It seems like a good way to go.
Today (23rd of September 2014) I've decided to set my blog on HIATUS. You have no idea how long I thought about it already. Sometimes I couldn't sleep because I didn't know what to do and I have to say that I become more and more unhappy about all this, and this shouldn't be the way I leave, cause all this here reminds me mostly of a happy and awesome part of my life. You can't imagine what this reflection of the whole situation caused in my head: explosions, fights and wars. The biggest war was definitely the one of brain against heart. I'm here for more than 3 years and I can't tell you how grateful I am for our time together. It was a pleasure to meet you and a pleasure to fangirl (freak out), chill, talk or just blog things with you. Looking after news, first for Twilight, later just for: Robert Pattinson (the love of my life) and/or Kristen Stewart (my role model), captured like 99% of my daily life. It was so much fun and I was so damn lucky to live this fangirl life and share my love with all of you right here on this place. It gives me chills to think about the time that passed. I've met incredible people and I can't list you all, but let me say it just once: I will love and remember you all forever. You mean a lot to me and I've really appreciated how much love you gave me through all the years, no matter what time and no matter what happened. Gisele you'll always be the sun in my universe and I don't know what I would've done without you by my side. I will love and care about you until my heart stops beating and I hope we will keep in contact somehow. Stella I've never thought I had to say this one last time to you, but I wouldn't leave without telling you once again, that you are the one who's breaking the waves and you are the one who's giving me grace, when I lost my place - you are the one. All my followers and people I follow, who have been with me for such a long time: I want to say that I can't thank you enough, I know.. but .. THANK YOU. I'm looking back and see on set pics/videos, promos, premieres, appearances, festivals, photoshoots, clips, trailers, events, award shows, behind the scenes, interviews, books, movies, candids, yt videos, kisses, hugs .. and especially LOVE.. yes, I see love all the way. I could say 'nothing lasts forever' but I'd lie if I'd say that I believed in this, I always gave all my faith to Robsten, and I will never deny that. Robsten is my one true pairing and I'll always listen to 'I Won't Give Up' just thinking about them. + Just because I'm going to set my blog on Hiatus doesn't mean I stop supporting them or watching their movies in theaters ! I'll always keep updated around them and I wish them just the best for their future lives, a lot of happy memories, great projects, success and (maybe someday) peace. I want Rob and Kristen to be happy, (together or not) and I'm in peace now with this little fact, even if it took me A LOT of tears and nerves. We've been through so many things and I'm proud to say: I'll go now as a RK fan, as a shipper and as a friend.
It's so terrifying for me to close the door behind me and throw away the key. I can't describe how much it hurts to leave this behind me and move on. But Robert and Kristen moved on too, and maybe it's the right time/way for me to do the same. I want to end this here with two little quotes. I've chosen them cause they started all this here, they match perfectly right now, I absolutely adore them and I will never forget them in my entire life, just like you. I can't say 'Goodbye', cause it would be a lie. Please look after yourself and don't forget that you're worth it. I love you Yours, Jenny "Twilight, again. Another ending. No matter how perfect the day is, it always has to end." "When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it’s not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end." Remember me.
