Baron Sporocarp

My interests are monster movies, mushrooms, mime, and alliteration. My twitter is konohitsujida it is occasionally nsfw

[itsmesheep]

help me pay my rent until i can secure a new visa so i don't get deported back to the united states in august

cashapp $itsmesheep

paypal [email protected]

yes i deserve to live in anime land at the expense of other people

yes i deserve it more than anyone else does

men will come and live here for eight years while speaking 0 japanese and sexually harassing middle schoolers. i deserve the same respect and the same opportunities

i have already put in enough hard work so now it is time to wait for the world to hand me good things. let's go

[itsmesheep]

My sister died and I don't have enough money to fly back for a funeral.

[itsmesheep]

it's almost july and i still don't have a visa. i was planning to use sleeping pills but i literally don't have enough money so i may have to do the japan classic jumping in front of a train. i can see why it's popular, i am full of hatred for absolutely everyone and i want to inconvenience as many people as possible on my way out.

[itsmesheep]

can anyone hear me?

[itsmesheep]

help me pay my rent until i can secure a new visa so i don't get deported back to the united states in august

cashapp $itsmesheep

paypal [email protected]

yes i deserve to live in anime land at the expense of other people

yes i deserve it more than anyone else does

men will come and live here for eight years while speaking 0 japanese and sexually harassing middle schoolers. i deserve the same respect and the same opportunities

i have already put in enough hard work so now it is time to wait for the world to hand me good things. let's go

[itsmesheep]

My sister died and I don't have enough money to fly back for a funeral.

[itsmesheep]

help me pay my rent until i can secure a new visa so i don't get deported back to the united states in august

cashapp $itsmesheep

paypal [email protected]

yes i deserve to live in anime land at the expense of other people

yes i deserve it more than anyone else does

men will come and live here for eight years while speaking 0 japanese and sexually harassing middle schoolers. i deserve the same respect and the same opportunities

i have already put in enough hard work so now it is time to wait for the world to hand me good things. let's go

[itsmesheep]

i got fired so i'm going to kill myself. maybe tonight, maybe not tonight, but soon.

[itsmesheep]

I spent 5 months trying to get help and the "help for foreign workers" labor office lied to me and tricked me into signing my rights away and settling for a small fraction of what I was legally entitled to. I took an unpaid day off work to ask a low income lawyer why the government office is allowed to lie to me and he shrugged and said I could sue my previous employer for emotional damages if I wanted. I still don't have a full time job that will be able to renew my visa. I am making about $600 a month at a part time job. I have been surviving by borrowing from a friend who is losing patience and going into massive credit card debt, and my credit card will be taken away soon because I can't make the payments. It isn't just this, it's everything. I've never had justice for anything in my life. I've never had a "win". I've never had anything I worked hard on succeed. I've never had anything I could be proud of. I can't keep treading water for nothing. I don't believe I will ever be at peace, much less happy, but I have so far been too cowardly to end my life. Miso butter mackerel, corn and edamame over mashed kabocha.

[ntrider]

suicide note that says "don't let them think the haters won I just had other shit going on"

[itsmesheep]

i got fired so i'm going to kill myself. maybe tonight, maybe not tonight, but soon.

[tiktoks-for-dead-pope]

[neverlove-anchor]

the most baffling idea that goes around these days is that masculinity is accepted and even encouraged in girls

that's the stupidest shit ever posted on the internet and i think that any trans person who grew up as a girl can agree to that, except a small minority who grew up in a privileged background

masculinity is only ever accepted in ppl perceived as women if it panders to the cishet male gaze. it's very similar to the Gone Girl "cool girl" monologue. u can like fixing cars, but u better wear a really small top and have nice tits while doing it. u can like sports and hanging out with guys, watch sci fi and be fun and messy, but u better have a full face of appropriate make up during it and be careful that u remain skinny. also if u have a traditionally considered male hobby or job, it's cool, but only as long as u are not better than the men around u. that' not masculinity being accepted, it's immature cishet men wanting a girlfriend that puts as much effort in her appearance as a girly girl without being "high maintenence"

and all that shit applies if you're gender conforming

when u start presenting in a masculine way is when shit hits the fan. i wouldn't say that u lose all privilege (if you're cis) when u go masc, but the way u are perceived is not the same. suddenly u are no longer deserving of protection, kindness or dignity. when i presented hard masc it was almost impossible to go outside without gettimg harassed at a magnitude i've never experiences before or since. ppl stopped being kind to me, i was treated like a freak show, the little queer u can show like a new purchase, ppl treated me like i was stupid to the point that it affected my school life. ppl were routinely staring at me, and in some instances even tried to touch me (my tits specifically) without consent to see if i was a girl

but that's not all

regardless of what some trans radfems like to claim, u are forced into femininity, all the time. every hair cut, every shopping trip, every year when u don't bring a boyfriend (bc transandrophobia and lesbophobia have always been cousins), every day u don't put make up on, every time u shot down a demand to perform femininity, is followed by screaming, crying and monstruous fights from family members or ppl in a position of power, during which u are repeatedly reminded that being yourself is wrong and you're an abomination

and that's why u can never ask for help, not about the fighting or the endless verbal and sexual harassement, bc u will probably be told that it's entirely your fault, and u deserved all of it

[segamascott]

[screenshotsofdespair]

[itsmesheep]

i wish i did not have post traumatic stress disorder !

[a-swamp-creature]

we need a lying on the ground dead emoji now more than ever

[miggylol]

Spin the wheel. That's who's trying to kill you.

Spin the wheel again. That’s who’s trying to protect you.

(If you have zero idea about the name you got, spin until you see someone you recognize.)

Are you safe?

Absolutely not. I'm dead. 100% dead.

I might stay alive, but it'll be a really close thing.

I'll take some hits, for certain, but I should be okay in the end.

A few attacks might get through, but nothing concerning.

The attacker might be able to get in one lucky hit. If that.

I am the opposite of worried. I'm 100% safe.

…Look. I've tried picturing this. But I honestly don't know how to answer.

Voting ended onAug 18, 2025

(Six months ago, I did a version of this poll with about five hundred options on the spinner wheel. For this one, I more than doubled it.)

[purronronner]

I think Aziraphale can defend me from Uncle Fester, sure.

[elveny]

Well. I do think that The Joker will be able to defend me from Lex Luthor but he might kill me after it just for the funsies 😅

[mild-goth-sauce]

An informational comic I drew last year for my Comics 2 class, reposting it to my new account (had to jump ship from the old one unfortunately) with some minor grammar changes and learned my lesson in adding watermarks! Happy early pride :)

[anordinaryseal]

[ntrider]

suicide note that says "don't let them think the haters won I just had other shit going on"