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So Someone please help a girl out, I was reading a jk ff but the page refreshed 😭😭 so can someone help me find it . It was a amnesia ff in which OC wakes up from a coma and doesn’t remember jungkook, her husband ,but jungkook is patient and tries to win her back again atleast that’s what the summary said idk I read 5 lines before the page refreshed 😭🙄😞
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Masterlist
MDNI , a= Angst, s=Smut, f=Fluff
Oneshots:
The Last Train Home (a,s,f)
You and Jin miss the last train home on a rainy night. Forced to spend hours together at a 24/7 diner, old wounds and hidden feelings come to the surface.
After Hours (s,f)
You stayed late to help Chef Jin prep for the weekend brunch. Now it’s just the two of you, the dough between your hands and a heat rising that has nothing to do with the oven.
Series:
Not Yours But Close Enough (a,f,s)
you’ve been best friends since 2012. he was a broke trainee with the weight of six boys on his shoulders. you were a computer science major hiding broken pieces in your sleeves. he never confessed. not when you cried over men who didn’t deserve you. not when he wrote songs about you. he said you didn’t need another man to disappoint you. so he stayed. quietly. as your best friend. for 13 years. you still have no idea. no idea how much he’s loved you and maybe love doesn’t need to be loud to last but maybe… just maybe… it deserves to be heard.
Oneshots:
Curated Desire (100 Followers Special) (s)
Friends Don't Do That! (s)
When a guy ghosts you mid- make out leaving you more needy than sad, you start grinding on the first person that approaches you which leads to oral sex in middle of the club and penetrative on in the bathroom but what happens when you realize that person happened to be your best friend.
Series:
Swept under Surveillance (a)
All Y/N wanted was to protect her friend but one punch, one trial, and she became an ex-con. Now mopping floors at the company she once dreamed of, she stays invisible… until she catches a leaker and says a little too much for a janitor. The incident is buried. Everyone forgets her. Except Jungkook. He’s been hunting traitors. She becomes his hidden asset. Stay quiet, report everything, and he’ll clear her record. She agrees, reluctantly. Because as Jungkook says no one notices the janitor. And that’s exactly what makes her dangerous.
Masterlist
MDNI , a= Angst, s=Smut, f=Fluff
Oneshots:
The Last Train Home (a,s,f)
You and Jin miss the last train home on a rainy night. Forced to spend hours together at a 24/7 diner, old wounds and hidden feelings come to the surface.
After Hours (s,f)
You stayed late to help Chef Jin prep for the weekend brunch. Now it’s just the two of you, the dough between your hands and a heat rising that has nothing to do with the oven.
Series:
Not Yours But Close Enough (a,f,s)
you’ve been best friends since 2012. he was a broke trainee with the weight of six boys on his shoulders. you were a computer science major hiding broken pieces in your sleeves. he never confessed. not when you cried over men who didn’t deserve you. not when he wrote songs about you. he said you didn’t need another man to disappoint you. so he stayed. quietly. as your best friend. for 13 years. you still have no idea. no idea how much he’s loved you and maybe love doesn’t need to be loud to last but maybe… just maybe… it deserves to be heard.
Oneshots:
Curated Desire (100 Followers Special) (s)
Friends Don't Do That! (s)
When a guy ghosts you mid- make out leaving you more needy than sad, you start grinding on the first person that approaches you which leads to oral sex in middle of the club and penetrative on in the bathroom but what happens when you realize that person happened to be your best friend.
Series:
Swept under Surveillance (a)
All Y/N wanted was to protect her friend but one punch, one trial, and she became an ex-con. Now mopping floors at the company she once dreamed of, she stays invisible… until she catches a leaker and says a little too much for a janitor. The incident is buried. Everyone forgets her. Except Jungkook. He’s been hunting traitors. She becomes his hidden asset. Stay quiet, report everything, and he’ll clear her record. She agrees, reluctantly. Because as Jungkook says no one notices the janitor. And that’s exactly what makes her dangerous.
Masterlist
MDNI , a= Angst, s=Smut, f=Fluff
Oneshots:
The Last Train Home (a,s,f)
You and Jin miss the last train home on a rainy night. Forced to spend hours together at a 24/7 diner, old wounds and hidden feelings come to the surface.
After Hours (s,f)
You stayed late to help Chef Jin prep for the weekend brunch. Now it’s just the two of you, the dough between your hands and a heat rising that has nothing to do with the oven.
Series:
Not Yours But Close Enough (a,f,s)
you’ve been best friends since 2012. he was a broke trainee with the weight of six boys on his shoulders. you were a computer science major hiding broken pieces in your sleeves. he never confessed. not when you cried over men who didn’t deserve you. not when he wrote songs about you. he said you didn’t need another man to disappoint you. so he stayed. quietly. as your best friend. for 13 years. you still have no idea. no idea how much he’s loved you and maybe love doesn’t need to be loud to last but maybe… just maybe… it deserves to be heard.
Oneshots:
Curated Desire (100 Followers Special) (s)
Friends Don't Do That! (s)
When a guy ghosts you mid- make out leaving you more needy than sad, you start grinding on the first person that approaches you which leads to oral sex in middle of the club and penetrative on in the bathroom but what happens when you realize that person happened to be your best friend.
Series:
Swept under Surveillance (a,s)
All Y/N wanted was to protect her friend but one punch, one trial, and she became an ex-con. Now mopping floors at the company she once dreamed of, she stays invisible… until she catches a leaker and says a little too much for a janitor. The incident is buried. Everyone forgets her. Except Jungkook. He’s been hunting traitors. She becomes his hidden asset. Stay quiet, report everything, and he’ll clear her record. She agrees, reluctantly. Because as Jungkook says no one notices the janitor. And that’s exactly what makes her dangerous.
The Last Train | KSJ | Extra
Pairing: Kim Seokjin x Female Reader
Genre: Angst, Romance, Drama, Fluff, Slice of Life, Exes to Lovers AU
Word Count: 10k
Summary: You and Jin miss the last train home on a rainy night. Forced to spend hours together at a 24/7 diner, old wounds and hidden feelings come to the surface.
Warnings: NSFW / 18+ ONLY 🔞,Exes to Lovers, Emotional Reunion, Slow Burn, Intimacy, Soft Dom!Jin, Body Worship, Praise, Insecurity, Self-Esteem Themes, Unprotected Sex (refrain irl),Aftercare, Mention of Korean beauty standards (If I forgot something please tell me)
A/N: This is a bonus part for The last train home, consider reading that first. I was not feeling like writing anything new so I added to this one.
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The ride to Jin’s place is quiet.
Not uncomfortable but thick with something unspoken. Outside, the city hums with late-night traffic and neon reflections; inside the car, your hand occasionally brush his. You don’t move away, and neither does he.
He unlocks the door with one hand, the other still holding your bag like it’s sacred. The apartment smells faintly of his cologne and cedarwood that is familiar and grounding. You hadn’t realized how much you missed the scent until you stepped inside it again.
It hasn’t changed much. The same charcoal-gray couch. The same crooked frame he never fixed. A half-read book on the table. It's like time stalled here.
Except it didn’t. Not for either of you.
You shrug off your coat, suddenly aware of how quiet the space is. He gestures toward the couch. “Sit. I’ll get something warm. Tea? Or you still like that weird vanilla-mint mix?”
You give a small laugh. “Still do.”
He passes a small smile before disappearing into the kitchen. You run your hand along the armrest, your fingers catching on the familiar stitching. There’s a blanket neatly folded on the corner. You remember falling asleep under it once, half on him, half on the cushions, when your shared world felt invincible.
Jin returns with two mugs, handing you yours. His fingers brush yours briefly.
“Thanks,” you murmur.
You both sip quietly. He watches you over the rim of his mug like he’s afraid blinking might make you vanish again.
“You still drink it too hot,” he notes.
“And you still make it too sweet.”
"Don't you remember a lot of things for a 2 year breakup." You tease
"I didn't forget, I couldn't"
There’s a pause. You feel it in your chest the question, the invitation. You could ignore it. Let this night end here, half-healed. But your eyes meet his, and something ancient passes between you.
"Do you want to stay?" he asks hesitant, voice softer now, he looks away immediately after asking. His gaze shifts from his lap to the table while his fingers fidget nervously. That pulls a giggle out of you.
You nod, setting the mug down.
Jin stands slowly, then offers his hand not demanding, just open. You take it.
He leads you through the hallway like it’s the first time. It isn’t. But this version of you older, bruised, grown, it is her first time walking back into a space like this, into trust like this.
His bedroom is dim, lit only by the soft, diffused glow of the city lights pouring through the sheer curtains. The skyline flickers in shades of blue, casting gentle shapes across the walls.
He turns to look at you, his gaze soft under the dim light, and gently tucks a loose strand of hair behind your ear.
"You got prettier," he says quietly.
You raise an eyebrow, your voice low. "Are you trying to assure me?"
He doesn’t flinch, doesn’t look away. "No," he murmurs. "Just stating facts."
He gently guides you to sit on the edge of the bed, his touch tender, almost reverent. Then he kneels in front of you, eyes level with yours, and takes both your hands in his, his thumbs slowly tracing circles over your knuckles, like he's memorizing every line and detail.
"Y/N," he begins softly, his voice deep but warm, "whenever I told you that you're pretty, beautiful, sexy, absolutely gorgeous… it was never to assure you. It was to remind you. Remind you in case you forgot, remind you because I see it every day, and I just hoped… maybe one day, you’d start seeing yourself the way I see you."
He pauses, lifting your hands to his lips, pressing a gentle kiss against your fingers.
"And even now," he continues, eyes locked with yours, "I’m not saying this to make you feel better. I’m saying it because it’s the truth. So what if you don’t fit into some narrow, airbrushed version of beauty, those standards aren’t made for someone like you. You’re real. And you’re breathtaking."
His voice gets quieter, like he’s afraid to break the moment.
"I’m so lucky to have you. I deserve you. And you deserve me too, hm?"
He tilts his head just slightly, giving you the softest smile. "So stop wondering why I love you, and just know that I do. Completely."
"Jin it is not you, it was never you. It is just the people who made me doubt, it was just that no one ever saw me past my face but I didn't think u didn't look past it, It was just that maybe it could hinder our love in the future.
His expression falters for just a second, like your words settled heavily in his chest. But he doesn’t let go of your hands in fact, he holds them tighter, as if grounding both of you.
“Y/N…” he says, voice low and steady, “don’t ever think I was blind to your past, or what the world has made you carry. I saw it, I saw you. Not just your face, not just the parts the world picks apart. I saw your silence, your fear, the way you flinched at love like it might break you.”
He swallows, his thumb brushing against your wrist. “But never did I think any of that would hinder us. Not then. Not now. Not ever.”
He leans his forehead gently against your knee, eyes closed for a moment.
“It wasn’t me, I know that. And it kills me that they made you feel this way. That they made you believe love had conditions or that beauty had limits. But I’m here to rewrite all of that with you. I know you walked away because you were unsure but there is nothing to be unsure of.”
He lifts his head again, gaze steady, soft but unshakable. “If ever there’s something standing in the way of our love… it won’t be your face. Or your fears. Or your past.”
He exhales. “Because I didn’t fall in love with just your beauty. I fell for your fire, your flaws, your stubborn heart, your gentleness, your chaos. All of it. And I’m not going anywhere.”
You squeeze his hands gently, grounding yourself in the warmth of his touch before tugging on them just a little.
He doesn’t resist. You guide him up from the floor and make him sit beside you on the edge of the bed, thigh to thigh, shoulders brushing, as if the distance between your bodies was never meant to exist in the first place.
The silence settles around you like a soft blanket, quiet, but full.
He doesn’t say anything right away, he just watches you for a moment longer, eyes soft with something deeper than words. Then, with a tenderness that makes your chest ache, he reaches for your sweater.
He moves slowly, like he’s afraid to startle the moment. His fingers brush your shoulders as he eases the fabric down your arms, careful, unrushed. The sweater pools quietly behind you on the bed.
Then he kneels slightly, reaching for your shoes. His touch is light, almost reverent, as he unfastens them one by one and slips them off.
He doesn’t look up yet, just runs his hand gently along your ankle, like he’s memorizing the shape of you.
“There,” he murmurs, still crouched in front of you, voice barely above a whisper. “You don’t have to carry anything tonight. Not the weight. Not the doubt. Not even your shoes.”
He stays quiet, his hands steady but unhurried as they rise toward your hair. Fingers brushing softly against your scalp, he finds the tie holding it back.
There’s a moment of pause like he’s giving you space, like he’s silently asking, Can I? Like he’s waiting for the smallest flinch, the slightest push.
But you don’t move.
So gently, he begins to undo it, unraveling the strands like they’re something sacred. The elastic slips from your hair, and it falls freely around your shoulders. His fingers linger there, combing through it slowly, reverently as if this is his way of soothing every hurt you never spoke aloud.
His eyes search yours, not with expectation but with quiet understanding. As if he's telling you: You don't owe me anything. But if you stay… I’ll cherish all of you.
You slowly lean in, your nose brushing his, breaths mingling in the sliver of space between you. Your hand finds his cheek, thumb grazing the corner of his mouth as if you’re trying to memorize the moment before it changes everything.
His eyes search yours, wide with something fragile, hope, maybe. Fear, too.
“You know what this means, right?” he asks, voice barely audible, thick with hesitation. “This… us.”
You nod, just slightly, your voice steady but soft. “I know what it means.”
He doesn’t move. He lets you close the space. Because this time, it’s you choosing him.
You close the last inch between you, pressing your lips to his slowly, gently, like you’re speaking in a language only the two of you understand.
He doesn’t rush it. He melts into it.
His hand comes up to cradle your jaw, thumb brushing your cheek with a kind of reverence, like he can’t believe this is real. Your lips move in sync, unhurried, full of everything you hadn’t said until now, every fear, every feeling, every silent I’m ready.
When you finally pull back, just enough to breathe, his eyes are still closed like he’s trying to hold onto the feeling a second longer. Then he opens them, looking at you like you’re the only thing in the world that makes sense.
“You kissed me,” he whispers, smiling like he’s in awe.
“I did,” you whisper back, your voice softer now, steadier. “And I meant it.”
With a breath drawn slow and careful, he leans in, capturing your lips again but this time, there’s more depth to it. More weight. More want. His hand slides along your side, grounding you, and then gently he eases you back onto the bed.
He moves slowly, like every second matters. Like this isn’t about urgency, but about memorizing the feel of you beneath him, your fingers in his hair, your heartbeat thudding against his palm as he rests it over your chest for a moment.
“Still okay?” he whispers against your lips, his voice a quiet anchor in the rising tide of emotion.
Your answer is in the way your eyes meet his, sure, steady, full of trust. He exhales again, like you just gave him permission to breathe deeper. And then he leans in, pressing another kiss to your lips this one slower, surer, like he’s promising not to rush what was always meant to unfold gently between you.
The kiss deepens naturally, breath hitching between you as his hand finds your waist, anchoring you closer. His lips move with more certainty now, no longer just a question, but a need.
Then, slowly, deliberately, he catches your lower lip between his teeth. It’s gentle, almost teasing, but full of intention. A quiet request laced in the way his lips linger there.
You exhale softly against his mouth, your fingers curling in the fabric at his back as you part your lips.
He kisses you deeper, warmer, fuller, like he’s been holding this part of himself back for far too long. His hand slides to cradle the side of your face, thumb brushing over your cheek as your mouths move together in perfect rhythm.
It’s not rushed. It’s not reckless.
The heat between you builds gradually, tenderness layered with something deeper, something that hums just beneath the surface. His hand stays at your waist, grounding you in the moment, while the kiss grows more certain, more consuming.
Without thinking, his knee shifts, sliding between your legs with natural ease as he leans in closer. It’s not deliberate, not rushed but instinctive, part of the gravity pulling you both closer. The press of his body feels protective, not demanding. Like he’s holding you, not taking from you.
Your breath hitches, just slightly, and he stills for a beat, eyes flicking open to search your face.
Your fingers twist into the fabric of his shirt, tugging him down with a kind of urgency that wasn’t there before, like restraint has finally given way to want. Real, aching want.
“Fuck, Jin,” you breathe, voice rough around the edges, raw with need.
His eyes darken the moment the words leave your mouth, and for a second he just looks at you like he’s trying to commit every inch of you to memory. The flush on your cheeks. The way your chest rises and falls. The way you’re holding onto him like you need him.
Then he exhales, shaky, like your voice just undid something in him. “You can’t say that and expect me to stay gentle,” he murmurs, his voice low, wrecked, and impossibly tender all at once.
But even then he’s careful. As he leans in again, his hand moves to cover yours where you’re clutching his shirt. He guides your touch, slowly pulling the fabric over his head and tossing it aside, never breaking eye contact.
“Tell me if you want to stop,” he says, his lips ghosting along your jaw now, his knee still settled between your thighs. “But if you don’t…” His voice dips even lower. “Then I’m yours. All of me.”
His lips leave yours slowly, like he’s reluctant to break the connection even for a moment. But when he does, it’s only to find new places to worship.
He trails soft, open-mouthed kisses across your cheekbone, then down to your jaw. Each one is unhurried, reverent like he’s tasting you, like he’s learning you.
His breath is warm against your skin as his lips find that sensitive spot just beneath your ear. You feel his fingers tighten ever so slightly at your waist when you react, barely a shiver, but he feels it. He knows.
He doesn’t speak. He doesn’t have to. His mouth moves lower, tracing your pulse, then brushing along the curve of your neck, pausing, letting the heat linger there before pressing a firmer kiss. Another. Then another. Slow and deliberate, like he’s making a map of everywhere you feel most alive.
He works his way back up, scattering kisses along your cheek, the bridge of your nose, your eyelids each one soft, grounding, full of quiet affection that contrasts beautifully with the weight of the want between you.
By the time his lips find yours again, you’re already breathless not from urgency, but from the overwhelming tenderness of it all. Like every kiss is his way of saying: I see you. I choose you. And I’m not letting go.
His hands drift to the hem of your top, fingers toying with the fabric.
He tugs your top upward slowly, not in a rush to tear it off, but like he’s unwrapping something sacred. His knuckles graze your sides, sending heat rippling across your skin as he peels it over your head and tosses it aside.
For a second, he just looks at you. His breath catches, gaze roaming from your eyes to your lips, then lower, lingering on the new skin exposed. But there’s no rush in him, just awe.
"God, Y/N…” he breathes, voice rough with restraint and reverence. “You’re… unreal.”
He leans in again, placing a soft kiss right between your collarbones, then another just above your heart as if he’s letting you know this isn’t just about desire. It’s about you.
And with every kiss, every touch, he makes it clearer: He’s not here to take. He’s here to worship.
His lips are still warm against your skin, brushing over your collarbone, when his hands slide around your back, slow, sure, never rushing. His fingers find the clasp of your bra, resting there for a moment.
He lifts his head slightly, eyes meeting yours again, checking, always checking. Not for permission, but for comfort. For trust.
When you don’t pull away when your breath hitches just enough and your fingers curl lightly against his bare shoulder.
His fingers work at the clasp, slow and careful, like he’s unwrapping something delicate. The tension slips free, and he eases the straps down your arms, his touch light as air, never breaking eye contact.
When your bra finally falls away, his breath catches. But he doesn’t pounce. He just looks at you, like you’ve knocked the wind out of him, like he wants to remember the way you look in this exact moment for the rest of his life.
“You’re so—” he starts, then stops, because no word feels big enough.
So instead, he kisses you again. Slower. Deeper.
And his hands slide back up your waist, holding you like you’re something he never thought he’d get to have something he refuses to take for granted.
His hands still at your waist for a moment, eyes roaming over you like he’s seeing something he never thought he deserved. His lips are slightly parted, chest rising and falling with the weight of everything unsaid until now.
“It’s a pity,” he murmurs, voice low and wrecked, “that you don’t know how hot you are.”
You blink, breath caught in your throat, the heat between you crackling at the edges.
He leans in closer, brushing a kiss just under your jaw, then another at the curve of your shoulder. “Seriously, Y/N…” he whispers, lips grazing your skin as he speaks. “You could bring me to my knees with just one look and you still hesitate to believe it.”
He pulls back just enough to look at you again, his expression raw, hungry, but laced with something deeper.
His kiss deepens with something rougher now, your words still echoing in his head, pulling him under, unraveling the last thread of his restraint.
His hand glides up your side, slow but certain, until it finds your breast. He cups it gently at first, like he’s still in awe then his thumb brushes over your skin, and the sound you make in response drives him wild.
He pulls back just slightly, eyes dark and heavy-lidded as they meet yours.
“God,” he breathes, his voice hoarse. “You feel so fucking perfect.”
His eyes never leave yours as he leans in, his hand still cradling your breast with a mix of reverence and want. You feel his breath first—warm and unsteady against your skin—before his lips finally make contact.
He starts with a soft kiss, slow and deliberate, right over your heart. Then another, lower this time. And when his mouth finally reaches your breast, he moves gently at first, lips brushing over the sensitive skin like he’s savoring the taste of you.
His tongue flicks softly, teasing, as his hand supports and shapes you toward his mouth. A low, quiet sound escapes him—half a groan, half awe—like he’s been aching for this, like he needs this.
“You drive me crazy,” he murmurs against your skin, voice rough and quiet. “Every inch of you… I want it all.”
You thread your fingers into his hair, gently tugging until his mouth leaves your skin. His eyes flick up to yours, dazed and breathless but you don’t give him time to speak.
You pull him back to your lips, kissing him with a new kind of urgency, hungry, deep, claiming. He groans into your mouth, his hands tightening on your waist as if trying to ground himself in the heat of you.
Then, slowly, you begin to trail your kisses downward.
Over his jaw. Down his neck. You feel the way his breath catches when your lips brush the hollow of his throat, and you smile against his skin.
You keep going, lips and tongue moving lower, down the curve of his collarbone, across his chest, leaving heat in your wake. You pause just above his heart, pressing a lingering kiss there before lightly nipping at the skin.
His chest rises sharply under your mouth, and a low, guttural sound escapes him.
“Fuck, Y/N…” he rasps, voice wrecked, head tilted back.
And as your mouth continues its descent, tasting every inch like a promise, he looks down at you like you’re both a dream and the fire that’s about to consume him.
His hands find your hips, holding you with a reverence that contrasts the growing hunger in his touch. You feel his lips on your neck again, hot, open-mouthed kisses that make your breath stutter in your chest.
But this time… there's intent behind them.
He sucks gently at the skin just below your jaw, then moves lower, trailing kisses along the curve of your shoulder. You feel the first love bite bloom beneath his lips, just enough pressure to leave a mark, just enough to make you gasp.
“You should see yourself,” he murmurs against your skin, voice low and strained. “Already covered in me.”
He keeps going, leaving a slow trail of love bites down your collarbone, across your chest, each one deliberate, each one claiming. He pauses after every mark, kissing it softly like an apology and a promise all at once.
“This okay?” he whispers between kisses, lips brushing over the fresh warmth of a new mark.
The look in your eyes, half-lidded, lost in him is answer enough. And he groans softly, burying his face against your skin like he’s addicted now, like he never wants to stop.
Each bite says what he hasn’t yet put into words: You’re mine. And I want the world to know it.
The air in the room is cool, the soft hum of the AC barely registering against the sound of your mingled breaths, but neither of you feel it. Not anymore.
Despite the cold, both your bodies are slick with a light sheen of sweat, skin flushed and glowing under the dim light. Every kiss, every gasp, every whispered name has added to the heat curling between you, unrelenting and electric.
His hair clings slightly to his forehead, chest rising and falling against yours in rhythm, like your bodies have synced without meaning to. Your fingers drag down his back, slick with heat and want, as his mouth hovers just above yours, lips swollen, eyes dark.
“You feel that?” he murmurs hoarsely, nudging his forehead against yours. “I could touch you for hours and still not be close enough.”
Your response is a breathless nod, a quiet whimper against his mouth as you pull him down again, the cool sheets doing nothing to tame the fire building between your skin.
It doesn’t matter that the room is chilled. Between you and him, It’s all heat. All tension. And neither of you is even close to done.
His hands find the waistband of your jeans, eyes flicking up to meet yours one last time, checking. When you don’t stop him, when your fingers tighten just slightly around his biceps, urging him on, he leans in to kiss you again, soft and slow, before trailing his hands downward.
He unbuttons them carefully, almost reverently, and begins to slide them down your hips. The denim clings slightly to your heated skin, but he takes his time, inch by inch, like he’s unwrapping something precious, not just undressing you, but adoring you.
When he finally eases them off your legs, letting them fall to the floor, he draws back just enough to take you in.
There you are laid out beneath him in nothing but your underwear, flushed and glowing, lips kiss-bitten and chest rising and falling like you’ve just run a marathon.
“Fuck,” he breathes, his voice low, wrecked. “You’re… unreal.”
He runs his hands slowly up your bare thighs, savoring the way you shiver under his touch. His fingers linger at your hips, his thumbs brushing gently over the edge of your underwear but he doesn’t move further. Not yet.
He wants to take his time. He wants you to feel every second of how much he wants you.
He lowers himself slowly, lips brushing soft, open kisses along your thigh, each one closer than the last, each one more deliberate. The muscles beneath your skin twitch at the contact, anticipation tightening every breath you take.
And then he pauses.
His eyes settle on the damp patch blooming at the center of your underwear, and something in his expression shifts like awe and hunger colliding all at once.
“Look at you,” he murmurs, voice like a low hum against your skin. His fingers gently part your thighs a little more, giving him room to settle between them. “So worked up for me already.”
He presses a kiss to your inner thigh, close, so close then looks up at you, his eyes dark and blazing with something deeper than just lust.
“I haven’t even touched you there yet,” he says with a breathless smile, almost reverent. “And you’re already soaking through.”
Another kiss, this one slower, hotter lands just beside the wet patch, as his hand rests on your hip to hold you steady, like he knows you’re already trembling beneath the weight of his attention.
“I’m gonna take my time with you,” he whispers, voice thick with want. “Because you deserve to be undone slowly.”
Your voice breaks through the haze, low and breathless “Fuck, Jin. Stop being an asshole.”
He freezes for half a second, then laughs, soft and wrecked, his breath hot against your skin.
“Oh?” he murmurs, pressing one more teasing kiss just beside where you want him most. “Is that what I am now?”
You glare at him, your fingers tangling in his hair, tugging just enough to make him groan. “You know what you’re doing.”
He grins, cocky and flushed, eyes full of mischief and want. “Yeah,” he whispers, letting his lips hover just over the soaked fabric. “That’s the fun part.”
His smirk fades, replaced by something deeper, hungrier but still full of reverence. He shifts closer, his hands slow as they hook into the sides of your underwear.
He pulls them down with care, like he’s unwrapping something fragile, something he’s waited a long time to fully see. As the fabric slides down your thighs and past your knees, he keeps his gaze locked on you, eyes dark, lips parted, breath shallow.
And when you’re finally bare before him, he exhales like he’s been holding his breath since the moment this began.
He lets his fingers trail lightly up your inner thigh, ghosting over your slickness, barely there, but enough to make your hips twitch, your breath stutter.
“Fuck,” he whispers, almost to himself, eyes flickering with a mix of awe and heat. “You’re so wet for me.”
Then he leans in.
And with a tenderness that borders on worship, he presses a soft, lingering kiss right where you need him most. Not rushed. Not greedy. Just… his lips on you slow, claiming, reverent.
The kiss is a promise. He’s not here to tease anymore. He’s here to ruin you, gently.
Before he can pull away, your hand shoots down, fingers threading into his hair as you grab his face and hold him there. Your hips roll forward instinctively, grinding against his mouth with a desperate, breathless need that leaves no room for teasing.
A groan vibrates from deep in his throat, muffled against you, and he lets you take control, welcomes it.
His hands immediately grip your thighs, fingers digging in just enough to anchor you as you move against him. He tilts his head just right, lips and tongue working in perfect rhythm with your motions, matching your urgency with his own.
You hear him moan again, this time raw, hungry, completely undone by the way you’re using him. And the sound only makes you press down harder, riding his mouth like it’s the only way to survive the heat surging through your veins.
You look down at him, his flushed cheeks, dark eyes, and the way he wants this, wants you and it sends you spiraling.
Every grind. Every flick of his tongue. Every breathless noise you make. He takes it all......like you’re his favorite sin. And he never once tries to stop you.
Your voice spills out between shaky breaths. Raw, desperate, laced with everything you’re feeling.
“Fuck, Jin… deeper.”
It’s not a request. It’s a plea.
And he hears it.
His grip on your thighs tightens, grounding you as he presses in closer, his mouth claiming you with a hunger that borders on worship. He parts you with his tongue, slow at first but then deeper, firmer, the kind of pressure that makes your back arch and your fingers tangle tighter in his hair.
He groans into you loud, and shameless, driven completely wild by the way you sound, the way you taste, the way you grind against his mouth like you can’t get enough.
“Just like that,” he murmurs against you in a ragged breath, his voice thick with want. “Let me hear you, baby. I want all of it.”
And he dives in again, deeper, messier, perfect like he wants to unravel you from the inside out, like his only goal is to leave you shaking, ruined, and completely his.
As your moans grow sharper, your hips grinding down harder against his mouth, Jin responds instantly, intuitively. His hands tighten around your thighs, holding you steady, and then you feel it, his thumb, sliding up between your folds, slick from your arousal and the heat of his mouth.
He presses it gently against your clit, circling with just enough pressure to make your breath hitch and your body jolt.
“Fuck—Jin,” you gasp, your fingers tugging at his hair, and he groans in response, the sound vibrating through you.
His mouth continues working you with slow, deep strokes of his tongue, but now paired with the rhythmic, focused motion of his thumb, each movement synced perfectly with the way your body trembles beneath him.
“You’re falling apart for me,” he murmurs against you, voice ragged, thumb pressing a little harder, a little faster. “Just like that. Let go, baby.”
And with that combination: his mouth, his thumb, his voice, you feel yourself spiraling fast, the pleasure climbing with every wave, threatening to break you open in the best possible way.
Just when you think you’ve adjusted to the rhythm, his thumb circling you, his mouth worshiping you with steady, devastating precision, you feel the soft scrape of his teeth.
A gasp escapes you.
It’s light, careful, more teasing than rough. He lets them graze against your sensitive skin for just a second, just enough to make your hips jolt and a breathy “fuck” fall from your lips. He pulls back the moment he feels your body tense, not from discomfort, but from how sharply the pleasure spikes.
And then his tongue is back.
Softer now. Slower but deeper, more deliberate. Paired with the steady motion of his thumb, it’s almost too much. Your thighs threaten to close around his head, but his grip keeps you open, anchored, right where he wants you.
“God,” he groans into you, almost drunk on the taste of you. “The way you react… it’s everything.”
His tongue moves again, slick, hot, purposeful drawing you back into the rhythm, until your moans are breathless and your body’s trembling under the weight of how close you are.
And still, he doesn’t let up. Because he wants you to fall apart. And he wants to be the only one who’s ever brought you there like this.
Your body’s already pulsing with heat, every nerve alive under his mouth and the unrelenting press of his thumb. You're teetering on the edge, breathless, shaking, moaning his name like a prayer.
And then you feel it, his finger.
Slowly, carefully, he slips it inside you, the intrusion smooth from how soaked you are. He groans at the feeling, at how your walls tighten instantly around him, like your body’s been aching for more.
“Shit,” he breathes, lifting his head just enough to watch your face, the way you fall apart in real time. “You’re so fucking tight.”
And then he lowers again, his tongue circling your clit while his finger curls inside you, testing, learning, memorizing. He moves slow at first, dragging it along your most sensitive spot with a kind of focus that makes your back arch off the bed.
Your breath breaks into a whimper, hands clutching at the sheets, at his hair, anything.
He smiles against you, adding just the slightest pressure as his tongue and finger move in perfect sync, completely in tune with your body’s desperate rhythm.
“Come on, baby,” he murmurs, voice thick with desire. “Let me feel you fall apart on my fingers.”
And the way he says it ,low, raw, reverent makes your body tremble as the climax builds fast, threatening to crash over you like a wave you can’t stop.
You fall apart with a cry, sharp, broken, his name the only thing your lips can form as your body arches into him. The orgasm rips through you, intense and consuming, your thighs trembling around his head, your hands lost in his hair.
But Jin doesn’t stop.
He holds you through it, mouth still on you, tongue moving in slow, languid strokes like he’s savoring every drop, every aftershock. The room is filled with the slick, obscene sound of him lapping at you, utterly devoted, utterly lost in you.
The way he moans against your overstimulated skin, the way he whispers soft, ruined praise between kisses “So perfect… taste so good… that’s it, baby…” only makes the pleasure stretch, ripple, linger.
Your body twitches under his mouth, sensitive and undone, but he’s gentle now, less greedy, more worshipful. His tongue moves in soft, lazy circles like he’s trying to soothe you from the inside out.
He doesn’t lift his head yet. Not until he’s kissed you through every last tremble.
And when he finally does, his lips are swollen, his eyes blown wide with hunger and awe—and he looks at you like you’re the most breathtaking thing he’s ever seen.
“Still with me?” he breathes, his voice low, wrecked, and laced with the kind of love that never needed words.
You don’t speak because your body answers for you.
Still breathless, still trembling from the high he pulled out of you with nothing but his mouth and his hands, you reach for him. Your fingers curl around his shoulders tugging him up until he’s hovering above you again, swollen lips, eyes burning, chest heaving.
You don’t need words.
Your hands move to his belt, working at it with practiced urgency, the soft clink of the buckle loud in the quiet, heat-thick air between you. His breath stutters, and his hands brace on either side of you, muscles tight, body hovering just barely above yours.
“Y/N…” he breathes, his voice low, like he’s trying to keep it together but you can feel him unraveling, just like you did.
You glance up at him through your lashes, still flushed and raw but full of want, fingers dragging the belt loose with a soft tug. The zipper follows, slow, deliberate.
“You are wrecking me,” he says, eyes locked to yours as he helps you slide his pants down and onto the floor , hips lifting slightly to meet your touch.
And now there’s no teasing. No hesitation. Just heat, want, and the promise of something deeper than either of you dared to say out loud.
You guide him down to you, skin against skin, mouths crashing together like you’ve been starving for it all this time.
His breath hitches as your fingers brush against the waistband of his boxers, your eyes full of quiet urgency.
He shifts up just enough to slide them down, the fabric catching briefly on the heat of him before he kicks them aside. Now he’s fully bared before you, flushed and hard in his hand as he wraps his fingers around himself, giving a few slow, measured pumps, just enough to ease the ache, just enough to watch the way you look at him when he does.
You’re breathless, watching him, his muscles taut, chest rising and falling, the way his hand moves slow, dragging out the moment like he wants it seared into memory. The air between you crackles with tension, heavy and electric.
Then his hand stills.
He leans down, kissing you again, hungry, deep before whispering against your lips, “Tell me you want this. Tell me you're mine again.”
And God, you do. Every aching, breathless part of you.
His forehead presses gently to yours, his lips still swollen from the kiss, breath coming fast and shallow.
“I don’t have protection,” he murmurs, voice rough, but steady like it takes everything in him to say it out loud. His hand stills against your hip, holding you there but not pressing forward, waiting.
The air shifts.
Even in the middle of all this heat, he gives you space, gives you the choice. You can feel how much he wants you, how close he is to losing control, but still… he waits.
“I need to hear you,” he adds softly, his thumb brushing a slow circle into your skin. “Tell me what you want, Y/N. If you want me to stop… I will. If you want this…” His voice falters slightly, then deepens. “I’ll take care of you. Every second of it.”
And for a beat, there’s nothing but the weight of his honesty between you, desire hanging heavy in the air, but grounded in something more: respect. Trust. You.
"Jin......don't care......need you in me."
A soft, wrecked groan escapes his throat as his body tenses, the restraint he’s been clinging to unraveling completely. His eyes darken with something fierce, something tender, and he kisses you like he’s been waiting his whole life to hear you say that.
“You have no idea what that does to me,” he murmurs against your mouth, voice low, trembling, desperate.
He shifts between your thighs, lining himself up, one hand steady on your waist, the other bracing beside your head as he searches your face one last time, still making sure.
And when he sees it in your eyes, how ready you are, how much you need this, he begins to push in, slow and careful, his breath catching hard in his chest as your body welcomes him in inch by inch.
“Fuck… Y/N,” he gasps, jaw clenched, brows drawn in pleasure. “You feel like—like everything.”
The stretch, the heat, the way your body takes him in, it’s overwhelming. And he doesn’t move right away. He just stays there, fully inside you, forehead resting against yours, your breaths tangled together as your bodies finally, finally become one.
There’s no rush now. Just this. You. Him. And the feeling of being completely filled.......completely his.
He’s deep inside you now, fully, completely—and you can feel all of him.
He’s so hard, thick and pulsing as he holds himself still, trying to give you time to adjust, even though every muscle in his body is straining with the effort not to move. His breath is ragged, forehead pressed to yours, eyes clenched shut like he’s fighting for control.
“Shit… you feel so good,” he groans, voice low and wrecked, trembling against your lips. “So fucking tight, baby—wrapped around me like this…”
You shift slightly beneath him and he shudders, letting out another sharp breath, his hands gripping your hips tighter.
“Fuck, Y/N,” he grits out, opening his eyes to look at you, completely undone, completely in awe. “I’m so hard for you it hurts.”
He presses a kiss to your cheek, then your jaw, and whispers “Tell me when you’re ready. Because once I start… I might not be able to stop.”
And God, neither of you want him to.
Your fingers curl around the back of his neck, pulling him closer, your lips brushing against his as you whisper barely breathless, but firm.
“Jin… please move.”
He freezes for a heartbeat, like those words hit him harder than anything else tonight. His jaw clenches, his eyes flutter shut, and you feel him exhale, long, shaky, like he’s barely holding on.
“Fuck,” he breathes, voice raw. “You’re gonna ruin me.”
And then, he moves.
Slowly, at first. Drawing his hips back just enough before sliding in again, deeper, smoother this time. The sound that tears from your throat is soft, but it lights a fire in him.
He picks up a rhythm, steady, deep, intentional. His hand grips your thigh, hitching it up around his waist to pull you even closer, deeper, until your bodies move like they were made for this, for each other.
“You feel…” he groans into your neck, words unraveling as his thrusts grow harder, “so fucking good, baby. So perfect for me.”
And with every thrust, every moan, every whispered plea, you both give in fully, lost in the kind of heat that makes time stop, makes the whole world disappear until all that exists is you and him, skin to skin, heart to heart.
As he drives into you, slow, deep, perfect, your moans grow louder, needier, your nails dragging across his back, your body arching beneath his.
He watches you fall apart with every thrust, chest heaving, lips parted, and it makes him lose what little restraint he still had.
Without breaking rhythm, his hand slides down between your bodies, and then, his thumb.
He finds your clit with practiced precision, circling it with just the right pressure, just the right pace. You gasp sharp, broken and your whole body jolts beneath him.
“That’s it,” he murmurs, breathless and completely wrecked, eyes locked on the way you unravel. “Feel me, baby… I wanna feel you fall apart on me again.”
He keeps moving inside you, hips snapping forward, his thumb working in perfect sync with every thrust, dragging moan after moan from your lips. You’re soaked, tight, throbbing around him and the added pressure sends you spiraling.
Your hands grip his shoulders, your thighs trembling around his waist, and you can feel it building again, hot, fast, inescapable.
“Let go,” he whispers against your lips. “I’m right here. Give it to me.”
You reach up with a trembling urgency, your legs curling around his waist and then higher, hooking over his shoulders as he leans back to adjust, groaning at the new angle.
“Shit,” he gasps, eyes flickering down to where your bodies are joined. “You’re gonna fucking kill me.”
Your new position opens you completely to him, making everything sharper, deeper, intense. His thrusts hit even harder now, his length dragging along every sweet, aching spot inside you with precision that feels unbearably good.
His hands slide beneath your thighs, gripping them firmly as he rocks into you, chest slick with sweat, jaw clenched in focus and pure, wrecked need.
The added pressure of your legs locked around his shoulders sends his thrusts deeper, more desperate, his thumb still pressed to your clit, still moving, still demanding your undoing.
“You feel that?” he groans, eyes dark and wild, watching the way your body arches under his. “Taking me so deep, baby… so fucking perfect for me.”
And all you can do is moan loudly, shamelessly as pleasure tears through you in waves, your body trembling, your breath shattering beneath the weight of him.
You’re so close again, so close you can taste it.
And he knows. Because he’s right there with you.
Your voice breaks through the haze, breathless, raw, wrecked.
“Jin… faster. Deeper. Give me more.”
His entire body tenses at your words, like they set off something primal in him. His eyes meet yours, dark, desperate, almost feral with the need to give you exactly what you’re begging for.
“Fuck, Y/N,” he growls, voice hoarse, barely holding on. “You want more? I’ll give you everything.”
And he does.
His grip tightens on your thighs, his legs anchoring him deeper between yours as your ankles lock tighter behind his shoulders. He slams into you harder now, faster, each thrust sharper, deeper, filling you in a way that leaves you gasping, trembling, aching.
His thumb never leaves your clit, moving in tight, perfect circles that keep you teetering on the edge. Every sound that escapes you, every cry of his name, drives him harder, deeper, until the only thing filling the room is the slick slap of skin, tangled breaths, and your moans echoing off the walls.
“Come on, baby,” he pants, his thrusts relentless. “Fall apart for me again. Let me feel it. Let me have it.”
His is body pressed so tightly to yours it’s hard to tell where he ends and you begin.
“Jin… I’m close,” you gasp, voice shaking, your nails digging into his back as your body starts to tremble beneath him.
The moment the words leave your lips, he groans deep, guttural and his movements grow even more focused, desperate, like your pleasure is the only thing keeping him grounded.
“I feel it,” he breathes, eyes locked on yours, sweat-slicked and completely wrecked. “Don’t hold back, baby. Let it happen, I’ve got you.”
His hips roll deeper, harder, hitting that perfect spot with every thrust. His thumb keeps circling your clit, fast and precise, and the way he’s looking at you like he’s on the edge with you, like he needs to watch you come undone only pushes him closer.
“That’s it… just like that,” he murmurs, kissing you through every whimper. “Come for me. Let me feel you fall apart.”
And you do right there in his arms, with his name falling from your lips like a prayer you never want to stop saying.
Your whole body tightens, every nerve alight, every muscle straining as the wave finally crashes over you.
You cry out his name, loud, shattered, clinging to him like he’s the only solid thing in the world. Your legs tremble around his shoulders, your back arches off the sheets, and you let go completely.
You come hard, a lot, the release overwhelming, your body pulsing around him in deep, uncontrollable waves. You feel yourself grow wetter with every ripple, soaking him, the sheets, everything and he feels it.
“Fuck—Y/N,” Jin groans, voice wrecked, eyes wide as your release coats him. “You’re… so fucking perfect.”
He doesn’t stop. His thumb slows only slightly, just enough to draw every last wave of pleasure from you, his hips rolling deeper but gentler now, like he’s trying to prolong the moment, keep you in that perfect, ruined place just a little longer.
He leans down, pressing soft kisses to your jaw, your cheek, your lips, whispers tangled between them.
“That’s it, baby… I’ve got you.” “You did so good for me.” “So beautiful when you come for me like that.”
You’re breathless, flushed, trembling but in his arms, you feel safe. Held. Completely his.
And he hasn’t even come yet. But he’s watching you like you’re the most incredible thing he’s ever seen Because you are.
Your body is still trembling, oversensitive and glowing, but Jin, he’s far from finished.
He’s still inside you, still rock-hard, still aching. And now, with your release coating him, making every thrust impossibly slick and hot, he loses whatever thread of control he had left.
He groans deep, primal and shifts his grip, pushing your legs back slightly for a deeper angle. His thrusts turn rougher, more desperate, his pace erratic as he chases the high that’s been building since the moment he touched you.
“Fuck, Y/N…” he pants, jaw clenched, sweat dripping from his temple. “You feel so good, so wet—gonna make me come—fuck.”
You can feel how close he is his whole body tensing, his hips snapping forward harder, faster, his breath stuttering every time you clench around him. You meet his eyes and cup his face, whispering between shaky breaths:
“Let go, Jin. I want to feel you.”
He groans like the words physically hit him. One more thrust deep, sharp, perfect and then he falls.
His body shudders, muscles locking up as he buries himself to the hilt, head dropping to your shoulder with a strangled moan. He pulses inside you, hot and thick, his release pouring out in long, breathless waves as you hold him through it.
“Y/N… fuck…” he breathes, voice wrecked, arms shaking as he tries not to collapse fully on top of you.
And then silence, except for your ragged breaths, tangled limbs, and the way his heart thunders against yours.
He stays buried deep inside you, his forehead resting against your shoulder, both of you breathing hard, bodies flushed, drenched in sweat, hearts pounding like war drums.
But even as the aftershocks of his release roll through him, you feel it, he’s still hard.
Still thick. Still wanting.
His breath hitches as you shift slightly beneath him, and he lets out a low, broken sound, half groan, half growl.
“Still so fucking hard for you,” he murmurs, voice raw, voice wrecked, as if he can’t quite believe it either. His hand slides along your side, fingers brushing your thigh. “One time wasn’t enough. I need—” he cuts himself off with a sharp breath, thrusting into you again, slower, but deeper, and you feel it too, the ache building all over again.
Your body trembles around him, still sensitive, still slick with your release and his but that only makes it easier, messier, hotter.
“You’re not done with me yet, are you?” you whisper, teasing, breathless, eyes locking onto his with fire still burning in your chest.
He smiles, lips parted, eyes dark and wild. “Not even close.”
And he begins to move again slow, deliberate, hungry all over again.
His breath catches like your words punched the air right out of his lungs.
You lift your head just slightly, eyes smoldering as you whisper, "Let me ride you."
He stares at you for a beat, chest still heaving, lips parted, hair damp against his forehead. And then he nods slow, stunned, wrecked.
“Fuck yes,” he groans, voice rough, barely holding it together. “Take me—take all of me.”
You crawl up his body, straddling his hips, and he watches every move like he’s watching something sacred unfold. His hands grip your thighs as you position yourself over him, guiding him back to your entrance, still wet, still aching for more.
“You’re sure?” he asks again, voice softer now, like even in all this heat, he still needs to know you want this just as much.
You lean down, kiss him slow, deep, and whisper, "I’ve never been more sure of anything."
And then you sink down onto him.
Both of you moan at the contact, at the stretch, at the depth. He fills you completely, perfectly, and you both freeze for a second, just breathing, just feeling.
His head falls back, a curse escaping his lips as his fingers tighten on your waist.
“Ride me, baby,” he growls, eyes half-lidded and burning. “Show me how good you feel. Make me lose my fucking mind.”
You start to move, rolling your hips, trying to find a steady rhythm but your legs are trembling, still weak from everything he’s already pulled out of you. Your thrusts falter, uneven, more desperate than controlled.
Jin sees it immediately.
His hands slide up to your waist, firm and steady, grounding you as his eyes lock onto yours dark, tender, and absolutely wrecked with need.
“You’re still shaking,” he murmurs, voice low and thick. “Let me help.”
And before you can respond, he starts to move beneath you, slow, deep thrusts from his hips that meet your body perfectly, drawing sharp gasps from your lips every time he fills you again.
You moan his name, your hands braced on his chest as he fucks up into you from below, his grip on your hips keeping you steady, guiding your movements so you’re riding him together, messy, passionate, perfectly in sync.
“Just like that,” he groans, breath ragged. “You’re doing so good, baby. So fucking good.”
You rock with him, each thrust sending sparks through your body, the friction and pressure building all over again. His eyes never leave your face, watching every moan, every stuttered breath, like it’s the only thing that matters.
And when you start to move with him again stronger this time, meeting his rhythm, he lets out a deep, wrecked moan.
“There you go,” he pants. “Ride me, baby. I’ve got you.”
As you regain your rhythm, hips grinding down to meet his thrusts, your moans growing louder, needier, Jin’s hand slides from your waist, trailing between your bodies once again.
You already know what he’s about to do, and your breath catches in anticipation.
“Still so sensitive,” he murmurs, voice wrecked, eyes flickering down to where you’re taking all of him. “But you can take it. I know you can.”
And then his thumb finds your clit again.
The pressure is immediate, just right, firm, focused, circling in time with every deep, upward thrust of his hips. Your body jolts at the contact, the pleasure sharp and overwhelming, pushing you closer to that edge you didn’t think you’d reach again so soon.
You cry out, clutching at his shoulders for balance as the mix of his thumb and the way he’s fucking up into you becomes too much and not enough all at once.
“That’s it,” he groans, his voice strained as he watches you fall apart in real time. “Feel that, baby? You’re so close. I can feel you tightening—fuck.”
Your body starts to tremble again, thighs shaking as his thumb moves in faster, tighter circles, dragging you mercilessly toward your second high.
“Come on,” he whispers through gritted teeth, never slowing down. “Fall apart on me again. I want to feel you come while you’re riding me.”
And you’re right there blazing, trembling, on the verge of breaking all over again
As his thumb works your clit in tight, relentless circles and his hips thrust up into you with deep, desperate rhythm, Jin’s other hand slides up your torso, fingers trailing over your slick skin until they find your breast.
He groans at the feel of you in his hand, warm and soft, and he squeezes gently, thumb brushing over your sensitive nipple in slow, teasing strokes. Your back arches into the touch, a moan ripping from your throat as the sensations become overwhelming, pleasure pouring in from every direction.
Then his mouth finds you.
He leans forward, lips wrapping around your breast, tongue flicking over your nipple before he starts to suck, slow, deep, greedy pulls that send shockwaves straight through your core.
Your hips stutter again, your moans turning breathless, broken. The feeling of his mouth on your chest, his hand still toying, his thumb driving you wild below. It’s too much and yet exactly what you crave.
“Jin—” you cry, your hands flying to his hair, gripping tight as your body begins to shake again. “I—I can’t—”
He groans around your nipple, sucking harder, his voice muffled but wrecked. “Yes you can. You’re so close, baby. Come for me again. I want to feel you lose it on top of me.”
And with every deep thrust, every flick of his tongue, every press of his thumb you feel it crashing toward you again, bigger and harder than before.
Your body locks up, thighs trembling around his hips, breath caught somewhere between a gasp and a cry as the climax slams into you, harder than the last, sharper, and so overwhelming it nearly knocks the wind out of you.
You come a lot.
It rushes through you in waves, unstoppable, rolling through every nerve ending like fire and lightning. Your walls clench around him in pulsing, rhythmic spasms, so wet, so intense it spills down over his thighs, soaking him, the sheets, everything.
“Fuck, Y/N—” Jin growls, his voice wrecked, his hips jerking up into you as he groans at the feeling of you breaking apart on him. “You’re so wet, so fucking tight, you’re driving me insane.”
Your moans are helpless, high and broken, your head thrown back, nails digging into his shoulders as your body trembles violently, completely lost in the rush of it. You can barely breathe, barely think all you know is him: his hands, his mouth, his cock buried so deep inside you it feels like he’s part of your soul.
He holds you close, both arms wrapped around you now, letting you ride out the orgasm as long as your body needs whispering soft, breathless praise into your skin.
“That’s it… I’ve got you. You’re so perfect. Let it all go for me.”
And even as your body starts to come down, twitching with the aftershocks, he’s still rock-hard beneath you because watching you come that hard, that much, has him right on the edge of losing it himself.
As your body trembles and slumps forward still pulsing, still slick, still wrapped tight around him, Jin tightens his grip on your waist. His lips brush your temple, but there’s a different heat in his breath now. Raw, urgent, uncontrolled.
“Fuck, baby,” he growls, voice breaking, “you feel so good, I can’t hold back anymore.”
He plants his feet against the mattress, bending his knees for leverage, and starts to move hard, fast, deep thrusts from below that shake your already sensitive body. You moan helplessly, clinging to his chest, overstimulated but loving it, letting him chase his own high inside you.
His hands are everywhere, one still gripping your hip, the other tangled in your hair, pulling you down so your foreheads press together.
“You’re gonna take it,” he pants. “All of me. Gonna come so deep inside you, fuck just like this.”
Every thrust punches the air from your lungs. He’s relentless now, his body slick against yours, groaning through clenched teeth as your name spills from his lips like a chant. He’s so close you can feel it in the way he twitches inside you, in the way his rhythm grows messier, more desperate.
“Y/N—fuck—I’m gonna come—inside fuck, fuck, fuck”
And with a final, deep, shattering thrust, he lets go.
He moans your name like a prayer as he buries himself to the hilt, releasing in long, hot pulses that fill you up, his entire body locking up beneath yours. You feel him throb inside you, feel the warmth spread as he empties everything into you, his voice breaking, his nails digging into your skin, his heart pounding wildly against your chest.
He collapses back against the mattress, arms still wrapped around you, both of you tangled, soaked, breathless.
And completely wrecked by each other.
The two of you lie tangled together, your bodies still slick with sweat, skin pressed flush against skin. His breath slowly evens out, chest rising and falling in steady rhythms as he stays nestled inside you, softer now, gentle in the aftermath of everything.
His fingers trace lazy patterns along your back, fingertips light as feathers, grounding you both in this quiet, intimate space. The warmth of him fills you completely not just physically, but something deeper, unspoken.
Jin’s head rests on your shoulder, his lips brushing soft, tired kisses there. He murmurs your name quietly, a breathless reminder that you’re still his, still wrapped in each other long after the fire has cooled.
The room feels still, peaceful, but charged with the kind of closeness that only comes when two souls have collided and settled, knowing, unbreakable.
You breathe in sync, hearts beating slow, steady, connected.
And in this perfect silence, there’s only you. Only him. And the quiet, sacred space you share.
After a while, Jin slowly, gently pulls away from you, careful not to disturb the peaceful way your body is curled into his. He presses a soft kiss to your temple before slipping out of bed, his movements quiet, fluid.
You hear the faint sound of the shower in the background, water hitting tile, but sleep tugs heavily at your limbs, wrapping you in warmth and the fading afterglow of everything.
Some time later, he returns.
The air feels a little cooler now, and you stir as the mattress shifts under his weight. His hand finds your back, warm and comforting, fingers brushing away the damp strands of hair from your cheek.
“Hey,” he whispers gently, voice soft like velvet, “wake up, baby.”
You blink sleepily, eyes fluttering open to find him freshly showered, damp hair falling messily over his forehead, a soft towel wrapped low around his waist.
“Come on,” he says, kissing your forehead, “I ran a warm bath for you. Thought you’d want to soak a little while I change the sheets.”
You glance over and see the crumpled, sweat-damp mess of bedding beneath you. You nod sleepily, and he smiles, helping you up with careful hands, always so attentive, always so him.
“Take your time,” he murmurs, leading you toward the bathroom. “I’ll be here when you’re done.”
While the warm water envelops your aching body in the bath he prepared, scented lightly, just enough to soothe without overwhelming. You sink deeper into the comfort, letting your eyes close for a moment, your muscles slowly relaxing under the gentle heat.
Back in the bedroom, Jin moves quietly but efficiently.
He strips the bed of the used, tangled sheets with a little smirk at the memory of how they got that way, then tosses them into the hamper. He replaces them with fresh, soft linen, something light and cool against the skin, perfect for sleep. As he smooths the comforter and fluffs the pillows, he glances toward the bathroom, thinking about you, how you looked curled up in his arms, how you always look even softer when you trust him like that.
Once the bed is ready, he pulls on a pair of loose sweats and a simple white t-shirt, his body still warm and clean from the shower.
