going through changes

yo what's up i'm jackie

[michaelbjordans]

[autieedwards]

So...

Who knows how to take care of a four year old?

[jackie-carver]

Spongebob is always the answer, lady.

[feedingonyourhope-deactivated20]

This is turning out all wrong

[jackie-carver]

Hey, that looks pretty cool. ...what is it?

[jackie-carver]

@therealjackiechan: doing dirty things during chemo @mermaidarielle

[jackie-carver]

Hey you,

I know it's corny and this holiday is kind of ridiculous but this is for you to let you know that some bunny loves you! And if you ever show anyone else this card, your pizza night privileges will be revoked for a whole month.

I love you,

Arielle

[jackie-carver]

Text + Arielle & Jackie

Arielle: SNOW FORTS ARE FOR GOOD BOYFRIENDS WHO SHARE WITH THEIR GIRLFRIENDS

Arielle: Muuuuuuch better. Don't kick Ollie out though, I'd feel bad. I can take the couch.

Jackie: FINE YOU CAN HAVE THE DONUTS AND THE IRON MAN MOVIES

Jackie: I deserve a snow fort

Jackie: I don't want you to take the couch. Plus, if my dad comes home, he'll probably flip if he finds out you stayed the night. You can just sleep in bed with me. Or we could take the guest room, even though it's really more of a game room now...

[jackie-carver]

Text + Arielle & Jackie

Arielle: Jackie Thomas Carver, you better be inviting me over to share or I'm not making a snow fort with you tomorrow.

Jackie: BUT WE HAVE TO MAKE A SNOW FORT

Jackie: Okay, fine, come over. You can stay the night, too, if you want. I'll make Ollie sleep on the couch.

[jackie-carver]

Text + Arielle & Jackie

Arielle: Are you trying to tell me something?

Jackie: Nah, I was just letting you know.

Jackie: Talk to you tomorrow. :)

[jackie-carver]

I just talked my dad into buying me $30 worth of McDonald's.

[piper-bishop]

[jackie-carver]

Yeah. My dad's actually pretty cool. Plus, I'm using the whole "having cancer" thing to get what I want. 

I just realized how fucked up that sounds when you say it out loud...

[avahelps]

[jackie-carver]

& I'm not much for dancing, but for you I did

[detectivebarker]

"………………."

[jackie-carver]

Well, thanks a lot, dick.

[autieedwards]

I think that I need to invest in a new coffee maker

[jackie-carver]

Coffee tastes disgusting. Why not invest in five hour energy instead? Also, if you take two five hour energy pills, does it make it ten hour energy?

[jackie-carver]

I just talked my dad into buying me $30 worth of McDonald's.

I love my life.

[ariellexvalmont-blog]

I wish it would snow like this more often

[ariellexvalmont-blog]

And I want to be there for you for every step of the way. I don’t care how ugly it might get. I want you to know that you have a group of people who love you and will stand by you until- until this thing is over. Besides, we still have to make it to your senior prom. You promised.

[jackie-carver]

And I want you here. From now on, no more lying about my cancer. I swear. Right...prom. We still have prom. Please don't cry... I'm gonna be fine. I promise. I feel fine already. 

[ariellexvalmont-blog]

I wish it would snow like this more often

[ariellexvalmont-blog]

You were in the hospital? For a few weeks? Jackie, I- I can’t… I can’t… Why is this happening? I don’t want to lose you, Jackie. I can’t lose you. I- I love you. You’re the best thing that’s come into my life since Derek died.

[jackie-carver]

I don't know. I don't know why it's happening. But I love you, too, and I'm not gonna hide anymore. I have cancer. And I could die. But I don't want to die without having spent every single minute that I could with you.

[ariellexvalmont-blog]

I wish it would snow like this more often

[ariellexvalmont-blog]

Where have you been, Jackie? I’ve missed you so much and I’ve barely seen you and I know you don’t like talking about it and I know it’s partially my fault for not being around much either but your dad wasn’t even telling me anything and… What’s going on, Jackie? Please just tell me. The truth. I really need that, right now.

[jackie-carver]

I just didn't wanna worry you... I was in the hospital for a few weeks. I told my dad not to tell you because I didn't want you to freak. The truth is... I'm not getting any better. Chemo sucks and it's just making me feel like shit. I know I said I was getting better, but I... I lied.

[ariellexvalmont-blog]

I wish it would snow like this more often

[ariellexvalmont-blog]

Would it be alright if- if you just held me for a bit?

[jackie-carver]

Yeah, alright. I can do that. Did you wanna talk, or...?