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Take a self portrait.
Gillian Wearing is a contemporary British artist whose conceptually driven photographs and videos investigate power dynamics and voyeurism in everyday life.
Wearing’s photographs explore how public and private identities of ordinary people are self-fashioned and documented. In her portraits and self-portraits she blurs the line between reality and fiction. For her series Album 2003, Wearing reconstructed old family snapshots using silicone masks fabricated with the help of experts from Madame Tussauds. By putting a version of someone else’s face on hers she is metaphorically ‘seizing’ their identity. Here Wearing wears a dress her sister wore in the 1980s. The only bits of Wearing that can be seen are her eyes and teeth.
From researching the artist, I went to my own family. Who are they, what do they stand for and how could I portray them? To know this you have to start observing noticeable features and characteristics.
Eventually I decided to take a self portrait as my little brother Nathan Brice. We have never been very close, due to the large age difference (8 years). Yet we have many similarities. However, our youth has turned out completely differently. My brother is and was often sick, and spends his childhood more in hospitals than outside. Sometimes I forget how bad that must be for him. In this photo series I try to induce the feeling that my brother experiences in his world of medication and doctor's appointments.
But how could I capture those moments and his youth? Looking back at my notes I think it is horrible that my first noticeable feature about him was ‘sick’. Yet it was an interesting fact for me. How come that his sickness took over his personality? Sometimes we focus so much on the bad stuff that we forget about the good things. For me this was an eyeopener and a point of view to work with.
I want to portray myself als the brother I knew from then. The sick boy, the patient. The pills.
Precisely because I am so sorry that I ever looked at him that way. He's more than his illness, he's my little brother. A super intelligent boy, who is interested in creativity and nature. Laughs at the loudest jokes and likes to try new things. My little brother, more than his medicines.
A photo series of me as my brother, the patient. Or better as his disease and his daily medicines.









