
âIt looks arousing,â I answered truthfully, done with their games.Â
âYou should come closer.â
What a preposterous suggestion. I was already hovering above the foot of the bed, with one knee already on the mattress to keep balance, and I could feel my heart in my throat when Gabriel slid his right hand down Joshâs stomach and wrapped his fingers around his cock, which earned him a breathy whimper. Encouraged, Gabriel started pumping him slowly while his lips attacked Joshâs neck.Â
I almost whimpered too.Â
Joshâs eyes suddenly opened again and he looked right into mine. Snap. Another high-pitched moan escaped his parted lips. I couldnât stand it. I lowered the lens, only to see the swollen tip of his dick in the viewfinger, already glistening with precum. Snap. It was without a doubt the most obscene photo I had ever taken.Â
âYou really should come closer.â My eyes snapped back at the familiar sound and I saw Josh still watching me intently. My head was spinning.Â
âI canât,â I whispered, but my deceitful body already moved on its own. I slowly put the camera aside and placed my palms down on the mattress, clumsily and reluctantly. I almost touched Joshâs foot.Â
âHeâs been talking about that mouth for weeks.â
Gabrielâs words made the air in my lungs freeze. He continued stroking his loverâs dick all the way up and down and a few juicy profanities escaped Joshâs lips. It all seemed like a strange fever dream. My eyes started stinging with tears, although I couldnât really explain why. It was all just overwhelming. âDid you⌠set me up?â I barely recognized my voice. There was hurt in it, but also something close to exhilaration. I realized I felt both. âYouâre an asshole, Joshua Kiszka,â I whispered again, and he just closed his eyes and sighed.
âI guess⌠I, âŚam⌠but I swear, uh, we didnât.âÂ
âSo what is this?â I barked at Gabriel, suddenly full of fiery defiance. My blood ran hot with it.Â
âI guess you would call it improvisation.â
RightâŚ. RIGHT!Â
So Josh wanted me to suck his dick. And his boyfriend was ready to watch. I was no stranger to kinky shit, so if they wanted to play with fire theyâd better get ready.Â
And god knows I really wanted to do that. To lick those shiny droplets off the slit⌠and then to choke on the size of him.Â
Without any further ado, I reached for the hem of my tee and pulled it over my head, instantly flashing them with my bare tits. I rarely wear a bra, because I can confidently say that I donât really need it. I hoped they would at least appreciate them for their natural beauty, but the way they both sucked in breath encouraged me even more.Â
âHold him,â I commanded Gabriel and immediately grinned at their vastly different reactions. Joshâs eyes popped out, but Gabe just grinned back with malicious glee. Â
âOh, ma donna, me likey.â He grabbed Josh by the elbows and pulled his arms back, while I stood up right on that mattress to pull my shorts and panties down. I almost lost my balance, but it was worth it. If they wanted me to actively participate in this beautiful filthiness, it shouldnât be just a one sided spectacle.Â
I quickly slid back down on my knees and playfully nudged at Joshâs knees to make him spread his legs a bit more for me. Why waste time? I licked a long stripe up his abdomen and chest before meeting his eyes up close this time. âSo tell me, what were you imagining? I can do anything.â
For the second time in a few months, the cosmos raptured again, rendering this little blabbermouth speechless. I wasnât interested in waiting for the reply anyway, already dying to have him in my mouth. âJust remember, both of you⌠âstopâ is the word. OK?âÂ
I wanted to be sure, because unlike them, I had nothing to lose.Â
After getting the assurance, I slid further down and planted a soft kiss on his inner thigh before looking up for one last time. âGabriel, do me a favor. Keep kissing his neck. I want him to lose his mind.â I was realistic enough to know that I couldnât compete with the brunette in any way, time or space, so â already flattered by the sheer fact I had permission to make Josh feel good â I just wanted to make it unforgettable.Â
With all my senses alert, I planted another kiss on the same spot as before and simultaneously wrapped my fingers around Joshâs balls to knead them gently. He emitted a soft sigh and his things shook a little. It was good, it was indeed very satisfactory indeed, but I wanted him to squirm and beg for more. At least for once. I moved my parted lips slowly up his thigh and Josh suddenly moaned right before I reached the desired destination, just before I felt him run his fingers through my hair.Â
I tried to look up to confirm that Gabriel was no longer holding him. Instead he got back to rubbing and pinching his nipples. Good. I let go of Joshâs balls and sucked them in my mouth instead, relishing in the immediate, very vocal reaction.Â
He smelled so good. Like dried apricots with whipped cream. My desire to taste all of him grew stronger, so I let go of the soft mass with a playful pop and let my flattened tongue slide all he was up from the base to his leaking head. I planted a soft kiss there before darting my tongue out to finally get a taste of that salty nectar.
I could feel his fingers tremble on my scalp, but nothing more. A lot of the guys I had been with would already push me down, but Josh was a true gentleman. I wanted to reward him for it, so I took him fully in my mouth until he hit the back of my throat.Â
Josh cried out and his grip on my hair tightened. I loved it. Somewhere at the back of my head, I saw all three of us on that bed, with Josh sandwiched between us and completely at our mercy. Squirming and moaning with his eyes squeezed shut and his plump lower lips trembling. Too bad there was no one else to take the picture of it, because just the idea made me so wet I could feel it trickling down my thighs.Â
It would be a shame to let it all go to waste, I thought. Iâm not greedy, just a little vain. As I kept bobbing my head up and down, my vanity led my hand to reach down and scoop that juice on my fingers before I reached up to push them rather unceremoniously in Joshâs mouth.Â
He understood immediately, wrapping his lips around them and sucking them deeper in. He was a natural, and for a split second I wished I had a dick.Â
âShit, I need more of this,â Josh breathed out when he finally let go. I was more than willing to oblige, but then I heard a groan and someone suddenly grabbed my wrist, making me look up.Â
It was Gabriel, and I halted. Confused and worried, I let Joshâs cock slide from my mouth. I had completely forgotten about him and now I feared he may have had enough. âThatâs not what he meant,â he said simply with that aloof grace that was both magnetic and intimidating.Â
It took me a while to realize what was going on. I straightened up a bit because I felt like an idiot looking at them in confusion on all four. There was the hand again, caressing my cheek like it had done earlier that day. I searched Joshâs eyes for an answer and he just smiled, before he straightened up a bit as well and pulled me in his arms.Â
I suddenly understood why their foreplay looked like a ballet. He was doing the same thing to me now, making me feel like a feather being blown around. Before I could make sense of it all, I was suddenly lying on my back with Josh hovering above me. âRemember, âstopâ is the word,â he repeated my previous words with a soft smile. I still didnât understand, until I saw Gabriel behind him, already planting soft kisses on his back. âDarling⌠OK?â Josh repeated.Â
âOk,â I breathed out at last and closed my eyes.Â
I shivered a bit when he started planting soft kisses along my clavicle, and then moving further down. The sensation was soft and steady at first, before his lips started to treble too just somewhere above my navel.Â
Somewhere behind him, I heard a bottle cap pop. So this is what we were doing, I thought still in disbelief. I didnât know why I suddenly felt so sentimental about it, but it all just felt so good. There was no way Iâd ever tell them to stop.Â
But Josh suddenly did, though he never really let go. He just rested his forehead against my inner thigh as his breath grew more and more heavy. I still didnât dare open my eyes, still feeling a bit like an intruder, which was completely ridiculous as I lay there naked with Josh between my legs. His labored exhales slowly turned to moans and soon I heard another voice join him.Â
It made me feel completely lightheaded.Â
The hand ran down my thigh now, all the way down from my knee to my left buttock where he stopped and squeezed my flesh gently in a silent query. I could only nod.Â
His next kiss made me gasp. I knew it was coming, but it still felt too good to be true. He started with hesitant catlike licks, so I made sure to let him know with my next exhale how wonderful it felt. Fuck, I had never felt so sentimental about having my pussy eaten before.Â
I finally dared to open my eyes only to see his own peeking at me from under the mass of messy curls. He raised his eyebrows just a tad. Another silent question. Yes, I yearned for more of this from him and I brushed my fingertips gently over his forehead, hoping that was a good enough answer because I momentarily forgot how to speak. Josh closed his eyes and finally sucked my clit in his mouth. Behind him, Gabriel hovered over both of us with his head tilted back and his mind lost somewhere in his own growing pleasure.Â
Soon I was grasping at the sheets around me and arching my back as the room kept rocking and spinning.Â
Josh came first, briefly pausing so as not to hurt me. He let out a strangled cry and just his hot breath on my pussy was almost enough to send me over the edge as well.Â
âJosh, pleaseâŚ,â I found my voice again. âI donât care if you bite me, justâŚâ
Just. He had just enough time to envelop my bud with his lips and send waves of delightful spasms though my whole body before his own started to shake as Gabe quickened his pace.Â
As soon as I came back to Earth, I briefly looked around, only to see that a small stool with my camera on it was just within my reach, so I got a devilish idea. Snap.Â
I caught it this time. The most obscene photo I had ever taken.
