I have no idea how to start this post but I'm just gonna begin it like this. I thought it wouldn't be nice if I just disappeared without a proper post explaining why so... that's why I wrote this post. This decision could be due to my impulsiveness (which also created this whole Tumblr account). I'm leaving Tumblr. I'm leaving my fangirl life. I realized - today, actually - that I haven't been going on to Tumblr for a long time. Perhaps it became a habit of not going to Tumblr because I had finals to sit for. But I think my mind wants me to leave this part of me... slowly, gradually, coming up with excuses such as finals or assignments to be done or studying time and stuff like that until I realized that I'm no longer as active as I was before, even though I'm on semester break right now.
I created this whole Tumblr account dedicated to fangirling, so that I could escape reality. So that I could smile, laugh and cry at and with my favorite groups. But now, suddenly, I have the urge to drop everything and leave. Walk away, just like that. It may or may not work, I don't know. I don't know what came over me to make this decision but I decided not to go against it.
Don't get me wrong, I love the boys a lot. I still love them: GOT7 and DAY6. And there have been many reasons that made me go "Wow, I really picked the right groups to stan." I love them, really. I love them even more these days so it's kinda hard to say goodbye. It's hard to let go.
But I suppose I have invested way too much emotions as a fangirl. Maybe I didn't know how to handle it, or maybe I'm too deep into it. If anything, fangirl life didn't weigh me down but I think it's time for me to stop.
I resign from my fangirl life, in hopes I will achieve my dreams just as my beloved groups did.
I won't delete my blogs, but know that it's dead. Unfollow if you wish, since I won't be posting anything up. Maybe, from time to time, I might post edits up. But I make no promises.
Take care, my followers and mutuals! Maybe we'll meet again one day. :)
Oh and actually, I have been wanting to say this. Maybe you guys would have known about my blogs: @jaybeommie , @seongjinnie and @jaeliena . And I did mention a few times about my “mysterious” writing blog (if it’s even mysterious at all). I’ve been wondering if I should even reveal this since I write under a different name. While I’m really leaving Tumblr and my fangirl life, I’m not leaving my writer self. So if you like reading fics of GOT7′s Jaebum and Jinyoung, and DAY6′s Sungjin then... you can read my works at @liannyeong .
Yes, I am Lianne of @liannyeong . It's not a big issue but it matters a lot to me. My GOT7 and DAY6 sideblogs have always been more popular than my writing blog. When I created the writing blog, I thought of writing under my name 'Ana', but then I had this selfish thought. That no, I don't want to write with the name 'Ana' because I was afraid that people would like my writings because I'm the same 'Ana' of @jaybeommie and @seongjinnie. It's dumb, I know, but I enjoyed the anonymity. I have always been posting about once per month on @liannyeong . It's probably the only thing that makes me go on Tumblr. After all, stories have been the efficient and temporary way out from reality to me.
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