I captured this moment and posted it 6 years ago. 5 years ago, I was yearning to be free in New Zealand and watching/listening to "I" while preparing for an exam that I'm yet again preparing for today. 4 years ago, I was just thankful to be alive and learning more about myself and the beauty and strength in vulnerability. 3 years ago, I was on the verge of quitting a program that I had just started a month and a half into it. 2 years ago, I was discovering another dimension of my purpose and enjoying being in the drum lab again after 7 years. 1 year ago, I was wondering what I was getting myself into again with another challenging program and yet thankful for the past 5 years and the reason for the above photo and the resulting motivation and inspiration for my purpose. Today, I'm reflecting on my journey during the past 8 years. Yes, I've matured and grown, and I'm thankful for that. I've discovered part of my purpose and picked up some skills and knowledge along the way.
But I also feel like I've been going around in circles ever since 2012. I would advance and then encounter a roadblock. I would get knocked down, sometimes by tripping myself, but get back up somehow and try again. I would try and try and try and try again but still not get that final triumph, even though I did earn those small victories. Now, I'm getting tired and starting to lose my way again. What's the point anymore? All I see is others get to that destination while I'm stuck like that fly, that 파리 in g.o.d's 3rd album intro.
And yet I'm again reminded of Romans 8:28, and I hold on to that promise while I reignite the engine and restart the car for one more lap. It's the last shot I've got, and I am not throwin' away my shot like Hamilton.
So just like how "What Faith Can Do" was the song in 2013 and "I" was the song in 2015, "내게 들려주고 싶은 말 (Dear Me)" is the song in 2020. Because I love myself, I trust myself. Because of my faith in Christ.
길었던 어둠을 견딘 나를 봐
또다시 밤이 와도 숨지 않아
내 곁엔 내가 있어
밝아올 하늘 그 위로
퍼져가는 빛이 되어 난 날아가
언젠가는 나에게도
들려줄 수만 있다면
I love myself
I trust myself
기억해줄래 (기억해줄래)
Hey, I trust myself
기억해줘
I love myself
I trust myself
So whatever it takes. We're in the Endgame now. APTAT. Purpose 💚💙