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Ooooooo what's this then? đ
Gonna chill out the rest of May and then change my entire life in June. Possibly July if that doesn't work out. Certainly no later than September or October.
your honor, i love these idiots
Joy and whimsy detected! This post is joyful and whimsical!
Istg just tell me what the little fuzz ball is saying
hearing a recent josh giggle has made my day and it's not even 9am
forgive me father for i am back on my bullshit
(by Mark Andreas Jones)
nothing will ever be age of man live at red rocks
Jake Kiszka x F!OC
Word count: 2.9k
Warnings: Pregnancy, Cursing, Alcohol use, Trauma, Angst, Death, Loss, Grief, Depression, Self doubt, Emotional distress, Mental health struggles, Pining, Dad Jake. If at anytime you feel I have missed tagging something, please let me know! I literally am just attaching the warnings from the original story here because they all still apply here, mostly.
Hey! Long time no see... So I had an idea after I saw a tiktok recently of a baby asleep on a guitar that was being played. Here is that video, and it is the cutest thing I've seen in a while. I tried to write this in a way that it can be read without the bother of needing to read Closer, and I hope that I succeeded with that. I just needed to revisit those characters. Like Closer, this is not the story for you if you are looking for smut, because there is none. I do have several other stories that have plenty that can be found in my masterlist, if that is what you are looking for.
The house had not known silence in three weeks, not with a newborn. Not real silence, anyway.
There was always some kind of noise now. Soft cries drifting through baby monitors at two in the morning, the squeak of the rocking chair in the nursery, whispered lullabies tangled with exhaustion, the rustle of blankets and sleepy footsteps across hardwood floors.
Sometimes, in the quiet seconds between those sounds, Savannah still caught herself listening for another set of footsteps that no longer came. Small socked feet racing through the hallway. Oliviaâs bright little laugh echoing from the kitchen when she used to dance barefoot on the tile while Jake made pancakes on Saturday mornings.
The ache of missing her had softened with time, but it never disappeared completely. It lived quietly inside the walls of the house now beside all this new life.
Savannah felt like she had not truly slept since the moment their Everly had been placed in her arms. She loved the baby so fiercely it hurt. Loved her tiny little fists and warm milk breath and the little sounds she made when she stretched in her sleep.
But God, she was tired.
Not just normal tired either. She felt that soul deep tired that was always so poorly portrayed in movies and on tv shows. The kind of exhaustion that lived behind her eyes and settled heavy in her chest. The kind that made minutes blur together until she wasnât entirely sure if it was Tuesday or Friday.Â
The kind where she would walk into a room and forget why she had gone there in the first place, only to stand in the middle of it fighting tears because she suddenly felt overwhelmed by absolutely everything.
And sometimes, usually when the exhaustion got bad enough, grief snuck up on her too.
Because this was supposed to be chaos. Olivia should have been here trying to âhelpâ with diapers and asking a million questions and insisting she hold Everly every five minutes. Savannah could picture it so vividly it almost hurt. The way Olivia would have climbed beside her on the couch with messy curls and sleepy eyes, whispering, âCan I hold my sister now?â
Jake noticed.
Of course he did, he noticed everything about her.
He noticed how she kept forgetting to drink the coffee she reheated three different times every morning. How she absentmindedly rubbed her chest after feedings or pumping because she was sore. How she still instinctively checked the bassinet every few minutes even when the baby was sleeping peacefully right beside her.Â
He noticed the way she tried to smile through exhaustion because she didnât want him worrying too much.
He also noticed the moments her eyes drifted toward the framed photograph on the bookshelf without her realizing it. The one of Olivia sitting on his shoulders at the county fair two summers before they lost her, cotton candy stuck to her cheeks while she laughed so hard her whole body tilted sideways.
Sometimes Savannah would look at that picture with tears in her eyes, sometimes she smiled.
Most days, somehow, it was both.
That morning, Savannah sat curled in the corner of the couch, Everly tucked against her shoulder as weak sunlight filtered through the curtains. Her hair was piled into a messy knot that was barely holding together, and one of Jakeâs old hoodies hung off her frame. She blinked slowly at the television without actually watching it, swaying gently out of instinct more than intention.
Jake leaned against the doorway for a moment, quietly taking her in. His breath felt stolen from his lungs by the beautiful scene in front of him.
Three weeks ago, he had watched Savannah bring their daughter into the world with tears streaming down her face and his hand nearly crushed in hers. Three weeks later, he still looked at them both like they were something holy.
There had been another moment years earlier when he had looked at Savannah the exact same way. Sitting cross legged on the nursery floor with Olivia asleep in her lap after a thunderstorm had scared her awake.Â
Jake remembered standing in the doorway then too, overwhelmed by how deeply he loved the girls in front of him. Back then, he had foolishly believed life would always stay that soft.
Everly had finally fallen asleep after nearly an hour of fussing, tiny lips parted against Savannahâs collarbone.
But Savannahâs own eyes kept drifting shut. Her chin dipped once, then twice before her head jerked back up.
Jakeâs chest tightened, âBaby,â he said softly.
Savannah hummed sleepily without looking at him.
âGo lay down.â
Her eyes opened a little more. âIâm okay.â
âYouâre falling asleep sitting up.â
âNo Iâm not.â
Jake raised an eyebrow.
