Just Live It The Best You Can

Just a girl who has no idea where she fits in the world but is willing to keep searching

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Most stunning country #newzealand #hikingadventures #greenstonetrack

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Little piece of paradise #ulvaisland #stewartisland #familyholiday (at Ulva Island)

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Island walking adventures with Kirsten #stewartisland #oban #bathingbeach #lookstropical #familyholiday (at Oban, New Zealand)

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It can only be a great nation if we rise up

On April the 4th,1968 Martin Luther King stated America is only a great nation if they stop judging people by the color of their skin but by the content of their character. It is so sad 48 years on that nothing has changed. Racism is no long just about the African American’s it is but all, it is about equality for all. We are now no longer colours, we are 1 race, we are human. No matter where we came from or who we are, we should support and act as 1. That is the only way we can become better people.  

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With everything going on in America currently, I am so happy I live in a country where the popular vote is counted. Where our voices can be heard, where people are counted as equal, where LGBT people are given the same rights as everyone else, where racism is low, where the environment is considered on a national level and most importantly where you feel safe.

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BAT SOCKS

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Damn Daniel

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The most important part of the new Guardians trailer

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TOP 10 DAN PHYSICAL TRAITS (as voted by our followers)

#2 - smile (26.04% of votes)

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What has the world come to when Trump is an option

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dan being ultra kawaii on the radio show ~ 05/10/2015 ~ [phil’s version]

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It's ok to ask for help

Everyone has a story now days, no one has not been affected by the horrible disease cancer in some way. It maybe a family member, a friend, a relative or if incredibly unlucky yourself. Whenever the word is brought up it's sad but not a shock that someone has died this way. I didn't realise this more so than today when one of my colleagues asked how I lost my dad. Her response was “ I guessed that” and that's because it seems like everyday someone is diagnosed or loses their life to cancer. Before my dad was diagnosed I had never had anything really bad happen to me. I had lost family members but they were older so it made sense in my mind. I don't know if I was naive in thinking that I would be spared something so horrendous but it just never came into my train of thought. The day that my parents told me is such a vivid memory. I can still feel how very scared I was and how numb I became after. The idea of losing a man who I held in such a high regard wasn't something I could imagine coping with. The many emotions I went through the two and a half years we ended up having still scares me and makes me very sad. As I said I became numb. I basically thought if I tried to ignore it that it would get better and go away. You see my dad was diagnosed with terminal cancer from day one. He was given the option to try experimental treatments that had some promising signs of delaying the progress but we were clearly told that there was no cure. In my 19 year old mind I always thought that by some miracle it would suddenly cure him and this whole nightmare would just disappear. I went about my life as normal which is what my parents wanted but I now feel I wasted so many moments. I feel like I was so wrapped up in my own teenage world drinking, partying and doing whatever I wanted trying to ignore the huge change in my life that I completely missed the biggest opportunities that I will never get back. Don't get me wrong I still spent time with my dad as we were very close, I am and will forever be a daddies girl. We use to have breakfast everyday together not talking, we would have conversations without words and he would visit me on his lunch break just because he missed seeing his kid. He is my hero. I think this is why when he became sick I got so very scared and actually with drew myself from my family, something that still happens today and something I know have no idea how to change. Because of this withdrawal from my family I did become very independent and learn things my parents had been trying to teach me for years but I also shut myself of to love, trust and letting people know who I really am. I never wanted to let myself be hurt like that again and still don't. When dad was diagnosed my mum said to my brother and I that my dad, her husband, partner and love of her life was her focus. She loved us but she chose him and she needed to put everything into making him survive for as long as possible. Some people might think that is very harsh to say to your children but I understood it. I however do think that maybe we should have looked at putting in support for us kids because having your parents detach themselves from you at such a momentous time in your life and at such an influential age it wasn't very smart. Unfortunately you have no idea how you are going to react or how things are going to happen useless they happen to you. As I said earlier unfortunately we lost my dad after two and half years after he went through some of the worst treatments I have ever seen a human go through. Seeing the father you have always seen as a strong, caring ever cuddle man turn into a weak, thin, frail and at one time very angry person was the saddest thing. Just like the night my parents told us about his diagnoses the day we lost him is as clear as a movie in my head. Nine years have gone by now. Some days it feels like so many more, some days it feels like yesterday and some days it feels like he is still here but I just find him. Today is one of those days and the reason I am writing this. Today I feel like I need his cuddles, or just to sit beside himself and have one of our silent conversations. Today is nothing special, not an anniversary, a birthday, Christmas or any of the other days that I know that I will feel the pain of him not being here. Today is just a day that I feel like he is more than an arms length away but I can never reach him. I think I am writing this to express to anyone who reads it that it is normal to feel every emotion when something like this happens. It's ok to ask for help or find it yourself because you can not go it alone, trust me I tried. And that even after years have gone by and for no apparent reason a great day can suddenly be overcome by such emotion that you just want to be alone and that is normal. You are normal and you are allowed to feel.

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no one can drag trump like cher drags trump

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