Zombie Individual

It/It's Happy Pride! 🖤💜🤍💛 Support Palestine 🇵🇸🍉 My main fandoms; Court of Darkness and Mario (in general)

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Ngl, it's a red flag to play Mario in a Mario game where you can play othet characters. Like... ew, you wanna play the basic option when like Waluigi or Yoshi or Ludwig (in the wonderful case of Mario Kart 8 + deluxe) exist?

Girl. Nah. That's kinda icky to me. And every good Mario fan knows Mario is an animal abuser /hj

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Mettaton.

This took 30 hours.

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SHIT GUYS. HE KNOWS I HAVE A TUMBLR

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I know there's a perfect freak out there for me.

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Also. like... I just met this dude and he very much has a crush on me.

The evidence?

I just know.

He asked me my ideal partner.

******Cough cough******* he asked me a very interesting question. what my kinks are

I'm confused. I'm scared. I'm conflicted.

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I just want to post about my characters, but I don't have anything ready. Grrrrr

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Just got into Stardew Valley. Put in like... 25 hours.

I started three to four days ago. Shit is addictive.

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So I buy a book and I listen to the warnings and I hear smut stuff. My first thought was "hope she's the top".

Bro. I literally fucking hate reading mdom.

I like my men scrawny or chubby and submissive. I will never enjoy abs (on men).

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Y'all, I'm sick rn. looing and feeling like shit, yk.

I should drink tea but I hate tea. A lot.

Tell me why I hate it but I fall for dudes with enjoying tea being their main personality trait.

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One of my goals is to write splatterpunk books.

I have one I'm working on. It'll be the most disgusting thing to leave my brain. As well as a commentary on misogyny.

Will I write it where it is obvious with its message? I hope so.

Might post about it.

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Hello, 👋

I hope you’re well.

I am reaching out with a heavy heart to ask for your help. Could you please reblog this post on your account to help save my family? I am new to Tumblr and GoFundMe, and we are in desperate need of your support 🙏❤️.

Thank you 🌹

Usually I don't reblog these things but if reblogging this helps you get back on your feet, I got you.

I wish y'all well.

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This is like the 8th time I've tried to get back into Tumblr and all this. I'm gonna try to not get addicted to being online again.

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Right now, my interests do kinda consist of dating sims and unholy horror.

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I am gonna go back and make a review of other splatterpunk books I read. I really enjoyed them.

Yes, I enjoy the gore. Even the mindless stuff sometimes. I don't think liking gore makes me bad or a tasteless person. It is a coping mechanism for me, I'm sure a lot of horror and splatterpunk fans find comfort in fictional violence to help with feelings that can't otherwise release.

I enjoy when the authors get creative with their kills and twists.

I like the feeling of being a little grossed out and scared. But, I am desensitized so it is very hard to make me throw up or make me feel scared.

Here is a list of books I have read:

Playground by Aron Beauregard

Try The New Candy by Aron Beauregard

The Slob by Aron Beauregard

Scary Bastard By Aron Beauregard

Dead Inside by Chandler Morrison

Exquisite Corpse by Poppy Z. Brite

Payback Is a Witch by Rowland Bercy Jr.

You Will Be Consumed by Nikolas P. Robinson

And here is a list of books I'm still reading

Yellow by Aron Beauregard

Wedding Day Massacre by Aron Beauregard

Through the Eyes of Desperation (red) by Aron Beauregard

Scalp by Carver Pike

And finally, my wish list for the future

Modern Hysteria by Aron Beauregard

All Smiles Until I Return by Aron Beauregard (1st in line)

Whatever else Aron Beauregard has on Audible

Gone to See the Riverman by Kristopher Triana

Through the Eyes of Desperation (black) by Daniel J. Volpe

Bad Appetites by Jon Athan

Into the Wolves' Den by Jon Athan

Pedo Island Bloodbath by Duncan Ralston

Woom by Duncan Ralston

Until the Sun by Chandler Morrison

The Pope Lick Massacre

Games: books 1-6 by Sea Caummisar

There are some others on my wish list but I don't feel the need to list them. Talking about murdery shit online is cooler than talking about SA, I don't want to talk about that. Those books focus on those aspects of life and it's not necessary. At the end of the day, I'm gonna read that because I'm not bothered by it. (If we're talking real people, I would be because that is nasty).

