jibulee

lowkey a vent account ☆

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I've come to realize that I've been surpressing my emotions a lot more now that I'm older. The thing is, I thought it was just a form of my self-control, how I regulate my emotions. Especially now that I'm working in corporate, have met all sorts of people, and showing emotions (sad, angry, getting too excited) is just not what I considered professional in the working field.

So this whole time I just sorta shove it away, like every time any type of emotions pop out, i just shove them into a "cupboard" where I store all of my emotions until there's no place to store on the emotion shelf again and one day it just bursts out all at once. Which is during my menstrual cycle. Which is why I get super, like SUPER emotional when I'm on my period. Or was it just the hormones?

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Wow I haven't touched this account in like a long time because I've been very busy to even write something. I liked writing, it was a way to relieve my stress since back then. I'm going to start be active again and let this blog be my digital journal :D

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Honestly my motivation

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Facing the Fear of People

Today I learned about facing the fear of being around/facing people. Not the best wording so I apologize in advance as I'm currently tired but I still feel the need to post this to remind myself in the future too.

During the pandemic, I didn't get to socialize a lot with other people and I must admit that I lost the ability to interact comfortably with other people (except my families and a few of my good friends). I became socially anxious and I'm always tense and my heart would literally pound in anxiety whenever I meet new people (e.g coming up to the cashier, asking for help from a stranger, etc.). I'm not afraid but I'm severely anxious whenever I see people around/coming towards me and would get mini panic attacks.

I got an advice from my father; whenever you're anxious around people, think of them as someone like you (just a human). Sure they may appear more confident or perhaps more intimidating but remember that they are just humans like you, they eat, they breathe, and they also poop. They don't eat metals. And tbh that sounds funny but that helps calm my anxiety down at least a little.

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What if I'm all five? 😏

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Something that I think people should realize is that we CANNOT control what other people think about us but we CAN control what image we want to be seen as with the actions that we take.

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Honestly, being around cynical people or people who keeps invalidating your opinion is tiring and energy draining. I still get provoked and I honestly need to learn to let it go 😩

But you know what, there will always be people who want to drag you down in life because they don't want to see you succeed. Those who are against your ideas or opinions, even if you're just simply giving them advice. But you are what you believe you are. If you believe that you are a king/queen/successful/powerful person, you are. Don't let them drag you down because you always slay 💅

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Reading this gave me so much power I-

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📂 JIBULEE'S LIFE LESSONS ARCHIVE

🌱 Life essentials

✦ reflecting on ur day

✦ about people dragging you down

🌱 Quotes

✦ destruction is birth

☆ jubilee's life tips can be found under this tag #jibuleetips on post :D

I hope you found some helpful stuff there!

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✦ When I came home from work, I like to sit down for a bit, usually with my parents during dinner and reflect on my actions.

✦ I review my actions based on whether I should've done this or I shouldn't have done that and it makes me know what actions I must take the next day to become a better person.

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Sometimes when my begin to overthink or have anxiety, I like to listen to subliminals to help me gain my power back and it helps so much ☝️😩