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she/her • INFP-T i’m losing my mind

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open me up carve out my lungs liver heart move to my bones lick and suck my marrow take until there is nothing left to take and when there is nothing left stay - create a home in me

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uncertainty

about our future

about us

i never know what you’re thinking, what you want

searching

for answers

for a happy ending

will my dreams come true?

[jaide-exe]

piece by piece

i’m falling apart

did we mean nothing to you?

the words you said

the promises you made

are they null and void?

rivers run down my cheeks

drowning me in a sorrow so deep

i fear i’ll drown

[jaide-exe]

careful

calculated

predicting your next move

one wrong step

and everything falls apart

mistakes cannot be afforded

discerning eyes lock with yours

silence so loud it’s deafening

“i love you”

@nosebleedclub april 28 “discernment”

[paper-wounds]

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innocent

she never saw him coming

naive

she fell deeper and deeper in love

plastic promises never made to last

make another, pray he means it this time

kindle this feeling of hope lost

flames licking the house we once called home

devouring everything we loved

@nosebleedclub april 27 ‘foal’

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putting you on a pedestal

there’s nothing you couldn’t do

devotion of the highest degree

i worship you on my knees

please, don’t tatter your image

please, don’t break me again

@nosebleedclub april 13 “highest peak”

[mementomorih]

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treading carefully

i’m always on the ice

precarious cracks form

i can’t afford to fail

another perfect step

but it’s never enough

i’m never enough

@nosebleedclub february 23 ‘on the ice’

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your mom told me

i deserve better

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i think of

what we could’ve had

wedding bells

heard through church windows

a life of love and laughter

slipping through my fingers

goodbye

my muse

@nosebleedclub february 16 ‘church windows’

[luminote]

On that day, we'll talk about it.

[shisasan]

2 February 1909, Aleksandr Blok (1880-1921), Selected Poems

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words mean nothing

when it comes to you

promises are void

and oaths are abolished

i don’t know why i believed you

when you said you were getting me something

because this is exactly

what i expected

@nosebleedclub february 14 ‘what you expected’

[jaide-exe]

old habits

die hard

i see your box cutter

and your back as you walk away

we’ve formed a routine

you and i

i’m seven lines deep

and you’re all i can think about

[jaide-exe]

smoke fills my lungs

a dreary haze clouds my vision

the world stops spinning

and for a moment

when i look into your eyes

everything is okay

[jaide-exe]

i know your eyes linger

resting a little too long on her body

the way she moves

so effortlessly

so unlike me

i don’t know what i can do

to make you see me like that

to stop liking those videos

to tell me the truth