I Could Be A Better Boyfriend Than Him

Janelle | 20s | he/she/they | dykefag + arospec | 18+ Sideblog for @zukkacore

[j2zara]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Since they’re all horny and my pinned post on main has to stay dedicated to the zukka actors wearing my art why not just use this to shill for my 4 pt series that takes place within the same timeline / universe!

Part 1: jaceporter: if you want divinity (you’re gonna have to go through me) [13k, E]

Part 2: dykefag!jace + Zara: who can blame a girl? (call me hot not pretty) [2.5k, M]

Part 3: j2 (aka jaceclone 2) + Porter: I’m almost me again (he’s almost you) - [COMPLETED! 7/7 chapters!] [16k, E, slowburn]

Part 4: j3 (aka jaceclone 3) + Porter: I only see him as a friend (biggest lie i ever said) [5k, E]

Bonus (technically in a branch canon):

Part 5: J3 + J4: say that I want you to stay (but you should probably leave) [8k, E]

Part 6: J3 + J4 (aka LJ3) (FwB era): say what you mean (I wanna be with you) [8k, E]

Part 7: J3 + J4 (aka LJ3): that night something turned in my heart (while you were sleeping, I fell in love) [2.3k, T]

Cuckoobird Porter AU / Wannabe Xianxia AU [maybe?]

Part... 8?: J3 + J4 (aka LJ3): honey, you're familiar (like my mirror years ago) [4k, 3, part 1/3]

Clone Lore Primer Part 1 + Clone Lore Primer Part 2 [For those who need a refresher or would rather go straight into Cloneposting without needing to read 52k of homework. Clone Lore Primer is basically a recap of everything that happens in the above]

[j2zara]

I’m a huge fan of artists who do like, infernal takes on post-death kipperlilly, I think an infernal kipperlilly who has been revived as like, a second chance is like such a fun thing to play around with bc I think Ellie could really speak to her anger. Maybe my soft spot for sorcerers is peaking through but I also think fucking around w KC’s class is fun too, if maybe becoming infernal has changed her and now she has to deal w wild magic surges that stem from her rage. It’s like she has to learn how to be an adventurer from scratch since all the tools that worked for her as a rogue just aren’t the same, she’s a different person now. If Ellie were to figure out it’s KC, her motives are up for question in a super juicy way. Does she want revenge, a do over, who is she still aligned with if anyone at all? All good stuff. I think despite Ellie being a very distrustful person, she’d be looking for an excuse to see if she can be that mentor figure KC needs. And I think Ellie already wrestles with the question of whether rage can be harnessed or channeled in a productive way, or if it’s an inherently destructive impulse.

[j2zara]

Sometimes I will go for periods where I accidently neglect the depth of Ellie and Blue’s friendship which is a shame bc I really do love the way they love, imperfections and all. The tension is obvious in clone timeline, but what makes their friendship interesting past that? Well, I think in teacher timeline, the conflict is about how much they mean to each other. I think Blue is Ellie’s closest friend before J3, but they haven’t spent a lot of time in person together or have spent years apart, so they love each other but kinda don’t know how to. Blue I think is also a big conduit for delivering the “I’m p sure we have a third guy out there” message to Ellie bc they all have different relationships to their past lives, and Blue he does have premonitions & significant dreams, unlike Ellie who’s connection is not spiritual in the same way. I think meeting j3 actually is the center of a bit of conflict in their relationship. Yes, it’s what both of them want, Blue wouldn’t have told her abt it if he didn’t want them all to reunite, but I think Blue sometimes feels like a Placeholder Friend for J3 who he worries understands Ellie more than he does (& he is somewhat justified in his worries with the amount of time they spend together). Meanwhile, I think Ellie is worried abt the exact same thing. Ellie is incredibly loyal, and I think Blue loves her tremendously for sticking w him through a roller coaster of changes in this life—he left his religion bc he was chosen by Cassankarna’s daughter, the goddess of spring, and because he’s been chosen by such a young unknown goddess & they have a hard time connecting, his magic as a cleric is not always consistent, meaning his old adventuring party has ditched him. He has to leave his community, he doesn’t have the respect of his peers, but Ellie believes in him. So I think her worry is that he sees her as someone to kill the time with while he’s a temporarily embarrassed adventurer. Would he still be friends with a pariah like her if he had any other choice? (The answer is yes, obviously, both ways)

[thesluts2004]

she is so unbelievably real

[j2zara]

If you ever end up reading my “original” project and you notice that the kids Ellie is training feel like sky high characters or the losers from IT but shifted slightly to the left and also kipperlilly copperkettle…. 🤫 no you didn’t

[j2zara]

I’m a coward that really can’t do scary movies but NGL everyone telling me about how good Obsession is, I gotta say…. Not to make this abt blorbo from my shows but this feels so infinite Jace theory coded (even eviler mode)

[valtsv]

basically the best thing any character can do is decide they don't want to be afraid anymore - in fact they never want to be afraid of anything ever again - and take action so drastic they fail to realise that this too is a decision motivated by fear. or to account for the Consequences of that.

[valtsv]

[with obvious perverted intent] hey. don't you want to release the safety catches on that character. don't you want to flip off all the switches holding them back and let the control rods go.

[maelwife]

​Kinsey scale for whether you’re more cloth or wire

[dragon-in-a-fez]

one time I told my therapist "I tend to have issues with people who think of themselves as authority figures" and she burst out laughing and then said "I think we need to pause and reflect on how you phrased that"

[dragon-in-a-fez]

I mean, what, was I supposed to refer to them as if they actually are authority figures? those don't exist

[j2zara]

I've written some tangiental stuff for my current LJ3-verse but i've spent so long ruminating on the storybeats and worldbuilding that I'm scared to like. actually start.