The bathroom door opens with a soft creak, and Jin looks up from where he’s sitting on the edge of the freshly made bed.
And then he sees you.
Wearing nothing but his shirt, oversized and draping beautifully over your damp skin, sleeves hanging long past your wrists, the hem barely grazing the tops of your thighs. Your hair is still slightly wet, skin dewy from the bath, and your eyes are soft, sleepy, and a little shy as they meet his.
For a second, he forgets how to breathe.
“Wow,” he says under his breath, standing slowly. “I knew you’d look good in it, but…” He trails off, eyes scanning you with something between reverence and complete awe. “You look better in it than I ever did.”
You smile, a little flustered, tugging at the hem as you step closer. “It smells like you,” you murmur. “I didn’t want to wear anything else.”
He reaches out and pulls you gently into his arms, pressing a kiss to your forehead as his hands settle around your waist, fingertips brushing the soft cotton that clings to your hips.
“I was hoping you’d say that,” he whispers. “You in my shirt… after a night like that… kind of makes me want to never let you take it off.”
You laugh softly into his chest, your body melting into his, warm and clean and wrapped in something more than just fabric, wrapped in him.
He hears the softness in your voice as you murmur, “I’m sleepy,” your head already nestling against his chest, your body sinking into him like it’s the safest place in the world.
Jin smiles gently, brushing his fingers through your damp hair, his touch feather-light and soothing.
“Okay, baby,” he whispers, his voice warm and quiet. “Come on, lie down with me.”
He guides you back onto the freshly made bed, pulling the covers over you with such care it feels like a lullaby. He slips in beside you, tugging you close until you’re curled up against him, his shirt loose around you, your legs tangled with his.
One arm wraps around your waist, his other hand cradling your head as you melt into him, warm and secure.
“Sleep,” he whispers against your forehead, pressing the gentlest kiss there. “I’ll be right here when you wake up.”
And with the steady beat of his heart beneath your ear, the scent of him wrapped around you, and his body holding you like he’s never letting go as you drift off, peaceful, loved, and utterly safe.
As your breathing evens out and your body softens completely in his arms, Jin stays awake, just watching you.
The room is dim and quiet, moonlight spilling gently through the curtains, casting a silvery glow over your face. You look so peaceful, curled into him, wearing his shirt like it was made for you.
He exhales softly, the kind of breath that carries more emotion than words ever could.
With a tenderness only he could give, he leans in and presses the faintest kiss to your forehead. Then another, just above your brow. Then one more light, slow, reverent into your hair.
“You’re so beautiful,” he whispers, even though you can’t hear it.
His fingers trace slow, calming lines down your back as he holds you closer, resting his chin gently atop your head.
“I hope you know how safe you are with me,” he murmurs, voice almost inaudible now, like he’s telling you a secret in your sleep. “How much I love you.”
And even in sleep, you shift just slightly, as if your body somehow heard him.
He smiles to himself, brushes one last kiss to your temple, and closes his eyes, finally letting rest take him, too, still holding you like he’ll never let go. "Love you, YN"
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my all-time favorite thing is when someone likes one story, then I see them follow me, then they suddenly start liking all my other stories or chapters and I swear it makes me sooo giddy every time!!
The Last Train | KSJ | Oneshot
Pairing: Kim Seokjin x Female Reader
Genre: Angst,Romance,Drama,Slice of Life,Exes to Lovers AU
Word Count: 10k
Summary:You and Jin miss the last train home on a rainy night. Forced to spend hours together at a 24/7 diner, old wounds and hidden feelings come to the surface.
Warnings:Insecurity & Low Self-Esteem,Verbal Comments from Others(Implied),Breakup,Emotional Conflict,Self-Doubt,Internalized Negativity,Mild Language
A/N: This one is for my Jin girlies because we barely get any.If you want more jin fics tell me in the comments I am thinking of starting jin series but unsure how well it will do.Anyway a bonus part of this is available on my patreon.Also english is not my first language so please ignore any grammatical errors.
YN's POV
I rushed towards the platform, dragging my heavy bag with me, hoping that the train had not left.
Seeing the train getting ready to departure I fastened my speed wanting to catch but just as my hand reached out the train's door slid close.
Too late.
I stood there for a second, hand still in the air, watching the lights of the train blur past until they disappeared into the tunnel. The wind from its departure blew my coat open, sending a chill up my spine.I let out a quiet sigh and dropped my hand.
Of Course I missed it.I started stamping my feet at the ground, it was not my fault that I was late, actually I was not even late but the exact moment I entered the station, the security decided to detain me for no reason except that they thought I was someone else.
Dragging the heavy bag, I sat on a bench, cursing under my breath. There was no point in checking the schedule board. I already knew, that was the last train.
I could also not go back, i had already returned the keys to the landlady, today was supposed to be my last day here, but guess not.
I glanced up at the big clock overhead. 11:30 pm.
The sound of rain started to build outside the station, light at first, then steadier.I looked toward the glass walls, already fogging over, droplets rolling down like the sky had run out of patience.
I open my phone to message my mom that I won't be there till at least tomorrow.I sigh as I pocket my phone. Well on the bright side at least I don't have to meet my parents now and the generational trauma that comes with it. I look up at the night sky heavily pouring.It takes me back to the reason I was actually here for. My relationship was the only thing that excited me in seoul so after my breakup and my parents constantly pressuring me to start come live with them, I did the only thing I am good at, I ran away.
Told my parents got offered a job in busan, came here, got a job and started living here It makes me the bad guy but does it really? I ruined my relationship and I ran away. More like my looks ruined it and my soul ran away.
I slip out of my trance as I hear someone loudly talking on the phone that he missed the last train. The sound is a little too familiar. How could I ever forget it, the only voice that throughout all the noises told me to not look down on myself, told me that we will be fine, I just need to see myself a little higher and trust him.
I look back to glance at him.
"He still looks the same but what is he doing here?"
I glance at him again but instantly look back as our eyes meet
"shit"I murmur
He’s already walking in my direction, not hurried, just steady like he isn’t surprised to see me here at all. I look down, pretending to scroll through my phone, heart thudding annoyingly loud in my chest. Out of all the people why him?. Why now? I try to ignore him, trying to act casual, but it’s too late, his steps have slowed, and now he’s standing just a few feet away.
“Y/N?”
His voice is exactly the same. Calm, level, the kind of voice that never rises unless he’s laughing or frustrated. I don’t respond immediately,just look up slowly, trying not to let too much show.
"oh, Hi"
I pretend to be surprised as if I wasn't staring at him like a creep minutes ago.
"You're here?In Busan?"
He asks surprised and almost...disappointed, the kind of disappointed that it almost looks like he searched for me.
"Oh, I got a job offer here."
"Oh, did you also miss the train?"He asks sitting beside me, a tad bit too close.
"Yeah,I did"There’s a pause. Not awkward,just quiet.
"Aren't you going home?This was the last train for today."
"I am actually going back to Seoul.I returned to keys back to landlady before coming.Where are you here though?"
"Business Meeting."His response is short and direct.
At this point I just want to go home,wrap myself in my blanket and never imagine to leave Busan. Not even in Seoul yet but still hit with the biggest memory of seoul.....the one I was trying to run away from.
"You're shaking"Jin points out,
"Am I?I guess I am just cold."I watch from the side of my eye as he separates his coat from himself and about to drape it on me when I stand up on purpose because there is nothing worse than a ex boyfriend lending a coat to his ex girlfriend. It always ends in chaos.
I see as seokjin's face falls a little at the rejection.He shifts again, glancing toward the street outside. The rain’s still coming down steadily, the sound of it tapping against the station’s glass panels like a ticking clock.
“There’s a diner across the street,” he says. “Still open, I think. You want to wait there until the rain slows down?”
"I am here just fine"
"I heard your stomach rumble just minutes ago."he jokes.It really did because I am damn hungry.
I hesitate. My instinct is to say no, come up with a reason to avoid the long, complicated space between us. But I’m cold,hungry and tired. And if I’m being honest with myself, part of me is curious. Curious about what he might say. Curious if he’s changed. Curious if he still feel the same after all this time.Because I do.
I glance over at the red neon sign across the road. Warm light spills through the windows. A couple of people are sitting inside, far enough to keep things private, close enough to keep things grounded.
"Okay"I say finally, my voice steady.He nods once, then starts walking without another word. I fall into step beside him, keeping just enough space between us to make it clear this isn’t familiar anymore but not enough to make it look like we’re strangers.
He holds the diner door open when we reach it. I walk in without saying thank you, and he doesn’t wait for one.
Just like before.
Jin's POV
The air inside the diner is warm.It smells faintly of coffee that’s been sitting too long, something fried, and the artificial sweetness of vanilla syrup. The sound of the rain dulls against the windows, now just a quiet background hum.
There are maybe four other people scattered across the booths. a delivery guy hunched over his phone, a middle-aged couple sharing a plate of fries without talking, and a girl with headphones typing on a laptop in the corner. It’s quiet enough that every movement feels louder than it is. I walk a few steps ahead of YN, scanning the space before choosing a booth near the far end, not too close to the windows, not too close to the others.
I slides into one side of the booth and watch her hesitate for a beat before sitting across from me.
I watched her stir her coffee even though she hadn’t added anything to it.
It had been months, long enough for me to memorize the silence she left behind. But not long enough to unlearn the habits I built around her. I still caught myself scanning places for her. Still instinctively slowed down when passing that one bookstore she liked. Still knew how she took her coffee, even though I didn’t know who she’d become without me.
Now here she was, sitting across from me again like no time had passed at all, except everything had.
Her words echoed in my head.
“It isn’t because I stopped loving you. It is because I stopped believing it made sense for YOU to love me.”
I blink out of the flashback, letting go of the memory that had briefly pulled me under. When I look across the table, she’s still seated exactly as before shoulders a little tense, fingers wrapped around a lukewarm coffee mug. That’s all she’s had. One cup. Nothing else.
“You should eat something,” I say, keeping my tone even. “Order freely. Dinner’s on me.”
She glances up at me, one brow arching. “Still going around flexing that CEO money, huh?”
I let out a quiet scoff, leaning back against the booth, arms crossed loosely. “And you’re still going around starving yourself.”
Her smirk fades a little.
“I mean, back then I was pretty convinced you’d starve yourself to death without me reminding you to eat. And now, seeing you again…” I trail off slightly, eyes scanning her face. “You don’t exactly look far from it.”
There’s a beat of silence.
Her grip tightens just slightly on the mug, but she doesn’t fire back this time. The words hang there sharp, but laced with concern I don’t bother hiding.
I add, softer now, “Just order something. Please.”
She doesn’t look at me right away, but her hand reaches for the menu.
She flips the menu open slowly, scanning it like it’s written in another language. Her eyes barely move across the page. It’s obvious she’s not really looking.
I sigh quietly and reach for the other menu. “You know what, never mind. I’ll order for you.”
Her head snaps up. “What?”
“You always take too long anyway,” I say, already skimming the options. “And you end up getting the same two things every time.”
She narrows her eyes at me. “You don’t even know what I like anymore.”
" I can to bet my ass, you’d still go for pancakes even at midnight.”I reply, flipping the menu shut.
She opens her mouth, then closes it again.
“Thought so,” I say, signaling the waitress. “One stack of pancakes. Extra syrup. And eggs on the side, scrambled. She won’t ask for them, but she’ll eat them if they’re there.”
The waitress writes it down without question, looking mildly amused.
Y/N stares at me for a moment. “You’re still annoying, you know that?”
“And you’re still bad at hiding when you’re relieved someone else made the choice.”
She huffs under her breath, but there’s the ghost of a smile pulling at the corner of her mouth.
The waitress walks off with the order slip, leaving the two of us in the quiet bubble of our booth again. Outside, the rain has turned into a faint mist, the wet streetlights blurring softly through the windows.
Y/N leans back in her seat, arms crossed loosely. “You always did this,” she mutters.
“Did what?”
“Act like you know me better than I know myself.”
I tilt my head slightly. “Did I ever turn out to be wrong?”
She doesn’t answer. Just shifts her gaze toward the window and shrugs like she doesn’t want to admit it.
A minute passes. Maybe two.
She hasn’t said anything, just keeps tracing slow circles along the side of her mug. Her coffee’s gone cold, but she doesn’t seem to notice.
“I looked for you,” I say quietly, the words slipping out like I’ve been holding them for too long.
She looks up, brows slightly drawn. Not defensive — just startled.
“After you ended things,” I continue. “I didn’t just... move on.”
She says nothing, so I keep going.
“I went to your apartment a few days after. You weren’t there. Your number was off. You didn’t post anything. It was like you vanished.”
Her lips press together, but she still doesn’t interrupt.
“I even asked your parents.”
Her eyes widen slightly. That catches her off guard.
“I knew you weren’t exactly on good terms with them,” I add. “But I was desperate. I nearly begged them just to tell me where you were. I wasn’t trying to win you back or make a scene. I just—”
I pause.
“I just wanted to talk to you. One last time. Properly.”
She finally speaks, voice lower than before. “You talked to my parents?”
I nod. “They told me to leave it alone. Said you didn’t want to be found. That if I cared about you, I’d respect that.”
Y/N looks away again, jaw clenching like she’s trying not to react too much. A tiny flash of guilt crosses her face, but it fades quickly.
“I didn’t ask them to say that,” she says after a moment.
“I figured.”
I lean forward a little, elbows resting on the edge of the table.“I just needed to tell you that I looked,” I say. “Even if it didn’t matter anymore.”
We sit there, the silence between us no longer stiff, but still full of everything we haven’t said. I don’t push it. I let the moment hang there, not needing to fill it.
The clatter of plates approaching interrupts us before either of us can speak again. The waitress reappears with a practiced smile and a stack of warm dishes in her arms.
“Here we go,” she says, sliding the plate in front of Y/N first. “Pancakes, syrup on the side, and scrambled eggs.”
She places a smaller plate in front of me, something I picked quickly without thinking. I don’t even remember what I ordered.
“Let me know if you need anything else,” she adds before walking off again, her gum popping faintly as she disappears behind the counter.
The table fills with the scent of warm butter and sugar. The steam rising from the food curls in the space between us. Y/N stares at her plate like it caught her off guard.
“You even remembered the eggs,” she mutters.
“I told you,” I reply, reaching for my fork. “You don’t ask for them, but you always eat them.”
She doesn’t argue this time. Just cuts into the pancakes and slowly brings a bite to her mouth.
I glance at her as she chews. She swallows like it’s the first real food she’s had all day.
She takes another bite.
Then another.
For a few minutes, we just eat. No words. No questions. Just the soft clink of cutlery and the low hum of the diner around us. It feels... normal.
Or something close to it.
She takes another sip of her coffee. I watch her carefully the way her eyes drop to the mug, the way she exhales like she’s almost ready to let her shoulders relax.
I set my fork down and ask, casually but not without weight, “How have you been in Busan?”
She glances up, surprised. Maybe at the question, maybe at the fact that I asked it so simply.
A pause.
Then she shifts slightly in her seat. “Fine,It’s… quieter than Seoul,” she says. “But also lonelier.”
I nod. “It can be.”
“There’s less noise, which I thought I’d like. It was peaceful to be honest.”
I lean back a little, just watching her as she speaks. Her voice isn’t bitter. Just honest. Flat in the way people sound when they’ve already talked themselves out of the emotions behind the words.
“I worked odd jobs for a bit,” she continues. “Did some freelance writing. Helped a friend's design studio for a while mostly admin. Nothing important.”
“It doesn’t have to be important to count,” I say.
She smiles faintly. “Still annoyingly good at saying things like that.I wanted to find an HR job.”
I return the smile, just a little. “You told me you came here because you got offered a job.”
She takes another small bite of her food, chews, swallows. “I lied ok. I thought starting over somewhere else would fix everything,” she admits. “Or at least give me space to figure things out.”
“And did it?”
She shrugs. “It gave me a mirror. I thought getting away from Seoul, from everything... would help me stop hearing those voices. But I brought them with me.”
She lets out a quiet sigh, tracing circles on the side of her mug.
After a moment, she looks up and asks softly, “How has your company been? What kind of meeting brought you to Busan?”
I blink, caught a little off guard by the question but grateful for the shift.
“It’s been steady,” I say, keeping my tone even. “We’ve had some challenges, but things are stabilizing.”
“I was here for a client meeting,” I continue. “A big project opportunity. It was supposed to be a quick trip.”
She nods slowly, biting her lip like she’s still trying to process it.
“And you didn’t know I was here?” she asks.
“No,” I admit. “I didn’t.”
She stares out the window for a moment, then back at me.
“Funny how things work out.”
I give a small, tired smile.
I watch her carefully, then ask gently, “So… were you going back tonight?”
"yeah I missed Seoul. I don't wanna live her anymore."
"hmmm"
"Aren't you going back to your hotel."
"Checked out. Well, I guess we’re stuck here for a while.”
She shrugs, folding her hands on the table. “Could be worse.”
The rain outside has slowed to a gentle drizzle. The diner’s warmth wraps around us like a small refuge from everything outside.
We settle into quiet conversation, the hours stretching gently ahead, like two people learning to share space again.
YN's POV
The diner had started to quiet down, the hum of late-night traffic replaced by the occasional hiss of tires on wet pavement.Our plates were mostly empty, mugs half full with lukewarm coffee neither us had touched in a while.
That’s when the door swings open again, letting in a gust of damp air and two girls, maybe college-aged, giggling as they enter. They scan the room briefly before walking past their booth.
They're loud, not yelling, just… not trying to be discreet either.
“Oh my god, he’s so handsome,” one of them says, a little too loudly.
“Right? But he has a girl with him,” the other adds, slowing just slightly as they pass behind me.
Then the dagger hits.
“There’s no way someone that handsome is dating that uggo. Must be like .... his sister or something.” “Or, like, his assistant. No way that’s his girlfriend.”
I feel Jin's gaze harden like he is control himself from saying something.
They snicker as they move past us, settling into a booth on the other side of the diner like they didn’t just lob a grenade across our table.
I sigh as I start gathering my things,"Thanks for the meal"
"You're leaving?"
"It's morning already, I need to wait at the station so I don't miss the next train."
"YN, it is 4 in the morning the train will not come till 7. you'll freeze."he says exasperated.
I ignore the concern. It is easier that way.
I get up from the table then bend down with a fake smile."Nice meeting you Seokjin" I take his name on purpose so he gets reminded that we are not exactly on the terms for me to call him jin. And I walk away.
Author's pov
Jin doesn’t say anything at first. His jaw ticks slightly, and then he stands, steady, calm, but with that barely there fire simmering behind his eyes.
He walks over to the girls’ booth, his expression unreadable, every step deliberate.
"Excuse me," he says, voice low and even.
One of the girls, clearly not expecting him to approach, straightens up instantly. "Oh! H-hi..." she says, flashing a nervous smile, suddenly trying to look charming.
Jin doesn’t flinch. Doesn’t smile. Doesn’t soften. He simply looks her dead in the eye.
"That woman who was sitting with me? She’s my girlfriend." His voice cuts clean through the air, sharp and direct.
The girls blink, stunned, their smug expressions dissolving in real time.
"And personally," he continues, tone unwavering, "I think she’s prettier than both of you combined".
He doesn't wait for their reply and doesn’t give them the dignity of a shocked gasp or a flustered excuse.
He turns and leaves, just as sharp, just as sure, pushing the door open as the bell above it jangles in protest.
He watches you, the outline of your figure getting smaller as you walk briskly through the misty air toward the station. Your coat flutters slightly in the wind, your shoulders squared, your steps quick like you're running from something or someone.
Jin doesn’t waste another second.
"Y/N!" he calls out once.
You don’t stop. Maybe you didn’t hear him. Maybe you did and just chose to pretend you didn't.
He quickens his pace, jogging to catch up.
You’re nearly at the station steps when you feel it, his hand wrapping gently around your arm. Not rough. Not demanding. Just… steady. Like he's trying to anchor you.
You freeze.
Slowly, you turn toward him, face blank, your expression tired and unreadable.
“What now, Seokjin?” you ask, not with anger... just exhaustion.
He doesn’t let go. His grip is gentle, fingers warm even in the cold air.
“Don’t do this,” he says quietly. “Don’t shut me out like that again. Not like this.”
You look down, blinking hard.
“We had dinner. We talked. That’s more closure than most people get.”
“I’m not asking for closure,” he says, taking a step closer. “I never was.”
Your breath catches, but you say nothing.
“You think I didn’t notice what those girls said?” he continues, voice calm but firm. “You think I didn’t see what it did to you?”
You wrap your arms around yourself, fingers digging into the sleeves of your coat. “They were right.” Your voice is a whisper, heavy. “You don’t have to defend me. I’ve heard it all before.”
“But I’ll keep saying it,” Jin replies. “They were wrong.”
You glance up at him, and for a moment, you forget how to breathe. His eyes are steady, unflinching, full of the same warmth you used to find shelter in.
“You keep trying to fix the cracks like they’re temporary,” you say, struggling to keep your voice even. “But I live with them. I am them.” You say almost riled.
He shakes his head slowly. “No. You’re more than that. You always were.”
His words settle into the space between you, and it’s so quiet you can hear the distant hum of the early train announcements echoing from the platform.
“You didn’t have to come after me,” you murmur, not meeting his gaze.
You look at him, finally really look at him. The same face, the same steady eyes, the same voice that once felt like home. And it hurts. Because it still feels like home.
But it shouldn’t.
Your voice comes out quieter than you expect, but sharp around the edges. "Jin… you’re not my boyfriend anymore. Stop caring."
There’s a flicker in his expression. Not shock he was probably expecting you to push back but it still hits him. The way his jaw tightens, the way his eyes shift ever so slightly, like he's absorbing the weight of every word.
He takes a breath.
"I know I’m not," he says evenly. "But I don’t think love just turns off when someone walks away."
You flinch slightly. He saw it.
"You asked me once why I stayed," he continues, voice lower now, like he’s talking just to you even though there’s no one else around. "And I told you I stayed because I loved you. Not because you were perfect. Not because other people approved. I stayed because you were you."
"And I left because I couldn’t be that person anymore. Not for you. Not even for myself."
The silence between you is heavy.
Jin doesn’t move closer this time. He stays right where he is, eyes steady, hands at his sides.
"I get that," he says softly. "But just because you walked away doesn’t mean I stopped hoping you’d find your way back to yourself."
You blink, fast.
And then, just as quietly, he adds, "I don’t care if I’m not your boyfriend. I’ll still worry when you haven’t eaten. I’ll still get pissed when people talk about you like they did tonight. And I’ll still show up even when you don’t ask me to."
Your throat tightens. You hate how much you want to believe him. How much a part of you never stopped wishing someone would care like that and mean it.
"You shouldn’t wait around for someone who broke your heart."
He gives a faint smile. Not the teasing kind. The tired kind, the kind people give when they’ve already made peace with their decision.
"Too late," he says.
Your fingers curl tighter around the strap of your bag, nails digging into the fabric like it’s the only thing holding you up.
You let out a breath that’s more frustration than air and look at him really look at him and this time there’s no softness left in your voice.
"Are you really here to tell me all the shit we argued about all the time?"
The words hang there, blunt and bare. No sugarcoating. No careful distance.
Jin blinks, not because he’s surprised, but because he’s letting them sink in.
You don’t stop.
"You know what we were like. You know how much we fought. About everything. About how I saw myself. About how you saw me. About how I couldn’t believe you weren’t lying when you said I was enough."
You pause, breath catching.
"And now here you are, acting like we can just talk it all out over pancakes in a booth like nothing happened. Like it didn’t break me to walk away."
For a second, you expect him to defend himself. To say it wasn’t like that. To pull out some polished line about love being messy and real.
But he doesn’t.
He looks at you, really looks at you and then nods, slow and deliberate.
"Yeah," he says finally. "We did argue. A lot."
You raise your brows, surprised at the honesty.
"And I hated every second of it," he continues. "Because every time we fought, it felt like I was losing pieces of you. But I never hated you. I never resented you for feeling what you felt."
He steps forward, just once, voice calm but firm.
"I’m not here to relive it all. I’m here because despite everything, I never stopped thinking you were worth fighting for. Even when you weren’t ready to fight for yourself."
The street is quiet. The mist has turned into a cold drizzle again, soft but persistent. You can hear your heartbeat louder than anything else.
"But I’m not trying to rewrite what happened," he adds. "I’m just trying to show you that it didn’t scare me away."
You look away before your voice cracks. "Well, it scared me."
You jerk your arm away from his touch like it burned. The distance between you widens again, not in steps, but in something heavier.
Your voice shakes, but you don’t let it crack. Not now.
"Let’s go back to the way our lives were without each other, Jin," you say, eyes locked on his. "Because yours was much more peaceful without me."
He opens his mouth to protest, but you don’t give him the chance.
"Without people judging you for your choice. Whispering behind your back. Saying you were too good for me, that someone like you shouldn’t be with someone like me."
You laugh bitterly, but it doesn’t sound like you find anything funny. "Maybe they were right. Because I started believing them. And I know it’s not fair to put that on you, but I lived with it. Every day."
Your chest rises and falls with every word you’ve held in for far too long. The rain taps steadily around you, matching the rhythm of everything you’re trying to keep contained.
Jin doesn’t move. Doesn’t speak.
You take a breath, shaky but determined.
"You don’t deserve someone who needs convincing that she’s worthy of being loved. You deserve ease. Joy. Peace."
You motion back toward the diner with a tilt of your head. "Not moments like this at 4 in the morning outside a train station with a girl who’s been running from her own reflection."
You look away, blinking up at the flickering lights above the platform.
"So let’s just… stop pretending we didn’t already end."
Your throat feels tight, like every word scraped its way out.
You don’t wait for him to respond this time. You can’t. Because if he says something soft, something honest you’re afraid it’ll undo everything you just built to walk away again.
You turn.
Your boots hit the pavement with heavy, certain steps. The platform’s in sight again, cold metal benches under buzzing lights, the sky just beginning to lighten with a dull gray. The train won’t come for hours, but it doesn’t matter. You need the distance.
From him.
From this.
From the part of you that still, stupidly, wants to believe what he said.
You hear his footsteps behind you light, cautious.
And something in you snaps.
You stop suddenly and whirl around.
"Don’t follow me."
Your voice is sharp. Not loud, but it cuts through the silence like glass breaking on tile.
Jin freezes.
You meet his eyes , really meet them and this time, it’s not pain or anger that shines through yours. It’s exhaustion. It’s finality.
You turn again, slowly, and this time, he stays behind.
You sit on the far end of the bench, the metal biting through your coat, cold seeping through the fabric like it belongs there. You pull your knees in slightly and wrap your arms around yourself, trying to get warm.
Jin sits at the opposite end, not too far, not too close but the space between you feels like a canyon. The kind you don’t cross unless someone builds a bridge, and right now… no one’s in the mood to build anything.
The silence stretches, long and unbroken, filled only by the low hum of the station lights and the distant echo of a vending machine wheezing back to life after a coin drop. Neither of you moves. Neither of you speaks.
You don’t even need to look at him to feel his presence it’s thick and familiar, like a coat you used to wear every day but haven’t touched in months. You hate that it still fits.
The rain has slowed to a fine mist now, coating the glass walls of the station in fog and condensation. Tiny droplets trickle down like slow-moving tears, and for some reason, you watch them instead of blinking.
There’s something comforting about focusing on anything but him. The way the overhead fluorescent light flickers. The occasional static announcement over the loudspeaker that no one is around to hear. The scratch of your sleeve against your skin as you adjust it again and again just for something to do.
You can feel your heartbeat not racing, not calm. Just… there. Reminding you that this is real. That he’s really here. That you're really sitting beside someone who once knew how to calm every storm in your chest and who now sits quietly, like he's not sure if he's still allowed to.
Part of you wants him to say something. Anything. Part of you dreads it.
You glance at him once, from the corner of your eye. He’s leaning forward slightly, elbows on his knees, hands clasped together. His eyes are on the tracks unmoving, unreadable. His brow furrows just slightly, like he’s deep in thought or trying not to be.
He looks like someone who’s carrying something heavy and pretending it doesn’t hurt.
You look away before he can sense your stare.
The cold creeps in deeper. Your stomach knots with that quiet ache that always shows up after a confrontation, when the adrenaline fades and you’re left with the debris.
At one point, he shifts, just barely. The bench creaks. You think he’s about to say something, maybe even your name, but he doesn’t. He just sighs, slow and quiet.
The train isn’t due for another two hours. You already checked. You both know it.
Still, neither of you leaves.
It’s strange, sitting in silence with someone who used to fill your world with noise. Not the loud kind, the kind that mattered. The kind that made mornings softer and nights feel safe. The kind of presence you didn’t even realize you'd built a rhythm around until it was gone.
You feel that rhythm still, echoing in this stillness.
You catch yourself remembering the way his hand used to find yours without asking. The way he used to touch your wrist in passing, casually, gently, as if to say “I’m here.” You remember the way you’d lean into him without thinking during long waits like this one, and the way your legs used to tangle beneath cafe tables without either of you noticing until someone pointed it out.
Now your legs are tucked away from his. Your arms are folded tight against your chest. And there’s a distance between you that feels like a decision.
Still, he hasn’t left.
And neither have you.
Time passes slowly, like the station itself is holding its breath.
You glance at the clock. 6:02 a.m.
Another hour.
You shift your weight, your back aching from sitting so long in one position. He notices you can feel it. But he doesn’t speak. Neither do you. The silence isn’t aggressive. It isn’t even awkward. It’s just… full. Of everything that’s been unsaid for months.
A pigeon flutters overhead, rustling somewhere near the ceiling beams. It draws your attention for a moment, and for some reason, that’s the moment your breath stutters.
Because there’s something heartbreakingly ordinary about sitting on a bench at 6 a.m. next to the person you once imagined a forever with and now, you can’t even bring yourself to meet his eyes.
You don’t know what hurts more the silence, or how easy it is to fall back into it with him.
And then, without warning, the tears start to fall.
Not in a flood or with any grand gesture, no loud sobs or desperate gasps for air but slow, quiet, almost shy. Like raindrops inching their way down a fogged-up windowpane on a cold morning. They slide gently down your cheeks, tracing paths you forgot were there.
You try to stop them. You brush them away. But, they just fall, one by one, as if releasing a tiny fragment of the weight you’ve been carrying for far too long.
You stare down at your hands resting limply in your lap, trembling just enough to remind you that you’re still here, still holding on, still breathing, still human.
The tears don’t come from some sudden heartbreak; they come from the slow unraveling of months, maybe years, of quiet pain that finally found a way out. The loneliness of walking away from something you loved but couldn’t save. The exhaustion of fighting a war inside your own mind, one where you were both the soldier and the enemy.
Each tear is a word left unsaid, a memory tucked away, a hurt you tried to bury deep.
You remember the nights you spent staring at the ceiling, replaying every argument, every moment you wished could have been different. The mornings when you didn’t recognize your reflection, the days when the mirror whispered cruel lies, and the nights when the silence screamed louder than any voice.
And now, here you are sitting on a cold metal bench in an empty train station at dawn, with the one person who once told you you were enough, and yet somehow, it still doesn’t feel that way.
Jin shifts beside you, just slightly careful, like he’s afraid one wrong move might shatter the fragile peace between you. His gaze flickers toward your face, catching the faint glisten of tears in the dim morning light, but he doesn’t say a word. He doesn’t reach out to touch you, doesn’t offer empty comfort or words you’re not ready to hear.
He waits.
Sometimes, you realize, waiting is the kindest thing someone can do.
You take a shaky breath, the cold air filling your lungs mixed with a faint trace of his scent that subtle, clean cologne you remember so well. It used to be comforting. Now it’s bittersweet, like a song stuck on repeat in the back of your mind.
The tears continue to fall, each one a tiny surrender, a small act of bravery. Because it takes courage to let yourself feel when you’ve spent so long hiding.
You blink, and the world feels so hard somehow with the harsh edges of regret and anger .
The distant rumble of the train grows louder, breaking through the quiet like a steady heartbeat returning to life. It’s a reminder that time moves forward, even when you don’t want it to.
You look up, your eyes red-rimmed and raw.
But sitting there beside you in the silence, in the waiting, in the tears is someone who hasn’t left. Someone who, despite everything, is still there.
You pull your coat tighter around yourself, refusing to meet Jin’s eyes. The silence between you is thick, uncomfortable not the quiet peace of mutual understanding, but the heavy weight of two people who’ve built walls they’re not ready to tear down.
The train pulls into the station with a screech of metal, doors sliding open with a hiss. Warm light spills onto the platform, and a few early commuters step off, unaware of the storm sitting quietly on this bench.
You stand, stiff and reluctant, your hands clenched in the pockets of your coat.
Jin rises too, standing close but not close enough to bridge the gap you’ve created.
You don’t look at him. You don’t smile. You don’t reach out.
You just step forward, the cold biting your cheeks as you move toward the open doors.
The train waits just long enough for you to board, and as the doors slide shut behind you, you glance back only once.
Jin also boards expression unreadable, the space between you both vast and unyielding.
You don’t know what the future holds. You only know that for now, this distance feels necessary.
And that some journeys must begin alone.
Your eyes sweep the cabin quickly. Most seats are taken, heads bowed over phones or lost in sleep. You don’t want to sit near anyone you know. Not tonight. Not after everything.
Then you spot a lone empty seat next to a middle-aged man. He’s dressed simply a plain shirt, slightly wrinkled pants and looks absorbed in his phone, fingers scrolling absently. His presence seems safe enough.
Without hesitation, you slip into the seat beside him, your body tense but relieved. You fix your gaze on the window, watching the city lights smear into long streaks as the train begins to move.
You tell yourself: anything but sitting near Jin.
But you don’t notice the man beside you shifting subtly, adjusting his position just enough to angle his phone downward too low, too close.
You don’t realize what he’s doing at first. The camera angle is hidden, the screen shielded from your view.
A faint click.
You’re focused on the window, lost in your thoughts and the blur of lights.
Another click.
The knot in your stomach tightens, but you tell yourself it’s nothing, that it couldn’t be.
But when you finally glance sideways catching the corner of his phone peeking under the edge of your skirt a cold spike of panic shoots through you.
His eyes flicker up briefly, meeting yours just for a moment before dropping back to his screen, calm, unreadable.
Your breath hitches. Your heart pounds.
You want to move, to speak, to scream but your limbs freeze, trapped by shock and disbelief.
You clutch your bag tightly, trying to cover yourself as much as you can without drawing attention.
The train hums forward, the rhythmic clatter of wheels against tracks filling the heavy silence between your racing thoughts.
Around you, the world keeps turning unaware, uncaring.
You bite your lip, forcing your breathing to slow, trying to think clearly.
Who do you tell? What do you do? The man beside you pretends nothing is wrong, scrolling lazily like a predator in plain sight.
You shift again, pulling your coat lower, trying to shield yourself.
You remind yourself to stay calm, to protect yourself, to be strong.
Jin’s eyes flicker toward you, scanning your face and posture with a sharpness that hadn’t been there earlier. He notices the subtle tension in your shoulders, the way your hands clutch your bag tighter than necessary, and most of all the quick, almost imperceptible sideways glances you keep throwing toward the man beside you.
His gaze sharpens as he follows your line of sight, catching the slight angle of the man’s phone under the edge of your skirt.
His jaw tightens.
Jin slides out of his seat and moves quietly to stand beside you
"Hey, you get up"The man’s eyes flicker up at Jin, a flicker of hesitation flashing across his face before he quickly masks it with indifference and get up.
You glance up to see jin taking the man's phone as the security suddenly comes in. The phone is given to the security and the man is escorted out at the next station.
Sliding into the seat beside you, Jin glances towards you.
"If I was still your boyfriend I would've handled him with more than just that"You feel him lean in, his presence pressing in like an unspoken promise and a challenge all at once.
The train glides smoothly along the tracks, its steady rhythm a quiet heartbeat in the night. Outside the window, the darkness begins to break apart, giving way to the faint outlines of Seoul’s sprawling skyline. Small clusters of lights flicker like distant stars, the city slowly waking up from its slumber.
You watch as familiar buildings come into view some towering high with their sleek glass facades, others smaller and worn, bearing the marks of time and countless stories. The streets below are quiet now, only a few cars threading their way through the empty roads, their headlights casting soft pools of light.
Inside the train, the atmosphere feels suspended between movement and stillness. Jin remains seated beside you, his presence solid but not intrusive. Neither of you speak. The silence isn’t uncomfortable; it’s simply the space between two people who once knew each other well but now occupy a place somewhere in between familiarity and distance.
You steal a glance at him his face calm, eyes distant as they gaze out the window. There’s no bitterness, no anger, only a quiet reserve. His jaw is set, and for a moment you wonder what he’s thinking. Does he feel the same weight you do? Or is this just another night, another train ride that neither of you wanted but had to endure?
The soft murmur of other passengers stirs around you. A few shift in their seats, some gather their bags, and low conversations blend with the rustle of coats and the tapping of fingers on phone screens. The hum of the train and the collective sounds create a muted backdrop, contrasting with the stillness between you and Jin.
You return your gaze to the window, watching the city edge draw closer. Neon signs begin to blink on, restaurants opening their doors for the morning rush, convenience stores lighting up with familiar logos, and street lamps illuminating sidewalks slick with rain from earlier.
Then, unexpectedly, you feel him resting his head on your shoulder. It’s light, tentative, as if he’s testing the waters of closeness you both left behind. The weight of him there is surprising, grounding and unsettling all at once.
But you don’t move away. Instead, you let the quiet settle between you, the silence filling with something unspoken but understood. The city outside blurs past, but here, in this small space, time feels suspended.
The train begins to slow, the brakes hissing softly, but for this moment, you just sit still, letting him lean in, even if only briefly.
The train slows further, the gentle screech of the brakes signaling your approach to the station. You straighten slightly, still feeling the lingering warmth of his head on your shoulder, a quiet reminder of the fragile connection between you.
You grab your bag firmly, ready to stand, but hesitate just a moment, glancing sideways at him. His eyes meet yours steady, unreadable and without a word, you both move toward the doors.
The doors slide open with a soft whoosh, and the cool rush of station air brushes over you. Stepping out, the scent of damp concrete and faint city sounds greet you, grounding you back to reality.
You walk forward, the weight of the night before and the journey pressing lightly on your shoulders. Behind you, Jin follows silently, close but not too close, a silent acknowledgment that this moment is ending.
As the train pulls away, the lights inside dim, and the city outside pulses with its own rhythm, indifferent to the quiet goodbye unfolding on the platform.
You take a breath and step fully into the morning, carrying with you everything that was, everything that is, and the space in between.
You step off the platform and head toward the station exit, your steps quickening as the morning chill brushes against your face. The city is awake now, cars humming by, early risers hustling to work, and the pale blue of dawn creeping in from the horizon. You pause at the curb, lifting your hand to hail a cab, when a firm hand catches your arm from behind.
You freeze.
“Wait—” Jin’s voice is breathless, like he hadn’t meant to call out but couldn’t stop himself.
You turn slightly, your expression guarded, your body stiff.
He looks at you, eyes scanning your face like he’s trying to memorize it again. “You changed your number.”
You don't answer, not right away. It’s not a question anyway. It’s an observation tinged with something tired frustration, maybe. Or disappointment.
He exhales, rubbing the back of his neck briefly before meeting your gaze again.
“Just give me the new one,” he says, softer this time. “Please.”
The cab slows and pulls up beside you, its headlights cutting through the pale morning haze. The driver leans over to roll the window down, but you lift a hand to gesture for him to wait.
You stare at him for a moment longer, debating. Part of you wants to turn away, to get in the cab, close the door, and let the city swallow this whole night like it never happened.
But another part, the quieter, more tired part knows that if you don’t, he’ll still be standing here when the cab drives off. Still waiting. Still hoping. Still looking at you like that.
You sigh, dig into your coat pocket, and pull out your phone. Your fingers move quickly, typing the number without looking at him.
You hold it out to him, screen facing up.
He blinks, almost surprised you did it.
“You better not start texting me paragraphs at 3 a.m.,” you say flatly, trying to keep your tone light.
“I won’t. Unless it’s really important. Like life-or-death.”He nods lightly biting his inner cheek in shyness, he feels like a school girl who's crush hinted that he also likes him because after months he is finally allowing himself to hope that you will come back again.
You slide into the cab, shutting the door behind you. He steps back from the curb, hands in his coat pockets, watching.
The driver asks for your destination. You give it without turning your head.
As the cab pulls away, you steal one last glance through the rear window.
He’s still there.
Still watching.
Still waiting that maybe that missed train will lead to something much more than just dinner with you.
One week later
Your screen lights up jerking you up from sleep with a call from “Seokjin 🌚” and for a second, you stare at it like it personally insulted you. Because It’s 2 in the morning,You haven’t spoken to him since the train,WHY is he calling at 2 a.m. and why do you still have his name saved like that?
You pick up, already half-scowling. “Are you dying?”
“No. Well, emotionally, yes, but not in the ‘call an ambulance’ way.” His voice is way too awake. You hear typing in the background.
“Then this better be a mistake.”
“It’s not,” he says brightly. “Actually, I’m calling to invite you to my company tomorrow.”
You blink. “I’m sorry, did you just… 2 a.m.-booty-call me for a business meeting?”
“Not business,”
You sigh deeply. “I’m hanging up.”
“Wait! Just one hour. I need to show you something.”
“Jin—”
“And coffee. From that overpriced place you like.”
“…You bribed me with coffee?”
“And curiosity. You’re curious, admit it.”
You pinch the bridge of your nose. “Fine. One hour. No weird metaphors.”
He cackles. “See you at 11.”
The next day you walk in to find him setting up a projector.
He’s wearing a suit. No jacket. No tie. Just a crooked red bowtie like he’s a magician about to pull a bunny out of heartbreak.
“What are you wearing?” you ask flatly.
“It’s presentation couture,” he says, clicking the remote with flair."Are you serious?" “I present to you: ‘Exes to Lovers: A Case Study Featuring Two Idiots.’”
You blink.
“Subtitled: ‘Why You Should Consider Taking Back This Hot Mess of a Man.’”
Slide 1: Top 5 Reasons We Broke Up (And Why 4.5 Were Insecurity)
You cross your arms. “You really gave yourself only half the blame?”
“The .5 is generous,” he defends. “I only didn’t say things right. You stopped believing them at all.”
Slide 2: Visual Timeline of Our Relationship
[Photos or drawn stick figures of: – First awkward hug – Our beach trip – That terrible ramen place we pretended to like – Her sleepy face in my hoodie – Our last photo before the breakup]
You stare at the photos — beach trips, sleepy selfies, ramen nights.
“That one—” you point, “I was mad at you for two hours before that pic.”
He laughs. “You looked so cute while mad, I risked a selfie.”
“I hated that ramen.”
“I loved you anyway.”
That shuts you up for a second.
Slide 3: Things We Love (Venn Diagram)
“Wait—you listed me under ‘your hobbies’?”
“Correct. Alongside food, chaos, and bad jokes.”
“Rude.”
“You were the hobby.”
You roll your eyes. You’re still not uncrossing your arms. But your mouth twitches.
Slide 4: Scientific Evidence That You Are Hot
93% of my friends were jealous
87% of people who saw us thought you were out of my league
100% of photos confirm: you = gorgeous
1 dumb stranger in a diner ≠ reality (Peer-reviewed by: Me, my mom, and every mirror I’ve seen you in.)
You almost choke on your coffee.
“Did you seriously put a chart—”
“Peer-reviewed.”
“By your mom?!”
“She said you’re prettier than me. And she’s never wrong.”
You shake your head but can’t fight the tiny smirk on your lips.
Slide 5: What I Learned After You Left
I don’t like scrambled eggs without you stealing half of mine
I should’ve fought harder to make you feel secure
Love needs more than words — it needs showing up, even when it’s uncomfortable.
“I don’t want to fix you,” he adds. “I just want to be beside you while you learn to see what I already do.”
Your heart flips. You hate him a little for it.
Slide 6: My Qualifications as Your Future (Again) Boyfirend
Have emotionally matured (slightly)
Learned active listening (thank you therapy and TED Talks)
Still remember your coffee order
Have new jokes (worse ones, sorry)
Still in love with you (not sorry)
You mutter, “You misspelled ‘boyfriend.’”
He panics and checks the screen. “What?! Oh god okay, okay just ignore—”
You laugh. A real one. He grins like he just won the lottery.
Slide 7: Rebuttal to Common Objections
He reads them aloud dramatically.
“What if we break up again?” “Then we break better.”
“What if I’m still not enough?” “You’ve always been too much in the best way.”
You go still. That one lands.
Slide 8: My Goals If You Say Yes
“‘Steal my fries without asking’ is not a goal.”
“It’s a dream, Y/N.”
You glance at the last point:
“Make her believe she’s beautiful — not by saying it, but by staying.”
You look away quickly. “Next slide.”
Slide 9: Risks & Outcomes
“Risk: You say no. I cry alone with pancakes.”
“Again,” you mutter.
“Outcome: You say yes. We try. Maybe we fail. But I’ll never let you wonder if I loved you.”
Slide 10: Conclusion — I Love You
No fancy fonts.
Just a line of text:
You don’t have to believe you’re perfect. Just believe I’m not lying. Please don’t make me lie to my mom. She already made rice.
You stare at it.
Then at him.
Then… back at the bowtie.
“How are you a ceo…You’re ridiculous,” you whisper.
“And yet you came.”
You hesitate. But only for a breath.
“One dinner.”
He beams.
Jin grins, flipping through his slides like he owns the place. “How do you think I became a CEO? By being seriously ridiculous and a little stubborn.”
You roll your eyes, smirking. “Yeah, because CEOs definitely spend their nights making PowerPoints and rocking bowties.
for the first time since Busan… You feel like maybe the train didn't come late after all.
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Extra
Rereading this and omg I thought I killed with this a year ago, it is literally unreadable😭😭 also what was up with my sentence structure
The Last Train | KSJ | Extra
Pairing: Kim Seokjin x Female Reader
Genre: Angst, Romance, Drama, Fluff, Slice of Life, Exes to Lovers AU
Word Count: 10k
Summary: You and Jin miss the last train home on a rainy night. Forced to spend hours together at a 24/7 diner, old wounds and hidden feelings come to the surface.
Warnings: NSFW / 18+ ONLY 🔞,Exes to Lovers, Emotional Reunion, Slow Burn, Intimacy, Soft Dom!Jin, Body Worship, Praise, Insecurity, Self-Esteem Themes, Unprotected Sex (refrain irl),Aftercare, Mention of Korean beauty standards (If I forgot something please tell me)
A/N: This is a bonus part for The last train home, consider reading that first. I was not feeling like writing anything new so I added to this one.
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The ride to Jin’s place is quiet.
Not uncomfortable but thick with something unspoken. Outside, the city hums with late-night traffic and neon reflections; inside the car, your hand occasionally brush his. You don’t move away, and neither does he.
He unlocks the door with one hand, the other still holding your bag like it’s sacred. The apartment smells faintly of his cologne and cedarwood that is familiar and grounding. You hadn’t realized how much you missed the scent until you stepped inside it again.
It hasn’t changed much. The same charcoal-gray couch. The same crooked frame he never fixed. A half-read book on the table. It's like time stalled here.
Except it didn’t. Not for either of you.
You shrug off your coat, suddenly aware of how quiet the space is. He gestures toward the couch. “Sit. I’ll get something warm. Tea? Or you still like that weird vanilla-mint mix?”
You give a small laugh. “Still do.”
He passes a small smile before disappearing into the kitchen. You run your hand along the armrest, your fingers catching on the familiar stitching. There’s a blanket neatly folded on the corner. You remember falling asleep under it once, half on him, half on the cushions, when your shared world felt invincible.
Jin returns with two mugs, handing you yours. His fingers brush yours briefly.
“Thanks,” you murmur.
You both sip quietly. He watches you over the rim of his mug like he’s afraid blinking might make you vanish again.
“You still drink it too hot,” he notes.
“And you still make it too sweet.”
"Don't you remember a lot of things for a 2 year breakup." You tease
"I didn't forget, I couldn't"
There’s a pause. You feel it in your chest the question, the invitation. You could ignore it. Let this night end here, half-healed. But your eyes meet his, and something ancient passes between you.
"Do you want to stay?" he asks hesitant, voice softer now, he looks away immediately after asking. His gaze shifts from his lap to the table while his fingers fidget nervously. That pulls a giggle out of you.
You nod, setting the mug down.
Jin stands slowly, then offers his hand not demanding, just open. You take it.
He leads you through the hallway like it’s the first time. It isn’t. But this version of you older, bruised, grown, it is her first time walking back into a space like this, into trust like this.
His bedroom is dim, lit only by the soft, diffused glow of the city lights pouring through the sheer curtains. The skyline flickers in shades of blue, casting gentle shapes across the walls.
He turns to look at you, his gaze soft under the dim light, and gently tucks a loose strand of hair behind your ear.
"You got prettier," he says quietly.
You raise an eyebrow, your voice low. "Are you trying to assure me?"
He doesn’t flinch, doesn’t look away. "No," he murmurs. "Just stating facts."
He gently guides you to sit on the edge of the bed, his touch tender, almost reverent. Then he kneels in front of you, eyes level with yours, and takes both your hands in his, his thumbs slowly tracing circles over your knuckles, like he's memorizing every line and detail.
"Y/N," he begins softly, his voice deep but warm, "whenever I told you that you're pretty, beautiful, sexy, absolutely gorgeous… it was never to assure you. It was to remind you. Remind you in case you forgot, remind you because I see it every day, and I just hoped… maybe one day, you’d start seeing yourself the way I see you."
He pauses, lifting your hands to his lips, pressing a gentle kiss against your fingers.
"And even now," he continues, eyes locked with yours, "I’m not saying this to make you feel better. I’m saying it because it’s the truth. So what if you don’t fit into some narrow, airbrushed version of beauty, those standards aren’t made for someone like you. You’re real. And you’re breathtaking."
His voice gets quieter, like he’s afraid to break the moment.
"I’m so lucky to have you. I deserve you. And you deserve me too, hm?"
He tilts his head just slightly, giving you the softest smile. "So stop wondering why I love you, and just know that I do. Completely."
"Jin it is not you, it was never you. It is just the people who made me doubt, it was just that no one ever saw me past my face but I didn't think u didn't look past it, It was just that maybe it could hinder our love in the future.
His expression falters for just a second, like your words settled heavily in his chest. But he doesn’t let go of your hands in fact, he holds them tighter, as if grounding both of you.
“Y/N…” he says, voice low and steady, “don’t ever think I was blind to your past, or what the world has made you carry. I saw it, I saw you. Not just your face, not just the parts the world picks apart. I saw your silence, your fear, the way you flinched at love like it might break you.”
He swallows, his thumb brushing against your wrist. “But never did I think any of that would hinder us. Not then. Not now. Not ever.”
He leans his forehead gently against your knee, eyes closed for a moment.
“It wasn’t me, I know that. And it kills me that they made you feel this way. That they made you believe love had conditions or that beauty had limits. But I’m here to rewrite all of that with you. I know you walked away because you were unsure but there is nothing to be unsure of.”
He lifts his head again, gaze steady, soft but unshakable. “If ever there’s something standing in the way of our love… it won’t be your face. Or your fears. Or your past.”
He exhales. “Because I didn’t fall in love with just your beauty. I fell for your fire, your flaws, your stubborn heart, your gentleness, your chaos. All of it. And I’m not going anywhere.”
You squeeze his hands gently, grounding yourself in the warmth of his touch before tugging on them just a little.
He doesn’t resist. You guide him up from the floor and make him sit beside you on the edge of the bed, thigh to thigh, shoulders brushing, as if the distance between your bodies was never meant to exist in the first place.
The silence settles around you like a soft blanket, quiet, but full.
He doesn’t say anything right away, he just watches you for a moment longer, eyes soft with something deeper than words. Then, with a tenderness that makes your chest ache, he reaches for your sweater.
He moves slowly, like he’s afraid to startle the moment. His fingers brush your shoulders as he eases the fabric down your arms, careful, unrushed. The sweater pools quietly behind you on the bed.
Then he kneels slightly, reaching for your shoes. His touch is light, almost reverent, as he unfastens them one by one and slips them off.
He doesn’t look up yet, just runs his hand gently along your ankle, like he’s memorizing the shape of you.
“There,” he murmurs, still crouched in front of you, voice barely above a whisper. “You don’t have to carry anything tonight. Not the weight. Not the doubt. Not even your shoes.”
He stays quiet, his hands steady but unhurried as they rise toward your hair. Fingers brushing softly against your scalp, he finds the tie holding it back.
There’s a moment of pause like he’s giving you space, like he’s silently asking, Can I? Like he’s waiting for the smallest flinch, the slightest push.
But you don’t move.
So gently, he begins to undo it, unraveling the strands like they’re something sacred. The elastic slips from your hair, and it falls freely around your shoulders. His fingers linger there, combing through it slowly, reverently as if this is his way of soothing every hurt you never spoke aloud.
His eyes search yours, not with expectation but with quiet understanding. As if he's telling you: You don't owe me anything. But if you stay… I’ll cherish all of you.
You slowly lean in, your nose brushing his, breaths mingling in the sliver of space between you. Your hand finds his cheek, thumb grazing the corner of his mouth as if you’re trying to memorize the moment before it changes everything.
His eyes search yours, wide with something fragile, hope, maybe. Fear, too.
“You know what this means, right?” he asks, voice barely audible, thick with hesitation. “This… us.”
You nod, just slightly, your voice steady but soft. “I know what it means.”
He doesn’t move. He lets you close the space. Because this time, it’s you choosing him.
You close the last inch between you, pressing your lips to his slowly, gently, like you’re speaking in a language only the two of you understand.
He doesn’t rush it. He melts into it.
His hand comes up to cradle your jaw, thumb brushing your cheek with a kind of reverence, like he can’t believe this is real. Your lips move in sync, unhurried, full of everything you hadn’t said until now, every fear, every feeling, every silent I’m ready.
When you finally pull back, just enough to breathe, his eyes are still closed like he’s trying to hold onto the feeling a second longer. Then he opens them, looking at you like you’re the only thing in the world that makes sense.
“You kissed me,” he whispers, smiling like he’s in awe.
“I did,” you whisper back, your voice softer now, steadier. “And I meant it.”
With a breath drawn slow and careful, he leans in, capturing your lips again but this time, there’s more depth to it. More weight. More want. His hand slides along your side, grounding you, and then gently he eases you back onto the bed.
He moves slowly, like every second matters. Like this isn’t about urgency, but about memorizing the feel of you beneath him, your fingers in his hair, your heartbeat thudding against his palm as he rests it over your chest for a moment.
“Still okay?” he whispers against your lips, his voice a quiet anchor in the rising tide of emotion.
Your answer is in the way your eyes meet his, sure, steady, full of trust. He exhales again, like you just gave him permission to breathe deeper. And then he leans in, pressing another kiss to your lips this one slower, surer, like he’s promising not to rush what was always meant to unfold gently between you.
The kiss deepens naturally, breath hitching between you as his hand finds your waist, anchoring you closer. His lips move with more certainty now, no longer just a question, but a need.
Then, slowly, deliberately, he catches your lower lip between his teeth. It’s gentle, almost teasing, but full of intention. A quiet request laced in the way his lips linger there.
You exhale softly against his mouth, your fingers curling in the fabric at his back as you part your lips.
