⬆ Spent a lovely valentines day with my boyfriend
⬆ Got gifted flowers for the first time in my life 🥺😊
⬆ Learned to make Ramen and chicken Katsu curry, I nearly ruined the ramen but managed to save it- I think it all turned out well.
⬆ With the right clothing I'm learning to love my body more without needing "additions", I've been able to be comfortable with just a hair topper instead of a full wig AND without bra inserts. A well fitting bra really makes a good difference (the second photo is a topper instead of a wig)
⬆ I cut a fringe into my natural hair and it turned out well. Maybe cut it a little short- but it will grow. At least it looks full.
⬆ Had some great outfits this week and a well fitting bra makes such a difference
⬆ I hit one year of HRT- lets gooo.
⬇ My brother ignored my message asking for a weekend with my niece to bake together and has since made other plans- so I guess I'm free again, will need to find another weekend to have her.
⬇ I got freaked out this weekend when I saw myself less clothed, so I still got some work to do on self love.
⬇ No idea if injections are working- will need to order a blood test.
I am raging! 😡 CW: Suicide and state complicity in the deaths of trans kids.
The puberty blocker ban first started due to complaints at Tavistock and the Bell case.
Newspapers at the time talked about a mass lawsuit of 1000 parents who had been wrongly prescribed medication. Fearmongering about the many kids lives ruined by gender affirming care- the reality.
8. EIGHT! Over 10 years, less than one complaint per year.
8 Complaints about care being provided inappropriately, Some of these complaints are not even about wrongful treatment but just not enough explanation or not getting access to services FAST ENOUGH.
The clinic had 12000 services users at any given time, cycling over these 10 years so 10s of thousands of trans kids used the service.
So that is evidence of not a shambles but an EXTREMELY effective service. I cannot see ANY NHS service getting less complaints- this is some of the MOST effective healthcare.
The trans hysteria strikes again.
Tying this into the other recent bombshell about the NHS covering up trans Suicide. Thanks to FOIs we know that the puberty blocker ban lead to suicides increasing from 4 to 20. The increase in suicide caused by the puberty blocker ban is DOUBLE the largest possible number of complaints of cis people getting puberty blockers. (6 possible accidental cis kids Vs an increase of suicides by 16 after the Bell case)
That year trans people were 1/5 of all child suicides and for what? Absolutely no evidence of wrongdoing and a system running beyond perfect
The media won't report on this and it breaks my heart.
Reveal of Covered up NHS Suicides
ONS Source of Suicide Stats
TO put another knife in it, the mainstream media has not and will not report on EITHER of these stories. The BBC put out a whole news article to say just to say the Scottish government payed legal fees to an anti-trans group that everyone knew for a year they had to pay. Its a non story. They buy consent by only posting stories that make Trans people look scary or bad or like they are loosing.
⬆️ Accidentally staying up late last night (this morning?) allowed me to help save a life. Sometimes someone just needs someone to talk to.
⬆️ My attempts to get work done is working! I feel like as long as I work with my ADHD in mind I can actually survive being self employed.
⬆️ I felt like I domestic goddess this week, I caught up on house cleaning, I made a killer stew, I learned to bake and they got a good reception AND I'm learning how to make Japanese food for valentine's day
⬆️ Went to a big family party, it was loud BUT I had a lot of fun, I even ended up singing etc- feels good that I can be more open now. Everyone loved the cinnamon buns I brought xx
⬆️ I felt pretty yesterday during the day despite not shaving that day and just doing makeup cover-up
⬆️ After 5 weeks of basically no weight change, it's good to finally have a big shift
⬇️ A lot of my favourite clothes ain't fitting again due to me loosing weight. This will be the 3rd time I've had to buy the same brown skirt in lower sizes.
⬇️ Had a big jump of Dysphoria sat morning/yesterday night. I love myself BUT I just don't feel like me when I can't have hair and makeup on. Ended up ignoring my BF while he was here.
