yeah im fucking libra rising

strawberry wigged prophet, basically. ask jesus. 

[jasperbigbigboots1000]

i really really really really miss my best friend. they make me feel so accepted and like. human. i love messaging them but i want to hear their voice and weirdo laugh (actually the nicest, most musical laugh ever). i live for their art. their creativity is what fuels mine. i love them! i have never loved someone so completely like this outside of my family, and it’s so powerful that i promise you it could split the world in half. i miss them. i miss the way we give commentary on the people we know like they’re strange fictional characters. i miss the way we back and forth the stupidest shit ever whilst straight faced. i miss the knowing glances. i miss being able to say every thought that passes through my idiotic brain fluently with only (minor) judgement. i miss hearing their every thought. i miss our content silences. just everything really. i’ll be back in december, best bro (or in layman’s terms, my dearest friend).

[asoftwrongness]

Keeping things to myself

[jasperbigbigboots1000]

i feel like i know i’m trans but then i don’t. i can’t figure out how i want to be seen by women. do i want them to be attracted to me because i’m female or because i’m male? i know i like being masculine and all but i feel like i’d prefer to be viewed as a woman when a woman is attracted to me? idk. but i don’t feel like a woman. i don’t feel connected to that at all. i feel connected to myself when i look masculine, when i dress masculine. i want top surgery. i want a deeper voice, i want a masculine face, i want a not-so-skimpy body. i want a ripped bod that girls lov lol. but likeeee. as a nonbinary or as a male? i should probably be asking myself how i want to see me but that’s even more abstract and unclear. so shrug. guess i gotta just mull it over whilst i’m here isolated from my parents and friends at a japanese girl’s high school of all places.

[jasperbigbigboots1000]

my sister watched this on my account so god knows fucking what's gonna turn up on my suggested: ‘Hamilton Theories Debunked: Why All The Presidents Are, In Fact, All Secretly Black, And Ways To Forcefully Tell People This As You Walk Past Them In The School Corridors On Your Way To The Staff Bathrooms To Cut More Of Your Hair Off To Attach It To Your Upper Lip In Protest Of Democracy’ 

[jasperbigbigboots1000]

something for y'all to keep in mind: ants keep aphids as pets !!!! 

[jasperbigbigboots1000]

sometimes i think about japan’s queen himiko and how she locked herself in a palace alone with literally 1000 handmaidens and did fuck all but chill with all those ladies until she got locked away into a tomb. then the government was like no, lets not open up her tomb cause like then u can look at her bone marrow and see that the current emperor was lying about being kin to this funky monarch. any info on this has been wiped from the web too, interestingly. smh my head bruh

[jasperbigbigboots1000]

you ever just imagine urself performing The Bumblebee on the violin at the superbowl half time except the bow is a toothbrush and the strings are ur teeth

[jasperbigbigboots1000]

i don't know what's so edgy about not wearing clothes

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i think ur pretty insane if u don’t think coconut water is god tier hydration fluid. my coconut water brings all the boys 2 the yard tbh

[jasperbigbigboots1000]

my friend

is a lunatic. she is a prankster. she took my supermarket croissant. i have decided i will cast a spell so she sees demons in her dreams every 2 days until she is 34

[jasperbigbigboots1000]

had an awards ceremony yesterday

the gym smelled like doritos the whole time. highlight of the crippling 2 hours of my body folded into the hard plastic seat was when they were talking about a thai student who was no longer here and they said ‘unfortunately, Milk has moved on.’ 

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Life is just Crazy tho in General

yeah