He kisses you deeper, warmer, fuller, like he’s been holding this part of himself back for far too long. His hand slides to cradle the side of your face, thumb brushing over your cheek as your mouths move together in perfect rhythm.
It’s not rushed. It’s not reckless.
The heat between you builds gradually, tenderness layered with something deeper, something that hums just beneath the surface. His hand stays at your waist, grounding you in the moment, while the kiss grows more certain, more consuming.
Without thinking, his knee shifts, sliding between your legs with natural ease as he leans in closer. It’s not deliberate, not rushed but instinctive, part of the gravity pulling you both closer. The press of his body feels protective, not demanding. Like he’s holding you, not taking from you.
Your breath hitches, just slightly, and he stills for a beat, eyes flicking open to search your face.
Your fingers twist into the fabric of his shirt, tugging him down with a kind of urgency that wasn’t there before, like restraint has finally given way to want. Real, aching want.
“Fuck, Jin,” you breathe, voice rough around the edges, raw with need.
His eyes darken the moment the words leave your mouth, and for a second he just looks at you like he’s trying to commit every inch of you to memory. The flush on your cheeks. The way your chest rises and falls. The way you’re holding onto him like you need him.
Then he exhales, shaky, like your voice just undid something in him. “You can’t say that and expect me to stay gentle,” he murmurs, his voice low, wrecked, and impossibly tender all at once.
But even then he’s careful. As he leans in again, his hand moves to cover yours where you’re clutching his shirt. He guides your touch, slowly pulling the fabric over his head and tossing it aside, never breaking eye contact.
“Tell me if you want to stop,” he says, his lips ghosting along your jaw now, his knee still settled between your thighs. “But if you don’t…” His voice dips even lower. “Then I’m yours. All of me.”
His lips leave yours slowly, like he’s reluctant to break the connection even for a moment. But when he does, it’s only to find new places to worship.
He trails soft, open-mouthed kisses across your cheekbone, then down to your jaw. Each one is unhurried, reverent like he’s tasting you, like he’s learning you.
His breath is warm against your skin as his lips find that sensitive spot just beneath your ear. You feel his fingers tighten ever so slightly at your waist when you react, barely a shiver, but he feels it. He knows.
He doesn’t speak. He doesn’t have to. His mouth moves lower, tracing your pulse, then brushing along the curve of your neck, pausing, letting the heat linger there before pressing a firmer kiss. Another. Then another. Slow and deliberate, like he’s making a map of everywhere you feel most alive.
He works his way back up, scattering kisses along your cheek, the bridge of your nose, your eyelids each one soft, grounding, full of quiet affection that contrasts beautifully with the weight of the want between you.
By the time his lips find yours again, you’re already breathless not from urgency, but from the overwhelming tenderness of it all. Like every kiss is his way of saying: I see you. I choose you. And I’m not letting go.
His hands drift to the hem of your top, fingers toying with the fabric.
He tugs your top upward slowly, not in a rush to tear it off, but like he’s unwrapping something sacred. His knuckles graze your sides, sending heat rippling across your skin as he peels it over your head and tosses it aside.
For a second, he just looks at you. His breath catches, gaze roaming from your eyes to your lips, then lower, lingering on the new skin exposed. But there’s no rush in him, just awe.
"God, Y/N…” he breathes, voice rough with restraint and reverence. “You’re… unreal.”
He leans in again, placing a soft kiss right between your collarbones, then another just above your heart as if he’s letting you know this isn’t just about desire. It’s about you.
And with every kiss, every touch, he makes it clearer: He’s not here to take. He’s here to worship.
His lips are still warm against your skin, brushing over your collarbone, when his hands slide around your back, slow, sure, never rushing. His fingers find the clasp of your bra, resting there for a moment.
He lifts his head slightly, eyes meeting yours again, checking, always checking. Not for permission, but for comfort. For trust.
When you don’t pull away when your breath hitches just enough and your fingers curl lightly against his bare shoulder.
His fingers work at the clasp, slow and careful, like he’s unwrapping something delicate. The tension slips free, and he eases the straps down your arms, his touch light as air, never breaking eye contact.
When your bra finally falls away, his breath catches. But he doesn’t pounce. He just looks at you, like you’ve knocked the wind out of him, like he wants to remember the way you look in this exact moment for the rest of his life.
“You’re so—” he starts, then stops, because no word feels big enough.
So instead, he kisses you again. Slower. Deeper.
And his hands slide back up your waist, holding you like you’re something he never thought he’d get to have something he refuses to take for granted.
His hands still at your waist for a moment, eyes roaming over you like he’s seeing something he never thought he deserved. His lips are slightly parted, chest rising and falling with the weight of everything unsaid until now.
“It’s a pity,” he murmurs, voice low and wrecked, “that you don’t know how hot you are.”
You blink, breath caught in your throat, the heat between you crackling at the edges.
He leans in closer, brushing a kiss just under your jaw, then another at the curve of your shoulder. “Seriously, Y/N…” he whispers, lips grazing your skin as he speaks. “You could bring me to my knees with just one look and you still hesitate to believe it.”
He pulls back just enough to look at you again, his expression raw, hungry, but laced with something deeper.
His kiss deepens with something rougher now, your words still echoing in his head, pulling him under, unraveling the last thread of his restraint.
His hand glides up your side, slow but certain, until it finds your breast. He cups it gently at first, like he’s still in awe then his thumb brushes over your skin, and the sound you make in response drives him wild.
He pulls back just slightly, eyes dark and heavy-lidded as they meet yours.
“God,” he breathes, his voice hoarse. “You feel so fucking perfect.”
His eyes never leave yours as he leans in, his hand still cradling your breast with a mix of reverence and want. You feel his breath first—warm and unsteady against your skin—before his lips finally make contact.
He starts with a soft kiss, slow and deliberate, right over your heart. Then another, lower this time. And when his mouth finally reaches your breast, he moves gently at first, lips brushing over the sensitive skin like he’s savoring the taste of you.
His tongue flicks softly, teasing, as his hand supports and shapes you toward his mouth. A low, quiet sound escapes him—half a groan, half awe—like he’s been aching for this, like he needs this.
“You drive me crazy,” he murmurs against your skin, voice rough and quiet. “Every inch of you… I want it all.”
You thread your fingers into his hair, gently tugging until his mouth leaves your skin. His eyes flick up to yours, dazed and breathless but you don’t give him time to speak.
You pull him back to your lips, kissing him with a new kind of urgency, hungry, deep, claiming. He groans into your mouth, his hands tightening on your waist as if trying to ground himself in the heat of you.
Then, slowly, you begin to trail your kisses downward.
Over his jaw. Down his neck. You feel the way his breath catches when your lips brush the hollow of his throat, and you smile against his skin.
You keep going, lips and tongue moving lower, down the curve of his collarbone, across his chest, leaving heat in your wake. You pause just above his heart, pressing a lingering kiss there before lightly nipping at the skin.
His chest rises sharply under your mouth, and a low, guttural sound escapes him.
“Fuck, Y/N…” he rasps, voice wrecked, head tilted back.
And as your mouth continues its descent, tasting every inch like a promise, he looks down at you like you’re both a dream and the fire that’s about to consume him.
His hands find your hips, holding you with a reverence that contrasts the growing hunger in his touch. You feel his lips on your neck again, hot, open-mouthed kisses that make your breath stutter in your chest.
But this time… there's intent behind them.
He sucks gently at the skin just below your jaw, then moves lower, trailing kisses along the curve of your shoulder. You feel the first love bite bloom beneath his lips, just enough pressure to leave a mark, just enough to make you gasp.
“You should see yourself,” he murmurs against your skin, voice low and strained. “Already covered in me.”
He keeps going, leaving a slow trail of love bites down your collarbone, across your chest, each one deliberate, each one claiming. He pauses after every mark, kissing it softly like an apology and a promise all at once.
“This okay?” he whispers between kisses, lips brushing over the fresh warmth of a new mark.
The look in your eyes, half-lidded, lost in him is answer enough. And he groans softly, burying his face against your skin like he’s addicted now, like he never wants to stop.
Each bite says what he hasn’t yet put into words: You’re mine. And I want the world to know it.
The air in the room is cool, the soft hum of the AC barely registering against the sound of your mingled breaths, but neither of you feel it. Not anymore.
Despite the cold, both your bodies are slick with a light sheen of sweat, skin flushed and glowing under the dim light. Every kiss, every gasp, every whispered name has added to the heat curling between you, unrelenting and electric.
His hair clings slightly to his forehead, chest rising and falling against yours in rhythm, like your bodies have synced without meaning to. Your fingers drag down his back, slick with heat and want, as his mouth hovers just above yours, lips swollen, eyes dark.
“You feel that?” he murmurs hoarsely, nudging his forehead against yours. “I could touch you for hours and still not be close enough.”
Your response is a breathless nod, a quiet whimper against his mouth as you pull him down again, the cool sheets doing nothing to tame the fire building between your skin.
It doesn’t matter that the room is chilled. Between you and him, It’s all heat. All tension. And neither of you is even close to done.
His hands find the waistband of your jeans, eyes flicking up to meet yours one last time, checking. When you don’t stop him, when your fingers tighten just slightly around his biceps, urging him on, he leans in to kiss you again, soft and slow, before trailing his hands downward.
He unbuttons them carefully, almost reverently, and begins to slide them down your hips. The denim clings slightly to your heated skin, but he takes his time, inch by inch, like he’s unwrapping something precious, not just undressing you, but adoring you.
When he finally eases them off your legs, letting them fall to the floor, he draws back just enough to take you in.
There you are laid out beneath him in nothing but your underwear, flushed and glowing, lips kiss-bitten and chest rising and falling like you’ve just run a marathon.
“Fuck,” he breathes, his voice low, wrecked. “You’re… unreal.”
He runs his hands slowly up your bare thighs, savoring the way you shiver under his touch. His fingers linger at your hips, his thumbs brushing gently over the edge of your underwear but he doesn’t move further. Not yet.
He wants to take his time. He wants you to feel every second of how much he wants you.
He lowers himself slowly, lips brushing soft, open kisses along your thigh, each one closer than the last, each one more deliberate. The muscles beneath your skin twitch at the contact, anticipation tightening every breath you take.
And then he pauses.
His eyes settle on the damp patch blooming at the center of your underwear, and something in his expression shifts like awe and hunger colliding all at once.
“Look at you,” he murmurs, voice like a low hum against your skin. His fingers gently part your thighs a little more, giving him room to settle between them. “So worked up for me already.”
He presses a kiss to your inner thigh, close, so close then looks up at you, his eyes dark and blazing with something deeper than just lust.
“I haven’t even touched you there yet,” he says with a breathless smile, almost reverent. “And you’re already soaking through.”
Another kiss, this one slower, hotter lands just beside the wet patch, as his hand rests on your hip to hold you steady, like he knows you’re already trembling beneath the weight of his attention.
“I’m gonna take my time with you,” he whispers, voice thick with want. “Because you deserve to be undone slowly.”
Your voice breaks through the haze, low and breathless “Fuck, Jin. Stop being an asshole.”
He freezes for half a second, then laughs, soft and wrecked, his breath hot against your skin.
“Oh?” he murmurs, pressing one more teasing kiss just beside where you want him most. “Is that what I am now?”
You glare at him, your fingers tangling in his hair, tugging just enough to make him groan. “You know what you’re doing.”
He grins, cocky and flushed, eyes full of mischief and want. “Yeah,” he whispers, letting his lips hover just over the soaked fabric. “That’s the fun part.”
His smirk fades, replaced by something deeper, hungrier but still full of reverence. He shifts closer, his hands slow as they hook into the sides of your underwear.
He pulls them down with care, like he’s unwrapping something fragile, something he’s waited a long time to fully see. As the fabric slides down your thighs and past your knees, he keeps his gaze locked on you, eyes dark, lips parted, breath shallow.
And when you’re finally bare before him, he exhales like he’s been holding his breath since the moment this began.
He lets his fingers trail lightly up your inner thigh, ghosting over your slickness, barely there, but enough to make your hips twitch, your breath stutter.
“Fuck,” he whispers, almost to himself, eyes flickering with a mix of awe and heat. “You’re so wet for me.”
Then he leans in.
And with a tenderness that borders on worship, he presses a soft, lingering kiss right where you need him most. Not rushed. Not greedy. Just… his lips on you slow, claiming, reverent.
The kiss is a promise. He’s not here to tease anymore. He’s here to ruin you, gently.
Before he can pull away, your hand shoots down, fingers threading into his hair as you grab his face and hold him there. Your hips roll forward instinctively, grinding against his mouth with a desperate, breathless need that leaves no room for teasing.
A groan vibrates from deep in his throat, muffled against you, and he lets you take control, welcomes it.
His hands immediately grip your thighs, fingers digging in just enough to anchor you as you move against him. He tilts his head just right, lips and tongue working in perfect rhythm with your motions, matching your urgency with his own.
You hear him moan again, this time raw, hungry, completely undone by the way you’re using him. And the sound only makes you press down harder, riding his mouth like it’s the only way to survive the heat surging through your veins.
You look down at him, his flushed cheeks, dark eyes, and the way he wants this, wants you and it sends you spiraling.
Every grind. Every flick of his tongue. Every breathless noise you make. He takes it all......like you’re his favorite sin. And he never once tries to stop you.
Your voice spills out between shaky breaths. Raw, desperate, laced with everything you’re feeling.
“Fuck, Jin… deeper.”
It’s not a request. It’s a plea.
And he hears it.
His grip on your thighs tightens, grounding you as he presses in closer, his mouth claiming you with a hunger that borders on worship. He parts you with his tongue, slow at first but then deeper, firmer, the kind of pressure that makes your back arch and your fingers tangle tighter in his hair.
He groans into you loud, and shameless, driven completely wild by the way you sound, the way you taste, the way you grind against his mouth like you can’t get enough.
“Just like that,” he murmurs against you in a ragged breath, his voice thick with want. “Let me hear you, baby. I want all of it.”
And he dives in again, deeper, messier, perfect like he wants to unravel you from the inside out, like his only goal is to leave you shaking, ruined, and completely his.
As your moans grow sharper, your hips grinding down harder against his mouth, Jin responds instantly, intuitively. His hands tighten around your thighs, holding you steady, and then you feel it, his thumb, sliding up between your folds, slick from your arousal and the heat of his mouth.
He presses it gently against your clit, circling with just enough pressure to make your breath hitch and your body jolt.
“Fuck—Jin,” you gasp, your fingers tugging at his hair, and he groans in response, the sound vibrating through you.
His mouth continues working you with slow, deep strokes of his tongue, but now paired with the rhythmic, focused motion of his thumb, each movement synced perfectly with the way your body trembles beneath him.
“You’re falling apart for me,” he murmurs against you, voice ragged, thumb pressing a little harder, a little faster. “Just like that. Let go, baby.”
And with that combination: his mouth, his thumb, his voice, you feel yourself spiraling fast, the pleasure climbing with every wave, threatening to break you open in the best possible way.
Just when you think you’ve adjusted to the rhythm, his thumb circling you, his mouth worshiping you with steady, devastating precision, you feel the soft scrape of his teeth.
A gasp escapes you.
It’s light, careful, more teasing than rough. He lets them graze against your sensitive skin for just a second, just enough to make your hips jolt and a breathy “fuck” fall from your lips. He pulls back the moment he feels your body tense, not from discomfort, but from how sharply the pleasure spikes.
And then his tongue is back.
Softer now. Slower but deeper, more deliberate. Paired with the steady motion of his thumb, it’s almost too much. Your thighs threaten to close around his head, but his grip keeps you open, anchored, right where he wants you.
“God,” he groans into you, almost drunk on the taste of you. “The way you react… it’s everything.”
His tongue moves again, slick, hot, purposeful drawing you back into the rhythm, until your moans are breathless and your body’s trembling under the weight of how close you are.
And still, he doesn’t let up. Because he wants you to fall apart. And he wants to be the only one who’s ever brought you there like this.
Your body’s already pulsing with heat, every nerve alive under his mouth and the unrelenting press of his thumb. You're teetering on the edge, breathless, shaking, moaning his name like a prayer.
And then you feel it, his finger.
Slowly, carefully, he slips it inside you, the intrusion smooth from how soaked you are. He groans at the feeling, at how your walls tighten instantly around him, like your body’s been aching for more.
“Shit,” he breathes, lifting his head just enough to watch your face, the way you fall apart in real time. “You’re so fucking tight.”
And then he lowers again, his tongue circling your clit while his finger curls inside you, testing, learning, memorizing. He moves slow at first, dragging it along your most sensitive spot with a kind of focus that makes your back arch off the bed.
Your breath breaks into a whimper, hands clutching at the sheets, at his hair, anything.
He smiles against you, adding just the slightest pressure as his tongue and finger move in perfect sync, completely in tune with your body’s desperate rhythm.
“Come on, baby,” he murmurs, voice thick with desire. “Let me feel you fall apart on my fingers.”
And the way he says it ,low, raw, reverent makes your body tremble as the climax builds fast, threatening to crash over you like a wave you can’t stop.
You fall apart with a cry, sharp, broken, his name the only thing your lips can form as your body arches into him. The orgasm rips through you, intense and consuming, your thighs trembling around his head, your hands lost in his hair.
But Jin doesn’t stop.
He holds you through it, mouth still on you, tongue moving in slow, languid strokes like he’s savoring every drop, every aftershock. The room is filled with the slick, obscene sound of him lapping at you, utterly devoted, utterly lost in you.
The way he moans against your overstimulated skin, the way he whispers soft, ruined praise between kisses “So perfect… taste so good… that’s it, baby…” only makes the pleasure stretch, ripple, linger.
Your body twitches under his mouth, sensitive and undone, but he’s gentle now, less greedy, more worshipful. His tongue moves in soft, lazy circles like he’s trying to soothe you from the inside out.
He doesn’t lift his head yet. Not until he’s kissed you through every last tremble.
And when he finally does, his lips are swollen, his eyes blown wide with hunger and awe—and he looks at you like you’re the most breathtaking thing he’s ever seen.
“Still with me?” he breathes, his voice low, wrecked, and laced with the kind of love that never needed words.
You don’t speak because your body answers for you.
Still breathless, still trembling from the high he pulled out of you with nothing but his mouth and his hands, you reach for him. Your fingers curl around his shoulders tugging him up until he’s hovering above you again, swollen lips, eyes burning, chest heaving.
You don’t need words.
Your hands move to his belt, working at it with practiced urgency, the soft clink of the buckle loud in the quiet, heat-thick air between you. His breath stutters, and his hands brace on either side of you, muscles tight, body hovering just barely above yours.
“Y/N…” he breathes, his voice low, like he’s trying to keep it together but you can feel him unraveling, just like you did.
You glance up at him through your lashes, still flushed and raw but full of want, fingers dragging the belt loose with a soft tug. The zipper follows, slow, deliberate.
“You are wrecking me,” he says, eyes locked to yours as he helps you slide his pants down and onto the floor , hips lifting slightly to meet your touch.
And now there’s no teasing. No hesitation. Just heat, want, and the promise of something deeper than either of you dared to say out loud.
You guide him down to you, skin against skin, mouths crashing together like you’ve been starving for it all this time.
His breath hitches as your fingers brush against the waistband of his boxers, your eyes full of quiet urgency.
He shifts up just enough to slide them down, the fabric catching briefly on the heat of him before he kicks them aside. Now he’s fully bared before you, flushed and hard in his hand as he wraps his fingers around himself, giving a few slow, measured pumps, just enough to ease the ache, just enough to watch the way you look at him when he does.
You’re breathless, watching him, his muscles taut, chest rising and falling, the way his hand moves slow, dragging out the moment like he wants it seared into memory. The air between you crackles with tension, heavy and electric.
Then his hand stills.
He leans down, kissing you again, hungry, deep before whispering against your lips, “Tell me you want this. Tell me you're mine again.”
And God, you do. Every aching, breathless part of you.
His forehead presses gently to yours, his lips still swollen from the kiss, breath coming fast and shallow.
“I don’t have protection,” he murmurs, voice rough, but steady like it takes everything in him to say it out loud. His hand stills against your hip, holding you there but not pressing forward, waiting.
The air shifts.
Even in the middle of all this heat, he gives you space, gives you the choice. You can feel how much he wants you, how close he is to losing control, but still… he waits.
“I need to hear you,” he adds softly, his thumb brushing a slow circle into your skin. “Tell me what you want, Y/N. If you want me to stop… I will. If you want this…” His voice falters slightly, then deepens. “I’ll take care of you. Every second of it.”
And for a beat, there’s nothing but the weight of his honesty between you, desire hanging heavy in the air, but grounded in something more: respect. Trust. You.
"Jin......don't care......need you in me."
A soft, wrecked groan escapes his throat as his body tenses, the restraint he’s been clinging to unraveling completely. His eyes darken with something fierce, something tender, and he kisses you like he’s been waiting his whole life to hear you say that.
“You have no idea what that does to me,” he murmurs against your mouth, voice low, trembling, desperate.
He shifts between your thighs, lining himself up, one hand steady on your waist, the other bracing beside your head as he searches your face one last time, still making sure.
And when he sees it in your eyes, how ready you are, how much you need this, he begins to push in, slow and careful, his breath catching hard in his chest as your body welcomes him in inch by inch.
“Fuck… Y/N,” he gasps, jaw clenched, brows drawn in pleasure. “You feel like—like everything.”
The stretch, the heat, the way your body takes him in, it’s overwhelming. And he doesn’t move right away. He just stays there, fully inside you, forehead resting against yours, your breaths tangled together as your bodies finally, finally become one.
There’s no rush now. Just this. You. Him. And the feeling of being completely filled.......completely his.
He’s deep inside you now, fully, completely—and you can feel all of him.
He’s so hard, thick and pulsing as he holds himself still, trying to give you time to adjust, even though every muscle in his body is straining with the effort not to move. His breath is ragged, forehead pressed to yours, eyes clenched shut like he’s fighting for control.
“Shit… you feel so good,” he groans, voice low and wrecked, trembling against your lips. “So fucking tight, baby—wrapped around me like this…”
You shift slightly beneath him and he shudders, letting out another sharp breath, his hands gripping your hips tighter.
“Fuck, Y/N,” he grits out, opening his eyes to look at you, completely undone, completely in awe. “I’m so hard for you it hurts.”
He presses a kiss to your cheek, then your jaw, and whispers “Tell me when you’re ready. Because once I start… I might not be able to stop.”
And God, neither of you want him to.
Your fingers curl around the back of his neck, pulling him closer, your lips brushing against his as you whisper barely breathless, but firm.
“Jin… please move.”
He freezes for a heartbeat, like those words hit him harder than anything else tonight. His jaw clenches, his eyes flutter shut, and you feel him exhale, long, shaky, like he’s barely holding on.
“Fuck,” he breathes, voice raw. “You’re gonna ruin me.”
And then, he moves.
Slowly, at first. Drawing his hips back just enough before sliding in again, deeper, smoother this time. The sound that tears from your throat is soft, but it lights a fire in him.
He picks up a rhythm, steady, deep, intentional. His hand grips your thigh, hitching it up around his waist to pull you even closer, deeper, until your bodies move like they were made for this, for each other.
“You feel…” he groans into your neck, words unraveling as his thrusts grow harder, “so fucking good, baby. So perfect for me.”
And with every thrust, every moan, every whispered plea, you both give in fully, lost in the kind of heat that makes time stop, makes the whole world disappear until all that exists is you and him, skin to skin, heart to heart.
As he drives into you, slow, deep, perfect, your moans grow louder, needier, your nails dragging across his back, your body arching beneath his.
He watches you fall apart with every thrust, chest heaving, lips parted, and it makes him lose what little restraint he still had.
Without breaking rhythm, his hand slides down between your bodies, and then, his thumb.
He finds your clit with practiced precision, circling it with just the right pressure, just the right pace. You gasp sharp, broken and your whole body jolts beneath him.
“That’s it,” he murmurs, breathless and completely wrecked, eyes locked on the way you unravel. “Feel me, baby… I wanna feel you fall apart on me again.”
He keeps moving inside you, hips snapping forward, his thumb working in perfect sync with every thrust, dragging moan after moan from your lips. You’re soaked, tight, throbbing around him and the added pressure sends you spiraling.
Your hands grip his shoulders, your thighs trembling around his waist, and you can feel it building again, hot, fast, inescapable.
“Let go,” he whispers against your lips. “I’m right here. Give it to me.”
You reach up with a trembling urgency, your legs curling around his waist and then higher, hooking over his shoulders as he leans back to adjust, groaning at the new angle.
“Shit,” he gasps, eyes flickering down to where your bodies are joined. “You’re gonna fucking kill me.”
Your new position opens you completely to him, making everything sharper, deeper, intense. His thrusts hit even harder now, his length dragging along every sweet, aching spot inside you with precision that feels unbearably good.
His hands slide beneath your thighs, gripping them firmly as he rocks into you, chest slick with sweat, jaw clenched in focus and pure, wrecked need.
The added pressure of your legs locked around his shoulders sends his thrusts deeper, more desperate, his thumb still pressed to your clit, still moving, still demanding your undoing.
“You feel that?” he groans, eyes dark and wild, watching the way your body arches under his. “Taking me so deep, baby… so fucking perfect for me.”
And all you can do is moan loudly, shamelessly as pleasure tears through you in waves, your body trembling, your breath shattering beneath the weight of him.
You’re so close again, so close you can taste it.
And he knows. Because he’s right there with you.
Your voice breaks through the haze, breathless, raw, wrecked.
“Jin… faster. Deeper. Give me more.”
His entire body tenses at your words, like they set off something primal in him. His eyes meet yours, dark, desperate, almost feral with the need to give you exactly what you’re begging for.
“Fuck, Y/N,” he growls, voice hoarse, barely holding on. “You want more? I’ll give you everything.”
And he does.
His grip tightens on your thighs, his legs anchoring him deeper between yours as your ankles lock tighter behind his shoulders. He slams into you harder now, faster, each thrust sharper, deeper, filling you in a way that leaves you gasping, trembling, aching.
His thumb never leaves your clit, moving in tight, perfect circles that keep you teetering on the edge. Every sound that escapes you, every cry of his name, drives him harder, deeper, until the only thing filling the room is the slick slap of skin, tangled breaths, and your moans echoing off the walls.
“Come on, baby,” he pants, his thrusts relentless. “Fall apart for me again. Let me feel it. Let me have it.”
His is body pressed so tightly to yours it’s hard to tell where he ends and you begin.
“Jin… I’m close,” you gasp, voice shaking, your nails digging into his back as your body starts to tremble beneath him.
The moment the words leave your lips, he groans deep, guttural and his movements grow even more focused, desperate, like your pleasure is the only thing keeping him grounded.
“I feel it,” he breathes, eyes locked on yours, sweat-slicked and completely wrecked. “Don’t hold back, baby. Let it happen, I’ve got you.”
His hips roll deeper, harder, hitting that perfect spot with every thrust. His thumb keeps circling your clit, fast and precise, and the way he’s looking at you like he’s on the edge with you, like he needs to watch you come undone only pushes him closer.
“That’s it… just like that,” he murmurs, kissing you through every whimper. “Come for me. Let me feel you fall apart.”
And you do right there in his arms, with his name falling from your lips like a prayer you never want to stop saying.
Your whole body tightens, every nerve alight, every muscle straining as the wave finally crashes over you.
You cry out his name, loud, shattered, clinging to him like he’s the only solid thing in the world. Your legs tremble around his shoulders, your back arches off the sheets, and you let go completely.
You come hard, a lot, the release overwhelming, your body pulsing around him in deep, uncontrollable waves. You feel yourself grow wetter with every ripple, soaking him, the sheets, everything and he feels it.
“Fuck—Y/N,” Jin groans, voice wrecked, eyes wide as your release coats him. “You’re… so fucking perfect.”
He doesn’t stop. His thumb slows only slightly, just enough to draw every last wave of pleasure from you, his hips rolling deeper but gentler now, like he’s trying to prolong the moment, keep you in that perfect, ruined place just a little longer.
He leans down, pressing soft kisses to your jaw, your cheek, your lips, whispers tangled between them.
“That’s it, baby… I’ve got you.” “You did so good for me.” “So beautiful when you come for me like that.”
You’re breathless, flushed, trembling but in his arms, you feel safe. Held. Completely his.
And he hasn’t even come yet. But he’s watching you like you’re the most incredible thing he’s ever seen Because you are.
Your body is still trembling, oversensitive and glowing, but Jin, he’s far from finished.
He’s still inside you, still rock-hard, still aching. And now, with your release coating him, making every thrust impossibly slick and hot, he loses whatever thread of control he had left.
He groans deep, primal and shifts his grip, pushing your legs back slightly for a deeper angle. His thrusts turn rougher, more desperate, his pace erratic as he chases the high that’s been building since the moment he touched you.
“Fuck, Y/N…” he pants, jaw clenched, sweat dripping from his temple. “You feel so good, so wet—gonna make me come—fuck.”
You can feel how close he is his whole body tensing, his hips snapping forward harder, faster, his breath stuttering every time you clench around him. You meet his eyes and cup his face, whispering between shaky breaths:
“Let go, Jin. I want to feel you.”
He groans like the words physically hit him. One more thrust deep, sharp, perfect and then he falls.
His body shudders, muscles locking up as he buries himself to the hilt, head dropping to your shoulder with a strangled moan. He pulses inside you, hot and thick, his release pouring out in long, breathless waves as you hold him through it.
“Y/N… fuck…” he breathes, voice wrecked, arms shaking as he tries not to collapse fully on top of you.
And then silence, except for your ragged breaths, tangled limbs, and the way his heart thunders against yours.
He stays buried deep inside you, his forehead resting against your shoulder, both of you breathing hard, bodies flushed, drenched in sweat, hearts pounding like war drums.
But even as the aftershocks of his release roll through him, you feel it, he’s still hard.
Still thick. Still wanting.
His breath hitches as you shift slightly beneath him, and he lets out a low, broken sound, half groan, half growl.
“Still so fucking hard for you,” he murmurs, voice raw, voice wrecked, as if he can’t quite believe it either. His hand slides along your side, fingers brushing your thigh. “One time wasn’t enough. I need—” he cuts himself off with a sharp breath, thrusting into you again, slower, but deeper, and you feel it too, the ache building all over again.
Your body trembles around him, still sensitive, still slick with your release and his but that only makes it easier, messier, hotter.
“You’re not done with me yet, are you?” you whisper, teasing, breathless, eyes locking onto his with fire still burning in your chest.
He smiles, lips parted, eyes dark and wild. “Not even close.”
And he begins to move again slow, deliberate, hungry all over again.
His breath catches like your words punched the air right out of his lungs.
You lift your head just slightly, eyes smoldering as you whisper, "Let me ride you."
He stares at you for a beat, chest still heaving, lips parted, hair damp against his forehead. And then he nods slow, stunned, wrecked.
“Fuck yes,” he groans, voice rough, barely holding it together. “Take me—take all of me.”
You crawl up his body, straddling his hips, and he watches every move like he’s watching something sacred unfold. His hands grip your thighs as you position yourself over him, guiding him back to your entrance, still wet, still aching for more.
“You’re sure?” he asks again, voice softer now, like even in all this heat, he still needs to know you want this just as much.
You lean down, kiss him slow, deep, and whisper, "I’ve never been more sure of anything."
And then you sink down onto him.
Both of you moan at the contact, at the stretch, at the depth. He fills you completely, perfectly, and you both freeze for a second, just breathing, just feeling.
His head falls back, a curse escaping his lips as his fingers tighten on your waist.
“Ride me, baby,” he growls, eyes half-lidded and burning. “Show me how good you feel. Make me lose my fucking mind.”
You start to move, rolling your hips, trying to find a steady rhythm but your legs are trembling, still weak from everything he’s already pulled out of you. Your thrusts falter, uneven, more desperate than controlled.
Jin sees it immediately.
His hands slide up to your waist, firm and steady, grounding you as his eyes lock onto yours dark, tender, and absolutely wrecked with need.
“You’re still shaking,” he murmurs, voice low and thick. “Let me help.”
And before you can respond, he starts to move beneath you, slow, deep thrusts from his hips that meet your body perfectly, drawing sharp gasps from your lips every time he fills you again.
You moan his name, your hands braced on his chest as he fucks up into you from below, his grip on your hips keeping you steady, guiding your movements so you’re riding him together, messy, passionate, perfectly in sync.
“Just like that,” he groans, breath ragged. “You’re doing so good, baby. So fucking good.”
You rock with him, each thrust sending sparks through your body, the friction and pressure building all over again. His eyes never leave your face, watching every moan, every stuttered breath, like it’s the only thing that matters.
And when you start to move with him again stronger this time, meeting his rhythm, he lets out a deep, wrecked moan.
“There you go,” he pants. “Ride me, baby. I’ve got you.”
As you regain your rhythm, hips grinding down to meet his thrusts, your moans growing louder, needier, Jin’s hand slides from your waist, trailing between your bodies once again.
You already know what he’s about to do, and your breath catches in anticipation.
“Still so sensitive,” he murmurs, voice wrecked, eyes flickering down to where you’re taking all of him. “But you can take it. I know you can.”
And then his thumb finds your clit again.
The pressure is immediate, just right, firm, focused, circling in time with every deep, upward thrust of his hips. Your body jolts at the contact, the pleasure sharp and overwhelming, pushing you closer to that edge you didn’t think you’d reach again so soon.
You cry out, clutching at his shoulders for balance as the mix of his thumb and the way he’s fucking up into you becomes too much and not enough all at once.
“That’s it,” he groans, his voice strained as he watches you fall apart in real time. “Feel that, baby? You’re so close. I can feel you tightening—fuck.”
Your body starts to tremble again, thighs shaking as his thumb moves in faster, tighter circles, dragging you mercilessly toward your second high.
“Come on,” he whispers through gritted teeth, never slowing down. “Fall apart on me again. I want to feel you come while you’re riding me.”
And you’re right there blazing, trembling, on the verge of breaking all over again
As his thumb works your clit in tight, relentless circles and his hips thrust up into you with deep, desperate rhythm, Jin’s other hand slides up your torso, fingers trailing over your slick skin until they find your breast.
He groans at the feel of you in his hand, warm and soft, and he squeezes gently, thumb brushing over your sensitive nipple in slow, teasing strokes. Your back arches into the touch, a moan ripping from your throat as the sensations become overwhelming, pleasure pouring in from every direction.
Then his mouth finds you.
He leans forward, lips wrapping around your breast, tongue flicking over your nipple before he starts to suck, slow, deep, greedy pulls that send shockwaves straight through your core.
Your hips stutter again, your moans turning breathless, broken. The feeling of his mouth on your chest, his hand still toying, his thumb driving you wild below. It’s too much and yet exactly what you crave.
“Jin—” you cry, your hands flying to his hair, gripping tight as your body begins to shake again. “I—I can’t—”
He groans around your nipple, sucking harder, his voice muffled but wrecked. “Yes you can. You’re so close, baby. Come for me again. I want to feel you lose it on top of me.”
And with every deep thrust, every flick of his tongue, every press of his thumb you feel it crashing toward you again, bigger and harder than before.
Your body locks up, thighs trembling around his hips, breath caught somewhere between a gasp and a cry as the climax slams into you, harder than the last, sharper, and so overwhelming it nearly knocks the wind out of you.
You come a lot.
It rushes through you in waves, unstoppable, rolling through every nerve ending like fire and lightning. Your walls clench around him in pulsing, rhythmic spasms, so wet, so intense it spills down over his thighs, soaking him, the sheets, everything.
“Fuck, Y/N—” Jin growls, his voice wrecked, his hips jerking up into you as he groans at the feeling of you breaking apart on him. “You’re so wet, so fucking tight, you’re driving me insane.”
Your moans are helpless, high and broken, your head thrown back, nails digging into his shoulders as your body trembles violently, completely lost in the rush of it. You can barely breathe, barely think all you know is him: his hands, his mouth, his cock buried so deep inside you it feels like he’s part of your soul.
He holds you close, both arms wrapped around you now, letting you ride out the orgasm as long as your body needs whispering soft, breathless praise into your skin.
“That’s it… I’ve got you. You’re so perfect. Let it all go for me.”
And even as your body starts to come down, twitching with the aftershocks, he’s still rock-hard beneath you because watching you come that hard, that much, has him right on the edge of losing it himself.
As your body trembles and slumps forward still pulsing, still slick, still wrapped tight around him, Jin tightens his grip on your waist. His lips brush your temple, but there’s a different heat in his breath now. Raw, urgent, uncontrolled.
“Fuck, baby,” he growls, voice breaking, “you feel so good, I can’t hold back anymore.”
He plants his feet against the mattress, bending his knees for leverage, and starts to move hard, fast, deep thrusts from below that shake your already sensitive body. You moan helplessly, clinging to his chest, overstimulated but loving it, letting him chase his own high inside you.
His hands are everywhere, one still gripping your hip, the other tangled in your hair, pulling you down so your foreheads press together.
“You’re gonna take it,” he pants. “All of me. Gonna come so deep inside you, fuck just like this.”
Every thrust punches the air from your lungs. He’s relentless now, his body slick against yours, groaning through clenched teeth as your name spills from his lips like a chant. He’s so close you can feel it in the way he twitches inside you, in the way his rhythm grows messier, more desperate.
“Y/N—fuck—I’m gonna come—inside fuck, fuck, fuck”
And with a final, deep, shattering thrust, he lets go.
He moans your name like a prayer as he buries himself to the hilt, releasing in long, hot pulses that fill you up, his entire body locking up beneath yours. You feel him throb inside you, feel the warmth spread as he empties everything into you, his voice breaking, his nails digging into your skin, his heart pounding wildly against your chest.
He collapses back against the mattress, arms still wrapped around you, both of you tangled, soaked, breathless.
And completely wrecked by each other.
The two of you lie tangled together, your bodies still slick with sweat, skin pressed flush against skin. His breath slowly evens out, chest rising and falling in steady rhythms as he stays nestled inside you, softer now, gentle in the aftermath of everything.
His fingers trace lazy patterns along your back, fingertips light as feathers, grounding you both in this quiet, intimate space. The warmth of him fills you completely not just physically, but something deeper, unspoken.
Jin’s head rests on your shoulder, his lips brushing soft, tired kisses there. He murmurs your name quietly, a breathless reminder that you’re still his, still wrapped in each other long after the fire has cooled.
The room feels still, peaceful, but charged with the kind of closeness that only comes when two souls have collided and settled, knowing, unbreakable.
You breathe in sync, hearts beating slow, steady, connected.
And in this perfect silence, there’s only you. Only him. And the quiet, sacred space you share.
After a while, Jin slowly, gently pulls away from you, careful not to disturb the peaceful way your body is curled into his. He presses a soft kiss to your temple before slipping out of bed, his movements quiet, fluid.
You hear the faint sound of the shower in the background, water hitting tile, but sleep tugs heavily at your limbs, wrapping you in warmth and the fading afterglow of everything.
Some time later, he returns.
The air feels a little cooler now, and you stir as the mattress shifts under his weight. His hand finds your back, warm and comforting, fingers brushing away the damp strands of hair from your cheek.
“Hey,” he whispers gently, voice soft like velvet, “wake up, baby.”
You blink sleepily, eyes fluttering open to find him freshly showered, damp hair falling messily over his forehead, a soft towel wrapped low around his waist.
“Come on,” he says, kissing your forehead, “I ran a warm bath for you. Thought you’d want to soak a little while I change the sheets.”
You glance over and see the crumpled, sweat-damp mess of bedding beneath you. You nod sleepily, and he smiles, helping you up with careful hands, always so attentive, always so him.
“Take your time,” he murmurs, leading you toward the bathroom. “I’ll be here when you’re done.”
While the warm water envelops your aching body in the bath he prepared, scented lightly, just enough to soothe without overwhelming. You sink deeper into the comfort, letting your eyes close for a moment, your muscles slowly relaxing under the gentle heat.
Back in the bedroom, Jin moves quietly but efficiently.
He strips the bed of the used, tangled sheets with a little smirk at the memory of how they got that way, then tosses them into the hamper. He replaces them with fresh, soft linen, something light and cool against the skin, perfect for sleep. As he smooths the comforter and fluffs the pillows, he glances toward the bathroom, thinking about you, how you looked curled up in his arms, how you always look even softer when you trust him like that.
Once the bed is ready, he pulls on a pair of loose sweats and a simple white t-shirt, his body still warm and clean from the shower.
The bathroom door opens with a soft creak, and Jin looks up from where he’s sitting on the edge of the freshly made bed.
And then he sees you.
Wearing nothing but his shirt, oversized and draping beautifully over your damp skin, sleeves hanging long past your wrists, the hem barely grazing the tops of your thighs. Your hair is still slightly wet, skin dewy from the bath, and your eyes are soft, sleepy, and a little shy as they meet his.
For a second, he forgets how to breathe.
“Wow,” he says under his breath, standing slowly. “I knew you’d look good in it, but…” He trails off, eyes scanning you with something between reverence and complete awe. “You look better in it than I ever did.”
You smile, a little flustered, tugging at the hem as you step closer. “It smells like you,” you murmur. “I didn’t want to wear anything else.”
He reaches out and pulls you gently into his arms, pressing a kiss to your forehead as his hands settle around your waist, fingertips brushing the soft cotton that clings to your hips.
“I was hoping you’d say that,” he whispers. “You in my shirt… after a night like that… kind of makes me want to never let you take it off.”
You laugh softly into his chest, your body melting into his, warm and clean and wrapped in something more than just fabric, wrapped in him.
He hears the softness in your voice as you murmur, “I’m sleepy,” your head already nestling against his chest, your body sinking into him like it’s the safest place in the world.
Jin smiles gently, brushing his fingers through your damp hair, his touch feather-light and soothing.
“Okay, baby,” he whispers, his voice warm and quiet. “Come on, lie down with me.”
He guides you back onto the freshly made bed, pulling the covers over you with such care it feels like a lullaby. He slips in beside you, tugging you close until you’re curled up against him, his shirt loose around you, your legs tangled with his.
One arm wraps around your waist, his other hand cradling your head as you melt into him, warm and secure.
“Sleep,” he whispers against your forehead, pressing the gentlest kiss there. “I’ll be right here when you wake up.”
And with the steady beat of his heart beneath your ear, the scent of him wrapped around you, and his body holding you like he’s never letting go as you drift off, peaceful, loved, and utterly safe.
As your breathing evens out and your body softens completely in his arms, Jin stays awake, just watching you.
The room is dim and quiet, moonlight spilling gently through the curtains, casting a silvery glow over your face. You look so peaceful, curled into him, wearing his shirt like it was made for you.
He exhales softly, the kind of breath that carries more emotion than words ever could.
With a tenderness only he could give, he leans in and presses the faintest kiss to your forehead. Then another, just above your brow. Then one more light, slow, reverent into your hair.
“You’re so beautiful,” he whispers, even though you can’t hear it.
His fingers trace slow, calming lines down your back as he holds you closer, resting his chin gently atop your head.
“I hope you know how safe you are with me,” he murmurs, voice almost inaudible now, like he’s telling you a secret in your sleep. “How much I love you.”
And even in sleep, you shift just slightly, as if your body somehow heard him.
He smiles to himself, brushes one last kiss to your temple, and closes his eyes, finally letting rest take him, too, still holding you like he’ll never let go. "Love you, YN"
The Last Train | KSJ | Oneshot
Pairing: Kim Seokjin x Female Reader
Genre: Angst,Romance,Drama,Slice of Life,Exes to Lovers AU
Word Count: 10k
Summary:You and Jin miss the last train home on a rainy night. Forced to spend hours together at a 24/7 diner, old wounds and hidden feelings come to the surface.
Warnings:Insecurity & Low Self-Esteem,Verbal Comments from Others(Implied),Breakup,Emotional Conflict,Self-Doubt,Internalized Negativity,Mild Language
A/N: This one is for my Jin girlies because we barely get any.If you want more jin fics tell me in the comments I am thinking of starting jin series but unsure how well it will do.Anyway a bonus part of this is available on my patreon.Also english is not my first language so please ignore any grammatical errors.
YN's POV
I rushed towards the platform, dragging my heavy bag with me, hoping that the train had not left.
Seeing the train getting ready to departure I fastened my speed wanting to catch but just as my hand reached out the train's door slid close.
Too late.
I stood there for a second, hand still in the air, watching the lights of the train blur past until they disappeared into the tunnel. The wind from its departure blew my coat open, sending a chill up my spine.I let out a quiet sigh and dropped my hand.
Of Course I missed it.I started stamping my feet at the ground, it was not my fault that I was late, actually I was not even late but the exact moment I entered the station, the security decided to detain me for no reason except that they thought I was someone else.
Dragging the heavy bag, I sat on a bench, cursing under my breath. There was no point in checking the schedule board. I already knew, that was the last train.
I could also not go back, i had already returned the keys to the landlady, today was supposed to be my last day here, but guess not.
I glanced up at the big clock overhead. 11:30 pm.
The sound of rain started to build outside the station, light at first, then steadier.I looked toward the glass walls, already fogging over, droplets rolling down like the sky had run out of patience.
I open my phone to message my mom that I won't be there till at least tomorrow.I sigh as I pocket my phone. Well on the bright side at least I don't have to meet my parents now and the generational trauma that comes with it. I look up at the night sky heavily pouring.It takes me back to the reason I was actually here for. My relationship was the only thing that excited me in seoul so after my breakup and my parents constantly pressuring me to start come live with them, I did the only thing I am good at, I ran away.
Told my parents got offered a job in busan, came here, got a job and started living here It makes me the bad guy but does it really? I ruined my relationship and I ran away. More like my looks ruined it and my soul ran away.
I slip out of my trance as I hear someone loudly talking on the phone that he missed the last train. The sound is a little too familiar. How could I ever forget it, the only voice that throughout all the noises told me to not look down on myself, told me that we will be fine, I just need to see myself a little higher and trust him.
I look back to glance at him.
"He still looks the same but what is he doing here?"
I glance at him again but instantly look back as our eyes meet
"shit"I murmur
He’s already walking in my direction, not hurried, just steady like he isn’t surprised to see me here at all. I look down, pretending to scroll through my phone, heart thudding annoyingly loud in my chest. Out of all the people why him?. Why now? I try to ignore him, trying to act casual, but it’s too late, his steps have slowed, and now he’s standing just a few feet away.
“Y/N?”
His voice is exactly the same. Calm, level, the kind of voice that never rises unless he’s laughing or frustrated. I don’t respond immediately,just look up slowly, trying not to let too much show.
"oh, Hi"
I pretend to be surprised as if I wasn't staring at him like a creep minutes ago.
"You're here?In Busan?"
He asks surprised and almost...disappointed, the kind of disappointed that it almost looks like he searched for me.
"Oh, I got a job offer here."
"Oh, did you also miss the train?"He asks sitting beside me, a tad bit too close.
"Yeah,I did"There’s a pause. Not awkward,just quiet.
"Aren't you going home?This was the last train for today."
"I am actually going back to Seoul.I returned to keys back to landlady before coming.Where are you here though?"
"Business Meeting."His response is short and direct.
At this point I just want to go home,wrap myself in my blanket and never imagine to leave Busan. Not even in Seoul yet but still hit with the biggest memory of seoul.....the one I was trying to run away from.
"You're shaking"Jin points out,
"Am I?I guess I am just cold."I watch from the side of my eye as he separates his coat from himself and about to drape it on me when I stand up on purpose because there is nothing worse than a ex boyfriend lending a coat to his ex girlfriend. It always ends in chaos.
I see as seokjin's face falls a little at the rejection.He shifts again, glancing toward the street outside. The rain’s still coming down steadily, the sound of it tapping against the station’s glass panels like a ticking clock.
“There’s a diner across the street,” he says. “Still open, I think. You want to wait there until the rain slows down?”
"I am here just fine"
"I heard your stomach rumble just minutes ago."he jokes.It really did because I am damn hungry.
I hesitate. My instinct is to say no, come up with a reason to avoid the long, complicated space between us. But I’m cold,hungry and tired. And if I’m being honest with myself, part of me is curious. Curious about what he might say. Curious if he’s changed. Curious if he still feel the same after all this time.Because I do.
I glance over at the red neon sign across the road. Warm light spills through the windows. A couple of people are sitting inside, far enough to keep things private, close enough to keep things grounded.
"Okay"I say finally, my voice steady.He nods once, then starts walking without another word. I fall into step beside him, keeping just enough space between us to make it clear this isn’t familiar anymore but not enough to make it look like we’re strangers.
He holds the diner door open when we reach it. I walk in without saying thank you, and he doesn’t wait for one.
Just like before.
Jin's POV
The air inside the diner is warm.It smells faintly of coffee that’s been sitting too long, something fried, and the artificial sweetness of vanilla syrup. The sound of the rain dulls against the windows, now just a quiet background hum.
There are maybe four other people scattered across the booths. a delivery guy hunched over his phone, a middle-aged couple sharing a plate of fries without talking, and a girl with headphones typing on a laptop in the corner. It’s quiet enough that every movement feels louder than it is. I walk a few steps ahead of YN, scanning the space before choosing a booth near the far end, not too close to the windows, not too close to the others.
I slides into one side of the booth and watch her hesitate for a beat before sitting across from me.
I watched her stir her coffee even though she hadn’t added anything to it.
It had been months, long enough for me to memorize the silence she left behind. But not long enough to unlearn the habits I built around her. I still caught myself scanning places for her. Still instinctively slowed down when passing that one bookstore she liked. Still knew how she took her coffee, even though I didn’t know who she’d become without me.
Now here she was, sitting across from me again like no time had passed at all, except everything had.
Her words echoed in my head.
“It isn’t because I stopped loving you. It is because I stopped believing it made sense for YOU to love me.”
I blink out of the flashback, letting go of the memory that had briefly pulled me under. When I look across the table, she’s still seated exactly as before shoulders a little tense, fingers wrapped around a lukewarm coffee mug. That’s all she’s had. One cup. Nothing else.
“You should eat something,” I say, keeping my tone even. “Order freely. Dinner’s on me.”
She glances up at me, one brow arching. “Still going around flexing that CEO money, huh?”
I let out a quiet scoff, leaning back against the booth, arms crossed loosely. “And you’re still going around starving yourself.”
Her smirk fades a little.
“I mean, back then I was pretty convinced you’d starve yourself to death without me reminding you to eat. And now, seeing you again…” I trail off slightly, eyes scanning her face. “You don’t exactly look far from it.”
There’s a beat of silence.
Her grip tightens just slightly on the mug, but she doesn’t fire back this time. The words hang there sharp, but laced with concern I don’t bother hiding.
I add, softer now, “Just order something. Please.”
She doesn’t look at me right away, but her hand reaches for the menu.
She flips the menu open slowly, scanning it like it’s written in another language. Her eyes barely move across the page. It’s obvious she’s not really looking.
I sigh quietly and reach for the other menu. “You know what, never mind. I’ll order for you.”
Her head snaps up. “What?”
“You always take too long anyway,” I say, already skimming the options. “And you end up getting the same two things every time.”
She narrows her eyes at me. “You don’t even know what I like anymore.”
" I can to bet my ass, you’d still go for pancakes even at midnight.”I reply, flipping the menu shut.
She opens her mouth, then closes it again.
“Thought so,” I say, signaling the waitress. “One stack of pancakes. Extra syrup. And eggs on the side, scrambled. She won’t ask for them, but she’ll eat them if they’re there.”
The waitress writes it down without question, looking mildly amused.
Y/N stares at me for a moment. “You’re still annoying, you know that?”
“And you’re still bad at hiding when you’re relieved someone else made the choice.”
She huffs under her breath, but there’s the ghost of a smile pulling at the corner of her mouth.
The waitress walks off with the order slip, leaving the two of us in the quiet bubble of our booth again. Outside, the rain has turned into a faint mist, the wet streetlights blurring softly through the windows.
Y/N leans back in her seat, arms crossed loosely. “You always did this,” she mutters.
“Did what?”
“Act like you know me better than I know myself.”
I tilt my head slightly. “Did I ever turn out to be wrong?”
She doesn’t answer. Just shifts her gaze toward the window and shrugs like she doesn’t want to admit it.
A minute passes. Maybe two.
She hasn’t said anything, just keeps tracing slow circles along the side of her mug. Her coffee’s gone cold, but she doesn’t seem to notice.
“I looked for you,” I say quietly, the words slipping out like I’ve been holding them for too long.
She looks up, brows slightly drawn. Not defensive — just startled.
“After you ended things,” I continue. “I didn’t just... move on.”
She says nothing, so I keep going.
“I went to your apartment a few days after. You weren’t there. Your number was off. You didn’t post anything. It was like you vanished.”
Her lips press together, but she still doesn’t interrupt.
“I even asked your parents.”
Her eyes widen slightly. That catches her off guard.
“I knew you weren’t exactly on good terms with them,” I add. “But I was desperate. I nearly begged them just to tell me where you were. I wasn’t trying to win you back or make a scene. I just—”
I pause.
“I just wanted to talk to you. One last time. Properly.”
She finally speaks, voice lower than before. “You talked to my parents?”
I nod. “They told me to leave it alone. Said you didn’t want to be found. That if I cared about you, I’d respect that.”
Y/N looks away again, jaw clenching like she’s trying not to react too much. A tiny flash of guilt crosses her face, but it fades quickly.
“I didn’t ask them to say that,” she says after a moment.
“I figured.”
I lean forward a little, elbows resting on the edge of the table.“I just needed to tell you that I looked,” I say. “Even if it didn’t matter anymore.”
We sit there, the silence between us no longer stiff, but still full of everything we haven’t said. I don’t push it. I let the moment hang there, not needing to fill it.
The clatter of plates approaching interrupts us before either of us can speak again. The waitress reappears with a practiced smile and a stack of warm dishes in her arms.
“Here we go,” she says, sliding the plate in front of Y/N first. “Pancakes, syrup on the side, and scrambled eggs.”
She places a smaller plate in front of me, something I picked quickly without thinking. I don’t even remember what I ordered.
“Let me know if you need anything else,” she adds before walking off again, her gum popping faintly as she disappears behind the counter.
The table fills with the scent of warm butter and sugar. The steam rising from the food curls in the space between us. Y/N stares at her plate like it caught her off guard.
“You even remembered the eggs,” she mutters.
“I told you,” I reply, reaching for my fork. “You don’t ask for them, but you always eat them.”
She doesn’t argue this time. Just cuts into the pancakes and slowly brings a bite to her mouth.
I glance at her as she chews. She swallows like it’s the first real food she’s had all day.
She takes another bite.
Then another.
For a few minutes, we just eat. No words. No questions. Just the soft clink of cutlery and the low hum of the diner around us. It feels... normal.
Or something close to it.
She takes another sip of her coffee. I watch her carefully the way her eyes drop to the mug, the way she exhales like she’s almost ready to let her shoulders relax.
I set my fork down and ask, casually but not without weight, “How have you been in Busan?”
She glances up, surprised. Maybe at the question, maybe at the fact that I asked it so simply.
A pause.
Then she shifts slightly in her seat. “Fine,It’s… quieter than Seoul,” she says. “But also lonelier.”
I nod. “It can be.”
“There’s less noise, which I thought I’d like. It was peaceful to be honest.”
I lean back a little, just watching her as she speaks. Her voice isn’t bitter. Just honest. Flat in the way people sound when they’ve already talked themselves out of the emotions behind the words.
