Steven Grant/Marc Spector x Hispanic!Teen! Reader
Note: when y’all see -()-, play Cien Años by Pedro Infante. Gives you a better feel on the scene ;)
You take a deep breath in and your eyes widen. When you lifted your head, you were met with a coughing fit from your throat. Smacking your chest with your hands to try to get the oxygen in your lungs moving again.
Squinting at how bright it is, you feel as if you're in a fever dream; neither it nor you feel real. Your muscles appear to be numb, but they are beginning to move again. It's chilly, which makes you want to hug yourself, especially since you were in 90-degree weather just a few minutes ago.
That voice sounds familiar. You turn your head to the left and notice someone from the past. It was one of your close friends from middle school. They looked just like how they did before. You gulp and stare at them confused on why they are there.
“How- what?” You try to regain your breathing.
They just smile and give a small laugh, “You fell asleep. We’re you up all night watching your senpai~”
Your entire body cringes. You really did try to bury all the embarrassing memories from your puberty years. All the incorrect Japanese pronunciations you and your friends attempted. You guys fetishized gay men in comic books and anime. You close your eyes, hoping to keep those thoughts at bay before ripping your brain out.
Speaking of which, you begin to turn your head around rapidly. You notice you are back at the same old spot where you and your old friend group would hang at during lunch. Sitting by you, we’re the rest of your them. All still looking like they did before.
"Anywho, last night I was watching Yuri on Ice, right? Man! When Yuri and Victor kissed I was scream-"
“How? We’re not- I graduated highschool, how am I back?” You look around to look for clues on why you’re there.
They each looked up at you as some ate chips or food from the school. They held a puzzled look.
“Man are you ok? Did you eat some of Justins edibles?” One asks with a joking tone.
You look down and realize you're not wearing the pants and green shirt Marc lent you. Instead, you were dressed entirely in burgundy oversized sweatpants and a hoodie. What happened to Marc? How about Steven?
That’s when the faint memory comes to you like a flood. You were shot by Harrow. You limped and fell onto Marc’s arms. Last thing you remember is just him saying to stay awake. Then it just faded black.
I died? You think to yourself and start to get up. This isn’t right. Wasn’t the afterlife supposed to be just clouds and sunshine? Not middle school of all places.
Before you can try to walk around to find where you were, the bell rings. That same bell that always told you it was time to go and endure lectures while you dealt with some of the most annoying people.
Your friends begin to pack up and one gestures you to come along as they see you stunned there.
“Come on, we’re gonna be late for history”
You blink and just nod, not questioning it. You follow them through the hallways and nostalgia just comes to you.
There’s the restrooms where you and your friends would die laughing. The spot where you guys would meet up in the mornings. Where you would hide as you and your group would spy on another as they had a romantic moment with their partner. Wrinkling your face, you feel the second hand embarrassment come again.
You notice some of the people are old classmates but notice how some of the teachers walking look way too familiar. As you walk past by one, you examine their face and see that they look like Donna. You may be going crazy but you know damn well that she wasn’t at all part of your middle school years.
Then comes another teacher, the girl who Steven stood up in their date. Again, she may be older than you but you know that she would not be a teacher in this time.
Continuing to tag along, your feet walk on their own as they begin to remember the route to your old history class. You and your friend walk in, heading straight to your seat. You take in the decorations and the way the desks are arranged. Just like how they looked 6 years ago.
She begins to gather her supplies while sitting next to you. You simply sit and look around. As you feel and smell the air, more memories begin to surface. You notice the kid who used to bully you all year in the corner of your eye. One example would be when he teased you about having a crush and then proceeded to tell them about you. However, he dropped out of high school and is now struggling as a want tobe rapper. The karma almost makes you laugh.
Staring at him for too long causes him to notice you and make a disgusted face. He jolts his body forward, as a way to scare you or that he’ll fight you. You roll your eyes and continue to look around. You forgot how childish kids from back then were, you wonder how they would react to seeing their past selves.
"Watch out, his girlfriend is coming" Your friend whispers to you. You furrow your eyes.
You hear a chair move and footsteps coming your way. Looking up, you see one of the kids friends coming up to you. The girl who had a crush on him which caused her to be the rudest and nastiest person. She was only stuck being his friend to try to win him over, which never happened. Instead, she lost all that friend group by highschool. Now she’s studying to be a nurse. Jeez do you feel bad for her future patients.
“Why the fuck are you staring?,” she says and then smirks, “Wait don’t tell me you have a crush on him!”
She begins to cover her mouth and gives her high-pitched laugh that always annoys you. You just stare in amusement. Noticing her features, she is still her young self. You look back at your body and see that you have accomplished puberty. Meaning you must be an 18-year-old among a bunch of 12 years olds. And no one cared, which leads to more speculation that you are not supposed to be there.
“Hello! I’m talking to you!” She snaps her fingers infront of you, “oh my god, why were you staring at me? Oh shit! Don’t tell me your a lesbian! You have a crush on me don’t you?!”
She continues to laugh and at this point you are trying to hard to not pull this girls hair. Being older, you should have an advantage on keeping her quiet at least. Remembering the rumors of how her dad was seen sleeping with her moms sister, you decided to use that.
“Girl are you okay? I know that your dad loves to keep it in the family, if you know what I mean” you whisper, “but you don’t gotta be a bitch about it”
This shit might be real cringy in the future or wouldn’t work but right now it might be the best someone hears as a roast in middle school.
She stands there in shock, “Fucking bitch” she says before stomping back to her seat.
You can hear how the guys are snickering and her telling them to shut up.
The door then opens and the teacher comes in. Expecting for the old 7th grade one to come in, instead you see a slouched man walk in with coffee in his hand. He’s wearing a cream cardigan and brown button up underneath with slacks.
“Alright how was lunch, gators?” A British accent comes out.
You shoot your eyes up to the front and see Steven smiling to the class. Everyone returns it and hear some respond back. He nods and prepares whatever it is on his desk for the lesson. You however are still in shock to see Steven in an environment like this.
“Todays agenda will be on Egypt. My favorite subject” he sighs dreamily.
You stand up instantly, “Steven! What the hell?”
Everyone in the class stares at you and whisper to each other. Your friend just looks at you weirdly and avoids their gaze at you.
Steven is caught off guard and clears his throat, “Now Y/N watch your language. Also it’s Mr.Grant, sit”
“No no no, you aren’t a middle school teacher, you are or well were a gift shopist”
The same girl from before chuckles, “Damn she’s a crackhead!”
There are a few laughs and Steven shakes his head, “G/N that wasn’t very nice. Y/N you seem tired, why don’t you head to the nurses office?”
He gestures outside and you see another face, Marc wearing security clothes. It seems like he came by to check out what the ruckus was all about. Seeing that you are the one disturbing the class, he gestures for you to come out. Seeing the two in the same place was weird but you quickly snap out of it.
“Oh come on! Don’t you see how you guys look the same?!” You point at Marc.
“I mean we are brothers…” Steven smiles.
The class yells a ‘what’ and begins questioning him, just like any would. Steven puts his hands up to try to quiet the class down. He says something but you can’t hear because Marc is pushing you out the door
You two walk through the hall with small steps being heard. The hallways are empty and all the classroom doors are closed, when usually there were some open. Once the door closed from your history class, everything was quiet. You looked over to Marc who was just staring straight ahead.
“Marc, you have to listen to me. You have DID and Steven is one of your alters. You had powers that came from a god named Khonshu!”
Marc shakes his head, “You probably have a fever or something”
“It’s true! We were in Cairo trying to find the tomb of Ammit!”
“Alright alright, how about you tell that to the nurse” he opens the door to the nurse's office and pushes you in.
Before you can turn to try to explain more to him, you are met with the door shutting in your face. You stand there trying to think of what to do next. Well, the only thing you can do is play along. Maybe it's a dream or something while Marc and Layla are trying to help you on the other side. Like those weird dreams people in comas get.
You turn to where the nurse's desk is and there are chairs lined up against the wall. On the opposite side, there are two doors that lead to the main office and the vice principal's office. Walking through the center, you notice that one of the kids sitting there.
However, they look older than the rest of the school. Pausing by them, they look up and your heart stops.
It was the guy who you saw at the alley that one night. He wore a hood and all his clothes were dark. His under eyes were dark and he seemed over everything.
"You. You gave me that fucking parasite thing!" You confront him. Walking to him in a stand off-ish way.
He furrows his eyebrows and scowls, "What are you talking about?"
