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seo jiwoon | junior | stoner leader

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ksjunyoung:

[ msg → ☢jiji☢ ] theres cops everywhere. they arent gonna just let you walk right on in and risk another student possibly getting hurt [ msg → ☢jiji☢ ] you arent simba dont be a dumbass jiwoon

[ ✉ → junie👶🏻 ] dude i have passageways everywhere around this place, i’ll be able to get in and i AM getting in [ ✉ → junie👶🏻 ] also dont talk to your father that way, i raised you [ ✉ → junie👶🏻 ] rude

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[ ✉ → jaejae ] jaehyun, you’re okay right? [ ✉ → jaejae ] i know i was a dick, but you’re still my brother okay. i need to know that you’re okay [ ✉ → jaejae ] jaehyun. answer. me.

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ksashton:

[ ✉ → woonie ♡ ] don’t come, i’m…

[ ✉ → woonie ♡ ] ill make it out

he sat, chewing his lip, as he read and reread the text from ashton. he didn’t want to lie, but he didn’t necessarily want to tell him the truth either. his guilt was chewing away at him and all he wanted was to be next to ashton at that moment.

while he sat on his hands the next text flashed through his phone. his stomach dropped as he read them.

[ ✉ → my ash~ ] what do you mean a shooting? [ ✉ → my ash~ ] don’t come? ashton, do you fucking know me?

his hands were shaking as he ran out of his sister’s hospital room. what was probably minutes felt like hours as he waited for ashton to text him back. he growled in frustration and dialed the boy’s number.

“ashton? where are you? why weren’t you texting me back?” he took a deep breath, his eyes watering at the thought of loosing another person close to him. “where are you? i’m coming to get you,” he said, his voice hard with determination.

he hailed down a cab as he got to the curb outside the hospital. “keisung academy,” he demanded.

the driver looked at him skeptically through the rearview mirror. “you know that there’s–,” the man started. “yes, i know, so get there quickly,” jiwoon snapped. he didn’t have time for formalities. the only thing on his mind was getting to school as quickly as possible.

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he could see the other man was skeptical of him, but he didn’t have the time to explain how he found out or why he was at the school now.

“i know it’s not safe, and if i didn’t then i know now that you’re fucking bleeding out in front of me,” he snapped. he looked down at the hand gripping his shirt, smearing blood on him. it made him nauseous, knowing that he was gonna be the one to keep the brainiac mostly stable. he took a deep breath. “alright, alright. together, i’m keeping it.” that sounded convincing right? “no, i don’t have a belt. do i look that respectable to you? shirt? the shirt will work, right?”

with what shaky strength he had, he pulled the sleeve off the opposite arm of his wound. it ripped at the seem and he tried his hardest not to jerk the other’s body too much.

jiwoon flicked hyuksoo in the forehead. “you’d better open those damn eyes. i need you to tell me what to do to save your ass,” he said, hoping weakly that the flick might annoy him enough to give him a little spurt of energy.

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ksjunyoung:

[ msg → ☢jiji☢ ] im okay, kinda very high [ msg → ☢jiji☢ ] just dont try getting in [ msg → ☢jiji☢ ] im safe. i havent seen anyone, only heard stuff

[ ✉ → junie👶🏻 ] you don’t need to specify that you’re high, that’s a give-in [ ✉ → junie👶🏻 ] "don’t try getting in”? do you know me??? i’ll be damned if i sit outside and watch everyone get hurt [ ✉ → junie👶🏻 ] as simba once said: i laugh in the face of danger hahAHA [ ✉ → junie👶🏻 ] right before he almost died, but he DIDNT and that’s what i’m going for

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ksashton:

[ ✉ → woonie ♡  ] where are you right now??

he sent another message, hoping that the older male was safe. he wasn’t sure what was going on ashton just knew he needed to get out of the campus grounds and into another hiding place. 

seeing upon when he arrived outside people were scurrying left, and right. he could only image what the main building state was in, but that was his only way to getting off the campus. 