“I worked odd jobs for a bit,” she continues. “Did some freelance writing. Helped a friend's design studio for a while mostly admin. Nothing important.”
“It doesn’t have to be important to count,” I say.
She smiles faintly. “Still annoyingly good at saying things like that.I wanted to find an HR job.”
I return the smile, just a little. “You told me you came here because you got offered a job.”
She takes another small bite of her food, chews, swallows. “I lied ok. I thought starting over somewhere else would fix everything,” she admits. “Or at least give me space to figure things out.”
“And did it?”
She shrugs. “It gave me a mirror. I thought getting away from Seoul, from everything... would help me stop hearing those voices. But I brought them with me.”
She lets out a quiet sigh, tracing circles on the side of her mug.
After a moment, she looks up and asks softly, “How has your company been? What kind of meeting brought you to Busan?”
I blink, caught a little off guard by the question but grateful for the shift.
“It’s been steady,” I say, keeping my tone even. “We’ve had some challenges, but things are stabilizing.”
“I was here for a client meeting,” I continue. “A big project opportunity. It was supposed to be a quick trip.”
She nods slowly, biting her lip like she’s still trying to process it.
“And you didn’t know I was here?” she asks.
“No,” I admit. “I didn’t.”
She stares out the window for a moment, then back at me.
“Funny how things work out.”
I give a small, tired smile.
I watch her carefully, then ask gently, “So… were you going back tonight?”
"yeah I missed Seoul. I don't wanna live her anymore."
"hmmm"
"Aren't you going back to your hotel."
"Checked out. Well, I guess we’re stuck here for a while.”
She shrugs, folding her hands on the table. “Could be worse.”
The rain outside has slowed to a gentle drizzle. The diner’s warmth wraps around us like a small refuge from everything outside.
We settle into quiet conversation, the hours stretching gently ahead, like two people learning to share space again.
YN's POV
The diner had started to quiet down, the hum of late-night traffic replaced by the occasional hiss of tires on wet pavement.Our plates were mostly empty, mugs half full with lukewarm coffee neither us had touched in a while.
That’s when the door swings open again, letting in a gust of damp air and two girls, maybe college-aged, giggling as they enter. They scan the room briefly before walking past their booth.
They're loud, not yelling, just… not trying to be discreet either.
“Oh my god, he’s so handsome,” one of them says, a little too loudly.
“Right? But he has a girl with him,” the other adds, slowing just slightly as they pass behind me.
Then the dagger hits.
“There’s no way someone that handsome is dating that uggo. Must be like .... his sister or something.” “Or, like, his assistant. No way that’s his girlfriend.”
I feel Jin's gaze harden like he is control himself from saying something.
They snicker as they move past us, settling into a booth on the other side of the diner like they didn’t just lob a grenade across our table.
I sigh as I start gathering my things,"Thanks for the meal"
"You're leaving?"
"It's morning already, I need to wait at the station so I don't miss the next train."
"YN, it is 4 in the morning the train will not come till 7. you'll freeze."he says exasperated.
I ignore the concern. It is easier that way.
I get up from the table then bend down with a fake smile."Nice meeting you Seokjin" I take his name on purpose so he gets reminded that we are not exactly on the terms for me to call him jin. And I walk away.
Author's pov
Jin doesn’t say anything at first. His jaw ticks slightly, and then he stands, steady, calm, but with that barely there fire simmering behind his eyes.
He walks over to the girls’ booth, his expression unreadable, every step deliberate.
"Excuse me," he says, voice low and even.
One of the girls, clearly not expecting him to approach, straightens up instantly. "Oh! H-hi..." she says, flashing a nervous smile, suddenly trying to look charming.
Jin doesn’t flinch. Doesn’t smile. Doesn’t soften. He simply looks her dead in the eye.
"That woman who was sitting with me? She’s my girlfriend." His voice cuts clean through the air, sharp and direct.
The girls blink, stunned, their smug expressions dissolving in real time.
"And personally," he continues, tone unwavering, "I think she’s prettier than both of you combined".
He doesn't wait for their reply and doesn’t give them the dignity of a shocked gasp or a flustered excuse.
He turns and leaves, just as sharp, just as sure, pushing the door open as the bell above it jangles in protest.
He watches you, the outline of your figure getting smaller as you walk briskly through the misty air toward the station. Your coat flutters slightly in the wind, your shoulders squared, your steps quick like you're running from something or someone.
Jin doesn’t waste another second.
"Y/N!" he calls out once.
You don’t stop. Maybe you didn’t hear him. Maybe you did and just chose to pretend you didn't.
He quickens his pace, jogging to catch up.
You’re nearly at the station steps when you feel it, his hand wrapping gently around your arm. Not rough. Not demanding. Just… steady. Like he's trying to anchor you.
You freeze.
Slowly, you turn toward him, face blank, your expression tired and unreadable.
“What now, Seokjin?” you ask, not with anger... just exhaustion.
He doesn’t let go. His grip is gentle, fingers warm even in the cold air.
“Don’t do this,” he says quietly. “Don’t shut me out like that again. Not like this.”
You look down, blinking hard.
“We had dinner. We talked. That’s more closure than most people get.”
“I’m not asking for closure,” he says, taking a step closer. “I never was.”
Your breath catches, but you say nothing.
“You think I didn’t notice what those girls said?” he continues, voice calm but firm. “You think I didn’t see what it did to you?”
You wrap your arms around yourself, fingers digging into the sleeves of your coat. “They were right.” Your voice is a whisper, heavy. “You don’t have to defend me. I’ve heard it all before.”
“But I’ll keep saying it,” Jin replies. “They were wrong.”
You glance up at him, and for a moment, you forget how to breathe. His eyes are steady, unflinching, full of the same warmth you used to find shelter in.
“You keep trying to fix the cracks like they’re temporary,” you say, struggling to keep your voice even. “But I live with them. I am them.” You say almost riled.
He shakes his head slowly. “No. You’re more than that. You always were.”
His words settle into the space between you, and it’s so quiet you can hear the distant hum of the early train announcements echoing from the platform.
“You didn’t have to come after me,” you murmur, not meeting his gaze.
You look at him, finally really look at him. The same face, the same steady eyes, the same voice that once felt like home. And it hurts. Because it still feels like home.
But it shouldn’t.
Your voice comes out quieter than you expect, but sharp around the edges. "Jin… you’re not my boyfriend anymore. Stop caring."
There’s a flicker in his expression. Not shock he was probably expecting you to push back but it still hits him. The way his jaw tightens, the way his eyes shift ever so slightly, like he's absorbing the weight of every word.
He takes a breath.
"I know I’m not," he says evenly. "But I don’t think love just turns off when someone walks away."
You flinch slightly. He saw it.
"You asked me once why I stayed," he continues, voice lower now, like he’s talking just to you even though there’s no one else around. "And I told you I stayed because I loved you. Not because you were perfect. Not because other people approved. I stayed because you were you."
"And I left because I couldn’t be that person anymore. Not for you. Not even for myself."
The silence between you is heavy.
Jin doesn’t move closer this time. He stays right where he is, eyes steady, hands at his sides.
"I get that," he says softly. "But just because you walked away doesn’t mean I stopped hoping you’d find your way back to yourself."
You blink, fast.
And then, just as quietly, he adds, "I don’t care if I’m not your boyfriend. I’ll still worry when you haven’t eaten. I’ll still get pissed when people talk about you like they did tonight. And I’ll still show up even when you don’t ask me to."
Your throat tightens. You hate how much you want to believe him. How much a part of you never stopped wishing someone would care like that and mean it.
"You shouldn’t wait around for someone who broke your heart."
He gives a faint smile. Not the teasing kind. The tired kind, the kind people give when they’ve already made peace with their decision.
"Too late," he says.
Your fingers curl tighter around the strap of your bag, nails digging into the fabric like it’s the only thing holding you up.
You let out a breath that’s more frustration than air and look at him really look at him and this time there’s no softness left in your voice.
"Are you really here to tell me all the shit we argued about all the time?"
The words hang there, blunt and bare. No sugarcoating. No careful distance.
Jin blinks, not because he’s surprised, but because he’s letting them sink in.
You don’t stop.
"You know what we were like. You know how much we fought. About everything. About how I saw myself. About how you saw me. About how I couldn’t believe you weren’t lying when you said I was enough."
You pause, breath catching.
"And now here you are, acting like we can just talk it all out over pancakes in a booth like nothing happened. Like it didn’t break me to walk away."
For a second, you expect him to defend himself. To say it wasn’t like that. To pull out some polished line about love being messy and real.
But he doesn’t.
He looks at you, really looks at you and then nods, slow and deliberate.
"Yeah," he says finally. "We did argue. A lot."
You raise your brows, surprised at the honesty.
"And I hated every second of it," he continues. "Because every time we fought, it felt like I was losing pieces of you. But I never hated you. I never resented you for feeling what you felt."
He steps forward, just once, voice calm but firm.
"I’m not here to relive it all. I’m here because despite everything, I never stopped thinking you were worth fighting for. Even when you weren’t ready to fight for yourself."
The street is quiet. The mist has turned into a cold drizzle again, soft but persistent. You can hear your heartbeat louder than anything else.
"But I’m not trying to rewrite what happened," he adds. "I’m just trying to show you that it didn’t scare me away."
You look away before your voice cracks. "Well, it scared me."
You jerk your arm away from his touch like it burned. The distance between you widens again, not in steps, but in something heavier.
Your voice shakes, but you don’t let it crack. Not now.
"Let’s go back to the way our lives were without each other, Jin," you say, eyes locked on his. "Because yours was much more peaceful without me."
He opens his mouth to protest, but you don’t give him the chance.
"Without people judging you for your choice. Whispering behind your back. Saying you were too good for me, that someone like you shouldn’t be with someone like me."
You laugh bitterly, but it doesn’t sound like you find anything funny. "Maybe they were right. Because I started believing them. And I know it’s not fair to put that on you, but I lived with it. Every day."
Your chest rises and falls with every word you’ve held in for far too long. The rain taps steadily around you, matching the rhythm of everything you’re trying to keep contained.
Jin doesn’t move. Doesn’t speak.
You take a breath, shaky but determined.
"You don’t deserve someone who needs convincing that she’s worthy of being loved. You deserve ease. Joy. Peace."
You motion back toward the diner with a tilt of your head. "Not moments like this at 4 in the morning outside a train station with a girl who’s been running from her own reflection."
You look away, blinking up at the flickering lights above the platform.
"So let’s just… stop pretending we didn’t already end."
Your throat feels tight, like every word scraped its way out.
You don’t wait for him to respond this time. You can’t. Because if he says something soft, something honest you’re afraid it’ll undo everything you just built to walk away again.
You turn.
Your boots hit the pavement with heavy, certain steps. The platform’s in sight again, cold metal benches under buzzing lights, the sky just beginning to lighten with a dull gray. The train won’t come for hours, but it doesn’t matter. You need the distance.
From him.
From this.
From the part of you that still, stupidly, wants to believe what he said.
You hear his footsteps behind you light, cautious.
And something in you snaps.
You stop suddenly and whirl around.
"Don’t follow me."
Your voice is sharp. Not loud, but it cuts through the silence like glass breaking on tile.
Jin freezes.
You meet his eyes , really meet them and this time, it’s not pain or anger that shines through yours. It’s exhaustion. It’s finality.
You turn again, slowly, and this time, he stays behind.
You sit on the far end of the bench, the metal biting through your coat, cold seeping through the fabric like it belongs there. You pull your knees in slightly and wrap your arms around yourself, trying to get warm.
Jin sits at the opposite end, not too far, not too close but the space between you feels like a canyon. The kind you don’t cross unless someone builds a bridge, and right now… no one’s in the mood to build anything.
The silence stretches, long and unbroken, filled only by the low hum of the station lights and the distant echo of a vending machine wheezing back to life after a coin drop. Neither of you moves. Neither of you speaks.
You don’t even need to look at him to feel his presence it’s thick and familiar, like a coat you used to wear every day but haven’t touched in months. You hate that it still fits.
The rain has slowed to a fine mist now, coating the glass walls of the station in fog and condensation. Tiny droplets trickle down like slow-moving tears, and for some reason, you watch them instead of blinking.
There’s something comforting about focusing on anything but him. The way the overhead fluorescent light flickers. The occasional static announcement over the loudspeaker that no one is around to hear. The scratch of your sleeve against your skin as you adjust it again and again just for something to do.
You can feel your heartbeat not racing, not calm. Just… there. Reminding you that this is real. That he’s really here. That you're really sitting beside someone who once knew how to calm every storm in your chest and who now sits quietly, like he's not sure if he's still allowed to.
Part of you wants him to say something. Anything. Part of you dreads it.
You glance at him once, from the corner of your eye. He’s leaning forward slightly, elbows on his knees, hands clasped together. His eyes are on the tracks unmoving, unreadable. His brow furrows just slightly, like he’s deep in thought or trying not to be.
He looks like someone who’s carrying something heavy and pretending it doesn’t hurt.
You look away before he can sense your stare.
The cold creeps in deeper. Your stomach knots with that quiet ache that always shows up after a confrontation, when the adrenaline fades and you’re left with the debris.
At one point, he shifts, just barely. The bench creaks. You think he’s about to say something, maybe even your name, but he doesn’t. He just sighs, slow and quiet.
The train isn’t due for another two hours. You already checked. You both know it.
Still, neither of you leaves.
It’s strange, sitting in silence with someone who used to fill your world with noise. Not the loud kind, the kind that mattered. The kind that made mornings softer and nights feel safe. The kind of presence you didn’t even realize you'd built a rhythm around until it was gone.
You feel that rhythm still, echoing in this stillness.
You catch yourself remembering the way his hand used to find yours without asking. The way he used to touch your wrist in passing, casually, gently, as if to say “I’m here.” You remember the way you’d lean into him without thinking during long waits like this one, and the way your legs used to tangle beneath cafe tables without either of you noticing until someone pointed it out.
Now your legs are tucked away from his. Your arms are folded tight against your chest. And there’s a distance between you that feels like a decision.
Still, he hasn’t left.
And neither have you.
Time passes slowly, like the station itself is holding its breath.
You glance at the clock. 6:02 a.m.
Another hour.
You shift your weight, your back aching from sitting so long in one position. He notices you can feel it. But he doesn’t speak. Neither do you. The silence isn’t aggressive. It isn’t even awkward. It’s just… full. Of everything that’s been unsaid for months.
A pigeon flutters overhead, rustling somewhere near the ceiling beams. It draws your attention for a moment, and for some reason, that’s the moment your breath stutters.
Because there’s something heartbreakingly ordinary about sitting on a bench at 6 a.m. next to the person you once imagined a forever with and now, you can’t even bring yourself to meet his eyes.
You don’t know what hurts more the silence, or how easy it is to fall back into it with him.
And then, without warning, the tears start to fall.
Not in a flood or with any grand gesture, no loud sobs or desperate gasps for air but slow, quiet, almost shy. Like raindrops inching their way down a fogged-up windowpane on a cold morning. They slide gently down your cheeks, tracing paths you forgot were there.
You try to stop them. You brush them away. But, they just fall, one by one, as if releasing a tiny fragment of the weight you’ve been carrying for far too long.
You stare down at your hands resting limply in your lap, trembling just enough to remind you that you’re still here, still holding on, still breathing, still human.
The tears don’t come from some sudden heartbreak; they come from the slow unraveling of months, maybe years, of quiet pain that finally found a way out. The loneliness of walking away from something you loved but couldn’t save. The exhaustion of fighting a war inside your own mind, one where you were both the soldier and the enemy.
Each tear is a word left unsaid, a memory tucked away, a hurt you tried to bury deep.
You remember the nights you spent staring at the ceiling, replaying every argument, every moment you wished could have been different. The mornings when you didn’t recognize your reflection, the days when the mirror whispered cruel lies, and the nights when the silence screamed louder than any voice.
And now, here you are sitting on a cold metal bench in an empty train station at dawn, with the one person who once told you you were enough, and yet somehow, it still doesn’t feel that way.
Jin shifts beside you, just slightly careful, like he’s afraid one wrong move might shatter the fragile peace between you. His gaze flickers toward your face, catching the faint glisten of tears in the dim morning light, but he doesn’t say a word. He doesn’t reach out to touch you, doesn’t offer empty comfort or words you’re not ready to hear.
He waits.
Sometimes, you realize, waiting is the kindest thing someone can do.
You take a shaky breath, the cold air filling your lungs mixed with a faint trace of his scent that subtle, clean cologne you remember so well. It used to be comforting. Now it’s bittersweet, like a song stuck on repeat in the back of your mind.
The tears continue to fall, each one a tiny surrender, a small act of bravery. Because it takes courage to let yourself feel when you’ve spent so long hiding.
You blink, and the world feels so hard somehow with the harsh edges of regret and anger .
The distant rumble of the train grows louder, breaking through the quiet like a steady heartbeat returning to life. It’s a reminder that time moves forward, even when you don’t want it to.
You look up, your eyes red-rimmed and raw.
But sitting there beside you in the silence, in the waiting, in the tears is someone who hasn’t left. Someone who, despite everything, is still there.
You pull your coat tighter around yourself, refusing to meet Jin’s eyes. The silence between you is thick, uncomfortable not the quiet peace of mutual understanding, but the heavy weight of two people who’ve built walls they’re not ready to tear down.
The train pulls into the station with a screech of metal, doors sliding open with a hiss. Warm light spills onto the platform, and a few early commuters step off, unaware of the storm sitting quietly on this bench.
You stand, stiff and reluctant, your hands clenched in the pockets of your coat.
Jin rises too, standing close but not close enough to bridge the gap you’ve created.
You don’t look at him. You don’t smile. You don’t reach out.
You just step forward, the cold biting your cheeks as you move toward the open doors.
The train waits just long enough for you to board, and as the doors slide shut behind you, you glance back only once.
Jin also boards expression unreadable, the space between you both vast and unyielding.
You don’t know what the future holds. You only know that for now, this distance feels necessary.
And that some journeys must begin alone.
Your eyes sweep the cabin quickly. Most seats are taken, heads bowed over phones or lost in sleep. You don’t want to sit near anyone you know. Not tonight. Not after everything.
Then you spot a lone empty seat next to a middle-aged man. He’s dressed simply a plain shirt, slightly wrinkled pants and looks absorbed in his phone, fingers scrolling absently. His presence seems safe enough.
Without hesitation, you slip into the seat beside him, your body tense but relieved. You fix your gaze on the window, watching the city lights smear into long streaks as the train begins to move.
You tell yourself: anything but sitting near Jin.
But you don’t notice the man beside you shifting subtly, adjusting his position just enough to angle his phone downward too low, too close.
You don’t realize what he’s doing at first. The camera angle is hidden, the screen shielded from your view.
A faint click.
You’re focused on the window, lost in your thoughts and the blur of lights.
Another click.
The knot in your stomach tightens, but you tell yourself it’s nothing, that it couldn’t be.
But when you finally glance sideways catching the corner of his phone peeking under the edge of your skirt a cold spike of panic shoots through you.
His eyes flicker up briefly, meeting yours just for a moment before dropping back to his screen, calm, unreadable.
Your breath hitches. Your heart pounds.
You want to move, to speak, to scream but your limbs freeze, trapped by shock and disbelief.
You clutch your bag tightly, trying to cover yourself as much as you can without drawing attention.
The train hums forward, the rhythmic clatter of wheels against tracks filling the heavy silence between your racing thoughts.
Around you, the world keeps turning unaware, uncaring.
You bite your lip, forcing your breathing to slow, trying to think clearly.
Who do you tell? What do you do? The man beside you pretends nothing is wrong, scrolling lazily like a predator in plain sight.
You shift again, pulling your coat lower, trying to shield yourself.
You remind yourself to stay calm, to protect yourself, to be strong.
Jin’s eyes flicker toward you, scanning your face and posture with a sharpness that hadn’t been there earlier. He notices the subtle tension in your shoulders, the way your hands clutch your bag tighter than necessary, and most of all the quick, almost imperceptible sideways glances you keep throwing toward the man beside you.
His gaze sharpens as he follows your line of sight, catching the slight angle of the man’s phone under the edge of your skirt.
His jaw tightens.
Jin slides out of his seat and moves quietly to stand beside you
"Hey, you get up"The man’s eyes flicker up at Jin, a flicker of hesitation flashing across his face before he quickly masks it with indifference and get up.
You glance up to see jin taking the man's phone as the security suddenly comes in. The phone is given to the security and the man is escorted out at the next station.
Sliding into the seat beside you, Jin glances towards you.
"If I was still your boyfriend I would've handled him with more than just that"You feel him lean in, his presence pressing in like an unspoken promise and a challenge all at once.
The train glides smoothly along the tracks, its steady rhythm a quiet heartbeat in the night. Outside the window, the darkness begins to break apart, giving way to the faint outlines of Seoul’s sprawling skyline. Small clusters of lights flicker like distant stars, the city slowly waking up from its slumber.
You watch as familiar buildings come into view some towering high with their sleek glass facades, others smaller and worn, bearing the marks of time and countless stories. The streets below are quiet now, only a few cars threading their way through the empty roads, their headlights casting soft pools of light.
Inside the train, the atmosphere feels suspended between movement and stillness. Jin remains seated beside you, his presence solid but not intrusive. Neither of you speak. The silence isn’t uncomfortable; it’s simply the space between two people who once knew each other well but now occupy a place somewhere in between familiarity and distance.
You steal a glance at him his face calm, eyes distant as they gaze out the window. There’s no bitterness, no anger, only a quiet reserve. His jaw is set, and for a moment you wonder what he’s thinking. Does he feel the same weight you do? Or is this just another night, another train ride that neither of you wanted but had to endure?
The soft murmur of other passengers stirs around you. A few shift in their seats, some gather their bags, and low conversations blend with the rustle of coats and the tapping of fingers on phone screens. The hum of the train and the collective sounds create a muted backdrop, contrasting with the stillness between you and Jin.
You return your gaze to the window, watching the city edge draw closer. Neon signs begin to blink on, restaurants opening their doors for the morning rush, convenience stores lighting up with familiar logos, and street lamps illuminating sidewalks slick with rain from earlier.
Then, unexpectedly, you feel him resting his head on your shoulder. It’s light, tentative, as if he’s testing the waters of closeness you both left behind. The weight of him there is surprising, grounding and unsettling all at once.
But you don’t move away. Instead, you let the quiet settle between you, the silence filling with something unspoken but understood. The city outside blurs past, but here, in this small space, time feels suspended.
The train begins to slow, the brakes hissing softly, but for this moment, you just sit still, letting him lean in, even if only briefly.
The train slows further, the gentle screech of the brakes signaling your approach to the station. You straighten slightly, still feeling the lingering warmth of his head on your shoulder, a quiet reminder of the fragile connection between you.
You grab your bag firmly, ready to stand, but hesitate just a moment, glancing sideways at him. His eyes meet yours steady, unreadable and without a word, you both move toward the doors.
The doors slide open with a soft whoosh, and the cool rush of station air brushes over you. Stepping out, the scent of damp concrete and faint city sounds greet you, grounding you back to reality.
You walk forward, the weight of the night before and the journey pressing lightly on your shoulders. Behind you, Jin follows silently, close but not too close, a silent acknowledgment that this moment is ending.
As the train pulls away, the lights inside dim, and the city outside pulses with its own rhythm, indifferent to the quiet goodbye unfolding on the platform.
You take a breath and step fully into the morning, carrying with you everything that was, everything that is, and the space in between.
You step off the platform and head toward the station exit, your steps quickening as the morning chill brushes against your face. The city is awake now, cars humming by, early risers hustling to work, and the pale blue of dawn creeping in from the horizon. You pause at the curb, lifting your hand to hail a cab, when a firm hand catches your arm from behind.
You freeze.
“Wait—” Jin’s voice is breathless, like he hadn’t meant to call out but couldn’t stop himself.
You turn slightly, your expression guarded, your body stiff.
He looks at you, eyes scanning your face like he’s trying to memorize it again. “You changed your number.”
You don't answer, not right away. It’s not a question anyway. It’s an observation tinged with something tired frustration, maybe. Or disappointment.
He exhales, rubbing the back of his neck briefly before meeting your gaze again.
“Just give me the new one,” he says, softer this time. “Please.”
The cab slows and pulls up beside you, its headlights cutting through the pale morning haze. The driver leans over to roll the window down, but you lift a hand to gesture for him to wait.
You stare at him for a moment longer, debating. Part of you wants to turn away, to get in the cab, close the door, and let the city swallow this whole night like it never happened.
But another part, the quieter, more tired part knows that if you don’t, he’ll still be standing here when the cab drives off. Still waiting. Still hoping. Still looking at you like that.
You sigh, dig into your coat pocket, and pull out your phone. Your fingers move quickly, typing the number without looking at him.
You hold it out to him, screen facing up.
He blinks, almost surprised you did it.
“You better not start texting me paragraphs at 3 a.m.,” you say flatly, trying to keep your tone light.
“I won’t. Unless it’s really important. Like life-or-death.”He nods lightly biting his inner cheek in shyness, he feels like a school girl who's crush hinted that he also likes him because after months he is finally allowing himself to hope that you will come back again.
You slide into the cab, shutting the door behind you. He steps back from the curb, hands in his coat pockets, watching.
The driver asks for your destination. You give it without turning your head.
As the cab pulls away, you steal one last glance through the rear window.
He’s still there.
Still watching.
Still waiting that maybe that missed train will lead to something much more than just dinner with you.
One week later
Your screen lights up jerking you up from sleep with a call from “Seokjin 🌚” and for a second, you stare at it like it personally insulted you. Because It’s 2 in the morning,You haven’t spoken to him since the train,WHY is he calling at 2 a.m. and why do you still have his name saved like that?
You pick up, already half-scowling. “Are you dying?”
“No. Well, emotionally, yes, but not in the ‘call an ambulance’ way.” His voice is way too awake. You hear typing in the background.
“Then this better be a mistake.”
“It’s not,” he says brightly. “Actually, I’m calling to invite you to my company tomorrow.”
You blink. “I’m sorry, did you just… 2 a.m.-booty-call me for a business meeting?”
“Not business,”
You sigh deeply. “I’m hanging up.”
“Wait! Just one hour. I need to show you something.”
“Jin—”
“And coffee. From that overpriced place you like.”
“…You bribed me with coffee?”
“And curiosity. You’re curious, admit it.”
You pinch the bridge of your nose. “Fine. One hour. No weird metaphors.”
He cackles. “See you at 11.”
The next day you walk in to find him setting up a projector.
He’s wearing a suit. No jacket. No tie. Just a crooked red bowtie like he’s a magician about to pull a bunny out of heartbreak.
“What are you wearing?” you ask flatly.
“It’s presentation couture,” he says, clicking the remote with flair."Are you serious?" “I present to you: ‘Exes to Lovers: A Case Study Featuring Two Idiots.’”
You blink.
“Subtitled: ‘Why You Should Consider Taking Back This Hot Mess of a Man.’”
Slide 1: Top 5 Reasons We Broke Up (And Why 4.5 Were Insecurity)
You cross your arms. “You really gave yourself only half the blame?”
“The .5 is generous,” he defends. “I only didn’t say things right. You stopped believing them at all.”
Slide 2: Visual Timeline of Our Relationship
[Photos or drawn stick figures of: – First awkward hug – Our beach trip – That terrible ramen place we pretended to like – Her sleepy face in my hoodie – Our last photo before the breakup]
You stare at the photos — beach trips, sleepy selfies, ramen nights.
“That one—” you point, “I was mad at you for two hours before that pic.”
He laughs. “You looked so cute while mad, I risked a selfie.”
“I hated that ramen.”
“I loved you anyway.”
That shuts you up for a second.
Slide 3: Things We Love (Venn Diagram)
“Wait—you listed me under ‘your hobbies’?”
“Correct. Alongside food, chaos, and bad jokes.”
“Rude.”
“You were the hobby.”
You roll your eyes. You’re still not uncrossing your arms. But your mouth twitches.
Slide 4: Scientific Evidence That You Are Hot
93% of my friends were jealous
87% of people who saw us thought you were out of my league
100% of photos confirm: you = gorgeous
1 dumb stranger in a diner ≠ reality (Peer-reviewed by: Me, my mom, and every mirror I’ve seen you in.)
You almost choke on your coffee.
“Did you seriously put a chart—”
“Peer-reviewed.”
“By your mom?!”
“She said you’re prettier than me. And she’s never wrong.”
You shake your head but can’t fight the tiny smirk on your lips.
Slide 5: What I Learned After You Left
I don’t like scrambled eggs without you stealing half of mine
I should’ve fought harder to make you feel secure
Love needs more than words — it needs showing up, even when it’s uncomfortable.
“I don’t want to fix you,” he adds. “I just want to be beside you while you learn to see what I already do.”
Your heart flips. You hate him a little for it.
Slide 6: My Qualifications as Your Future (Again) Boyfirend
Have emotionally matured (slightly)
Learned active listening (thank you therapy and TED Talks)
Still remember your coffee order
Have new jokes (worse ones, sorry)
Still in love with you (not sorry)
You mutter, “You misspelled ‘boyfriend.’”
He panics and checks the screen. “What?! Oh god okay, okay just ignore—”
You laugh. A real one. He grins like he just won the lottery.
Slide 7: Rebuttal to Common Objections
He reads them aloud dramatically.
“What if we break up again?” “Then we break better.”
“What if I’m still not enough?” “You’ve always been too much in the best way.”
You go still. That one lands.
Slide 8: My Goals If You Say Yes
“‘Steal my fries without asking’ is not a goal.”
“It’s a dream, Y/N.”
You glance at the last point:
“Make her believe she’s beautiful — not by saying it, but by staying.”
You look away quickly. “Next slide.”
Slide 9: Risks & Outcomes
“Risk: You say no. I cry alone with pancakes.”
“Again,” you mutter.
“Outcome: You say yes. We try. Maybe we fail. But I’ll never let you wonder if I loved you.”
Slide 10: Conclusion — I Love You
No fancy fonts.
Just a line of text:
You don’t have to believe you’re perfect. Just believe I’m not lying. Please don’t make me lie to my mom. She already made rice.
You stare at it.
Then at him.
Then… back at the bowtie.
“How are you a ceo…You’re ridiculous,” you whisper.
“And yet you came.”
You hesitate. But only for a breath.
“One dinner.”
He beams.
Jin grins, flipping through his slides like he owns the place. “How do you think I became a CEO? By being seriously ridiculous and a little stubborn.”
You roll your eyes, smirking. “Yeah, because CEOs definitely spend their nights making PowerPoints and rocking bowties.
for the first time since Busan… You feel like maybe the train didn't come late after all.
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Extra
The Last Train | KSJ | Extra
Pairing: Kim Seokjin x Female Reader
Genre: Angst, Romance, Drama, Fluff, Slice of Life, Exes to Lovers AU
Word Count: 10k
Summary: You and Jin miss the last train home on a rainy night. Forced to spend hours together at a 24/7 diner, old wounds and hidden feelings come to the surface.
Warnings: NSFW / 18+ ONLY 🔞,Exes to Lovers, Emotional Reunion, Slow Burn, Intimacy, Soft Dom!Jin, Body Worship, Praise, Insecurity, Self-Esteem Themes, Unprotected Sex (refrain irl),Aftercare, Mention of Korean beauty standards (If I forgot something please tell me)
A/N: This is a bonus part for The last train home, consider reading that first. I was not feeling like writing anything new so I added to this one.
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The ride to Jin’s place is quiet.
Not uncomfortable but thick with something unspoken. Outside, the city hums with late-night traffic and neon reflections; inside the car, your hand occasionally brush his. You don’t move away, and neither does he.
He unlocks the door with one hand, the other still holding your bag like it’s sacred. The apartment smells faintly of his cologne and cedarwood that is familiar and grounding. You hadn’t realized how much you missed the scent until you stepped inside it again.
It hasn’t changed much. The same charcoal-gray couch. The same crooked frame he never fixed. A half-read book on the table. It's like time stalled here.
Except it didn’t. Not for either of you.
You shrug off your coat, suddenly aware of how quiet the space is. He gestures toward the couch. “Sit. I’ll get something warm. Tea? Or you still like that weird vanilla-mint mix?”
You give a small laugh. “Still do.”
He passes a small smile before disappearing into the kitchen. You run your hand along the armrest, your fingers catching on the familiar stitching. There’s a blanket neatly folded on the corner. You remember falling asleep under it once, half on him, half on the cushions, when your shared world felt invincible.
Jin returns with two mugs, handing you yours. His fingers brush yours briefly.
“Thanks,” you murmur.
You both sip quietly. He watches you over the rim of his mug like he’s afraid blinking might make you vanish again.
“You still drink it too hot,” he notes.
“And you still make it too sweet.”
"Don't you remember a lot of things for a 2 year breakup." You tease
"I didn't forget, I couldn't"
There’s a pause. You feel it in your chest the question, the invitation. You could ignore it. Let this night end here, half-healed. But your eyes meet his, and something ancient passes between you.
"Do you want to stay?" he asks hesitant, voice softer now, he looks away immediately after asking. His gaze shifts from his lap to the table while his fingers fidget nervously. That pulls a giggle out of you.
You nod, setting the mug down.
Jin stands slowly, then offers his hand not demanding, just open. You take it.
He leads you through the hallway like it’s the first time. It isn’t. But this version of you older, bruised, grown, it is her first time walking back into a space like this, into trust like this.
His bedroom is dim, lit only by the soft, diffused glow of the city lights pouring through the sheer curtains. The skyline flickers in shades of blue, casting gentle shapes across the walls.
He turns to look at you, his gaze soft under the dim light, and gently tucks a loose strand of hair behind your ear.
"You got prettier," he says quietly.
You raise an eyebrow, your voice low. "Are you trying to assure me?"
He doesn’t flinch, doesn’t look away. "No," he murmurs. "Just stating facts."
He gently guides you to sit on the edge of the bed, his touch tender, almost reverent. Then he kneels in front of you, eyes level with yours, and takes both your hands in his, his thumbs slowly tracing circles over your knuckles, like he's memorizing every line and detail.
"Y/N," he begins softly, his voice deep but warm, "whenever I told you that you're pretty, beautiful, sexy, absolutely gorgeous… it was never to assure you. It was to remind you. Remind you in case you forgot, remind you because I see it every day, and I just hoped… maybe one day, you’d start seeing yourself the way I see you."
He pauses, lifting your hands to his lips, pressing a gentle kiss against your fingers.
"And even now," he continues, eyes locked with yours, "I’m not saying this to make you feel better. I’m saying it because it’s the truth. So what if you don’t fit into some narrow, airbrushed version of beauty, those standards aren’t made for someone like you. You’re real. And you’re breathtaking."
His voice gets quieter, like he’s afraid to break the moment.
"I’m so lucky to have you. I deserve you. And you deserve me too, hm?"
He tilts his head just slightly, giving you the softest smile. "So stop wondering why I love you, and just know that I do. Completely."
"Jin it is not you, it was never you. It is just the people who made me doubt, it was just that no one ever saw me past my face but I didn't think u didn't look past it, It was just that maybe it could hinder our love in the future.
His expression falters for just a second, like your words settled heavily in his chest. But he doesn’t let go of your hands in fact, he holds them tighter, as if grounding both of you.
“Y/N…” he says, voice low and steady, “don’t ever think I was blind to your past, or what the world has made you carry. I saw it, I saw you. Not just your face, not just the parts the world picks apart. I saw your silence, your fear, the way you flinched at love like it might break you.”
He swallows, his thumb brushing against your wrist. “But never did I think any of that would hinder us. Not then. Not now. Not ever.”
He leans his forehead gently against your knee, eyes closed for a moment.
“It wasn’t me, I know that. And it kills me that they made you feel this way. That they made you believe love had conditions or that beauty had limits. But I’m here to rewrite all of that with you. I know you walked away because you were unsure but there is nothing to be unsure of.”
He lifts his head again, gaze steady, soft but unshakable. “If ever there’s something standing in the way of our love… it won’t be your face. Or your fears. Or your past.”
He exhales. “Because I didn’t fall in love with just your beauty. I fell for your fire, your flaws, your stubborn heart, your gentleness, your chaos. All of it. And I’m not going anywhere.”
You squeeze his hands gently, grounding yourself in the warmth of his touch before tugging on them just a little.
He doesn’t resist. You guide him up from the floor and make him sit beside you on the edge of the bed, thigh to thigh, shoulders brushing, as if the distance between your bodies was never meant to exist in the first place.
The silence settles around you like a soft blanket, quiet, but full.
He doesn’t say anything right away, he just watches you for a moment longer, eyes soft with something deeper than words. Then, with a tenderness that makes your chest ache, he reaches for your sweater.
He moves slowly, like he’s afraid to startle the moment. His fingers brush your shoulders as he eases the fabric down your arms, careful, unrushed. The sweater pools quietly behind you on the bed.
Then he kneels slightly, reaching for your shoes. His touch is light, almost reverent, as he unfastens them one by one and slips them off.
He doesn’t look up yet, just runs his hand gently along your ankle, like he’s memorizing the shape of you.
“There,” he murmurs, still crouched in front of you, voice barely above a whisper. “You don’t have to carry anything tonight. Not the weight. Not the doubt. Not even your shoes.”
He stays quiet, his hands steady but unhurried as they rise toward your hair. Fingers brushing softly against your scalp, he finds the tie holding it back.
There’s a moment of pause like he’s giving you space, like he’s silently asking, Can I? Like he’s waiting for the smallest flinch, the slightest push.
But you don’t move.
So gently, he begins to undo it, unraveling the strands like they’re something sacred. The elastic slips from your hair, and it falls freely around your shoulders. His fingers linger there, combing through it slowly, reverently as if this is his way of soothing every hurt you never spoke aloud.
His eyes search yours, not with expectation but with quiet understanding. As if he's telling you: You don't owe me anything. But if you stay… I’ll cherish all of you.
You slowly lean in, your nose brushing his, breaths mingling in the sliver of space between you. Your hand finds his cheek, thumb grazing the corner of his mouth as if you’re trying to memorize the moment before it changes everything.
His eyes search yours, wide with something fragile, hope, maybe. Fear, too.
“You know what this means, right?” he asks, voice barely audible, thick with hesitation. “This… us.”
You nod, just slightly, your voice steady but soft. “I know what it means.”
He doesn’t move. He lets you close the space. Because this time, it’s you choosing him.
You close the last inch between you, pressing your lips to his slowly, gently, like you’re speaking in a language only the two of you understand.
He doesn’t rush it. He melts into it.
His hand comes up to cradle your jaw, thumb brushing your cheek with a kind of reverence, like he can’t believe this is real. Your lips move in sync, unhurried, full of everything you hadn’t said until now, every fear, every feeling, every silent I’m ready.
When you finally pull back, just enough to breathe, his eyes are still closed like he’s trying to hold onto the feeling a second longer. Then he opens them, looking at you like you’re the only thing in the world that makes sense.
“You kissed me,” he whispers, smiling like he’s in awe.
“I did,” you whisper back, your voice softer now, steadier. “And I meant it.”
With a breath drawn slow and careful, he leans in, capturing your lips again but this time, there’s more depth to it. More weight. More want. His hand slides along your side, grounding you, and then gently he eases you back onto the bed.
He moves slowly, like every second matters. Like this isn’t about urgency, but about memorizing the feel of you beneath him, your fingers in his hair, your heartbeat thudding against his palm as he rests it over your chest for a moment.
“Still okay?” he whispers against your lips, his voice a quiet anchor in the rising tide of emotion.
Your answer is in the way your eyes meet his, sure, steady, full of trust. He exhales again, like you just gave him permission to breathe deeper. And then he leans in, pressing another kiss to your lips this one slower, surer, like he’s promising not to rush what was always meant to unfold gently between you.
The kiss deepens naturally, breath hitching between you as his hand finds your waist, anchoring you closer. His lips move with more certainty now, no longer just a question, but a need.
Then, slowly, deliberately, he catches your lower lip between his teeth. It’s gentle, almost teasing, but full of intention. A quiet request laced in the way his lips linger there.
You exhale softly against his mouth, your fingers curling in the fabric at his back as you part your lips.
He kisses you deeper, warmer, fuller, like he’s been holding this part of himself back for far too long. His hand slides to cradle the side of your face, thumb brushing over your cheek as your mouths move together in perfect rhythm.
It’s not rushed. It’s not reckless.
The heat between you builds gradually, tenderness layered with something deeper, something that hums just beneath the surface. His hand stays at your waist, grounding you in the moment, while the kiss grows more certain, more consuming.
Without thinking, his knee shifts, sliding between your legs with natural ease as he leans in closer. It’s not deliberate, not rushed but instinctive, part of the gravity pulling you both closer. The press of his body feels protective, not demanding. Like he’s holding you, not taking from you.
Your breath hitches, just slightly, and he stills for a beat, eyes flicking open to search your face.
Your fingers twist into the fabric of his shirt, tugging him down with a kind of urgency that wasn’t there before, like restraint has finally given way to want. Real, aching want.
“Fuck, Jin,” you breathe, voice rough around the edges, raw with need.
His eyes darken the moment the words leave your mouth, and for a second he just looks at you like he’s trying to commit every inch of you to memory. The flush on your cheeks. The way your chest rises and falls. The way you’re holding onto him like you need him.
Then he exhales, shaky, like your voice just undid something in him. “You can’t say that and expect me to stay gentle,” he murmurs, his voice low, wrecked, and impossibly tender all at once.
But even then he’s careful. As he leans in again, his hand moves to cover yours where you’re clutching his shirt. He guides your touch, slowly pulling the fabric over his head and tossing it aside, never breaking eye contact.
“Tell me if you want to stop,” he says, his lips ghosting along your jaw now, his knee still settled between your thighs. “But if you don’t…” His voice dips even lower. “Then I’m yours. All of me.”
His lips leave yours slowly, like he’s reluctant to break the connection even for a moment. But when he does, it’s only to find new places to worship.
He trails soft, open-mouthed kisses across your cheekbone, then down to your jaw. Each one is unhurried, reverent like he’s tasting you, like he’s learning you.
His breath is warm against your skin as his lips find that sensitive spot just beneath your ear. You feel his fingers tighten ever so slightly at your waist when you react, barely a shiver, but he feels it. He knows.
He doesn’t speak. He doesn’t have to. His mouth moves lower, tracing your pulse, then brushing along the curve of your neck, pausing, letting the heat linger there before pressing a firmer kiss. Another. Then another. Slow and deliberate, like he’s making a map of everywhere you feel most alive.
He works his way back up, scattering kisses along your cheek, the bridge of your nose, your eyelids each one soft, grounding, full of quiet affection that contrasts beautifully with the weight of the want between you.
By the time his lips find yours again, you’re already breathless not from urgency, but from the overwhelming tenderness of it all. Like every kiss is his way of saying: I see you. I choose you. And I’m not letting go.
His hands drift to the hem of your top, fingers toying with the fabric.
He tugs your top upward slowly, not in a rush to tear it off, but like he’s unwrapping something sacred. His knuckles graze your sides, sending heat rippling across your skin as he peels it over your head and tosses it aside.
For a second, he just looks at you. His breath catches, gaze roaming from your eyes to your lips, then lower, lingering on the new skin exposed. But there’s no rush in him, just awe.
"God, Y/N…” he breathes, voice rough with restraint and reverence. “You’re… unreal.”
He leans in again, placing a soft kiss right between your collarbones, then another just above your heart as if he’s letting you know this isn’t just about desire. It’s about you.
And with every kiss, every touch, he makes it clearer: He’s not here to take. He’s here to worship.
His lips are still warm against your skin, brushing over your collarbone, when his hands slide around your back, slow, sure, never rushing. His fingers find the clasp of your bra, resting there for a moment.
He lifts his head slightly, eyes meeting yours again, checking, always checking. Not for permission, but for comfort. For trust.
When you don’t pull away when your breath hitches just enough and your fingers curl lightly against his bare shoulder.
His fingers work at the clasp, slow and careful, like he’s unwrapping something delicate. The tension slips free, and he eases the straps down your arms, his touch light as air, never breaking eye contact.
When your bra finally falls away, his breath catches. But he doesn’t pounce. He just looks at you, like you’ve knocked the wind out of him, like he wants to remember the way you look in this exact moment for the rest of his life.
“You’re so—” he starts, then stops, because no word feels big enough.
So instead, he kisses you again. Slower. Deeper.
And his hands slide back up your waist, holding you like you’re something he never thought he’d get to have something he refuses to take for granted.
His hands still at your waist for a moment, eyes roaming over you like he’s seeing something he never thought he deserved. His lips are slightly parted, chest rising and falling with the weight of everything unsaid until now.
“It’s a pity,” he murmurs, voice low and wrecked, “that you don’t know how hot you are.”
You blink, breath caught in your throat, the heat between you crackling at the edges.
He leans in closer, brushing a kiss just under your jaw, then another at the curve of your shoulder. “Seriously, Y/N…” he whispers, lips grazing your skin as he speaks. “You could bring me to my knees with just one look and you still hesitate to believe it.”
He pulls back just enough to look at you again, his expression raw, hungry, but laced with something deeper.
His kiss deepens with something rougher now, your words still echoing in his head, pulling him under, unraveling the last thread of his restraint.
His hand glides up your side, slow but certain, until it finds your breast. He cups it gently at first, like he’s still in awe then his thumb brushes over your skin, and the sound you make in response drives him wild.
He pulls back just slightly, eyes dark and heavy-lidded as they meet yours.
“God,” he breathes, his voice hoarse. “You feel so fucking perfect.”
His eyes never leave yours as he leans in, his hand still cradling your breast with a mix of reverence and want. You feel his breath first—warm and unsteady against your skin—before his lips finally make contact.
He starts with a soft kiss, slow and deliberate, right over your heart. Then another, lower this time. And when his mouth finally reaches your breast, he moves gently at first, lips brushing over the sensitive skin like he’s savoring the taste of you.
His tongue flicks softly, teasing, as his hand supports and shapes you toward his mouth. A low, quiet sound escapes him—half a groan, half awe—like he’s been aching for this, like he needs this.
“You drive me crazy,” he murmurs against your skin, voice rough and quiet. “Every inch of you… I want it all.”
You thread your fingers into his hair, gently tugging until his mouth leaves your skin. His eyes flick up to yours, dazed and breathless but you don’t give him time to speak.
You pull him back to your lips, kissing him with a new kind of urgency, hungry, deep, claiming. He groans into your mouth, his hands tightening on your waist as if trying to ground himself in the heat of you.
Then, slowly, you begin to trail your kisses downward.
Over his jaw. Down his neck. You feel the way his breath catches when your lips brush the hollow of his throat, and you smile against his skin.
You keep going, lips and tongue moving lower, down the curve of his collarbone, across his chest, leaving heat in your wake. You pause just above his heart, pressing a lingering kiss there before lightly nipping at the skin.
His chest rises sharply under your mouth, and a low, guttural sound escapes him.
“Fuck, Y/N…” he rasps, voice wrecked, head tilted back.
And as your mouth continues its descent, tasting every inch like a promise, he looks down at you like you’re both a dream and the fire that’s about to consume him.
His hands find your hips, holding you with a reverence that contrasts the growing hunger in his touch. You feel his lips on your neck again, hot, open-mouthed kisses that make your breath stutter in your chest.
But this time… there's intent behind them.
He sucks gently at the skin just below your jaw, then moves lower, trailing kisses along the curve of your shoulder. You feel the first love bite bloom beneath his lips, just enough pressure to leave a mark, just enough to make you gasp.
“You should see yourself,” he murmurs against your skin, voice low and strained. “Already covered in me.”
He keeps going, leaving a slow trail of love bites down your collarbone, across your chest, each one deliberate, each one claiming. He pauses after every mark, kissing it softly like an apology and a promise all at once.
“This okay?” he whispers between kisses, lips brushing over the fresh warmth of a new mark.
The look in your eyes, half-lidded, lost in him is answer enough. And he groans softly, burying his face against your skin like he’s addicted now, like he never wants to stop.
Each bite says what he hasn’t yet put into words: You’re mine. And I want the world to know it.
The air in the room is cool, the soft hum of the AC barely registering against the sound of your mingled breaths, but neither of you feel it. Not anymore.
Despite the cold, both your bodies are slick with a light sheen of sweat, skin flushed and glowing under the dim light. Every kiss, every gasp, every whispered name has added to the heat curling between you, unrelenting and electric.
His hair clings slightly to his forehead, chest rising and falling against yours in rhythm, like your bodies have synced without meaning to. Your fingers drag down his back, slick with heat and want, as his mouth hovers just above yours, lips swollen, eyes dark.
“You feel that?” he murmurs hoarsely, nudging his forehead against yours. “I could touch you for hours and still not be close enough.”
Your response is a breathless nod, a quiet whimper against his mouth as you pull him down again, the cool sheets doing nothing to tame the fire building between your skin.
It doesn’t matter that the room is chilled. Between you and him, It’s all heat. All tension. And neither of you is even close to done.
His hands find the waistband of your jeans, eyes flicking up to meet yours one last time, checking. When you don’t stop him, when your fingers tighten just slightly around his biceps, urging him on, he leans in to kiss you again, soft and slow, before trailing his hands downward.
He unbuttons them carefully, almost reverently, and begins to slide them down your hips. The denim clings slightly to your heated skin, but he takes his time, inch by inch, like he’s unwrapping something precious, not just undressing you, but adoring you.
When he finally eases them off your legs, letting them fall to the floor, he draws back just enough to take you in.
There you are laid out beneath him in nothing but your underwear, flushed and glowing, lips kiss-bitten and chest rising and falling like you’ve just run a marathon.
“Fuck,” he breathes, his voice low, wrecked. “You’re… unreal.”
He runs his hands slowly up your bare thighs, savoring the way you shiver under his touch. His fingers linger at your hips, his thumbs brushing gently over the edge of your underwear but he doesn’t move further. Not yet.
He wants to take his time. He wants you to feel every second of how much he wants you.
He lowers himself slowly, lips brushing soft, open kisses along your thigh, each one closer than the last, each one more deliberate. The muscles beneath your skin twitch at the contact, anticipation tightening every breath you take.
And then he pauses.
His eyes settle on the damp patch blooming at the center of your underwear, and something in his expression shifts like awe and hunger colliding all at once.
“Look at you,” he murmurs, voice like a low hum against your skin. His fingers gently part your thighs a little more, giving him room to settle between them. “So worked up for me already.”
He presses a kiss to your inner thigh, close, so close then looks up at you, his eyes dark and blazing with something deeper than just lust.
“I haven’t even touched you there yet,” he says with a breathless smile, almost reverent. “And you’re already soaking through.”
Another kiss, this one slower, hotter lands just beside the wet patch, as his hand rests on your hip to hold you steady, like he knows you’re already trembling beneath the weight of his attention.
“I’m gonna take my time with you,” he whispers, voice thick with want. “Because you deserve to be undone slowly.”
Your voice breaks through the haze, low and breathless “Fuck, Jin. Stop being an asshole.”
He freezes for half a second, then laughs, soft and wrecked, his breath hot against your skin.
“Oh?” he murmurs, pressing one more teasing kiss just beside where you want him most. “Is that what I am now?”
You glare at him, your fingers tangling in his hair, tugging just enough to make him groan. “You know what you’re doing.”
He grins, cocky and flushed, eyes full of mischief and want. “Yeah,” he whispers, letting his lips hover just over the soaked fabric. “That’s the fun part.”
His smirk fades, replaced by something deeper, hungrier but still full of reverence. He shifts closer, his hands slow as they hook into the sides of your underwear.
He pulls them down with care, like he’s unwrapping something fragile, something he’s waited a long time to fully see. As the fabric slides down your thighs and past your knees, he keeps his gaze locked on you, eyes dark, lips parted, breath shallow.
And when you’re finally bare before him, he exhales like he’s been holding his breath since the moment this began.
He lets his fingers trail lightly up your inner thigh, ghosting over your slickness, barely there, but enough to make your hips twitch, your breath stutter.
“Fuck,” he whispers, almost to himself, eyes flickering with a mix of awe and heat. “You’re so wet for me.”
Then he leans in.
And with a tenderness that borders on worship, he presses a soft, lingering kiss right where you need him most. Not rushed. Not greedy. Just… his lips on you slow, claiming, reverent.
The kiss is a promise. He’s not here to tease anymore. He’s here to ruin you, gently.
Before he can pull away, your hand shoots down, fingers threading into his hair as you grab his face and hold him there. Your hips roll forward instinctively, grinding against his mouth with a desperate, breathless need that leaves no room for teasing.
A groan vibrates from deep in his throat, muffled against you, and he lets you take control, welcomes it.
His hands immediately grip your thighs, fingers digging in just enough to anchor you as you move against him. He tilts his head just right, lips and tongue working in perfect rhythm with your motions, matching your urgency with his own.
You hear him moan again, this time raw, hungry, completely undone by the way you’re using him. And the sound only makes you press down harder, riding his mouth like it’s the only way to survive the heat surging through your veins.
You look down at him, his flushed cheeks, dark eyes, and the way he wants this, wants you and it sends you spiraling.
Every grind. Every flick of his tongue. Every breathless noise you make. He takes it all......like you’re his favorite sin. And he never once tries to stop you.
Your voice spills out between shaky breaths. Raw, desperate, laced with everything you’re feeling.
“Fuck, Jin… deeper.”
It’s not a request. It’s a plea.
And he hears it.
His grip on your thighs tightens, grounding you as he presses in closer, his mouth claiming you with a hunger that borders on worship. He parts you with his tongue, slow at first but then deeper, firmer, the kind of pressure that makes your back arch and your fingers tangle tighter in his hair.
He groans into you loud, and shameless, driven completely wild by the way you sound, the way you taste, the way you grind against his mouth like you can’t get enough.
“Just like that,” he murmurs against you in a ragged breath, his voice thick with want. “Let me hear you, baby. I want all of it.”
And he dives in again, deeper, messier, perfect like he wants to unravel you from the inside out, like his only goal is to leave you shaking, ruined, and completely his.
As your moans grow sharper, your hips grinding down harder against his mouth, Jin responds instantly, intuitively. His hands tighten around your thighs, holding you steady, and then you feel it, his thumb, sliding up between your folds, slick from your arousal and the heat of his mouth.
He presses it gently against your clit, circling with just enough pressure to make your breath hitch and your body jolt.
“Fuck—Jin,” you gasp, your fingers tugging at his hair, and he groans in response, the sound vibrating through you.
His mouth continues working you with slow, deep strokes of his tongue, but now paired with the rhythmic, focused motion of his thumb, each movement synced perfectly with the way your body trembles beneath him.
“You’re falling apart for me,” he murmurs against you, voice ragged, thumb pressing a little harder, a little faster. “Just like that. Let go, baby.”
And with that combination: his mouth, his thumb, his voice, you feel yourself spiraling fast, the pleasure climbing with every wave, threatening to break you open in the best possible way.
Just when you think you’ve adjusted to the rhythm, his thumb circling you, his mouth worshiping you with steady, devastating precision, you feel the soft scrape of his teeth.
A gasp escapes you.
It’s light, careful, more teasing than rough. He lets them graze against your sensitive skin for just a second, just enough to make your hips jolt and a breathy “fuck” fall from your lips. He pulls back the moment he feels your body tense, not from discomfort, but from how sharply the pleasure spikes.
And then his tongue is back.
Softer now. Slower but deeper, more deliberate. Paired with the steady motion of his thumb, it’s almost too much. Your thighs threaten to close around his head, but his grip keeps you open, anchored, right where he wants you.