⬇️ Time to stop playing timberborn, much like rimworld I could sit and play if for days non stop.
Nearly didn't keep going with this or moved it to monthlies- but how would I remember it all so I'm still going for it even if less eventful stuff happens. Its kind of wild being over a lot of the major hurdles in my transition but I still got a ways to go.
The ups and downs
⬆ Got work under control I think- its amazing not having that constant stress, not having to dodge emails etc.
⬆ Had a great weekend with my friends and boyfriend- Zootopia good was very good. Boyfriend was great at making thinks...hot
⬆ I made a great fajita dinner for friends
⬆ Energy bills came in under £100 so I feel more in control of my finances
⬆ Looked hot in new goth outfits.
⬆ Had on older jeans. When I bought these jeans- they were wayyy to small and I had to get a size down, now they are falling off my waist.
⬇ I really need to be at the end with my facial hair- its so distracting
⬇ I was looking at prices for bottom surgery- unless I sell my house for a profit, I got no shot while self employed. UK quality for bottom surgery ain't great so I'd really prefer to go abroad.
That's it- 52 weeks of blogging every week. I put out the post today rather than yesterday as this was the EXACT day last year a friend finally dragged me out of the closet with the innocuous message- "Good Lass". Saved my life, In the last year I have found love for myself and much more love for others, regained some confidence I had lost, made many friends and grew closer with family. I have grown and hit the best part of my life. Despite living in the UK, despite my existence being constantly under attack- I thrive. Happy 2025, here is to 2026.
(Okay the first photo is from a bit before coming out BUT I don't have many full body images from back then)
A year of changes, a year of blogging, thank you to everyone who has joined and supported me on my journey so far. Onwards and upwards.
Now for the usual post
The ups and downs
⬆ Despite my brother, I still enjoyed Christmas morning. The kids ran out excited to see me. They loved their gifts and time with Auntie Lyra. They can be awkward around me and ignore me but the kids were happy and that's what mattered. Even if missing them early on was heart-breaking.
⬆ Being me at Christmas dinner was magic, I was more able to get involved- had more fun and enjoyed myself so much more. Its night and day from when I used to feel awkward and leave as soon as I was allowed.
⬆ I felt myself so much this week, I think I can be comfortable with myself- I can now sit alone in my own house without hair and makeup, though I can't do that around anyone else now. I think I can shave every two days now because of that and maybe help my skin recover a little.
⬆ I got my first haircut since coming out- not that you will see it under the wig 😂
⬆ Looking forward to the new years party tomorrow- at that same party last year is where I finally started my journey in earnest instead of just my decade of stalling
⬆ I kept all my cards and gift labels- its so nice getting cards in my names, especially the card I got for a daughter and for a girlfriend.
⬇ Had a few nightmares, I think triggered by worries about work and my relationship with my brother.
⬇ Cancelled private and going back to DIY- No way I can afford it anymore since I no I will never get shared care. That said I'm hopeful that injections will help.
Progress
Week 52 of Lyra, Week 45 on hormones
Weight: 15st 0lbs (No change)
⬆ My parents stuck up for me against my brother. They didn't win but they tried.
⬆ Had a Christmas Dinner with my Boyfriend was lovely. I got gifted a lovely bracelet and a cute Ribombee plush.
⬆ I dressed up hot and felt soo great about myself, Even side on I didn't feel fat. Might go back to long hair when with friends.
⬆ Nearly 1 week of me- will post a big recap next week.
⬆ Great time with most of my family at my Grans birthday.
⬆ 15 stone hit. 2 stone to go. (28lbs/13kg)
⬇ Didn't Wear many unique cute outfits this week.
I only had the first pretty mundane down arrow on Sunday. Everything else happened today.
