Repost from facebook: I've always been too honest and transparent on social media, usually to a fault, where it comes off as a self-absorbed tyrade that gets me in trouble. But I'm gonna vent anyway. Because it makes me feel better. Maybe I do it for the attention? We all have our outlets. Deal with it. For most of you that probably don't know, these past few months have been a living mental hell (and I mean that with complete sincerity) Never wanting to leave my apt, or my bed for days. I'll spiral for no reason, feel great, then do it all again, push loved ones away, answer no one (call it manic-depressive, dramatic, whatever). I tried everything that I'm supposed to do to make myself feel stable. Working out, putting social media to the side, hanging out with close friends...just distracting myself. Nothing works. So I'm done. At this point, for my own sanity, I'm pulling myself out of this muck that is my own brain. I need to kick my own ass and do things for myself. I have too many editing, music, and illustration projects that have been piling up. So many new programs and techniques I've wanted to learn. Being a sad sac is getting me nowhere. It's time to finally kill it off. This is my final declaration. Sure, I'm gonna get sad again, but I'm never letting this happen again. I couldn't handle it. Thanks everyone for hearing out the mental, mostly self-inflicted, drama that is my exsistance. My only hope is that you enjoy the things I'll be making in the future. <3 Love you all, I'm sorry for the past and this absurdly long post. 👏 Be sure to follow me on twitter, it's where I post most often : @jurrutt Cheers!
