Ego Death

The further I get The better I feel. 18 & UP ONLY PLS

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They call defending myself “talking back”

[wordsbymp]

You feel unwanted for so long, it just fucks you up entirely.

Sigh

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[jayangelx]

Littles VS anxiety

Anxiety: wassup it’s time

Me: sup for what?

Anxiety: it’s time

Me:????????

Anxiety: :) attack

Me: *screeche* quickly slips to little space

Little me: yeah fudge you :)

[jennyszombiepandas]

Anxiety will ruin your life.

[juansendizon]

“People who don’t feel pain anymore are the most damaged.”

— Juansen Dizon

[notesoutofmymind]

- out of my notebook

[fuck-me-till-the-end-please]

“Stop biting your lip and start biting mine.”

[approvers]

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[enoughdonegone]

Why did I cheat?  

I cheated to feel a private victory over him. I didn’t want to actually hurt him; he wasn’t ever supposed to ever find out.  It was my secret; just my little reminder that not everyone shared his opinion of me.  Even if that was just because they didn’t know me well enough to see all my ugly bits as he did.

I cheated to feel better about myself. They told me I was irresistible, funny, and interesting. That he was a fool for neglecting me. They flattered me to get what they wanted. I knew that, but pretended like they were pining for the woman they couldn’t actually have. It inflated me temporarily, which was enough some days to prevent me from killing myself.

I cheated to distract myself and have something to look forward to. My meets ups were never near as exciting as the planning and build up. A little adrenaline to supplement the cortisol. Good substitute for the old s and d, right? Right.

I cheated to detach myself further.  Meaningless sex made me colder, cynical, unfeeling. Heartless. You would be amazed what you can endure when nothing matters.

I cheated to survive. That’s not an excuse. That is a statement.

[straightwhiteboystexting]

skyedied

Not me, but I just had to submit these

[therightprometheanfire]

American Children: Hey, can we be murdered a little less please?

Republicans: What the fuck? What about my guns? What about me, a person innocently playing with my death-machines as a hobby? I am the real victim here. Kids these days are so entitled…

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[g0ldsugar]

Grateful that I’ve had days full of you