"I tried to help you and all you did was cause me problems! If it weren't for you my parents wouldn't be-"
"Is there something wrong?" a feminine voice pops in from the corner.
Layla is standing to your right with a badge hanging around her neck. Her hair is tied back and she seems more, happy. She’s wearing a long grey cardigan and tight jeans.
"Layla! Please tell me you remember what happened!" Ignoring the guy sitting, you run toward her, "You were with Marc and me trying to find Ammits tomb, we were chased by mummy priests!"
She shakes her head, "Oh Y/N, I believe that was just a dream you had" she places her palm on your forehead.
You move her hand away, "It wasn't! I don't know what's going on, but I know that this," You wave your hands around the air to gesture to the school, "This isn't real, it's all fake!"
Layla pouts and places a hand on your shoulder and squeezes it reassuring, "Y/N...I believe you need to see your counselor"
You stare at her and she notices your confusion. She then gestures to the left, a door where a sign hangs with the word 'counselor'. You look back at her for reassurance and she simply nods.
You take slow steps, mainly because you wonder who might be behind that door. Maybe Khonshu? You kinda chuckle at the thought of Khonshu listening to every kid's problems. Maybe even wearing cardigan like Layla and Steven did. Drinking coffee or eating salad for his lunch every time.
When you open the door, you see a desk with a comfortable chair in front of you. A bookcase with many books and small decor is located in the back. Nonetheless, you can identify small objects. When you look closer, you notice that some of them are statues of Egyptian gods, the same ones you used to stock in the gift shop. Aside from the decor, the counselor is nowhere to be seen.
Footsteps are then heard from behind, "Sorry, I went to get a donut from the cafeteria, the staff bought a few dozen for us. Well not the student but you know”
A man walks in and heads to his desk. You stand there in shock as you see the man who killed you. The one who was the cause of you and Steven having to be in Egypt all of a sudden. He has his grey hair that's slicked back while wearing a cardigan. Harrow takes a bite from the donut and looks at you with a smile.
Was he smiling because he knows he killed you? Or because he won?
You glared at him as you sank into the chair. He notices and slowly nods his head. Putting the food down, he dusts off any crumbs from his shirt and takes out a file from a drawer. He then takes out a pair of glasses and puts them on.
You take a glance at it and see your picture clipped onto the documents. On the said documents you can tell it has information on you but not precisely what since it's upside down.
“It’s nice to see you again L/N, but from the looks of it, you don’t seem to agree” he gives a small laugh.
You don't say anything and just stare at him. He takes in your silence and sighs.
"Y/N, I have noticed lately that you have been staying in this, fantasy world. And this fantasy world has taken up your mind that caused you to not be able to tell what is real and what is not," You don't say anything but just give him a scowl.
"Look, I know. I too feel like going into a world where I feel like I am a powerful...what is that one show you kids like?" He thinks and then snaps his fingers, "Tokyo ghoul! A ghoul creature with those tentacles, but that's not real Y/N. What was real, was when you used to be an excellent student and daughter-"
"What do you want? Why, why are you acting like I forgot that you shot me" You finally breathe out.
"Y/N I am only trying to help. I never shot you. If I did, you would probably be in the hospital and I in jail" he laughs.
"You think I'm stupid?" You stand up and lean your body on his desk using your arms as support, "You shot me out there! At the tomb, because you were trying to steal Ammits ushabti thing!"
"I see Mr. Grant's history lessons have been also feeding into your imagination...Y/N this has become rather worrying and I might have to-"
You slam your palms onto the table, "I am not crazy! I am not!" You begin to pull your hair.
"Right, Y/N I am saddened to say this but I will have to call your parents so we can come up with a...plan on ways to help you"
“No...you’re not doing anything until me and the others stop you"
You hear the door open and security Marc is standing there ready to take you away. You look around for an escape route but the room is too small to do anything. So the only plan is to push through Marc and run out.
Of course, Marc grabs you but you use what he taught you before to unlatch himself from you. Layla calls out to you but you ignore her calls and run through the door. You pause to look around where to go but see Marc marching to you.
You follow your feet's lead and turn your heel, beginning to runoff. Running through the corridors, you notice that there is no one else there despite the fact that you recall the number of people ditching or going to the restroom. Hearing Marc and Layla call out to you send your adrenaline skyrocketing. You notice a few Egyptian jars strewn about the halls as you run.
What? You think to yourself
You don't even know where you are running to but you are hoping that this dream ends with you waking up to the real Marc and Layla. Feeling your legs begin to burn, you look for any door near but there isn't any. You then realize that the hallways keep going and that usually you would have been met with a wing of classes.
You turn one corner and see a door. Hoping it's unlocked, which it is, you rush in and close it immediately. You crouch down to hide your silhouette from the small window. Taking in your surroundings, you see that you are inside the janitor's closet.
Hearing the voices of the fake Marc and Layla fading away, you decide to stand up cautiously. Looking through you see the coast is clear and you open the door.
Everything changes as you walk out. It's not the same walls you remember from middle school. It was now an all-white hall with brick walls and tiles on the floors. It is lit by fluorescent lights, which give the space a cold feel. This time, there were several doors leading to who knows where.
Although it looks creepy, you were actually happy. It meant that you didn't have to experience pubescent years again plus deal with being called crazy. Also this is a sign
You place your palms on your knees as you catch your breath. Practically laughing. Now you have to find out where you were and how to get back to the real world.
You begin to walk through the hall to where there are two wide doors. Pushing them open, you notice how in the second part there have dangling lanterns that are swaying side to side. Continuing to walk through, you see how there are rolling steel tables with white towels folded on top.
Instantly, you hear voices coming from the next part. Still paranoid about Harrow sending fake Marc and Layla, you carefully push the doors open.
Your gaze is drawn to a figure exiting a room with caution. It has dark brown curly hair and is dressed in a white sweatshirt and sweatpants. The way they're coming out makes you think of someone.
"Marc?" You say in a low tone.
He turns around and his eyes widen at the sight of you. He stands still for a minute, trying to comprehend if you're really the one standing there.
"Y/N?" he almost smiles with saying your name.
The two of you stand like that for a few seconds before another figure comes out with a black outfit this time and with timid language. He looks confused as to why Marc might have stopped.
"Steven" Marc grins and gestures to Steven.
Steven turns to you and smiles widely, "Y/N?"
You don't think about what the next steps should be because all you want to do is hug them. Perhaps it's to ensure they're real or it could be that you really missed them. The ones who stood by your side when you were lost in a different country. You dash forward and practically leap into their arms. The two hug you tightly, scared that if they let you go, you would leave them again.
You two stay like that for a few seconds before you pull away. You glance from Marc to Steven, puzzlement finally hitting you.
“This is so weird,” you breathe out, “how?”
“I really dont have a reason” Marc shrugs.
“He just found me locked up in a sarcophagus. We’re you locked in one too?” Steven looks at you.
You shake your head, “Nah, I was actually back at my old middle school, it was weird. You were a history teacher, Marc was a security guard, Layla a nurse, and Harrow a…counselor?”
The two look baffled, “Harrow? The one who’s trying to end the world?” Marc asks.
You nod, “Yup, he wanted to send me away I think because I was crazy for imagining gods and curses”
“Ironic because it seems we are in a mental hospital” Steven looks around the hall.
Remembering you two were still there, you squeeze yours eyes trying to think, “Wait quick question, what happened after I was you know, shot?”
Marc breathes in, “Harrow and his men found us, Layla ran away luckily while I tried to distract them. But…”
“We we’re then shot by Harrow” Steven grimaces
“Which had you guys killed” You confirm.
The two nod and you stand there with a hand on your chin. If the three of you died, why were you in weird places? Especially a mental asylum? You weren’t all religious but wasn’t heaven supposed to be clouds and rainbows? Unless you did not go to heaven or hell but are now stuck in purgatory. Not a goal on your bucket list might you add.
“Then that means, we’re dead while Harrow is out there trying to kill everyone” You begin to panic.
Steven thins his lips and pats your back for reassurance. Marc shakes his head and looks to the opposite side of the hall.
“No, we are getting out of here. We aren’t staying dead,” Marc looks firmly at you and Steven, yet it feels like that last statement was directed more toward you.
He motioned for you two to follow him and he begins to take long strides while checking if it was safe to go. Steven sort of followed his movements but you just walked normally and checked around.
You three passed by an open room with another sarcophagus inside. There was a banging from inside, and it was shaking. Because it was standing, you were surprised that it didn't fall with the sudden movements.
