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The ego’s central role as a planning, controlling authority is powerfully exploded by trauma. Traumatic experiences may thus lead to a radical breaking in and breaking apart of existing ego structures, resulting in a disintegration of the previous psychic structure. The psychological concept of self-regulation and control and the consciousness of being an autonomous, intentional human agent no longer hold. Being helpless, handed over, determined by outside forces, these are the coordinates of traumatic experience. In a traumatic event, ego boundaries are overrun, and one learns that the everyday ego is utterly insubstantial. As a result, the ego undergoes a monstrous relativization, being degraded to meaninglessness and threatened with fragmentation and destruction. The ego, which once guaranteed one’s identity, seems to have no use any more. One is overcome by a sense of extreme vulnerability. For the annihilation of the ego is a form of dying.

Ursula Wirtz, Trauma and Beyond: The Mystery of Transformation

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Funeral Parade of Roses (1969) dir. Toshio Matsumoto

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Im a bludgeon sort of girl Lets beat people over the head !

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had my daily realization that im young and learning and truly just beginning to live, and that i have a whole life ahead of me and that im doing well. crazy