iwillbemeforever

Just an ordinary human who wants to live her life. I love reading, writing, food, anime and music.

[epilepticsaints]

[chloebangbang]

I don't know how I'm ever expected to be normal again after watching this. this video is already lodging itself deep within my vocabulary as I type

[aromacaque]

Just want to remind anyone who sees this that you're loved and cared about in the world and there's always going to be something good waiting for you, whether that's in an hour, at the end of the day, a week from now, months, or years. It's okay to feel bad and struggle and have a hard time, and sometimes it feels like nothing matters or things won't get better, but you can and will find reasons to love being alive. Hell, you'll find reasons to tolerate it first if you're at that place in your life, which is okay you'll get through it I promise. It's easier said than done, but I love you and I hope everybody gets safety and peace in their lives.

[dangermousie]

Something I really like about this drama is that it makes front and center how fucked up and exhausted and just a destroyed mess our main avenger is. Too often it's glossed over or just shoved into the background, but it's front and center here.

But the other thing that sets him aside is all of that misery and exhaustion still does not tempt him to move on or lead a normal life or really want to do something else beside revenge at some point. If you compare it with, e.g., Zang Hai (another big revenge drama that dropped this year), Zang Hai gets tempted to hope for normalcy and happiness; at some point in the narrative he begins to yearn for what comes after revenge, for you know - a life. (It's one of the ultimate tensions in the drama, IMO.) Not so here. XHA wants nothing but revenge, he lives for nothing but revenge, and he cannot picture anything else in his world. He's basically a hollow person only filled with that desire and honestly, if he accomplishes his revenge and survives, I cannot imagine what would happen after - what would he even do with himself? Most revenge-driven protagonists are fucked up (otherwise why would they seek revenge) but HXA is just devoured by his revenge to the extent there is nothing outside of it left; you get the sense he doesn't even genuinely enjoy small mundanities of life a la a nice cup of tea.

This man comes back from death because...

That's nuts.

I also loved this so much:

First of all, because I just want to import this man into Moon River. He'd just murder their problems in three seconds flat. But also because this is a revenge tale where he just wants MURDER - he has no temptation to learn more or whatever, he just wants these people dead. As soon as he can actually carry it out, he murders his targets. None of that "I am gonna wait to bring them down through law/gonna make them live life worse than death/gonna make sure they enjoy themselves so fall will hurt worse/blah blah blah." Nah, as soon as he can feasibly kill them, he goes for it.

It says something about the type of protag he is, that I was genuinely shocked he let that flunkie go.

[iwillbemeforever]

Cheng Yi is an amazing actor. I loved these scenes. I have alot of thoughts and I don't know where to begin.

I love how even his late father is telling him to stop. To live a happy life. But he refuses.

He admits he is tired and we can see his exhaustion. (Great job by Cheng Yi here).

And I love how despite his late father telling him that he can live a different life.

Despite his sadness, you see his resolve suddenly clear and it hardens. How he says he wants to do this and he won't hesitate. IT WAS SUCH A GOOD SCENE. IT WAS CHILLING AND I JUST ENJOYED IT.

[pratchettquotes]

They say that there can never be two snowflakes that are exactly alike, but has anyone checked lately?

Terry Pratchett, Wintersmith

[iwillbemeforever]

This is a very Terry Pratchett line and I love it.

[skribblegurl]

some people think writers are so eloquent and good with words, but the reality is that we can sit there with our fingers on the keyboard going, “what’s the word for non-sunlight lighting? Like, fake lighting?” and for ten minutes, all our brain will supply is “unofficial”, and we know that’s not the right word, but it’s the only word we can come up with…until finally it’s like our face got smashed into a brick wall and we remember the word we want is “artificial”.

[heywriters]

I couldn't remember the word "doorknob" ten minutes ago.

[bumblewyn]

ok but the onelook thesaurus will save your life, i literally could not live without this website

[breelandwalker]

REBLOG TO SAVE A WRITER'S LIFE

[myfairkatiecat]

LIFE SAVED

REBLOGGING TO SAVE ANOTHER WRITERS LIFE

[sirowsky]

I use this every time I sit down to write. It's the best tool in the world and I would be lost without it!

[iwillbemeforever]

OH MY GOODNESS. THANK YOU

[sweetwinter]

tell me i'm wrong

[sweetwinter]

oh no dot jpeg

[danmeidiaries]

LMAO THANK YOU FOR SENDING THIS TO ME THIS IS SO ACCURATE

[repinipi]

[iwillbemeforever]

I just finished my rewatch of this and it was a brilliant end.

[stuckinapril]

“Do it scared” “do it badly” it’s time to drop the guide for do it alone

[stuckinapril]

Doing it scared and doing it badly is one thing, but no one seems to talk about doing it alone. When you feel so isolated from your friends and your family but you have shit to do and you have to get it done no matter what. When your support system really is only you. For any myriad of reasons. We do not talk enough about doing it alone.

[housemousecooking]

Want guides? I do Guides.

💪 Doing It Alone

💪 Doing It Alone When You Don’t Have a Support System, This Is for You 🧠 1. Mental Anchors to Remember You are not broken because you don’t

Other things? Job, Food, Car, Home, Health, Money. Plus a request form.

[daysleftofsecondterm]

Doing it alone the next 1,282 days

[jaydove-writes]

@starlightprincess98 @bettinalevyisdetermined @shelteringyourdna @verirothestar @methoxyacetyltryptamine

[verirothestar]

Very useful info💯

[stuckinapril]

“Do it scared” “do it badly” it’s time to drop the guide for do it alone

[stuckinapril]

Doing it scared and doing it badly is one thing, but no one seems to talk about doing it alone. When you feel so isolated from your friends and your family but you have shit to do and you have to get it done no matter what. When your support system really is only you. For any myriad of reasons. We do not talk enough about doing it alone.