“God,” he groans into you, almost drunk on the taste of you. “The way you react… it’s everything.”
His tongue moves again, slick, hot, purposeful drawing you back into the rhythm, until your moans are breathless and your body’s trembling under the weight of how close you are.
And still, he doesn’t let up. Because he wants you to fall apart. And he wants to be the only one who’s ever brought you there like this.
Your body’s already pulsing with heat, every nerve alive under his mouth and the unrelenting press of his thumb. You're teetering on the edge, breathless, shaking, moaning his name like a prayer.
And then you feel it, his finger.
Slowly, carefully, he slips it inside you, the intrusion smooth from how soaked you are. He groans at the feeling, at how your walls tighten instantly around him, like your body’s been aching for more.
“Shit,” he breathes, lifting his head just enough to watch your face, the way you fall apart in real time. “You’re so fucking tight.”
And then he lowers again, his tongue circling your clit while his finger curls inside you, testing, learning, memorizing. He moves slow at first, dragging it along your most sensitive spot with a kind of focus that makes your back arch off the bed.
Your breath breaks into a whimper, hands clutching at the sheets, at his hair, anything.
He smiles against you, adding just the slightest pressure as his tongue and finger move in perfect sync, completely in tune with your body’s desperate rhythm.
“Come on, baby,” he murmurs, voice thick with desire. “Let me feel you fall apart on my fingers.”
And the way he says it ,low, raw, reverent makes your body tremble as the climax builds fast, threatening to crash over you like a wave you can’t stop.
You fall apart with a cry, sharp, broken, his name the only thing your lips can form as your body arches into him. The orgasm rips through you, intense and consuming, your thighs trembling around his head, your hands lost in his hair.
But Jin doesn’t stop.
He holds you through it, mouth still on you, tongue moving in slow, languid strokes like he’s savoring every drop, every aftershock. The room is filled with the slick, obscene sound of him lapping at you, utterly devoted, utterly lost in you.
The way he moans against your overstimulated skin, the way he whispers soft, ruined praise between kisses “So perfect… taste so good… that’s it, baby…” only makes the pleasure stretch, ripple, linger.
Your body twitches under his mouth, sensitive and undone, but he’s gentle now, less greedy, more worshipful. His tongue moves in soft, lazy circles like he’s trying to soothe you from the inside out.
He doesn’t lift his head yet. Not until he’s kissed you through every last tremble.
And when he finally does, his lips are swollen, his eyes blown wide with hunger and awe—and he looks at you like you’re the most breathtaking thing he’s ever seen.
“Still with me?” he breathes, his voice low, wrecked, and laced with the kind of love that never needed words.
You don’t speak because your body answers for you.
Still breathless, still trembling from the high he pulled out of you with nothing but his mouth and his hands, you reach for him. Your fingers curl around his shoulders tugging him up until he’s hovering above you again, swollen lips, eyes burning, chest heaving.
You don’t need words.
Your hands move to his belt, working at it with practiced urgency, the soft clink of the buckle loud in the quiet, heat-thick air between you. His breath stutters, and his hands brace on either side of you, muscles tight, body hovering just barely above yours.
“Y/N…” he breathes, his voice low, like he’s trying to keep it together but you can feel him unraveling, just like you did.
You glance up at him through your lashes, still flushed and raw but full of want, fingers dragging the belt loose with a soft tug. The zipper follows, slow, deliberate.
“You are wrecking me,” he says, eyes locked to yours as he helps you slide his pants down and onto the floor , hips lifting slightly to meet your touch.
And now there’s no teasing. No hesitation. Just heat, want, and the promise of something deeper than either of you dared to say out loud.
You guide him down to you, skin against skin, mouths crashing together like you’ve been starving for it all this time.
His breath hitches as your fingers brush against the waistband of his boxers, your eyes full of quiet urgency.
He shifts up just enough to slide them down, the fabric catching briefly on the heat of him before he kicks them aside. Now he’s fully bared before you, flushed and hard in his hand as he wraps his fingers around himself, giving a few slow, measured pumps, just enough to ease the ache, just enough to watch the way you look at him when he does.
You’re breathless, watching him, his muscles taut, chest rising and falling, the way his hand moves slow, dragging out the moment like he wants it seared into memory. The air between you crackles with tension, heavy and electric.
Then his hand stills.
He leans down, kissing you again, hungry, deep before whispering against your lips, “Tell me you want this. Tell me you're mine again.”
And God, you do. Every aching, breathless part of you.
His forehead presses gently to yours, his lips still swollen from the kiss, breath coming fast and shallow.
“I don’t have protection,” he murmurs, voice rough, but steady like it takes everything in him to say it out loud. His hand stills against your hip, holding you there but not pressing forward, waiting.
The air shifts.
Even in the middle of all this heat, he gives you space, gives you the choice. You can feel how much he wants you, how close he is to losing control, but still… he waits.
“I need to hear you,” he adds softly, his thumb brushing a slow circle into your skin. “Tell me what you want, Y/N. If you want me to stop… I will. If you want this…” His voice falters slightly, then deepens. “I’ll take care of you. Every second of it.”
And for a beat, there’s nothing but the weight of his honesty between you, desire hanging heavy in the air, but grounded in something more: respect. Trust. You.
"Jin......don't care......need you in me."
A soft, wrecked groan escapes his throat as his body tenses, the restraint he’s been clinging to unraveling completely. His eyes darken with something fierce, something tender, and he kisses you like he’s been waiting his whole life to hear you say that.
“You have no idea what that does to me,” he murmurs against your mouth, voice low, trembling, desperate.
He shifts between your thighs, lining himself up, one hand steady on your waist, the other bracing beside your head as he searches your face one last time, still making sure.
And when he sees it in your eyes, how ready you are, how much you need this, he begins to push in, slow and careful, his breath catching hard in his chest as your body welcomes him in inch by inch.
“Fuck… Y/N,” he gasps, jaw clenched, brows drawn in pleasure. “You feel like—like everything.”
The stretch, the heat, the way your body takes him in, it’s overwhelming. And he doesn’t move right away. He just stays there, fully inside you, forehead resting against yours, your breaths tangled together as your bodies finally, finally become one.
There’s no rush now. Just this. You. Him. And the feeling of being completely filled.......completely his.
He’s deep inside you now, fully, completely—and you can feel all of him.
He’s so hard, thick and pulsing as he holds himself still, trying to give you time to adjust, even though every muscle in his body is straining with the effort not to move. His breath is ragged, forehead pressed to yours, eyes clenched shut like he’s fighting for control.
“Shit… you feel so good,” he groans, voice low and wrecked, trembling against your lips. “So fucking tight, baby—wrapped around me like this…”
You shift slightly beneath him and he shudders, letting out another sharp breath, his hands gripping your hips tighter.
“Fuck, Y/N,” he grits out, opening his eyes to look at you, completely undone, completely in awe. “I’m so hard for you it hurts.”
He presses a kiss to your cheek, then your jaw, and whispers “Tell me when you’re ready. Because once I start… I might not be able to stop.”
And God, neither of you want him to.
Your fingers curl around the back of his neck, pulling him closer, your lips brushing against his as you whisper barely breathless, but firm.
“Jin… please move.”
He freezes for a heartbeat, like those words hit him harder than anything else tonight. His jaw clenches, his eyes flutter shut, and you feel him exhale, long, shaky, like he’s barely holding on.
“Fuck,” he breathes, voice raw. “You’re gonna ruin me.”
And then, he moves.
Slowly, at first. Drawing his hips back just enough before sliding in again, deeper, smoother this time. The sound that tears from your throat is soft, but it lights a fire in him.
He picks up a rhythm, steady, deep, intentional. His hand grips your thigh, hitching it up around his waist to pull you even closer, deeper, until your bodies move like they were made for this, for each other.
“You feel…” he groans into your neck, words unraveling as his thrusts grow harder, “so fucking good, baby. So perfect for me.”
And with every thrust, every moan, every whispered plea, you both give in fully, lost in the kind of heat that makes time stop, makes the whole world disappear until all that exists is you and him, skin to skin, heart to heart.
As he drives into you, slow, deep, perfect, your moans grow louder, needier, your nails dragging across his back, your body arching beneath his.
He watches you fall apart with every thrust, chest heaving, lips parted, and it makes him lose what little restraint he still had.
Without breaking rhythm, his hand slides down between your bodies, and then, his thumb.
He finds your clit with practiced precision, circling it with just the right pressure, just the right pace. You gasp sharp, broken and your whole body jolts beneath him.
“That’s it,” he murmurs, breathless and completely wrecked, eyes locked on the way you unravel. “Feel me, baby… I wanna feel you fall apart on me again.”
He keeps moving inside you, hips snapping forward, his thumb working in perfect sync with every thrust, dragging moan after moan from your lips. You’re soaked, tight, throbbing around him and the added pressure sends you spiraling.
Your hands grip his shoulders, your thighs trembling around his waist, and you can feel it building again, hot, fast, inescapable.
“Let go,” he whispers against your lips. “I’m right here. Give it to me.”
You reach up with a trembling urgency, your legs curling around his waist and then higher, hooking over his shoulders as he leans back to adjust, groaning at the new angle.
“Shit,” he gasps, eyes flickering down to where your bodies are joined. “You’re gonna fucking kill me.”
Your new position opens you completely to him, making everything sharper, deeper, intense. His thrusts hit even harder now, his length dragging along every sweet, aching spot inside you with precision that feels unbearably good.
His hands slide beneath your thighs, gripping them firmly as he rocks into you, chest slick with sweat, jaw clenched in focus and pure, wrecked need.
The added pressure of your legs locked around his shoulders sends his thrusts deeper, more desperate, his thumb still pressed to your clit, still moving, still demanding your undoing.
“You feel that?” he groans, eyes dark and wild, watching the way your body arches under his. “Taking me so deep, baby… so fucking perfect for me.”
And all you can do is moan loudly, shamelessly as pleasure tears through you in waves, your body trembling, your breath shattering beneath the weight of him.
You’re so close again, so close you can taste it.
And he knows. Because he’s right there with you.
Your voice breaks through the haze, breathless, raw, wrecked.
“Jin… faster. Deeper. Give me more.”
His entire body tenses at your words, like they set off something primal in him. His eyes meet yours, dark, desperate, almost feral with the need to give you exactly what you’re begging for.
“Fuck, Y/N,” he growls, voice hoarse, barely holding on. “You want more? I’ll give you everything.”
And he does.
His grip tightens on your thighs, his legs anchoring him deeper between yours as your ankles lock tighter behind his shoulders. He slams into you harder now, faster, each thrust sharper, deeper, filling you in a way that leaves you gasping, trembling, aching.
His thumb never leaves your clit, moving in tight, perfect circles that keep you teetering on the edge. Every sound that escapes you, every cry of his name, drives him harder, deeper, until the only thing filling the room is the slick slap of skin, tangled breaths, and your moans echoing off the walls.
“Come on, baby,” he pants, his thrusts relentless. “Fall apart for me again. Let me feel it. Let me have it.”
His is body pressed so tightly to yours it’s hard to tell where he ends and you begin.
“Jin… I’m close,” you gasp, voice shaking, your nails digging into his back as your body starts to tremble beneath him.
The moment the words leave your lips, he groans deep, guttural and his movements grow even more focused, desperate, like your pleasure is the only thing keeping him grounded.
“I feel it,” he breathes, eyes locked on yours, sweat-slicked and completely wrecked. “Don’t hold back, baby. Let it happen, I’ve got you.”
His hips roll deeper, harder, hitting that perfect spot with every thrust. His thumb keeps circling your clit, fast and precise, and the way he’s looking at you like he’s on the edge with you, like he needs to watch you come undone only pushes him closer.
“That’s it… just like that,” he murmurs, kissing you through every whimper. “Come for me. Let me feel you fall apart.”
And you do right there in his arms, with his name falling from your lips like a prayer you never want to stop saying.
Your whole body tightens, every nerve alight, every muscle straining as the wave finally crashes over you.
You cry out his name, loud, shattered, clinging to him like he’s the only solid thing in the world. Your legs tremble around his shoulders, your back arches off the sheets, and you let go completely.
You come hard, a lot, the release overwhelming, your body pulsing around him in deep, uncontrollable waves. You feel yourself grow wetter with every ripple, soaking him, the sheets, everything and he feels it.
“Fuck—Y/N,” Jin groans, voice wrecked, eyes wide as your release coats him. “You’re… so fucking perfect.”
He doesn’t stop. His thumb slows only slightly, just enough to draw every last wave of pleasure from you, his hips rolling deeper but gentler now, like he’s trying to prolong the moment, keep you in that perfect, ruined place just a little longer.
He leans down, pressing soft kisses to your jaw, your cheek, your lips, whispers tangled between them.
“That’s it, baby… I’ve got you.” “You did so good for me.” “So beautiful when you come for me like that.”
You’re breathless, flushed, trembling but in his arms, you feel safe. Held. Completely his.
And he hasn’t even come yet. But he’s watching you like you’re the most incredible thing he’s ever seen Because you are.
Your body is still trembling, oversensitive and glowing, but Jin, he’s far from finished.
He’s still inside you, still rock-hard, still aching. And now, with your release coating him, making every thrust impossibly slick and hot, he loses whatever thread of control he had left.
He groans deep, primal and shifts his grip, pushing your legs back slightly for a deeper angle. His thrusts turn rougher, more desperate, his pace erratic as he chases the high that’s been building since the moment he touched you.
“Fuck, Y/N…” he pants, jaw clenched, sweat dripping from his temple. “You feel so good, so wet—gonna make me come—fuck.”
You can feel how close he is his whole body tensing, his hips snapping forward harder, faster, his breath stuttering every time you clench around him. You meet his eyes and cup his face, whispering between shaky breaths:
“Let go, Jin. I want to feel you.”
He groans like the words physically hit him. One more thrust deep, sharp, perfect and then he falls.
His body shudders, muscles locking up as he buries himself to the hilt, head dropping to your shoulder with a strangled moan. He pulses inside you, hot and thick, his release pouring out in long, breathless waves as you hold him through it.
“Y/N… fuck…” he breathes, voice wrecked, arms shaking as he tries not to collapse fully on top of you.
And then silence, except for your ragged breaths, tangled limbs, and the way his heart thunders against yours.
He stays buried deep inside you, his forehead resting against your shoulder, both of you breathing hard, bodies flushed, drenched in sweat, hearts pounding like war drums.
But even as the aftershocks of his release roll through him, you feel it, he’s still hard.
Still thick. Still wanting.
His breath hitches as you shift slightly beneath him, and he lets out a low, broken sound, half groan, half growl.
“Still so fucking hard for you,” he murmurs, voice raw, voice wrecked, as if he can’t quite believe it either. His hand slides along your side, fingers brushing your thigh. “One time wasn’t enough. I need—” he cuts himself off with a sharp breath, thrusting into you again, slower, but deeper, and you feel it too, the ache building all over again.
Your body trembles around him, still sensitive, still slick with your release and his but that only makes it easier, messier, hotter.
“You’re not done with me yet, are you?” you whisper, teasing, breathless, eyes locking onto his with fire still burning in your chest.
He smiles, lips parted, eyes dark and wild. “Not even close.”
And he begins to move again slow, deliberate, hungry all over again.
His breath catches like your words punched the air right out of his lungs.
You lift your head just slightly, eyes smoldering as you whisper, "Let me ride you."
He stares at you for a beat, chest still heaving, lips parted, hair damp against his forehead. And then he nods slow, stunned, wrecked.
“Fuck yes,” he groans, voice rough, barely holding it together. “Take me—take all of me.”
You crawl up his body, straddling his hips, and he watches every move like he’s watching something sacred unfold. His hands grip your thighs as you position yourself over him, guiding him back to your entrance, still wet, still aching for more.
“You’re sure?” he asks again, voice softer now, like even in all this heat, he still needs to know you want this just as much.
You lean down, kiss him slow, deep, and whisper, "I’ve never been more sure of anything."
And then you sink down onto him.
Both of you moan at the contact, at the stretch, at the depth. He fills you completely, perfectly, and you both freeze for a second, just breathing, just feeling.
His head falls back, a curse escaping his lips as his fingers tighten on your waist.
“Ride me, baby,” he growls, eyes half-lidded and burning. “Show me how good you feel. Make me lose my fucking mind.”
You start to move, rolling your hips, trying to find a steady rhythm but your legs are trembling, still weak from everything he’s already pulled out of you. Your thrusts falter, uneven, more desperate than controlled.
Jin sees it immediately.
His hands slide up to your waist, firm and steady, grounding you as his eyes lock onto yours dark, tender, and absolutely wrecked with need.
“You’re still shaking,” he murmurs, voice low and thick. “Let me help.”
And before you can respond, he starts to move beneath you, slow, deep thrusts from his hips that meet your body perfectly, drawing sharp gasps from your lips every time he fills you again.
You moan his name, your hands braced on his chest as he fucks up into you from below, his grip on your hips keeping you steady, guiding your movements so you’re riding him together, messy, passionate, perfectly in sync.
“Just like that,” he groans, breath ragged. “You’re doing so good, baby. So fucking good.”
You rock with him, each thrust sending sparks through your body, the friction and pressure building all over again. His eyes never leave your face, watching every moan, every stuttered breath, like it’s the only thing that matters.
And when you start to move with him again stronger this time, meeting his rhythm, he lets out a deep, wrecked moan.
“There you go,” he pants. “Ride me, baby. I’ve got you.”
As you regain your rhythm, hips grinding down to meet his thrusts, your moans growing louder, needier, Jin’s hand slides from your waist, trailing between your bodies once again.
You already know what he’s about to do, and your breath catches in anticipation.
“Still so sensitive,” he murmurs, voice wrecked, eyes flickering down to where you’re taking all of him. “But you can take it. I know you can.”
And then his thumb finds your clit again.
The pressure is immediate, just right, firm, focused, circling in time with every deep, upward thrust of his hips. Your body jolts at the contact, the pleasure sharp and overwhelming, pushing you closer to that edge you didn’t think you’d reach again so soon.
You cry out, clutching at his shoulders for balance as the mix of his thumb and the way he’s fucking up into you becomes too much and not enough all at once.
“That’s it,” he groans, his voice strained as he watches you fall apart in real time. “Feel that, baby? You’re so close. I can feel you tightening—fuck.”
Your body starts to tremble again, thighs shaking as his thumb moves in faster, tighter circles, dragging you mercilessly toward your second high.
“Come on,” he whispers through gritted teeth, never slowing down. “Fall apart on me again. I want to feel you come while you’re riding me.”
And you’re right there blazing, trembling, on the verge of breaking all over again
As his thumb works your clit in tight, relentless circles and his hips thrust up into you with deep, desperate rhythm, Jin’s other hand slides up your torso, fingers trailing over your slick skin until they find your breast.
He groans at the feel of you in his hand, warm and soft, and he squeezes gently, thumb brushing over your sensitive nipple in slow, teasing strokes. Your back arches into the touch, a moan ripping from your throat as the sensations become overwhelming, pleasure pouring in from every direction.
Then his mouth finds you.
He leans forward, lips wrapping around your breast, tongue flicking over your nipple before he starts to suck, slow, deep, greedy pulls that send shockwaves straight through your core.
Your hips stutter again, your moans turning breathless, broken. The feeling of his mouth on your chest, his hand still toying, his thumb driving you wild below. It’s too much and yet exactly what you crave.
“Jin—” you cry, your hands flying to his hair, gripping tight as your body begins to shake again. “I—I can’t—”
He groans around your nipple, sucking harder, his voice muffled but wrecked. “Yes you can. You’re so close, baby. Come for me again. I want to feel you lose it on top of me.”
And with every deep thrust, every flick of his tongue, every press of his thumb you feel it crashing toward you again, bigger and harder than before.
Your body locks up, thighs trembling around his hips, breath caught somewhere between a gasp and a cry as the climax slams into you, harder than the last, sharper, and so overwhelming it nearly knocks the wind out of you.
You come a lot.
It rushes through you in waves, unstoppable, rolling through every nerve ending like fire and lightning. Your walls clench around him in pulsing, rhythmic spasms, so wet, so intense it spills down over his thighs, soaking him, the sheets, everything.
“Fuck, Y/N—” Jin growls, his voice wrecked, his hips jerking up into you as he groans at the feeling of you breaking apart on him. “You’re so wet, so fucking tight, you’re driving me insane.”
Your moans are helpless, high and broken, your head thrown back, nails digging into his shoulders as your body trembles violently, completely lost in the rush of it. You can barely breathe, barely think all you know is him: his hands, his mouth, his cock buried so deep inside you it feels like he’s part of your soul.
He holds you close, both arms wrapped around you now, letting you ride out the orgasm as long as your body needs whispering soft, breathless praise into your skin.
“That’s it… I’ve got you. You’re so perfect. Let it all go for me.”
And even as your body starts to come down, twitching with the aftershocks, he’s still rock-hard beneath you because watching you come that hard, that much, has him right on the edge of losing it himself.
As your body trembles and slumps forward still pulsing, still slick, still wrapped tight around him, Jin tightens his grip on your waist. His lips brush your temple, but there’s a different heat in his breath now. Raw, urgent, uncontrolled.
“Fuck, baby,” he growls, voice breaking, “you feel so good, I can’t hold back anymore.”
He plants his feet against the mattress, bending his knees for leverage, and starts to move hard, fast, deep thrusts from below that shake your already sensitive body. You moan helplessly, clinging to his chest, overstimulated but loving it, letting him chase his own high inside you.
His hands are everywhere, one still gripping your hip, the other tangled in your hair, pulling you down so your foreheads press together.
“You’re gonna take it,” he pants. “All of me. Gonna come so deep inside you, fuck just like this.”
Every thrust punches the air from your lungs. He’s relentless now, his body slick against yours, groaning through clenched teeth as your name spills from his lips like a chant. He’s so close you can feel it in the way he twitches inside you, in the way his rhythm grows messier, more desperate.
“Y/N—fuck—I’m gonna come—inside fuck, fuck, fuck”
And with a final, deep, shattering thrust, he lets go.
He moans your name like a prayer as he buries himself to the hilt, releasing in long, hot pulses that fill you up, his entire body locking up beneath yours. You feel him throb inside you, feel the warmth spread as he empties everything into you, his voice breaking, his nails digging into your skin, his heart pounding wildly against your chest.
He collapses back against the mattress, arms still wrapped around you, both of you tangled, soaked, breathless.
And completely wrecked by each other.
The two of you lie tangled together, your bodies still slick with sweat, skin pressed flush against skin. His breath slowly evens out, chest rising and falling in steady rhythms as he stays nestled inside you, softer now, gentle in the aftermath of everything.
His fingers trace lazy patterns along your back, fingertips light as feathers, grounding you both in this quiet, intimate space. The warmth of him fills you completely not just physically, but something deeper, unspoken.
Jin’s head rests on your shoulder, his lips brushing soft, tired kisses there. He murmurs your name quietly, a breathless reminder that you’re still his, still wrapped in each other long after the fire has cooled.
The room feels still, peaceful, but charged with the kind of closeness that only comes when two souls have collided and settled, knowing, unbreakable.
You breathe in sync, hearts beating slow, steady, connected.
And in this perfect silence, there’s only you. Only him. And the quiet, sacred space you share.
After a while, Jin slowly, gently pulls away from you, careful not to disturb the peaceful way your body is curled into his. He presses a soft kiss to your temple before slipping out of bed, his movements quiet, fluid.
You hear the faint sound of the shower in the background, water hitting tile, but sleep tugs heavily at your limbs, wrapping you in warmth and the fading afterglow of everything.
Some time later, he returns.
The air feels a little cooler now, and you stir as the mattress shifts under his weight. His hand finds your back, warm and comforting, fingers brushing away the damp strands of hair from your cheek.
“Hey,” he whispers gently, voice soft like velvet, “wake up, baby.”
You blink sleepily, eyes fluttering open to find him freshly showered, damp hair falling messily over his forehead, a soft towel wrapped low around his waist.
“Come on,” he says, kissing your forehead, “I ran a warm bath for you. Thought you’d want to soak a little while I change the sheets.”
You glance over and see the crumpled, sweat-damp mess of bedding beneath you. You nod sleepily, and he smiles, helping you up with careful hands, always so attentive, always so him.
“Take your time,” he murmurs, leading you toward the bathroom. “I’ll be here when you’re done.”
While the warm water envelops your aching body in the bath he prepared, scented lightly, just enough to soothe without overwhelming. You sink deeper into the comfort, letting your eyes close for a moment, your muscles slowly relaxing under the gentle heat.
Back in the bedroom, Jin moves quietly but efficiently.
He strips the bed of the used, tangled sheets with a little smirk at the memory of how they got that way, then tosses them into the hamper. He replaces them with fresh, soft linen, something light and cool against the skin, perfect for sleep. As he smooths the comforter and fluffs the pillows, he glances toward the bathroom, thinking about you, how you looked curled up in his arms, how you always look even softer when you trust him like that.
Once the bed is ready, he pulls on a pair of loose sweats and a simple white t-shirt, his body still warm and clean from the shower.
The bathroom door opens with a soft creak, and Jin looks up from where he’s sitting on the edge of the freshly made bed.
And then he sees you.
Wearing nothing but his shirt, oversized and draping beautifully over your damp skin, sleeves hanging long past your wrists, the hem barely grazing the tops of your thighs. Your hair is still slightly wet, skin dewy from the bath, and your eyes are soft, sleepy, and a little shy as they meet his.
For a second, he forgets how to breathe.
“Wow,” he says under his breath, standing slowly. “I knew you’d look good in it, but…” He trails off, eyes scanning you with something between reverence and complete awe. “You look better in it than I ever did.”
You smile, a little flustered, tugging at the hem as you step closer. “It smells like you,” you murmur. “I didn’t want to wear anything else.”
He reaches out and pulls you gently into his arms, pressing a kiss to your forehead as his hands settle around your waist, fingertips brushing the soft cotton that clings to your hips.
“I was hoping you’d say that,” he whispers. “You in my shirt… after a night like that… kind of makes me want to never let you take it off.”
You laugh softly into his chest, your body melting into his, warm and clean and wrapped in something more than just fabric, wrapped in him.
He hears the softness in your voice as you murmur, “I’m sleepy,” your head already nestling against his chest, your body sinking into him like it’s the safest place in the world.
Jin smiles gently, brushing his fingers through your damp hair, his touch feather-light and soothing.
“Okay, baby,” he whispers, his voice warm and quiet. “Come on, lie down with me.”
He guides you back onto the freshly made bed, pulling the covers over you with such care it feels like a lullaby. He slips in beside you, tugging you close until you’re curled up against him, his shirt loose around you, your legs tangled with his.
One arm wraps around your waist, his other hand cradling your head as you melt into him, warm and secure.
“Sleep,” he whispers against your forehead, pressing the gentlest kiss there. “I’ll be right here when you wake up.”
And with the steady beat of his heart beneath your ear, the scent of him wrapped around you, and his body holding you like he’s never letting go as you drift off, peaceful, loved, and utterly safe.
As your breathing evens out and your body softens completely in his arms, Jin stays awake, just watching you.
The room is dim and quiet, moonlight spilling gently through the curtains, casting a silvery glow over your face. You look so peaceful, curled into him, wearing his shirt like it was made for you.
He exhales softly, the kind of breath that carries more emotion than words ever could.
With a tenderness only he could give, he leans in and presses the faintest kiss to your forehead. Then another, just above your brow. Then one more light, slow, reverent into your hair.
“You’re so beautiful,” he whispers, even though you can’t hear it.
His fingers trace slow, calming lines down your back as he holds you closer, resting his chin gently atop your head.
“I hope you know how safe you are with me,” he murmurs, voice almost inaudible now, like he’s telling you a secret in your sleep. “How much I love you.”
And even in sleep, you shift just slightly, as if your body somehow heard him.
He smiles to himself, brushes one last kiss to your temple, and closes his eyes, finally letting rest take him, too, still holding you like he’ll never let go. "Love you, YN"
The Last Train | KSJ | Extra
Pairing: Kim Seokjin x Female Reader
Genre: Angst, Romance, Drama, Fluff, Slice of Life, Exes to Lovers AU
Word Count: 10k
Summary: You and Jin miss the last train home on a rainy night. Forced to spend hours together at a 24/7 diner, old wounds and hidden feelings come to the surface.
Warnings: NSFW / 18+ ONLY 🔞,Exes to Lovers, Emotional Reunion, Slow Burn, Intimacy, Soft Dom!Jin, Body Worship, Praise, Insecurity, Self-Esteem Themes, Unprotected Sex (refrain irl),Aftercare, Mention of Korean beauty standards (If I forgot something please tell me)
A/N: This is a bonus part for The last train home, consider reading that first. I was not feeling like writing anything new so I added to this one.
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The ride to Jin’s place is quiet.
Not uncomfortable but thick with something unspoken. Outside, the city hums with late-night traffic and neon reflections; inside the car, your hand occasionally brush his. You don’t move away, and neither does he.
He unlocks the door with one hand, the other still holding your bag like it’s sacred. The apartment smells faintly of his cologne and cedarwood that is familiar and grounding. You hadn’t realized how much you missed the scent until you stepped inside it again.
It hasn’t changed much. The same charcoal-gray couch. The same crooked frame he never fixed. A half-read book on the table. It's like time stalled here.
Except it didn’t. Not for either of you.
You shrug off your coat, suddenly aware of how quiet the space is. He gestures toward the couch. “Sit. I’ll get something warm. Tea? Or you still like that weird vanilla-mint mix?”
You give a small laugh. “Still do.”
He passes a small smile before disappearing into the kitchen. You run your hand along the armrest, your fingers catching on the familiar stitching. There’s a blanket neatly folded on the corner. You remember falling asleep under it once, half on him, half on the cushions, when your shared world felt invincible.
Jin returns with two mugs, handing you yours. His fingers brush yours briefly.
“Thanks,” you murmur.
You both sip quietly. He watches you over the rim of his mug like he’s afraid blinking might make you vanish again.
“You still drink it too hot,” he notes.
“And you still make it too sweet.”
"Don't you remember a lot of things for a 2 year breakup." You tease
"I didn't forget, I couldn't"
There’s a pause. You feel it in your chest the question, the invitation. You could ignore it. Let this night end here, half-healed. But your eyes meet his, and something ancient passes between you.
"Do you want to stay?" he asks hesitant, voice softer now, he looks away immediately after asking. His gaze shifts from his lap to the table while his fingers fidget nervously. That pulls a giggle out of you.
You nod, setting the mug down.
Jin stands slowly, then offers his hand not demanding, just open. You take it.
He leads you through the hallway like it’s the first time. It isn’t. But this version of you older, bruised, grown, it is her first time walking back into a space like this, into trust like this.
His bedroom is dim, lit only by the soft, diffused glow of the city lights pouring through the sheer curtains. The skyline flickers in shades of blue, casting gentle shapes across the walls.
He turns to look at you, his gaze soft under the dim light, and gently tucks a loose strand of hair behind your ear.
"You got prettier," he says quietly.
You raise an eyebrow, your voice low. "Are you trying to assure me?"
He doesn’t flinch, doesn’t look away. "No," he murmurs. "Just stating facts."
He gently guides you to sit on the edge of the bed, his touch tender, almost reverent. Then he kneels in front of you, eyes level with yours, and takes both your hands in his, his thumbs slowly tracing circles over your knuckles, like he's memorizing every line and detail.
"Y/N," he begins softly, his voice deep but warm, "whenever I told you that you're pretty, beautiful, sexy, absolutely gorgeous… it was never to assure you. It was to remind you. Remind you in case you forgot, remind you because I see it every day, and I just hoped… maybe one day, you’d start seeing yourself the way I see you."
He pauses, lifting your hands to his lips, pressing a gentle kiss against your fingers.
"And even now," he continues, eyes locked with yours, "I’m not saying this to make you feel better. I’m saying it because it’s the truth. So what if you don’t fit into some narrow, airbrushed version of beauty, those standards aren’t made for someone like you. You’re real. And you’re breathtaking."
His voice gets quieter, like he’s afraid to break the moment.
"I’m so lucky to have you. I deserve you. And you deserve me too, hm?"
He tilts his head just slightly, giving you the softest smile. "So stop wondering why I love you, and just know that I do. Completely."
"Jin it is not you, it was never you. It is just the people who made me doubt, it was just that no one ever saw me past my face but I didn't think u didn't look past it, It was just that maybe it could hinder our love in the future.
His expression falters for just a second, like your words settled heavily in his chest. But he doesn’t let go of your hands in fact, he holds them tighter, as if grounding both of you.
“Y/N…” he says, voice low and steady, “don’t ever think I was blind to your past, or what the world has made you carry. I saw it, I saw you. Not just your face, not just the parts the world picks apart. I saw your silence, your fear, the way you flinched at love like it might break you.”
He swallows, his thumb brushing against your wrist. “But never did I think any of that would hinder us. Not then. Not now. Not ever.”
He leans his forehead gently against your knee, eyes closed for a moment.
“It wasn’t me, I know that. And it kills me that they made you feel this way. That they made you believe love had conditions or that beauty had limits. But I’m here to rewrite all of that with you. I know you walked away because you were unsure but there is nothing to be unsure of.”
He lifts his head again, gaze steady, soft but unshakable. “If ever there’s something standing in the way of our love… it won’t be your face. Or your fears. Or your past.”
He exhales. “Because I didn’t fall in love with just your beauty. I fell for your fire, your flaws, your stubborn heart, your gentleness, your chaos. All of it. And I’m not going anywhere.”
You squeeze his hands gently, grounding yourself in the warmth of his touch before tugging on them just a little.
He doesn’t resist. You guide him up from the floor and make him sit beside you on the edge of the bed, thigh to thigh, shoulders brushing, as if the distance between your bodies was never meant to exist in the first place.
The silence settles around you like a soft blanket, quiet, but full.
He doesn’t say anything right away, he just watches you for a moment longer, eyes soft with something deeper than words. Then, with a tenderness that makes your chest ache, he reaches for your sweater.
He moves slowly, like he’s afraid to startle the moment. His fingers brush your shoulders as he eases the fabric down your arms, careful, unrushed. The sweater pools quietly behind you on the bed.
Then he kneels slightly, reaching for your shoes. His touch is light, almost reverent, as he unfastens them one by one and slips them off.
He doesn’t look up yet, just runs his hand gently along your ankle, like he’s memorizing the shape of you.
“There,” he murmurs, still crouched in front of you, voice barely above a whisper. “You don’t have to carry anything tonight. Not the weight. Not the doubt. Not even your shoes.”
He stays quiet, his hands steady but unhurried as they rise toward your hair. Fingers brushing softly against your scalp, he finds the tie holding it back.
There’s a moment of pause like he’s giving you space, like he’s silently asking, Can I? Like he’s waiting for the smallest flinch, the slightest push.
But you don’t move.
So gently, he begins to undo it, unraveling the strands like they’re something sacred. The elastic slips from your hair, and it falls freely around your shoulders. His fingers linger there, combing through it slowly, reverently as if this is his way of soothing every hurt you never spoke aloud.
His eyes search yours, not with expectation but with quiet understanding. As if he's telling you: You don't owe me anything. But if you stay… I’ll cherish all of you.
You slowly lean in, your nose brushing his, breaths mingling in the sliver of space between you. Your hand finds his cheek, thumb grazing the corner of his mouth as if you’re trying to memorize the moment before it changes everything.
His eyes search yours, wide with something fragile, hope, maybe. Fear, too.
“You know what this means, right?” he asks, voice barely audible, thick with hesitation. “This… us.”
You nod, just slightly, your voice steady but soft. “I know what it means.”
He doesn’t move. He lets you close the space. Because this time, it’s you choosing him.
You close the last inch between you, pressing your lips to his slowly, gently, like you’re speaking in a language only the two of you understand.
He doesn’t rush it. He melts into it.
His hand comes up to cradle your jaw, thumb brushing your cheek with a kind of reverence, like he can’t believe this is real. Your lips move in sync, unhurried, full of everything you hadn’t said until now, every fear, every feeling, every silent I’m ready.
When you finally pull back, just enough to breathe, his eyes are still closed like he’s trying to hold onto the feeling a second longer. Then he opens them, looking at you like you’re the only thing in the world that makes sense.
“You kissed me,” he whispers, smiling like he’s in awe.
“I did,” you whisper back, your voice softer now, steadier. “And I meant it.”
With a breath drawn slow and careful, he leans in, capturing your lips again but this time, there’s more depth to it. More weight. More want. His hand slides along your side, grounding you, and then gently he eases you back onto the bed.
He moves slowly, like every second matters. Like this isn’t about urgency, but about memorizing the feel of you beneath him, your fingers in his hair, your heartbeat thudding against his palm as he rests it over your chest for a moment.
“Still okay?” he whispers against your lips, his voice a quiet anchor in the rising tide of emotion.
Your answer is in the way your eyes meet his, sure, steady, full of trust. He exhales again, like you just gave him permission to breathe deeper. And then he leans in, pressing another kiss to your lips this one slower, surer, like he’s promising not to rush what was always meant to unfold gently between you.
The kiss deepens naturally, breath hitching between you as his hand finds your waist, anchoring you closer. His lips move with more certainty now, no longer just a question, but a need.
Then, slowly, deliberately, he catches your lower lip between his teeth. It’s gentle, almost teasing, but full of intention. A quiet request laced in the way his lips linger there.
You exhale softly against his mouth, your fingers curling in the fabric at his back as you part your lips.
He kisses you deeper, warmer, fuller, like he’s been holding this part of himself back for far too long. His hand slides to cradle the side of your face, thumb brushing over your cheek as your mouths move together in perfect rhythm.
It’s not rushed. It’s not reckless.
The heat between you builds gradually, tenderness layered with something deeper, something that hums just beneath the surface. His hand stays at your waist, grounding you in the moment, while the kiss grows more certain, more consuming.
Without thinking, his knee shifts, sliding between your legs with natural ease as he leans in closer. It’s not deliberate, not rushed but instinctive, part of the gravity pulling you both closer. The press of his body feels protective, not demanding. Like he’s holding you, not taking from you.
Your breath hitches, just slightly, and he stills for a beat, eyes flicking open to search your face.
Your fingers twist into the fabric of his shirt, tugging him down with a kind of urgency that wasn’t there before, like restraint has finally given way to want. Real, aching want.
“Fuck, Jin,” you breathe, voice rough around the edges, raw with need.
His eyes darken the moment the words leave your mouth, and for a second he just looks at you like he’s trying to commit every inch of you to memory. The flush on your cheeks. The way your chest rises and falls. The way you’re holding onto him like you need him.
Then he exhales, shaky, like your voice just undid something in him. “You can’t say that and expect me to stay gentle,” he murmurs, his voice low, wrecked, and impossibly tender all at once.
But even then he’s careful. As he leans in again, his hand moves to cover yours where you’re clutching his shirt. He guides your touch, slowly pulling the fabric over his head and tossing it aside, never breaking eye contact.
“Tell me if you want to stop,” he says, his lips ghosting along your jaw now, his knee still settled between your thighs. “But if you don’t…” His voice dips even lower. “Then I’m yours. All of me.”
His lips leave yours slowly, like he’s reluctant to break the connection even for a moment. But when he does, it’s only to find new places to worship.
He trails soft, open-mouthed kisses across your cheekbone, then down to your jaw. Each one is unhurried, reverent like he’s tasting you, like he’s learning you.
His breath is warm against your skin as his lips find that sensitive spot just beneath your ear. You feel his fingers tighten ever so slightly at your waist when you react, barely a shiver, but he feels it. He knows.
He doesn’t speak. He doesn’t have to. His mouth moves lower, tracing your pulse, then brushing along the curve of your neck, pausing, letting the heat linger there before pressing a firmer kiss. Another. Then another. Slow and deliberate, like he’s making a map of everywhere you feel most alive.
He works his way back up, scattering kisses along your cheek, the bridge of your nose, your eyelids each one soft, grounding, full of quiet affection that contrasts beautifully with the weight of the want between you.
By the time his lips find yours again, you’re already breathless not from urgency, but from the overwhelming tenderness of it all. Like every kiss is his way of saying: I see you. I choose you. And I’m not letting go.
His hands drift to the hem of your top, fingers toying with the fabric.
He tugs your top upward slowly, not in a rush to tear it off, but like he’s unwrapping something sacred. His knuckles graze your sides, sending heat rippling across your skin as he peels it over your head and tosses it aside.
For a second, he just looks at you. His breath catches, gaze roaming from your eyes to your lips, then lower, lingering on the new skin exposed. But there’s no rush in him, just awe.
"God, Y/N…” he breathes, voice rough with restraint and reverence. “You’re… unreal.”
He leans in again, placing a soft kiss right between your collarbones, then another just above your heart as if he’s letting you know this isn’t just about desire. It’s about you.
And with every kiss, every touch, he makes it clearer: He’s not here to take. He’s here to worship.
His lips are still warm against your skin, brushing over your collarbone, when his hands slide around your back, slow, sure, never rushing. His fingers find the clasp of your bra, resting there for a moment.
He lifts his head slightly, eyes meeting yours again, checking, always checking. Not for permission, but for comfort. For trust.
When you don’t pull away when your breath hitches just enough and your fingers curl lightly against his bare shoulder.
His fingers work at the clasp, slow and careful, like he’s unwrapping something delicate. The tension slips free, and he eases the straps down your arms, his touch light as air, never breaking eye contact.
When your bra finally falls away, his breath catches. But he doesn’t pounce. He just looks at you, like you’ve knocked the wind out of him, like he wants to remember the way you look in this exact moment for the rest of his life.
“You’re so—” he starts, then stops, because no word feels big enough.
So instead, he kisses you again. Slower. Deeper.
And his hands slide back up your waist, holding you like you’re something he never thought he’d get to have something he refuses to take for granted.
His hands still at your waist for a moment, eyes roaming over you like he’s seeing something he never thought he deserved. His lips are slightly parted, chest rising and falling with the weight of everything unsaid until now.
“It’s a pity,” he murmurs, voice low and wrecked, “that you don’t know how hot you are.”
You blink, breath caught in your throat, the heat between you crackling at the edges.
He leans in closer, brushing a kiss just under your jaw, then another at the curve of your shoulder. “Seriously, Y/N…” he whispers, lips grazing your skin as he speaks. “You could bring me to my knees with just one look and you still hesitate to believe it.”
He pulls back just enough to look at you again, his expression raw, hungry, but laced with something deeper.
His kiss deepens with something rougher now, your words still echoing in his head, pulling him under, unraveling the last thread of his restraint.
His hand glides up your side, slow but certain, until it finds your breast. He cups it gently at first, like he’s still in awe then his thumb brushes over your skin, and the sound you make in response drives him wild.
He pulls back just slightly, eyes dark and heavy-lidded as they meet yours.
“God,” he breathes, his voice hoarse. “You feel so fucking perfect.”
His eyes never leave yours as he leans in, his hand still cradling your breast with a mix of reverence and want. You feel his breath first—warm and unsteady against your skin—before his lips finally make contact.
He starts with a soft kiss, slow and deliberate, right over your heart. Then another, lower this time. And when his mouth finally reaches your breast, he moves gently at first, lips brushing over the sensitive skin like he’s savoring the taste of you.
His tongue flicks softly, teasing, as his hand supports and shapes you toward his mouth. A low, quiet sound escapes him—half a groan, half awe—like he’s been aching for this, like he needs this.
“You drive me crazy,” he murmurs against your skin, voice rough and quiet. “Every inch of you… I want it all.”
You thread your fingers into his hair, gently tugging until his mouth leaves your skin. His eyes flick up to yours, dazed and breathless but you don’t give him time to speak.
You pull him back to your lips, kissing him with a new kind of urgency, hungry, deep, claiming. He groans into your mouth, his hands tightening on your waist as if trying to ground himself in the heat of you.
Then, slowly, you begin to trail your kisses downward.
Over his jaw. Down his neck. You feel the way his breath catches when your lips brush the hollow of his throat, and you smile against his skin.
You keep going, lips and tongue moving lower, down the curve of his collarbone, across his chest, leaving heat in your wake. You pause just above his heart, pressing a lingering kiss there before lightly nipping at the skin.
His chest rises sharply under your mouth, and a low, guttural sound escapes him.
“Fuck, Y/N…” he rasps, voice wrecked, head tilted back.
And as your mouth continues its descent, tasting every inch like a promise, he looks down at you like you’re both a dream and the fire that’s about to consume him.
His hands find your hips, holding you with a reverence that contrasts the growing hunger in his touch. You feel his lips on your neck again, hot, open-mouthed kisses that make your breath stutter in your chest.
But this time… there's intent behind them.
He sucks gently at the skin just below your jaw, then moves lower, trailing kisses along the curve of your shoulder. You feel the first love bite bloom beneath his lips, just enough pressure to leave a mark, just enough to make you gasp.
“You should see yourself,” he murmurs against your skin, voice low and strained. “Already covered in me.”
He keeps going, leaving a slow trail of love bites down your collarbone, across your chest, each one deliberate, each one claiming. He pauses after every mark, kissing it softly like an apology and a promise all at once.
“This okay?” he whispers between kisses, lips brushing over the fresh warmth of a new mark.
The look in your eyes, half-lidded, lost in him is answer enough. And he groans softly, burying his face against your skin like he’s addicted now, like he never wants to stop.
Each bite says what he hasn’t yet put into words: You’re mine. And I want the world to know it.
The air in the room is cool, the soft hum of the AC barely registering against the sound of your mingled breaths, but neither of you feel it. Not anymore.
Despite the cold, both your bodies are slick with a light sheen of sweat, skin flushed and glowing under the dim light. Every kiss, every gasp, every whispered name has added to the heat curling between you, unrelenting and electric.
His hair clings slightly to his forehead, chest rising and falling against yours in rhythm, like your bodies have synced without meaning to. Your fingers drag down his back, slick with heat and want, as his mouth hovers just above yours, lips swollen, eyes dark.
“You feel that?” he murmurs hoarsely, nudging his forehead against yours. “I could touch you for hours and still not be close enough.”
Your response is a breathless nod, a quiet whimper against his mouth as you pull him down again, the cool sheets doing nothing to tame the fire building between your skin.
It doesn’t matter that the room is chilled. Between you and him, It’s all heat. All tension. And neither of you is even close to done.
His hands find the waistband of your jeans, eyes flicking up to meet yours one last time, checking. When you don’t stop him, when your fingers tighten just slightly around his biceps, urging him on, he leans in to kiss you again, soft and slow, before trailing his hands downward.
He unbuttons them carefully, almost reverently, and begins to slide them down your hips. The denim clings slightly to your heated skin, but he takes his time, inch by inch, like he’s unwrapping something precious, not just undressing you, but adoring you.
When he finally eases them off your legs, letting them fall to the floor, he draws back just enough to take you in.
There you are laid out beneath him in nothing but your underwear, flushed and glowing, lips kiss-bitten and chest rising and falling like you’ve just run a marathon.
“Fuck,” he breathes, his voice low, wrecked. “You’re… unreal.”
He runs his hands slowly up your bare thighs, savoring the way you shiver under his touch. His fingers linger at your hips, his thumbs brushing gently over the edge of your underwear but he doesn’t move further. Not yet.
He wants to take his time. He wants you to feel every second of how much he wants you.
He lowers himself slowly, lips brushing soft, open kisses along your thigh, each one closer than the last, each one more deliberate. The muscles beneath your skin twitch at the contact, anticipation tightening every breath you take.
And then he pauses.
His eyes settle on the damp patch blooming at the center of your underwear, and something in his expression shifts like awe and hunger colliding all at once.
“Look at you,” he murmurs, voice like a low hum against your skin. His fingers gently part your thighs a little more, giving him room to settle between them. “So worked up for me already.”
He presses a kiss to your inner thigh, close, so close then looks up at you, his eyes dark and blazing with something deeper than just lust.
“I haven’t even touched you there yet,” he says with a breathless smile, almost reverent. “And you’re already soaking through.”
Another kiss, this one slower, hotter lands just beside the wet patch, as his hand rests on your hip to hold you steady, like he knows you’re already trembling beneath the weight of his attention.
“I’m gonna take my time with you,” he whispers, voice thick with want. “Because you deserve to be undone slowly.”
Your voice breaks through the haze, low and breathless “Fuck, Jin. Stop being an asshole.”
He freezes for half a second, then laughs, soft and wrecked, his breath hot against your skin.
“Oh?” he murmurs, pressing one more teasing kiss just beside where you want him most. “Is that what I am now?”
You glare at him, your fingers tangling in his hair, tugging just enough to make him groan. “You know what you’re doing.”
He grins, cocky and flushed, eyes full of mischief and want. “Yeah,” he whispers, letting his lips hover just over the soaked fabric. “That’s the fun part.”
His smirk fades, replaced by something deeper, hungrier but still full of reverence. He shifts closer, his hands slow as they hook into the sides of your underwear.
He pulls them down with care, like he’s unwrapping something fragile, something he’s waited a long time to fully see. As the fabric slides down your thighs and past your knees, he keeps his gaze locked on you, eyes dark, lips parted, breath shallow.
And when you’re finally bare before him, he exhales like he’s been holding his breath since the moment this began.
He lets his fingers trail lightly up your inner thigh, ghosting over your slickness, barely there, but enough to make your hips twitch, your breath stutter.
“Fuck,” he whispers, almost to himself, eyes flickering with a mix of awe and heat. “You’re so wet for me.”
Then he leans in.
And with a tenderness that borders on worship, he presses a soft, lingering kiss right where you need him most. Not rushed. Not greedy. Just… his lips on you slow, claiming, reverent.
The kiss is a promise. He’s not here to tease anymore. He’s here to ruin you, gently.
Before he can pull away, your hand shoots down, fingers threading into his hair as you grab his face and hold him there. Your hips roll forward instinctively, grinding against his mouth with a desperate, breathless need that leaves no room for teasing.
A groan vibrates from deep in his throat, muffled against you, and he lets you take control, welcomes it.
His hands immediately grip your thighs, fingers digging in just enough to anchor you as you move against him. He tilts his head just right, lips and tongue working in perfect rhythm with your motions, matching your urgency with his own.
You hear him moan again, this time raw, hungry, completely undone by the way you’re using him. And the sound only makes you press down harder, riding his mouth like it’s the only way to survive the heat surging through your veins.
You look down at him, his flushed cheeks, dark eyes, and the way he wants this, wants you and it sends you spiraling.
Every grind. Every flick of his tongue. Every breathless noise you make. He takes it all......like you’re his favorite sin. And he never once tries to stop you.
Your voice spills out between shaky breaths. Raw, desperate, laced with everything you’re feeling.
“Fuck, Jin… deeper.”
It’s not a request. It’s a plea.
And he hears it.
His grip on your thighs tightens, grounding you as he presses in closer, his mouth claiming you with a hunger that borders on worship. He parts you with his tongue, slow at first but then deeper, firmer, the kind of pressure that makes your back arch and your fingers tangle tighter in his hair.
He groans into you loud, and shameless, driven completely wild by the way you sound, the way you taste, the way you grind against his mouth like you can’t get enough.
“Just like that,” he murmurs against you in a ragged breath, his voice thick with want. “Let me hear you, baby. I want all of it.”
And he dives in again, deeper, messier, perfect like he wants to unravel you from the inside out, like his only goal is to leave you shaking, ruined, and completely his.
As your moans grow sharper, your hips grinding down harder against his mouth, Jin responds instantly, intuitively. His hands tighten around your thighs, holding you steady, and then you feel it, his thumb, sliding up between your folds, slick from your arousal and the heat of his mouth.
He presses it gently against your clit, circling with just enough pressure to make your breath hitch and your body jolt.
“Fuck—Jin,” you gasp, your fingers tugging at his hair, and he groans in response, the sound vibrating through you.
His mouth continues working you with slow, deep strokes of his tongue, but now paired with the rhythmic, focused motion of his thumb, each movement synced perfectly with the way your body trembles beneath him.
“You’re falling apart for me,” he murmurs against you, voice ragged, thumb pressing a little harder, a little faster. “Just like that. Let go, baby.”
And with that combination: his mouth, his thumb, his voice, you feel yourself spiraling fast, the pleasure climbing with every wave, threatening to break you open in the best possible way.
Just when you think you’ve adjusted to the rhythm, his thumb circling you, his mouth worshiping you with steady, devastating precision, you feel the soft scrape of his teeth.
A gasp escapes you.
It’s light, careful, more teasing than rough. He lets them graze against your sensitive skin for just a second, just enough to make your hips jolt and a breathy “fuck” fall from your lips. He pulls back the moment he feels your body tense, not from discomfort, but from how sharply the pleasure spikes.
And then his tongue is back.
Softer now. Slower but deeper, more deliberate. Paired with the steady motion of his thumb, it’s almost too much. Your thighs threaten to close around his head, but his grip keeps you open, anchored, right where he wants you.
“God,” he groans into you, almost drunk on the taste of you. “The way you react… it’s everything.”
His tongue moves again, slick, hot, purposeful drawing you back into the rhythm, until your moans are breathless and your body’s trembling under the weight of how close you are.
And still, he doesn’t let up. Because he wants you to fall apart. And he wants to be the only one who’s ever brought you there like this.
Your body’s already pulsing with heat, every nerve alive under his mouth and the unrelenting press of his thumb. You're teetering on the edge, breathless, shaking, moaning his name like a prayer.
And then you feel it, his finger.
Slowly, carefully, he slips it inside you, the intrusion smooth from how soaked you are. He groans at the feeling, at how your walls tighten instantly around him, like your body’s been aching for more.
“Shit,” he breathes, lifting his head just enough to watch your face, the way you fall apart in real time. “You’re so fucking tight.”
And then he lowers again, his tongue circling your clit while his finger curls inside you, testing, learning, memorizing. He moves slow at first, dragging it along your most sensitive spot with a kind of focus that makes your back arch off the bed.
Your breath breaks into a whimper, hands clutching at the sheets, at his hair, anything.
He smiles against you, adding just the slightest pressure as his tongue and finger move in perfect sync, completely in tune with your body’s desperate rhythm.
“Come on, baby,” he murmurs, voice thick with desire. “Let me feel you fall apart on my fingers.”
And the way he says it ,low, raw, reverent makes your body tremble as the climax builds fast, threatening to crash over you like a wave you can’t stop.
You fall apart with a cry, sharp, broken, his name the only thing your lips can form as your body arches into him. The orgasm rips through you, intense and consuming, your thighs trembling around his head, your hands lost in his hair.
But Jin doesn’t stop.
He holds you through it, mouth still on you, tongue moving in slow, languid strokes like he’s savoring every drop, every aftershock. The room is filled with the slick, obscene sound of him lapping at you, utterly devoted, utterly lost in you.
The way he moans against your overstimulated skin, the way he whispers soft, ruined praise between kisses “So perfect… taste so good… that’s it, baby…” only makes the pleasure stretch, ripple, linger.
Your body twitches under his mouth, sensitive and undone, but he’s gentle now, less greedy, more worshipful. His tongue moves in soft, lazy circles like he’s trying to soothe you from the inside out.
He doesn’t lift his head yet. Not until he’s kissed you through every last tremble.
And when he finally does, his lips are swollen, his eyes blown wide with hunger and awe—and he looks at you like you’re the most breathtaking thing he’s ever seen.
“Still with me?” he breathes, his voice low, wrecked, and laced with the kind of love that never needed words.
