My name is Viv! I’m 17 years old and currently a high school student! I will be writing headcannons for attack on titans and I’ve already done some matchups as well! There will be both sfw and nsfw content on here so if you’re not 16+ plz don’t interact with the nsfw content I can’t control if you read it though that’s up to you.
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At the beginning I was going to give Erwin, I was adamant on it then I saw that you preferred someone more outgoing so I ended up with Jean. You and Jean would be of course in the same bataillon and at the beginning he won't notice you, especially since you're an introvert (good thing he had a character development I don't like him much). He probably noticed you over the expeditions where everyone started befriending each others since they're always together over the walls. He was pleasantly surprised when he saw your extroverted side and started talking to you more and more. He always answers to your teasing in a pleasant and very expressive way until one day he notices that he may or may not have a crush on you. Also if by insulting them you really mean it he will mistake you as rude at the beginning (like eren) and you'll have to make the first steps to explain that you don't mean it as well as not do it too much. When he notices his feelings he will be more romantic with you and publicly proclaims his love (like with mikasa). If you accept he will be over the moon and brag about it (the jean i am talking about is not the one from the grown up squad -I read the manga so I have no idea which season it is-). Jean definitely answers to your ideal traits as a partner, he is honest (in a kind of rude way but oh well), loyal and much more outgoing than you so you will be dragged outside often to join him on adventures or surprise dates he loves to make. He enjoys your tickle and little fights as it makes the relationship more playful. When you give him gifts he will become red, embarrassed and will stutter trying to play it confident but ultimately fails (in conclusion, he loves them). I don't think that Jean works out a lot unless it's to achieve a certain goal like being in the top 10 etc so both of you will motivate each others. Jean would have long (most of the time dumb) talks and debates with you late at night. For the problems in the relationship we have his love for mikasa that you'll have to erase (or just waits until it goes away) and the amount of trauma that both of you will face in the future that will give a lot of tensions because well you're tired and more prone to being aggressive but if you manage to get through them you'll have a very solid relationship. By MBTI it is said that both of you will encourage each others. For the NSFW, I am not comfortable at all with it and not because of your age.
Appearance : 5'4 ace/heteromantic girl ambivert.Dark brown hair/eyes(glasses) a little chubby/muscled and pale skin+permanent smirk/smile/ neutral face. My style varies a lot (always comfy) but I never wear dresses heels/makeup. I love to imagine outfits with symbols from fandoms or my own drawings so I have a rather unique style who changes a lot
MBTI: INTP-T
Zodiac: Gemini sun, Taurus rising, libra moon
Enneagram : My dominant is type 5 then 8. Quizzes says that I am a 5w6 or 8w7
Personality : .Sassy sarcastic a little naive but I have a backbone (don't bother flirting with me and if you feel that I am flirting with you which happens a lot then it's just my personality and on the rare occasion I notice they have to confess or I won't believe it) ,calculative,protective,creative,expressive,,tsundere,manipulative,a devil's advocate,prideful,charismatic,smartass,bookworm,daydreamer,a little insensitive/blunt because I'm more on the logical side so I don't really understand or recognize emotions,vengeful,mischievous,a huge tease,open minded,very curious,gets annoyed easily,impatient so kind of a bad temper,observant but not romantically,sadistic to a point but my conscience prevents me from doing these acts.Indifferent to many things,open minded,morally...unique. With my friends I am either laughing, goofing around or annoyed. Those who don't talk to me see me as a nerd aggressive smart and blunt person ( even prideful) and strangers as a polite sweetheart. But I am a chaotic good/neutral. I notice a lot of details because I don't let my guard down even if I daydream plus I have a photographic + sound memory and they work very well in all situations which can be a bother when I try to concentrate which is difficult for me because I get distracted easily.
Dislikes: I fight for my beliefs. I have trust issues so I never talk about my problems and will use humor when confronted. Daylight. Cooking. Slow things or people. When I get teased in a mean way (otherwise I actually like being teased it's a fun fight after). People who don't pay attention to a conversation and then ask to repeat it more than once. People who change side easily and hypocrites. Overly serious people. I tend to be aggressive and expose an annoyed face easily (I am moody), plus I hate orders and love pressing people's buttons it's funny(in a fun way rarely in a mean one) unless it's a sensitive subject. When I feel that I am unwanted or someone insults me or take me for granted I become very cold and distance myself and the relationship becomes strained the more they take time to ask for forgiveness.
