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Bad News/Good News
Photo by Leeloo Thefirst on Pexels.com You know how life sometimes goes well? Then, it doesn’t? Yeah, that’s been my life for the last while or so. It’s been a bit over a month since my last post. Feels much longer. It’s been one hell of a month and not in a good way. First, let me assure you, that I’m not giving up and I’m still fighting the good fight. It’s just that I’m a lot more weary and…
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Stayin' Alive
Photo by Artur Roman on Pexels.com So far, so good at stayin’ alive. I’ve had my good days and of course, my bad days. I’m still here though and that’s what counts I suppose. It’s been a while since I last posted. That’s because nothing much is happening. I’m healing. Slowly, very slowly but I AM healing. I’ve been on Prednisone for almost six weeks now. The longest time yet and now I’m slowly…
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Updates and Clarity
Photo by Felix Mittermeier on Pexels.com Hello from the dark side, my friends. September was a hell of a month. It was probably the worst one so far in my cancer journey. I’m sure there will be others down the road but whew! I’m sure glad this one is over with. Between open sores on both legs and feet, a bout of food poisoning, and overall a feeling of being a big pile of steaming shit it was…
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I've Made Some Decisions
Photo by Ivan Samkov on Pexels.com As I sit at my desk at five this morning because I can’t sleep, I’ve come to a few decisions. As you all know I have cancer but right now as I sit here in misery I wonder if it’s the cancer that will kill me or the treatments that are supposed to prolong my life. I haven’t had a treatment since the end of July and yet the effects are with me stronger than…
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My State of Mind 6 Months After Cancer Diagnosis
Photo by Darwis Alwan on Pexels.com Six months ago I heard that dreaded “C” word no one wants to hear, “You have cancer.” That was quickly followed by even worse words, “It’s terminal. There is no cure for your rare type of cancer.” Mesothelioma, which is the type of cancer I have, is so rare in women that the latest numbers I could find were from 2019 in the US. Of the 2,911 mesothelioma…
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New Cancer Treatment Plan
source unknown Well, I went and saw my cancer doctor yesterday afternoon. As expected, he changed my treatment plan, with my approval of course. I will now start chemo. I saw it coming for a while now. I’m not going to lie, chemo scares the crap out of me. I’ve heard so many horror stories about the side effects. I’m going to try anyway. I’ve already had some bad experiences with side effects…
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This Dying Business is Hard Work
Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com I know I’ve been missing in action lately. Sorry about that. My energy level was/is at an all-time low the last few weeks. I had my last cancer treatment on the 24th of last month and it has been pure hell. I told you in my first post about my cancer journey that I wouldn’t hide the ugly side. So, here is some of it. About two days after my treatment I got sick.…
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Cancer Treatments and Side Effects
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Cancer Updates
Photo by Mathias Reding on Pexels.com It’s been a hectic past week for me and my granddaughter. I had an appointment at the hospital on Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday! Whew. We got it all done though, and of course, all of them were early in the morning so we didn’t get to sleep in. I appreciate her taking me to all my appointments so I don’t have to drive. I’ve noticed my driving isn’t as good…
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Bucket List Check-Offs and Add On's
Photo by Alexander Zvir on Pexels.com As some of you know, because I posted on Facebook, I have sent in my Canadian citizenship paperwork! I’m so excited. I’ve been wanting to do this for a very long time now, even before my husband died. I just couldn’t afford the fees that came with it. It’s not cheap! It was number one on my bucket list and now I can check it off! Thank you to my step-kids,…
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Cancer Pit Stop
Photo by Wendelin Jacober on Pexels.com I’ve been on a cancer pit stop for the past month or so. More like an immunotherapy pit stop. That’s when I’m put on the drug Prednisone to put the brakes on my overdriven immune system so I can heal from the side effects. It has worked wonderfully! I am 99% healed from those terrible open sores everywhere. I have just a few spots on one wrist and one…
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A Sense of Urgency
Photo by Venkatesan P on Pexels.com Ever since my cancer diagnosis, I’ve had this feeling of a sense of urgency in everything I do. Sometimes it’s a bit irrational. Ok, most times it is, I think. It’s there nonetheless and it doesn’t seem to be fading. From housework to blogging it’s there in the back of my mind, lurking. Always there. Sometimes strongly, sometimes just in the background, but…
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Friendships, Family, and Surreality
Photo by Mo Eid on Pexels.com I’ve lived in a surreal world since my terminal cancer diagnosis. Maybe it’s the brain fog that comes with most chronic illnesses. Perhaps it’s the word, ‘terminal’ that came with it. I’m not sure. All I know is it feels so surreal every day since. I live, yet I die a little every day. I do my day-to-day things as usual, well as normally as I can. I live by a…
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Getting My Affairs in Order
Photo by Josh Sorenson on Pexels.com I was never told directly to, “get my affairs in order”. I knew that’s what I had to do when I was diagnosed with terminal cancer. I mean, it just makes sense, doesn’t it? When you’re told you have a limited amount of time to live, that’s what comes to mind. I mean after all the emotions that fill you after the word, ‘terminal’. I know firsthand what it’s…
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Immunotherapy
Photo by cottonbro studio on Pexels.com What is immunotherapy and how does it play a role in my cancer journey? Immunotherapy is a cancer treatment that uses your body’s immune system to find and destroy cancer cells. Your immune system identifies and destroys intruders, including cancerous cells. Immunotherapy boosts your immune system so it can do more to find and kill cancer…
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The Emotional Roller Coaster of Cancer
Photo by eberhard grossgasteiger on Pexels.com I was going to write about immunotherapy today but decided to write about how it felt emotionally when I heard the dreaded “C” word. Believe me, it’s one scary word. No one wants to hear they have cancer. NO ONE. I had known something was wrong with me for quite a while before I was diagnosed. My stomach was swollen and hard, and my tummy got upset…
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After the Cancer Diagnosis
Photo by Brett Sayles on Pexels.com It took a couple of months for specialists in Lethbridge and Calgary to come to a definitive diagnosis of which cancer I had. I believe it was because mesothelioma is so rare here, especially in women that they wanted to really make sure it was right. I went through lots of blood tests and two procedures to drain the liquid around my lungs and stomach so they…
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