Lemme know if I should read the one and only Cows by Mathew Stokoe. I'll hunt that bitch down and read it.

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I'm gonna talk about a book I finished today.

The Groomer by Jon Athan

TW: Children get hurt

It's a splatterpunk book, it's meant to be messed up.

I really liked this book actually. for it's contents, it has very real elements of how children are abducted and what happens to them.

Although the author's descriptions are great, I think it is 2010's fanfic cheesy when they reference a product or brand. Like "Liam brought his Nintendo Switch to the park". It just feels a little silly to me, no judgement though, just makes me laugh.

As a gore fan, holy fuck. I, my good sir, am a little scared of what this man might think of next. I need to read more. I will never see a cheese grate or lemonade the same ever again.

Guys. the lemonade was ACTUALLY lemonade. Think about lemon juice in a cut if you wanna know.

The confrontation was a bit underwhelming for me. It felt a bit dull when we find out what happened to Grace.

I think I have more thoughts but whatever.

I do think the narrator sounded a bit like a infomercial at times. Like... for one, no judgement but he doesn't do a very good girl voice. I feel bad saying that the accents were a little lacking.

Despite the flaws, the way it sounded helped me get through some parts I wouldn't have if the narrator really brought me into the world a bit more.

But he did define Cheese2002 and Zachry very well in terms of voices.

Oh. And back on the book's contents, sandpaper.

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Some guy called me beautiful, asked if I had a man, and for my number.

I talk to him for a day or two.

I tell him I do tarot and I haven't a word from him.

like bro was texting me back, even in the middle of the night. Called me "love" and "sweet". Then nothing.

I hate that it feels like "Oh, I'm not like other girls. I do tarot" because that is bullshit.

It's more annoying than anything. To be fair, wasn't sure if I was entirely into this guy. He was pretty nice to talk to, we even discussed open communication and our goals for the future. Shit like that, ya know. the important stuff.

I am a sucker for love and gooey relationship sap so it did hurt a bit. Like would it be too much to want a partner who gives back what I'm giving?

I need some damn stability and adventure. Financially stable would also be nice but money isn't important to me.

I don't want puppy love. I want to be those two old people who walk around and go on dates well into our 70's.

This did kind of just turn into a rant but I don't care. Fucks to give are pretty expensive.

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So having a job is great until most people there make me feel stupid and feral.

New person. Hypocrite.

At my work we have a break every 2 hours. I check the board, and it says break at 4, lunch at 7, and break at 9. I fucking leave at 9.

So I go to discuss the 3 hours between only I get told I need to go when the board says. Hypocrite told me that, she's not a supervisor but she was acting in place of one.

And today (I work in retail so it's like backroom stuff) I head back to the backroom, and she asked if I can help. It was 1:58 and I had a break for 2:00, I said "I can for the next two minutes"

This bitch got pissy. She also slammed a tote really close to my face. It was loud as hell.

It's 2:00, I tell her I'm going to my break and she says "you can't because no one is really listening to the board today and there isn't a supervisor back here." At which case, I work for two more minutes before remembering our ACTUAL boss told me to go out on the salesfloor so I couldn't help if I wanted to.

As in Sam told me focus on one thing for the day.

I walk over to Hypocrite and Waldo was there. I just tell him that I'm going on break and he says okay.

SPEAKING OF WALDO. I just found out he thinks I'm weird in a bad way.

I love my work friends but everyone else makes me feel like an outcast because I'm not a robot.