Savannah blinked at him for a second before sighing. âOkay, maybe a little.â
An equally tired smile tugged at his mouth as he crossed the room carefully. âSav.â
She looked up at him then, and God, the exhaustion in her face nearly wrecked him. Dark circles beneath pretty green eyes, her shoulders slumped with fatigue.
Still just as beautiful though, always beautiful, but worn thin.
Jake crouched in front of her, brushing gentle fingers over the babyâs tiny back. âGo upstairs and sleep for a little while.â
Savannah hesitated instantly. âSheâs been fussy all morning.â
âI know.â
âShe probably wonât stay asleep.â
âIâll handle it.â
Her brows pulled together. âJake-â
âSavannah.â His voice softened. âYou need sleep.â
Jake reached for Everly, causing her to stir faintly between them while making a tiny grumbling sound. Instantly Sav instinctively tightened her hold.
Jake smiled gently. âSee? Weâre already surviving.â
A weak laugh slipped out of her.
âI mean it,â he murmured. âGo lay down for a couple of hours. Two, three, whatever you need.â
Savannah studied him carefully like she wanted to argue, but she was too tired to fully commit to it.
âYou sure?â
Jake leaned forward and kissed her forehead, âPositive.â
Reluctantly, she loosened her grasp and transferred the baby into his arms.
Jake adjusted Everly carefully against his chest as he held the back of her tiny head in his hand. The baby immediately settled there like she already recognized the safety of him.
For one fleeting second, another memory crashed into him unexpectedly. Olivia, asleep on his chest after falling asleep during movie night, tiny curls tickling his chin while Savannah laughed quietly at the sight of them both snoring on the couch.
The memory hurt but somehow now, it also healed.
Savannah stared at them for a second too long. Jake noticed that too, âSheâs okay, mama,â he whispered.
Something soft and emotional flickered across Savannahâs face at the word mama. Jake had started calling her that sometime during the second week home from the hospital, and somehow every single time he said it, it still made her chest ache.
Not because it was new, but because she had once feared she might never hear it again after losing Olivia. Savannah nodded slowly before dragging herself upstairs. The second her head hit the pillow, sleep swallowed her whole.
Downstairs, things actually went surprisingly well at first.
Jake changed Everly, fed her, and walked laps around the living room while quietly humming half-finished melodies under his breath. Every once in a while heâd stop to kiss the top of her tiny head, still unable to fully process the fact that she was real.
His daughter.
There were moments when the weight of it hit him so suddenly it nearly stole the air from his lungs.
Not just because he loved her already beyond reason, but because after Olivia died, there had been a stretch of time where both he and Savannah quietly stopped talking all together. The grief had been too sharp, too unpredictable. Hope had felt dangerous for a while.
And now here he was, standing in the same living room that once held so much unbearable mourning while holding another miracle against his chest. The house still carried Olivia in it, and always would but laughter had started living there again too.
The baby seemed content enough tucked against his shoulder, tiny fingers curled in the fabric of his well worn T-shirt, but around an hour later, she started getting fussy again. Not fully crying, just restless sleepy little whines.
Jake bounced her gently as he moved through the house. âCâmon, sweetheart,â he murmured. âYouâre tired, I know it.â
Nothing worked. He tried the swing, the rocking chair, walking, swaddling her tightly, even another bottle. Through white noise and silence she fought sleep with impressive determination for someone so impossibly tiny.
Jake sighed while rubbing tiredly at his jaw, âYou get that stubbornness from your mother, huh?â
Everly blinked up at him before letting out another tiny unhappy sound.
âYeah, definitely from your mother.â
Through all of it, one thing kept circling his brain.
A chord progression.
Four soft notes looping endlessly in the back of his mind since sometime around sunrise. He could hear it so perfectly, he could almost feel it clawing to get out. Usually, heâd grab his guitar immediately before inspiration disappeared, but heâd been busy being a father all morning. Now the melody was practically vibrating under his skin.
Everly let out another unhappy little sound. Jake glanced toward the hallway before looking back down at her, âYou wanna help me write a song?â he asked quietly. Her tiny face scrunched in response. Jake laughed softly. âYeah, thatâs about what I expected.â
Instead of going to his office, he grabbed his acoustic from beside the couch and sat carefully, settling Everly upright against his chest while he adjusted the guitar across his lap.
The guitar itself was old and worn smooth in places from years of use. Olivia had once covered the back of it in tiny glitter star stickers when she was three because she said it looked âtoo plain.â Jake had never removed them. One tiny silver star still clung stubbornly near the bottom edge.
His chest tightened briefly when he noticed it.
Then he played the progression quietly. Soft, warm notes filled the room like sunlight through sheer curtains. Instantly, the baby stilled. Jake blinked at her when he noticed. Another gentle strum and the babyâs fussing dissolved into tiny little coos. His eyebrows lifted. âOh, seriously?â
He played the progression again, adding another chord this time as the baby made a soft happy sound against his chest. Jake huffed out a surprised laugh. âWell alright then.â
For the next several minutes, he kept playing, building onto the melody slowly. Testing harmonies and adjusting timing. Every time the music continued, Everly would calm, little sleepy noises replacing the fussing entirely.
Jake looked down at her with disbelief, âYou just wanted music?â A tiny yawn answered him, and his heart nearly folded in on itself. He softened immediately, fingers slowing across the strings as he watched her blinking sleepily against him.
âYouâre gonna make your mama think Iâm some kind of baby whisperer.â
Everly stretched faintly before settling again at the sound of the guitar. After a while, Jake worried the guitar might be too loud so close to her tiny ears. Carefully, he stood and transferred her into the swing beside the couch.
The second he stepped away and started playing again her face crumpled and a sharp cry pierced the room. Jake froze, âNo way.â The crying escalated immediately, so he abandoned the guitar and scooped her back up. âOkay, okay, okay.â
The moment he settled her back against him and strummed another chord brought silence followed by soft little coos again. Jake stared at her in absolute confusion, âYouâre kidding me.â He tried laying her beside him on the couch instead, thinking maybe she just wanted proximity.
Wrong move. The second his arm shifted away, she cried again. Jake laughed in disbelief, exhausted and amused all at once. âYou are unbelievably dramatic for someone whoâs been alive less than a month.â Another offended cry ripped through the mostly quiet house.
âAlright, alright,â he picked her up again, adjusting awkwardly as he tried to keep playing but eventually, his arms started burning. The angle wasnât working. Without fully thinking it through, Jake gently laid Everly across the body of the acoustic guitar itself, her tiny stomach against the worn wood while his forearm curved protectively around her.
Then he strummed softly again as the vibrations hummed gently beneath her. Instantly, she relaxed into stillness. Jake stared down at her as her tiny body melted against the guitar. One slow blink followed by another that melted into sleep. Deep, peaceful sleep. Her tiny fingers flexed once against the wood before going completely limp with comfort.
Jake stared down at her like she had personally rewritten the laws of physics with how she was stretched along the top of his guitar body, âWell,â he whispered, stunned. âGuess we figured that out.â
Carefully and softly, he kept playing. The melody shifted and grew beneath his fingers while Everly slept soundly atop the guitar, tiny breaths steady and warm against polished wood.
And suddenly, without warning, Jake realized the melody he was playing sounded faintly familiar. Not identical, but just enough. A distant echo of the lullaby he used to play for Olivia when she couldnât sleep.