“Any of you opening that?” You asked
Taking that as a fair no, you guys continued to walk to the end of the hall where there was another steel table with towels. By the wall, we’re more white chairs lined on the wall. Most importantly there was another pair of big doors at the end.
When you see heavy footsteps approaching and a large shadow looming on the other side of the door, the three of you come to a halt. You stand guard, looking for any weapon you can use because you can't use your powers. The footsteps become increasingly close. As your anxiety grows, you can hear your heartbeat through your ears. You stand your ground between Marc and Steven, ready to fight anyone.
The doors swing open and out comes a hippo with gold circle on top of her head. She wears a dress with a blue beetle placed on her chest.
You three look up at her in shock, feeling your heart pounding. There’s a moment of silence before she raises her hand and waves.
This immediately causes you three to scream in terror. You grab both Marc and Steven's arms and hug them tightly, hoping to keep the hippo at bay. As a result, the two lean on you for protection as well. You're all hugging for dear life at this point, like one of those cartoon characters.
Your screams continue and you notice that you are in a different place again. The screaming dies down and you see that you are back to the old counselor office, except Harrow is infront of you.
“Calm down. Y/N? Y/N. Your mind is spiraling out of control” He looks at you with concern.
You breathe in heavily, still trying to get a sense of how you ended back there.
“You keep coming back to being a student in middle school to a fantasy you have created where you are some hero’s sidekick in London. Plus some reason, make Ms.La Fouly, Mr.Grant, and Mr.Spector a parental figure…”
You squeeze your eyes and slowly open them to try to keep the pain in your head from growing. Looking at Harrow confused he continues on.
“Y/N, why is it you don’t accept your parents?”
You scoff, “Alright this is funny, really, but I gotta get going” you begin to stand up.
“Y/N were still not finished, please let me help you”
“Nah, you ain’t trying to help. You’re just pretending to be I don’t know,” you gesture your hand to him, “A counselor? Really?” You laugh.
“This is real Y/N I am not some villain made up in your head. I am just a man who rides the bus to get here and who tries to help young teens, like you, find yourself”
Shaking your head, you try to walk away.
“Please Y/N, we are close to making a breakthrough. Last time, you said something about a car ride?”
You breathe in and bite your cheek. To the corner of your eye, you see a cane appear next to the door. Eyeing it, you see a crocodile head on top, it was Harrows. Moving your hand close to it, you grab onto the stem and turn to Harrow.
“Hey, thanks. I really do feel very…counseled but uh, I really don’t like you” you walk closer to Harris and wind your arm back with the cane in hand.
The door opens and security comes in, holding you back while one tries to grab the cane from you.
“Let go! He’s going to kill everyone! Listen!” You screech but hear the electric sound of a taser.
Seconds later, you are met with a static feeling to your side and you fall down. Everything becoming blurry.
Your vision returns to normal, and instead of falling, you are now standing between Steven and Marc. Your screams subside, and you take a deep breath to try to comprehend what has just occurred.
“Oh shit, that was a real mind trip” you give a small laugh and hold your head. You let go of the men and take a few steps back.
Marc who is also trying to understand what happened, looks over to you “Did you go somewhere different too?”
“Yeah? I take it you did too” you begin to regain your breath.
“Are they always this intense?” The hippo asks Steven.
“Them? Uh well him almost every day. Her, not so much” he shrugs. He looks over to you to see if you are alright. All you do is just hold a thumbs up.
The hippo nods and then points to Steven and Marc, “Are you two like twins?”
“No” Marc counters but Steven doesn't, making Marc give a sigh.
She nods and then looks at you, “Are you their sister?”
You give a fake laugh, “Uh no. I’m actually a friendly neighbor of theirs"
“Ok, great. This really cleared this whole situation up for me” she smiles.
"Yeah, same here. I thought we were shot to death" Marc breathes out.
The hippo giggles, "Oh well this will really bake your noodle, but I am afraid you guys are actually quite dead"
You three stiffen up and stare at the hippo.
"Sorry what?" You smile awkwardly smile.
"I'm dead? Were dead?" Marc clears.
Steven stares into space in shock. You for an odd reason are taking it rather well; either it was due to the realization from earlier or you are going through shock.
"Actually I have..." she pauses and begins to pull out paper rolled together, "Hold on, it has been a minute since we've had a soul pass through here"
She unfolds the paper and reads off it, "Aha! Okay, here we go. Welcome, gentle traveler- Er well travelers" she corrects herself.
She starts to use hand movements to make the welcome seem grander.
"To the realm of the Duat"
Steven then blurts out, "Duat? The Egyptian underworld...this is Tawaret, goddess of women and children, and she is guiding us through our journey to the afterlife"
"The afterlife? This is our afterlife?" Marc asks and begins to walk around, trying to comprehend this is where he will stay for eternity.
"An afterlife. Not the afterlife. You would be surprised how many intersectional planes of untethered consciousness exist," She then gives a small gasp, "Like the Ancestral Plane. Oh! Just gorgeous"
"Wait, then why are we in a…"you take a second to look around, “mental ward?”
Tawaret snaps her fingers, "Actually I have cards about this hang on," she begins to flip through many cards, “Ahah! So since the Duat is something that the human mind can’t comprehend, you may perceive this realm as something more easily recognizable for you, a psych wards the first but hey, we can roll with it right?”
“Then why would we imagine this realm to be a psychiatric hospital?” Steven asks.
“Because we’re insane” Marc exhales, “we’re insane”. He begins to walk away slowly and begins to ramble on why they or he is insane.
“I mean a talking hippo and bird, you being out of my body, you being dead,” he points to you, “and now the afterlife right?”
“Marc?” Steven calls out to him.
You look at him as if he really did lost it. Maybe it was some sort of shock he was going through.
“Hey man, I don’t think we should wander off” you look back to Steven for guidance but he just apologizes to Tawaret for Marc’s actions. Sighing, you continue to stare at Marc as he begins to walk away.
“Oh man, Dr.Harrows right” Marc continues
You tilt your head, “Was he a doctor for you?”
“Psychiatrist” Marc clears, “Ill prove to you guys right now that we are insane. I’ll open these doors and we will be back at the ward where no gods exist and Y/N is just away at college”
You look to Steven again, whispering how Marc has lost it.
“I feel conscious enough to know that I am definitely not part of your hallucinations dude” you cross your arms.
Marc ignores you and walks towards two set of doors, “Watch, there’ll be a bunch of patients and there’s Crowley probably about to yell-“
“Hey hey Marc, don’t go in there” You warn
“Marc? Marc” Steven gestures to Marc to stop.
Marc opens the door wide, “Bingo-ohh! Oh my god!”
You and Steven follow behind to see what stopped Marc.
Walking through the doors, you find yourself towards the front of a ship that is covered in wood planks. At the edges, there are tall poles that have those same orange lanterns hanging above. Infront of you, there is what seems to be a scale that has an Egyptian statue holding both plates. At the end of the boat, there is another statue of a god.
Aside from the ship, the sky is covered in purple toned clouds which hide a yellow tint sky. Instead of hearing waves crashing against the ship, you hear grains of sand crashing from the weight.
“I’m not crazy” Marc laughs in relief, “I’m dead, we’re dead”.
“I’m glad you aren’t, didn’t want to deal with that” you tease.
He looks over to you and his smile falls, realizing now that you too are dead. “Where did you say we’re going?” He looks over to Tawaret.
“We’re sailing to A’aru. To the field of Reeds, right Tawaret?” Steven asks her.
“Ah so he’s the smart one?” She smiles
You nod, “Yup, trust me. This guy knows more Egyptian facts than a history teacher”. You pat his back and he smiles. Pretty much taking it that you are somewhat proud and happy with it instead of embarrassed.
“Gladly appreciated then. Oh, well if your hearts balanced in life, then you will spend eternity in paradise. The Field of Reeds!” She smiles.
You nod and continue to look around the ship, avoiding the edge of course.
“But before we get there, I’ve just got to do a quick little…” she walks closer to Marc and Steven, plunging her hands into their chest.
You gasp as you hear squishing sounds before she pulls out two hearts. The hearts look like marble that were sculpted into that shape.
“Oh goody! It worked! Here was little old me worrying I’d blow your chest wide open” she smiles and walks down to the scale.
“What’s she doing?” Marc’s eyes follow Tawaret.
