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No. 1 enemy

From the beginning to end, the enemy is always the one within.

Journaling is turning out to be one of most fun and relaxing parts of my routine. Apart from meditation and yoga, this brings me so much pleasure and I relax whenever color and draw on my journal. I am also starting to write and draw using my own ideas instead of copying other people's layout. Here's to better journaling days.

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Books

Every book reader out there can relate to my experience especially when it’s about books that are way too unforgettable because they humanized you. These three books of Khaled Hosseini is just those kind of books. I have read A thousand splendid suns and it was heartbreakingly beautiful. The way he presented the characters is just so human. You can hear their thoughts which were raw and with emotions. So human. The setting of the story is also controversial and a lot of readers, like me, is curious about the stories of the people in the war torn Afghanistan. I did not feel pity for the people there, I felt like I want to get them out of the war and place them somewhere nice where they will hear beautiful music instead of falling shells or gunfire. Hosseini is so good in tapping every human emotions you have inside and you silently curse, on the inside, because it feels like he sees right through you. And he presents your emotions and sensibilities to you just like that. So savage. I am currently reading The Kite runner. I started reading the book last june but I stopped not because I was busy but because there was too much emotions and guilt that was so hard to chew and suck in that I had to stop or else my heart would burst. I actually want to reread from the start but I thought I need to keep on reading it instead of revisiting the first few chapters because I need to see the last part of it where there was Hope and love and happiness. I need to know what happened to him so the first few chapters will not hurt so bad because they already make sense. That’s what these books do to me and my emotions. Dang. They are haunting and painful but also gives you a wonderful experience where you get to understand yourself. Books are gems. Thanks Khaled Hosseini.

Lately, I have been on a roller coaster ride of emotions brought about by the current political happenings in my country.

There have been a noticeable rise of people who engaged in political discourse. For a country that’s been known for having modest and polite people, too polite that they avoid religious or political talks, this is a welcomed scene. Though chaotic and a bit toxic, I find this newfound love of the Filipino to be beautiful. We are enjoyinf our freedom of expression and we are learning from it.

Personally, there were times when I was impatient about the things I read and the things that are going around. I often found myself worrying about this divide in the political landscape and how toxic people can get in throwing arguments against each other. Not until later when I realized the beauty of these happenings. All these are necessary for a country to move forward, as it should have happened a long time ago.

I realized that I have to be patient to all the things that are unanswered and to the things that are yet to come. As much as I want to see the outcome of the wars that we are fighting today, I have to accept the fact that I might not be able to see them as soon as possible. Things take time.

And should I be worried about the recent divide and the frenemies that I created? Yes of course. But another thing is this…some things change over time. I have to remind myself to be patient and wait for what is to come, change included. I know that enemies are not permanent and while there are disagreements today, these will not be permanent.

Be patient. The best is yet to come.

It’s been quite a while since I wrote or posted a blog and I must say that writing is something I truly miss doing. I feel like my writing skills has deteriorated, if there is such thing. Well anyway, life atm. Currently doing: working. Yup. It’s 11pm here in the PH and I just started my shift. I work for a US-based company so I am following Pacific timezone. And while I am working, I also do other stuff like writing or coloring since my job is pretty much listening to calls. Mood: neutral. Haha. I don’t know what mood I am in. All i know is that I want to do a looot of things. I want to be productive. Thoughts: I have been thinking a lot about working out, journalling, travelling and just about anything else other than work. Sometimes i wish to win the lottery so i’d have millions in my pocket and I do not have to worry about work but I will go out there, to the world and live and love and help and laugh out loud. Life is a wonder, really.

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