Jay

He/they 17

[jay-crying]

Intro <3

Hi I'm Jay (not my legal name)

I am redoing my blog theme just if ur confused why I have 2 intros

Just so everyone is aware this not a pro ed sh or any of the above I just post about it please if you are in recovery or not disordered dni

But if that's okay with you feel free to follow, ask, or message me just pls don't be weird I am a minor

I am trying to lock in so I will be sharing stats motivation (If u want to be buddies message me and I can give you my discord <3 )

Height: 5,4

Hw: 202lb (91.6kg)

Cw: 149.4

Lw: cw

gw 1: 145lb (68kg) - idk yet

gw 2: 130lb (59kg)- get a piercing

gw 3: 115lb (52.2kg) - Dye my hair to a dark brown

ugw: 99.743lb (45.242kg) - kms

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[wtfamidoing6000]

how to lose 15lb in 1 hour wikihow

[illoveyouforeversid]

I feel like such a wannarex1c..

[w3ightl0s4]

how it feels to remember how disciplined and in control I used to be

[torirexxia]

I was bitten by a rabid dog, help me find my mutuals?

[fist-full-of-feathers]

accidentally unfollowing a mutual is like stepping on your dogs paw

[jay-crying]

Guess what I'm complaining about my mom again

I asked her for a therapist and she asked why so I told her I was depressed and she said Im not. So guess what guys im not depressed anymore. You wanna know why bc I seem so happy and not depressed in front of people. Which I guess makes sense I try not to cry in front of others, got good grades, I don't neglect myself appearance wise. But like recently at least once a when I'm by myself I completely break down, cut, I'm either binging, eating about 1000 cals while also working out 1-3 hours a day, I don't have the energy to clean, and I'm overreacting to the smallest things.

[jay-crying]

in every friend group irl with mentally ill ppl I'm always like treated differently. Ig i seem more stable with my good grades, extracurriculars, and I've gotten a lot of really good opportunities. I also don't open up as much to them bc idk I used to be with the wrong people and now I can't. So, I feel like the people around me are allowed to struggle and they get supported. But when I'm struggling, I don't feel like I can show them because they just hate me ig lol (they don't i just have issues)

[jay-crying]

pov when my friends are struggling with mental issues - coping When I do it- trying to be quirky and special

[snugglyspider]

My thighs are disgusting

[jay-crying]

in every friend group irl with mentally ill ppl I'm always like treated differently. Ig i seem more stable with my good grades, extracurriculars, and I've gotten a lot of really good opportunities. I also don't open up as much to them bc idk I used to be with the wrong people and now I can't. So, I feel like the people around me are allowed to struggle and they get supported. But when I'm struggling, I don't feel like I can show them because they just hate me ig lol (they don't i just have issues)

[jay-crying]

I fear ive dyed my hair red. It looks so much better tho than my medium brown. Heres a shity drawing bc I don't like my face/im paranoid

[hungrypigy]

can't wait to move and have my fridge looking like this

[jay-crying]

I hate my period if i were actually locked in I wouldn't have one anymore

[jay-crying]

honestly I might as well accept im the problem

[asnexxo]

[marrschaoticplanet]

My DM’s are always open!

[uranium-loves]

Me after a binge