[ ✉ → my ash~ ] things are a bit hectic right now, i’ll tell you when i see you, okay?

jiwoon sighed, scrubbing a hand down his face. he assumed quite a few people at keisung new about what had happened to his sister as he had been gone for nearly a week and he had to tell his whereabouts to someone. if he was at the school he would normally go looking for ashton, but now wasn’t the time. he picked his phone up again at the small ping that went off.

no, i’m at the h, he started to type until the next message came in. his eyebrow raised as he read it. had someone tipped him off that he was in the hospital and was now asking where he was repeatedly like that?

[ ✉ → my ash~ ] i’m not at the school, i’m at the hospital

ashton wasn’t one to be particularly upset by that sort of thing though. he might be a little upset that jiwoon hadn’t told him sooner, but he wouldn’t be petty about it by making jiwoon give up his own location just because he wanted to hear it from him. there was the option that ashton missed him and just wished to see him since he was back now, but even that jiwoon doubted a bit. then there was option number three: he wanted to make sure jiwoon wasn’t at the school and to keep it that way.

[ ✉ → my ash~ ] ashton, is everything okay? what’s going on?

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@ksjunyoung​

[ ✉ → junie👶🏻 ] my son, my favorite child, are you okay? [ ✉ → junie👶🏻 ] i just heard about what’s going on at the school, i’m heading back from the hospital [ ✉ → junie👶🏻 ] are you safe????

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nobody asked but i just applied for the manager position that opened up at my job so wish me luck guys i will be PUMPED if i get this position.. although my activity will be lower but MONEY

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even though everyone he talked to had told jiwoon to stay at the hospital, he had no intention of doing so. his family was at keisung and he wasn’t going to sit back while they were in danger. he had been stopped at the police line outside of the building, along with seeing yongjoon for a moment. he snuck around the side of the building, heading into the woods and walking the path to the dorms that had formed after heading back there so often after classes. he managed to get inside the building before seeing the shooter.

it seemed to be a girl, holding a gun and peeking in each of the rooms. he watched her go into the radio club’s room and prayed no one was in the room. he ran into the room next to it and sat in the corner for a moment before hearing a gunshot go off. his head whipped up and his hands started to get clammy. how many people had gotten hurt. who was in the room? how many places around campus had she already went by. he stood up just as he saw someone literally limp into the room, hand gripping his shoulder and blood seeping through his fingers.

“i came when i heard.. fuck, hyuksoo,” he whispered, making his way over to him and kneeling beside him. “you’re loosing way too much blood, fuckfuckfuck. what do i do, hyuksoo—,” the boys face was getting paler and he was watching the other’s eyes droop, “hyunsoo, you asshole. if you fall asleep, i’m going to kill you if you don’t die all on your on? what do i do? i don’t—.”

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ksxjinsol:

[ ✉️  → weed daddy ] yoooooooo [ ✉️  → weed daddy ] I miss u man B-( [ ✉️  → weed daddy ] it’s ok they think I nag 2 much i think they like u more [ ✉️  → weed daddy ] I gave them some good indica tho so now they’re chill af [ ✉️  → weed daddy ]  how are u tho??

[ ✉️ ⇢ stoner mum ] i miss you too, bro. i promise i’ll be back soon [ ✉️ ⇢ stoner mum ] and, full offense, you do nag too much. that’s why you’re the mum ^^ [ ✉️ ⇢ stoner mum ] that’s good man, everythings the same on my front yknow.. no change

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ksashton:

[ ✉ → woonie ♡  ] are you doing well lately..?

he truly missed ashton. this is technically the longest they’ve gone without seeing each other since they had entered the academy and it was a very surreal feeling to not have the other male with him. another part of him was also glad he wasn’t around for jiyeon’s accident. he shouldn’t have to be burdened with jiwoon’s own problems, and maybe it would give jiwoon time to detach his romantic feelings from the boy.

[ ✉ → my ash~ ] i’ve.. been better [ ✉ → my ash~ ] are you back at school?

he had assumed that the boy should be coming back soon and he might think it was weird that jiwoon wasn’t on campus. he’d have to explain it at some point, but today was not that day. he’d let ashton get settled before breaking that type of news to him.

