The Stargazer

Unfiltered, heartfelt poetry!!

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Cradle of Bliss

𝐥𝐚𝐲 𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐚𝐬𝐡 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬,

𝑻𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒚𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒆 𝑰 𝒖𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆

𝑻𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒚𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒆 𝑰 𝒖𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 ~ 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒆𝒕𝒄𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒆𝒏𝒅,

ᴺᵒʷ ᶠⁱⁿᵈⁱⁿᵍ ᵒⁿˡʸ ᵈᵃʳᵏⁿᵉˢˢ, ⁿᵒ ᵒⁿᵉ ᵗᵒ ᶠᵉⁿᵈ,

𝕴𝖓 𝖍𝖔𝖗𝖗𝖔𝖗 𝖙𝖜𝖎𝖘𝖙 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖇𝖑𝖎𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖔𝖗𝖉𝖘 𝕴 𝖔𝖓𝖈𝖊 𝖕𝖊𝖓𝖓𝖊𝖉.

𝐈𝐭 𝐦𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐛𝐞 𝐚𝐬𝐡, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬,

𝑯𝒐𝒍𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒌𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒅𝒆 𝒎𝒆 𝒔𝒐 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈

𝑯𝒐𝒍𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒌𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒅𝒆 𝒎𝒆 𝒔𝒐 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈 ~ 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒊𝒏, 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒆𝒔𝒄𝒂𝒑𝒆𝒔,

ᵗʰᵉ ˢʰᵃᵈᵒʷˢ ˡᵉᶠᵗ, ᴵ ˢᵗᵃⁿᵈ, ᵈᵉᵛᵒⁱᵈ ᵒᶠ ᵈᵃʳᵏ ˢʰᵃᵖᵉˢ,

𝕶𝖊𝖊𝖕𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖒𝖊 𝖒𝖚𝖒, 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖎𝖗 𝖇𝖑𝖆𝖈𝖐 𝖕𝖑𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖎𝖈 𝖙𝖆𝖕𝖊𝖘.

𝐓𝐫𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐥𝐮𝐭𝐜𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐝, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐈 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐬,

Fₐₗₗᵢₙg dₑₑₚ ᵢₙₜₒ ₜₕₑ cᵣₐdₗₑ ₒf ₐₙ ₐbyₛₛ,

𝑳𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒆𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒏𝒂𝒍 𝒔𝒍𝒆𝒆𝒑'𝒔 𝒓𝒆𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒔 𝒃𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒔,

ᴵ ˢᵗᵃⁿᵈ, ᵈᵉᵛᵒⁱᵈ ᵒᶠ ᵐʸ ᵈᵃʳᵏ ˢʰᵃᵈᵒʷˢ,

𝖂𝖍𝖎𝖑𝖊 𝖎𝖓𝖘𝖎𝖉𝖊 𝖒𝖊, 𝖑𝖔𝖔𝖒 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖌𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖙𝖊𝖘𝖙 𝖔𝖋 𝖙𝖍𝖗𝖔𝖊𝖘.

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Pained Eyes

ʙʀᴏᴋᴇɴ ʀᴇꜰʟᴇᴄᴛɪᴏɴꜱ ꜰʟᴀꜱʜ ʟᴏꜱᴛ ᴡᴏʀᴅꜱ,

ᴡᴏʀᴅꜱ ᴠɪʟᴇʟʏ ꜱʜʀᴇᴅ, ʜᴀʟꜰ ʙʟᴇᴅ,

ʙʟᴇᴅ ᴛᴇᴀʀꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴀɢᴏɴʏ, ʟᴏꜱꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍꜱ

 ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍꜱ ꜱʜᴀᴛᴛᴇʀᴇᴅ ʙʏ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ, ʙʏ ᴍᴇ,

ᴍᴇ, ꜱᴛᴀɴᴅɪɴɢ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀꜱʜᴇꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴛᴏᴍᴏʀʀᴏᴡ,

ᴛᴏᴍᴏʀʀᴏᴡ, ᴀ ᴘʟᴀꜱᴛɪᴄ ʙᴏᴜQᴜᴇᴛ ᴏꜰ ʜᴏᴘᴇ,

ʜᴏᴘᴇ ᴛᴏ ꜱᴇᴇ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ꜰᴀᴍɪʟɪᴀʀ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍɪʀʀᴏʀ,

ᴍɪʀʀᴏʀ ᴇᴠɪɴᴄɪɴɢ ᴀ ꜱᴛʀᴀɴɢᴇʀ ᴏꜰ ᴘᴀɪɴᴇᴅ ᴇʏᴇꜱ,

ᴇʏᴇꜱ, ᴀ ᴍɪʀʀᴏʀ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴏᴜʟ, ɴᴏᴡ ʙʀᴏᴋᴇɴ.

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Dewy Glee

I seek your clef in my grungy notes, 

signs drowning in frail paper boats,

carefully pleated to reach the heart,

you folded and kept away, far apart.

Broken refrains skipped your aching tears,

played the chorus of your smile for endless years

 till the song lost the rhythm of dewy glee, 

and "love" hurried blistering flee.

The tips of my fingers ache for strings,

to merely hear the tune of your rapt rings,

but all I hear are strains of a weeping violin,

vexation of a pure heart now seems akin.

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Stardust

My star broke one night,

The dust fell all over you,

Soon around, it felt bright.

I was flaring, burning white,

Yet you held me, my crimson hue,

Soon around, it felt bright.