His throat tightened instantly.
For a moment grief and love tangled together so tightly inside his chest he couldnât separate them. But instead of breaking him apart the way it once would have, the feeling settled around him gently. Almost tenderly, like maybe Olivia was still part of this somehow too. Still loved, and still here in the spaces between the music.
And for the first time since bringing Everly home, Jake felt confidence settle into him instead of panic. Not because he suddenly knew what he was doing, but because maybe fatherhood wasnât always about having the answers.
Sometimes it was just about paying attention, learning Everly and loving her enough to keep trying until something worked just as he had done with Olivia.
For the first time in weeks, the house felt calm.
Upstairs, Savannah slowly stirred awake. For a moment, she didnât understand what felt different. Then it hit her.
Quiet.
No crying, no monitor sounds, no tension sitting heavy in her chest. Somehow, she actually felt rested. More rested than she had since giving birth. Confused, Savannah pushed herself upright and glanced at the clock. Nearly three hours. Her eyes widened immediately.
âJake?â
Panic flickered briefly before she climbed out of bed and padded toward the stairs. The house downstairs was dim and golden with late afternoon light and quiet. Carefully, Savannah descended the stairs, one hand trailing along the railing and then she saw them.
Jake sat on the couch with his head tipped slightly downward in concentration, fingers moving gently across the strings of his acoustic, and stretched across the top of the guitar in his lap was their daughter, fast asleep.
One tiny hand curled loosely against the wood while soft breaths rose and fell steadily from her tiny chest.
Jake looked impossibly peaceful beneath the golden light, loose strands from his low bun falling into his eyes as he quietly played an unfinished melody. Savannah stopped halfway down the stairs as her chest physically ached at the sight. It was one of those moments she knew would stay with her forever. The kind that settled permanently into the deepest parts of a person.Â
Somehow, heartbreak existed there too because she could almost picture another little girl curled beside Jake on the couch singing nonsense lyrics over his guitar playing. Could almost hear Olivia laughing and insisting she knew all the words when she absolutely did not.
For one brief second, Savannah missed her so fiercely she thought it might split her open. Then Everly sighed softly in her sleep, warm and alive and safe, as joy rushed in right alongside the grief. Not replacing it, but existing beside it.
Jake glanced up at the movement and immediately grinned. âThere she is,â he whispered. Savannah blinked rapidly, emotion climbing unexpectedly into her throat. âWhat⌠is she doing?â Jake looked down at the baby like he still couldnât quite believe it himself. âApparently sleeping on my guitar.â
A soft laugh escaped Savannah before she could stop it. Jake smiled sheepishly. âItâs interesting. I tried moving her, but she hated it.â Savannah descended the rest of the stairs slowly, almost afraid to disturb the moment, âShe wouldnât sleep unless you played?â
âNot just played,â Jake corrected quietly, âApparently she specifically wanted to become one with the acoustic.â Savannah laughed softly again, covering her mouth to muffle the sound.
The sound of her laughter filled the room so warmly that for one impossible heartbeat, Jake could almost hear Olivia laughing too. Not in a haunting or painful way, just remembered and fully loved.
Jakeâs expression became softer as he looked at her more closely, âYou look better.â The tenderness in his voice nearly undid her. She crossed the room carefully before sitting beside him, leaning into his shoulder instinctively.
Jake kissed the top of her head without missing a chord. For a long moment, neither of them spoke. They just sat together in the golden quiet while music drifted softly through the room and their daughter slept peacefully between them.
Savannah looked down at Everly stretched across the guitar and smiled tiredly. âI think she already loves music as much as her dad.â Jakeâs fingers slowed briefly against the strings as he looked at Everly with something unbearably soft in his eyes. Then, quietly, he glanced toward the tiny silver star sticker still clinging to the guitar.
âYeah,â he whispered. âI think maybe she does.â
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- I have to warn you about something. - What?
ADAM DRIVER as ADAM SACKLER Girls (2012) 1.03 "All Adventurous Women Do"
Sounds alright to me
That one Adam Driver scene in Girls did permanent damage. So I used it productively. He lives in the manuscript now.
Lazy Friday Shenanigans
Jake Kiszka x f!OC (Veela) 6.600 words
Well, at first I just wanted to write a one-shot about a slowly developing intimacy in a new, complicated relationship, and that's what this essentially is! But, as I started thinking about the characters, my mind kept going back to Olalla. (Sorry, not sorry.) So, while this hopefully works as a standalone piece, it's also set within the Olalla universe, specifically chapter 18. However, I think that you really don't need to know the story to be able to enjoy this.
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, intended for adult readers. Any resemblance to real persons is purely coincidental. Also, if you're under 18, go find some other entertainment elsewhere.
Warnings (are spoilers): vague allusions to past trauma, insomnia, fear, alkohol consuption, oral sex (both f/m receiving), hopefully an insanely and melancholically sweet foreplay, lovemaking, rough sex, hair pulling, teasing, scratching, light dom play, throatfucking, Jake being a sweet and considerate lover, Jake being a wild beast
April 24th 2026, cabin outside Bretton Woods
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Jake used to hate waking up before sunrise. To be fair, it almost never happened anyway. Ever since his late teens, he had been deliberately trying to avoid it, and for a reason. The minutes before dawn used to feel cold and dreary, almost oppressive. His wandering mind just couldnât attune to how time seemed to slow down right before everything came back to life.Â
He had no idea how it started and why, always just attributing it to being a night owl and leaving it at that.Â
It was different with sunsets⌠and all those hours that came after that. Jake had learned to love the stillness of the night. The music always sounded different, more acute and intense. His own thoughts made sense in the dark. Maybe thatâs exactly why he didnât want to witness the end of it. As soon as the birds started chirping, singing their own song to greet the sun, he suddenly felt ill at ease. It was his cue to close his eyes at last and sleep through the moment.Â
Veela changed that.Â
Sheâd been doing that gradually at first. Intentionally, no doubt, and with the subtlety of someone who wants you to think youâre still in charge while the very opposite is true.Â
It started well back in Copenhagen, when sheâd sneak out of their hotel room disgustingly early (to his standards) to go buy coffee and kanelsnegls while Jake was still fast asleep, and then sheâd teasingly eat the pastry and drink the fragrant caramel latte right in bed right next to Jake just to make the mouth-watering smell rouse him too.Â
At first Jake stubbornly tried to fight that, but Veela soon learned to call his bluff when he only pretended to be still asleep. And then, as soon as he dared to open one eye, she gave him a cute little lecture as to why it was essential for him to attune to her own circadian rhythm.Â
Because â she said â if they were bound to live together, they really had to share those moments together. Jake couldnât really argue with that, even if she let him. Veela was just as stubborn, but also often much more fiery when it came to her âtruthsâ. Also, the real meaning behind her words melted his heart. He just let her rant about that, sympathetically nodding every now and then. Jakeâs sleeping habits were clearly one of her strongest pet peeves, but whatever made her forget about the real issues for a while and focus just on the two of them was good.Â
So she went on and on about how she had already made the compromise of waiting until the sun was already high up in the sky, which meant she had to lie in bed completely awake for more than two hours. And that was a torture â she said â what with her own inner clock set to âwake up when the cock crowsâ. At first Jake misheard her, which nearly cost him his life as the coffee went down the wrong pipe.Â
With a mixture of confusion and horror in her eyes, Neszka gave him a few back blows before she finally realized what sheâd just said and how it actually sounded. And then she started laughing.Â
It sounded like the most beautiful song to him and she looked the most beautiful like that. Even though still coughing and with his eyes watering, Jake just couldnât stop watching her.Â
Those days back in Europe were filled with many more equally precious moments â tiny promises of a better future â before reality hit again, sending them back to where they had started. During those days that followed, Jake stopped sleeping late on his own, not as a result of her previous efforts, but because he simply couldnât rest unless it was with her in his arms. He kept replaying her laughter in his head to keep himself going on during the waking hours.Â
None of it really stopped him from disliking early mornings, though. Despite Jakeâs subconscious worries that just made him more alert, and Veelaâs previous efforts to alter his habits, now hindered by jet-lag and her mental breakdown, everything really changed just last night after the fated drunk fuck that almost destroyed all their previous efforts to find a genuine way to each other.