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[ ✉️ ⇢ stoner mum ] hey, bro [ ✉️ ⇢ stoner mum ] sorry, i’ve been gone for a while.. but how are the kids? are they behaving? @ksxjinsol

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ksjaehyun:

[ sms → chicken monster ] : don’t say things like that. don’t ever ever ever say anything like that again. jiyeon will wake up, it’s just a matter of how soon. like what the fuck dude. I’m confused, I’m still talking to seo jiwoon right? [ sms → chicken monster ] : okay you probably don’t want to hear this from me and I shouldn’t be one to talk considering I’m the king of burying my feelings with liqour but… I don’t think running and getting drunk is what you need right now. I’m here for more than just that jiwoon shit, you know I’m there you need it right? always. 

[ ✉️ ⇢ jaejae ] i have to be fucking realistic, jaehyun. there’s a high possibility that she’s not going to wake up and i can’t sit by her side for months or maybe even YEARS for her to MAYBE wake up. that’s like fucking torture. i wont give myself false hope like that [ ✉️ ⇢ jaejae ] no offence, but youre right. you shouldnt be talking. “im here for more than just that”? really? what did you say when i said that to you? some shit about how you cant do anything about how you feel and its a waste of time to talk about it? does that only get to apply to you or? dont be a fucking hypocrite. you can get drunk with me or not, but regardless i’ll be hanging out with my friend jack daniels and you cant really do anything to stop me

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ksxyongjoon:

[ text - not so best stoner pal ] well i am that stupid, jiwoon. [ text - not so best stoner pal ] so you’re finally noticing that? do me a favour and just keep hating me, it gives me more of a reason to hate everything around me. [ text - not so best stoner pal ] you think i haven’t tried? you think i fucking want to be like this to everyone? [ text - not so best stoner pal ] you know i’m so glad that you’re finally realising all of this shit, because yes, i am a horrible fucking person. i take people for granted. i throw people away. i manipulate the hell out of everyone. and i’ve beaten my fucking boyfriend before and he’s only staying with me because he’s fucking stupid and fucking scared. and yes i will probably do it again because i’m that much of a piece of shit. so keep fucking taking it out on me right now because i don’t care, i know all of this already, and i never asked for any of you to give a shit about me. i never asked for anyone to care. i didn’t ask for any of this crap.  [ text - not so best stoner pal ] i hope your sister wakes up soon, jiwoon. but i’ve heard everything you’ve told me too many times now. so yes i’m a fucking idiot, but when is that going to change?

[ ✉️ ⇢ yongjoon. ] jesus fucking christ, yongjoon. stop being so fucking dramatic [ ✉️ ⇢ yongjoon. ] if you dont want to be like that then fucking. change. it. you make up bullshit excuses to not change yourself and then get pissed at other people for giving a fuck about you but its because we know you can do better if you just put in a LITTLE effort [ ✉️ ⇢ yongjoon. ] also shut the fuck up about woong being “stupid” and “scared”. dont use adjectives that better describe YOU. he is brave as hell for loving you and putting up w your bullshit and sticking around for this long because he LOVES you while youre sitting over here being a fucking coward and not owning up to your own fucking feelings [ ✉️ ⇢ yongjoon. ] youre right, youre not going to change, but ill be damned if you dont fucking TRY, i swear ill knock some sense into you my damn self, yongjoon. youre such a fucking shit head, if you were in front of me i would probably punch you in the fucking jaw. do you really like everyone around you being hurt this much? do you fucking get off on other people’s pain? i wouldnt be surprised if you said yes

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it was jiwoon’s fifth day at the hospital and, if he was honest, he was developing cabin fever. he hadn’t talked to many people—only jaehyun, nari, yongjoon, and junhwan—and he’d only left once to pick up clothes from the dorms. he didn’t have the luxury to leave more then a few hours at a time, a day at most. he was scrolling through his tumblr when he realized he hadn’t talked to ashton since jiyeon’s accident. he opened his texts to ashton and hesitated before typing:

[ ✉ → my ash~ ] hey

he rolled his eyes at himself as he pressed send. that didn’t sound like him at all. ‘hey’?

[ ✉ → my ash~ ] how’s life treating you?