Maybe someone wished on my broken starlight,

I think that's what true stars do,

My star broke one night.

Though you had the chance, you didn't spite,

Every night across the sky we flew, 

Soon around, it felt bright.

Me, a silver lining, true delight,

Guess that's what it is to be a star so true, 

My star broke one night,

Soon around, it felt bright.

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Relapse

Thoughts ran wild in her head.

Chills ran down her spine.

Came to her mind, the things she said.

All the promises, in a line.

In no times, tears rush down her face.

Hush. It is 2 AM. You must remain unheard.

But this time, it is a different case.

Healing won’t be done by word.

She shut her eyes.

Skin tearing, layer by layer,

The smile she put, the disguise, 

It stung, but she didn’t care.

The story ran on repeat,

Comfort was yet again found in the blade,

Logic, promises, love; all took a backseat,

She sat afraid, 

Oh, what had she done,

All the time she took to control, 

This time too pain had won.

Guilt took over her soul.

And that was perhaps,

When she lost the fight,

This was the relapse.

[its-the-stargazer]

Crowd

We all own a crowd,

A crowd inside of us.

Thoughts at the witching hour,

A multitude of our insecurities when we’re criticised,

An outburst of sentiments before a crucial moment,

An unending gossip when we meet an old friend.

We all have a crowd within us.

Thus, we have a choice.

We can choose to put on a smile or a scowl,

Love our imperfections and accept our flaws,

Enjoy the feeling of butterflies in our stomach,

Laugh it out with our friends.

We all have a crowd within us.

Found yours yet?

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A Constant Monologue

It is a constant monologue in my head, Without flickering my eyes, I lay in bed. Sometimes I think it will devour me, I am the prey of my thoughts in this infinite sea. Nervous is too small of a word, This devil in my head is absurd. Its earsplitting cackle, Each day gets harder to tackle. I let a tiny smile escape my lips, It cracks, I feel my tears drip. I can't breathe without thinking it's a task, Head feels heavy, the unbearable weight of my mask. I beg and pray for it to stop, I am stuck in this bubble I can't pop. It is a constant monologue in my head, I can't take it anymore; I have no more tears to shed.

[its-the-stargazer]

The bleeding continued,  Ink on paper.

S.G

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One Dark Stormy Night

I was walking down the road, Everything around me slowed. Thoughts soaking me to my bone, Obscure, yet my own. This umbrella shielding me, From this evil decoction, beastly. Blew the wind and jerked my stability away, I walk down this dark stormy night every single day. You see our thoughts are quite a storm, Slithering upon us, anything but conform. Ravaging like fire, outstripping the mind to ashes, A plane couldn't take off and crashes. Cobwebs spinning everywhere they can, Make it right or wrong, is the choice of the man. Blew the wind and jerked my stability away, I walk down this dark stormy night every single day.

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We had so many ends before the end, that when it finally ended, I ended up feeling like  nothing.

S.G

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Don't fear the bright sun on a clear day. Fear the moon concealed within the clouds; waiting for it's time to come.

S.G

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Tried scraping off my scars today. Couldn't do away with the memories.

S.G

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The Moon

I saw you yesterday. Your light shone down on me, Your calm face, with the blemishes that I don't remember. Your soothing voice somehow blended with the crickets chirping, whine of the electricity wires and the swaying trees which whispered to me that you're still here. The air smelled of you too, evening primrose and moon flowers. Yes, maybe the most beautiful arise from the darkest of times. As the first ray of sunlight pecked the ground, you gradually disappeared. The beauty of the night vanished and the glory of the sun ruled. That is you, my moon, Keep smiling down at me.

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And the sky blushed, knowing how each time the sun made her blue with all the memories,  And how the moonlight touches upon her dark soul every night.

S.G

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A Beautiful Mismatch

So this time, I thought I'll rhyme. But what should I write? A disturbing sight? Or a Kings might? How about the nature - blue sky, white clouds, pretty flowers? Seems like I forgot about our squalor of cement towers. What if I write about love, In a beautiful place, with flying doves? But wait that's too typical, More like super mythical. But you know, It doesn't have to rhyme to be perfect, To give us that "poetic" effect. And in the end, certain things are just meant to be different. Don't judge it. It's a beautiful mismatch.

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Facade

I really miss those times The times when we were all younger, Less mature and accepted that way, When we could just be ourselves and not be blamed for it. When we could peacefully sleep without any worries, When time was just to while away. When we could all cry on our mothers lap I really miss the times when were younger. Those days were so much better, We didn't need to worry about anything, Other than which game to play today, football or cricket? Eat chocolate cookies or vanilla? Watch some more TV or go play? Whatever, we were passionately happier that way. Because now, If you are mature, you get played on And if you aren't mature enough, You're secluded, blamed. If you're being yourself, you're judged And if you adjust your personality for people, Then you're a hypocrite Sleep is a treasure locked away in the depths of a sea of our hectic schedules, Buried, forgotten, lost. And still, we all cry, Locked away in the bathroom, Or saying it's some allergy Or that my eyes hurt, While it really is our hearts that hurt. Today we worry about being ourselves, Original, Hurt, Human. They need to take their facades off and see the reality, Or is it us, with facades so closely held, That now, they're a part of us? ~~

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And no matter how much we love each other, you and I, can never be us.

S.G.