Rain / 22 / In the middle of nowhere °2016.06.16° Will you walk in the rain with me? This blog was created as my personal diary to record my memories of my last year of school. All pics are mine unless stated otherwise. Headers Cr.
And what a year 2020 has been so far. I cannot believe that this year is already half over!
I havenât been active on here for a long time and have actually cut down my time on this hellsite significantly. Iâm not into KPop anymore, but Iâm still a huge fan of Running Man and I still watch KDramas, just not as many as I used to, maybe between 2 and 4 a year.
Uni has been tough and now because of the virus I go out four times a week max. to go get groceries and go home over the weekend. At first I really enjoyed staying home but now I feel stuck inside.
Hopefully everything calms down over the summer and the next semester is a little less crazy.
Today's 16th June, which means that it has alredy been 3 years since I've started this blog! I have been busy with doing nothing the past week, and even though I wanted to write a long post about the past year, I am only now sitting behind my desk and trying to gather my memories together in a chaos that is my mind, after doing the homework for the Korean course I'm taking. It's almost 11 pm. So nothing great to expect here. I will continue this post, right after I complete the one I started for the 2nd anniversary of this blog. Yeay! But so far so good. I'm feeling so much better lately! And I couldn't be happier about that.
I woke up feeling sick. I wasnât myself the whole day. Not because I was unhappy about leaving, but because -TMI- I shouldnât have eaten the cherries yesterday before bed.
The work day itself went as usual. Woke up at 5:30 a.m. and since itâs Sunday my parents drove me to work. Then work, work, work and work some more. Run, run, run and run some more between patientsâ rooms.
At last, it was time for me to leave. I went and returned my workwear for the last time. Cleaned out my locker, threw away my shoes because they were completely destroyed and gross after one year, said Goodbye to my collegues and just... left. I didnât cry, afterall I wasnât upset about leaving. Though, I wasnât happy, too. Itâs strange. Leaving the place where I worked for one year and during said year my life changed. A year ago, I would have never imagined what I as a person would become.Â
I will miss my collegues, the unit I worked in, some patients more than the others.
Would I make the same decision again and volunteer for a year? No, probably not.
And still, Iâm glad I took a gap year between school and Uni.Â
Iâve been meaning to write an update for the longest time. Actually since last June or July maybe. Seems like now is the perfect time, since this blog turns 2 years old today!Â
I still canât believe how fast time flies. This year has been very eventful, crusial even, and to be honest Iâm very sad I didnât take the time to collect my memories on here as I wanted to.
But first thing first, the list of things(?)/events which have happened since last year:
Prom >I went to my prom and gave a speech! Very nerve wrecking, but Iâm glad I did it! It wasnât an amazing experience which I will remember for the rest of my life like all these American movies make it to seem, but still Iâm glad I went because it helped to close of a huge chapter of my life.
Pixie Cut >I had my hair cut right after prom. It turned out nice, somewhat choppy but still good. I was soooo nervous, eventhough itâs just hair and it grew back but still. I think it was one of the best decisions of my life. It gave me so much confidence to walk around and not hide behind my hair. And, not gonna lie, as a lazy girl I am, itâs such a liberation from doing my hair. Not that I ever did something special with my hair.
Vacation >As always, my family took a trip to Spain. We went to my favourite town for a week in July. The trip started of great and ended up great as well. Usually, I get very sick trom the 18 hours drive there, itâs awful, my whole body hurts and I feel like dying, but this time I was fine, really. I swam a lot in the sea and didnât tan at all. There was a pretty bad storm,though.
My Year As A Volunteer >Iâll probably need a week to write down everything about my year as a volunteer. I have the rest of June and July left to work, And let me tell you, my future me, how fucking glad I am itâs only two month now. Huhh, it has been a tiring, exhausting, terrible year.Â
Driving License >I failed my driving test 4 times. I finally got my driverâs license on March 29th. One of the worst things that happened this year. Havenât driven since. It gave me the worst anxiety and Iâm starting to tear up now, because it really really messed me up to fail and to spend sooooooooooo much of my parentsâ money only to fail again and again. I hate everything that has to do with driving and cars and I do not see myself driving in the future. Special shout out to my colleges for their constant teasing and pointing out HOW MUCH MONEY I have wasted and forcing me to drive now. Still wonât do it.
Breaking Off Friendships >This one is tough. Basicly, after prom I cut off all of my school friends. Not that I actively did anything, I just didnât reply to their messages and they didnât bother to write me a second time. Does it make me sad? Yes. Do I feel lonely all the time? Yes, I do. Not having friends is lonely. Mais câest la vie. Am I happy? No, not really. Not yet. But it was very important to take this step and let them go, let them let me go. All of them were toxic relationships and in the long run, I will be happier. From now on I can befriend people who share my views on the world and I do not have to pretend to be someone else anymore.
to be contined tomorrow, im too tired now but i want the post to be published on the 16th heh
Another year has gone by. Isnât it crazy how time flies?
Eventough I somehow donât want to let the year 2017 go, afterall, it was the year of my graduation and I got 20 years old this year, I still look forward to 2018 and what it has in store for me.
I wish you all the best for the next year! Letâs find our happiness this year, live healthy both physically and mentally and enjoy ourselves no matter how difficult some days might be! đ¤