“She’s weighing our hearts on the Scales of Justice and the feather of truth. Egyptians believed your heart was the sign of who you really were in life. If the scales balance by the time you end the journey, then your soul is allowed into the Field of Reeds”
“What if they don’t?” Marc asks.
“You get thrown overboard. Whoo!” She cheers and makes a gesture of you falling off, “You will then be dragged down by the dead into the Duat, where you’ll be frozen in sand forever”
She then looks over to you and smiles, “Oh right, let’s not forget you”
You back away, “Hey hey, not after you saying my chest might explode!”
Tawaret waves it off, “Oh you’ll be fine! I promise”
You hesitate for a second and take two steps towards her. Marc and Steven look at you both with worry.
Tawaret then puts a hand in your chest and you feel your breath stop. In your chest, you get a cold and airy sensation and is then stopped when she pulls out another white heart.
“See easy” she then takes it away.
Another scale then appears and Tawaret places your heart on it. It begins to go up and down, meaning you would wait to be balanced. You begin to feel your chest, thinking that you were left with a gaping hole. Fortunately you were fine.
The two men walk to the edge and you cautiously follow behind. You guys look down and see dunes of sand and rocks around. The thrashing of the grains of sand fill your ears.
“Oh ok, yeah uh if the boat to Mogarts scared me, this shit is freaking me out more” you step away and the boys do the same.
“It’s alright you won’t fall” Marc reassures you.
“Yeah, and if you trip, we’ll just catch you” Steven smiles and you smile back at them.
“I don’t care what this hippo says. There’s no way we’re ending up down there. And we’re not going to the Field of Reeds, either” Marc whispers to the both of you.
You pout, “Oh and here I wanted to go explore it. Have a sweet vacation” you sarcastically say. Unfortunately the boys don’t take it as a joke and stare at you.
Holding your hands up in surrender you reassure them, “Jokes! Just jokes”
“Right, well what are you proposing?” Steven gazes at Marc.
“If it comes to it…kill the hippo and steal the boat” Marc whispers even lower.
“What?!” You and Steven say.
“Um fellas?” Tawaret calls to you three.
Walking up, you see how Marc’s and Stevens scale is still trying to balance but this time there is a rusty sound coming from it.
“What? Why is it doing that? Why is it moving like that?” Steven inspects.
“I don’t know. I do not have a card for this” she gives an awkward laugh. She takes the hearts off the scales and notices the change, “It’s the hearts, they aren’t full. It’s like they each feel incomplete”
“What does that mean?” Marc crosses his arms.
“Without balanced Scales, the Duat will eventually claim your soul” she says seriously, “This boat contains all of a life’s memories. Now I don’t know what you two have been hiding, but my advice is get in there and show each other the truth. Balance your scales before we reach the Field of Reeds”
They nod and Steven looks over to you, “What about her? Is she alright at least?”
You look at Tawaret with hopeful eyes and she walks to your scales next. She sees how they almost seem balanced but they are moving slightly still. She looks at it confused and grabs your heart and sees the scale balance.
“What does that mean? Do I have a empty heart or something?” You ask, waiting for her answer.
Tawaret turns your heart at different angles and stops at an area, “It seems like, your heart has a crack”
You take a long blink with the news, “Excuse me what?”
“Hmm, if theirs are incomplete then that means you just need to fix it. Perhaps there are a few memories you decided to block out. Just get closure from them and soon you would be able to cross over” she smiles.
You slowly nod, “Wouldn’t Tumblr eat up the picture of my heart and what you said just now”. You look to the other two and they nod.
The three of you make your way back to where you came out of. The doors shut behind you and are now met with the long hallway from before.
“So how are we supposed to do this?” Marc walks down the hallway.
“Not sure…You think Laylas all right?” Steven asks.
“You really like her huh?” You smirk at him and he just gives you a blank stare, “I think she’s fine, she’s a strong woman”
“Knowing her, she’ll go on a suicide mission to stop Harrow herself”
“That means we better hurry, doesn’t it?” You nod to Stevens comment.
“Know what Layla would be all right with?”
“Don’t, just don’t say it”
“I’m just saying there is one hippo and three of us. And this ship can’t be that hard to steer”
“Marc, we are not about to have all the gods come after us just cause we killed their sweet hippo goddess” you look at him.
“Oh are you falling for her too?” Marc tilts his head.
“What? No! I’m just saying-What do you mean by too?” You feel your face heat up.
“You we’re quite fond with Hathor. Specifically her avatar” Steven backs up Marc.
“Oh you’re in on it too. But hey she’s a pretty lady and I can’t help it” you shrug.
Marc smirks, “Right, then you wouldn’t mind me telling her about your teenage crush on her when we get back to the living world?”
You turn to Marc and point a finger to him, “Spector, don’t make me tell Layla how you call out for her in your sleep”
Marc stays quiet and scoffs, “No I don’t…when have I ever?”
“Back at the hotel mate, I hear it even when I’m away” Steven teases.
“Oh you too huh? Don’t act like I haven’t forgotten about that kiss back there”
“That was unexpected, not gonna lie” you thin your lips.
Steven turns red and shakes his head, “Shouldn’t we be trying to cross over?” His voice going high pitched.
Marc and you realize, causing you three to stop.
“Oh yeah, so uh I guess,” you look to a door and notice a yellow light coming from within, “I’ll be going my way then”
Steven grabs your shoulder, “Wait shouldn’t we come with you?”
You look to him and Marc who wear a concerned expression. You gently smile, “I think I’ll be fine. Plus I don’t think you would want to see my cringy memories or you with me”
They hesitate but nod, letting go of your shoulder, Steven holds up his pinky finger.
“Promise me you’ll be safe and that together we will go back” you stare at his offer and then at him. He seems to be a bit serious even while smiling.
“Jeez, you make it sound like you won’t ever see me again” you laugh. You bring your pinky to Stevens and bend them together. From the corner of your eye, you see Marc standing awkwardly waiting for you to say something to him.
“Do you want to promise too?” You smirk.
He rolls his eyes but brings his pinky to you too. You two wrap your pinkies together.
“See you later” he smiles.
You open the yellow lit door and wave to them as you enter.
Walking in, you notice how you are no longer in the white walled ward. Now, you are back to your middle school hall way. This time it is longer than it usually is and notice doors close together on either sides.
You walk down the hall and see how one doors window is showing a view of a memory. In this memory it is where you are talking to Steven while working back at the gift shop. Smiling at the memory, you continue on and see that on the opposite side, there is another memory of you and Marc eating a hawawshi.
Continuing on, you see a door open. A bit creeped out, you walk cautiously towards it and see a classroom. However the few desks are moved towards the sides to make a path through the room. At the front there is a white board with a teachers desk by it.
Catching your eye, you see that the walls are covered with many flyers. Stepping closer, you notice they aren’t flyers but past certificates and awards you received from elementary to highschool. Seeing them all together, it sets in that you really did get many.
You turn to the other side of the wall and notice old work from your school years with high scores. The ones that you notice more are the ones from kinder and such. The ones where you were tasked to draw or count the shapes. Remembering how easy life was back then.
“Man, do I wish I can go back”
You then notice one sheet marked with a red color, 11/30. It was a low score. You remember when your teacher showed it to your mother during conferences. Did it make your mother angry? Yes it did.
Even with all these high scores and achievements, this one thing she didn’t let slide. You look down and then hear a quiet chime. Turning to the sound you see how the scale from before is on the teachers desk.
Walking towards it, you grab your marble heart and see how on the crack, a glowing white piece filled the beginning of it. You still had more to go but now knowing what the goal was, it would be easy to get back to Marc and Steven.
Walking back out, you look for another door to go to. With the amount of doors, it feels like it’ll take forever but thankfully the ones you needed to go into made themselves obvious. At the end of the hall you notice another open door. Shrugging you decide to walk towards it.
Through it, you see how you are back in the living room of your house, the one where you spent your childhood. Nostalgia hit you so much with how the furniture was placed and the old decor. Even the smell was driving you to past memories. You look around and walk into the kitchen, there your mom is chopping vegetables to make lunch.
She looks younger and probably a bit happier. She had her hair tied in a low ponytail and she wore a blue striped shirt with cargo pants, while wearing sandals.
“Y/N! Ontas?” She called out.
Hearing small footsteps running in, a little girl runs through your body giggling. Your mother picks her up and kisses her cheek. The little girl giggles in return as her mother kisses spots that are ticklish.
“Ay mija, te ensuciaste” she smiles and wipes off whatever it is on the girls face.