At first he woke up unexpectedly early, confused and disoriented after they had ended up doing god knows what and then crashing out god knows when. Most importantly, he was alone.
Drunkenness never granted Jake a good nightâs sleep, but this was still unusual, as if some secret force told him she needed him, urging him to open his eyes and go find her crying on the bathroom floor.Â
Jake could barely remember the sex. Only the indisputable smell of her still lingering right under his nose gave him a first clue as to what had happened. Judging from what Veela said when they were kneeling there on the cold tiles, her own recollections of the previous evening were even hazier. She blamed her fresh tears on having had too much, but the hangover was largely emotional. She didnât have to say a thing; he knew that just from looking at her.Â
Half an hour later and back in bed, Jake managed to lull her back to sleep just when the fading darkness started to uncover the shapes of furniture⌠and her. And he didnât mind. Suddenly, he didnât want to miss it. She was like a chimera that finally materialized and reluctantly became part of his world. It was no longer just a bad dream featuring the girl he had thought heâd never have. He could touch her now. He had touched her, and kept doing so⌠even though every single step forward was still accompanied with reluctance and apprehension. Yet it had a strange appeal to it.Â
And so the steely dimness didnât seem to hurt his eyes anymore. Suddenly, the metallic-tone light of the approaching dawn seemed very welcome as he watched her dark blue silhouette emerging from the previous inky darkness.Â
Once again, she appeared to be almost out of this world. Jake could spend hours just watching her. It was fatigue and his own nauseating hangover that made him close them eventually.Â
And then she disappeared for the second time that morning, leaving her side of the bed once again left cold and empty when he stirred again. It was actually almost noon, and this time she was nowhere to be found.Â
Took his car keys, left no message.Â
Jake panicked, cursing himself for oversleeping that impending disaster.Â
âJake,  is there a reason why⌠why this should be concerning?â Jake could barely hear Josh on the phone because of the previously uttered words that kept replaying in his own head.Â
âYouâre such an asshole!ââAnd youâre bitch. Weâre even.âÂ
Despite all the other seemingly good things that had happened in the past few days, this was suddenly all he could remember. Of course it was concerning, given the circumstantial fragility of their budding relationship. Jake was just still reluctant to openly admit his own part in it.Â
As he was standing in that oppressively silent room, reaching out to the only person who he could think of while at the same time reluctant to talk to him about it, Veelaâs departure seemed permanent for a split second. It made no sense, and at the same time, he found himself to have been dreading it all that time.Â
She had nowhere to go, except one infinitely dark place⌠and just thinking about that possibility felt like being gutted alive.Â
Threatening to become his greatest personal failure yet.Â
And then she was suddenly back, drenched in rain and full of promises she finally swore to keep. Having slept late turned out to be sort of a blessing after all â as Jake had mercifully missed all those hours of her being gone, and so he spent only several minutes in that panicked state, even though it still felt like a lifetime.Â
âI want to do it again,â she said while trying to quench his understandable anger, with her face full of worry, apprehension and hope. âIâm sorry I scared you. I love you. I really do. Take me. Make me yours, sweet Jake.â
And he did. Properly this time. And repeatedly. And then he almost fucked it all up again.Â
Itâs safe to say it was quite an eventful day, unexpectedly full of sex, and unsurprisingly ending in yet another fight and more shared tears. More shared words, too. Those were all painful, but necessary steps. Opening up to each other, even though it was surprisingly hard to do. They once again fell asleep way too early to his standards, seemingly ok and finally reconciled.
However, with a woman such as her, you never know whether things are truly ok, even when she holds you tight.Â
The memory of it all disturbed Jakeâs sleep yet again way too soon.
So as soon as his eyes opened on their own, his heart jumped to his throat and he started groping around in the darkness. It was still too early for the sun to light up the horizon, but the birds outside already started greeting it. Jakeâs chest tightened instinctively after all the previous experience. However, this time, she was there, roused from her own shallow sleep and positively alarmed by his sudden charge.Â
âJake? ZĹotko, what happened?â she whispered, instinctively turning towards him. They couldnât really see each other yet, but that only made them more perceptive to the touch. The seclusion of the cabin offered this rare nocturnal experience that heightened other senses.Â
It was⌠nice.Â
âAre you ok?â she tried again, this time a bit more loudly. The sound of her voice, a bit husky this early in the morning, calmed him down almost instantly.Â
Jake didnât respond, at least not with words. Instead, he accepted her tender offer to snuggle closer to her and buried his face at the small of her neck, inhaling the soft scent of her warmed-up skin. Even though she had urged him to let go and just be himself, willingly showing signs of weakness still didnât feel like an option.Â
Veela seemed to know. âIâm here,â she mumbled.
Stating the obvious, but also addressing his greatest fear, now that she finally knew what it was. None of it mattered any longer as long as she was lying next to him. The atmosphere changed, the birdsong outside the open window turned to a pleasant ambient tune the moment her warm hand found his bare hip under the comforter and started stroking it lazily.Â
A seemingly innocent gesture, but also way too close to the danger zone. It seemed like a very deliberate choice on her part. A fucking siren striking again.Â
It was the first night they slept completely naked like that, and Jake was still getting used to it. After all those months of pining, there were finally no restraints. Anything could happen now, all the things heâd been imagining for so long, yet all he wanted at that particular moment was to continue exploring this new kind of serene closeness.Â
He had held her tight before, always wondering if that was really what she wanted. Now that she pressed her warm body to his with fresh urgency and wrapped her arms around him, Jake finally gave in to the luxury of worrying no more. The feeling covered him like a cooling balm to soothe an irritated skin.Â
Still barely awake, Veela rubbed her cheek against his like a cuddly cat. âI love you,â she whispered right in his ear, and giggled mischievously when she felt his response under the comforter, immediately remembering her late grandmother's words. âMen are simple creatures.âÂ
âWho would have thought youâre such a hopeless romantic,â she added, her voice still laced with tease.