Likes: I love cats/laughter/sweets/pranks/dark humour/ a true crime and Supernatural enthusiast and I love science especially concerning space, chemistry, robotic and psychology. Books, sleep, drawing and video games too. Oh and debates I love them. Surprises too I hate routine and runs away from it
Hobbits : Reading, getting lost in a book, drawing, learning, debating, daydreaming, sports (fighting ones), art (music/drawing/writing) and video games
have some bad habits like biting my nails (I just got rid of it)/lips and moving my leg up and down because I am always nervous, disorganized room/sleep and eating schedule plus I am lazy. Of course if someone tried to address my problems I will change the subject or use humor. Also I might try to hide it but I am very competitive and a sore loser
Fun fact : I dream a lot and write my dreams. I don't mind nightmares on the contrary I welcome them because I find them to be a nice experience and they give me ideas plus the amount of emotions you can feel is amazing. I also tend to curse while talking. I rarely get motivated but when I do I give a very good work and put my soul in it, if I don't reach my goal I feel down for a while and become very snappy. In a group project if my comrades don't make their part they deal with the consequences without me I do my part no theirs. But if I know the person works and is just a lazy worker like me I won't pester them, I am a lazy student (hell if I don't feel like writting I don't especially exercises that I understood) but also at top of my class so none says anything (i can befriend people easily if I want to, teachers included). When dealing with an emotional person I don't know what to do I will try to give them words to keep going, it succeed but I am rather harsh plus I try to make jokes to cheer them up.But if a friend breaks down before me I will do my best to cheer them up (ahem jokes and reminding them of all the success they achieved) and if I am comfortable and they want a hug I will give it. I hate people who denies that others helped them. My love language is gifts, quality time, a little act of service and affection in private if comfortable. Unfortunately for me who was the tallest when I was younger one is I am not anymore plus my hands and wrist are tiny so fiding a ring/bracelet/watch my size is very difficult (okay maybe not for ring I think I am a size 8 or 7 but all my rings are bigger than my fingers). I also have malleable cheeks. I also deal with constant headaches because of loud noises or bright lights (I don't get along with the sun) so my glasses are also sunglasses.
Thank you!
I match you with Levi!!
I feel like you’d both be the opposite side of the same coin if that makes any sense. Y’all would get into some petty little fights that would infuriate him but he’d also find them amusing and look forward to them. He doesn’t mind that you’re a couple inches taller or that you’re any bigger than him. He’d actually enjoy it, since he grew up starving and all. Levi would definitely do the cooking around the house and would push you to learn as well so you don’t depend on him. Just pushes you to be the best version of yourself or at least be able to survive on your own without him lmao. Every morning levi asks you about your dreams and is very intrigued by the way you like to journal your dreams. He’s had a very different experience with dreams and sleep in general so it’s nice to see at least someone gets peace during sleep. Btw when he can’t sleep he’d def just kinda admire you and wonders what youre dreaming. Even though Levi is pretty serious he allows himself to be free with you at least more than he is with anyone else kinda like that one episode Historia punched him and he smiled. Looks at you with adoration although at the beginning you probably pressed his buttons and he was frustrated with you. Would 100% watch true crime and scary movies with you although he’s a bit of a grump and doesn’t look like the type to be scared he kinda is but enjoys watching with you regardless. He might just snuggle closer to you sometimes . Y’all would definitely own at least one cat I’m a firm believer levi would be a cat lover. Probably the most spoiled cat in the world and is definitely your guys child. Training for whatever Sport you play is something levi would enjoy doing with you. Mainly because y’all can get competitive and it usually ends with one of you doing house chores if they loose. Levi would find it pretty hot if you beat him in a match. Overall you’d teach Levi to be spontaneous and he’d teach you stability a balance of the two where there’s not too much of one. Kinda like the yin and yang.
hi i just saw that match ups were close in your pinned i thought it was still open from the matchup rules post. sorry about that feel free to ignore it
that’s my bad I just fixed that ! I’ll still do yours it might just take a while because I have so many and I also have school but I’ll get to it.
also for anyone else reading this matchups are now closed I’ll open them again when I have a 200 follower event but it’ll be a bit more creative than a regular matchup.