The little girl then turns her face, there you notice it’s little you. You smile as you see her jump down and grab a juice box from a pack.
“Háblale a tus hermanas que me ayuden a cocinar” your small head nods at your mothers command and you run to your older siblings room.
Following behind, excited almost to see the old room where you used to hang out. To feel like a cool kid. Well before you were kicked out by the preteens.
“My mom says to help her cook” your voice being high pitched catches you off guard.
You never knew how your voice has changed until now.
Your older sister rolls her eyes and nods. You look more into the room and see the bright colors and the 2000s style decor.
Your child self however was not too interested on seeing the details and walked into your room that you shared with your parents. You only had bits and pieces of how it used to look but now it was all cleared up. You saw the old queen bed, the corner where you had your toy box, the box tv, and the old drawer filled with your clothes.
Tiny you walked over to your toys and pulled out two dolls. There she started to play with them, coming up with a whole scenario for them. Crouching down, you smile at how you had no care in the world. The only important thing to you was whether Clawdeen and Barbie would find the missing jewels.
The door opens to your mother grabbing her purse and changing out of her sandals. She looked over to younger you.
“Me falta ingredientes para el ceviche, voy a la tienda, quieres ir?” She asks you. You shake your head and lift your dolls.
She nods and says she’ll be right back. Hearing the car drive away, you continue on to play with your dolls. Soon enough, your oldest sister walks into the room.
“Hey, can you keep a secret?”
You start to remember, you don’t like where this is going.
“We’ll…I will be moving out and I got the house. Want to go see?” She grins at you.
Of course this excites you. Dropping everything, younger you nods and begins to grab her shoes. You follow behind the past you and your sister. Taking a better look at your older sister, you can see she has her belly growing. This was back when she was pregnant of your first nephew, you realize.
“Alright, remember, it’s a secret. So you can’t tell my mom” she places a finger on her lips.
This realization hits even more when you see the rest of your siblings getting ready. You shake your head automatically and back away, seeing yourself happy to see your older sister and nephews future home.
“Oh don’t go. Please, don’t go” you look at your younger self but she can’t hear.
Following behind your siblings, when you walk through the door, you are now at a different house. The house in which your sister moved into. Everything was still empty and there were a few boxes and furniture still waiting to be set up.
You see how younger you is running around with all the big space. Your parents house was small, and you remember always watching movies and shows where it showed a family in a big house. Fantasizing that you would get to experience having your own room. Being able to walk up and down the stairs. Especially imagining walking down to see your family sitting all together watching tv just like those tv shows did.
Hearing whispers from the corner, your attention on younger you is taken and you turn to where your two older sisters are talking.
“My mom can’t know” Your sister who was pregnant said, “She’s going freak out and I don’t know what she’ll do but she’ll try to keep me at the house”
You tilt your head, you don’t remember hearing them talk about this. Then again, you were just a kid who wanted to play in their imagination.
“Yeah don’t worry, we won’t say anything. Just make sure we get home before she comes back” Your other sister says.
You feel your self freeze up and your heart pound faster than it did before. The part from your memory was coming close, the one you didn’t like thinking about.
“You guys have to go now. Before she comes. Just go!” You look into your sisters eyes but she doesn’t notice your presence.
You breathe heavily and run your hand through your hair. At this point, you are having an anxiety attack. Closing your eyes, trying to imagine a different place, you open them to see that you are at the front yard of your parents house. You look around and see your mom standing outside, angrily watching as she sees you and your sisters come out of the car.
Your sisters don’t notice since their talking but once they turn their faces become grim. Younger you smiles, seeing that your mother is home. Running up to her for a hug, she shoves you back.
Your throat tightens as you see younger you look hurt as she stares back to your mother.
“Onde estaban?!” She yells at you three.
Your sister stares down, “Nomas fuimos a la tienda por algo…”
Your mom not believing it, looks at you, “Y tu? Me vas a mentir también?!” She harshly says.
Remembering how your sisters said to keep it a secret, you stay quiet for a second, “A-a la tienda…”
You stare at younger you afraid. You just want to go and pull her away. To scream at your mom to leave her alone. In your child self, you were thinking about your father coming to the rescue but he was working. Obviously, you never really got to see him since he always overworked himself. Leaving you and your sisters to deal with your mom.
Suddenly your mother grabs child you and drags her to the car. Hearing your sisters telling her to stop, your mother ignores them and pushes you into the passenger seat. She walks around the car and hops into the drivers seat.
“No, no, no. I ain’t doing this. No” you turn and run into the house.
The house is no longer one but now a classroom. This time, it was your old elementary classroom. More nostalgia comes through as you see the past school supplies laying around. Taking a moment to calm down, your attention is caught when seeing your old teacher sitting at her desk and infront of her is you and your mother. This time you are a bit older, probably 8 years old now.
Walking towards the three, you hear your teacher talking to your mother.
“Su hija está siendo bien en sus lecturas, pero en las matemáticas no tanto,” your teacher then pulls out a worksheet from a folder and slides it to you mother. On it, it shows many math problems and on the corner of the sheet is the numbers 11/30 with a red circle around it.
You mother doesn’t say anything and nods. Your teacher explains ways on how to help you understand the problems and how to work through them. She then hands her a stack of what seems to be practice problems.
After the conference ends, you follow behind your mother and younger you out the school. Walking to the car, you mother begins to talk.
“No entiendes esto?” She shows younger you the low scored sheet. All you do is shake your head.
“Como es que no lo entiendes? Tu prima Jessica lo puede acer, a ella le dieron un certificado”
Younger you stays quiet and just looks down.
Well maybe it’s because she doesn’t have to stress out with shit from you every single second, you glare at your mother.
You and your mother step into the car and begin to drive away. You stand there as you see them leave. You roll your eyes and turn around.
This time it is night now. Loud music is blasting and you hear people laughing. You see many tables scattered with leftover food and a few bottles of beer around. Taking in the surroundings, you see that you are at your aunts old house.
Trying to figure out who the party is for, you walk around and see a table decorated with the name of that same cousin your mother compared you too. Everything decorated beautifully with candy and such scattered.
You groan, knowing damn well it’s a party for her birthday and with her getting an award your aunt made it a big deal that she decided to host a huge celebration because of it.
As everyone danced, in the corner of your eye, you see now 13 year old you sitting at a table. Away from everyone, just watching them with hatred. The way everyone was faking it. The way they hated each other but pretended to get along. You hated it.
You had a black jacket with a green shirt underneath. For pants you just had a normal pair of jeans on with sneakers. Back then, you never cared for parties which meant you didn’t pay much kind to your outfits.
The music is suddenly turned down and your aunt calls out to everyone, saying how she has a speech. Pre-teen you rolls her eyes as she has her arms crossed. People gather around her and your cousin, waiting for what the announcement will be. Fortunately, you are at a safe distance where you are away but can still hear what she will say.
“Hello! I’m glad everyone was able to come and share their time for my daughter,” she says with an accent, “Nomas quería darles gracias por venir y también para felicitar a mi hija. Es una niña muy inteligente, y estoy muy orgullosa por ella. Ella a ganado muchas certificados y premios, que más puede pedir una madre. La quiero!”
Everyone cheers, yelling praises to your cousin. You see past you look at your parents who are also part of the cheering crowd. Her expression falls and saddens. You’ve never seen them be so happy and proud of you. Instead that attention was going to your cousin. Someone who wasn’t even close to them.
You scowled and turned to your cousin, staring at how she and your aunt hugged each other tightly.
That scowl then fades and you frown. You would never admit this, but you did feel envious of them. Why did your cousin have that kind of relationship with her mother? It never seemed like she had to try to please her. Anything she did made her happy. Hell, it made your parents happy. To top it all off, her father comes in and gives her a hug, following with a “Te quiero”. There it was, something you never heard your father say to you.
Even after everything you did, your parents never did give you the attention you deserved.
When you tried, all your parents would do is just say a “Well done” and move on with their day. Anything you did, it never went noticed. You always wondered whether they even cared about your effort.
Someone walks to younger you and takes a seat by her. It’s an older man, with grey hair and wrinkled cheeks. Wearing a thick jacket and holding a cane.
Recognizing your grandfather, you walk closer to him and kneel down to him. Feeling tears trying to escape. You smile and reach out to feel his face but your hand goes through. You slowly pull your hand back and sigh.
“Hmm, estas la primera vez que los miro así de felices junto” he says rather amused.