[housemousecooking]

Want guides? I do Guides.

💪 Doing It Alone

💪 Doing It Alone When You Don’t Have a Support System, This Is for You 🧠 1. Mental Anchors to Remember You are not broken because you don’t

Other things? Job, Food, Car, Home, Health, Money. Plus a request form.

[daysleftofsecondterm]

Doing it alone the next 1,282 days

[jaydove-writes]

@starlightprincess98 @bettinalevyisdetermined @shelteringyourdna @verirothestar @methoxyacetyltryptamine

[verirothestar]

Very useful info💯

[shaunasearmuffs]

"My mother was drunk when I got married. This room, right here. Just like this. I was so angry I don't think I ever forgave her. But I could never understand why she'd done it until just now."

Andor (2022) S2E3: Harvest

[iwillbemeforever]

I DISLIKE LEIDA SO MUCH BECAUSE YOOOOO, SHE IS JUST TRYING TO PROTECT YOU.

[wondersmith-and-sons]

“Mon is not fully committed to the Cause yet, she hasn't given up her life and enjoys her status quo—” Mon Mothma is doing money laundry to fund terrorist activity/organization. Do people understand that? I think it's important people understand that.

from the perspectives of Imperial auditors and financial regulators that’s literally what she’ll be charged with if she’s caught. Slush fund accounts and blaming Perrin's gambling and strategic child marriages only cover her tracks until the right financial regulator goes looking; until one civil servant with the same amount of Freak as Syril Karn decides to go after discrepancies and she no longer can paper over the cracks. She's being observed by her own driver. She's got enemies everywhere, yearly financial audits, and multiple obligations to powerful people. She's borrowing time with a highest interest rate known to man and she will have to pay that debt with everything she holds dear.

Mon has long been radicalised; she's put everything on the line as down payment for it. She just puts up a front so well it’s apparently tricked the audience.

Moreover, the political thesis of the show is that resistance is everywhere; it’s an old lady clearing the underground rain tunnels for potential rebels as well as it is manifestos and prison breaks and overt attacks on Imperial buildings.

It’s also one person in the heart of the imperial core committing stunning amounts of financial crime.

[iwillbemeforever]

ARE THESE FOLKS BLIND? MON HAS GIVEN UP EVERYTHING AS MUCH AS EVERYONE ELSE FOR THE REBELLION AND I WILL NOT TAKE THIS MON MOTHMA SLANDER

[intermundia]

the rebellion: we need a base cassian, sighing deeply: i know one very stupid place

[iwillbemeforever]

WAIT, IT IS THAT YAVIN??????!

[sentrysvoid]

Andor Make It Stop | Who Else Knows?

[patrick-stewart]

I am hopeful that those of you who know me will vouch for my credibility in the days to come. I stand this morning with a difficult message... ANDOR | 2.09

[iwillbemeforever]

Love her speech and it's just scary because it also parallels our world.

[fangirlingpuggle]

Apothecary diaries AU/fic prompt where Lakan leaves and Fengxian is about to give birth and freaking out not knowing where Lakan is and why he's not here when Luomen finds and about the baby.

He buys her out of her contract and takes her back explaining about what happened and suddenly Fengxian is no longer freaking out she's strategizing.

Fengxian: So his father sent him away I see

*Somewhere in the La clan estate there is deep feeling of dread*

She goes full master strategist mode and basically takes over La clan (she makes it look like her Lakan are married she knows he'll agree and neither of them will want a big wedding so it's all good)

Lakan returns back only to be welcomed as head of the family with Fengxian there handing him a baby, HIS DAUGHTER like 'Welcome back, do you want to play go?'

He nods eventually it's a slow game though as he keeps just staring at Maomao in awe and gaping like a fish he has completely blue screened and is so confused. Fengxian doesn't mind she's waited 3 years for this game and they have many more years of games ahead of them he can take his time.

Bonus Lakan finds out about all her plotting and planning and is just more smitten

Lakan:Marry me

Fengxian:Technically we are already married

Lakan:oh

Lakan:Can we get married again?

(Bonus her seeing Jinshi pine with Maomao and taking him aside Jinshi thinks this is going to be a shovel talk and it is... but also

Fengxian: My daughter takes after her father

Jinshi: I mean not much thankfully ah -No disrespect I-

Fengxian: In the sense she is oblivious willfully or otherwise of any feelings and will not realize unless you are completely upfront

Jinshi: I-

Fengxian: Lakan did not seem to fully understand my feelings until I handed him our child

Jinshi:...

Jinshi:...fuck)

[iwillbemeforever]

I HONESTLY WOULD HAVE LOVE THIS SO MUCH.

COLD CALCULATING SMART FENGXIAN????! YES PLEASE

[a-library-ghost]

haymitch saying “I don’t drink” hahaha so funny I have a gun in my mouth

[iwillbemeforever]

I KNOW RIGHT. THIS LINE HIT ME HARD.

"I don't drink."

Well, you will by the end of this, buddy.

And then when I finished the book, I was a fucking mess. OF COURSE HE DRINKS. I AM SURPRISED HE IS ALIVE BECAUSE I WOULD UNALIVE MYSELF IF I WENT THROUGH WHAT HAYMITCH WENT THROUGH.

[septemberkisses]

the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.

[iwillbemeforever]

I felt this. I will age but my favourite characters never will. And yeah, I used to look forward to turning their age.