My big three are Virgo Sun Gemini Rising and Sag moon (I am fire dominate) and my mbti type is ENTJ
Some of my hobbies are: I love to read, I draw and paint a lot as well (I am an art major) , I play a lot of sports and I am a D1 athlete and I love shopping
Ideal date would include a fun activity like painting or going to a fair something that’ll have like one on one time but there’s an activity to do during the date
My love language is acts of service and quality time
What I look for in a partner is someone who will just listen to me and my stupid side rants about literally anything someone who will always be there when I need them someone who always down to go out to new places and try new things
I match you with Armin!!
y’all would be the opposites attract trope! sometimes I throw that in there if I’m really seeing haha
I can just imagine him being super nice but shy and blushing so much around you
eren and mikasa encourage him to confess and he finally does
armin is very intellectual and from what you said it sounds like you are as well so y’all would have the most interesting conversations. like they could be philosophical or even mini debates (just for fun)
although armin is fit I can’t see him being super sporty but he’d learn everything about your sport and constantly go to your events to support you. (and he’d treat you to a really nice dinner after ;)
he’d definitely plan a vacation for both of you to some foreign country and learn about the culture. maybe Puerto Rico
she/they, bi with a male preference, Leo, INFP, I like reading, listening to music (mostly rock/punk stuff), writing and drawing. Introverted, quiet and reserved at first but once I'm comfortable I'm chill and sarcastic, optimistic nihilist. Love language is physical touch. I want someone loyal, trustworthy and non-judgemental, who will be there when I need them, with a good sense of humor. Toxic trait is insecurity. Ideal date would be a picnic at sunset, then stargazing together. thanks! :)
I match you with Eren!
in a modern world eren would be so into pop rock. so he’d constantly be taking you out to concerts
he’s pretty introverted as well so you’d probably both feel comfortable around each other
He probably wouldn’t be super comfortable with affection since he’s touched starved asf but he’d eventually get better at it
Stargazing is something y’all would do super often he even buy a telescope for you
hi! can i get an aot matchup pls? i’m male so he/him pronouns, pan but i love boys
my sun sign is gemini and my mbti changes between infj/intj.
i’m socially awkward and anxious lol but i mask it well! i’m v unapproachable bc i “do what i want when i want” and it intimidates people and my face when i’m just vibin also intimidates people but i’m really kind! i can be scary tho. people like to tell me abt their problems—incl. people i don’t know well—bc i like supporting others and i value confidentiality. i’m usually the first to notice if someone is off. i can be quick to anger but not often! i get frustrated at injustices and do my best to achieve justice for the people that deserve it. i fight really hard. i’m prone to burnout. i handle pressure extremely well and i have a reputation for being able to handle anything and work with anyone. i’m pretty adept at conflict resolution and problem solving! i need things to be clean and in order otherwise i can’t function so i always keep my space organized.
i like writing—creative as well as research papers and essays...research papers are my shit. i’m studying psychology! i’m a photographer and a musician—i taught myself to play several instruments and i’ve been singing since i was little. i train almost every day to get stronger and faster. i also love languages—i taught myself sign language and i’m learning japanese. i also like cooking and i LOVE tea! i collect vinyl and knives.
my love language is acts of service.
i want stability and equality. and someone that will push and encourage me to be better. also good communication! and someone that’s able to keep me grounded and logical. hand-holding is a must.
my ideal date would be brunch, then to an art gallery or a bookstore and then grabbing tea to go and sitting/lying in a park in the grass!
i’m highly competitive. i try not to be but i just want to prove myself. i can be quite overbearing sometimes especially when i’m not managing my anxiety, ocd, depression, and ptsd symptoms well because when i lose control of myself i try to take control of the outside world.
i’m 5’3, slim but muscular, i have levi’s haircut but my hair is permed and i style it differently and it’s usually a lot shorter than what it’s like in this pic but lockdown amirite lmao, i have brown eyes and dark brown-black hair. my septum is pierced, and so is my lip and i have gold rings in both and i wear gold sleepers in my lobes and a gold ring in my conch. i have 6 tattoos on my arms! and 6 small tattoos on my fingers that i did myself when i was dumb and 15 but i like them! i have a big haku tattoo on my left arm that i’m really proud of. i wear mostly darker colored clothes like dark academia kinda vibes, and i wear black vegan leather gloves because i hate touching things.