Younger you turns to him and smiles, “Si, me sorprendió. No vas a ir a bailar?” You say with a teasing tone.
He scoffs and shakes his head, “Si voy, no me van a dejar. Van a tratar de obtener su herencia al mentir que me quieren”
Young you just nods and smiles, “Quien crees que no lo está fingiendo?”
Your grandfather takes a second to think and turns to you, “Tu”
“He estado aquí en la tierra el tiempo suficiente para decirte quién solo está ahí para ti cuando necesitan algo y cuando alguien solo necesita alguien a su lado ”
You smile, remembering the quote that he told you that night, now using it everywhere you go. And that quote is probably what helped you befriend Steven. You were able to tell he was a person who just needed someone by his side, and it was true. He has never been happier. Even with Marc, all he did need was someone but he tried pushing them away. That was until you broke that cycle.
Remembering you were still in your memories, you looked around to try to leave. Perhaps it was enough to make your heart no longer broken.
Seeing a door open at your aunts house, you walked over to it and walked through. Ending up in your parents living room, the one of now, or technically from a few months ago.
Past you was sitting on the couch, your leg bouncing as you thought of how to break the news to your parents. Your mother and father walked in and sat on the couch, they both smiled as they waited for you to speak up. It was weird how they were more happy now than they were a few years ago. That’s what grandkids did, they became the parents you wished you had.
“Uh, tengo algo para decirles…” you twiddled your thumbs trying to get the confidence to tell them. To tell them that you were accepted to Kings College London. A college with nursing programs and such. How you were planning on moving out there, away from here.
“Una universidad en Londres me aceptó. Tiene un programa de enfermería y tiene buenas críticas”
You sense your parents tense up and look at each other.
“Estás asegura? No ay otros universidades con la misma programa aquí? Así que te puedes quedar en la casa” you mom says and looks to your father for support.
He stays quiet for a moment, “Que es la diferencia allá? Vas estar estudiando la misma cosa come acá. Una sobrina que tengo, estudia en uno en-“
You cut him off, not wanting to endure more comparisons “Dicen que pagan para el vuelo y donde me quedo”
It was a lie of course, you were saving up money to afford a flight over there plus to get your own place. All you wanted to do was leave. All your siblings had moved out already and you were alone. Alone with your parents criticisms. Alone with the comparisons. And alone with dealing with their arguments.
Your parents nod and hesitate, “Pues, si es la universidad que quieres ir, no te podemos parar”
You were actually surprised they let you go. But you were glad. You were able to meet Steven, Marc, and Layla.
With a blink of an eye, you were then transported to the backseat of a moving car. You looked around and hear your mother yelling at someone. Moving closer to the front, you see how younger you from before is frozen on the passenger seat, looking down.
“No puedo creer que me hayas mentido. Después de todo lo que he hecho por ti” your mother grips the steering wheel.
“Sorry mami,” younger you says but it goes unnoticed.
“Ya estoy lidiando con tu hermana que nos avergüenza con su embarazo. Te lo puedes creer? Tenemos una puta en nuestra propia casa”
Shaking your head with how she insults your sister you glare at your mother, “How can you say that about your own daughter? Especially infront of your youngest”
“Sabes, tuve que casarme con un hombre que ni siquiera amaba ni él me ama. Dar a luz a sus hijos por los que me sacrifiqué tanto. Solo para que me traten como una mierda” your mothers voice breaks and begins to cry.
This is where younger you starts to think over this statement. Seeing her own mother hurting and saying how having kids was a sacrifice, a seed was planted. If she or her sisters weren’t born, her mother would have been happy. Maybe there was a way to make her happy and that was to be the best in the family.
“Mami, lo siento, no te mentiré más” younger you pleads, hoping that she’ll just turn back and you get to be home.
Younger you is crying at this point but your mother ignores it. She continues on about how her own family hates her.
“Al mejor me tengo que matar, así ustedes pueden estar feliz” she says which causes your child self to freeze and shake her head. Telling her mother not to, that she’ll miss her.
“Ya párale! Nomas es niña! Nomas fui niña!” You yell out to your mother. Tears are now rolling down your cheeks and you feel your throat clench.
This was the memory you hated. The one you despised. It reminded you how any good you’ve done for your mother, goes unnoticed when one bad happens. But it mostly made you think of how you still try to appease her when all she ever did was build anxiety in you from the start.
Blinking again, you are now standing and you are under a green tent. Infront of you is a coffin with many people surrounding it. Everyone wearing black and crying. There are a few chair set up around with a few personal items.
You see your aunts and cousins holding tissues up their noses as they sob. Next to the coffin, you notice 14 year old you just staring at it. You’re not crying. You wouldn’t be showing everyone else your emotional side.
Walking close to the coffin, you see the ring of flowers that are by it, have a picture in the middle. It was your grandfather. It was his funeral. He died a few months after that one party, no one knew he would. But the tumors in his torso said otherwise.
Past you then turns to your cousin who is sobbing and talking about how she was very close to your grandfather.
“I always talked to him and he always had jokes to tell” she blows onto her tissue.
Anger boils within 14 year old you and just stares at her. But the thing to tip her off was the next line.
“He told me before he died, that I was one of his favorite grandkids. The only one who tried to spend time with him, if only I had more”
That was it, you needed an outlet for emotions and here was your chance.
“Can you shut the fuck up?” You snarl at her
Everyone pauses and stares at you, “Excuse me?”
“You know damn well you never talked to him. You never did. You said it yourself, that he was an annoying old man!”
She looks around and furrows her brows at you, “I would never say that!”
Her mother then steps in, “No le hables a mi hija de esa manera. Sé que los celos te están engulliendo, pero tienes que controlarlos”
“Y/N, ya párale” your mother says firmly.
Ignoring her, you look at your aunt, “Oh, no me digas eso cuando lo sepas muy bien, acabas de jugar a la buena hija solo para que puedas conseguir terreno!”
She looks shocked and stays quiet.
“Por qué ustedes están actuando como si ahora el los importaba cuando siempre lo ignoraban? Todas ustedes son perras-“
Your cheek was stinging and you stood there shocked. You slowly turned to see that your mom just slapped you.
“A mi familia no se habla así!” Your mom. Your own mother. Standing up to her sister instead of her own daughter.
You turn to your father who was standing behind her. Hoping he would stand up for you, but he doesn’t. All he does is just shake his head
You glare at them, “…Claro, no me sorprenden que los quieren mas que su propia hija”
Your mothers eyes widen. You push past everyone and as you walk past a cooler filled with beer. You grab one and just walk away as you hear your sisters protests.
You follow behind past you and find her sitting by a tree as she stares into the distance. With the beer already open, she takes a large sip. Her eyes are tinted red and she continues to grip onto the beer bottle.
You remember the thoughts from that day.
You hated how this family worked. How your mother always chose her family instead of the one she made. How your father was never there for you.
Then it went to sadness. Why did your grandfather leave you? Didn’t he know you would be alone? That the family would be in chaos without him. Or was this his way to escape it. If so, she wanted to escape it too.
Past you took another gulp of beer and let the heavy tears fall. Those quiet tears then became loud sobs. She then threw the bottle and cried into her arms.
As you watched her cry, you couldn’t hold it in anymore. You didn’t even notice how past you disappeared and how you were now alone. You dropped to you knees and sobbed.
Remembering how you were just a kid who wanted to have fun. To make her family proud. All this responsibility on her shoulders. Having to deal with her mothers negative thoughts. You were just a kid.
A kid who wanted to have a mother who was as caring as the ones from movies. Where she would be happy with anything you did. One that didn’t compare you at every chance she had. A mother who wouldn’t use you as an outlet for her problems. One that chose you before anyone else.
Wanting a father that you spent most afternoons with. One that wouldn’t miss your birthdays or award ceremonies. Who would make you laugh. Where he would stand up for you. One who would spend time with you no matter what. A father who protected you from every danger.
Your cries became loud and you screamed out, holding your arms close. Your throat hurt from the sobs but you didn’t care. All the sadness from years ago were finally coming out. You tried to breathe but crying made it hard.
A few feet away, the scales were starting to balance out again. You couldn’t see it, but the crack on your heart began to heal the more you cried. This was all you needed.
You lift your head up, trying to calm down. Your eyes felt swollen and your body weak. The ground began to change from grass to wooden floorboards. Continuing to hold your chest, you saw how the scales balanced. From behind you hear Tawarets voice come close.
“You did it. You balanced your scales” she said with a warm smile.