You don’t speak because your body answers for you.
Still breathless, still trembling from the high he pulled out of you with nothing but his mouth and his hands, you reach for him. Your fingers curl around his shoulders tugging him up until he’s hovering above you again, swollen lips, eyes burning, chest heaving.
You don’t need words.
Your hands move to his belt, working at it with practiced urgency, the soft clink of the buckle loud in the quiet, heat-thick air between you. His breath stutters, and his hands brace on either side of you, muscles tight, body hovering just barely above yours.
“Y/N…” he breathes, his voice low, like he’s trying to keep it together but you can feel him unraveling, just like you did.
You glance up at him through your lashes, still flushed and raw but full of want, fingers dragging the belt loose with a soft tug. The zipper follows, slow, deliberate.
“You are wrecking me,” he says, eyes locked to yours as he helps you slide his pants down and onto the floor , hips lifting slightly to meet your touch.
And now there’s no teasing. No hesitation. Just heat, want, and the promise of something deeper than either of you dared to say out loud.
You guide him down to you, skin against skin, mouths crashing together like you’ve been starving for it all this time.
His breath hitches as your fingers brush against the waistband of his boxers, your eyes full of quiet urgency.
He shifts up just enough to slide them down, the fabric catching briefly on the heat of him before he kicks them aside. Now he’s fully bared before you, flushed and hard in his hand as he wraps his fingers around himself, giving a few slow, measured pumps, just enough to ease the ache, just enough to watch the way you look at him when he does.
You’re breathless, watching him, his muscles taut, chest rising and falling, the way his hand moves slow, dragging out the moment like he wants it seared into memory. The air between you crackles with tension, heavy and electric.
Then his hand stills.
He leans down, kissing you again, hungry, deep before whispering against your lips, “Tell me you want this. Tell me you're mine again.”
And God, you do. Every aching, breathless part of you.
His forehead presses gently to yours, his lips still swollen from the kiss, breath coming fast and shallow.
“I don’t have protection,” he murmurs, voice rough, but steady like it takes everything in him to say it out loud. His hand stills against your hip, holding you there but not pressing forward, waiting.
The air shifts.
Even in the middle of all this heat, he gives you space, gives you the choice. You can feel how much he wants you, how close he is to losing control, but still… he waits.
“I need to hear you,” he adds softly, his thumb brushing a slow circle into your skin. “Tell me what you want, Y/N. If you want me to stop… I will. If you want this…” His voice falters slightly, then deepens. “I’ll take care of you. Every second of it.”
And for a beat, there’s nothing but the weight of his honesty between you, desire hanging heavy in the air, but grounded in something more: respect. Trust. You.
"Jin......don't care......need you in me."
A soft, wrecked groan escapes his throat as his body tenses, the restraint he’s been clinging to unraveling completely. His eyes darken with something fierce, something tender, and he kisses you like he’s been waiting his whole life to hear you say that.
“You have no idea what that does to me,” he murmurs against your mouth, voice low, trembling, desperate.
He shifts between your thighs, lining himself up, one hand steady on your waist, the other bracing beside your head as he searches your face one last time, still making sure.
And when he sees it in your eyes, how ready you are, how much you need this, he begins to push in, slow and careful, his breath catching hard in his chest as your body welcomes him in inch by inch.
“Fuck… Y/N,” he gasps, jaw clenched, brows drawn in pleasure. “You feel like—like everything.”
The stretch, the heat, the way your body takes him in, it’s overwhelming. And he doesn’t move right away. He just stays there, fully inside you, forehead resting against yours, your breaths tangled together as your bodies finally, finally become one.
There’s no rush now. Just this. You. Him. And the feeling of being completely filled.......completely his.
He’s deep inside you now, fully, completely—and you can feel all of him.
He’s so hard, thick and pulsing as he holds himself still, trying to give you time to adjust, even though every muscle in his body is straining with the effort not to move. His breath is ragged, forehead pressed to yours, eyes clenched shut like he’s fighting for control.
“Shit… you feel so good,” he groans, voice low and wrecked, trembling against your lips. “So fucking tight, baby—wrapped around me like this…”
You shift slightly beneath him and he shudders, letting out another sharp breath, his hands gripping your hips tighter.
“Fuck, Y/N,” he grits out, opening his eyes to look at you, completely undone, completely in awe. “I’m so hard for you it hurts.”
He presses a kiss to your cheek, then your jaw, and whispers “Tell me when you’re ready. Because once I start… I might not be able to stop.”
And God, neither of you want him to.
Your fingers curl around the back of his neck, pulling him closer, your lips brushing against his as you whisper barely breathless, but firm.
“Jin… please move.”
He freezes for a heartbeat, like those words hit him harder than anything else tonight. His jaw clenches, his eyes flutter shut, and you feel him exhale, long, shaky, like he’s barely holding on.
“Fuck,” he breathes, voice raw. “You’re gonna ruin me.”
And then, he moves.
Slowly, at first. Drawing his hips back just enough before sliding in again, deeper, smoother this time. The sound that tears from your throat is soft, but it lights a fire in him.
He picks up a rhythm, steady, deep, intentional. His hand grips your thigh, hitching it up around his waist to pull you even closer, deeper, until your bodies move like they were made for this, for each other.
“You feel…” he groans into your neck, words unraveling as his thrusts grow harder, “so fucking good, baby. So perfect for me.”
And with every thrust, every moan, every whispered plea, you both give in fully, lost in the kind of heat that makes time stop, makes the whole world disappear until all that exists is you and him, skin to skin, heart to heart.
As he drives into you, slow, deep, perfect, your moans grow louder, needier, your nails dragging across his back, your body arching beneath his.
He watches you fall apart with every thrust, chest heaving, lips parted, and it makes him lose what little restraint he still had.
Without breaking rhythm, his hand slides down between your bodies, and then, his thumb.
He finds your clit with practiced precision, circling it with just the right pressure, just the right pace. You gasp sharp, broken and your whole body jolts beneath him.
“That’s it,” he murmurs, breathless and completely wrecked, eyes locked on the way you unravel. “Feel me, baby… I wanna feel you fall apart on me again.”
He keeps moving inside you, hips snapping forward, his thumb working in perfect sync with every thrust, dragging moan after moan from your lips. You’re soaked, tight, throbbing around him and the added pressure sends you spiraling.
Your hands grip his shoulders, your thighs trembling around his waist, and you can feel it building again, hot, fast, inescapable.
“Let go,” he whispers against your lips. “I’m right here. Give it to me.”
You reach up with a trembling urgency, your legs curling around his waist and then higher, hooking over his shoulders as he leans back to adjust, groaning at the new angle.
“Shit,” he gasps, eyes flickering down to where your bodies are joined. “You’re gonna fucking kill me.”
Your new position opens you completely to him, making everything sharper, deeper, intense. His thrusts hit even harder now, his length dragging along every sweet, aching spot inside you with precision that feels unbearably good.
His hands slide beneath your thighs, gripping them firmly as he rocks into you, chest slick with sweat, jaw clenched in focus and pure, wrecked need.
The added pressure of your legs locked around his shoulders sends his thrusts deeper, more desperate, his thumb still pressed to your clit, still moving, still demanding your undoing.
“You feel that?” he groans, eyes dark and wild, watching the way your body arches under his. “Taking me so deep, baby… so fucking perfect for me.”
And all you can do is moan loudly, shamelessly as pleasure tears through you in waves, your body trembling, your breath shattering beneath the weight of him.
You’re so close again, so close you can taste it.
And he knows. Because he’s right there with you.
Your voice breaks through the haze, breathless, raw, wrecked.
“Jin… faster. Deeper. Give me more.”
His entire body tenses at your words, like they set off something primal in him. His eyes meet yours, dark, desperate, almost feral with the need to give you exactly what you’re begging for.
“Fuck, Y/N,” he growls, voice hoarse, barely holding on. “You want more? I’ll give you everything.”
And he does.
His grip tightens on your thighs, his legs anchoring him deeper between yours as your ankles lock tighter behind his shoulders. He slams into you harder now, faster, each thrust sharper, deeper, filling you in a way that leaves you gasping, trembling, aching.
His thumb never leaves your clit, moving in tight, perfect circles that keep you teetering on the edge. Every sound that escapes you, every cry of his name, drives him harder, deeper, until the only thing filling the room is the slick slap of skin, tangled breaths, and your moans echoing off the walls.
“Come on, baby,” he pants, his thrusts relentless. “Fall apart for me again. Let me feel it. Let me have it.”
His is body pressed so tightly to yours it’s hard to tell where he ends and you begin.
“Jin… I’m close,” you gasp, voice shaking, your nails digging into his back as your body starts to tremble beneath him.
The moment the words leave your lips, he groans deep, guttural and his movements grow even more focused, desperate, like your pleasure is the only thing keeping him grounded.
“I feel it,” he breathes, eyes locked on yours, sweat-slicked and completely wrecked. “Don’t hold back, baby. Let it happen, I’ve got you.”
His hips roll deeper, harder, hitting that perfect spot with every thrust. His thumb keeps circling your clit, fast and precise, and the way he’s looking at you like he’s on the edge with you, like he needs to watch you come undone only pushes him closer.
“That’s it… just like that,” he murmurs, kissing you through every whimper. “Come for me. Let me feel you fall apart.”
And you do right there in his arms, with his name falling from your lips like a prayer you never want to stop saying.
Your whole body tightens, every nerve alight, every muscle straining as the wave finally crashes over you.
You cry out his name, loud, shattered, clinging to him like he’s the only solid thing in the world. Your legs tremble around his shoulders, your back arches off the sheets, and you let go completely.
You come hard, a lot, the release overwhelming, your body pulsing around him in deep, uncontrollable waves. You feel yourself grow wetter with every ripple, soaking him, the sheets, everything and he feels it.
“Fuck—Y/N,” Jin groans, voice wrecked, eyes wide as your release coats him. “You’re… so fucking perfect.”
He doesn’t stop. His thumb slows only slightly, just enough to draw every last wave of pleasure from you, his hips rolling deeper but gentler now, like he’s trying to prolong the moment, keep you in that perfect, ruined place just a little longer.
He leans down, pressing soft kisses to your jaw, your cheek, your lips, whispers tangled between them.
“That’s it, baby… I’ve got you.” “You did so good for me.” “So beautiful when you come for me like that.”
You’re breathless, flushed, trembling but in his arms, you feel safe. Held. Completely his.
And he hasn’t even come yet. But he’s watching you like you’re the most incredible thing he’s ever seen Because you are.
Your body is still trembling, oversensitive and glowing, but Jin, he’s far from finished.
He’s still inside you, still rock-hard, still aching. And now, with your release coating him, making every thrust impossibly slick and hot, he loses whatever thread of control he had left.
He groans deep, primal and shifts his grip, pushing your legs back slightly for a deeper angle. His thrusts turn rougher, more desperate, his pace erratic as he chases the high that’s been building since the moment he touched you.
“Fuck, Y/N…” he pants, jaw clenched, sweat dripping from his temple. “You feel so good, so wet—gonna make me come—fuck.”
You can feel how close he is his whole body tensing, his hips snapping forward harder, faster, his breath stuttering every time you clench around him. You meet his eyes and cup his face, whispering between shaky breaths:
“Let go, Jin. I want to feel you.”
He groans like the words physically hit him. One more thrust deep, sharp, perfect and then he falls.
His body shudders, muscles locking up as he buries himself to the hilt, head dropping to your shoulder with a strangled moan. He pulses inside you, hot and thick, his release pouring out in long, breathless waves as you hold him through it.
“Y/N… fuck…” he breathes, voice wrecked, arms shaking as he tries not to collapse fully on top of you.
And then silence, except for your ragged breaths, tangled limbs, and the way his heart thunders against yours.
He stays buried deep inside you, his forehead resting against your shoulder, both of you breathing hard, bodies flushed, drenched in sweat, hearts pounding like war drums.
But even as the aftershocks of his release roll through him, you feel it, he’s still hard.
Still thick. Still wanting.
His breath hitches as you shift slightly beneath him, and he lets out a low, broken sound, half groan, half growl.
“Still so fucking hard for you,” he murmurs, voice raw, voice wrecked, as if he can’t quite believe it either. His hand slides along your side, fingers brushing your thigh. “One time wasn’t enough. I need—” he cuts himself off with a sharp breath, thrusting into you again, slower, but deeper, and you feel it too, the ache building all over again.
Your body trembles around him, still sensitive, still slick with your release and his but that only makes it easier, messier, hotter.
“You’re not done with me yet, are you?” you whisper, teasing, breathless, eyes locking onto his with fire still burning in your chest.
He smiles, lips parted, eyes dark and wild. “Not even close.”
And he begins to move again slow, deliberate, hungry all over again.
His breath catches like your words punched the air right out of his lungs.
You lift your head just slightly, eyes smoldering as you whisper, "Let me ride you."
He stares at you for a beat, chest still heaving, lips parted, hair damp against his forehead. And then he nods slow, stunned, wrecked.
“Fuck yes,” he groans, voice rough, barely holding it together. “Take me—take all of me.”
You crawl up his body, straddling his hips, and he watches every move like he’s watching something sacred unfold. His hands grip your thighs as you position yourself over him, guiding him back to your entrance, still wet, still aching for more.
“You’re sure?” he asks again, voice softer now, like even in all this heat, he still needs to know you want this just as much.
You lean down, kiss him slow, deep, and whisper, "I’ve never been more sure of anything."
And then you sink down onto him.
Both of you moan at the contact, at the stretch, at the depth. He fills you completely, perfectly, and you both freeze for a second, just breathing, just feeling.
His head falls back, a curse escaping his lips as his fingers tighten on your waist.
“Ride me, baby,” he growls, eyes half-lidded and burning. “Show me how good you feel. Make me lose my fucking mind.”
You start to move, rolling your hips, trying to find a steady rhythm but your legs are trembling, still weak from everything he’s already pulled out of you. Your thrusts falter, uneven, more desperate than controlled.
Jin sees it immediately.
His hands slide up to your waist, firm and steady, grounding you as his eyes lock onto yours dark, tender, and absolutely wrecked with need.
“You’re still shaking,” he murmurs, voice low and thick. “Let me help.”
And before you can respond, he starts to move beneath you, slow, deep thrusts from his hips that meet your body perfectly, drawing sharp gasps from your lips every time he fills you again.
You moan his name, your hands braced on his chest as he fucks up into you from below, his grip on your hips keeping you steady, guiding your movements so you’re riding him together, messy, passionate, perfectly in sync.
“Just like that,” he groans, breath ragged. “You’re doing so good, baby. So fucking good.”
You rock with him, each thrust sending sparks through your body, the friction and pressure building all over again. His eyes never leave your face, watching every moan, every stuttered breath, like it’s the only thing that matters.
And when you start to move with him again stronger this time, meeting his rhythm, he lets out a deep, wrecked moan.
“There you go,” he pants. “Ride me, baby. I’ve got you.”
As you regain your rhythm, hips grinding down to meet his thrusts, your moans growing louder, needier, Jin’s hand slides from your waist, trailing between your bodies once again.
You already know what he’s about to do, and your breath catches in anticipation.
“Still so sensitive,” he murmurs, voice wrecked, eyes flickering down to where you’re taking all of him. “But you can take it. I know you can.”
And then his thumb finds your clit again.
The pressure is immediate, just right, firm, focused, circling in time with every deep, upward thrust of his hips. Your body jolts at the contact, the pleasure sharp and overwhelming, pushing you closer to that edge you didn’t think you’d reach again so soon.
You cry out, clutching at his shoulders for balance as the mix of his thumb and the way he’s fucking up into you becomes too much and not enough all at once.
“That’s it,” he groans, his voice strained as he watches you fall apart in real time. “Feel that, baby? You’re so close. I can feel you tightening—fuck.”
Your body starts to tremble again, thighs shaking as his thumb moves in faster, tighter circles, dragging you mercilessly toward your second high.
“Come on,” he whispers through gritted teeth, never slowing down. “Fall apart on me again. I want to feel you come while you’re riding me.”
And you’re right there blazing, trembling, on the verge of breaking all over again
As his thumb works your clit in tight, relentless circles and his hips thrust up into you with deep, desperate rhythm, Jin’s other hand slides up your torso, fingers trailing over your slick skin until they find your breast.
He groans at the feel of you in his hand, warm and soft, and he squeezes gently, thumb brushing over your sensitive nipple in slow, teasing strokes. Your back arches into the touch, a moan ripping from your throat as the sensations become overwhelming, pleasure pouring in from every direction.
Then his mouth finds you.
He leans forward, lips wrapping around your breast, tongue flicking over your nipple before he starts to suck, slow, deep, greedy pulls that send shockwaves straight through your core.
Your hips stutter again, your moans turning breathless, broken. The feeling of his mouth on your chest, his hand still toying, his thumb driving you wild below. It’s too much and yet exactly what you crave.
“Jin—” you cry, your hands flying to his hair, gripping tight as your body begins to shake again. “I—I can’t—”
He groans around your nipple, sucking harder, his voice muffled but wrecked. “Yes you can. You’re so close, baby. Come for me again. I want to feel you lose it on top of me.”
And with every deep thrust, every flick of his tongue, every press of his thumb you feel it crashing toward you again, bigger and harder than before.
Your body locks up, thighs trembling around his hips, breath caught somewhere between a gasp and a cry as the climax slams into you, harder than the last, sharper, and so overwhelming it nearly knocks the wind out of you.
You come a lot.
It rushes through you in waves, unstoppable, rolling through every nerve ending like fire and lightning. Your walls clench around him in pulsing, rhythmic spasms, so wet, so intense it spills down over his thighs, soaking him, the sheets, everything.
“Fuck, Y/N—” Jin growls, his voice wrecked, his hips jerking up into you as he groans at the feeling of you breaking apart on him. “You’re so wet, so fucking tight, you’re driving me insane.”
Your moans are helpless, high and broken, your head thrown back, nails digging into his shoulders as your body trembles violently, completely lost in the rush of it. You can barely breathe, barely think all you know is him: his hands, his mouth, his cock buried so deep inside you it feels like he’s part of your soul.
He holds you close, both arms wrapped around you now, letting you ride out the orgasm as long as your body needs whispering soft, breathless praise into your skin.
“That’s it… I’ve got you. You’re so perfect. Let it all go for me.”
And even as your body starts to come down, twitching with the aftershocks, he’s still rock-hard beneath you because watching you come that hard, that much, has him right on the edge of losing it himself.
As your body trembles and slumps forward still pulsing, still slick, still wrapped tight around him, Jin tightens his grip on your waist. His lips brush your temple, but there’s a different heat in his breath now. Raw, urgent, uncontrolled.
“Fuck, baby,” he growls, voice breaking, “you feel so good, I can’t hold back anymore.”
He plants his feet against the mattress, bending his knees for leverage, and starts to move hard, fast, deep thrusts from below that shake your already sensitive body. You moan helplessly, clinging to his chest, overstimulated but loving it, letting him chase his own high inside you.
His hands are everywhere, one still gripping your hip, the other tangled in your hair, pulling you down so your foreheads press together.
“You’re gonna take it,” he pants. “All of me. Gonna come so deep inside you, fuck just like this.”
Every thrust punches the air from your lungs. He’s relentless now, his body slick against yours, groaning through clenched teeth as your name spills from his lips like a chant. He’s so close you can feel it in the way he twitches inside you, in the way his rhythm grows messier, more desperate.
“Y/N—fuck—I’m gonna come—inside fuck, fuck, fuck”
And with a final, deep, shattering thrust, he lets go.
He moans your name like a prayer as he buries himself to the hilt, releasing in long, hot pulses that fill you up, his entire body locking up beneath yours. You feel him throb inside you, feel the warmth spread as he empties everything into you, his voice breaking, his nails digging into your skin, his heart pounding wildly against your chest.
He collapses back against the mattress, arms still wrapped around you, both of you tangled, soaked, breathless.
And completely wrecked by each other.
The two of you lie tangled together, your bodies still slick with sweat, skin pressed flush against skin. His breath slowly evens out, chest rising and falling in steady rhythms as he stays nestled inside you, softer now, gentle in the aftermath of everything.
His fingers trace lazy patterns along your back, fingertips light as feathers, grounding you both in this quiet, intimate space. The warmth of him fills you completely not just physically, but something deeper, unspoken.
Jin’s head rests on your shoulder, his lips brushing soft, tired kisses there. He murmurs your name quietly, a breathless reminder that you’re still his, still wrapped in each other long after the fire has cooled.
The room feels still, peaceful, but charged with the kind of closeness that only comes when two souls have collided and settled, knowing, unbreakable.
You breathe in sync, hearts beating slow, steady, connected.
And in this perfect silence, there’s only you. Only him. And the quiet, sacred space you share.
After a while, Jin slowly, gently pulls away from you, careful not to disturb the peaceful way your body is curled into his. He presses a soft kiss to your temple before slipping out of bed, his movements quiet, fluid.
You hear the faint sound of the shower in the background, water hitting tile, but sleep tugs heavily at your limbs, wrapping you in warmth and the fading afterglow of everything.
Some time later, he returns.
The air feels a little cooler now, and you stir as the mattress shifts under his weight. His hand finds your back, warm and comforting, fingers brushing away the damp strands of hair from your cheek.
“Hey,” he whispers gently, voice soft like velvet, “wake up, baby.”
You blink sleepily, eyes fluttering open to find him freshly showered, damp hair falling messily over his forehead, a soft towel wrapped low around his waist.
“Come on,” he says, kissing your forehead, “I ran a warm bath for you. Thought you’d want to soak a little while I change the sheets.”
You glance over and see the crumpled, sweat-damp mess of bedding beneath you. You nod sleepily, and he smiles, helping you up with careful hands, always so attentive, always so him.
“Take your time,” he murmurs, leading you toward the bathroom. “I’ll be here when you’re done.”
While the warm water envelops your aching body in the bath he prepared, scented lightly, just enough to soothe without overwhelming. You sink deeper into the comfort, letting your eyes close for a moment, your muscles slowly relaxing under the gentle heat.
Back in the bedroom, Jin moves quietly but efficiently.
He strips the bed of the used, tangled sheets with a little smirk at the memory of how they got that way, then tosses them into the hamper. He replaces them with fresh, soft linen, something light and cool against the skin, perfect for sleep. As he smooths the comforter and fluffs the pillows, he glances toward the bathroom, thinking about you, how you looked curled up in his arms, how you always look even softer when you trust him like that.
Once the bed is ready, he pulls on a pair of loose sweats and a simple white t-shirt, his body still warm and clean from the shower.
The bathroom door opens with a soft creak, and Jin looks up from where he’s sitting on the edge of the freshly made bed.
And then he sees you.
Wearing nothing but his shirt, oversized and draping beautifully over your damp skin, sleeves hanging long past your wrists, the hem barely grazing the tops of your thighs. Your hair is still slightly wet, skin dewy from the bath, and your eyes are soft, sleepy, and a little shy as they meet his.
For a second, he forgets how to breathe.
“Wow,” he says under his breath, standing slowly. “I knew you’d look good in it, but…” He trails off, eyes scanning you with something between reverence and complete awe. “You look better in it than I ever did.”
You smile, a little flustered, tugging at the hem as you step closer. “It smells like you,” you murmur. “I didn’t want to wear anything else.”
He reaches out and pulls you gently into his arms, pressing a kiss to your forehead as his hands settle around your waist, fingertips brushing the soft cotton that clings to your hips.
“I was hoping you’d say that,” he whispers. “You in my shirt… after a night like that… kind of makes me want to never let you take it off.”
You laugh softly into his chest, your body melting into his, warm and clean and wrapped in something more than just fabric, wrapped in him.
He hears the softness in your voice as you murmur, “I’m sleepy,” your head already nestling against his chest, your body sinking into him like it’s the safest place in the world.
Jin smiles gently, brushing his fingers through your damp hair, his touch feather-light and soothing.
“Okay, baby,” he whispers, his voice warm and quiet. “Come on, lie down with me.”
He guides you back onto the freshly made bed, pulling the covers over you with such care it feels like a lullaby. He slips in beside you, tugging you close until you’re curled up against him, his shirt loose around you, your legs tangled with his.
One arm wraps around your waist, his other hand cradling your head as you melt into him, warm and secure.
“Sleep,” he whispers against your forehead, pressing the gentlest kiss there. “I’ll be right here when you wake up.”
And with the steady beat of his heart beneath your ear, the scent of him wrapped around you, and his body holding you like he’s never letting go as you drift off, peaceful, loved, and utterly safe.
As your breathing evens out and your body softens completely in his arms, Jin stays awake, just watching you.
The room is dim and quiet, moonlight spilling gently through the curtains, casting a silvery glow over your face. You look so peaceful, curled into him, wearing his shirt like it was made for you.
He exhales softly, the kind of breath that carries more emotion than words ever could.
With a tenderness only he could give, he leans in and presses the faintest kiss to your forehead. Then another, just above your brow. Then one more light, slow, reverent into your hair.
“You’re so beautiful,” he whispers, even though you can’t hear it.
His fingers trace slow, calming lines down your back as he holds you closer, resting his chin gently atop your head.
“I hope you know how safe you are with me,” he murmurs, voice almost inaudible now, like he’s telling you a secret in your sleep. “How much I love you.”
And even in sleep, you shift just slightly, as if your body somehow heard him.
He smiles to himself, brushes one last kiss to your temple, and closes his eyes, finally letting rest take him, too, still holding you like he’ll never let go. "Love you, YN"
The Last Train | KSJ | Extra
Pairing: Kim Seokjin x Female Reader
Genre: Angst, Romance, Drama, Fluff, Slice of Life, Exes to Lovers AU
Word Count: 10k
Summary: You and Jin miss the last train home on a rainy night. Forced to spend hours together at a 24/7 diner, old wounds and hidden feelings come to the surface.
Warnings: NSFW / 18+ ONLY 🔞,Exes to Lovers, Emotional Reunion, Slow Burn, Intimacy, Soft Dom!Jin, Body Worship, Praise, Insecurity, Self-Esteem Themes, Unprotected Sex (refrain irl),Aftercare, Mention of Korean beauty standards (If I forgot something please tell me)
A/N: This is a bonus part for The last train home, consider reading that first. I was not feeling like writing anything new so I added to this one.
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The ride to Jin’s place is quiet.
Not uncomfortable but thick with something unspoken. Outside, the city hums with late-night traffic and neon reflections; inside the car, your hand occasionally brush his. You don’t move away, and neither does he.
He unlocks the door with one hand, the other still holding your bag like it’s sacred. The apartment smells faintly of his cologne and cedarwood that is familiar and grounding. You hadn’t realized how much you missed the scent until you stepped inside it again.
It hasn’t changed much. The same charcoal-gray couch. The same crooked frame he never fixed. A half-read book on the table. It's like time stalled here.
Except it didn’t. Not for either of you.
You shrug off your coat, suddenly aware of how quiet the space is. He gestures toward the couch. “Sit. I’ll get something warm. Tea? Or you still like that weird vanilla-mint mix?”
You give a small laugh. “Still do.”
He passes a small smile before disappearing into the kitchen. You run your hand along the armrest, your fingers catching on the familiar stitching. There’s a blanket neatly folded on the corner. You remember falling asleep under it once, half on him, half on the cushions, when your shared world felt invincible.
Jin returns with two mugs, handing you yours. His fingers brush yours briefly.
“Thanks,” you murmur.
You both sip quietly. He watches you over the rim of his mug like he’s afraid blinking might make you vanish again.
“You still drink it too hot,” he notes.
“And you still make it too sweet.”
"Don't you remember a lot of things for a 2 year breakup." You tease
"I didn't forget, I couldn't"
There’s a pause. You feel it in your chest the question, the invitation. You could ignore it. Let this night end here, half-healed. But your eyes meet his, and something ancient passes between you.
"Do you want to stay?" he asks hesitant, voice softer now, he looks away immediately after asking. His gaze shifts from his lap to the table while his fingers fidget nervously. That pulls a giggle out of you.
You nod, setting the mug down.
Jin stands slowly, then offers his hand not demanding, just open. You take it.
He leads you through the hallway like it’s the first time. It isn’t. But this version of you older, bruised, grown, it is her first time walking back into a space like this, into trust like this.
His bedroom is dim, lit only by the soft, diffused glow of the city lights pouring through the sheer curtains. The skyline flickers in shades of blue, casting gentle shapes across the walls.
He turns to look at you, his gaze soft under the dim light, and gently tucks a loose strand of hair behind your ear.
"You got prettier," he says quietly.
You raise an eyebrow, your voice low. "Are you trying to assure me?"
He doesn’t flinch, doesn’t look away. "No," he murmurs. "Just stating facts."
He gently guides you to sit on the edge of the bed, his touch tender, almost reverent. Then he kneels in front of you, eyes level with yours, and takes both your hands in his, his thumbs slowly tracing circles over your knuckles, like he's memorizing every line and detail.
"Y/N," he begins softly, his voice deep but warm, "whenever I told you that you're pretty, beautiful, sexy, absolutely gorgeous… it was never to assure you. It was to remind you. Remind you in case you forgot, remind you because I see it every day, and I just hoped… maybe one day, you’d start seeing yourself the way I see you."
He pauses, lifting your hands to his lips, pressing a gentle kiss against your fingers.
"And even now," he continues, eyes locked with yours, "I’m not saying this to make you feel better. I’m saying it because it’s the truth. So what if you don’t fit into some narrow, airbrushed version of beauty, those standards aren’t made for someone like you. You’re real. And you’re breathtaking."
His voice gets quieter, like he’s afraid to break the moment.
"I’m so lucky to have you. I deserve you. And you deserve me too, hm?"
He tilts his head just slightly, giving you the softest smile. "So stop wondering why I love you, and just know that I do. Completely."
"Jin it is not you, it was never you. It is just the people who made me doubt, it was just that no one ever saw me past my face but I didn't think u didn't look past it, It was just that maybe it could hinder our love in the future.
His expression falters for just a second, like your words settled heavily in his chest. But he doesn’t let go of your hands in fact, he holds them tighter, as if grounding both of you.
“Y/N…” he says, voice low and steady, “don’t ever think I was blind to your past, or what the world has made you carry. I saw it, I saw you. Not just your face, not just the parts the world picks apart. I saw your silence, your fear, the way you flinched at love like it might break you.”
He swallows, his thumb brushing against your wrist. “But never did I think any of that would hinder us. Not then. Not now. Not ever.”
He leans his forehead gently against your knee, eyes closed for a moment.
“It wasn’t me, I know that. And it kills me that they made you feel this way. That they made you believe love had conditions or that beauty had limits. But I’m here to rewrite all of that with you. I know you walked away because you were unsure but there is nothing to be unsure of.”
He lifts his head again, gaze steady, soft but unshakable. “If ever there’s something standing in the way of our love… it won’t be your face. Or your fears. Or your past.”
He exhales. “Because I didn’t fall in love with just your beauty. I fell for your fire, your flaws, your stubborn heart, your gentleness, your chaos. All of it. And I’m not going anywhere.”
You squeeze his hands gently, grounding yourself in the warmth of his touch before tugging on them just a little.
He doesn’t resist. You guide him up from the floor and make him sit beside you on the edge of the bed, thigh to thigh, shoulders brushing, as if the distance between your bodies was never meant to exist in the first place.
The silence settles around you like a soft blanket, quiet, but full.
He doesn’t say anything right away, he just watches you for a moment longer, eyes soft with something deeper than words. Then, with a tenderness that makes your chest ache, he reaches for your sweater.
He moves slowly, like he’s afraid to startle the moment. His fingers brush your shoulders as he eases the fabric down your arms, careful, unrushed. The sweater pools quietly behind you on the bed.
Then he kneels slightly, reaching for your shoes. His touch is light, almost reverent, as he unfastens them one by one and slips them off.
He doesn’t look up yet, just runs his hand gently along your ankle, like he’s memorizing the shape of you.
“There,” he murmurs, still crouched in front of you, voice barely above a whisper. “You don’t have to carry anything tonight. Not the weight. Not the doubt. Not even your shoes.”
He stays quiet, his hands steady but unhurried as they rise toward your hair. Fingers brushing softly against your scalp, he finds the tie holding it back.
There’s a moment of pause like he’s giving you space, like he’s silently asking, Can I? Like he’s waiting for the smallest flinch, the slightest push.
But you don’t move.
So gently, he begins to undo it, unraveling the strands like they’re something sacred. The elastic slips from your hair, and it falls freely around your shoulders. His fingers linger there, combing through it slowly, reverently as if this is his way of soothing every hurt you never spoke aloud.
His eyes search yours, not with expectation but with quiet understanding. As if he's telling you: You don't owe me anything. But if you stay… I’ll cherish all of you.
You slowly lean in, your nose brushing his, breaths mingling in the sliver of space between you. Your hand finds his cheek, thumb grazing the corner of his mouth as if you’re trying to memorize the moment before it changes everything.
His eyes search yours, wide with something fragile, hope, maybe. Fear, too.
“You know what this means, right?” he asks, voice barely audible, thick with hesitation. “This… us.”
You nod, just slightly, your voice steady but soft. “I know what it means.”
He doesn’t move. He lets you close the space. Because this time, it’s you choosing him.
You close the last inch between you, pressing your lips to his slowly, gently, like you’re speaking in a language only the two of you understand.
He doesn’t rush it. He melts into it.
His hand comes up to cradle your jaw, thumb brushing your cheek with a kind of reverence, like he can’t believe this is real. Your lips move in sync, unhurried, full of everything you hadn’t said until now, every fear, every feeling, every silent I’m ready.
When you finally pull back, just enough to breathe, his eyes are still closed like he’s trying to hold onto the feeling a second longer. Then he opens them, looking at you like you’re the only thing in the world that makes sense.
“You kissed me,” he whispers, smiling like he’s in awe.
“I did,” you whisper back, your voice softer now, steadier. “And I meant it.”
With a breath drawn slow and careful, he leans in, capturing your lips again but this time, there’s more depth to it. More weight. More want. His hand slides along your side, grounding you, and then gently he eases you back onto the bed.
He moves slowly, like every second matters. Like this isn’t about urgency, but about memorizing the feel of you beneath him, your fingers in his hair, your heartbeat thudding against his palm as he rests it over your chest for a moment.
“Still okay?” he whispers against your lips, his voice a quiet anchor in the rising tide of emotion.
Your answer is in the way your eyes meet his, sure, steady, full of trust. He exhales again, like you just gave him permission to breathe deeper. And then he leans in, pressing another kiss to your lips this one slower, surer, like he’s promising not to rush what was always meant to unfold gently between you.
The kiss deepens naturally, breath hitching between you as his hand finds your waist, anchoring you closer. His lips move with more certainty now, no longer just a question, but a need.
Then, slowly, deliberately, he catches your lower lip between his teeth. It’s gentle, almost teasing, but full of intention. A quiet request laced in the way his lips linger there.
You exhale softly against his mouth, your fingers curling in the fabric at his back as you part your lips.
He kisses you deeper, warmer, fuller, like he’s been holding this part of himself back for far too long. His hand slides to cradle the side of your face, thumb brushing over your cheek as your mouths move together in perfect rhythm.
It’s not rushed. It’s not reckless.
The heat between you builds gradually, tenderness layered with something deeper, something that hums just beneath the surface. His hand stays at your waist, grounding you in the moment, while the kiss grows more certain, more consuming.
Without thinking, his knee shifts, sliding between your legs with natural ease as he leans in closer. It’s not deliberate, not rushed but instinctive, part of the gravity pulling you both closer. The press of his body feels protective, not demanding. Like he’s holding you, not taking from you.
Your breath hitches, just slightly, and he stills for a beat, eyes flicking open to search your face.
Your fingers twist into the fabric of his shirt, tugging him down with a kind of urgency that wasn’t there before, like restraint has finally given way to want. Real, aching want.
“Fuck, Jin,” you breathe, voice rough around the edges, raw with need.
His eyes darken the moment the words leave your mouth, and for a second he just looks at you like he’s trying to commit every inch of you to memory. The flush on your cheeks. The way your chest rises and falls. The way you’re holding onto him like you need him.
Then he exhales, shaky, like your voice just undid something in him. “You can’t say that and expect me to stay gentle,” he murmurs, his voice low, wrecked, and impossibly tender all at once.
But even then he’s careful. As he leans in again, his hand moves to cover yours where you’re clutching his shirt. He guides your touch, slowly pulling the fabric over his head and tossing it aside, never breaking eye contact.
“Tell me if you want to stop,” he says, his lips ghosting along your jaw now, his knee still settled between your thighs. “But if you don’t…” His voice dips even lower. “Then I’m yours. All of me.”
His lips leave yours slowly, like he’s reluctant to break the connection even for a moment. But when he does, it’s only to find new places to worship.
He trails soft, open-mouthed kisses across your cheekbone, then down to your jaw. Each one is unhurried, reverent like he’s tasting you, like he’s learning you.
His breath is warm against your skin as his lips find that sensitive spot just beneath your ear. You feel his fingers tighten ever so slightly at your waist when you react, barely a shiver, but he feels it. He knows.
He doesn’t speak. He doesn’t have to. His mouth moves lower, tracing your pulse, then brushing along the curve of your neck, pausing, letting the heat linger there before pressing a firmer kiss. Another. Then another. Slow and deliberate, like he’s making a map of everywhere you feel most alive.
He works his way back up, scattering kisses along your cheek, the bridge of your nose, your eyelids each one soft, grounding, full of quiet affection that contrasts beautifully with the weight of the want between you.
By the time his lips find yours again, you’re already breathless not from urgency, but from the overwhelming tenderness of it all. Like every kiss is his way of saying: I see you. I choose you. And I’m not letting go.
His hands drift to the hem of your top, fingers toying with the fabric.
He tugs your top upward slowly, not in a rush to tear it off, but like he’s unwrapping something sacred. His knuckles graze your sides, sending heat rippling across your skin as he peels it over your head and tosses it aside.
For a second, he just looks at you. His breath catches, gaze roaming from your eyes to your lips, then lower, lingering on the new skin exposed. But there’s no rush in him, just awe.
"God, Y/N…” he breathes, voice rough with restraint and reverence. “You’re… unreal.”
He leans in again, placing a soft kiss right between your collarbones, then another just above your heart as if he’s letting you know this isn’t just about desire. It’s about you.
And with every kiss, every touch, he makes it clearer: He’s not here to take. He’s here to worship.
His lips are still warm against your skin, brushing over your collarbone, when his hands slide around your back, slow, sure, never rushing. His fingers find the clasp of your bra, resting there for a moment.
He lifts his head slightly, eyes meeting yours again, checking, always checking. Not for permission, but for comfort. For trust.
When you don’t pull away when your breath hitches just enough and your fingers curl lightly against his bare shoulder.
His fingers work at the clasp, slow and careful, like he’s unwrapping something delicate. The tension slips free, and he eases the straps down your arms, his touch light as air, never breaking eye contact.
When your bra finally falls away, his breath catches. But he doesn’t pounce. He just looks at you, like you’ve knocked the wind out of him, like he wants to remember the way you look in this exact moment for the rest of his life.
“You’re so—” he starts, then stops, because no word feels big enough.
So instead, he kisses you again. Slower. Deeper.
And his hands slide back up your waist, holding you like you’re something he never thought he’d get to have something he refuses to take for granted.
His hands still at your waist for a moment, eyes roaming over you like he’s seeing something he never thought he deserved. His lips are slightly parted, chest rising and falling with the weight of everything unsaid until now.
“It’s a pity,” he murmurs, voice low and wrecked, “that you don’t know how hot you are.”
You blink, breath caught in your throat, the heat between you crackling at the edges.
He leans in closer, brushing a kiss just under your jaw, then another at the curve of your shoulder. “Seriously, Y/N…” he whispers, lips grazing your skin as he speaks. “You could bring me to my knees with just one look and you still hesitate to believe it.”
He pulls back just enough to look at you again, his expression raw, hungry, but laced with something deeper.
His kiss deepens with something rougher now, your words still echoing in his head, pulling him under, unraveling the last thread of his restraint.
His hand glides up your side, slow but certain, until it finds your breast. He cups it gently at first, like he’s still in awe then his thumb brushes over your skin, and the sound you make in response drives him wild.
He pulls back just slightly, eyes dark and heavy-lidded as they meet yours.
“God,” he breathes, his voice hoarse. “You feel so fucking perfect.”
His eyes never leave yours as he leans in, his hand still cradling your breast with a mix of reverence and want. You feel his breath first—warm and unsteady against your skin—before his lips finally make contact.
He starts with a soft kiss, slow and deliberate, right over your heart. Then another, lower this time. And when his mouth finally reaches your breast, he moves gently at first, lips brushing over the sensitive skin like he’s savoring the taste of you.
His tongue flicks softly, teasing, as his hand supports and shapes you toward his mouth. A low, quiet sound escapes him—half a groan, half awe—like he’s been aching for this, like he needs this.
“You drive me crazy,” he murmurs against your skin, voice rough and quiet. “Every inch of you… I want it all.”
You thread your fingers into his hair, gently tugging until his mouth leaves your skin. His eyes flick up to yours, dazed and breathless but you don’t give him time to speak.
You pull him back to your lips, kissing him with a new kind of urgency, hungry, deep, claiming. He groans into your mouth, his hands tightening on your waist as if trying to ground himself in the heat of you.
Then, slowly, you begin to trail your kisses downward.
Over his jaw. Down his neck. You feel the way his breath catches when your lips brush the hollow of his throat, and you smile against his skin.
You keep going, lips and tongue moving lower, down the curve of his collarbone, across his chest, leaving heat in your wake. You pause just above his heart, pressing a lingering kiss there before lightly nipping at the skin.
His chest rises sharply under your mouth, and a low, guttural sound escapes him.
“Fuck, Y/N…” he rasps, voice wrecked, head tilted back.
And as your mouth continues its descent, tasting every inch like a promise, he looks down at you like you’re both a dream and the fire that’s about to consume him.
His hands find your hips, holding you with a reverence that contrasts the growing hunger in his touch. You feel his lips on your neck again, hot, open-mouthed kisses that make your breath stutter in your chest.
But this time… there's intent behind them.
He sucks gently at the skin just below your jaw, then moves lower, trailing kisses along the curve of your shoulder. You feel the first love bite bloom beneath his lips, just enough pressure to leave a mark, just enough to make you gasp.
“You should see yourself,” he murmurs against your skin, voice low and strained. “Already covered in me.”
He keeps going, leaving a slow trail of love bites down your collarbone, across your chest, each one deliberate, each one claiming. He pauses after every mark, kissing it softly like an apology and a promise all at once.
“This okay?” he whispers between kisses, lips brushing over the fresh warmth of a new mark.
The look in your eyes, half-lidded, lost in him is answer enough. And he groans softly, burying his face against your skin like he’s addicted now, like he never wants to stop.
Each bite says what he hasn’t yet put into words: You’re mine. And I want the world to know it.
The air in the room is cool, the soft hum of the AC barely registering against the sound of your mingled breaths, but neither of you feel it. Not anymore.
Despite the cold, both your bodies are slick with a light sheen of sweat, skin flushed and glowing under the dim light. Every kiss, every gasp, every whispered name has added to the heat curling between you, unrelenting and electric.
His hair clings slightly to his forehead, chest rising and falling against yours in rhythm, like your bodies have synced without meaning to. Your fingers drag down his back, slick with heat and want, as his mouth hovers just above yours, lips swollen, eyes dark.
“You feel that?” he murmurs hoarsely, nudging his forehead against yours. “I could touch you for hours and still not be close enough.”
Your response is a breathless nod, a quiet whimper against his mouth as you pull him down again, the cool sheets doing nothing to tame the fire building between your skin.
It doesn’t matter that the room is chilled. Between you and him, It’s all heat. All tension. And neither of you is even close to done.
His hands find the waistband of your jeans, eyes flicking up to meet yours one last time, checking. When you don’t stop him, when your fingers tighten just slightly around his biceps, urging him on, he leans in to kiss you again, soft and slow, before trailing his hands downward.
He unbuttons them carefully, almost reverently, and begins to slide them down your hips. The denim clings slightly to your heated skin, but he takes his time, inch by inch, like he’s unwrapping something precious, not just undressing you, but adoring you.
When he finally eases them off your legs, letting them fall to the floor, he draws back just enough to take you in.
There you are laid out beneath him in nothing but your underwear, flushed and glowing, lips kiss-bitten and chest rising and falling like you’ve just run a marathon.
“Fuck,” he breathes, his voice low, wrecked. “You’re… unreal.”
He runs his hands slowly up your bare thighs, savoring the way you shiver under his touch. His fingers linger at your hips, his thumbs brushing gently over the edge of your underwear but he doesn’t move further. Not yet.
He wants to take his time. He wants you to feel every second of how much he wants you.
He lowers himself slowly, lips brushing soft, open kisses along your thigh, each one closer than the last, each one more deliberate. The muscles beneath your skin twitch at the contact, anticipation tightening every breath you take.
And then he pauses.
His eyes settle on the damp patch blooming at the center of your underwear, and something in his expression shifts like awe and hunger colliding all at once.
“Look at you,” he murmurs, voice like a low hum against your skin. His fingers gently part your thighs a little more, giving him room to settle between them. “So worked up for me already.”
He presses a kiss to your inner thigh, close, so close then looks up at you, his eyes dark and blazing with something deeper than just lust.
“I haven’t even touched you there yet,” he says with a breathless smile, almost reverent. “And you’re already soaking through.”
Another kiss, this one slower, hotter lands just beside the wet patch, as his hand rests on your hip to hold you steady, like he knows you’re already trembling beneath the weight of his attention.
“I’m gonna take my time with you,” he whispers, voice thick with want. “Because you deserve to be undone slowly.”
Your voice breaks through the haze, low and breathless “Fuck, Jin. Stop being an asshole.”
He freezes for half a second, then laughs, soft and wrecked, his breath hot against your skin.
“Oh?” he murmurs, pressing one more teasing kiss just beside where you want him most. “Is that what I am now?”
You glare at him, your fingers tangling in his hair, tugging just enough to make him groan. “You know what you’re doing.”
He grins, cocky and flushed, eyes full of mischief and want. “Yeah,” he whispers, letting his lips hover just over the soaked fabric. “That’s the fun part.”
His smirk fades, replaced by something deeper, hungrier but still full of reverence. He shifts closer, his hands slow as they hook into the sides of your underwear.
He pulls them down with care, like he’s unwrapping something fragile, something he’s waited a long time to fully see. As the fabric slides down your thighs and past your knees, he keeps his gaze locked on you, eyes dark, lips parted, breath shallow.
And when you’re finally bare before him, he exhales like he’s been holding his breath since the moment this began.
He lets his fingers trail lightly up your inner thigh, ghosting over your slickness, barely there, but enough to make your hips twitch, your breath stutter.
“Fuck,” he whispers, almost to himself, eyes flickering with a mix of awe and heat. “You’re so wet for me.”
Then he leans in.
And with a tenderness that borders on worship, he presses a soft, lingering kiss right where you need him most. Not rushed. Not greedy. Just… his lips on you slow, claiming, reverent.
The kiss is a promise. He’s not here to tease anymore. He’s here to ruin you, gently.
Before he can pull away, your hand shoots down, fingers threading into his hair as you grab his face and hold him there. Your hips roll forward instinctively, grinding against his mouth with a desperate, breathless need that leaves no room for teasing.
A groan vibrates from deep in his throat, muffled against you, and he lets you take control, welcomes it.
His hands immediately grip your thighs, fingers digging in just enough to anchor you as you move against him. He tilts his head just right, lips and tongue working in perfect rhythm with your motions, matching your urgency with his own.
You hear him moan again, this time raw, hungry, completely undone by the way you’re using him. And the sound only makes you press down harder, riding his mouth like it’s the only way to survive the heat surging through your veins.
You look down at him, his flushed cheeks, dark eyes, and the way he wants this, wants you and it sends you spiraling.
Every grind. Every flick of his tongue. Every breathless noise you make. He takes it all......like you’re his favorite sin. And he never once tries to stop you.
Your voice spills out between shaky breaths. Raw, desperate, laced with everything you’re feeling.
“Fuck, Jin… deeper.”
It’s not a request. It’s a plea.
And he hears it.
His grip on your thighs tightens, grounding you as he presses in closer, his mouth claiming you with a hunger that borders on worship. He parts you with his tongue, slow at first but then deeper, firmer, the kind of pressure that makes your back arch and your fingers tangle tighter in his hair.
He groans into you loud, and shameless, driven completely wild by the way you sound, the way you taste, the way you grind against his mouth like you can’t get enough.
“Just like that,” he murmurs against you in a ragged breath, his voice thick with want. “Let me hear you, baby. I want all of it.”
And he dives in again, deeper, messier, perfect like he wants to unravel you from the inside out, like his only goal is to leave you shaking, ruined, and completely his.
As your moans grow sharper, your hips grinding down harder against his mouth, Jin responds instantly, intuitively. His hands tighten around your thighs, holding you steady, and then you feel it, his thumb, sliding up between your folds, slick from your arousal and the heat of his mouth.
He presses it gently against your clit, circling with just enough pressure to make your breath hitch and your body jolt.
“Fuck—Jin,” you gasp, your fingers tugging at his hair, and he groans in response, the sound vibrating through you.
His mouth continues working you with slow, deep strokes of his tongue, but now paired with the rhythmic, focused motion of his thumb, each movement synced perfectly with the way your body trembles beneath him.
“You’re falling apart for me,” he murmurs against you, voice ragged, thumb pressing a little harder, a little faster. “Just like that. Let go, baby.”
And with that combination: his mouth, his thumb, his voice, you feel yourself spiraling fast, the pleasure climbing with every wave, threatening to break you open in the best possible way.
Just when you think you’ve adjusted to the rhythm, his thumb circling you, his mouth worshiping you with steady, devastating precision, you feel the soft scrape of his teeth.
A gasp escapes you.
It’s light, careful, more teasing than rough. He lets them graze against your sensitive skin for just a second, just enough to make your hips jolt and a breathy “fuck” fall from your lips. He pulls back the moment he feels your body tense, not from discomfort, but from how sharply the pleasure spikes.
And then his tongue is back.
Softer now. Slower but deeper, more deliberate. Paired with the steady motion of his thumb, it’s almost too much. Your thighs threaten to close around his head, but his grip keeps you open, anchored, right where he wants you.
“God,” he groans into you, almost drunk on the taste of you. “The way you react… it’s everything.”
His tongue moves again, slick, hot, purposeful drawing you back into the rhythm, until your moans are breathless and your body’s trembling under the weight of how close you are.
And still, he doesn’t let up. Because he wants you to fall apart. And he wants to be the only one who’s ever brought you there like this.
Your body’s already pulsing with heat, every nerve alive under his mouth and the unrelenting press of his thumb. You're teetering on the edge, breathless, shaking, moaning his name like a prayer.
And then you feel it, his finger.
Slowly, carefully, he slips it inside you, the intrusion smooth from how soaked you are. He groans at the feeling, at how your walls tighten instantly around him, like your body’s been aching for more.
“Shit,” he breathes, lifting his head just enough to watch your face, the way you fall apart in real time. “You’re so fucking tight.”
And then he lowers again, his tongue circling your clit while his finger curls inside you, testing, learning, memorizing. He moves slow at first, dragging it along your most sensitive spot with a kind of focus that makes your back arch off the bed.
Your breath breaks into a whimper, hands clutching at the sheets, at his hair, anything.
He smiles against you, adding just the slightest pressure as his tongue and finger move in perfect sync, completely in tune with your body’s desperate rhythm.
“Come on, baby,” he murmurs, voice thick with desire. “Let me feel you fall apart on my fingers.”
And the way he says it ,low, raw, reverent makes your body tremble as the climax builds fast, threatening to crash over you like a wave you can’t stop.
You fall apart with a cry, sharp, broken, his name the only thing your lips can form as your body arches into him. The orgasm rips through you, intense and consuming, your thighs trembling around his head, your hands lost in his hair.
But Jin doesn’t stop.
He holds you through it, mouth still on you, tongue moving in slow, languid strokes like he’s savoring every drop, every aftershock. The room is filled with the slick, obscene sound of him lapping at you, utterly devoted, utterly lost in you.
The way he moans against your overstimulated skin, the way he whispers soft, ruined praise between kisses “So perfect… taste so good… that’s it, baby…” only makes the pleasure stretch, ripple, linger.
Your body twitches under his mouth, sensitive and undone, but he’s gentle now, less greedy, more worshipful. His tongue moves in soft, lazy circles like he’s trying to soothe you from the inside out.
He doesn’t lift his head yet. Not until he’s kissed you through every last tremble.
And when he finally does, his lips are swollen, his eyes blown wide with hunger and awe—and he looks at you like you’re the most breathtaking thing he’s ever seen.
“Still with me?” he breathes, his voice low, wrecked, and laced with the kind of love that never needed words.
You don’t speak because your body answers for you.
Still breathless, still trembling from the high he pulled out of you with nothing but his mouth and his hands, you reach for him. Your fingers curl around his shoulders tugging him up until he’s hovering above you again, swollen lips, eyes burning, chest heaving.
You don’t need words.
Your hands move to his belt, working at it with practiced urgency, the soft clink of the buckle loud in the quiet, heat-thick air between you. His breath stutters, and his hands brace on either side of you, muscles tight, body hovering just barely above yours.
“Y/N…” he breathes, his voice low, like he’s trying to keep it together but you can feel him unraveling, just like you did.
You glance up at him through your lashes, still flushed and raw but full of want, fingers dragging the belt loose with a soft tug. The zipper follows, slow, deliberate.
“You are wrecking me,” he says, eyes locked to yours as he helps you slide his pants down and onto the floor , hips lifting slightly to meet your touch.
And now there’s no teasing. No hesitation. Just heat, want, and the promise of something deeper than either of you dared to say out loud.
You guide him down to you, skin against skin, mouths crashing together like you’ve been starving for it all this time.
His breath hitches as your fingers brush against the waistband of his boxers, your eyes full of quiet urgency.
He shifts up just enough to slide them down, the fabric catching briefly on the heat of him before he kicks them aside. Now he’s fully bared before you, flushed and hard in his hand as he wraps his fingers around himself, giving a few slow, measured pumps, just enough to ease the ache, just enough to watch the way you look at him when he does.
You’re breathless, watching him, his muscles taut, chest rising and falling, the way his hand moves slow, dragging out the moment like he wants it seared into memory. The air between you crackles with tension, heavy and electric.
Then his hand stills.
He leans down, kissing you again, hungry, deep before whispering against your lips, “Tell me you want this. Tell me you're mine again.”
And God, you do. Every aching, breathless part of you.
His forehead presses gently to yours, his lips still swollen from the kiss, breath coming fast and shallow.
“I don’t have protection,” he murmurs, voice rough, but steady like it takes everything in him to say it out loud. His hand stills against your hip, holding you there but not pressing forward, waiting.
The air shifts.
Even in the middle of all this heat, he gives you space, gives you the choice. You can feel how much he wants you, how close he is to losing control, but still… he waits.
“I need to hear you,” he adds softly, his thumb brushing a slow circle into your skin. “Tell me what you want, Y/N. If you want me to stop… I will. If you want this…” His voice falters slightly, then deepens. “I’ll take care of you. Every second of it.”
And for a beat, there’s nothing but the weight of his honesty between you, desire hanging heavy in the air, but grounded in something more: respect. Trust. You.
"Jin......don't care......need you in me."
