itslysa

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[itslysa]

“Whatever I’m getting cheese fries” 🍟 • • • #cheesefries #wdw #meangirls #disney #meangirlsquote #MK #magickingdom #caseyscorner #hubgrassandchill (at Hub Grass) https://www.instagram.com/p/BriWoq1lIZ8TSFVjCzNU5UCkTKhtguMiEpbxKk0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1sf2xgrec8l5g

[itslysa]

fantasy.

It’s a regular night at home. I’m minding my own business. Making dinner, leaning the kitchen, watching TV, doing my regular weeknight routine. I have my rose water and ivy candle burning. Drifting off to sleep on the couch. A knock at the door startles me awake. 

It’s been so long since I’ve heard your voice just for me. Your laugh is the most satisfying sound to hear. My ears are longing for that sound. To watch you sleep and to feel you hold me in your arms. To smell your scent on my sheets. 

I walk over to look to see who’s outside. My heart leaps into my stomach when I see your stupid face. You say “I know you’re home. Just open up, I want to talk.” I flip one lock, then another, and the last one. I see you smile. That damned smile you do every time. 

“Why should I let you in? Give me one good reason.”, I say. “Because I’m sorry”, you say for the millionth time. 

You come in as I get us comfortable, change the TV to music, pour us two glasses of wine. You are shiftless and nervous. “Go ahead”, I muster as I watch the ice cubes melt in my glass. “I’m listening.” I say between sips. 

Of course I flashback to other times; better times. You asking me to dance in my own living room. Slow dancing to Ed Sheeran, gazing into your stupid eyes. I thought I loved you before, but that was the day I knew. 

“I love you.”, you say. I choke a little bit on my wine. “Excuse me?”, I manage to get out between coughs. You go on to explain that after all this time, you realize how much you miss me and that you don’t want to go another day without me being by your side or hearing my voice. You go on to say all these wonderful things. Things I thought I would never hear you say. 

It all seems too good to be true. “I love you.” I never thought I would hear it from you. It feels like a fantasy. You lean in and kiss me. My eyes close. I wrap my arms around your neck and you pick me up and make me feel so small but so safe and protected. “I love you back.”, I say whispering in your ear. 

BANG

The valet trash can lid slams shut. My eyes fly open. Another fantasy.

[itslysa]

Still in awe that this is my home 🌴❤️🌅 • • • • #bonkersbeautiful #sunset #lovefl #tampa #clorn #sunsets #florida #floridalife (at Water Works Park Tampa)

[itslysa]

If ya ain’t first ya last ✌🏼🏁🏆 (at Showtime Speedway)

[itslysa]

My ❤️ is so full. Best WEEK ever! This week I had so many things to look forward to and every moment proved better than the next! 🌻 Day off at Disney👑 a trip to the beach🏖 a ride on my Dad’s new motorcycle🏍 The #KingdomClassic with @jenndido and @thedisdude 🎶 Dapper Day people watching🎩 and two musicals in one week?🎭 I’m one lucky girl! 🍀 Too blessed to be stressed ✨✝️

[itslysa]

I thought he said, “Come to the dork side” 😜🌎💫🛰 (at Star Wars Launch Bay)

[itslysa]

I don’t need a bodyguard with you as my best friend #TheBodyGuard #StrazCenter (at Straz Center for the Performing Arts)

[itslysa]

Bond, Alyssa Bond. 💋🍸 #007 #DiamondsAreForever #BaronGala #SPCHS #Barons #GoBarons (at St. Petersburg Catholic High School)

[itslysa]

Fuzzy

Why do you make my mind all fuzzy? My limbs tingle when I think of you. My mind has video memories but no sound. Why can’t I remember our conversations? I would love to play those happy words over and over in my head. Instead, because I’m stuck here, I have to play back the awful ones. When you told me you didn’t love me too. When I told you that you had to say it to me. I thought those would be the magic words that would finally snap me out of your trance. 

But then I see you. A big thunderstorm that makes my satellite connection black out. Service interrupted. All of the words I prepare in my mind, all of the speeches I had ready, disappear into the cloud; lost forever. All of the promises I made myself about holding grudges, being bitter, acting angry, ignoring you, making you suffer, melt away with the rain. Things get all steamy and the atmosphere smells like rain on the hot pavement. 

Then the clouds part, and service resumes. You cross the line. You smash my heart all over again. A knife into my back and a punch in my gut. All I want to do is crawl up and cry. Why don’t you love me back? What is so wrong and broken with you that you cannot accept love? Because you’re damaged? Because you can’t get over that some bitch told you to fuck off? Well I’ve said that to you too and you couldn’t care less. You still send me snaps and the wyd texts at all hours. 

And so why do you care? You only contact me because you know I melt, I cave, I do whatever you want. Because I LOVE YOU AND I SAID IT TO YOU AND NOTHING CHANGED AND YOU DON’T CARE.

                                                   { b l a c k o u t }

[itslysa]

It was a fabulous February #LeapSecond #2018

[itslysa]

Get you a girl who can do both... • • • • • #Brains #Booty #Series6 (at Grady Square by Richman Signature)

[itslysa]

Make it pink 🎀✨💕 • • • • #makeitpink #rosegold #lostbros #drinkingaroundtheworldtour #epcot #disney #wdw #allpinkeverything #millenialpink (at Epcot - Walt Disney World)

[itslysa]

Thank you Gramcracker for a lifetime of love and memories that I will never forget. Thank you for being there from the beginning when I took my first steps in your house when the tornado took ours, for teaching me how sew my talent show costume and cheering for me on stage, to coming to my high school graduation and letting me call you and talk for hours during college. Thank you for telling me you are proud of me one last time and thank you for your last words of “I love you”. I’ll see you over the rainbow, Dorothy ❤️🌈🌪🌷

[itslysa]

I like warm hugs ✨❤️⛄️❄️ (at Walt Disney's Magic Kingdom)

[itslysa]

“Who is your favorite rock artist?” “....Barbara Streisand” #SchoolOfRock #StrazCenter #Bespians 🥁🎤🎸❤️🎭 (at Straz Center for the Performing Arts)

[itslysa]

So blessed to be a small part of this sister pack. Sunday nights have never been this fun! Making jokes only us musical nerds understand, sharing all the candy, and laughing until my sides hurt 🤣🎭🎶❤️🤩 • • • #sistas #4127forever #troupe4127 #LoveNever Dies (at Straz Center for the Performing Arts)

[itslysa]

You too can fondue #YearTwo #Bestie #BALANNA #fondue