No shit. The first time they met, he was anything but. Deliberately. Who would have thought that Jakeâd ever reveal this particular part of himself to her one day. And who would have thought heâd ever feel so at peace at such an ungodly hour⌠all because of her.Â
Jake loved the change. It was a brand new day⌠and it would be a long one, so no need to rush it, he thought. They shared a few warm closed-lip kisses before he slipped into blissful semiconsciousness as the darkness began to fade behind his closed eyelids.Â
Jake probably dozed off a bit, but not enough to miss when she silently got up from the bed and sneaked out of the room. He listened closely to the sound of running water coming from the bathroom, soon replaced by the clinking sound of dishware and the clapping of her footsteps on the wooden floor. His mind immediately wandered off and he could hear new, inspired tunes inside his head.Â
Maybe he should have gotten out of bed as well⌠to write it down, or just to check on her like heâd often done. But Jake was in no hurry all of the sudden. The scent of her lingered in the air long after he left the room, lulling him into believing that this could be for good.Â
A few minutes later â or maybe an hour, who knows⌠â he felt the mattress behind him dip, followed by her gentle, teasing kisses on his neck. âMmm, what?â
âBreakfast,â she mumbled and bit his earlobe, making Jake smile in response with his eyes still mostly closed. He turned on his back, giving her a better access and relishing in the simple pleasure of feeling her hand slide down his bare chest. The smell of freshly brewed coffee and melted butter invaded his nostrils, but the previous restraints were suddenly gone and he had something else on his mind. Food could wait.
ââSâdat so?â Jake opened one eye and grabbed her wrist, tugging at it gently in an attempt to pull her down on him, but Veela resisted. She straightened up on her knees and pouted, but it was a transparently half-hearted defiance. A ridiculously see-through teasing. Playing coy had never been her forte, and with the previous mental inhibitions gone, he could see the hunger in her eyes quite clearly now. âYeah, crepes. With raspberry jam. We should really eat them while theyâre still warm,â she replied. It didnât sound convincing at all.Â
And sure enough, before Jake could even retort, she leaned down again to attack his lips with her own. He kept them self-consciously pressed together, suddenly also painfully aware of his full bladder⌠and the inevitable consequences. Still, he couldnât help but smile when Veela slid her hand under the comforter to investigate. With her open mouth now once again attached to the tender skin under his left earlobe, he had to bite his lip to stifle a moan. âAre you so happy to see me or is it just a⌠how do you call itâŚ,â she mumbled before darting the tip of her tongue out to play with his earring.Â
âMorning wood,â Jake breathed out with growing embarrassment. She already smelled so good, like ice cream and roses. Her freshly brushed dark hair cascaded down on him like a silk curtain, partially obscuring his view. This sudden effort to act like a truly newlywed wife didnât go unnoticed, and it made Jakeâs heart swell⌠together with other parts that were already way ahead. âAnd⌠both⌠babe. Just⌠gimme a moment.â
âAaaah,â she exhaled dramatically and bit his shoulder. âAnd I thought you desired me.â She also cupped his balls with her palm and feigned a sniff, making him both gasp and let out an amused huff in rapid succession. Â
Jake tried to wriggle out of her grasp, rolling on top of her and virtually straddling her in the process. However, Veela wouldnât give up so easily. She started tickling his sides, so Jake had to grab her wrists and pin her arms above her head. âYou stay here!â He pointed his finger at her playfully, almost touching the tip of her nose. Again, who would have thought that heâd ever enjoy being silly in bed, but it was suddenly so easy with someone who could really see you. She watched, laughing playfully, as he scrambled out of the bed in haste, almost tripping on a creased carpet. âI mean it!â he added when he regained his balance and turned around towards her in a theatrical gesture, now laughing with her.Â
âIâm not going anywhere, Jake.â
The sudden somber tone of her voice hit him like a gust of wind, but he was already out the door. So, thankfully, Veela couldnât see his reaction.Â
She kept her word, and when Jake returned back to the bedroom sufficiently refreshened, he found her hiding under the comforter, already naked. Still playing some sort of a game, she had her back turned to the door and him. Eyes closed as if asleep. Only her foot, partially peeping from under the comforter and nervously ticking, gave her away. That woman simply couldnât wait. Jake smiled to himself and swiftly climbed into the bed to join her.Â
âHiâŚ,â he whispered while running his fingertips down her arms. Veela chuckled again, with her eyes crinkled with amusement as she turned around and met his gaze, but the velvety tone of her voice once again gave away her growing anticipation when she replied: âHi.â Her lips were already parted and slightly pouty. They were done teasing, the atmosphere shifted, and Jake needed no further invitation.
âI think I owe you this.â Before Veela could ask what he meant, Jake cupped her cheek and kissed her deeply. Her body responded immediately, arching her back to press her body to his completely.Â
They wrapped their arms around each other. Veelaâs skin felt so warm in contrast to his own, cooled down by the cold, crisp air in the cabin. Jake could feel her shiver, unsure if it was because of that or just the growing thrill. His own heart was beating wildly now. The idea of her being finally completely his was still so completely new and fresh and exciting that he felt like an unseasoned boy again. He liked the dizzying feeling or adrenaline rushing through your veins, just like when you get onstage all nervous and worried, only to find out everyone already sings along.Â
Jake ran his hand through Veelaâs hair and cupped the back of her head. He had already learned that it was what often set her off, and sure enough, she tensed and shivered again. They licked and moaned into each otherâs mouths.Â
She spread her legs, already more than ready to welcome him back. Her hand slid down to cup his ass and to urge him to move in between them, but Jake shook his head and broke the kiss. He looked into her eyes, already glossed with lust.Â
âDonât hurry,â he whispered.Â
Yesterday had been mostly about quenching both the emotional and physical hunger. And just like yesterday, he couldnât shake off the feeling she was trying to make up for something. To be giving. To repay him, somehow. Now it was his turn. Now he took his time, eager to trace all his previous steps and to venture even further. Every piece of her flesh was still an unknown button to be pressed, and with no manual. It was his fucking job to write it now.Â
Jake started with her cheek, planting a soft kiss there that made her close her eyes and sigh. âOkâŚâ
This was a pilgrimage, starting at the roots of her hair. He traveled further down her neck, tracing every inch with soft, open mouthed kisses and relishing in how she slowly melted under his touch.Â
Veela took this journey with him, tracking the outline of his shoulders with her fingertips, squeezing his biceps when he sucked at the soft skin above her collarbone.
