II. 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐇𝐎𝐏𝐄

I    AM    TRYING    TO    BE    𝘽𝙍𝘼𝙑𝙀  .     BUT    I    FEEL    𝐌𝐘    𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓    IS    𝗖𝗔𝗩𝗜𝗡𝗚    𝗜𝗡

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@FURTERS​ SAID  :    I’VE A DEVIL OF A HABIT FOR BEING RIGHT DEATHLESS SENTENCE STARTERS  :                               ACCEPTING

𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬    𝐨𝐟    𝐠𝐨𝐥𝐝    𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐧    𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐧    𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝    𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦             crystalline shrapnel graced with a divine edge    /    fractals of color consuming every fractured corner  .                    (    there is a certain decay about it  ,    𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒄𝒍𝒐𝒖𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝒊𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒍 𝒅𝒖𝒔𝒕    )                    if gaze does not deceive  ----    then he beholds the striking rouge  ,    it’s sharpness piercing him like a knife  ,    drawing the color from his veins to create such richness    &    purity  .    there is darkness    /    and there is light  ,    and somehow they are both radiant  .    deception is drawn taught in his mind  ,    fingertips curling  ,    forcing himself to shy away from the thought of manipulation  .                    (    settle    /    settle    /    settle  .    let the warmth breathe into his lungs through parted lips  ----    𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞   &   𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬  ?    )                    unmade by your own doing  ,    a travesty alight in your marrow  ,    sorrow a thick    &    trembling animal    /    sickly    &    waiting to strike the bared rawness of his throat  .                    SO WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO DESERVE AN ACHE LIKE THIS  ?

halo’d eyes lift with no further consciousness of animosity  ,    banished    &    instead replaced with the deep furrow of curiosity as they try to fathom the contrasted hues placed before him  .                    (    reds    &    blacks    /    porcelain skin    /    a finely detailed delicacy made to strike like a viper    )                     lips form a thin line  ,    holding still the elixir that sloshes drowsily in his glass  .    𝒂 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒏𝒍𝒚 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒕 , 𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒊𝒎𝒂𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒆 , 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒔𝒖𝒎𝒆𝒅 𝒖𝒏𝒂𝒃𝒂𝒔𝒉𝒆𝒅𝒍𝒚  ----    to drown until you grow dizzy  ,   to let temptation make you sick  .                     (    and yet if you know anything of it  ,    you refuse to let it creep into your mind  .    like thorns pricking skin    /    the blood wells up in dots of crimson  .    𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐝𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐠𝐫𝐨𝐰    &    𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐥  .    you watch these things you refuse to let yourself know and you think  :     will they still call me saint if i taint all that i am  ?    )

    ❛    you don’t say  .    ❜                    his subtlety is unbeknownst  .    tone solemn    /    like a tongue dripping honey  .    brows knit together  ,   and he slowly allows his form to hunch over  ----    elbow dug into the table  ,    glass tipped lazily to the side  .    he studies the liquid in the light    /    𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒕𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒔 𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒔𝒆𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒊𝒓𝒓𝒐𝒓𝒔 𝒂𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎  ,   like a memory swallowed whole to keep it from tearing your throat apart  .                    ❛    so you’re telling me you knew a fight would break out  ?    i don’t know how impressed i can be with that  ----    given all the alcohol in the room  .    but if you have some other drop of wisdom  ,    i would be grateful to receive it  .    ❜   

[jedimartyr]

A STUDY IN ART    &   LITERATURE  ,    re  :    obi  -  wan kenobi

rachel vincent  ,    my soul to take     //    aristotle    //    seán o’casey  ,    three more plays  :    the silver tassie  ,    the purple dust  ,    red roses for me    //    bram stoker  ,    dracula    //    leonard cohen  ,    selected poems  :    1956  -  1968    //    emily dickinson    //    meghan o’hern    //    thomas reed    //    sorin cerin  ,    wisdom collection  :    the book of wisdom    //    carolina maria de jesus  ,    the child of the dark  :    the diary of carolina de jesus    //    j.r.r. tolkien  ,    the two towers

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𝐬𝐮𝐧    𝐤𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝    /    𝐬𝐮𝐧    𝐬𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐝𝐞𝐝                entity of brilliance donned by the crown of harsh rays  ,    aggression shorn for mercy    /    anger shredded through the principalities of youth    &    the reality of flesh  ----     all traded away  ,    all given up in the wake of a trembling kindness                    (    𝒉𝒐𝒑𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒂 𝒍𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒆𝒅 𝒊𝒏 𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒎𝒐𝒖𝒕𝒉𝒔    /    a halo hidden beneath our tongues for safe  -  keeping    /    something we are warned not to let spill free with our every breath    )                    like a flock of birds taking flight  ,    his gaze is drawn upwards  ----    away from the peculiarities that sit in the pages between his fingers  ,    𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬𝙡𝙚𝙙𝙜𝙚 𝙩𝙧𝙮𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙛𝙞𝙩𝙛𝙪𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙘𝙪𝙡𝙥𝙩 𝙞𝙩𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛 𝙖 𝙝𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙞𝙣𝙨𝙞𝙙𝙚 𝙝𝙞𝙢  .