You stayed on your knees and looked up at her, “Does that mean…”
“You can now be in the Field of Reeds”
Turning your head slowly, your view is no longer a sky painted with purple hues nor sandy dunes. Now it is a sky with a yellow sunset. Looking down, you are no longer on hard wooden floors but soft earth. Up to your shoulders we’re many stems with a fluffy top.
So this was the Field of Reeds.
Even with Steven describing it, you never thought you would see it yourself. Or even believed it would be this beautiful and calming.
You just stay staring out to the sun as you feel a soft breeze hit your face, drying up all the tears you let go of before. Your breathing began to regulate and you continued stay on your knees.
At this point, you didn’t care where you were or what had to be done. You even ignored Tawaret who stood behind. All you wanted was to take this moment of peace.
“Where is she?” Marc walks away from the hippo, trying to find you.
He too was in the Field of Reeds now. Except he wasn’t exactly happy, no he found it as a step back from trying to leave. Plus now, you two have lost someone from the trio.
“She is over there,” Tawaret pointed to where you continued to sit in the distance, "She has sat there for almost thirty minutes. Quite worried about her". Marc took a quick second to stare at you before he began to walk towards you.
No longer crying but just holding a stoic expression as the reeds gently hit your body. Staring at the sun, expecting it to go down but after minutes passed by, it still stayed in the same spot. Something you liked since you never got to see the sunset.
Footsteps came near but you ignored them. Marc walked to your side and looked at you. Making sure you were alright but the red, puffy eyes said something else.
You didn’t respond which caused him to crouch down to your level. Taking a closer look, he can see your tear-stained face. You were in deep thought before you began to talk.
"You know, the real reason why I moved to London wasn't just because my 'dream' school was here, but to run away from feeling overlooked" Marc decided to sit down, readying for the conversation.
"I thought that being here would stop me from wanting my parents to appreciate me. Even a slight bit of it," you laugh, "yet I'm over here trying to become a nurse just so my parents can see that I was worth the effort."
Marc remains silent and gazes out at the sun. You just needed someone to listen and hear you out at this point. You seemed to be keeping everything inside back in the living world. It reminded him of himself, back when he was a teen.
"It's even more degrading when I even apologize for every mistake I make. I can't even remember a single time in my life when someone has apologized for hurting my feelings."
That's when you finally turn to Marc, eyes warming up again with tears threatening to fall, "I've been the best I can be, and my parents don't see it. Why? Why don't they?"
Marc draws you in for an embrace, pressing your head against his chest. Your body reacts to each cry you make, unbothered that you appear vulnerable. Marc’s hug feels protective and safe, something that you needed. You pull away and wipe your face after he notices your body relaxing.
He thinks of the next thing to say, knowing that you are hurting from whatever memories you have seen.
“I don’t have a clear answer on why your parents can’t see you, but just know they have to be blind,” he smiles and places his palm on your back.
“You have got to be the most hardworking and kind person I have met. Before you and Steven met me, I remember seeing how you got shit done at the shop. How at the same time, you would stand up for Steven when others didn’t. How you have the balls to go and what? Tag along to try to save the world? What person your age does that?”
“I heard rumors that Spider-Man might be 16, saving the world” you sniffle.
“That’s because he has powers that he learned to use and a suit to make himself look pretty. He signed up for it but you didn’t, and you still went out there to kick ass, like how you were throwing guys into the river back at Mogart’s.” he gently elbows you.
You give a small laugh and it makes Marc happy to see you feeling better.
“Kid, just know that no matter what your parents think, me, Steven, and Layla will always have your back. And if it makes any difference we think you are the best daughter there is” he smiles.
Marc nods and you smile at the gesture.
“If we do get a tomorrow, will you guys be there?” You ask, hopeful at the question.
“Of course” He hugs you and you hug back.
When you let go, you look around trying to find the other twin. “Where’s Steven?”
Marc frowns and looks down, “The Duat got him…”
You look at him and your eyes shift more wide. Steven the one who made you see the better side of the world was gone. You felt a sort of emptiness in your heart and you wanted to do something about it.
“Is there a way to get him back? There has to be right?”
“There is,” Marc smiled, “But if we try to, we won’t be able to come back here”
You pause and take a look around the plane. It was beautiful and quiet of course. It was the peace you always looked for, but, if Steven wasn’t there to share it with him, what was the point. After everything Steven has done for you, it would seem unfair to not try to save him.
“So what do we do?” You begin to stand up and so does Marc.
“We’ll go back and go through a gate to get us back to our bodies” He said with a determined tone.
“Yes, but he also forgot to mention that you two will be returning to bodies filled with led” Tawaret appeared from behind you two.
Whipping your heads around, you looked up to the hippo goddess.
“Marc might be able to come back with the help of Khonshu but unfortunately for you Y/N…” she held both her hands.
“…I would just die again and come back” You say, aware now of your choices.
Marc stares at you and shakes his head, “No, I won’t have you die again. We’ll figure something out. Khonshu probably has some kind of healing magic or something for you”
Tawaret thinks for a moment and hesitates, “There may be a way. Maybe having Y/N become an avatar for Khonshu might work”
Marc shakes his head, “Not happening”. He looks away and ponders for a minute, “…I can maybe strike up a deal to have you be his avatar, temporarily”
“What kind of deal would we be talking about?” Furrowing your eyes as you wait for his answer.
“…I would stick around him longer after we stop Harrow”
You knew Marc and Steven didn’t like Khonshu as much as you did. Noticing the way they seemed more laid back when he was gone, you would understand why they wouldn’t want to be with him anymore. But he was willing to leave that behind just so you can live.
You stalled but nodded to the offer. Marc took this as a sign to go and he began walking away. Following behind, the scenery changed to no longer a bright yellow scene but to the dark purple from before. This time, you two were on the sands of the Duat.
Looking around, only dunes were seen from a distance. That was until you two noticed a tall rock but it had gods carved on a side. In the center there was two big doors with engravings
Aside from that, infront of them was Steven. But he was frozen in place and his body was made out of sand. Half of his body was also deep in the sands, meaning he’d probably been there for a while.
Walking close to him, Marc crouches down and so do you. Now face to face with Steven.
“Man Steven, this does not suit you” you give a small laugh but really it pains you to see him like this.
Marc smiles at your comment. He moves his head closer to Steven and speaks in a low tone.
“I don’t know if you can hear me…from the moment you arrived, way back then, we were so young. You saved me” Marc’s voice begins to break.
Seeing as how he is having a moment with his alter, you stand up and give him some space. You wonder what it was that they saw that caused you three to be there. Besides that, you did wonder what it was that caused Marc to have an alter.
You remember searching up more into the subject back at the hotel and ways one would gain it was through trauma. Recalling the emotions you got when you thought of Marc’s past ached your heart. You never tried to ask him about it since it may have been triggering to think of.
Your thoughts then stop when you feel your toes to your ankles becoming weak. Looking down, you see that your body is slowly turning into sand. If you stay there longer, you might look just like Steven.
Peering back at Marc, you saw that his body was turning into sand too. Although it was a whisper, the last thing you hear Marc say was;
“You are the only real super power, I ever had”
Marc puts his hand on Stevens and they are then turned into sand. Freaking out, you stare at them and then at yourself. Shocked that you still weren’t turned even though you and Marc had been here for the same amount of time.
“No, no, no, no! Guys come on!” You limp your way to them but stop when you hear the large doors before you open, revealing a bright light.
Using your arm as shade for your eyes, you look down to the two and notice their heart glow a pale yellow. Crinkling sounds are then heard from Steven and his head starts turning back to normal, soon his entire body, plus Marc and they both breath out. The heart disappears and they sit there now conscious.
“Marc? Y/N?” Steven looks at Marc and then at you with a smile. Beginning to stand up he begins to nag you two, “You guys came back? What the hells wrong with you two?”
“I did a whole speech there” Marc smiles
“Hey I couldn’t leave my best friend behind” you grin.
Steven struggles to walk to you but you grab him before he falls. He gives you a squeeze and Marc joins in.
“Jeez will the gods know us for hugging huh?” You poke fun at.
They pull away and laugh. Seeing that the gates are open, you three hear a loud rumble come from behind. Looking back, you see a large wave of sand coming towards you.
“Oh shit! Come on!” You help Steven drag Marc to the gate, since he is still turned to sand.
“I’m slowing you guys down, just go without me” Marc says.
“Hell no” You shake your head.