Jake threw the comforter aside impatiently. The cool air immediately gave her goosebumps, but Veela didnât complain. When he drew a slow, wet circle around her nipple with the tip of his tongue, she arched her back and tilted her head back, letting out a soft moan. Jake hummed in approval as he slid further down to adorn her belly with more kisses.Â
He meant every touch to be a band-air for her soul, but the truth is that this was his healing, too. Veela had inadvertently taught him to be present, to stop taking things for granted. He had had to fight for this love, instead of sabotaging everything out of spite and fear. He wanted her to take whatever she wanted. If only she could give the rest awayâŚ
âJakeâŚ,â she whimpered when his tongue reached the crease that separated her leg from that cushiony mound. In response, he let his hand slide down her thigh, starting at the bent knee and traveling all the way down to her pussy, this time urging her to open up for him.Â
âThatâs it, I wanna hear more. Sing for meâŚ,â Jake mumbled before he planted a soft kiss on her now exposed clit. When she did, he rewarded her with pressing his flattened tongue against it completely. It sent a bolt of electricity up her spine, encouraging him to suck the bud in his mouth.Â
Jake could feel her trembling fingers brushing over the back of his head and the sudden idea of being completely at her mercy made his head spin, so he reached up to grab her wrist, urging her to entangle her hand in his hair and to hold him down. And she did, unwittingly tightening her grip with every flick of his tongue. It felt exhilarating, but also still a bit dangerous. Before he could fully examine and process his thoughts, she suddenly let go as her thighs started shaking.Â
âJakeâŚ,â she repeated. âI⌠need you.âÂ
How could he deny her, especially since he too already ached to be inside her. Still in between her legs, Jake climbed up and immediately locked his lips with hers. Veela immediately wrapped her arms and legs around him, possessively pulling him down. The tip of his cock was already brushing against her entrance when he broke the kiss and looked down at her with a smile.Â
âAny special wishes?â he asked with a cheeky smirk.Â
âVeela just rolled her eyes. âJust do it already.âÂ
Jake pushed inside with one swift thrust. It was supposed to be a gesture of generous dominance, but his own eagerness and emotional overstimulation betrayed him. She felt so good. Warm and soft and welcoming. He buried his face in her neck and whimpered just when she gasped and then moaned right in his ear.Â
He wished he could come up with something clever to say⌠with some shrewd and romantic response to her clawing at his back that felt almost as if she was gasping for air. But his mind betrayed him. It went completely blank. Veela rolled her hips impatiently and he followed suit, setting a slow, languid pace that allowed him to recover.Â
His woman.Â
This was his woman!
âLook at me,â she whispered in between moans as if she could read his mind. And when he looked up to look into her eyes, it was really there. Without breaking eye contact, Jake groped around for her palm to press to his. Their fingers intertwined. He held their locked hands down on the pillow next to her head.
Jake kissed her again as he gradually quickened his pace. Their mutual arousal rose like a wave, from pure tenderness to a frenetic thirst and urge to devour each other. Jakeâs moves turned to frantic thrusts as the wind coming to them through the still open window cooled his heated body, slick with sweat. He could feel her walls tightening as she was getting closer. Her moans turned to cries. Afraid that Jake himself wouldnât be able to last much longer, he straightened up on his knees and licked the tip of his thumb before he started to draw circles over her clit.Â
The new angle together with new stimulation made Veela tense almost immediately. She grabbed at his chest, clawing into his skin in a desperate need to ground herself. It took him only three more thrusts to make her arch her back and cry out. Without slowing down, Jake fucked her through it, prolonging her tensed state until she collapsed completely, trying to catch her breath.Â
She was so tight now. Jake slowed down, already on the verge of his own orgasm, but still conscious enough to search her face for any sign of discomfort. Veela looked up at him with hooded eyes, before she took his hand and sucked his thumb in her mouth, licking off the remains of her release. Just the sight was enough for Jake.Â
âYouâŚâ was all he could say before he opened his mouth and squeezed his eyes shut. A few seconds later he collapsed on top of her, shuddering.Â
Veelaâs POV, a few hours later
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It was a sunny day. The air warmed up just enough for us to be able to stay naked without having to close the windows.Â
I wanted it that way. It was kind of frivolous, sexy and freeing. The fresh air was heavily scented with Spring and it filled me with life and perhaps also hope. Still not completely there yet, but it seemed possible. That day I finally felt like a wife. I felt like I no longer had to convince myself that I wasnât just hurting him with everything I said, did or represented.Â
I loved Jake. I had been loving him for quite a while, unsure what to do with it, because I hadnât been his and he hadnât been mine. The circumstances couldnât have been worse, and more confusing, and utterly heart-wrenching. I hadnât thought and I couldnât believe I would find so much love within me. They both had to completely ruin me to make me realize that it was possible.Â
We didnât get to eat the crepes and drink the coffee until almost noon. By the time we sat down at the table, dishevelled and wrapped in blankets, they had already turned to rubber. But we ate them anyway. The runny raspberry jam trickled down our fingers and we took turns to lick it off, laughing and teasing each other with sexual innuendos.Â
It really was a brand new day.Â
We opened a bottle of wine shortly after, and then we snuggled together on the couch with our glasses like a pair of bohemian artists. Well, Jake was one, after all. I was still getting used to the fact.Â
Even when completely naked, he was clinking with every move like wind chimes because of his numerous pendants and bracelets. And even though I convinced him to put most of it down in bed, it was all back up the moment he set foot out of the bedroom. No clothes? Fine, great idea actually, but his trinkets were untouchable.Â
âItâs like being married to a fortuneteller,â I grumbled earlier that day.
âEeeh, sâjust me, babeh. Like a second shkin,â he crooned in a dramatic, raspy voice while strutting around like a drunken sailor. In my head, I could hear an echo of another husky voice saying âjust canât stop being myself, darling,â but I successfully pushed it to the back of my mind.Â
Fast forward a few more hours, I found myself sitting on the couch with Jakeâs head in my lap. He had taken just a few sips of the wine before his eyelids started to feel heavy and soon he dozed off while I played with his hair.Â
He looked beautiful like that, blessed with an angel face that was no doubt sculpted by god himself to haunt me⌠and Iâm not particularly religious.Â
Having finished my third glass, I traced the outline of his profile with my index finger, growing increasingly fond of this version. No, they were not completely the same, I assessed to myself with a new-found peace in my soul.Â
Suddenly, he smiled with his eyes still closed and snatched at my fingertip with his teeth.Â
âWell, good afternoon, Sleeping Beauty.â
Jake shifted slightly so that he was now lying on his back, and opened one eye to look at me. âWhat time is it?â
âNo idea.â I also didnât care. I was pleasantly tipsy and I hadnât felt this calm in months. My eyes wandered to his chest to examine the scratchmarks that had turned a rather violent shade of red. âIâm sorry for this,â I mumbled while running my fingers over the irritated skin. The truth is, I wasnât sorry at all.Â
âBullshit,â Jake snickered and I just shrugged. There really was no point in trying to play innocent. Suddenly, he wrinkled his brow and cleared his throat.
