start over ?

MATT — death note. number three. ( 003 ) semi-selective & mutuals only. affiliated w/ ISOLA.

[narcan-necromancer]

[nnt-channel]

EXECUTE.

[mvbxr-deactivated20211002]

citylights

[wrong-side-0f-edits]

all time low // some kind of disaster

[aseaofquotes]

Richard Siken, “Straw House, Straw Dog”

[fanku19]

stay with me

(mattmello)

[jeevastm]

heclingmuzik​:

“A whole day? Geez,” That sounds like a nightmare. Must’ve been exhausting, too! Maybe even a little scary. Ismael had never been lost in Fibonacci, but…No, don’t think about it. You know you’re going to start panicking if you do. Right. She shoves those thoughts deep down into a chest and locks it. She can’t let it come up. Not here. 

Damn, when she swallows, it’s like swallowing a rock!

“Uhm….” She hesitates a little. She doesn’t know the guy. It would be nice to get to know him, but on the other hand? What if this is just another Yamazaki?

But he probably isn’t. Not EVERY guy you run into is going to be a Yamazaki, Issy. C’mon. 

“I’m not doing anything so…so why not? I’m Ismael, by the way. What’s your name? So that we’re no longer strangers?”

  ❝ heh, yeah. was still trying to get my shit together after wakin’ up here so that probably didn’t help. ❞ he says with a dismissive wave of his hand. come to think of it, matt had a lot of help from both quistis and mike back when he first met them. now, he nearly knows a good chunk of the place like on the back of his hand. 

  ❝ just matt. good to meet’cha. ❞  the redhead makes a small gesture to follow before turning and setting off down the sidewalk. ❝ so, not stranger ismael— you been here long? second rodeo? maybe even a third? ❞ 

[jeevastm]

bluewhiplash​:

      ❖ ❝ The only thing we have to worry about right now is not spilling this juice, ❞ Quistis jests in reply, looking over at the other now slumping against her side. 

      ❝ Though, I think even if something happens… ❞

      ❝ We can always try to avoid it… Just this once. We don’t always have to face everything head on, after all. ❞ plus just thinking about the potential chaos is a bit tiring.

  ❝ the juice? ❞  with a quick glance, matt notices the liquid dangerously teetering the edge. he grins a little, but makes no effort to move. ❝ aw, no use crying over spilled juice. ❞ he’d just get her another anyway. 

  ❝ ... true. ❞  they’ve been able to get by doing so after all. still, some days he wonders what he’d be able to do for her if they couldn’t.  ❝ been thinkin’ a little too much about it lately. can’t exactly protect you with my sad excuse for a gun n’ all, y’know? ❞

[rookhunty]

Jeevas

[winterfellis]

[alkalinefrog]

Wammy Week 2021 - Orphan / Family

[jeevastm]

  laying flat on the hood of his beat up car, matt found himself staring bleakly at the night sky, surrounded by littered cigarette butts and the depressing stink of smoke. he had been there for a couple of hours after the recent eclipse now, unsure of what to do with himself upon realizing it had taken another. someone he didn’t expect. he’s aware that’s how they played, but... it didn’t make these feelings suck any less.

  mike chilton is gone. 

  didn’t matter if he had literally seen him a few days ago, greeted with his big ‘ol bear hug or how long the guy had been a resident of the city. he was gone... like the gods said he didn’t fucking matter anymore. just like mello. like near. it’s probably what happened to L, too. that happened last year and he still felt it at times.

  ❝ asshole. can’t believe you. whole talk about havin’ friends here and stickin’ together... your gushy shit and... ❞  he’s muttering to himself now, dropping an unopened bottle of beer to the ground. he didn’t even feel like drinking. ❝ fuck. ❞  

  the anger isn’t directed at mike. not at all. it’s not his fault. it’s some weird, pseudo-RNG pick of the lot and mike just... happened to be one of them. deep down, he’s not even pissed. he’s unhappy— mourning the loss of the guy he considered his best friend in this hell hole. if there’s one thing matt hates and unfortunately has experience with, it’s losing his best friends. breaking out a fresh pack of smokes, he picks what looks like the nicest one out of the bunch and swiftly lights it up. 

  last one of the night.

  ❝ ... this one’s for you, mike. stay safe out there. ❞

[jeevastm]

bluewhiplash​:

      ❖ ❝ It does but maybe that’s what makes it even more worrying, ❞ the blonde soon replies, reaching out for the beverage currently being offered to her now.

      ❝ After all, it’s hard to predict what exactly will happen here, even if we are given some small crumbs or cues… ❞

  ❝ s’pose you’re right. ❞  matt lazily plops himself beside her at the picnic table, body slumping against her side as if she’s the only thing that’ll keep him up. ❝ been lucky so far. we haven’t been stuck in the crazies lately. ❞ it’s been relatively nice in his pocket of this universe, enjoying quistis’s company and doing shit at his own pace. quiet like this never lasted forever though. if anything, it’s been too quiet for the both of them.

  ❝ ... do ya think we’ll be able to keep avoidin’ it like this? feels like we’re due to be thrown into the next big bad. ❞

[jeevastm]

heclingmuzik​:

“Uh…” She’s hesitant. Should she tell him what she needs to do? Ask him to tag along? A complete stranger? She shakes her head and clears her throat. Yes, a complete stranger. She shouldn’t ask him. He may seem the way he is now, but what if…

There’s a flash of memory with how Yamazaki was. She raises a hand and places it over her temple. She can feel a headache coming on, “Uhm, no. I’m–I was just about to leave. I don’t know why I came here.” Lowering her hand she smiles, if anything, she’s trying to push away this horrid feeling, “I think I just got lost a little bit.” Definitely not that, unless she’s talking about mind-wise. She’s been here long enough to know where a lot of stuff is. Which ward is which and how to get to different branches. 

She’s taking another step back. She has something back in her apartment that she does need, but she’s not ready. She should’ve just stayed inside. Shouldn’t have taken up on Grimm’s and Nero’s offer and left her home. Ismael laces her fingers behind her back to hide her trembling hands, “Maybe not today.” Words are mumbled under breath to herself. Yeah, not today….But next time. 

  ❝ ... ❞  the signs definitely point towards her not telling the truth, but whatever. no sweat off his back. matt wasn’t in any particular mood to be nosy, so he decides to leave it be. besides, he’d absolutely hate it if it were the other way around with someone trying to get into his business. with a nod, he pushes the conversation elsewhere. ❝ fibonacci’s design is kinda wacky to begin with. easy to get lost. got turned around a whole day once. ❞ 

  after a moment of thought, he glances back at his phone, then to the girl once more. well... ❝ if you’re not stayin’, you up for a spontaneous field trip with a stranger? one time offer. ninety-nine percent safe. probably. ❞  the walk to one of fibnacci’s store strips was relatively safe. he wouldn’t be going any lower than the surface today it looks like. ❝ better than staying lost right? ❞

[saa-33]

i’m actually tired bro, like from the bottom of my heart. i am tired

[fungusmayhem-deactivated2021110]

10 min sketch of this sad asshole

song

[motorcitymutt-deactivated202311]

@jeevastm

sure hope you’re ready matt, because incoming tackle hug!

[jeevastm]

  the unexpected hug nearly causes matt’s lanky body to buckle to the ground. by the grace of the universe, he’s still standing. head whipping up, he recognizes this mop of brown hair almost instantly. and— mike is one out of the two people in the whole city who’d probably do this to him to begin with.

  looking up at his friend, matt raises a brow, then grins before following up with a tease. ❝ dude. i know it’s been a hot minute but if you wanted to get chummy like this you coulda called. ❞