A soft, wrecked groan escapes his throat as his body tenses, the restraint he’s been clinging to unraveling completely. His eyes darken with something fierce, something tender, and he kisses you like he’s been waiting his whole life to hear you say that.
“You have no idea what that does to me,” he murmurs against your mouth, voice low, trembling, desperate.
He shifts between your thighs, lining himself up, one hand steady on your waist, the other bracing beside your head as he searches your face one last time, still making sure.
And when he sees it in your eyes, how ready you are, how much you need this, he begins to push in, slow and careful, his breath catching hard in his chest as your body welcomes him in inch by inch.
“Fuck… Y/N,” he gasps, jaw clenched, brows drawn in pleasure. “You feel like—like everything.”
The stretch, the heat, the way your body takes him in, it’s overwhelming. And he doesn’t move right away. He just stays there, fully inside you, forehead resting against yours, your breaths tangled together as your bodies finally, finally become one.
There’s no rush now. Just this. You. Him. And the feeling of being completely filled.......completely his.
He’s deep inside you now, fully, completely—and you can feel all of him.
He’s so hard, thick and pulsing as he holds himself still, trying to give you time to adjust, even though every muscle in his body is straining with the effort not to move. His breath is ragged, forehead pressed to yours, eyes clenched shut like he’s fighting for control.
“Shit… you feel so good,” he groans, voice low and wrecked, trembling against your lips. “So fucking tight, baby—wrapped around me like this…”
You shift slightly beneath him and he shudders, letting out another sharp breath, his hands gripping your hips tighter.
“Fuck, Y/N,” he grits out, opening his eyes to look at you, completely undone, completely in awe. “I’m so hard for you it hurts.”
He presses a kiss to your cheek, then your jaw, and whispers “Tell me when you’re ready. Because once I start… I might not be able to stop.”
And God, neither of you want him to.
Your fingers curl around the back of his neck, pulling him closer, your lips brushing against his as you whisper barely breathless, but firm.
“Jin… please move.”
He freezes for a heartbeat, like those words hit him harder than anything else tonight. His jaw clenches, his eyes flutter shut, and you feel him exhale, long, shaky, like he’s barely holding on.
“Fuck,” he breathes, voice raw. “You’re gonna ruin me.”
And then, he moves.
Slowly, at first. Drawing his hips back just enough before sliding in again, deeper, smoother this time. The sound that tears from your throat is soft, but it lights a fire in him.
He picks up a rhythm, steady, deep, intentional. His hand grips your thigh, hitching it up around his waist to pull you even closer, deeper, until your bodies move like they were made for this, for each other.
“You feel…” he groans into your neck, words unraveling as his thrusts grow harder, “so fucking good, baby. So perfect for me.”
And with every thrust, every moan, every whispered plea, you both give in fully, lost in the kind of heat that makes time stop, makes the whole world disappear until all that exists is you and him, skin to skin, heart to heart.
As he drives into you, slow, deep, perfect, your moans grow louder, needier, your nails dragging across his back, your body arching beneath his.
He watches you fall apart with every thrust, chest heaving, lips parted, and it makes him lose what little restraint he still had.
Without breaking rhythm, his hand slides down between your bodies, and then, his thumb.
He finds your clit with practiced precision, circling it with just the right pressure, just the right pace. You gasp sharp, broken and your whole body jolts beneath him.
“That’s it,” he murmurs, breathless and completely wrecked, eyes locked on the way you unravel. “Feel me, baby… I wanna feel you fall apart on me again.”
He keeps moving inside you, hips snapping forward, his thumb working in perfect sync with every thrust, dragging moan after moan from your lips. You’re soaked, tight, throbbing around him and the added pressure sends you spiraling.
Your hands grip his shoulders, your thighs trembling around his waist, and you can feel it building again, hot, fast, inescapable.
“Let go,” he whispers against your lips. “I’m right here. Give it to me.”
You reach up with a trembling urgency, your legs curling around his waist and then higher, hooking over his shoulders as he leans back to adjust, groaning at the new angle.
“Shit,” he gasps, eyes flickering down to where your bodies are joined. “You’re gonna fucking kill me.”
Your new position opens you completely to him, making everything sharper, deeper, intense. His thrusts hit even harder now, his length dragging along every sweet, aching spot inside you with precision that feels unbearably good.
His hands slide beneath your thighs, gripping them firmly as he rocks into you, chest slick with sweat, jaw clenched in focus and pure, wrecked need.
The added pressure of your legs locked around his shoulders sends his thrusts deeper, more desperate, his thumb still pressed to your clit, still moving, still demanding your undoing.
“You feel that?” he groans, eyes dark and wild, watching the way your body arches under his. “Taking me so deep, baby… so fucking perfect for me.”
And all you can do is moan loudly, shamelessly as pleasure tears through you in waves, your body trembling, your breath shattering beneath the weight of him.
You’re so close again, so close you can taste it.
And he knows. Because he’s right there with you.
Your voice breaks through the haze, breathless, raw, wrecked.
“Jin… faster. Deeper. Give me more.”
His entire body tenses at your words, like they set off something primal in him. His eyes meet yours, dark, desperate, almost feral with the need to give you exactly what you’re begging for.
“Fuck, Y/N,” he growls, voice hoarse, barely holding on. “You want more? I’ll give you everything.”
And he does.
His grip tightens on your thighs, his legs anchoring him deeper between yours as your ankles lock tighter behind his shoulders. He slams into you harder now, faster, each thrust sharper, deeper, filling you in a way that leaves you gasping, trembling, aching.
His thumb never leaves your clit, moving in tight, perfect circles that keep you teetering on the edge. Every sound that escapes you, every cry of his name, drives him harder, deeper, until the only thing filling the room is the slick slap of skin, tangled breaths, and your moans echoing off the walls.
“Come on, baby,” he pants, his thrusts relentless. “Fall apart for me again. Let me feel it. Let me have it.”
His is body pressed so tightly to yours it’s hard to tell where he ends and you begin.
“Jin… I’m close,” you gasp, voice shaking, your nails digging into his back as your body starts to tremble beneath him.
The moment the words leave your lips, he groans deep, guttural and his movements grow even more focused, desperate, like your pleasure is the only thing keeping him grounded.
“I feel it,” he breathes, eyes locked on yours, sweat-slicked and completely wrecked. “Don’t hold back, baby. Let it happen, I’ve got you.”
His hips roll deeper, harder, hitting that perfect spot with every thrust. His thumb keeps circling your clit, fast and precise, and the way he’s looking at you like he’s on the edge with you, like he needs to watch you come undone only pushes him closer.
“That’s it… just like that,” he murmurs, kissing you through every whimper. “Come for me. Let me feel you fall apart.”
And you do right there in his arms, with his name falling from your lips like a prayer you never want to stop saying.
Your whole body tightens, every nerve alight, every muscle straining as the wave finally crashes over you.
You cry out his name, loud, shattered, clinging to him like he’s the only solid thing in the world. Your legs tremble around his shoulders, your back arches off the sheets, and you let go completely.
You come hard, a lot, the release overwhelming, your body pulsing around him in deep, uncontrollable waves. You feel yourself grow wetter with every ripple, soaking him, the sheets, everything and he feels it.
“Fuck—Y/N,” Jin groans, voice wrecked, eyes wide as your release coats him. “You’re… so fucking perfect.”
He doesn’t stop. His thumb slows only slightly, just enough to draw every last wave of pleasure from you, his hips rolling deeper but gentler now, like he’s trying to prolong the moment, keep you in that perfect, ruined place just a little longer.
He leans down, pressing soft kisses to your jaw, your cheek, your lips, whispers tangled between them.
“That’s it, baby… I’ve got you.” “You did so good for me.” “So beautiful when you come for me like that.”
You’re breathless, flushed, trembling but in his arms, you feel safe. Held. Completely his.
And he hasn’t even come yet. But he’s watching you like you’re the most incredible thing he’s ever seen Because you are.
Your body is still trembling, oversensitive and glowing, but Jin, he’s far from finished.
He’s still inside you, still rock-hard, still aching. And now, with your release coating him, making every thrust impossibly slick and hot, he loses whatever thread of control he had left.
He groans deep, primal and shifts his grip, pushing your legs back slightly for a deeper angle. His thrusts turn rougher, more desperate, his pace erratic as he chases the high that’s been building since the moment he touched you.
“Fuck, Y/N…” he pants, jaw clenched, sweat dripping from his temple. “You feel so good, so wet—gonna make me come—fuck.”
You can feel how close he is his whole body tensing, his hips snapping forward harder, faster, his breath stuttering every time you clench around him. You meet his eyes and cup his face, whispering between shaky breaths:
“Let go, Jin. I want to feel you.”
He groans like the words physically hit him. One more thrust deep, sharp, perfect and then he falls.
His body shudders, muscles locking up as he buries himself to the hilt, head dropping to your shoulder with a strangled moan. He pulses inside you, hot and thick, his release pouring out in long, breathless waves as you hold him through it.
“Y/N… fuck…” he breathes, voice wrecked, arms shaking as he tries not to collapse fully on top of you.
And then silence, except for your ragged breaths, tangled limbs, and the way his heart thunders against yours.
He stays buried deep inside you, his forehead resting against your shoulder, both of you breathing hard, bodies flushed, drenched in sweat, hearts pounding like war drums.
But even as the aftershocks of his release roll through him, you feel it, he’s still hard.
Still thick. Still wanting.
His breath hitches as you shift slightly beneath him, and he lets out a low, broken sound, half groan, half growl.
“Still so fucking hard for you,” he murmurs, voice raw, voice wrecked, as if he can’t quite believe it either. His hand slides along your side, fingers brushing your thigh. “One time wasn’t enough. I need—” he cuts himself off with a sharp breath, thrusting into you again, slower, but deeper, and you feel it too, the ache building all over again.
Your body trembles around him, still sensitive, still slick with your release and his but that only makes it easier, messier, hotter.
“You’re not done with me yet, are you?” you whisper, teasing, breathless, eyes locking onto his with fire still burning in your chest.
He smiles, lips parted, eyes dark and wild. “Not even close.”
And he begins to move again slow, deliberate, hungry all over again.
His breath catches like your words punched the air right out of his lungs.
You lift your head just slightly, eyes smoldering as you whisper, "Let me ride you."
He stares at you for a beat, chest still heaving, lips parted, hair damp against his forehead. And then he nods slow, stunned, wrecked.
“Fuck yes,” he groans, voice rough, barely holding it together. “Take me—take all of me.”
You crawl up his body, straddling his hips, and he watches every move like he’s watching something sacred unfold. His hands grip your thighs as you position yourself over him, guiding him back to your entrance, still wet, still aching for more.
“You’re sure?” he asks again, voice softer now, like even in all this heat, he still needs to know you want this just as much.
You lean down, kiss him slow, deep, and whisper, "I’ve never been more sure of anything."
And then you sink down onto him.
Both of you moan at the contact, at the stretch, at the depth. He fills you completely, perfectly, and you both freeze for a second, just breathing, just feeling.
His head falls back, a curse escaping his lips as his fingers tighten on your waist.
“Ride me, baby,” he growls, eyes half-lidded and burning. “Show me how good you feel. Make me lose my fucking mind.”
You start to move, rolling your hips, trying to find a steady rhythm but your legs are trembling, still weak from everything he’s already pulled out of you. Your thrusts falter, uneven, more desperate than controlled.
Jin sees it immediately.
His hands slide up to your waist, firm and steady, grounding you as his eyes lock onto yours dark, tender, and absolutely wrecked with need.
“You’re still shaking,” he murmurs, voice low and thick. “Let me help.”
And before you can respond, he starts to move beneath you, slow, deep thrusts from his hips that meet your body perfectly, drawing sharp gasps from your lips every time he fills you again.
You moan his name, your hands braced on his chest as he fucks up into you from below, his grip on your hips keeping you steady, guiding your movements so you’re riding him together, messy, passionate, perfectly in sync.
“Just like that,” he groans, breath ragged. “You’re doing so good, baby. So fucking good.”
You rock with him, each thrust sending sparks through your body, the friction and pressure building all over again. His eyes never leave your face, watching every moan, every stuttered breath, like it’s the only thing that matters.
And when you start to move with him again stronger this time, meeting his rhythm, he lets out a deep, wrecked moan.
“There you go,” he pants. “Ride me, baby. I’ve got you.”
As you regain your rhythm, hips grinding down to meet his thrusts, your moans growing louder, needier, Jin’s hand slides from your waist, trailing between your bodies once again.
You already know what he’s about to do, and your breath catches in anticipation.
“Still so sensitive,” he murmurs, voice wrecked, eyes flickering down to where you’re taking all of him. “But you can take it. I know you can.”
And then his thumb finds your clit again.
The pressure is immediate, just right, firm, focused, circling in time with every deep, upward thrust of his hips. Your body jolts at the contact, the pleasure sharp and overwhelming, pushing you closer to that edge you didn’t think you’d reach again so soon.
You cry out, clutching at his shoulders for balance as the mix of his thumb and the way he’s fucking up into you becomes too much and not enough all at once.
“That’s it,” he groans, his voice strained as he watches you fall apart in real time. “Feel that, baby? You’re so close. I can feel you tightening—fuck.”
Your body starts to tremble again, thighs shaking as his thumb moves in faster, tighter circles, dragging you mercilessly toward your second high.
“Come on,” he whispers through gritted teeth, never slowing down. “Fall apart on me again. I want to feel you come while you’re riding me.”
And you’re right there blazing, trembling, on the verge of breaking all over again
As his thumb works your clit in tight, relentless circles and his hips thrust up into you with deep, desperate rhythm, Jin’s other hand slides up your torso, fingers trailing over your slick skin until they find your breast.
He groans at the feel of you in his hand, warm and soft, and he squeezes gently, thumb brushing over your sensitive nipple in slow, teasing strokes. Your back arches into the touch, a moan ripping from your throat as the sensations become overwhelming, pleasure pouring in from every direction.
Then his mouth finds you.
He leans forward, lips wrapping around your breast, tongue flicking over your nipple before he starts to suck, slow, deep, greedy pulls that send shockwaves straight through your core.
Your hips stutter again, your moans turning breathless, broken. The feeling of his mouth on your chest, his hand still toying, his thumb driving you wild below. It’s too much and yet exactly what you crave.
“Jin—” you cry, your hands flying to his hair, gripping tight as your body begins to shake again. “I—I can’t—”
He groans around your nipple, sucking harder, his voice muffled but wrecked. “Yes you can. You’re so close, baby. Come for me again. I want to feel you lose it on top of me.”
And with every deep thrust, every flick of his tongue, every press of his thumb you feel it crashing toward you again, bigger and harder than before.
Your body locks up, thighs trembling around his hips, breath caught somewhere between a gasp and a cry as the climax slams into you, harder than the last, sharper, and so overwhelming it nearly knocks the wind out of you.
You come a lot.
It rushes through you in waves, unstoppable, rolling through every nerve ending like fire and lightning. Your walls clench around him in pulsing, rhythmic spasms, so wet, so intense it spills down over his thighs, soaking him, the sheets, everything.
“Fuck, Y/N—” Jin growls, his voice wrecked, his hips jerking up into you as he groans at the feeling of you breaking apart on him. “You’re so wet, so fucking tight, you’re driving me insane.”
Your moans are helpless, high and broken, your head thrown back, nails digging into his shoulders as your body trembles violently, completely lost in the rush of it. You can barely breathe, barely think all you know is him: his hands, his mouth, his cock buried so deep inside you it feels like he’s part of your soul.
He holds you close, both arms wrapped around you now, letting you ride out the orgasm as long as your body needs whispering soft, breathless praise into your skin.
“That’s it… I’ve got you. You’re so perfect. Let it all go for me.”
And even as your body starts to come down, twitching with the aftershocks, he’s still rock-hard beneath you because watching you come that hard, that much, has him right on the edge of losing it himself.
As your body trembles and slumps forward still pulsing, still slick, still wrapped tight around him, Jin tightens his grip on your waist. His lips brush your temple, but there’s a different heat in his breath now. Raw, urgent, uncontrolled.
“Fuck, baby,” he growls, voice breaking, “you feel so good, I can’t hold back anymore.”
He plants his feet against the mattress, bending his knees for leverage, and starts to move hard, fast, deep thrusts from below that shake your already sensitive body. You moan helplessly, clinging to his chest, overstimulated but loving it, letting him chase his own high inside you.
His hands are everywhere, one still gripping your hip, the other tangled in your hair, pulling you down so your foreheads press together.
“You’re gonna take it,” he pants. “All of me. Gonna come so deep inside you, fuck just like this.”
Every thrust punches the air from your lungs. He’s relentless now, his body slick against yours, groaning through clenched teeth as your name spills from his lips like a chant. He’s so close you can feel it in the way he twitches inside you, in the way his rhythm grows messier, more desperate.
“Y/N—fuck—I’m gonna come—inside fuck, fuck, fuck”
And with a final, deep, shattering thrust, he lets go.
He moans your name like a prayer as he buries himself to the hilt, releasing in long, hot pulses that fill you up, his entire body locking up beneath yours. You feel him throb inside you, feel the warmth spread as he empties everything into you, his voice breaking, his nails digging into your skin, his heart pounding wildly against your chest.
He collapses back against the mattress, arms still wrapped around you, both of you tangled, soaked, breathless.
And completely wrecked by each other.
The two of you lie tangled together, your bodies still slick with sweat, skin pressed flush against skin. His breath slowly evens out, chest rising and falling in steady rhythms as he stays nestled inside you, softer now, gentle in the aftermath of everything.
His fingers trace lazy patterns along your back, fingertips light as feathers, grounding you both in this quiet, intimate space. The warmth of him fills you completely not just physically, but something deeper, unspoken.
Jin’s head rests on your shoulder, his lips brushing soft, tired kisses there. He murmurs your name quietly, a breathless reminder that you’re still his, still wrapped in each other long after the fire has cooled.
The room feels still, peaceful, but charged with the kind of closeness that only comes when two souls have collided and settled, knowing, unbreakable.
You breathe in sync, hearts beating slow, steady, connected.
And in this perfect silence, there’s only you. Only him. And the quiet, sacred space you share.
After a while, Jin slowly, gently pulls away from you, careful not to disturb the peaceful way your body is curled into his. He presses a soft kiss to your temple before slipping out of bed, his movements quiet, fluid.
You hear the faint sound of the shower in the background, water hitting tile, but sleep tugs heavily at your limbs, wrapping you in warmth and the fading afterglow of everything.
Some time later, he returns.
The air feels a little cooler now, and you stir as the mattress shifts under his weight. His hand finds your back, warm and comforting, fingers brushing away the damp strands of hair from your cheek.
“Hey,” he whispers gently, voice soft like velvet, “wake up, baby.”
You blink sleepily, eyes fluttering open to find him freshly showered, damp hair falling messily over his forehead, a soft towel wrapped low around his waist.
“Come on,” he says, kissing your forehead, “I ran a warm bath for you. Thought you’d want to soak a little while I change the sheets.”
You glance over and see the crumpled, sweat-damp mess of bedding beneath you. You nod sleepily, and he smiles, helping you up with careful hands, always so attentive, always so him.
“Take your time,” he murmurs, leading you toward the bathroom. “I’ll be here when you’re done.”
While the warm water envelops your aching body in the bath he prepared, scented lightly, just enough to soothe without overwhelming. You sink deeper into the comfort, letting your eyes close for a moment, your muscles slowly relaxing under the gentle heat.
Back in the bedroom, Jin moves quietly but efficiently.
He strips the bed of the used, tangled sheets with a little smirk at the memory of how they got that way, then tosses them into the hamper. He replaces them with fresh, soft linen, something light and cool against the skin, perfect for sleep. As he smooths the comforter and fluffs the pillows, he glances toward the bathroom, thinking about you, how you looked curled up in his arms, how you always look even softer when you trust him like that.
Once the bed is ready, he pulls on a pair of loose sweats and a simple white t-shirt, his body still warm and clean from the shower.
The bathroom door opens with a soft creak, and Jin looks up from where he’s sitting on the edge of the freshly made bed.
And then he sees you.
Wearing nothing but his shirt, oversized and draping beautifully over your damp skin, sleeves hanging long past your wrists, the hem barely grazing the tops of your thighs. Your hair is still slightly wet, skin dewy from the bath, and your eyes are soft, sleepy, and a little shy as they meet his.
For a second, he forgets how to breathe.
“Wow,” he says under his breath, standing slowly. “I knew you’d look good in it, but…” He trails off, eyes scanning you with something between reverence and complete awe. “You look better in it than I ever did.”
You smile, a little flustered, tugging at the hem as you step closer. “It smells like you,” you murmur. “I didn’t want to wear anything else.”
He reaches out and pulls you gently into his arms, pressing a kiss to your forehead as his hands settle around your waist, fingertips brushing the soft cotton that clings to your hips.
“I was hoping you’d say that,” he whispers. “You in my shirt… after a night like that… kind of makes me want to never let you take it off.”
You laugh softly into his chest, your body melting into his, warm and clean and wrapped in something more than just fabric, wrapped in him.
He hears the softness in your voice as you murmur, “I’m sleepy,” your head already nestling against his chest, your body sinking into him like it’s the safest place in the world.
Jin smiles gently, brushing his fingers through your damp hair, his touch feather-light and soothing.
“Okay, baby,” he whispers, his voice warm and quiet. “Come on, lie down with me.”
He guides you back onto the freshly made bed, pulling the covers over you with such care it feels like a lullaby. He slips in beside you, tugging you close until you’re curled up against him, his shirt loose around you, your legs tangled with his.
One arm wraps around your waist, his other hand cradling your head as you melt into him, warm and secure.
“Sleep,” he whispers against your forehead, pressing the gentlest kiss there. “I’ll be right here when you wake up.”
And with the steady beat of his heart beneath your ear, the scent of him wrapped around you, and his body holding you like he’s never letting go as you drift off, peaceful, loved, and utterly safe.
As your breathing evens out and your body softens completely in his arms, Jin stays awake, just watching you.
The room is dim and quiet, moonlight spilling gently through the curtains, casting a silvery glow over your face. You look so peaceful, curled into him, wearing his shirt like it was made for you.
He exhales softly, the kind of breath that carries more emotion than words ever could.
With a tenderness only he could give, he leans in and presses the faintest kiss to your forehead. Then another, just above your brow. Then one more light, slow, reverent into your hair.
“You’re so beautiful,” he whispers, even though you can’t hear it.
His fingers trace slow, calming lines down your back as he holds you closer, resting his chin gently atop your head.
“I hope you know how safe you are with me,” he murmurs, voice almost inaudible now, like he’s telling you a secret in your sleep. “How much I love you.”
And even in sleep, you shift just slightly, as if your body somehow heard him.
He smiles to himself, brushes one last kiss to your temple, and closes his eyes, finally letting rest take him, too, still holding you like he’ll never let go. "Love you, YN"
Curated Desire |JJK |(100 Follower's Special)
Pairing: Jungkook x f.reader Word count: Warning: 18+ Smut, MDNI Word count: 5k
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The ballroom shone like a jewelry box as the chandeliers dripping light with violins humming in the background, a spotless floor gleaming, as thought it was never made to be walked upon. Every figure in the room was draped in the most pristine material of all, everyone was dressed to be seen but but in jungkook's gaze none of them were worth it, until you arrived.
You walked in, and it seemed like the air itself bent for you. Silk clung to you form in a gown that was a walking masterpiece of one of your own designs, nothing too fancy, a simple gown with a low neckline teasing just enough cleavage and a high cut slit making everyone hold their breath. The shift in the air was subtle, but noticeable enough to make you grin without giving a smile.
As, you floated past them without a single glance, his gaze found yours, a pair of eyes staring intently at you with far more then admiration.
You knew him, Jeon Jungkook. Notorious for his ruthless eye in collecting art, anything from provocative paintings and sculpture to entire exhibitions, bought with a single signature, filthy rich, impossibly young and never impressed by anything or at least you thought so.
From across the room, his stare was persistent, not looking away when you did. Nor did he flinch when someone tried to steal his attention. Now, his glass of champagne sat forgotten at the table as his gaze traced the lines of your figure from your neck, the curve of your exposed shoulder to the way your fingers balance the glass of champagne on your hand. He drank in your dress, your heels, even the delicate pattern you had gotten done on your nails today when he murmured something to himself.
But he didn't approach and neither did you. Because the eye contact felt like something dangerously close to restraint, obscene like undressing in public without moving an inch.
You shake off the thoughts clouding your head before moving through the gala with ease of someone long accustomed to commanding attention. Collectors, designers, and influencer swirled around you trying to get one shake of your hand, a compliment on the cut of your gown, anything to catch your attention.
"The piece, the hem, the cut everything about this is extraordinary" someone murmured from behind you, you turned to accept the praise with a small smile dancing on your lips. Every word was a brushstroke every motion calculated.
But through it all, one gaze did not waver. Jungkook
He remained leaning, across the room, and his eyes never left you. He watched the way you fingers traced the delicate silk when talking about the inspiration behind this gown, the way your voice softened subtly when talking about hours spent on perfecting it.
Every step you took, every graceful tilt of you head, every soft laugh...it was all under the scrutiny of his obsession . Elegant, precise, yet burning with desperation mirroring your own.
Even surrounded by admirers, gold and silk, you felt his focus like heat crawling across your skin. And he smirked like the world surrounding him didn't exist.
His gaze followed your every move, through conversations, through laughter, through the swirl of champagne and music. No matter where you turned, you felt him like a weight pressed to your skin, a steady burn at the back of your neck.
And when you finally slipped into a velvet chair near the edge of the ballroom, crossing one leg over the other with the elegance of someone born to be watched, he moved.
Jungkook set his glass down with quiet precision, the faint clink drowned in the hum of the room. His shoulders rolled back, his tuxedo fitting him like sin itself, and without hesitation, he rose to his feet.
Every step was deliberate. Controlled. Yet there was something in his stride that betrayed him, the faint urgency of a man who had waited too long already. Guests turned their heads as he passed, whispers trailing after him like perfume.
And then, suddenly, it was just the two of you.
He stopped before you, not too close, not too far, as if proximity alone might shatter the fragile barrier between restraint and ruin. His eyes drank you in up close for the first time, dark and burning, before his lips parted with the slowest curl of a smirk.
“Do you always design art you shouldn’t wear in public,” he said softly, voice smooth as velvet, “or is tonight an exception?”
You didn’t answer, your gaze drifting deliberately elsewhere, refusing to reward him.
The corner of his mouth curved as if your silence amused him. Then, unhurried but certain, he lowered himself into the seat beside you.
His gaze followed your every move through conversations, through laughter, through the swirl of champagne and music. No matter where you turned, you felt him like a weight pressed to your skin, a steady burn at the back of your neck.
And when you finally slipped into a velvet chair near the edge of the ballroom, crossing one leg over the other with the elegance of someone born to be watched, he moved.
Jungkook set his glass down with quiet precision, the faint clink drowned in the hum of the room. His shoulders rolled back, his tuxedo fitting him like sin itself, and without hesitation, he rose to his feet.
Every step was deliberate. Controlled. Yet there was something in his stride that betrayed him, the faint urgency of a man who had waited too long already. Guests turned their heads as he passed, whispers trailing after him like perfume.
And then, suddenly, it was just the two of you.
He stopped before you, not too close, not too far, as if proximity alone might shatter the fragile barrier between restraint and ruin. His eyes drank you in up close for the first time, dark and burning, before his lips parted with the slowest curl of a smirk.
“Do you always design art you shouldn’t wear in public,” he said softly, voice smooth as velvet, “or is tonight an exception?
Your lips curved, but your eyes stayed on the champagne in your hand. Sharp, precise. “And why exactly shouldn’t I wear this in public?”
His gaze dipped once slowly, deliberately, then returned to your profile. “Because,” he leaned closer, his words brushing against your skin like silk, “there’s not a man in this room who doesn’t want to ruin it.”
“Do I know you?” you asked, eyes still avoiding his, though the pull in your chest betrayed you. Both of you knew the truth — you knew him well enough, and he knew exactly what he was doing to you. Yet tonight, for the sake of the room, you asked the polite question.
“Jeon Jungkook,” he said, extending his hand smoothly, every movement precise, deliberate. His smirk softened slightly, just enough to make your pulse catch. “And you are…?”
You let a flicker of recognition slip into your gaze before returning it to neutral elegance. “I’m Y/N.”
He didn’t release the gaze, even as your fingers brushed his in the handshake. The contact was fleeting, polite, formal but it hummed with something far more dangerous underneath.
Every inch of the ballroom, every glittering chandelier, every whispering guest faded. It was just the two of you.
“Jungkook, right?” you said, finally letting your eyes meet his. Steady, measured. “Men don’t get to ruin the dresses I make. They only get to admire them from a distance.”
He tilted his head slightly, a slow, deliberate smile curling at the corner of his lips. “Admire, yes…” His voice dropped an octave, low and smooth, teasing. “But some art… deserves to be touched.”
His fingers brushed yours again, this time, lingering just a heartbeat longer than necessary during a subtle adjustment of your glass. Every polite motion was loaded, precise, an unspoken invitation wrapped in elegance.
The air between you thickened, impossible to ignore.
“Art is not meant to be touched,” you said smoothly, every syllable deliberate, your gaze steady, almost challenging. “Just admired.”
He leaned slightly closer, the faintest glint in his dark eyes betraying his amusement and something more dangerous. “But… don’t you think,” he murmured, voice low and velvet-soft, “some art can only truly be admired when it’s touched?”
His words hovered in the space between you, polite on the surface, yet undeniably heavy with intent. You felt the brush of his presence, a subtle heat radiating off him, precise but impossible to ignore.
Every movement, every look, every carefully chosen word felt like a stroke on a canvas. Somehow, in this elegant, gilded ballroom, you were both the artists and the masterpiece.
“You know quite a bit about art,” you asked, voice measured, eyebrow lifted ever so slightly. “Do you enjoy collecting it?”
He let his eyes linger on yours for a beat before replying, smooth and deliberate. “Thanks… I just know art when I see it, and I have a desire to have it.”
As he delivered the sentence, his gaze betrayed him, tracing the line of your collarbone before dipping subtly toward your cleavage, just enough for you to feel the heat without losing the elegance of the moment.
You caught the flicker, but your expression remained calm, polished, teasing in restraint. Yet inside, the pulse of anticipation hit like a drumbeat you couldn’t ignore.
He leaned slightly closer, just enough for the faintest brush of his shoulder against yours. His voice was low, velvet-smooth, carrying that dangerous hint of amusement.
“And in this room,” he murmured, letting his gaze roam “there isn’t much art to have, unfortunately… but of course, some.”
His eyes flicked back to yours, dark and intense, and lingered a heartbeat too long, letting you feel the weight of every unspoken word behind it. The tiniest smirk played at his lips, like he already knew the effect he was having, like he was daring you to challenge him.
You met his gaze, unblinking, sharp. A shiver ran down your spine despite your composure. Some art… he said, you both knew exactly what he meant.
“You don’t look very entertained at this event either,” he remarked, voice low, smooth, almost dangerous.
“And what if I’m not?” you countered, lips curving slightly, maintaining that polished, controlled elegance.
He let his eyes roam over you again, measuring. “I am staying in the hotel above this hall,” he said, voice dipping just enough to tease, “and they sent me better wine than this with the invitation.”
Your pulse fluttered at the implication, a subtle hint of indulgence, of private pleasures awaiting upstairs. Yet your expression remained composed, almost disdainful… but the sharp spark in your eyes betrayed the smallest crack in your control.
He didn’t smile, not fully. Just enough to show that he knew exactly how close he was to unraveling you, and how much he wanted it. Every measured word, every glance, every tilt of his head was foreplay.
“Are you asking me to come over?” you smirked, letting the corner of your mouth lift just enough to tease, your voice smooth, composed, but heavy with unspoken invitation.
“And what if I am?” he replied, stepping subtly closer, that velvet undertone of his voice wrapping around every syllable. “I can’t finish a bottle of wine by myself now, can I? And wouldn’t it be a pity,” he added, gaze dipping deliberately to your waist, tracing the curve of your body with his eyes, “if something so fine went to waste?”
You felt the heat of his attention crawling over you like silk, precise yet unbearably hungry, words charged, intent clear, the space between polished restraint and desperate desire evaporating with each heartbeat.
“Excuse me,” you said, letting your tone remain composed, elegant. “I can’t just slip away from an official event.”
He leaned slightly closer, the faint brush of his shoulder against yours sending a shiver you didn’t hide entirely. “God, Y/N,” he murmured, voice low and smooth, velvet against your ear. “Wouldn’t it be fun if everyone in this room were searching for us… while we indulged in wine behind closed doors?”
You arched an eyebrow, lips curving into a small, sharp smile. “I must say,” you replied, eyes glinting, “you have some wild fantasies.”
A slow smirk tugged at his lips. “Perhaps,” he said, letting his gaze linger on you, dark and intent, “but some fantasies are too exquisite to resist.”
“I can say that was… pretty convincing,” you replied, voice smooth, controlled, letting the tiniest curve of a smile tug at your lips.
He tilted his head slightly, that slow, deliberate smirk curling at the corner of his mouth. “Convincing enough?” His gaze dipped briefly, lingering on your waist, a subtle promise hidden in every look.
“I suppose… for now,” you said, letting your words trail just enough to draw out the tension, sharp yet playful.
His eyes darkened slightly, smoldering. “For now,” he echoed, voice low and teasing. “But I have a feeling… once we’re away from all these eyes, the rest will be far more… convincing.”
You glanced at him once, just long enough to let him feel your attention, before lifting your phone with effortless poise.
“Yes, Mark,” you said, voice calm, precise, almost casual. “I’m leaving the event now. Deal with the media.”
You snapped the phone shut and slipped it into the clutch at your side. Jungkook’s gaze followed your every move, unwavering, dark and intent. The faintest smirk tugged at his lips as he stepped closer, just enough to share your private space without breaking the polished boundary.
“I see you give in to temptation,” he remarked, eyes dark, smoldering, every inch of his posture radiating deliberate intent.
You let a small, teasing smirk curl at your lips. “I wonder,” you said softly, voice smooth and measured, “if the wine will actually be worth it.”
He leaned ever so slightly closer, his voice dropping to a low, velvet murmur. “Well…” he said, letting his gaze travel over you, deliberate and unhurried, “…I will make sure something is worth it.”
The words hung between you like a promise, sharp and dangerous, yet polished.
He led the way, smirk curling at the corner of his lips, every step deliberate, measured, the epitome of controlled desire. The faint click of his polished shoes on the marble floors echoed like a drumbeat, pulling you in without a word.
You followed, heart thrumming in your chest, a strange, delicious excitement curling through you. Every glance at him, the way his shoulders moved, the tilt of his head, the dark glint in his eyes, made the air between you feel heavier, tighter, almost unbearable.
Even in the hallways of the gilded hotel, with its muted lights and quiet grandeur, the ballroom’s glamour still clung to you both. It only made the forbiddenness sharper: you, trailing behind him, both elegant and poised, yet simmering with a desperation neither of you could fully contain.
He paused outside the door to his suite, finally turning to look at you fully. “Shall we?” His smirk deepened, voice low, velvet, carrying a promise that made your pulse spike.
You didn’t answer. You simply stepped forward, letting him pull the door open, the polished click of it sealing the anticipation you’d both been starving to act on.
The moment the door clicked shut behind you, the grandeur of the hotel suite wrapped around you both like a velvet cage. Floor-to-ceiling windows framed the city lights, marble surfaces gleaming, soft jazz playing faintly from hidden speakers. The space felt suddenly too intimate, too charged, every polished detail highlighting the closeness between you.
Jungkook loosened his tie with a slow, deliberate motion, the knot falling away as if shedding the last barrier of restraint. He moved to the sideboard, fingers curling around a chilled wine glass, pouring deliberately, his gaze never leaving you.
“Would you like some?” he asked, voice low, smooth, velvet against your skin, every word a caress, every movement another stroke of foreplay.
You let your eyes follow him, heart thrumming in your chest. Elegant, precise, controlled, yet beneath it all, desperate hunger simmered, taut as silk stretched to its limit. The simple act of standing there together, wine in hand, the city spread beneath you, felt like a private ritual of indulgence waiting to be consummated.
“I would love some,” you said, voice calm, smooth, letting just a hint of warmth slip through.
He smiled — slow, deliberate, the kind that made your pulse stutter — and poured each of you a glass of wine. The ruby liquid caught the light, glinting like a promise in the crystal. He handed you your glass, and the brush of his fingers against yours lingered a heartbeat too long, a silent spark igniting between you.
“Cheers,” he murmured, eyes locking with yours, dark and intent. Every sip, every small movement, became foreplay. The air seemed to thrum with electricity, the space between polite sophistication and desperate hunger dissolving with every glance and brush of skin.
Even holding the glass, standing only a foot apart, you felt it — the room had become a private stage, every polished surface reflecting the simmering tension between two people who were no longer pretending restraint.
You both drank, one glass after another, the wine flowing as easily as the silence between you. It wasn’t the alcohol that made your pulse quicken, it was him, the way his gaze never faltered, the way his mouth curved around every sip, deliberate, teasing without a single word spoken.
By the time the second bottle was uncorked, the air had grown heavier, thicker. The polished intimacy of the suite pressed closer, the city lights spilling across his sharp profile as if even they couldn’t resist tracing him.
You set your glass down, fingers brushing the stem just a little too slowly. His eyes tracked the motion, hungry, precise. The faintest smirk tugged at his lips, as though he already knew that the wine wasn’t the indulgence either of you craved.
When he leaned back against the marble counter, loosening his tie further, it wasn’t just elegance anymore, it was promise. His voice dropped low, smooth as velvet.
“Tell me…” he said softly, dark eyes locked on you. “…do you still think art isn’t meant to be touched?"
“I guess there are exceptions,” you said smoothly, extending your glass toward him for a refill, your tone light but your gaze sharp, daring.
His smirk deepened, eyes glinting as he took the glass from your hand. But instead of pouring immediately, he let his fingers brush deliberately over yours, slow, lingering, tracing the edge of your skin like he was already claiming his exception.
“Exceptions,” he repeated softly, pouring the wine in one fluid motion, never breaking eye contact. “The most dangerous word in any artist’s vocabulary.”
He handed your glass back, but the exchange was more than polite, it was charged, deliberate. His fingertips grazed yours again, and this time, he didn’t pull away as quickly.
The moment stretched, thick with tension. The polished elegance of the suite, the crystal glasses, the expensive wine, all of it felt like background noise to the weight of his gaze and the heat unfurling between you.
The wine had softened the edges, but not blurred them. You were tipsy, not drunk aware, sharp enough to know exactly what this was leading to, even as your pulse betrayed how much you wanted it.
The room hummed with something heavier than alcohol, something far more intoxicating. Every brush of his hand against yours when he set the bottle down, every dark glance he gave you between sips, it all wound tighter, deliberate, leaving no doubt of where this night was headed.
You both lingered in that precise space not crossing, not pulling back, savoring the tension like the last drops of a rare vintage.
Jungkook tilted his glass, swirling the deep red liquid once before setting it aside. His eyes never left yours, heat pooling in them, the faintest curl of his smirk tugging at his lips.
“Funny,” he murmured, his voice lower now, smooth as silk and just as dangerous, “how tipsy makes the truth louder, doesn’t it?”
He leaned in, close enough that you felt the warmth of his breath against your skin, his tie loose, shirt collar undone, elegance slowly unraveling into something darker.
“I think it was already pretty loud, wasn’t it?” you replied, voice smooth, teasing, the smirk at your lips betraying how deliberate the jab was.
Jungkook’s laugh was low, quiet, more like a hum of approval than amusement. He leaned in, setting his empty glass aside, his body finally brushing into your space.
“Loud enough,” he murmured, eyes locked on yours, “that I could hear it from across the gala.”
The space between you dissolved in an instant, not clumsy, not rushed, but inevitable. His hand lifted, deliberate, fingertips grazing along your jaw as though testing whether the masterpiece he’d been admiring all night was real to the touch.
The contact was light, elegant, but it sent a shiver spiraling down your spine. The wine, the city lights, the luxury suite, they all melted into background noise as his thumb traced the line of your cheek, his gaze dark, fixed, unflinching.
His lips quirk into a dangerous smile as he sets his glass down, stepping closer until the faint scent of wine and his cologne mixes in the air between you.
"Then I'll make sure not to ruin it," he says lowly, his voice carrying that quiet promise laced with challenge.
You tilt your head, meeting his eyes without flinching. “We’ll see if you can keep that promise.”
The room feels heavier now, charged, the wine blurring the edges of restraint but not clouding the intent burning behind his gaze.
His fingers are firm yet deliberate as they tilt your chin upward, giving you barely a second to register the spark in his eyes before his mouth claims yours.
The kiss isn’t hesitant, it’s heated, like he’s been holding back far too long. The taste of wine lingers between you, sharp and sweet, and the closeness makes your pulse race.
For a moment, the only thing that exists is the press of his lips against yours and the intoxicating mix of temptation and danger simmering in the air.
His voice is low against your lips, breath warm as he pulls back just enough to speak. The cocky glint in his eyes matches the smirk tugging at his mouth.
You can still taste him when he mutters, “I told you coming here would be worth it.”
The way he says it makes it sound less like a boast and more like a promise of what’s still to come.
You let a slow, satisfied smile curl at your lips as you lean in, capturing his mouth again. Your arms thread around his neck, holding him close, every inch of contact electric.
His hands settle firmly at your waist, pulling you impossibly nearer, pressing just enough to let you feel the weight of him against you. The kiss deepens, deliberate and hungry, a perfect dance of control and surrender.
Every movement, every shiver, every whisper of breath feels like an elegant, sinful prelude, polished yet charged with desperate need.
His lips part from yours just long enough to let a low, rough breath escape, eyes dark with intent. Without breaking the connection, he begins to guide you toward the bed, every step deliberate, controlled.
Your hands stay locked around his neck, clutching him as he pulls you closer, hips brushing, bodies pressed in that intoxicating heat. The subtle sway of his hands along your waist is commanding yet gentle, a promise of what’s coming, each movement precise but charged with desperate desire.
The edge of the bed meets the back of your knees, and you instinctively lean forward, guided by him, until the moment your lips part again, the world narrows down to just the two of you.
In a seamless, fluid motion, you both collapse onto the soft expanse of the bed, the silk sheets cooling against flushed skin. His weight settles over you, not crushing but claiming, every inch of him pressing deliberately, controlled, yet impossibly hungry.
Your breaths mingle, shallow and fast, as his lips descend again, hands tracing your curves with precise, tantalizing intent. The elegance of the room, the city lights, the wine, the luxury fades entirely, leaving only the desperate, heated intimacy of the two of you tangled together on the bed.
The heat between you both is unbearable, every kiss and touch escalating like fire. His hands are deliberate as they travel down your back, fingers finding the zipper of your dress.
With a slow, tantalizing precision, he eases it down, careful not to tear a thread, just as he promised. The fabric slides off your shoulders and pools around you, leaving you bare beneath his intense gaze.
He’s now shirtless, every line of his lean, sculpted frame illuminated by the soft city lights spilling through the window. You let yourself collapse against the pillow for just a moment, head resting there to draw in sharp, delicious breaths of air, chest rising and falling, while his dark, smoldering eyes never leave you.
Every second feels suspended, elegant yet sinful, as the room hums with the tension.
When he reaches the center of your heat, the contact is electrifying, tender yet charged, teasing yet purposeful.
A shiver courses through you, sharp and overwhelming, and suddenly it feels like your body isn’t entirely yours. You arch instinctively, a breathless moan slipping past your lips, as if every nerve ending is alive and ablaze.
The sensation is intoxicating, and for a fleeting moment, you feel yourself levitating, weightless, lost entirely in the exquisite, sinful attention he lavishes on you. His hands anchor you, but his touch makes your senses spin, every kiss and lick precise, elegant, and unbearably hungry.
The world narrows to just him, just this, his mouth, his hands, his presence consuming you. Every precise motion, every teasing pause, every flick of his tongue drives you higher and higher.
When he finally brings you to the peak, it’s overwhelming, all-encompassing. Your body trembles, your mind blanks, and in that blinding, exquisite moment, you forget everything else even your own name.
All that remains is his name on your lips, whispered, moaned, a desperate, reverent acknowledgment of the one who has claimed every inch of your senses.
Your chest heaves, your skin glows, and the room, the city, the world outside, none of it exists. There is only him, and the echo of your own surrender to him.
His lips trail down your neck one last time, soft and lingering, a mixture of heat and promise that makes your pulse thunder in your ears. The kiss is fleeting but deliberate, leaving a trail of fire in its wake.
Then he shifts slightly, moving with that same precise, controlled grace, opening the side table drawer. His fingers close around a single item, and he pulls it out with the quiet efficiency of a man who plans every move.
A condom.
He meets your gaze again, eyes dark, intent, smoldering, and lets the faintest smirk curl at his lips. “Prepared,” he murmurs, voice low and velvet, “for art that deserves to be touched.”
The air between you thickens, elegant and charged, every heartbeat a countdown to the inevitable, sinful union about to unfold.
He positions himself carefully, giving you one last lingering glance that makes your pulse spike, before entering you with a slow, deliberate precision.
The sensation is immediate and overwhelming like your soul has been pulled from your body, leaving only fire and raw sensation in its place. Every inch of him is exactly as you imagined: commanding, intoxicating, impossibly skilled, each movement driving you further into the dizzying edge between pleasure and desperation.
You gasp, clutching at him, feeling the exquisite friction, the elegant yet sinful rhythm he sets, and every touch, every thrust, sends sparks racing through you. The world outside ceases to exist; it’s just him, you, and the intensity of every carefully measured, perfectly sinful motion he gives.
Your body aches and shivers with need, but in his arms, guided by his hands and lips, every sensation is pure, precise, and devastatingly beautiful.
The two of you shudder together, the world tilting and shrinking until nothing exists but the heat of your bodies and the desperate rhythm of your hearts.
When the waves finally crash and subside, Jungkook collapses beside you, chest heavy against yours. His arm wraps around your waist, pulling you impossibly close, and his face buries itself in the hollow of your neck, breathing ragged and warm against your skin.
You feel the steady, intimate press of him, the lingering weight of every precise, sinful motion that led you both here. His hands roam lightly over your curves, delicate yet claiming, and for a long, suspended moment, you simply exist together elegant, desperate, and entirely consumed by each other.
The city lights glow through the window, the wine forgotten, the room silent but for the faint sounds of your intertwined breaths, the perfect echo of indulgence and surrender.
But then
“Y/N…” he murmurs, his voice low, velvet still, but laced with something dark now. “You know I like art on my bed…” his fingers flex against your waist, “…but you know where I like it the most?” He pauses, his lips brushing your ear as his smile curls into something unhinged. “On my wall.”
That grin sharp, psychopathic, so out of place in the haze of post-pleasure is enough to send your heart racing for a different reason entirely. You remember, all at once, the glint of metal, of a knife you caught in the drawer when he reached for the condom. You thought you were imagining it, the wine, the heat, the moment clouding your judgment.
Your instincts scream now. Your eyes widen. His hand slides slowly from your waist upward, tracing your ribs, your sternum, until it’s at your throat. Not tight yet just resting there. But the promise in his touch is unmistakable.
This is no longer a seduction. It’s a trap. And you just stepped inside it.
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Not Yours but Close enough | KSJ | (4)
Pairing: Idol ! Kim Seokjin × female!reader
Genre: slow burn, angst, best friends to lovers, found family, emotional hurt/comfort, trauma recovery, idol!verse
Status: ongoing
Word count: 5k
Synopsis: you’ve been best friends since 2012. he was a broke trainee with the weight of six boys on his shoulders. you were a computer science major hiding broken pieces in your sleeves. he never confessed. not when you cried over men who didn’t deserve you. not when he wrote songs about you. he said you didn’t need another man to disappoint you. so he stayed. quietly. as your best friend. for 13 years. you still have no idea. no idea how much he’s loved you and maybe love doesn’t need to be loud to last but maybe… just maybe… it deserves to be heard.
Taglist: Open (comment under this)
Warnings: none
⚠️ Trigger Warnings: This work contains themes of sexual assault and rape, specifically incest in the protagonist’s backstory. References may occur throughout the story. All such scenes will be preceded by specific chapter warnings but maybe graphic. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!
An: sooo about the chat messages, my sister proof read them and told me people don't talk like this nowadays, i included them anyway
JUNGKOOK POV
The sky is barely dark when Jungkook looks up from his phone to see Jin walking out of the company, his face completely hidden behind a mask and hat. The bag he always carries is slung over his shoulder, but his walk is unusually dull, as if he’s dragging his feet through sheer force. Even with his face covered, Jungkook can imagine the dreaded expression lingering there, something rare on his “fake maknae” hyung’s face.
Jungkook sighs lightly. He doesn’t need to ask Jin to know what happened today. While Jin can push through physical exhaustion, emotional exhaustion is a different story entirely. The PR team has been relentless with this scandal, and the company has been impossible. All he did was take his sister-in-law and nephew out for ice cream after picking them up from school because his brother was busy. That’s it. And yet, the media, ignorant of the pure, familial nature of their relationship, has spun it into a supposed romance.
Saesangs have finally found something to exploit for profit, and Jin has been driven mad by the constant scrutiny. He’s too ashamed to face his family, seeing his sister-in-law’s face plastered across every news article, accompanied by cruel labels like “slut” and “hoe” for having a child with Jin, a child that isn’t even his. The humiliation, the misunderstanding, and the relentless pressure have left him feeling utterly defeated.
Jin’s phone is blowing up, vibrating nonstop in his pocket, but he has no energy left to answer anyone, not the people demanding explanations, not the journalists begging for interviews. Earlier, he told Jungkook he’d ask the company to release a formal statement clarifying his relationship with his sister-in-law and nephew.
But judging from his face now… it’s obvious the company didn’t agree.
Jungkook sighs and unlocks his phone again, ready to text Jin something , anything, because Jin clearly doesn’t look like he wants to talk. But before he can type, a notification pops up from you:
“Kook, I saw the news. Jin ain’t replying. Is he okay?”
He can’t help but smile. He quickly updates you on Jin’s status before shutting his phone again, feeling a little lighter knowing you’re looking out for him too.
2012
Jungkook drags himself home from his vocal lesson feeling so tired he might actually pass out on the sidewalk. The company had dumped a list of errands on him right after school, and he’d had to rush straight to vocal practice after that.
And this is one of those rare “lucky” days where he didn’t have to squeeze dance practice in before or after.
His throat burns, his legs feel like jelly, he’s still in his school uniform and it’s soaked through with sweat. His vocal teacher scolded him for half the lesson today, and he still has homework waiting for him somewhere in the chaos of his backpack.
He sighs, soft, defeated, and pushes open the dorm door.
He opens the door, and the mouthwatering, savory, caramelized scent of dak galbi engulfs him like a warm hug. For a second, he almost melts into it. But the atmosphere inside the dorm is anything but warm.
He peeks into the kitchen, fresh dak galbi sits on the counter, steam curling up like a welcome he doesn’t get to feel.
But the living room… that’s a whole different story.
Bang PD is there. The members are gathered. And Jin is sitting stiffly on the couch, getting scolded specifically about his dance and vocals.
The others try to defend him, taking turns, stepping in with quiet explanations or gentle pushback but the loudest voice in the room is Bang PD’s, sharp and relentless.
Jin’s face muscles are twitching, working overtime in that way Jungkook has memorized; it only happens when he’s stressed to the point of breaking.
Jungkook hates it. Hates all of this. Hates seeing his hyungs looking so troubled.
Yes, he knows they need to work harder for debut. He knows pressure is part of the process.
But he still hates anyone who brings any of his hyungs even close to tears.
And yeah, he’s only fifteen but he’s not stupid. He knows a lot of this pressure isn’t about “improvement.”
Sometimes it’s silent jabs. Sometimes it’s their way of seeing what the boys will stand for. Sometimes it’s nothing but a cruel attempt to make them realize they might never succeed.
And maybe they won’t. Maybe debut will slip through their fingers no matter how hard they try.
But they don’t care.
Jungkook waits until Bang PD finally leaves before stepping fully into the room. The air is still dull, heavy, everyone’s frozen exactly where they were during the scolding. Jin looks a little more shaken than the others, his shoulders stiff, his gaze glued to the floor.
Jungkook barely sits down before Jin finally lifts his head from where he’d practically been burning holes into his lap.
“I’m sorry, guys,” Jin murmurs, voice thin. “I let the team down. I know I’m the madnae… but I’m sorry I’m fitting that role. Sorry I’m not the madnae you all deserve.”
“Hyung, what are you saying?” Suga protests immediately. “You’re the perfect madnae.”
One by one, the members chime in, gentle reassurances, small protests, soft reminders that Jin is doing well, that he’s trying, that he’s enough.
But none of it reaches him. The words bounce right off.
Jin pushes himself up wearily, the exhaustion in his movements painfully obvious.
“I’m gonna go to bed first,” he says quietly. “Dinner’s in the kitchen. I hope you like it. I tried a new recipe today.”
And without waiting for anyone to respond, he heads toward the shared bedroom, shoulders slumped, disappearing behind the door with a soft click.
Jungkook doesn’t think he’s ever felt pain like this. It’s sharp and constant, like someone is stabbing him in the chest over and over.
And suddenly, the usual comfort “It’s all gonna be over once we debut” doesn’t work anymore.
Jin is struggling. They all are.
And it hurts him in a way he doesn’t even know how to describe.
The doorbell jolts Jungkook out of his trance. The sharp sound cuts through the heavy silence in the room.
“I’ll get it,” he mumbles to the members, pushing himself up from the couch even though his body still feels like lead.
He opens the door and is immediately met with the brightest smile that drops the second her eyes land on him.
“Ah, sorry. I thought this was Seokjin’s dorm. Is Jin here?”
She looks older, maybe around twenty. And if it weren’t for her perfect Korean, Jungkook would’ve assumed she was a foreigner. It’s not her face , more her style. Her top is way too low-cut then acceptable in Korea, and her jeans too loose for the usual Seoul fashion.
“Yeah… he’s here,” Jungkook says, stepping aside to let her in.
“Jungkook-ah, who is it?” Suga calls from the living room.
“I don’t know, hyung,” Jungkook answers, stepping back as the girl removes her shoes. “A noona looking for Jin-hyung.”
The girl steps into the room, eyes scanning the cluster of boys frozen in awkward silence.
“Uhh… hi,” she says, offering a tiny wave. “My name is YN. I was looking for Jin, we….had plans today……I’m his friend from college.”
“Oh,hi. We’re the guys Jin is training with,” Namjoon says, stepping forward politely despite the tension lingering in the air. “I’m Namjoon.”
She flashes him a bright smile, the kind of energy completely out of place in the heavy atmosphere.
“You guys look way too young for training though,” she jokes lightly, trying to read the room.
No one laughs not because she’s not funny, but because they’re all still stuck in the emotional aftershock.
“So… where’s Jin?” she asks, finally noticing the weird silence.
Jungkook clears his throat and steps forward.
“This way, noona,” he says, gently guiding her toward the shared bedroom. Jungkook knocks lightly on the bedroom door.
“Hyung… someone is here.”
There’s a faint rustle , Jin was clearly wide awake and when Jungkook pushes the door open, Jin sits up a little, eyes blinking in confusion, his eyes move to the figure behind jungkook.
“YN? How come you’re here?”
“We literally made plans,” she say, walking in. “How could you forget? You even sent me the address this evening.”