âWhat do you like?â Jake looked directly into my eyes and it was pretty obvious what he meant. The sudden question surprised me a bit and I giggled while matching his frown.Â
âWhy are you asking me this?â
âWhy shouldnât I?â he pouted. âItâs a sensible thing to ask. I mean, you canât expect me to figure it all out on my own!â
âWhy not?â I laughed in earnest this time. âYouâve been doing a pretty good job so far.â
Jake suddenly sat up and reached for his still half full glass of wine previously abandoned on the coffee table, and chugged it down in one go. He also assessed the nearly empty bottle placed right next to it with a raised eyebrow. âIâm flattered, my love. Anyway, I see youâve been keeping yourself busy while I was knocked out.â
Not busy enough. Instead of retorting, I watched in my lightheaded state how the afternoon sun turned a few strands of his hair gold, and just like the previous evening, it hit me again. My man. Slowly and reluctantly, I was giving myself the permission to entertain that notion. My mind wandered back to his question, suddenly thrilled with the idea that he might want to try it out as soon as possible. Immediately, if possible. As our chemistry teacher used to say, âtheories lead, trials decideâ... âIâve always been quite fond of being on my knees.â
I loved the way he rubbed his lower lip with his thumb when intrigued. âReally! And what does that mean?â
I stretched my arms above my head in a catlike manner, pondering how to play this. There were still quite a few things I hadnât done yet, and I was just as eager to learn everything about him and to taste all of him. Literally.Â
I started with what I thought was an innocent smile. âQuite a few things. Why donât you stand up and let me show youâŚâ
âOh no no no,â Jake protested, although I could already see how his mind screamed âhell yes.â âNot what I asked for. Donât try to turn the tables. Nah, not interested in that.â He pointed his finger at me in a quasi-berating gesture that only emboldened me. I knew what he meant, and it was actually pretty sweet, but no one is ever going to doubt my talents.Â
âYes, you are,â I countered and teasingly licked my upper lip. âBelieve me. Also, you asked me what I like⌠and it so happens that I love having my throat fucked. And I really canât wait any longer. So, please, stand up.âÂ
Suddenly looking a bit stunned, Jake did as I said and as the blanket slid down on the floor, I could see that I wasnât the only one eager to put things into practice. âThat was quick, for someone who complained about being old the other day,â I pouted in appreciation.Â
âIâm not that old, woman. Now show me what you got.âÂ
Well, that was it for making love. We had taken our sweet time earlier in the morning, but neither of us could run solely on sugar. I had yet to show him all my facets and flavours.Â
Jake pushed the table aside with his leg, ignoring the bottle that nearly got knocked over. I slid down on my knees in front of him and looked up, searching his face for what I hoped to see.Â
And it was there. Jakeâs eyes darkened when they met mine. He had been walking on eggshells in front of me most of the time during the past month, but I had already learned about his other side before, and I would be a terrible liar if I said that I had never been attracted to that smug asshole. I had already lied to him about it in the past, and it never did us any good.Â
I was also yearning to rediscover myself. To show him that I was more than just a tearful, wounded stray he had to nurse. âDonât hold back, because I wonât,â I said, planting my palms on each side of his hips to brace myself.Â
âRight,â he growled. âOpen.â
I stuck my tongue out without breaking eye contact, letting Jake know what being on my knees meant. He was still in charge. He could decide. My heart was thumping just from the sight in front of me: My man was a wild one. A wolf that inflamed the fire in me. I let out a satisfied hum when he tangled his hand in my hair, though still a bit unsure. Â
Finally I could get a taste of him when he neatly planted the tip of his cock on my waiting tongue. I eagerly circled it around the head before I enveloped it with my lips, waiting for his next move. It was no doubt an obscene sight, and Jakeâs breath grew heavy. However, I could still feel his reluctance as his fingertips just gently stroked the back of my head. Done waiting, I took him fully in my mouth, and he immediately rewarded me with the most delicious high-pitched moan. Relaxing my throat and flattening my tongue, I licked the underside of his dick and then I did it again, taking him even deeper this time.Â
âShit!â Jake breathed out, tightening his grip while still letting me be in charge, so I cupped his balls with one hand while I dug my nails into his right buttock with the other as I withdrew a bit to lick off his precum.Â
âI said donât hold back, Jake,â I said as I looked back up with pleading eyes. âFuck my mouth.â
âRightâŚ,â he repeated, this time sounding a bit more out of breath. I braced myself again and took a deep breath, letting him slide back inside my waiting mouth. My throat contracted around him and I could immediately feel his grip loosen again, so I took the charge and set the pace for a bit, letting him know that I could take it. Jakeâs breath quickened and his moans grew louder, and suddenly his hips moved on their own, finally giving me what I had been begging for.Â
It sounded delightfully obscene, and I simply couldnât get enough of how much he obviously liked it.Â
Then all of the sudden, he tugged at my hair almost painfully, but it wasnât to push me down on him this time. Instead, I was being pulled back on my feet, turned around and pushed against the backrest before I could fully comprehend what was going on. I was kneeling on the couch and when I tried to straighten and turn around to see what was going on, I could feel his hand in between my shoulder blades pushing me back down. âJake⌠whatâŚâ
âBravo, my love. It was impressive,â he growled. âBut you said âquite a few thingsâ and Iâm quite intrigued to learn more âbout that. Perhaps even to add some more to your listâŚâ
Well, yes, I was still pretty much on my knees, suddenly feeling a bit vulnerable. Jake didnât spare much time to let me wonder about the possible options. He kneeled down as well and grabbed my butt and the next thing I could feel was his flattened tongue, licking a long stripe all the way up from my clit to my entrance. It made me cry out and my whole body tensed.Â
âWell, I suppose we can check this off as a success,â he crooned, with his mouth still so dangerously close I could quite literally feel those words. âBut just to be sure, letâs try again.â And then he did.Â
My arms gave way and I fell fully forward on my chest with my hair cascading down the other side of the backrest. I felt completely at his mercy and he thrust his tongue into my pussy, fucking me with it. It was one of those moments when your brain completely shuts off. Jake was turning me into a whimpering mess. And then he suddenly stopped, making me groan in frustration.
âYep,â he blurted out cheerfully. âThat was good right? Iâll have to make a mental note.â
I made a mental note to over-pepper his next meal. In my peripheral vision, I saw him stand up.
âJake, you canât just lâŚâÂ
Well, he didnât. Before I could finish that sentence, he grabbed my ass again and pushed his dick inside me, making me yelp. âYouâŚ,â he sighed. â... just stirred up my curiosity.â He pulled nearly all the way out before he thrust back inside me again. âGotta⌠finish this one though.âÂ
âGod, pleaseâŚ,â I whimpered.Â
âPlease what?â
I didnât answer. I arched my back as he finally started moving, quickly setting a diabolical pace, hitting my cervix just right to keep me on the verge of pain. It made my thighs shake. Jake grabbed a handful of my hair and pulled me back up so that I had to rest my elbows on the backrest again for support. âYou told me not to hold backâŚ,â he hissed in my ear.Â
âYeahâŚâ
âLike this?â he continued in that raspy voice that kept me intoxicated. âThis is it?â
âYES!â
âGood, because I canât stop now.â
âDonât!â I cried out as he thrust in me again with full force. His many pendants kept hitting my back, his rings were no doubt going to leave imprints on my hips, just like his teeth on my shoulder. I intended to wear it with pride.Â
âVeela⌠I canât,â Jake suddenly whimpered, but I could already tell from the sound of his moans. I was already getting close, myself.
âThen donât.âÂ
Jake just moaned in response and his hips suddenly stuttered. He stopped briefly in mid motion, and it filled me with strange anticipation. I literally held my breath. Then it started. Like a soft huff of surprise, followed by a jerky motion of his hips. Then another one, a bit more loud and intense. I squeezed my walls around him as he thrust forward one more time, and it sent us both over the edge.Â
Jake didnât stop. He continued pounding into me until his last drop. I collapsed on the backrest like a ragdoll again, barely aware of his sweaty palm stroking my back. Â
âFuckâŚ,â he breathed out after several more seconds, panting and trying to catch his breath. âThat wasâŚâ
âQuite an uneventful, lazy Friday,â I chuckled as a whiff of fresh air coming through the window cooled my flushed cheeks.Â
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