so this isn't a post i ever thought i'd have to write and it's hard but please stick with me because i have an important point here
i just lost my partner, my fiance. she passed away and i was pretty sure something was wrong but we've been long distance and even though we had a conversation about sharing numbers for people in our lives in case something happened.... i didn't follow up about that. i should have. because i wasn't able to call the people who lived with her and say 'please go check on her, i think something's wrong'
and with my anxiety, i'm used to thinking something is wrong and making excuses for why i'm overreacting.
anyway. i had to call the local sheriff and request a wellness check.
so that's my point here. if there are people that aren't nearby to you that you care about - GET BACK UP CONTACTS FOR PEOPLE THAT ARE CLOSE TO THEM. maybe things would be different, maybe not, but it would have been good to call someone thursday and say 'can you go check on her' rather than wait until friday when a deputy finally went out and checked and be told by a stranger that my partner was gone (and only told once i'd convinced him i was relevant for the info.)
also i have a very long queue that might have tags about her/us/situations/plans/etc and i'm not going to go in and look at any of that stuff or alter it. i guess i'll pin this for now and repost.