Hi thank you for the submission! I love your vibe as a whole tbh 🥰
I ship you with … reiner!
when he first met you he thought you were super attractive but was probably intimidated by you. which is kinda funny for such a huge dude.
whenever you’re having a bad mental health day he’ll tell you to take the following day off and treat you to some tea and food. Just a really relaxing day.
Reiner is so impressed when he finds out you taught yourself two languages and would ask you to start teaching him a bit of sign language and Japanese
Reiner might not be the best at communication because of his trauma in the show but in a modern world I feel like he’s much better at it and would possibly attend therapy
You both help make each other a better person. when one of you doesn’t feel ok the other is always there for comfort
Hi! I've a request about Jean who's dating a reader, but they broke up because of a stupid mistake. They didn't see each other for a few weeks or months and next time reader sees Jean, he is hugging Mikasa and whispering her something. So reader decides that they're dating and leaves all heartbroken & crying, but Jean follows her and explains that Mikasa got engaged (that's why he was hugging her) and they're friends. Then he confesses that still loves reader and wants to get back together.
I see that you got a lot of Jean x reader requests lately, so I wonder if it's okay to ask you about one more... I'm sorry if you don't like it or don't want to write it! Have a good day ~
sure! i hope you like it!! <3 and omg it's totally fine <3
You miss him. You don't want to, but you do. You see him on every single store you enter, in jerseys that would look so good on him, on every coffee you drink alone. You miss his heath when you wake up, your body adapted to your side of the bed as if he was still there.
You sigh while you keep walking to the center, where you accorded to meet Pieck and Reiner. You haven't got out of your apartment since you broke up with Jean after that discussion that shouldn't had happened. You two were too angry to yourselves and you didn't think about the other one. It was selfish. You look at your clock, you have to hurry up, you don't want to be late. In the next street, you turn right, and you see him. It isn't your imagination, Jean's tall body is there, talking to a girl you can't recognize because she's giving you her back. You try to walk and don't look at him, but you fail.
And he hugs her.
The way he leans to whisper something on her ear makes you feel bad. Did he find someone new that fast? She laughs as well, her head moving.
It's Mikasa Ackerman.
She's smiling while she keeps her hands around Jean's waist, his resting on her shoulders while he smiles. You're too close, and he sees you, his expression changing quickly. Oh. He doesn't want to know about you. Tears start to fall quicker and you leave the street. You can hear him calling you from behind.
"y/n, wait." you feel a sudden touch on your wrist, his hand capturing yours in a try to take your attention. He grabs you quietly to a empty zone. You look to the floor. You don't want him to see you crying, and less because of him. Why didn't you run? Or tell him to let you alone? Maybe you wanted him to chase you. "Wait, please." he asks. You keep looking to the ground. Jean doesn't like to see you that sad, and he knows it is his fault. That the tears falling from your eyes, the ones he wants to wipe and never see again. You look so broke since you two stopped to see each other. He also looks empty, even when he has a new lover, that girl he used to chat with. But he always said that she had a relationship. You don't understand anything.
"What." you say. That tone you used hurts him. As if you forgot all the months together, the happiness and the good moments. There isn't a day he doesn't regret what he did.
"How have you been?" he wanted to ask why you have been crying, but he doesn't find the strength to do it. You look away, always avoiding his eyes.
"As fine as someone who's been on a breakup." you say. For the first time, you look at his eyes. "But I see you've been okay. Making your romantic life again." he looks at you. "Faster than I thought. I'm that easy to forget?" tears are falling again. You were just one more to him, even when he meant the world to you. It hurt like hell, find him hugging another one in less than a week. "Am I that irrelevant for you?" you ask again, your voice breaking with every sob. He takes you closer to his body, a hug you miss a lot. "Why you keep hurting me?" you cry, against his chest, feeling his scent. "Why you're hugging me when your shirt still smells like her." you break in a heavy crying, his soothing caresess in your hair. You don't want them, but, oh, they feel so good. They always felt good.