⬇ Cracked a nail THE DAY BEFORE getting them done again
⬇ My brother has denied me from getting to see my nibblings open their Christmas dinners because I make him "Uncomfortable"- I've been there every Christmas for 14 years. Thanks to my mum arguing on my behalf I get to show up a few hours after they have had "Family Time" that apparently no longer includes me. I was in a super Christmassy mood. That has been slain.
⬆ Got my Christmas Shopping & Wrapping Done. Singing my new name a lot is fun ✅
⬆ Had a lovely christmas meal with friends- we were so well organised this time. Went really smoothly and everyone ate a feast. Soo much tasty food- I made the sides.
⬆ My cousins baby Lottie is sooooo cute 🥺
⬆ Went to the cinema to see the new Knives out- I really loved it. I love how politically relevant they always are.
⬆ My makeup was on point yesterday- my skin looked smooth, even to me... Just need to get rid of the shadow.
⬆ Had to assure someone on the phone I was the account holder when it was in my deadname.
⬇ Laser has done all it can- still got shadow, time to move to electrolysis.
⬇ Having to move back to DIY as private is too expensive and Shared Care is not an option. At least I have my diagnosis for a GRC in 2027
⬇ The media lying about trans people in the UK is unreal- they just make up laws that don't exist, lie by omissions about how the case law goes. Well over 100 anti-trans articles THIS WEEK ALONE. The new head of the EHRC is as expected JUST as bad as the last one. Gaslighting on a national level. There is no bathroom ban, there is no law that says what bathroom you can use- but people have been lied to by the Government, The BBC and other press.
The Ups and Downs
⬆ I'm officially no longer obese- just overweight.
⬆ Had my gran and nephew help me put my christmas tree up
⬆ Got most of my christmas shopping done
⬆ Posted my weight loss progress on my socials and got a great response
⬆ I think my moustache shadow has reduced more 🙏 I just wanna be makeup free
⬆ Cozy quiet days with my BF... well with a cold trip out for a tasty meal.
⬇ Had a spiral day again, maybe sometime I'll be free of them
⬇ I'm spending less time looking after myself each day and I'm sleeping in more- might be seasonal, might be something more or it might be staying up too late. I'm keeping an eye on it.
Progress
Week 48 of Lyra. Week 42 on hormones
Weight: 15st 8.5lbs (0.5lbs off)
Total weight loss for Nov!
11.5 lbs / 5kg lost
Grand Total:
169 lbs off or 12 stone 2 lbs or 76.5KG or 43% of my starting weight 😁 BMI from 53 -> 29.6 (Officially no longer obese)
⬆ I love helping people- I've had a few people thank me for helping them recently and its meant a lot.
⬆ Had a great laugh playing a board game with friends this weekend- the vibes were immaculate.
⬆ great thrifting haul, got a new cozy jacket and the outfit in wearing in the 3rd picture x
⬇ My brother being transphobic is really splitting the family.
⬇ My dysphoria around my hair isn't improving... idk if even transplants will be enough to help.
⬇ Family can really improve at getting my name/pronouns right but i know they are trying so I try not to give in.
⬇ I felt really cute this weekend but my hair, hips and boobs were fake... kind of sucks to be lacking in so many areas and HRT doesn't feel like its doing much
The ups and downs
⬆ Weight loss has picked up again. Recommitting to my diet helped.
⬆ Took control of my finances this week and dropped my monthly outgoings
⬆ Started christmas shopping and being smart about it to keep everyone happy and not hurt the kids
⬆ Taking control of work again
⬇ Got dead named and mis gendered by my dad a lot today
⬇ New laser place is very different- scared it wont work
⬇ Most of my wigs are starting to fall apart, I'm super paranoid about any netting becoming visible and showing my baldness.
⬇ Had a talk with my brother about getting kicked out of christmas dinner, it went nowhere- badly. I spent most of the night afterwards crying. I also found out i likely wont be allowed to see my brothers kids opening their gifts on christmas morning- I've seen them do that every single year since they were born. I'm not going to take no for an answer on that.
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