I look inside myself and see my heart is black.

Hey everyone!! My name is Bobby. 33 born and raised in a suburb of Chicago. Was told about this site by and ex gf....hilarious right? Blogs/Poetry or songs if you interpret them that way. If you're looking for a good laugh some of the stuff I'll post will hopefully make your day a bit brighter.

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The American “Dream”

It’s hilarious that people still believe this is a reality. The American Dream was once a beacon of hope when the chips were down and you could still make something from nothing. That ship has long sailed....better yet that ship sunk. All the real dreams have turned into nightmares or have become so unattainable it’s almost suffocating with horrible job prospects, education costing you more than a 3 bedroom home, interest rates that are so outlandish you be better tying an anchor to your leg and jumping in the ocean because you’d have a better chance of staying above water in that scenario and a full on get rich quick scheme style of corporate managing but you aren’t the one getting rich from it you just make it for someone else. We are the highest country in productivity because they give you next to no vacation time, maternity leave is a joke and god forbid you get sick or hurt they have someone else that wants your spot for half the money. It’s an ant colony and we are the ants collecting the hundreds of thousands of dollars a day for CEO’s, CFO’s and COO’s so they can live the American dream with vacations, multi million dollar bonuses and severance packages while the rest of us get sent home with nothing when they run a company into the ground. Yet here we all are never asking a single question or challenging a thing, it’s the American dream.....because you have to be asleep to believe it.

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Funny, you said you'd always be there for me. Well I'm looking around...I don't fucking see you

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A dream you dream alone is a dream. A dream you dream together is reality

John Lennon

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Though the wound of us healed, it still hurts to touch and trace the scar

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I never lie because I don't fear anyone. You only lie when you're afraid.

John Gotti

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It’s Over

Never meant to hurt you love

You were suppose to keep me going

Thought you were sent from above

My one and only, a guardian Angel

Couldn’t see life without your wings

Was all a test we were destined to fail

Forced me out, I set you free

Didn’t want to keep you caged

We both know you’ve got plenty more to see

I know you’re out there, know you had to leave

Breaks my heart, it’s all because of me

I know it’s hard, but I can’t remain your shoulder 

Tell yourself why you left me, remember why it’s over

The season begins to die, it’s starting to get cold

I’m standing here knockin’ when I know no one’s at home

Fightin’ for the reasons just to stay alive

I gotta one way ticket to my suicide 

There’s wisdom in the waves, just ask the ones who know

Keep your head above the water, it’ll pull you down slow

Our memories are leaving me, hopefully in time 

I’ll stop thinking I need them simply to survive 

It’s a new chapter, time to turn the page

Can’t read the darkness, make sure it doesn’t stay

Finally the dawn is breaking, I can see the light

Can’t stop running towards it, gotta start my new life

When I met her, these feelings were a different level

Stole my heart and my mind, such a beautiful Devil

She’s fought beside me, even in the dark

When love was all I needed, she provided me her spark

Sometimes it must of killed her, never left me all alone

Took the pieces when I fell apart, rebuilt my broken soul

Won’t deny her feelings, she sits on the highest seat

She keeps me held together, even loving this wounded beast

Gave me confidence and reason’s, showed me just to prove

Within her are all my needs, and life goes on without you

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Say You Won’t Go

Looking out the window, watching the rain fall

Minds playing tricks on me, haven’t slept since your call

See the color fade off our dreams, like age old photographs

I can’t stop thinking that somehow we could last

Watched you walk away, hoping you would stop at the door

I longed to kiss you, cry and fall together, hear you say “I love you, always and forever”

Say you hate me, I was never home

We weren’t meant to be, throw all your stones

Say you never loved me, look in my eyes if it’s so

Say anything...just say you won’t go

All those senseless fights, lost ourselves, somewhere, sometime

I’d give up everything, just to know you’re still mine

Wasn’t a matter of your worth, or not loving you despite the cold

With all of my heart I say, your weight is more than gold

Alone at night, it’s hard to handle you and I apart

Wonder if you feel when I hear, sounds of our breaking hearts

Spending all night with the pieces, put them together, where they belong

Say you hate me, I was never home

We weren’t meant to be, throw all your stones

Say you never loved me, look in my eyes if it’s so

Say anything...just say you wont go

They’ll say they can’t see it, but I know the pain you’re going through

Even if I’m to blame, doesn’t mean it isn't killing me too

I need you in my life, our futures worth fighting for

This can’t be how it ends, we were meant for so much more

Get’s so hard to breathe, feel myself fading away

Not sure what hurts most, you won’t help me win this fight, or all you’ll leave me with is your ghost

Say you hate me, I was never home

We weren’t meant to be, throw all your stones

Say you never loved me, look in my eyes if it’s so

Say anything...just say you won’t go

Here we are on the edge, a click of the pen, why’d it end so fast

Just sign your name right there and our future becomes the past

I’ve only wanted what’s best for us, emotions chose to soon

You can tell me I’m not your one, but for me it’s only you

Can’t heal the feelings or any of my thoughts. My heart, my soul, my everything on these pages you come across

Say you want me, always and forever

Say you need me, to make it together

It’s always been you and I, us against the world

Say “I love you, I promise I won’t go”