“Nope, we are almost there. We can do it”
You guys continue to limp your way as fast as you can. Adrenaline pumping as you hear the sand coming closer.
That’s when you hear a loud laugh come from behind. Turning back you see Tawaret sailing her ship on the the wave.
“Osiris, you old softie!” She then rams the ship against the wave, giving you three time to cross, “Now run!”
Steven puts his arms up and cheers, “Hippo!”
“Let’s fucking go!” You roar as well.
Marc begins to pull you two back as he says to go. You guys continue to charge but you begin to slow down.
Remembering what would happen after you come back to the world stayed in your mind. Marc and Steven would have to deal with Khonshu just for the sake of you. How could you do that to your own friends.
“Come on! We’re almost there” Steven yells out.
You let go of Marc and stand still, thinking of the choice you would make. Sensing that you were staying back, the boys look at you concerned.
“What is it Y/N? Let’s go! We’re almost there” Steven smiles.
“…kid?” Marc notices your in deep thought.
You gulp and look into their eyes, “I can’t have you give up your freedom from Khonshu, just to let me live another life again…”
Steven looks at you confused, “What? No, Y/N you still have much to live for”
You shake your head, keeping your grin and feeling your eyes water once again, “Thanks for making me look forward to life and making me feel cared for,” a few tears fall.
“Y/N, it’s alright, we don’t mind being with Khonshu. As long as your with us, that’s all that matters” Marc tries to grab you but you push his hand away.
“Marc, thanks for listening” you look at Marc and then turn to Steven, “And Steven…thanks for unlocking that door for me”
Putting both hands on them, you use all your strength to push them through the gates. They yell at you to stop and to come with them but you ignore their pleases. With one final push, they then disappear through the bright light.
You stand still as your body is turned into sand. Closing your eyes, you feel a sense of coldness consume your body, then everything turned dark.
Marc stands up as bullets fall out of his wounds. Cloth begins to wrap around his body until he is covered in grey. He looks at himself through the reflection of the water around him and makes the mask disappear. Walking over to Y/N’s body that was left by the tomb of Alexander the Great, he crouched down and moved the hair out of her face.
Steven then grabs control of the body and stares at her with grief.
“There has to be something we can do, she can’t be gone”
Marc gets control again and also stares down, “There’s nothing, least we can do is stop Harrow. She would have wanted that”
Steven stays quiet, “Can we at least take her body somewhere else? She shouldn’t be around other corpses”
Marc nods and picks Y/N up, walking her out of the pyramid.
Outside, Khonshu awaits for them with his staff as the sun begins to set. Once Marc is near him, he places Y/N’s body down where the sun hits her.
“I see the maggot didn’t make it out” Khonshu comments
Marc glares at him as he positions her arms over the stomach.
“I did not mean to offend. In honesty, I will be missing her snarky remarks” Khonshu says.
Marc ignores him and gives Y/N one last look before he leaves. He was planning on coming back, to give her a proper burial and ceremony. Away from Egypt and England, back to where she was safe. For now, he was about to release the anger he was feeling on a few in Cairo.
You open your eyes and see that you are back at the Field of Reeds. Everything was the same, with the sunset and plants everywhere. However this time there was a statue standing by you.
“Ah your here!” Tawaret says.
Turning to her you tilt your head, “Why? I thought-“
“That darkness would be your eternity? Nope! Luckily for you, someone wanted to save you” she grins.
You scrunch your brows together, “Are you making me your avatar?”
“Oh no, although I did like you, I found another. You may know her”
“You got Layla didn’t you?” It immediately clicked.
She nods and then remembers why you’re there.
“Right! Y/N someone wants to meet you” she gestured to your side.
You follow the direction and find yourself looking up at a woman. However she had the head of a cow with horns. The horns had gold rings on them and in between the horns was a red circle. Her ears had piercings and her head was adorned with long gold strands that gave shape of hair. She wore a red long dress that had a blue ribbon tied around her waist. On her biceps and wrists, she had blue adorned cuffs. Around her neck was a gold Egyptian collar that had many blue and red jewels.
Aside from her appearance, she gave a gentle aura which made it easier for Y/N to feel comfortable around. She smiled down at you and gestured to Tawaret that she was free to leave.
“Hello Y/N, you may not remember me, but we have met before”
You continue to stare at her and think of where you might have met a goddess. The day you went to the Ennead hit you and your eyes widened.
“Hathor? W-what happened to-“
She frowns, “Yatzil, sadly was killed by Harrow. Her spirit although is running free in the Field of Reeds, something you may be familiar with?”
You nod and rub the back of your neck. Yes, you might have developed a small crush on her avatar but Yatzil was kind. Being killed just for trying to save humanity sparked something you.
“So I take it you want me to become your avatar instead”
She nods, “Precisely, I found you to be the one suited to be one. Aside from the irony that you and Khonshus avatar are friends just like how me and him were, is enough reason. However, the way you stick by friends till the end, literally, was something that made you stand out”
You breathed in, prepared for her question. You wouldn’t lie, it was quite exciting but with the way Marc made his experience with Khonshu sound, made you think otherwise.
“Y/N, do you accept becoming my voice and protecting all of those worthy of my love?” She says.
Thinking about the powers you already have back in the living world, you feel like you are cheating in life.
“Can we make this a temporary thing? Like just after we kick Harrows ass, you and me go out separate ways? I don’t know, I feel like I am being given too much power for puny mind to comprehend” you use your hands to speak.
Hathor laughs at your remark, “You are quite funny, unfortunate I won’t have you as my avatar for long. Yes, unlike Khonshu, I am fine with that offer”
Surprised she didn’t send a lighting bolt at you, the choice is easier to make now.
“…alright, let’s go” you extend your hand out.
She smiles and shakes your hand, wind begins to spiral around you and reeds go flying. Vision becoming blurry, you swear you passed out.
With a great gasp, Y/N immediately holds her rib area. The pain coming rapidly back as she is revived. She looks around and notices that she is no longer in the dark tomb from before surrounded by water. Now she is laid on sand with only the orange skies left from the sun, turning into a shade of pink and purples. Beginning to sit up, she feels a wave of air from behind.
“Then rise and become my Noble Sun ” Hathor’s voice is heard from behind and Y/N begins to stand up, letting go of her wound.
Yet there was no wound and she felt stronger than ever. She extended both arms as she felt a sort of power coming through. Wind was rushing around her, making her hair rise up.
As her eyes began to glow white, her clothes began to transform into something else. Her shirt lost its sleeves and collar, becoming a red top that rounded on her chest. A gold armor piece then enveloped over her waist that had bumps. Pants turned into grey cotton ones and her shoes changed into golden boots that had leather pieces to tighten them.
From the waist below, came out the same color red of her top to create an open skirt, outlined with gold. A big piece of gold armor came around her wrist that went almost up to her elbow. On her biceps were gold cuffs that had blue jewels on them.
To finish the suit, a gold Egyptian collar appeared around her neck that had vertical blue pieces of metal that created a pattern. From the top of the collar and up was another gold piece that had ridges on them. Finally a band of gold, wrapped around her head with the symbol of Hathor; two horns connected with a red jewel in the center.
Y/N looked down and up to her arms, feeling the new outfit. She smiled seeing that she looked like a hero. She felt a piece of metal touch her arm and she looked down. On her side was a gold thick piece shaped as an ankh. Seeing that she was confused, Hathor gave a small laugh, “Concentrate your power on it”
Y/N listened to her command and the ankh suddenly extended which caused her to hold it away from her. She analyzed the piece and noticed the end was sharpened to act like a spear. Concentrating her focus on it again, the ankh shrunk back to its normal size. Holding it with both hands, she smiled.
Picture of suit + visual of Hathor
Okay so I apologize for making this shit too sad and making the reader you cry but it was part of the plan 👍🏼.
Also why did I change it from calling the reader “her” to “you” and then back to “her”? Well it was to show that in the afterlife, you are more aware of yourself and shit like that. Like before, you were focusing on what Marc was doing right? But now it’s just focusing on you and your “backstory”. Also I apologize if it sounds weird, it’s been long since I wrote it in second point of view.
Btw with the song I chose for when you go into the Field of Reeds, I wanted the same feel from the show where that one Spanish song plays when Marc goes there. So why not use a old popular song 🤷🏽♀️. You can change it if you want but I felt like it fit. Also when you read it, imagine yourself in the field to be more with the reader LMAO
I hope y’all liked it and stay tuned for the next chapter :)
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