"You talk about Mikasa?" he asks. His voice sounds empty as his eyes look. "You saw us hugging on the street?" he asks. You nod twice. "She's getting married. Eren proposed to her after all this years dating. I just wanted to greet a friend." he says. "I wanted to be greeted as well, I wanted to propose to you." he says. His heart is fast against your cheek. "I wanted to keep you by my side but i was a stupid."he says. “I yelled at you things I didn’t feel.” he says, you feel a couple hot tears falling between your hair. “I never wanted to hurt you, that’s why I didn’t try to take you back. I was aware from my errors.” he says.
“I also yelled horrible things at you.” you say. “You didn’t deserve it. I was angry at the world and I paid it with you. And never apologized for it. Sorry, Jean.” you find breathing almost impossible, all that tears and hiccups making it harder. He caresses your back, his body reacting to your crying one, as if he was used to it. It was all so natural, even after the breakup. “Please. I still love you, and I learned that I can only imagine a future if you’re in it.” he says, you can feel his hands shaking on your back. “I love you, and I’ll understand if you don’t want to see me again. It was my fault and I’m regretful for what I’ve done.”
“I'm not blameless either.” You remember the yells. The horrible words you said to him. It was a difficult night for you both and you payed it with each other. “But I miss you. Fuck, Jean, I missed you so much.” you bury your face on his shirt, his arms around you, pulling you closer.
“I missed you too. It was just a couple days, but it felt like whole centuries.” he whispers. You feel comfort, love, tenderness there. You feel like home. “I promise I’ll be a better man, for you. I’ve learned from it.” he says. He leaves a little kiss on the top of your head. You’ve been sleeping with his t-shirts, missing his body next to yours, making two coffees when you wake up and feeling empty without his body covered with just a towel while he dances for you in the bedroom. You missed him, you love him.
“Let’s go home, Jean. Take me home, please.” you say. Jean smiles, cleaning a couple tears from your face when you part, looking at him. He takes your hand.
“Let’s go.”
m e a n w h i l e
Pieck was silent, looking to her mojito. Reiner looked around a couple times before taking a sip from his cup. Pieck sighs.
“They’re not gonna come.” she says,
“I fucking knew it.” he says. “I knew it from the moment we saw him on the street near her house.”
I like to read, plan (what I need to get done and upcoming bills) and research.
Love Language: Quality time (apparently)
What I Look for in a Relationship: I would look for someone who is loyal. Someone I know will always be at my side.
Ideal Date: Going to a fair and doing everything.
Toxic Trait: I have to be right. If I feel I'm going overboard and they're getting upset, then I'll give up. But I have the need to prove that I'm right.
Connie !
Connie just seems like the type of guy to love the fair like c’mon he’s so chaotic (but we love him) 😩
He’s definitely a loyal guy even if he seems like he’s kinda unhinged
I also feel like he wouldn’t mind letting you win most of the time if it made you happy
He sees sasha as a sister so he’d love to spend time with both of you and Sasha would make it clear that there ain’t anything but friendship between them
hey, y’all I’ve been logged out of this acc for over a month soo soo sorry. My mental health was also soo bad but I’m starting therapy and started medication abt two weeks ago and things have started getting better so I hope to be able to post hcs on here soon. I also just started a TikTok which is @/jeanerenn
Summary: When Jean is knocked unconscious during a scouting expedition you make the decision to risk your life in a desperate attempt to save him
The blue smoke from the flare signalling the scouts to retreat billowed its haunting message across the sky. Whatever had happened, whatever state the scouts ahead of you and Jean was, it wasn't good, and that was all the information you had to rely on in that moment.
The two of you, at the very back of the formation, dug your knees into your horses to push them ahead, silently sharing a look of uneasiness at the situation. For conditions that required a retreat signal from the commander your surroundings were quiet. Too quiet.
"What do you think's going on?" Jean called, raising his voice slightly so that it would carry across to you over the sound of pounding hooves.
"No idea, but I don't like this. Something doesn't seem right. We need to regroup with the others as quick as we can."
Jean nodded sharply in agreement before spurring on his horse, leaning into its neck.
However, as per usual, your gut feeling proved itself to be right. Before you could even get near any of the others, the ground you rode on began to shake with the familiar heavy footfall of your enemies.
Turning to look behind you, you notice five titans approaching rapidly, eyes focused on you and Jean.
