Whats going through my mind...
âSlowly but surely, you will stop caring what heâs up to or who heâs with because youâll be too busy worrying about your goals and your growth. Youâll be busy living your life, fulfilling your dreams and reaching new heights that anything that reminds you of him will be nothing of the past.â
âIâll never regret meeting you. You were the best mistake I ever made. All the tears I shed, all the time I lost, and all the overthinking I did werenât in vain because they taught me to never give my love out so freely ever again. See, I learned to love myself with all my flaws and I learned to forgive those that have done me wrong in the past. So, I thank you for everything you put me through. You helped me grow. You helped me build the woman I am today and remain me of the type of woman I'll never be again. â
âI start to distance myself once I feel like I'm being taken for granted, or that my feelings are stronger than yours. Thereâs no point in calling, texting or keeping in constant contact with you like I did before. I'll ignore your calls and messages, and will only answer when I feel the need to. Reciprocity is what I'm looking for. If you canât give me that, weâre both just wasting our time.â
âYou have no idea of the damage you cause a woman when you leave her without a valid reason. You install a fear in her that whoever comes next will leave her too.â
âIâm done. I kept giving you chances you didnât deserve. I fought and fought to make things work. I thought I had to keep trying harder each time things fell apart until I realized I was fighting on my own. You no longer made me a priority in your life, so I had to change your role in mine.â
âI just wanted closure from you. I wanted to hear the reasons why you left me. I wanted answers, anything to ease my mind and my heart. It took me years to realize, no matter what you said or did would be pointless because I would never believe your explanations anyway. The only closure I ever needed was within me. That desire for closure was holding me back from moving forward. If I wanted to let go, I also had to let go of that desire for you to admit you were a complete jerk. I had to let go of that desire of you admitting you were wrong for hurting me the way you did. Thats when I finally found peace of mind.â
âIts funny how you think you know someone until they flip on you. You let your guard down, believing theyâll never do you wrong, but they end up betraying you. Be thankful for seeing them for who they truly are and thankful theyâll no longer have access to your heart. You donât deserve this, itâs not your fault.â
âAll I want is to forget you. I even tried meeting someone new, until I realized I couldnât use someone to heal my own pain. I couldnât jump into a new relationship just to try to erase you from my mind. That would be selfish and I refuse to become the same person you are, hurting others and leaving them destroyed while walking around like everything is okay. So, no matter how long it takes me to get over you, I'll know I did it without playing with someone elseâs emotions.â
âMaybe I'm stuck because all I can think of are the memories we once shared, and moving on would mean I'd have to let go of the past... and thats something I'm not sure I'm ready to do.â
âHe doesnât deserve you. The more you do for him, the more he takes advantage of your kindness. And yet, you stay... hoping... wishing... praying that someday he will change. When will you learn to see him for who he really is?â
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