[j2zara]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

I'm alive, can you believe it?

Ship: J3 + J4 (aka LJ3)

Summary: Jace is gone for the weekend. After a long night of research, J3 wants to take Ellie out for a night of fun.

Chapter: 1/3 (?)

Teaser:

“Some of us actually read the books Blue pilfers from our boss’s dime-novel porn stash. Instead of just—oh, I don’t know, posing with them. We should hire a photographer. You look just about boudoir-ready.” Ellie snaps Conquered by the Dragon King shut. “Hey!” She can feel herself flush, but she’s not sure if she should take it as a warning or a taunt. “I—That is so—Y-You know, that’s not—” “Actually, that’s why I’m here. To deliver you from evil. Or boredom.” She hates the way her heart feels ready to leap at his words. Hates that no matter how much she tells herself to keep her head down, bury her nose in books and manuscripts so she can get that goddess’s true name and get the hell out, for fuck’s sake— In her heart, she just wants deliverance. “I—” J3 waits. He’s always waiting for her, isn’t he? She wants—

hiiiiiiii fellow clone enjoyers, i'm assuming most of y'all have been here since like day 1, but either way if you wanna start from the beginning, You can Start Here.

[j2zara]

another favorite thing i like to do is include (usually in cuckoobird porter AU) that Ankarna is on like the lowest rung of infernal hierarchy politics, even while she's trying to angle to Ellie that she needs her and is trying to use her to get her godhood back while eventually growing a conscience and growing to care for Ellie as a person not just a tool. They have a mutual arc this way, b/c they're both kinda trapped in a clone basement of their own, if you put it like that <3

[j2zara]

I had a lot of fun in the starbreaker days but sometimes i do think a little too hard between the overlap on Jace and Kipperlilly and I feel a little crazy, I do think we transpose the less pleasant elements of the porter storyline onto Jace to make it a more palatable "toxic yaoi" thing & like, it is fun, dgmwr. i think there's a lot of similar implications between the two of them being framed as deserving of punishment which is... frankly bizarre & the blame framing is even worse with the "voluntary" offering on Kipperlilly's part when you look at the subtext of what is being asked of her, like, I do think the heart of brennan's critique of “it is fucking bizarre to want to go to an adventuring school without. being willing to adventure” is fair, but everyone in junior year is being accidentally or willfully obtuse about the grooming implications of her storyline. Its easy to laugh about 4 dogs when you don't think abt her too hard, and i do, readily, her part to play as kristens accidental foil is indeeed very funny, but she is a sympathetic figure when one is left to overthink. Anyway not to bring it back to blorbos but the more i think about it the more i really do think both Ellie and Kipperlilly could gain a lot from a rapport, i think storywise if i forced them to exist in a room together it would be very fun for me personally. Even if it means nothing to no one else

[j2zara]

Not gonna make a formal post abt it either but a ch 2 is also up just bc i felt ch 1 was kinda lackluster & they were meant to be together. If I knew anything abt suspense I’d keep yall on the hook but idc. Ngl if I can get it finished I might just throw out my LJ3P / j4p fic too since it was like 90% of the way there, at least the first chapter. I miss them.

[j2zara]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

honey, you’re familiar (like my mirror years ago)

I'm alive, can you believe it?

Ship: J3 + J4 (aka LJ3)

Summary: Jace is gone for the weekend. After a long night of research, J3 wants to take Ellie out for a night of fun.

Chapter: 1/3 (?)

Teaser:

“Some of us actually read the books Blue pilfers from our boss’s dime-novel porn stash. Instead of just—oh, I don’t know, posing with them. We should hire a photographer. You look just about boudoir-ready.” Ellie snaps Conquered by the Dragon King shut. “Hey!” She can feel herself flush, but she’s not sure if she should take it as a warning or a taunt. “I—That is so—Y-You know, that’s not—” “Actually, that’s why I’m here. To deliver you from evil. Or boredom.” She hates the way her heart feels ready to leap at his words. Hates that no matter how much she tells herself to keep her head down, bury her nose in books and manuscripts so she can get that goddess’s true name and get the hell out, for fuck’s sake— In her heart, she just wants deliverance. “I—” J3 waits. He’s always waiting for her, isn’t he? She wants—

hiiiiiiii fellow clone enjoyers, i'm assuming most of y'all have been here since like day 1, but either way if you wanna start from the beginning, You can Start Here.

[j2zara]

Would it be absolutely insane to post an LJ3 fic tomorrow. After like 2 years

[j2zara]

I'll probably make a real post about this at some point but its here..................

[j2zara]

It’s hard to explain but my favorite way to get Ellie as a weird camp counselor / teacher in training for Not-Aguefort isn’t to just have her apply, but rather accidentally proving her competency in a way that impresses Aelwyn (my interim principal LOL). This usually takes the form of her being part of an adventuring party that gets hired to play like. “Bandit” roles in an adventuring academy practical entrance exam, in which hired contractors are advised NEVER to help the students bc they want to see how they do on their own + they have revivify, so there’s supposedly no real threat of danger. Until Ellie overhears some of the hired “bandits” really did just swipe the healer’s diamonds & bc Ellie, despite viewing herself as an outsider who’s only in it for herself, can’t help herself, she finds herself giving all sorts of helpful practical guidance during the entrance exam to these flop kids bc she doesn’t want them to die LOL. & it’s actually really helpful, practical advice bc despite being an adventuring college dropout, she has a ton of real world experience. & Aelwyn is like wait. You’re actually really good at this (hence why she’s shunted off to loser camp for the baddest of the bad kids, like. Aelwyn kinda likes her but she is NOT qualified & this is basically just testing ground). Again. If she fails it’s no big deal, these students were the “bad kids”, if she succeeds, it’s like a real heroes journey. The system can always use the Whole Bird