One of them was gaining more rapidly than the others- an abnormal. Not leaving anywhere near enough time for you to send off a flare in hopes that nearby scouts would notice your predicament, the abnormal lunged for Jean, sending him hurtling off his horse with a yelp and across the planes of land.
"Jean!" you cried out, veering your mount in his direction. Your concern grew as he remained motionless, splayed out unnaturally on the grass. You knew you needed to be fast, the abnormal pulling itself from its stomach to it's feet again.
You called out his name again as you rushed to him, but still only silence answered your call. You couldn't let Jean die- not before you had the chance to confess your feelings to him.
The two of you had been friends ever since enlisting for the scouts, and you had only grown closer and closer over the years. Countless nights spent in his company under the moon left you with a sense of longing in your heart, one which only worsened upon your observation of the way the man gazed at Mikasa. Regardless of whether your friend shared your feelings or not, you still couldn't leave him to die so carelessly at the hands of a titan.
Sliding off the saddle of your horse once you reach him you realise there's no chance of getting him back on his own horse, the poor creature having been crushed under the stomach of the abnormal when it lunged for him.
With haste, you scoop Jean up in your arms, grunting as you use all your strength to settle him on top of your steed. With every second you spent adjusting him the abnormal was once again gaining on you, a hunter ready to crush and consume its prey, and the other four regular titans weren't far behind. Your eyes pricked with tears at the wave of hopelessness that washed over you. No. This wasn't the time for those sort of thoughts. You had to pull this off - for Jean.
Jean. You observed the way his limp unconscious body slumped against your horses neck, blood flowing steadily from his nose and the corners of his lips and the areas around his eyes already beginning to bruise.
You had two choices. Get on the horse with Jean and try to outrun the titans- unlikely. That held the risk of neither of you surviving, the abnormal was too fast, you'd be overwhelmed before you made it so much as thirty metres. Option two, however, secured Jean's safety, and you already found yourself choosing that one with not even a second of thought regarding the repercussions for you. You would secure Jean to the horse, send it off in the direction of the others and pray they noticed him and took care of him. You, meanwhile, would remain behind, distract the titans from Jean and bring their attention to you. That was the one.
You lifted the reins, throwing them over Jean's body and tying them to the back of his belt, making sure it was tight enough for him not to fall. Scratches from the coarse earth littered his skin, and you couldn't resist the urge to lean in and press one tender kiss against his cheek. A goodbye kiss perhaps, maybe selfish on your part, maybe a waste of precious time- but you could take one moment to be selfish for yourself. You would earn it.
With one last look at Jean you nudged the side of your horse, sending it galloping off ahead with your friend secured to its back. Your heart clenched in desperation, begging whatever gods might be out there to deliver him safely to the scouts as you stood and watched him disappear into the distance.
The abnormal was right behind you now, letting out a throaty screech before lunging violently at you the same way it had to Jean. You quickly sank the hooks of your ODM gear into a nearby tree, pulling you sharply in its direction and out of the grasp of the titan. The trees were only short and were sparse, nowhere near high enough to give you any advantage over the abnormal but as long as you could remain out of its clutch you could manage until somebody noticed and came to help you. If somebody noticed.
Meanwhile, a few miles ahead, the scouts were regrouping, taking headcounts and waiting for as many survivors as they could gather to join them.
"Sir! Someones approaching on the horizon! Only a single rider!" a scout called out, alerting Levi and Erwin.
"Who is it?" another spoke, attempting to focus their eyes on the face of their approaching comrade. Things changed however, when they noticed that the rider was slumped over unconscious.
"It's Jean," Armin wailed, "and he doesn't look conscious!"
As the horse flew in their direction Captain Levi prepared to stop it, standing just to the side of its path so that he could grab the reins and haul it in. And that's what he did, the horse bucking and squealing in a frenzy.
"It seems like he's tied to the horse by the reins. And that's definitely not his horse, either," Eren evaluated, eyebrows furrowing in concern.
Mikasa spoke next. "Whoever was with Jean must have tied him up like this so that he could escape while unconscious. But surely that means they must have been protecting Jean from something, else they'd be on the horse with him."
"Y/N! She was the one who was out there with him!" Armin came to the realisation, making the others murmur and gasp. You had made many friends within the scout regiment, always easy to get along with and willing to spend time with and care for your teammates, so your death would not go down easily.
