KING JULIAN

𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖𝚜 ! 𝚊𝚍𝚘𝚛𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 ! 𝚒𝚕𝚕𝚞𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 ! 𝚛𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚐𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 ! 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚘𝚕𝚎 𝚋𝚘𝚊𝚝𝚕𝚘𝚊𝚍 𝚘𝚏 𝚜𝚎𝚗𝚜𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚋𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚝 !

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𝕵ULIAN 𝕲ORDON 𝕾AWYER-𝕯EAN .    an original character with a frankly ridiculously convoluted fandom origin and lore .     written by marlowe .

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forehead kiss.

                              “  ew ,  dad -  c'mon ,  i'm  like ,  thirty - five! -  ” 

[jgsd]

ok i’m going to have a julian moment. hold on. 

he has a hot confident shell. he KNOWS he’s attractive- or, rather, he knows that Other People think he’s attractive. he coasts on that. he knows that, for whatever reason, people tend to like having him around. he clings to that. 

julian has a very very deep seeded difficulty to understand Who He Is, and (just like his mama) sees himself only as valuable as what he can do/provide for others. he continues to do what gets him good reactions as much as he can until he can’t even control the urge anymore. 

julian DEEPLY wishes he were able to like. shut the fuck up for Two Seconds. every time a word passes his lips, he holds his breath and waits for a good reaction; and regardless OF the reaction, he can’t usually stop himself from letting even more words out. he rambles, he jabbers, he chats, he flirts, he jokes, he talks. he cannot stop talking. if he stops talking he might not be there anymore. sometimes he WISHES he was no longer there. he’s not sure what urge scares him more; that not being present would erase him from existence, or that sometimes he would prefer that fate to having to beg to matter. 

julian will not look away from your eye contact. he’ll even wink at you. he needs you to know he’s there. he needs you to hang on his every word because then, at least, they will have a purpose for existing, and then HE will have a purpose for existing. he’ll flirt, look you up and down no matter who you are. make you feel good about yourself- it always comes from a genuine place of joy, of a hunger to be around other people and make them feel nice around him. he’ll welcome you into his circle; which is more of a web, really, where he draws lines between groups that let him flutter in, the social butterfly. 

he’s sad. he’s hoping for connection. that’s why he lets jake take over so much of his heart, mind, body. he’s spineless and desperate for love and purpose. 

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julian does have high school verses. he’s in theatre AND band, if you can fuckin believe it, and he’s the coolest kid in Both Circles. he’s drums/percussion in band, and whatever he can get on stage, but he also helps out on tech for shows that the younger kids do, plus he’s writing his own scripts and poetry in english classes. tbh idk how american high schools work bc in canada (ontario, at least) we separate them into like. university level, college level, and “fundamental” level classes for each subject so like. whatever it is in america, he’s close to fundamentals. he’s got baaaaaad adhd and he can’t succeed in intense situations like that but he’s definitely made a name for himself around the school. wink.

[jgsd]

he’s an angel. he’s a demon. he’s a hedonist. he has adhd. he’s violent. he’s a delicate soul. he has never laid hands on another human being. he dreams of gutting men in the street. he can tap dance. he eats twice the calories he needs. he’s toxic. he’s a homewrecker. he’s a homemaker. he’s your worst dream. he’s your best nightmare. he’s the sexiest man alive. he paid a bribe to be the sexiest man alive. he did not need to pay a bribe to be the sexiest man alive. he’s a father of five. he’s not the father to an undetermined number of his children. he has a boyfriend. he has a girlfriend. he’s a daddy’s boy. he’s the new incarnation of dionysus. he’s a drummer. he’s a friend. <3 he’s julian gordon sawyer-dean.