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Am I actually writing phenomenally or am I just too tired to be the usual self critical...

#phdblr #grad school #phdiary #applying for a fellowship currently and i cant help but gas myself up like i really wrote that shit!

crookedkingdom

i was not properly warned about how important a good organizational system is in grad school

#i really should get a handle on it... i have papers spread between two computers #I'll make that my task for tomorrow

I've been able to combat a bit of my workaholicism by putting down which day I'll do something. So, instead of these tasks haunting me as I try to do things one at a time, I can tell myself "you don't have to think of that right now, you have Tuesday for that".

It also helps in spacing out when I do in fact work and I try to give myself a day or two of no work, just personal fulfillment things like baking or cooking a more involved dish.

#phdblr #grad school #it's helped extremely well in terms of juggling: writing research articles #in research memos; doing the curriculum development projects im on this summer; and my comprehensive exam(s)

Just turned in my revisions for my written Comprehensive exam 🎉🎉

#I'm finally done taking any exams #phdiary #phdblr #now i just have to work on my oral comprehensive #which is my dissertation proposal presentation

I finished the first draft of Chapter 1 of my dissertation! 😎🎉

#phdiary #phdblr #grad school

I appreciate my advisor for urging me and having me do "rigorous" math subjects, but I am just so tired of learning esoteric topics... I agree that it will help my career in getting hired in a MATH department and so I still can teach my favorite subject. But, I am tired.

#im taking my last math class for my program #and it is painfully clear that I am tired of learning these things #i have a midterm on wednesday #then a final in 7 weeks #then my candidacy/comprehensive exam is on this subject #and im tired... I DONT WANNA STUDY ANYMORE #let me just do my research in math ed for a bit without worrying about knowing what the riesz representation theorem is #phdiary

Mid-semester/Spring Break Update

This semester has been kind of a whirlwind in terms of dissertation work. I spent pretty much the first month NOT doing any work on it. Distance makes the heart grow fonder type of deal.

I went to a conference on Research in Undergraduate Mathematics Education and it was a good experience to set the stage for me to get back into working on this project.

I decided to present in the Spanish math seminar we have (I am not fluent in Spanish, but the seminar is meant for you to practice talking in Spanish about math). It went okay, anxiety kind of got the better of me and I sped through it all in half the time.

Then, my advisor suggested I start the Dissertation document now just to get the formatting out of the way. This took like an hour to do, because I haven't used Word in forever (I use LaTeX or Docs for my documentation stuff before). It was kind of cathartic to see the document laid out though.

As for right now though, I'm reading A LOT about the things I'm studying and that's the main priority this semester. (Besides also studying for my candidacy/comprehensive exam on Partial Differential Equations and Functional Analysis in May/June)

#that's it for now! again ill try to update this public diary more consistently #but no promises hehe #phd life #phd progress #PhDiary #that's a cute tag ill use phdiary for this updating stuff #phdblr #math education

johanphd2

Starting this tumblr as a public diary for how my dissertation journey goes. This is my final for a Research Methods class, but it also serves as my first draft for my dissertation proposal!

I don't know what other things I'll post on this blog, probably not going to be too ~aesthetic~ just sort of going to have fun :D

johanphd2

I presented this project today for my Methods class! I didn't practice like...at all. But I think it went well, I definitely feel better about talks when I wing it, because I don't have that self-critique of "oh you didn't say it exactly like how we practiced". Tomorrow I present this to the Math Ed Seminar!

johanphd2

Math Ed Seminar went well! I got complimented on my organization and the progress I've made "on my own" since I haven't met with my advisor for 2 weeks about it.

I might post some slides from my presentation that I liked later. But right now, I'm running on that post presentation adrenaline.

johanphd

Here are some of the slides, like I promised. Not gonna explain it.

johanphd

This is so funny because it hasn't been that long... (like less than 6 months) and my entire project has evolved yet again.

#I should do a better job detailing the history and progression #but it's just so busy and idk how to formulate a proper public diary #phdiary

avocadomatcha

FIRST TIME ACADEMY AWARD NOMINEES Michelle Yeoh, Ke Huy Quan and Stephanie Hsu for Everything Everywhere All At Once (2022)

johanphd

There's so much despair and dread in the air... my classmates and I are struggling HARD in this doctoral level PDE course. We have a deadline of finals weeks (basically before Monday the 12th) to turn in 2 more homework (8 problems).

But we were working on ONE problem today, the most approachable one out of the bunch, and still made no dent on the problem, even after 1.5 hours.

johanphd

also finding out that one more person from my cohort is leaving after this academic year... is just kind of not hitting well.

#it just sucks. like grad school doesnt feel so great at the moment.#my cohort started with 12 #and after this year there's going to only be 8 now #we were already a small cohort to begin with cuz its usually 15-16 #but idk... all i know is i better finish because im already knee deep into this research im doing

There's so much despair and dread in the air... my classmates and I are struggling HARD in this doctoral level PDE course. We have a deadline of finals weeks (basically before Monday the 12th) to turn in 2 more homework (8 problems).

But we were working on ONE problem today, the most approachable one out of the bunch, and still made no dent on the problem, even after 1.5 hours.

#no one in the class has made any meaningful progress on them #it just feels so demoralizing because it feels like we've learned nothing when we can't do these problems #but in reality we've learned a lot #we just do not know how to apply it to this problem and how to maneuver the layers #phd life #grad school #I turned in HW 3 like 3 weeks “late”#and i'm the first one to do so because I decided to give up on the last problem for it #this class has taken its toll. i want to be done.

a-study-in-dante

My fatal flaw as a PhD student is being content when I do one (major) thing for the day. Yeah I just wrote down the outline of one (1) chapter. No I won't start writing it today because I already wrote the outline today. Yes I will hate myself tomorrow.

#idk... to me i think one thing a day will still add up to the final product in the end #and even if you dont end up using what you wrote exactly #at least you figured out how to NOT word it #i always appreciate all the tiny things Past Me has done because they help in some non-zero way

johanphd2

Starting this tumblr as a public diary for how my dissertation journey goes. This is my final for a Research Methods class, but it also serves as my first draft for my dissertation proposal!

I don't know what other things I'll post on this blog, probably not going to be too ~aesthetic~ just sort of going to have fun :D

johanphd2

I presented this project today for my Methods class! I didn't practice like...at all. But I think it went well, I definitely feel better about talks when I wing it, because I don't have that self-critique of "oh you didn't say it exactly like how we practiced". Tomorrow I present this to the Math Ed Seminar!

johanphd2

Math Ed Seminar went well! I got complimented on my organization and the progress I've made "on my own" since I haven't met with my advisor for 2 weeks about it.

I might post some slides from my presentation that I liked later. But right now, I'm running on that post presentation adrenaline.

johanphd

Here are some of the slides, like I promised. Not gonna explain it.

#okay so I made a new blog #with the same URL and the original is johanphd2 #it's such a roundabout way #you cant make a sideblog a main blog #you have to jump thru so many hoops #phd life

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