   ❛    i don’t believe we have ever had the opportunity of meeting before  .    ❜                    the age of ten men burning beneath the azure of his eyes     /    like a fire gleaned through an oceanic lens  .     his shoulders bend slightly  ,    as if weighted  ,    as if carrying a great burden with every step  .                    ❛    i am obi  -  wan  ,    and i hope my asking is not impolite  ----    but what should i address you as  ?    ❜                    civilly  ,    words come with a great patience  ,    a practice molding the shape of his mouth ever since youth  .    smile is polite  ,    but not ingenuine                    (    𝐢 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐮𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐜𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐞  ,    teachings poured into the effervescence of my skin    /    told to hone the gentleness within me until it bites like shattered glass    )                    breath leaves lungs in measured exhales    /    expelling the nervous energy that still hinges itself upon every atom of his being  .    𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒖𝒏𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒄𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒆  ,    sending shivers every time he looks around  .    to be untold    /    to be hidden  ,    i suppose i know some solemn semblance of that  .

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I AM TRYING TO BE BRAVE        because when i am brave  ,     𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓    𝒑𝒆𝒐𝒑𝒍𝒆    𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍    𝒃𝒓𝒂𝒗𝒆  .     i am trying my best to be brave  ,    but instead i feel like    𝐦𝐲    𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭    𝐢𝐬    𝐜𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠    𝐢𝐧                        /                         obi wan kenobi of the star wars franchise  ,    est 2019  ,    loved by colin

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𝐡𝐞    𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐝    𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡    𝐚    𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞    𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐞              as if the universe stopped     &     started at his fingertips  .    stars hung in his pupils    &    the marrow of his bones  ,    a galaxy bleeding out across his shoulders  ----     a burden laden so heavy that knees tremble    &    threaten to break beneath him                     (    but i am strong  ,    saith my heart  ,    𝒊 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒖𝒓𝒆    &    𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒖𝒓𝒆    &    𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒖𝒓𝒆 𝒖𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒍 𝒎𝒚 𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒍 𝒊𝒔 𝒏𝒐 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆    )                    like artwork carved in the shape of his countenance  ,    his brow rests pensively as he gazes out across the echo of ruination  .    the sky exploding with a thousand colors  ,    𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙙𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙥𝙨 𝙧𝙖𝙘𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙗𝙮 𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙥𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙙𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙞𝙣 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙥𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙞𝙡𝙚𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙨 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙫𝙮 𝙣𝙤𝙬  .    fingers flex  ,    and guilt begins to sit heavy against his chest  .                    a general should not abandon    /    a general would not abandon                    (    am i not still too young to bear this weight  ?    am i no longer youthful  ,    𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐧 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐦𝐞  ?    i am a knight  ,    a master  ,    a general  ----    how many titles will they pour into me before i break  ?     )

HAVE FAITH    /    KNOW HOPE  !        cast aside darkened thoughts of fear    &    doubt  ,    let the light of the force slip into every breath that fills his lungs  .    trust in the rush of it as it wraps around him     /     even as it does little to dull the aches that lodge into his joints  ----    the wounds that weep open faced towards the sky  .                    eyelids open slowly                    (    𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒎𝒚 𝒆𝒚𝒆𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒄𝒍𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒅  ?    )                    gaze settled on the figure of a fire disguised as a woman                    ❛    well  ,    miss kardel  ,    i do suppose i owe you a great debt  .    ❜     

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𝐭𝐡𝐞    𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐬    𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰    𝐡𝐨𝐰    𝐭𝐨    𝐛𝐞    𝐜𝐫𝐮𝐞𝐥    &    𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐬𝐡              whelped by the vastness of an eternity                   (    i was made to understand it  ,    to crack open my chest    &    let in the light so that it could bleed from my pores     )                    the endlessness we carry within ourselves stretches out beyond our fingertips  ,    something created beyond comprehension  .     it speaks in whispers  ,    𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒖𝒎𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒘𝒆 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒂𝒔 𝒘𝒆 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒖𝒏𝒊𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒆    /     it is bright    &    it is kind  .                    (    all the things i have seen  ,    and yet i still hold true to the shivering hope that flutters in my hands like a bird  .    how fragile  ,    how true  ,    how tender it feels stitching itself into my skin    )                    THE UNIMAGINABLE BRIGHTNESS YOU HOLD INSIDE                   𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐬                    spirit yields     &     bends  ,    but refuses to break    /     despite the horrible trembling  ,    the light reaches out still  .                    ❛    i imagine that you’re here for me  .    ❜                    tone is dulcet  ,    tucked between his cheek  ----    a saddened playfulness  ,    a softness sodden    &    waterlogged  .    reeds in his lungs  ,    foreign sands a silent memory that plucks away at his heart strings  .    obi wan’s head dips slightly     /     as if bowed  ,    𝒂𝒔 𝒊𝒇 𝒊𝒏 𝒑𝒓𝒂𝒚𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒐 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒖𝒏𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘𝒏  .                     ❛    there is a look in your eyes  ----    though somehow i can’t fathom why you’d be looking for me  .    ❜   

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