I’m just… going to say this. Because I may’s well get it out, seeing as you and I are more than likely not going to speak again, at least on civil terms. You are the one that told me to go for it. To go for her. You told me that you’d step aside, and that I’d take Aurora on a date at least, and then go from there. I stepped aside, and let you take her. Because I respected you, and I still do respect you. I feel like shit that all of this happened but West, in the first place you told me to go for it. And then, then you continuouslytell HER to go to me, because I’m “better” for her, or whatever things you’ve said. I don’t understand what you’re pulling, because you’re the one who was giving her mixed signals. You told her you loved her and wanted her to stay, but told her to basically sod off and go grab me, fuck and run off from you or whatever. How would— no, I’m not going to ask how you’d react with that because it’s not even worth it. But just, West, I’m sorry for ruining your life or something when I was supposed to be your pal or your best friend or what have you. But I’m not sorry for just being there for her when yes, you really literally could not. But she needed someone. Maybe she’s needy, maybe I’m a loyal little pussy of a puppy dog, whatever you’ll say, I don’t care. I don’t care, West. And if she didn’t want me, fine, her choice. I told her so many times not to take me if she still loved you. Granted it was after.. some stuff happened, but that doesn’t always mean emotions. It’s still cheating, I get it, but she loves you. All I did was just.. go with it because I figured I’d never get a chance once you were out of the hospital. To tell her how I feel and shit. I was just honest, and as far as I know she was honest back. I don’t even know what all I’m saying but you told us both to go for each other. It’s like you wanted this, even if hurting you was never my intentions because you’re my pal — were my pal - and that’s wrong of me. So go a head. Be mad. You’ve got the right to be mad, entirely. But although you won’t admit it or even see it, the fault’s on you too, West, because you’ve been telling her to fuck off and be with me from basically day one, and told me I should be with her as well, so just.. stop. Please. I’m sorry.
First off, let me just say that all that stupid bullshit about me pushing her onto you-- I was pretty sure all of that changed when she became my girlfriend. Does that word not mean anything? Did it not change the circumstances? I went to the fucking hospital and yeah, tell her how you feel, i don't give a shit, but don't fucking kiss my girlfriend. Don't fuck my girlfriend. Don't do whatever you did with my girlfriend because it was your "only chance" and "went along with it." No excuse. And, like I said, I stopped telling her when she picked me and became my girlfriend.