Erwin furrowed his brows, thinking about his next actions carefully. If what they were theorising was true, he couldn't just leave members of his regiment to suffer a needless death at the hands of titans.
"Very well then," he spoke clearly, gaining the attention of the others. "Captain Levi, you will go with Eren, Mikasa and Armin to locate their missing teammate. I will lead the others back to the walls, join us when you have determined her fate. I will also see to it that Kirschtein is escorted safely to the walls."
With a nod, they departed, Erwin assigning two scouts to ride either side of Jean's unconscious body on your horse. The others galloped in the direction they had seen Jean come from, and it wasn't long before they found you. You looked weak from exertion, trying with every fibre of your strength to fight off the abnormal and the four regular titans. Three of the normal titans lay dead on the ground, the napes of their necks steaming in defeat. Now you were flying in endless circles around the abnormal and one remaining titan, barely missing their clutch each time they swung at you with meaty fists.
No matter how hard you tried, exhaustion would always find a way to catch up with you. After endless swinging, leaping and the intense focus it required to have kept yourself alive this long in your situation you were growing weary, the strength draining from your body, and before you knew it you were being squeezed horifically tight in the fist of the abnormal. The large titan opened its gaping mouth, blunt teeth exposed and ready to crush you. You yelled, using what little strength remained to squirm as hard as you could manage but to no avail. The creature's grip was too tight, and as it began lifting you into its mouth you found yourself squinting your eyes tight shut and sobbing.
You reminded yourself that this was for Jean, that you were doing this to save his life, but the thought of him only made you cry harder.
"'M, sorry, Jean. I love you," you whimpered breathlessly.
However, just as you prepared yourself to be bitten in half, the sound of ODM gear engaging caught your ears. You gasped in shock, and a small part of you began building hope again. The next thing you knew you were falling from the titan's fist towards the floor, the beast's nape having been sliced. Before you could meet the ground you were snatched up by someone. You didn't know who, however, as the relief you felt mixed with your exhaustion, leading to you falling into unconsciousness as you knew you were finally in safe hands.
You had done it. You had saved Jean and survived. They had come to get you.
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When you regained consciousness you were safely tucked into your own bed back at the barracks. You tried to sit up but immediately fell back down and groaned at the sharp pain that wracked you. Your ribs, they must have been broken by how hard that titan had been holding you. The titan- Jean. Where was he? Was he okay? What if the scouts hadn't found him and he was still out there somewhere all alone. He'd be dead by now for sure if he hadn't met back with them. Had you unknowingly sent him to his death?
But before you had the chance to work yourself into a frenzy, all of your questions were answered in one.
"You're awake!" A frantic gasp from your bedside. Jean.
Tears sprung to your eyes. He really had survived and had made it home safe.
"Woah, woah, woah, you idiot, sit still. And what are you crying for?" he exclaimed.
"You're alive!" you rasped, throat raw.
"Yes, but the question is why? Why would you ever do that for me? Huh? Sacrifice your whole life, send me off to safety and leave yourself to be torn apart by titans for my sake? Why the fuck would you ever do that you idiot?" Jean was practically shouting, his voice shaking and wild.
You sighed deeply, closing your eyes to avoid him.
"Well? Don't just close your eyes! I need to know why you would ever do something so stupid. Risk something so precious just for me!"
You felt your heart pounding, heat rising to your cheeks. He couldn't ask you something like that.
"Do you really need to ask?" you spoke quietly, still not strong enough to speak at a regular volume.
"Yes! I really fucking do need to ask."
"Think about it, Jean. You don't actually need me to answer that for you. You'll only make a fool of me." you pried your eyes open, looking up into his in the hopes that he would get your message and wouldn't make you go through the pain of being rejected, of being told that he only had eyes for Mikasa.
"You're already a fool for doing what you did. You should have left me to die. I don't know what I'd do if I lost you, especially if the reason for your loss was me." Jean's angry facade broke, the man falling to his knees at your bedside and sobbing into the back of your hand.