“Oh… right.”
He sits up fully now, back straightening, the exhaustion slipping off his face just a little.
“Okay, let’s watch a mov-” she begin, but he cuts her off immediately.
“Have you eaten?”
“I ate in the evening, I’m not really-“
“Come on. Let’s eat first,” he says, getting out of bed with more energy than he’s shown all day.
He guides her out of the room, hand lightly on her back, voice softer than it was minutes ago.
And Jungkook just stands there, eyes wide, watching the entire thing.
Jin would avoid interaction for days whenever Bang PD said he was letting the team down. But with her… he wasn’t avoiding. He wasn’t shutting down.
For the first time tonight, Jin was actually standing, actually talking, actually alive.
She was a person who could brighten Jin up instantly.
And Jungkook had never seen anything like it.
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Night blankets the dorm. Bunk bed after bunk bed, all lights off, everyone finally asleep, except for one small pool of light spilling from the laptop perched on Jin’s lap. He and YN are huddled together under a shared blanket, the glow illuminating their faces as a movie plays softly on the screen.
Jungkook, on the top bunk, tries to sleep but the weight in his chest keeps him restless. That’s when he hears it, the gentle tapping of the space bar, punctuated by a low but firm voice:
“Okay… what is it, Jin? Why do you look like someone kicked your puppy?”
“Hey… it’s not like that,” Jin replies, his voice quiet, almost vulnerable.
YN shifts closer, tilting her head, her tone softening but still insistent.
“Did something happen?”
Jungkook sits up slightly, peering over the edge of his bunk. He can see Jin sigh, the tension in his shoulders melting just enough before he leans his head against YN’s shoulder.
“It’s just… I think I’m not the best eldest for the kids,” he admits, eyes fixed on his lap.
YN tightens her hold on the blanket around them and lets out a low, concerned breath.
“Hey… what makes you think that? You looked fine with them.”
Jin glances up, catching the gentle concern in her face.
“I always let the team down. They all have better skills, better talent than me. It makes me wonder if I even deserve to be the eldest. They’re all perfect… maybe I’m the reason the company keeps delaying our debut.”
YN nudges him slightly with her shoulder, her hand brushing against his arm.
“Hey, Jin… don’t beat yourself up. I saw you today, you’re doing well. Everyone has their own pace… remember? That’s what you always say.”
He exhales, shifting to sit more upright, his forehead resting against her temple.
“I know… but I’m the eldest. My pace should be faster than theirs. The group shouldn’t be scolded because of me. The younger… they have the choice to set the pace, not the hyung.”
YN sighs softly, tracing small circles on his arm.
“Jin… I don’t know much about teamwork or all that, but even if you’re the eldest, when you guys decided to be a group, you’re all connected. If one is lacking, all are; if one succeeds, all do.”
“I’m the only one lacking, they all are perfect” Jin murmurs, looking down again. “They probably don’t even have someone to look up to… because their lacking eldest”.
YN tilts her chin up, catching his gaze with a reassuring smile.
“I’m sure they do look up to you. You may be the eldest, but you’re still young. You cook, you clean, you manage university on top of all this training and debut chaos. That’s… impressive. I bet they think the same.”
She flashes a teasing grin.
“And I bet they look up to your handsomeness too,” she jokes.
Jin’s lips twitch into a small, genuine smile.
“There’s that smile. Come on now… don’t go being pessimistic. One of us is enough.”
“Okay,” he says, inching his face closer, shifting under the blanket, the warmth between them settling like a shield.
Jungkook shifts uncomfortably on the top bunk, quickly turning away. He thought they were about to kiss you can’t really say anything with adults, but… nothing. They just sit together, the soft glow of the laptop framing them in quiet intimacy.
From that night on, YN wasn’t just important to Jin. To Jungkook, she became just as essential. A quiet, steadfast presence he could see made his hyung whole in ways nothing else could.
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2014
Jungkook sits on the chair like a captive, shoulders tense and rigid, while YN perches on the edge of the desk in front of him. Not that she’s exactly gentle, one hand cups his cheek, the other pinches and squeezes around his jaw like she’s trying to sculpt a masterpiece, all while she practices her base makeup skills.
“Noona … are you sure you’re doing a good job?” he asks, voice squeaky, eyebrows furrowed, clearly suspicious of her every move.
“Yes, Jungkook,” she replies without missing a beat, rolling her eyes. “Just stay still. Stop wiggling. You’re giving me anxiety.”
He mutters under his breath, glaring at the headband she insisted was essential to keep his hair out of his face. “Essential… my butt,” he grumbles, cheeks already sticky with primer.
She smirks, grabbing a tiny brush, and nudges his chin up like he’s a stubborn dog. “Relax. I m good at this. You’ll survive.”
Jungkook pouts dramatically, but he lets her hands guide him anyway, because somehow, even with her squishing his cheeks like clay, he trusts her.
“Why don’t you try this on Jin-hyung’s face?” he asks, voice suspicious, still glaring.
YN scoffs, shaking her head like he’s the most ridiculous person alive. “Because Jin doesn’t have hormonal acne for me to practice on, I cannot call him a kid and you’re way better for this experiment.”
Jungkook’s pout deepens, almost theatrical. “That’s not fair!”
She laughs loud, unbothered, completely enjoying herself and leans closer, brushing stray hair back with one hand while holding his chin steady with the other. “Deal with it, kid. You’re perfect for learning purposes. Now stop squirming.”
And he does. Mostly because he’s trapped.
By the end of the makeup session, Jungkook hops off the chair and rushes to the mirror, eyes wide.
“Noona! You said you were doing a good job!” he complains, voice animated, cheeks puffed out in frustration.
“It’s not that bad,” YN replies, raising an eyebrow, smirking at his dramatics.
He examines himself closely: the base coverage is full but cakey, the concealer smooth yet stubbornly clinging to dry patches under his eyes. The acne is technically hidden, but not exactly discreet. His lips are smooth, the underline of his eyes precise, and the eyeliner thin enough to frame his round eyes perfectly.
He sighs, nitpicking already. “It’s not like the makeup Noona’s makeup.”
YN rolls her eyes, giving a soft sigh of her own. “Jungkook, I’m still learning. By the time you guys become a big band, my skills will be perfect.”
He grabs the makeup wipe she hands him and sits back down, muttering under his breath. “Noona… you really think we’ll ever be a Big Band?”
“Of course,” she says confidently, settling beside him. “You guys try too hard to fail.”
“Really, Noona? But the kids in my class make fun of me… they say I’ll never be famous.”
YN reaches over, gently nudging his shoulder. “Hey… you guys will be famous, okay? And when that happens, these same kids will be begging for your autographs.”
He grins, his little bunny teeth showing, the expression so pure and earnest that YN can’t help but smile.
“You’re my favorite Noona, you know,” he adds softly.
She ruffles his hair with a laugh, shaking her head. “Kiddo,” she mutters fondly, a little rough but entirely affectionate.
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2016
YN pushes open the practice room door and is immediately hit by a wall of heat, sweat, and heavy breathing. The boys are mid–final formation, faces flushed red, shirts clinging to their backs, the most intense choreo she’s ever seen from them.
They move in perfect sync as the beat climbs, sharp, precise, explosive and then the song ends with a final crash.
All seven collapse onto the floor like dying plants.
Jin is the first to lift his head, panting.
“Yn?” he blinks, eyes widening like he just hallucinated her into existence.
“Come on, boys,” she grins, raising a big bag in the air,
“I brought fried chicken.”
She doesn’t even finish the sentence before they all launch themselves toward her like starving wolves. The room erupts into complete chaos, shouts of “FRIED CHICKEN!” overlapping with “NOONA YOU’RE A LEGEND” and “I LOVE YOU NOONA!!”
Jin, however, breaks the rule.
He grabs a drumstick only because he has to, then beelines straight to her instead, like he’s magnetized.
Soon the chaos settles just a bit.
The boys sit on the floor inhaling chicken like it’s oxygen, and YN is talking to a makeup artist across the room.
Jungkook watches Jin watching her.
And oh, god.
There it is.
That look.
The shining, sparkling eyes he always gets around her, pure adoration, so bright it’s embarrassing.
But underneath them?
That soft, miserable little layer… the longing… the yearning…
The expression Jungkook has privately named:
I-am-too-coward-to-confess-so-I’ll-look-doomed-instead.
He sighs dramatically, pushing himself up and dusting off his sweat-drenched shirt.
Someone has to save his hyung from self-inflicted heartbreak.
He walks straight toward Jin, the love-sick, starry-eyed disaster of a man, ready to drag him back to earth.
Jungkook slumps down next to Jin, shoulder bumping his on purpose.
Jin doesn’t look at him, just mutters a quiet, distracted, “Hmm?” while his eyes stay glued to YN across the room.
“You know, hyung… you’re really being a coward,” Jungkook says casually, like he’s commenting on the weather.
Jin’s face scrunches in confusion.
So Jungkook boosts the dramatics, pouting, eyebrows raised like he’s explaining to a toddler.
“No, I mean..how many more of those expressions do you need to make before you finally confess?”
Jin’s confusion morphs into pure annoyance instantly.
“We’re just friends, Jungkook. Stop it.”
“Right,” Jungkook deadpans, holding up his drumstick.
“And this isn’t chicken, it’s camel meat.”
Jin groans, the exact tortured noise of a man who wishes he never let a teenager speak to him.
He sighs again and lets that soft, dreamy expression drift back onto his face as he watches YN laugh with the makeup artist.
He pats Jungkook’s shoulder.
“You won’t understand, Jungkook. You’re too young.”
“Stop,” Jungkook snaps immediately. “I’m nineteen. Also, I don’t need to be forty to see you’re in love with YN noona, and that you’re being a coward about it.”
Another sigh escapes Jin, long, exhausted, so full of feelings he’ll never admit.
“It’s not that part, Jungkook. The realistic part. Things aren’t simple. People aren’t simple. Relationships aren’t simple. Even if I love her… that doesn’t mean we can be together.”
He says it gently, head tipping to rest on Jungkook’s shoulder.
Still staring at YN like she’s some miracle he’s terrified of touching.
“But you know noona really well,” Jungkook argues. “And if she loves you too, what’s stopping you? Just admit it, you’re scared she’ll reject you, and things will get awkward, and you’ll lose her as a friend.”
Jin lifts his head slowly, eyebrows raised, half offended, half impressed at his insight.
Before Jin can speak, another voice joins:
“I hate to say this,” Yoongi grumbles, dropping down on Jin’s other side with a tired thud,
“but I agree with the kid.”
Jin lets out a deep, tired sigh.
“Stop it, you two. We’re just friends. And I can’t be with her.”
“Why?”
The two younger ones ask in perfect unison, eyes wide and annoyingly sincere.
Jin looks at Jungkook first, then Yoongi, then finally he leans back against the wall, letting his head fall back. His eyes close.
He doesn’t dare look at YN anymore.
“Because being in a relationship with her ,” he starts quietly, voice almost swallowed by the room,
“requires more than just love.”
The younger ones freeze a little, not expecting that tone.
“And frankly… she doesn’t need love right now.”
His voice cracks just a tiny, tiny bit.
“She needs a friend she can lean on. So I’ll gladly be that friend. I’ll give her my shoulder, my time, whatever she needs, because my love…” he breathes out shakily,
“isn’t worth losing her.”
Yoongi’s expression softens.
He reaches over and pats Jin’s arm, gentle, understanding, but still honest.
“But hyung… love always deserves to be heard.” He shrugs slightly. “And what then? Are you planning to stay by her side even when she gets herself a-”
His sentence dies.
They all shut their mouths at the same instant.
Because YN is walking toward them, holding a water bottle, smiling softly, completely unaware that Jin was just confessing to the floor.
The boys straighten up like they’ve been caught doing a crime, tight smiles, stiff backs, eyes darting anywhere except Jin’s red-tipped ears.
“So,” she says casually, popping open the water bottle, eyes flicking between the three of them,
“what were you conspiring about?”
Jin stiffens immediately.
Jungkook freezes mid-chew, eyes going wide like a deer caught in headlights.
Yoongi, meanwhile, doesn’t even flinch.
“World domination,” he says flatly.
Jungkook chokes. “HYUNG-”
YN snorts, bumping Jungkook’s shoulder with her own. “Please. You can barely dominate your sleep schedules.”
Jin lets out a breathy laugh despite himself, shoulders loosening just a bit.
Yoongi shrugs. “See? She already knows too much.”
YN tilts her head, studying Jin now, too sharp not to notice the way his jaw is tight, the way he won’t quite meet her eyes. She nudges his knee lightly.
“You okay?” she asks, softer now. “You look like you just ran a marathon… emotionally.”
Jin swallows, forcing a smile. “Yeah. Just tired.”
Jungkook watches the exchange closely, lips pressed together, realizing two things at once:
Jin is lying.
And YN cares enough to notice.
“So… who dropped you here?” Jin asks, tearing off a piece of chicken, tone casual but curious, changing the subject.
YN snorts, leaning back on her hands. “Do you always have to remind me I don’t have a license?” She bumps his arm lightly with her elbow. “I’ll get one soon. I walked. My sister will probably pick me up later.”
Jungkook watches her for a second, then blurts out-no warning, no filter, just pure curiosity.
“Noona, can I ask you something?”
Yoongi’s chewing slows, eyes lifting immediately.
YN turns her head toward Jungkook, brows lifting. “Sure?”
“How come you have a sister,” Jungkook says, tilting his head, genuinely confused, “but not a mom or dad?”
Jin chokes, actually chokes, coughing hard as he slaps his chest, eyes wide in pure panic.
Yoongi goes still, like a cat spotting movement.
YN shifts.
Not dramatically. Just enough. Her shoulders roll back, her fingers curl slightly into the floor, her gaze dropping for half a second before she looks back up.
“It’s because my parents are divorced,” she says lightly, almost practiced. “My mom has her own partner now. She lives with him.”
“Oh,” Jungkook nods, absorbing that. Then, softer, more careful this time, “and your father?”
There’s a pause.YN’s lips part. Close. Part again.She exhales through her nose, eyes unfocusing just a little. “My father doesn’t…” She stops. Tries again.“…love… to be… with me.”
The words come out spaced, uneven, like she had to pull each one from somewhere deep.
“So,” she adds quickly, forcing a small shrug, “here I am.”
Jungkook nods slowly, accepting it in that quiet, uncomplicated way only he can.
Behind him, Jin has already moved.
His hand finds YN’s back, warm, steady, grounding. Not gripping. Just there.
A silent I’ve got you.
“And anyway,” Jin says immediately, voice louder, brighter, too fast,
“did you guys see how insane that last formation was? Jungkook nearly kicked my head off.”
“What?!” Jungkook protests instantly, scandalized. “You moved into my space!”
The tension breaks, just enough.
YN leans back into Jin’s hand for half a second before sitting up straighter, the moment gone like it never happened.
But Jungkook notices. Yoongi does too. And Jin never once removes his hand.
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Author’s POV
Back To Present
Jin slides his keycard into the slot with shaky fingers. The light blinks green, the lock clicks open, and he exhales like he’s been holding his breath for hours. His eyes burn, vision swimming, head light in that dull, hollow way that comes after too much pressure and nowhere to put it. His whole body feels heavy, like he’s dragging something dead and aching behind him as he steps inside.
The lights are already on.
He doesn’t need to look around to know who it is.
You—the one person he trusted with the passcode, the one who would cancel plans without hesitation if she even suspected he’d had a bad day. The one he didn’t have to explain himself to. The one he needs right now more than he wants to admit.
He barely makes it into the lounge before he sees you. And before his brain can catch up, before pride or logic or restraint can kick in, his arms are around you. Tight. Desperate. His forehead presses into the crook of your neck as the first tears spill over, quiet at first, then uncontrollable. He breathes you in like you’re oxygen, clinging like you’re the only thing keeping him upright.
“Hey… Jin,” you murmur, hands coming up instinctively, grounding, familiar. “It’s okay. Why are you crying?”
“I’m such a bad brother,” he chokes out, voice breaking completely now. “An even worse uncle.”
You don’t pull away. You don’t rush him. You just guide him, slowly, carefully, toward the sofa, easing him down while your fingers move through his hair in soft, repetitive strokes. He curls into you without protest, holding on like you’re a lifeline.
“Did you call your brother?” you ask gently.
He shakes his head immediately, too fast, too firm.
“You should,” you say quietly. “He’s worried about you. He messaged me.”
Again, he shakes his head, this time burying his face deeper into your shoulder. “I can’t… I can’t face him.” You sigh
Time passes like that. Slowly. His breathing evens out. The tears dry, leaving behind that heavy, exhausted ache. He doesn’t let go. Not even a little.
“How did you get here?” he asks suddenly, voice rough but still careful, still worried about you, even now.
“I took the bus,” you reply easily. “How do you feel?”
He stares at nothing, eyes unfocused. “Guilty. Ashamed. Just… really bad.”
You hesitate, then shift slightly. “Should I cook you something?”
“It’s okay,” he says immediately.
You squint at him. “Are you sure? Or are you just worried I’ll burn your house down?”
A weak laugh slips out of him before he can stop it. He finally lifts his head, eyes red, lashes wet. “Because I feel like puking. Food will make it worse.”
“Okay,” you nod. “Should I massage you? Or clean up around here?”
He arches a brow at you, lips twitching despite himself. “What’s with all the acts of service?”
“You look like you might pass out on me,” you say plainly. “And before you say it, no. This wasn’t your fault.”
“It was,” he counters immediately, the guilt snapping back into place. “I was careless. I should’ve covered my face. I shouldn’t have gone out like that. Now the internet is full of slurs about my sister-in-law, things I don’t even want to repeat.”
“You should clear the misunderstanding,” you suggest softly.
“The company said no,” he replies.
“Why?” you ask, genuinely confused.
He lets out a bitter laugh, disgust flashing across his face. “They said if I tell people she’s my sister-in-law, it’ll complicate things. That disgusting, gross people will start saying I’m having an affair with her.”
His jaw tightens, eyes darkening. “Just thinking about it makes me sick.”
You shift closer on the sofa, knees brushing his, voice gentle but firm.
“Hey… I really think if you clear it up, people will understand. Of course some disgusting people will keep talking, there’s always a few but mostly? It would calm things down. The company’s probably overreacting.”
Jin doesn’t answer right away. His fingers curl into the fabric of his hoodie, twisting it absentmindedly like he’s trying to wring the thoughts out of his head. He stares at the floor, jaw tight.
“I don’t know,” he mutters. “It feels like a dead end.” He exhales shakily. “It’s not like I can make a statement without the company’s permission… even if I want to.”
His grip tightens, knuckles whitening.
“And it’s not just the rumors,” he continues, voice quieter now. “It’s the claims. The way people talk. It makes me doubt things.” He swallows hard. “These are the people BTS was so proud of. Our fandom. Our ARMY. The same people who keep the fandom so organised, keep it safe, establish rules, now they are writing blogs cursing a women I was seen with ” His voice cracks. “These are my fans.”
You reach for his hands, gently prying his fingers open and lacing yours through them, grounding him. You squeeze once slow, deliberate until his shoulders drop just a little.
“Hey,” you say softly, waiting until he finally looks at you. “Listen to me.”
You shift so you’re fully facing him now, knees tucked under you, thumb brushing over his knuckles in steady strokes.
“I’m pretty sure this is just general media noise. Your fans are sending support, you just aren’t seeing it because bad things scream louder.” You tilt your head, eyes steady. “What you’re seeing are solo stans and antis. Every fandom has a toxic side. It’s inevitable.”
Jin looks unconvinced, eyes still clouded.
“You know why it feels like there are so many?” you continue, leaning in a little. “Because your fandom is huge. Even a small percentage looks massive when the numbers are this big.”
You squeeze his hands again, firmer this time.
“But that doesn’t erase the millions who love you. Who trust you. Who know the kind of person you are.”
Jin’s shoulders sag further, the fight finally slipping out of him as a long breath leaves his chest. He drags a hand down his face, fingers lingering at his eyes like he’s trying to erase what he’s seen.
“I just… don’t like my family being the ones on the receiving end,” he says quietly. His voice is steadier now, but heavier. “It’s not like I ever liked it when other idols went through this either. I used to tell myself the same things every time, it’s just one side of the fandom, it’s just toxic solos and antis, sick people who think they own idols.”
He lets out a small, humorless huff and leans back against the sofa, staring at the ceiling. His jaw tightens.
“But now it feels… personal,” he continues, turning his head slightly toward you without fully looking. “So personally directed that one blog, just one….can ruin everything.” His fingers curl into his sleeve again. “Millions of messages, letters, support… and somehow they don’t make up for it.”
He falls quiet, throat bobbing as he
You straighten a little, the softness in your expression sharpening into something steadier, more certain.
“Jin,” you say, voice calm but firm, waiting until he really looks at you. “How about you do this the hard way.”
He blinks.
“Call the company,” you continue, sitting up fully now, hands gesturing as the words come faster. “Tell them you won’t let your family go through this. Tell them to release a statement saying they’ll sue every blog spreading misinformation, defamation, stalking behavior, all of it.” You inhale, then add, quieter but resolute, “And you write something too. Not much. Just a Weverse post. Address the articles. Clear your relationship. Tell them not to twist a familial bond into their dirty mentality.”
The room goes still.
Jin doesn’t respond immediately. He stands instead, pacing once, fingers threading through his hair, jaw working like he’s replaying every possible outcome in his head. Then he stops. Straightens. The hesitation in his posture hardens into resolve.
“…That’s probably what I have to do,” he says finally.
He grabs his phone from the table like it might disappear if he hesitates another second. His thumb hovers for a moment—just a breath—before he exhales sharply and presses call.
HYBE.
You stay seated, watching his back as he walks a few steps away, shoulders squared for the first time tonight. He presses the phone to his ear, gaze fixed ahead, not pacing anymore.
Looks at you side-eyeing him from his side. “What?”
“You hit the jackpot, family-wise,” you say, smirking like you’ve just uncovered the world’s best secret.
He rolls his eyes, leaning back. “My family has just as many problems as everyone else, okay?”
“Nope,” you cut him off, shaking your head. “You have the most non-problematic family ever. Hands down.”
He snorts, pretending to scoff. “It’s not like your sister is problematic. She handles your drunk ass without so much as complaining, that’s enough to call her an angel.”
“You know exactly what I’m talking about,” you tease, playfully punching his arm once, then twice.
Jin swats your hand away with a grin, shaking his head. “Stop it,” he mutters, though the twitch at the corner of his mouth betrays him.
“Can’t. You’re my favorite punching bag,” you say, nudging him lightly.
He groans dramatically, but doesn’t move away. “You’re lucky I’m too tired to actually get mad at you right now,” he says.
You pull your phone out of your pocket, shaking your head. “Okay, you can starve here all you want. I need to eat something. I’m gonna order… umm…” You turn to him, smirking. “Mulhwe.”
“Hey! Order me too!” Jin jumps in, reaching for the phone.
“Make me,” you tease, holding it just out of his reach.
Before you know it, the two of you are running around the living room, dodging furniture, laughing, him trying to snatch the phone from your hands. You duck a little, swing around the couch, narrowly avoiding his grab.
Finally, he lunges just right, catching the phone in one smooth move. He taps in his order, smirking at you as he confirms it, then tosses the phone back onto your lap like a trophy.
“Got it,” he says, chest heaving, eyes twinkling.
You roll your eyes, laughing. “Cheater.”
“I call it efficiency,” he replies, plopping down beside you, still grinning.
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An: hi, soo first of all again i am sorry this chapter took a really long time, i hope you like it, i tried chat messages for change, maybe i should so a chat messages series typa thing idk, suggest me. Even though this series is really precious to me at some points i really felt stuck i wrote this whole chapter before deleting it and writing this one.
Not Yours but Close enough | KSJ | (4)
Pairing: Idol ! Kim Seokjin × female!reader
Genre: slow burn, angst, best friends to lovers, found family, emotional hurt/comfort, trauma recovery, idol!verse
Status: ongoing
Word count: 5k
Synopsis: you’ve been best friends since 2012. he was a broke trainee with the weight of six boys on his shoulders. you were a computer science major hiding broken pieces in your sleeves. he never confessed. not when you cried over men who didn’t deserve you. not when he wrote songs about you. he said you didn’t need another man to disappoint you. so he stayed. quietly. as your best friend. for 13 years. you still have no idea. no idea how much he’s loved you and maybe love doesn’t need to be loud to last but maybe… just maybe… it deserves to be heard.
Taglist: Open (comment under this)
Warnings: none
⚠️ Trigger Warnings: This work contains themes of sexual assault and rape, specifically incest in the protagonist’s backstory. References may occur throughout the story. All such scenes will be preceded by specific chapter warnings but maybe graphic. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!
An: sooo about the chat messages, my sister proof read them and told me people don't talk like this nowadays, i included them anyway
JUNGKOOK POV
The sky is barely dark when Jungkook looks up from his phone to see Jin walking out of the company, his face completely hidden behind a mask and hat. The bag he always carries is slung over his shoulder, but his walk is unusually dull, as if he’s dragging his feet through sheer force. Even with his face covered, Jungkook can imagine the dreaded expression lingering there, something rare on his “fake maknae” hyung’s face.
Jungkook sighs lightly. He doesn’t need to ask Jin to know what happened today. While Jin can push through physical exhaustion, emotional exhaustion is a different story entirely. The PR team has been relentless with this scandal, and the company has been impossible. All he did was take his sister-in-law and nephew out for ice cream after picking them up from school because his brother was busy. That’s it. And yet, the media, ignorant of the pure, familial nature of their relationship, has spun it into a supposed romance.
Saesangs have finally found something to exploit for profit, and Jin has been driven mad by the constant scrutiny. He’s too ashamed to face his family, seeing his sister-in-law’s face plastered across every news article, accompanied by cruel labels like “slut” and “hoe” for having a child with Jin, a child that isn’t even his. The humiliation, the misunderstanding, and the relentless pressure have left him feeling utterly defeated.
Jin’s phone is blowing up, vibrating nonstop in his pocket, but he has no energy left to answer anyone, not the people demanding explanations, not the journalists begging for interviews. Earlier, he told Jungkook he’d ask the company to release a formal statement clarifying his relationship with his sister-in-law and nephew.
But judging from his face now… it’s obvious the company didn’t agree.
Jungkook sighs and unlocks his phone again, ready to text Jin something , anything, because Jin clearly doesn’t look like he wants to talk. But before he can type, a notification pops up from you:
“Kook, I saw the news. Jin ain’t replying. Is he okay?”
He can’t help but smile. He quickly updates you on Jin’s status before shutting his phone again, feeling a little lighter knowing you’re looking out for him too.
2012
Jungkook drags himself home from his vocal lesson feeling so tired he might actually pass out on the sidewalk. The company had dumped a list of errands on him right after school, and he’d had to rush straight to vocal practice after that.
And this is one of those rare “lucky” days where he didn’t have to squeeze dance practice in before or after.
His throat burns, his legs feel like jelly, he’s still in his school uniform and it’s soaked through with sweat. His vocal teacher scolded him for half the lesson today, and he still has homework waiting for him somewhere in the chaos of his backpack.
He sighs, soft, defeated, and pushes open the dorm door.
He opens the door, and the mouthwatering, savory, caramelized scent of dak galbi engulfs him like a warm hug. For a second, he almost melts into it. But the atmosphere inside the dorm is anything but warm.
He peeks into the kitchen, fresh dak galbi sits on the counter, steam curling up like a welcome he doesn’t get to feel.
But the living room… that’s a whole different story.
Bang PD is there. The members are gathered. And Jin is sitting stiffly on the couch, getting scolded specifically about his dance and vocals.
The others try to defend him, taking turns, stepping in with quiet explanations or gentle pushback but the loudest voice in the room is Bang PD’s, sharp and relentless.
Jin’s face muscles are twitching, working overtime in that way Jungkook has memorized; it only happens when he’s stressed to the point of breaking.
Jungkook hates it. Hates all of this. Hates seeing his hyungs looking so troubled.
Yes, he knows they need to work harder for debut. He knows pressure is part of the process.
But he still hates anyone who brings any of his hyungs even close to tears.
And yeah, he’s only fifteen but he’s not stupid. He knows a lot of this pressure isn’t about “improvement.”
Sometimes it’s silent jabs. Sometimes it’s their way of seeing what the boys will stand for. Sometimes it’s nothing but a cruel attempt to make them realize they might never succeed.
And maybe they won’t. Maybe debut will slip through their fingers no matter how hard they try.
But they don’t care.
Jungkook waits until Bang PD finally leaves before stepping fully into the room. The air is still dull, heavy, everyone’s frozen exactly where they were during the scolding. Jin looks a little more shaken than the others, his shoulders stiff, his gaze glued to the floor.
Jungkook barely sits down before Jin finally lifts his head from where he’d practically been burning holes into his lap.
“I’m sorry, guys,” Jin murmurs, voice thin. “I let the team down. I know I’m the madnae… but I’m sorry I’m fitting that role. Sorry I’m not the madnae you all deserve.”
“Hyung, what are you saying?” Suga protests immediately. “You’re the perfect madnae.”
One by one, the members chime in, gentle reassurances, small protests, soft reminders that Jin is doing well, that he’s trying, that he’s enough.
But none of it reaches him. The words bounce right off.
Jin pushes himself up wearily, the exhaustion in his movements painfully obvious.
“I’m gonna go to bed first,” he says quietly. “Dinner’s in the kitchen. I hope you like it. I tried a new recipe today.”
And without waiting for anyone to respond, he heads toward the shared bedroom, shoulders slumped, disappearing behind the door with a soft click.
Jungkook doesn’t think he’s ever felt pain like this. It’s sharp and constant, like someone is stabbing him in the chest over and over.
And suddenly, the usual comfort “It’s all gonna be over once we debut” doesn’t work anymore.
Jin is struggling. They all are.
And it hurts him in a way he doesn’t even know how to describe.
The doorbell jolts Jungkook out of his trance. The sharp sound cuts through the heavy silence in the room.
“I’ll get it,” he mumbles to the members, pushing himself up from the couch even though his body still feels like lead.
He opens the door and is immediately met with the brightest smile that drops the second her eyes land on him.
“Ah, sorry. I thought this was Seokjin’s dorm. Is Jin here?”
She looks older, maybe around twenty. And if it weren’t for her perfect Korean, Jungkook would’ve assumed she was a foreigner. It’s not her face , more her style. Her top is way too low-cut then acceptable in Korea, and her jeans too loose for the usual Seoul fashion.
“Yeah… he’s here,” Jungkook says, stepping aside to let her in.
“Jungkook-ah, who is it?” Suga calls from the living room.
“I don’t know, hyung,” Jungkook answers, stepping back as the girl removes her shoes. “A noona looking for Jin-hyung.”
The girl steps into the room, eyes scanning the cluster of boys frozen in awkward silence.
“Uhh… hi,” she says, offering a tiny wave. “My name is YN. I was looking for Jin, we….had plans today……I’m his friend from college.”
“Oh,hi. We’re the guys Jin is training with,” Namjoon says, stepping forward politely despite the tension lingering in the air. “I’m Namjoon.”
She flashes him a bright smile, the kind of energy completely out of place in the heavy atmosphere.
“You guys look way too young for training though,” she jokes lightly, trying to read the room.
No one laughs not because she’s not funny, but because they’re all still stuck in the emotional aftershock.
“So… where’s Jin?” she asks, finally noticing the weird silence.
Jungkook clears his throat and steps forward.
“This way, noona,” he says, gently guiding her toward the shared bedroom. Jungkook knocks lightly on the bedroom door.
“Hyung… someone is here.”
There’s a faint rustle , Jin was clearly wide awake and when Jungkook pushes the door open, Jin sits up a little, eyes blinking in confusion, his eyes move to the figure behind jungkook.
“YN? How come you’re here?”
“We literally made plans,” she say, walking in. “How could you forget? You even sent me the address this evening.”
“Oh… right.”
He sits up fully now, back straightening, the exhaustion slipping off his face just a little.
“Okay, let’s watch a mov-” she begin, but he cuts her off immediately.
“Have you eaten?”
“I ate in the evening, I’m not really-“
“Come on. Let’s eat first,” he says, getting out of bed with more energy than he’s shown all day.
He guides her out of the room, hand lightly on her back, voice softer than it was minutes ago.
And Jungkook just stands there, eyes wide, watching the entire thing.
Jin would avoid interaction for days whenever Bang PD said he was letting the team down. But with her… he wasn’t avoiding. He wasn’t shutting down.
For the first time tonight, Jin was actually standing, actually talking, actually alive.
She was a person who could brighten Jin up instantly.
And Jungkook had never seen anything like it.
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Night blankets the dorm. Bunk bed after bunk bed, all lights off, everyone finally asleep, except for one small pool of light spilling from the laptop perched on Jin’s lap. He and YN are huddled together under a shared blanket, the glow illuminating their faces as a movie plays softly on the screen.
Jungkook, on the top bunk, tries to sleep but the weight in his chest keeps him restless. That’s when he hears it, the gentle tapping of the space bar, punctuated by a low but firm voice:
“Okay… what is it, Jin? Why do you look like someone kicked your puppy?”
“Hey… it’s not like that,” Jin replies, his voice quiet, almost vulnerable.
YN shifts closer, tilting her head, her tone softening but still insistent.
“Did something happen?”
Jungkook sits up slightly, peering over the edge of his bunk. He can see Jin sigh, the tension in his shoulders melting just enough before he leans his head against YN’s shoulder.
“It’s just… I think I’m not the best eldest for the kids,” he admits, eyes fixed on his lap.
YN tightens her hold on the blanket around them and lets out a low, concerned breath.
“Hey… what makes you think that? You looked fine with them.”
Jin glances up, catching the gentle concern in her face.
“I always let the team down. They all have better skills, better talent than me. It makes me wonder if I even deserve to be the eldest. They’re all perfect… maybe I’m the reason the company keeps delaying our debut.”
YN nudges him slightly with her shoulder, her hand brushing against his arm.
“Hey, Jin… don’t beat yourself up. I saw you today, you’re doing well. Everyone has their own pace… remember? That’s what you always say.”
He exhales, shifting to sit more upright, his forehead resting against her temple.
“I know… but I’m the eldest. My pace should be faster than theirs. The group shouldn’t be scolded because of me. The younger… they have the choice to set the pace, not the hyung.”
YN sighs softly, tracing small circles on his arm.
“Jin… I don’t know much about teamwork or all that, but even if you’re the eldest, when you guys decided to be a group, you’re all connected. If one is lacking, all are; if one succeeds, all do.”
“I’m the only one lacking, they all are perfect” Jin murmurs, looking down again. “They probably don’t even have someone to look up to… because their lacking eldest”.
YN tilts her chin up, catching his gaze with a reassuring smile.
“I’m sure they do look up to you. You may be the eldest, but you’re still young. You cook, you clean, you manage university on top of all this training and debut chaos. That’s… impressive. I bet they think the same.”
She flashes a teasing grin.
“And I bet they look up to your handsomeness too,” she jokes.
Jin’s lips twitch into a small, genuine smile.
“There’s that smile. Come on now… don’t go being pessimistic. One of us is enough.”
“Okay,” he says, inching his face closer, shifting under the blanket, the warmth between them settling like a shield.
Jungkook shifts uncomfortably on the top bunk, quickly turning away. He thought they were about to kiss you can’t really say anything with adults, but… nothing. They just sit together, the soft glow of the laptop framing them in quiet intimacy.
From that night on, YN wasn’t just important to Jin. To Jungkook, she became just as essential. A quiet, steadfast presence he could see made his hyung whole in ways nothing else could.
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2014
Jungkook sits on the chair like a captive, shoulders tense and rigid, while YN perches on the edge of the desk in front of him. Not that she’s exactly gentle, one hand cups his cheek, the other pinches and squeezes around his jaw like she’s trying to sculpt a masterpiece, all while she practices her base makeup skills.
“Noona … are you sure you’re doing a good job?” he asks, voice squeaky, eyebrows furrowed, clearly suspicious of her every move.
“Yes, Jungkook,” she replies without missing a beat, rolling her eyes. “Just stay still. Stop wiggling. You’re giving me anxiety.”
He mutters under his breath, glaring at the headband she insisted was essential to keep his hair out of his face. “Essential… my butt,” he grumbles, cheeks already sticky with primer.
She smirks, grabbing a tiny brush, and nudges his chin up like he’s a stubborn dog. “Relax. I m good at this. You’ll survive.”
Jungkook pouts dramatically, but he lets her hands guide him anyway, because somehow, even with her squishing his cheeks like clay, he trusts her.
“Why don’t you try this on Jin-hyung’s face?” he asks, voice suspicious, still glaring.
YN scoffs, shaking her head like he’s the most ridiculous person alive. “Because Jin doesn’t have hormonal acne for me to practice on, I cannot call him a kid and you’re way better for this experiment.”
Jungkook’s pout deepens, almost theatrical. “That’s not fair!”
She laughs loud, unbothered, completely enjoying herself and leans closer, brushing stray hair back with one hand while holding his chin steady with the other. “Deal with it, kid. You’re perfect for learning purposes. Now stop squirming.”
And he does. Mostly because he’s trapped.
By the end of the makeup session, Jungkook hops off the chair and rushes to the mirror, eyes wide.
“Noona! You said you were doing a good job!” he complains, voice animated, cheeks puffed out in frustration.
“It’s not that bad,” YN replies, raising an eyebrow, smirking at his dramatics.
He examines himself closely: the base coverage is full but cakey, the concealer smooth yet stubbornly clinging to dry patches under his eyes. The acne is technically hidden, but not exactly discreet. His lips are smooth, the underline of his eyes precise, and the eyeliner thin enough to frame his round eyes perfectly.
He sighs, nitpicking already. “It’s not like the makeup Noona’s makeup.”
YN rolls her eyes, giving a soft sigh of her own. “Jungkook, I’m still learning. By the time you guys become a big band, my skills will be perfect.”
He grabs the makeup wipe she hands him and sits back down, muttering under his breath. “Noona… you really think we’ll ever be a Big Band?”
“Of course,” she says confidently, settling beside him. “You guys try too hard to fail.”
“Really, Noona? But the kids in my class make fun of me… they say I’ll never be famous.”
YN reaches over, gently nudging his shoulder. “Hey… you guys will be famous, okay? And when that happens, these same kids will be begging for your autographs.”
He grins, his little bunny teeth showing, the expression so pure and earnest that YN can’t help but smile.
“You’re my favorite Noona, you know,” he adds softly.
She ruffles his hair with a laugh, shaking her head. “Kiddo,” she mutters fondly, a little rough but entirely affectionate.
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2016
YN pushes open the practice room door and is immediately hit by a wall of heat, sweat, and heavy breathing. The boys are mid–final formation, faces flushed red, shirts clinging to their backs, the most intense choreo she’s ever seen from them.
They move in perfect sync as the beat climbs, sharp, precise, explosive and then the song ends with a final crash.
All seven collapse onto the floor like dying plants.
Jin is the first to lift his head, panting.
“Yn?” he blinks, eyes widening like he just hallucinated her into existence.
“Come on, boys,” she grins, raising a big bag in the air,
“I brought fried chicken.”
She doesn’t even finish the sentence before they all launch themselves toward her like starving wolves. The room erupts into complete chaos, shouts of “FRIED CHICKEN!” overlapping with “NOONA YOU’RE A LEGEND” and “I LOVE YOU NOONA!!”
Jin, however, breaks the rule.
He grabs a drumstick only because he has to, then beelines straight to her instead, like he’s magnetized.
Soon the chaos settles just a bit.
The boys sit on the floor inhaling chicken like it’s oxygen, and YN is talking to a makeup artist across the room.
Jungkook watches Jin watching her.
And oh, god.
There it is.
That look.
The shining, sparkling eyes he always gets around her, pure adoration, so bright it’s embarrassing.
But underneath them?
That soft, miserable little layer… the longing… the yearning…
The expression Jungkook has privately named:
I-am-too-coward-to-confess-so-I’ll-look-doomed-instead.
He sighs dramatically, pushing himself up and dusting off his sweat-drenched shirt.
Someone has to save his hyung from self-inflicted heartbreak.
He walks straight toward Jin, the love-sick, starry-eyed disaster of a man, ready to drag him back to earth.
Jungkook slumps down next to Jin, shoulder bumping his on purpose.
Jin doesn’t look at him, just mutters a quiet, distracted, “Hmm?” while his eyes stay glued to YN across the room.
“You know, hyung… you’re really being a coward,” Jungkook says casually, like he’s commenting on the weather.
Jin’s face scrunches in confusion.
So Jungkook boosts the dramatics, pouting, eyebrows raised like he’s explaining to a toddler.
“No, I mean..how many more of those expressions do you need to make before you finally confess?”
Jin’s confusion morphs into pure annoyance instantly.
“We’re just friends, Jungkook. Stop it.”
“Right,” Jungkook deadpans, holding up his drumstick.
“And this isn’t chicken, it’s camel meat.”
Jin groans, the exact tortured noise of a man who wishes he never let a teenager speak to him.
He sighs again and lets that soft, dreamy expression drift back onto his face as he watches YN laugh with the makeup artist.
He pats Jungkook’s shoulder.
“You won’t understand, Jungkook. You’re too young.”
“Stop,” Jungkook snaps immediately. “I’m nineteen. Also, I don’t need to be forty to see you’re in love with YN noona, and that you’re being a coward about it.”
Another sigh escapes Jin, long, exhausted, so full of feelings he’ll never admit.
“It’s not that part, Jungkook. The realistic part. Things aren’t simple. People aren’t simple. Relationships aren’t simple. Even if I love her… that doesn’t mean we can be together.”
He says it gently, head tipping to rest on Jungkook’s shoulder.
Still staring at YN like she’s some miracle he’s terrified of touching.
“But you know noona really well,” Jungkook argues. “And if she loves you too, what’s stopping you? Just admit it, you’re scared she’ll reject you, and things will get awkward, and you’ll lose her as a friend.”
Jin lifts his head slowly, eyebrows raised, half offended, half impressed at his insight.
Before Jin can speak, another voice joins:
“I hate to say this,” Yoongi grumbles, dropping down on Jin’s other side with a tired thud,
“but I agree with the kid.”
Jin lets out a deep, tired sigh.
“Stop it, you two. We’re just friends. And I can’t be with her.”
“Why?”
The two younger ones ask in perfect unison, eyes wide and annoyingly sincere.
Jin looks at Jungkook first, then Yoongi, then finally he leans back against the wall, letting his head fall back. His eyes close.
He doesn’t dare look at YN anymore.
“Because being in a relationship with her ,” he starts quietly, voice almost swallowed by the room,
“requires more than just love.”
The younger ones freeze a little, not expecting that tone.
“And frankly… she doesn’t need love right now.”
His voice cracks just a tiny, tiny bit.
“She needs a friend she can lean on. So I’ll gladly be that friend. I’ll give her my shoulder, my time, whatever she needs, because my love…” he breathes out shakily,
“isn’t worth losing her.”
Yoongi’s expression softens.
He reaches over and pats Jin’s arm, gentle, understanding, but still honest.
“But hyung… love always deserves to be heard.” He shrugs slightly. “And what then? Are you planning to stay by her side even when she gets herself a-”
His sentence dies.
They all shut their mouths at the same instant.
Because YN is walking toward them, holding a water bottle, smiling softly, completely unaware that Jin was just confessing to the floor.
The boys straighten up like they’ve been caught doing a crime, tight smiles, stiff backs, eyes darting anywhere except Jin’s red-tipped ears.
“So,” she says casually, popping open the water bottle, eyes flicking between the three of them,
“what were you conspiring about?”
Jin stiffens immediately.
Jungkook freezes mid-chew, eyes going wide like a deer caught in headlights.
Yoongi, meanwhile, doesn’t even flinch.
“World domination,” he says flatly.
Jungkook chokes. “HYUNG-”
YN snorts, bumping Jungkook’s shoulder with her own. “Please. You can barely dominate your sleep schedules.”
Jin lets out a breathy laugh despite himself, shoulders loosening just a bit.
Yoongi shrugs. “See? She already knows too much.”
YN tilts her head, studying Jin now, too sharp not to notice the way his jaw is tight, the way he won’t quite meet her eyes. She nudges his knee lightly.
“You okay?” she asks, softer now. “You look like you just ran a marathon… emotionally.”
Jin swallows, forcing a smile. “Yeah. Just tired.”
Jungkook watches the exchange closely, lips pressed together, realizing two things at once:
Jin is lying.
And YN cares enough to notice.
“So… who dropped you here?” Jin asks, tearing off a piece of chicken, tone casual but curious, changing the subject.
YN snorts, leaning back on her hands. “Do you always have to remind me I don’t have a license?” She bumps his arm lightly with her elbow. “I’ll get one soon. I walked. My sister will probably pick me up later.”
Jungkook watches her for a second, then blurts out-no warning, no filter, just pure curiosity.
“Noona, can I ask you something?”
Yoongi’s chewing slows, eyes lifting immediately.
YN turns her head toward Jungkook, brows lifting. “Sure?”
“How come you have a sister,” Jungkook says, tilting his head, genuinely confused, “but not a mom or dad?”
Jin chokes, actually chokes, coughing hard as he slaps his chest, eyes wide in pure panic.
Yoongi goes still, like a cat spotting movement.
YN shifts.
Not dramatically. Just enough. Her shoulders roll back, her fingers curl slightly into the floor, her gaze dropping for half a second before she looks back up.
“It’s because my parents are divorced,” she says lightly, almost practiced. “My mom has her own partner now. She lives with him.”
“Oh,” Jungkook nods, absorbing that. Then, softer, more careful this time, “and your father?”
There’s a pause.YN’s lips part. Close. Part again.She exhales through her nose, eyes unfocusing just a little. “My father doesn’t…” She stops. Tries again.“…love… to be… with me.”
The words come out spaced, uneven, like she had to pull each one from somewhere deep.
“So,” she adds quickly, forcing a small shrug, “here I am.”
Jungkook nods slowly, accepting it in that quiet, uncomplicated way only he can.
Behind him, Jin has already moved.
His hand finds YN’s back, warm, steady, grounding. Not gripping. Just there.
A silent I’ve got you.
“And anyway,” Jin says immediately, voice louder, brighter, too fast,
“did you guys see how insane that last formation was? Jungkook nearly kicked my head off.”
“What?!” Jungkook protests instantly, scandalized. “You moved into my space!”
The tension breaks, just enough.
YN leans back into Jin’s hand for half a second before sitting up straighter, the moment gone like it never happened.
But Jungkook notices. Yoongi does too. And Jin never once removes his hand.
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Author’s POV
Back To Present
Jin slides his keycard into the slot with shaky fingers. The light blinks green, the lock clicks open, and he exhales like he’s been holding his breath for hours. His eyes burn, vision swimming, head light in that dull, hollow way that comes after too much pressure and nowhere to put it. His whole body feels heavy, like he’s dragging something dead and aching behind him as he steps inside.
The lights are already on.
He doesn’t need to look around to know who it is.
You—the one person he trusted with the passcode, the one who would cancel plans without hesitation if she even suspected he’d had a bad day. The one he didn’t have to explain himself to. The one he needs right now more than he wants to admit.
He barely makes it into the lounge before he sees you. And before his brain can catch up, before pride or logic or restraint can kick in, his arms are around you. Tight. Desperate. His forehead presses into the crook of your neck as the first tears spill over, quiet at first, then uncontrollable. He breathes you in like you’re oxygen, clinging like you’re the only thing keeping him upright.
“Hey… Jin,” you murmur, hands coming up instinctively, grounding, familiar. “It’s okay. Why are you crying?”
“I’m such a bad brother,” he chokes out, voice breaking completely now. “An even worse uncle.”
You don’t pull away. You don’t rush him. You just guide him, slowly, carefully, toward the sofa, easing him down while your fingers move through his hair in soft, repetitive strokes. He curls into you without protest, holding on like you’re a lifeline.
“Did you call your brother?” you ask gently.
He shakes his head immediately, too fast, too firm.
“You should,” you say quietly. “He’s worried about you. He messaged me.”
Again, he shakes his head, this time burying his face deeper into your shoulder. “I can’t… I can’t face him.” You sigh
Time passes like that. Slowly. His breathing evens out. The tears dry, leaving behind that heavy, exhausted ache. He doesn’t let go. Not even a little.
“How did you get here?” he asks suddenly, voice rough but still careful, still worried about you, even now.
“I took the bus,” you reply easily. “How do you feel?”
He stares at nothing, eyes unfocused. “Guilty. Ashamed. Just… really bad.”
You hesitate, then shift slightly. “Should I cook you something?”
“It’s okay,” he says immediately.
You squint at him. “Are you sure? Or are you just worried I’ll burn your house down?”
A weak laugh slips out of him before he can stop it. He finally lifts his head, eyes red, lashes wet. “Because I feel like puking. Food will make it worse.”
“Okay,” you nod. “Should I massage you? Or clean up around here?”
He arches a brow at you, lips twitching despite himself. “What’s with all the acts of service?”
“You look like you might pass out on me,” you say plainly. “And before you say it, no. This wasn’t your fault.”
“It was,” he counters immediately, the guilt snapping back into place. “I was careless. I should’ve covered my face. I shouldn’t have gone out like that. Now the internet is full of slurs about my sister-in-law, things I don’t even want to repeat.”
“You should clear the misunderstanding,” you suggest softly.
“The company said no,” he replies.
“Why?” you ask, genuinely confused.
He lets out a bitter laugh, disgust flashing across his face. “They said if I tell people she’s my sister-in-law, it’ll complicate things. That disgusting, gross people will start saying I’m having an affair with her.”
His jaw tightens, eyes darkening. “Just thinking about it makes me sick.”
You shift closer on the sofa, knees brushing his, voice gentle but firm.
“Hey… I really think if you clear it up, people will understand. Of course some disgusting people will keep talking, there’s always a few but mostly? It would calm things down. The company’s probably overreacting.”
Jin doesn’t answer right away. His fingers curl into the fabric of his hoodie, twisting it absentmindedly like he’s trying to wring the thoughts out of his head. He stares at the floor, jaw tight.
“I don’t know,” he mutters. “It feels like a dead end.” He exhales shakily. “It’s not like I can make a statement without the company’s permission… even if I want to.”
His grip tightens, knuckles whitening.
“And it’s not just the rumors,” he continues, voice quieter now. “It’s the claims. The way people talk. It makes me doubt things.” He swallows hard. “These are the people BTS was so proud of. Our fandom. Our ARMY. The same people who keep the fandom so organised, keep it safe, establish rules, now they are writing blogs cursing a women I was seen with ” His voice cracks. “These are my fans.”
You reach for his hands, gently prying his fingers open and lacing yours through them, grounding him. You squeeze once slow, deliberate until his shoulders drop just a little.
“Hey,” you say softly, waiting until he finally looks at you. “Listen to me.”
You shift so you’re fully facing him now, knees tucked under you, thumb brushing over his knuckles in steady strokes.
“I’m pretty sure this is just general media noise. Your fans are sending support, you just aren’t seeing it because bad things scream louder.” You tilt your head, eyes steady. “What you’re seeing are solo stans and antis. Every fandom has a toxic side. It’s inevitable.”
Jin looks unconvinced, eyes still clouded.
“You know why it feels like there are so many?” you continue, leaning in a little. “Because your fandom is huge. Even a small percentage looks massive when the numbers are this big.”
You squeeze his hands again, firmer this time.
“But that doesn’t erase the millions who love you. Who trust you. Who know the kind of person you are.”
Jin’s shoulders sag further, the fight finally slipping out of him as a long breath leaves his chest. He drags a hand down his face, fingers lingering at his eyes like he’s trying to erase what he’s seen.
“I just… don’t like my family being the ones on the receiving end,” he says quietly. His voice is steadier now, but heavier. “It’s not like I ever liked it when other idols went through this either. I used to tell myself the same things every time, it’s just one side of the fandom, it’s just toxic solos and antis, sick people who think they own idols.”
He lets out a small, humorless huff and leans back against the sofa, staring at the ceiling. His jaw tightens.
“But now it feels… personal,” he continues, turning his head slightly toward you without fully looking. “So personally directed that one blog, just one….can ruin everything.” His fingers curl into his sleeve again. “Millions of messages, letters, support… and somehow they don’t make up for it.”
He falls quiet, throat bobbing as he
You straighten a little, the softness in your expression sharpening into something steadier, more certain.
“Jin,” you say, voice calm but firm, waiting until he really looks at you. “How about you do this the hard way.”
He blinks.
“Call the company,” you continue, sitting up fully now, hands gesturing as the words come faster. “Tell them you won’t let your family go through this. Tell them to release a statement saying they’ll sue every blog spreading misinformation, defamation, stalking behavior, all of it.” You inhale, then add, quieter but resolute, “And you write something too. Not much. Just a Weverse post. Address the articles. Clear your relationship. Tell them not to twist a familial bond into their dirty mentality.”
The room goes still.
Jin doesn’t respond immediately. He stands instead, pacing once, fingers threading through his hair, jaw working like he’s replaying every possible outcome in his head. Then he stops. Straightens. The hesitation in his posture hardens into resolve.
“…That’s probably what I have to do,” he says finally.
He grabs his phone from the table like it might disappear if he hesitates another second. His thumb hovers for a moment—just a breath—before he exhales sharply and presses call.
HYBE.
You stay seated, watching his back as he walks a few steps away, shoulders squared for the first time tonight. He presses the phone to his ear, gaze fixed ahead, not pacing anymore.
Looks at you side-eyeing him from his side. “What?”
“You hit the jackpot, family-wise,” you say, smirking like you’ve just uncovered the world’s best secret.
He rolls his eyes, leaning back. “My family has just as many problems as everyone else, okay?”
“Nope,” you cut him off, shaking your head. “You have the most non-problematic family ever. Hands down.”
He snorts, pretending to scoff. “It’s not like your sister is problematic. She handles your drunk ass without so much as complaining, that’s enough to call her an angel.”
“You know exactly what I’m talking about,” you tease, playfully punching his arm once, then twice.
Jin swats your hand away with a grin, shaking his head. “Stop it,” he mutters, though the twitch at the corner of his mouth betrays him.
“Can’t. You’re my favorite punching bag,” you say, nudging him lightly.
He groans dramatically, but doesn’t move away. “You’re lucky I’m too tired to actually get mad at you right now,” he says.
You pull your phone out of your pocket, shaking your head. “Okay, you can starve here all you want. I need to eat something. I’m gonna order… umm…” You turn to him, smirking. “Mulhwe.”
“Hey! Order me too!” Jin jumps in, reaching for the phone.
“Make me,” you tease, holding it just out of his reach.
Before you know it, the two of you are running around the living room, dodging furniture, laughing, him trying to snatch the phone from your hands. You duck a little, swing around the couch, narrowly avoiding his grab.
Finally, he lunges just right, catching the phone in one smooth move. He taps in his order, smirking at you as he confirms it, then tosses the phone back onto your lap like a trophy.
“Got it,” he says, chest heaving, eyes twinkling.
You roll your eyes, laughing. “Cheater.”
“I call it efficiency,” he replies, plopping down beside you, still grinning.
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An: hi, soo first of all again i am sorry this chapter took a really long time, i hope you like it, i tried chat messages for change, maybe i should so a chat messages series typa thing idk, suggest me. Even though this series is really precious to me at some points i really felt stuck i wrote this whole chapter before deleting it and writing this one.