"That's exactly why I did it, Jean. I don't know what I'd do without you either, and in that moment your entire life was in my hands so I did what I could to preserve it. Call me all the names you want, and maybe it was stupid, but I couldn't care less. I'd do it a thousand times over if it meant being able to see you alive and healthy every day. If you're really going to make me say it, fine, I'll say it. I love you, Jean. I have for years. I love the way you always panic over me when I get so much as a papercut; I love the way you let me lean on you and sleep on your shoulder when we're out scouting overnight; I love the way you make me laugh with your dumb jokes every day; and how you hold me when I'm sad and don't leave until you see me smile. I love you, Jean. Is that what you wanted to hear? And I know you only have eyes for Mikasa. I do- believe me, but there it is. The truth. The reason I did what I did. And like I said, I'd do it all over again. I don't expect you to say anything back, I already know you're not interested. Now please, just leave and spare me the embarassment of being rejected by the person I love."
Jean froze, dumbfounded. His eyes were wide and glued to your face, at the pained and heartbroken expression you held. All this time and you'd thought he'd never wanted you? Thought that he wanted Mikasa? Slowly, shakily, he got up from his knees and moved to sit on the mattress by your hip. You turned your face from him, avoiding his eyes.
"You truly believe I don't feel the same way?" his voice shook as he spoke.
Your eyes widened, and you automatically turned your head back in his direction to detect from his face if he was lying or not.
"You really think that I'd be this upset over anyone else doing what you did? You think I panic when you get hurt because we're just friends? You think my heart doesn't feel like it's going to beat out of my chest when you fall asleep against me? That I tell you all of my dumbest jokes just to keep a teammate entertained and that I hold you when you cry because I don't like seeing a friend upset? You really believe that. I do it all because I love you. Always have, ever since the day I met you. And Mikasa? That was a childish crush, never anything more. I've never felt for anyone the way I do for you. When I woke up back at the barracks I was so confused. The last thing I remembered was riding back to the commander with you when some titans appeared. I thought you were dead, Y/N. The others only knew I was conscious again because I screamed at the thought of you being dead and in the stomach of some damn titan while I was tucked up in bed, healthy and alive. And when Eren told me what really happened? I was furious. Furious at you for putting my life over yours, but even more furious at myself for letting that happen in the first place. I always make sure we're stationed together for the exact purpose of protecting you. I'd die for you, Y/N. And I know how hypocritical that sounds but gods I love you, my sweet girl. I don't know how I'd live without seeing that beautiful smile every day. I love you."
Tears brimmed at your waterline at his words, the breath leaving your lungs.
"You really mean that?" you gazed up at him, not daring to break the eye contact you had established.
"More than I've ever meant anything in my life," he reassured. Jean sighed, reaching to brush a strand of hair from in front of your eyes. His hand slid down to your cheek, thumb swiping over it and wiping away the escaping tears.
Slowly, ever so carefully so as not to hurt your battered body, Jean leaned down, resting his forearm at the side of your head for balance.
"Can I kiss you?" he almost whispered, eyes blinking slowly.
"Please," you sighed, heart pounding when he closed the distance and complied with your plea.
His lips swept against yours with every care in the world as the two of you exchanged your pent up emotion without words. And as Jean held you that night safe in his arms, as he spent hours pressing gentle kisses to your forehead, cheeks, jaw, nose, lips- the two of you felt your hearts melding together, becoming one synchronous unit. He had you now, and you had him, and neither of you planned on ever letting go. You were in it now and forever.
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i mean that anon kinda had a point — there was such a large influx of chubby appreciation all at once, it was kinda overwhelming 😕
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sooo what your saying is — that anon had a point in saying that there was too much appreciation for chubby ppl at a time?? is that what you’re saying ??
I mean, I personally don’t usually do body specific stuff just because it’s excludes ppl no matter what. but honestly? it’s anons like those that make me so Tired. like, skinny oc’s , characters, yn’s and skinny people in general media get so much more attention. even less so in such smaller spaces such as fandom.
I don’t really see us taking time to appreciate an under represented and often excluded and ostracized group of people as a bad thing, and if you do? that sounds like a major you problem and I suggest you get that shit checked out
Overwhelming? Ever tried to be in the shoes someone with a curvy/chubby body? We are always overwhelmed by the society’s default of skinny bods, oh if you should be like this oh you should be like that— well you know what, fuck you.
We are all made differently, that’s why nature is beautiful and you need to accept that. Our body don’t define us, but you ugly ass soul sure as hell does.
If you think chubby bods appreciation are overwhelming then get the fuck off my blog.
